#tw health stuff

[raustenacious]

God it's not like I didn't know it was coming,

So a few months back mum was at the doc and he wrote lipedema in her chart so she started researching it a lot and shit. And she got formally diagnosed with it maybe in February? And we'd started to suspect I have it too cus of some changes and the way I experience some pain and some other symptoms. And then I finally got to see the doctor yesterday and he said I do have it but it's only stage one so really all I can do is try to stop it from going further and I'm insulin resistant so I could get type 2 diabetes later on and other health shit and it's kinda rough cus it was also in my side which I didn't think it was at all (hadnt considered it) and it's a lot to have it confirmed

[sleeplesslark]

Health stuff

My left index finger has been hurting and stiff for a few days on end after some minimal typing. Really hoping I don't eventually lose the ability to type at all.

I think it's carpal tunnel cuz I can feel it up my arm and the back of my palm feels like static sometimes. I don't know how to fix it. Doctor said rest the hand but resting just seems to make it worse when I go back to type anything. I'm using an ergonomic keyboard now too.

It might also be over use. With so many keys missing kff the computers keyboard I probably typed too hard a lot.

Is this just going to fade over time? I dont know why the pain isnt going away after like, two days of no typing. Am I fucked? Is my ability to type on a timer now? The doctor wasn't helpful and thus is probably nothing but I'm really nervous it is. I don't want to have to stop writing.

[celenawrites]

not me getting sick and then getting another nosebleed

[angered-box]

yippeee love trying to take my medication and drinking the water a little too quickly that it caused a really bad pain in my chest, causing me to feel really really heavy and as I was going to mention it to my step-dad my hearing became muffled as I was speaking and then I fainted, fun times!

[devotionbled]

Tw for medical and pregnancy stuff. I’m still going through it and it’s making my focus for writing hard. And I found out some pretty funky news tonight. I know I shouldn’t have to explain myself but… I just want to vent.

I’ve been bleeding heavily for a good two weeks. Had another ultrasound tonight, one I was asking for. They saw the second twin when they said to me WEEKS ago it was clearly a singleton pregnancy. Second baby was hiding. They’re both dying. I’m being induced on Friday which is too late if you ask me. I’ve been working through the pain when I shouldn’t have. I’ve been going to hospital at night and between work, begging for help. I was turned away each time.

It’s impressive how… one person can go through a lot and you never know. My clients wouldn’t have known any different. Between all of this, I’ve been working my two jobs, trying to be a parent, despite how much it killed me.

I feel so weak and I’ve been trying so hard to stay strong. My partner has been in a terrible position trying to care for me. It’s hard to do that when you’re still grieving the situation that is exactly the same, that happened in April.

I am tired. He’s tired. My body is just shattered. I may be into my 20’s, but my body still is suffering from my first pregnancy that I had when I was 15. That’s why I’m having difficulties, now, I think.

I’m really not well. So I am going to take my time with things.

[endlessmidnights]

I hate when people say suicide is the easy way out, they have no idea the pain you must be in to want to end your own life

[ailurophilerebeccaexists]

Once I learn how to stop being me it’s over for y’all

[themindofmine]

I feel like I’m already dead but I have to keep on living

[iwillnotseeheaven]

[idnwtdta]

I literally feel dead in a living body

[celenawrites]

might not attend classes cuz I'm actually in a lot of pain rn.

[3m0g1rlyyy]

Sometimes i look at my $elfharm scars and think “Damn it wasn’t even that deep”

[saduboiss]

I can’t take this anymore. I just want to be a normal person with normal emotions, but I’m not. I’m fucking crazy with emotions so intense it makes you feel like you’re about to explode and shatter into a million fucking pieces.

[maarlena]

Idk if thats a bpd or a me thing

[ailurophilerebeccaexists]

Touched starved and touch repulsed

[fucklife101]

I don’t know how many “just make it through today”s I’ve got left.