#tw ed treatment

[iwatcheditbegin]

so many treatment centers are too profit driven and don’t care that many of the quick methods they use cause immense harm.

Nobody even believes me when I say I’m worse bc I look fine and eat. But I’m genuinely scared of people now.

[all-i-do-is-try1]

It’s honestly so questionable to make folks in ED treatment do fasting for blood draws like okay. You do this then send me packing or red card me when I remember how much I love this feeling. Weirdos

[gardenerian]

wahoooo waheeeee! tagged by @catgrassplantdad @heymrspatel @mybrainismelted @celestialmickey and @energievie for a lil tag game! woooheeee!

name: mel

do you drink coffee? no! it's icky! boooo!

what’s the best thing you ate today? lads i'll be honest it was. a cosmic brownie 😐

tell us about your first pet (or if you haven’t had a pet yet, what’s your dream pet?) pour one out for squeaky the hamster 🐹 my brother begged for a hamster and then got Bored after like two weeks so then i had a hamster, he was a cutie

if your life was a book, what would you call the current chapter? something pretentious about sisyphus, i think asldkfh actually maybe that would literally be it

what’s something you did recently that you’re proud of? cosmic brownie 🪐✨👽

what was your first dream job growing up? is it anything like the job you have now? i wanted to be a backup dancer for ricky martin at one point. there is video. i am....... Not That today.

what’s the name of the latest playlist you made? well this is very boring. it's "august 2024" bc i make a new one every month 😂

i am sick and fevery so this is the best i got 😴 tagging you reading this right now! do it! 😇 i love you!

[dietpillsanddietcoke]

Fat

You’d get fat too,

If your girlhood was spent

Being told how worthy your body was

Because of its thinness.

You’d get fat too,

If your teenage years were spent

Being abused and devalued

And told your worth reveled

In the joy of a lower number--

In the meaning of a measuring tape

Placed limply on your waste…

And the pure relief of those pants 

In that size

Finally fitting your disappearing frame.

You’d get fat too

If the only way to stop

The catcalls and harassment

Was to gorge yourself with food

And become uglier every day.

But the catcalls don’t stop.

The abusers still abuse.

The men still gawk.

Now I’ve fat.

And still terrified.

Fat.

And self loathing.

Fat.

When I want nothing more

Than to disappear…

[phocids]

absolutely cannot relate to people talking about how much weight they gained in college. as soon as I don't have anyone keeping me accountable I am not eating full mealsl

[the-singular-peep]

telling my treatment friends to watch inside out bc it perfectly encapsulates what the renfrew center taught us when we were there (definitely not because it’s my special interest and I want everyone to see it)

[person-mj]

yooo actually wtf they’re so stupid for letting me go. like i will lose so much weight and i’ll be smaller than before and it will be great. and i’m not fucking coming back to inpatient even if they tell me i have to. fuck that

[anoreaxoc]

I fucking hate how they treat you differently in Ed treatment when your not underweight anymore I spend my whole life struggling hurting myself starving myself because I thought I deserved it then after I spend months in hospital to get to a normal weight I felt even worse i now went to a clinic where there wasn't a other eating disorderd person the professionals helped me but as soon as a underweight girl came too they stopped caring about me stopped looking at how much I ate my therapy session became less and it just felt like I was invisible like I feel so worthless she triggers the fuck Out off me seeing how they care about her but every time I tell them something like I purged or didn't finished my meal they always say "bad but I don't have time for you right now I have to look for xy" like everything is about her and they even gave me my Discharge date because they dont have enough time to look after me i feel so invalid its insane just because im now in a healthy weight doesn't mean my Ed is better I disgust myself every time I see my body I want to throw up and the way I have to always say I was underweight a few months ago makes me feel like a fucking pig because otherwise they won't even take me seriously it hurts so bad

[loserwitchkid]

people who put their diet/calorie counting/pro-4n4 content in the ED Recovery tag...

wtf is wrong with you???

[yippie-madness]

i hate posts like this, yes they can wait till you get tubed

[iwatcheditbegin]

The way treatment centers and even some therapists often make you write papers to your illness is very odd.

[all-i-do-is-try1]

I’m so sick of people acting like I should be thankful for being FORCED into treatment and saying I seem “ much better”.

I’m not. nothing about me is better. I’m literally just eating and too traumatized by treatment that I don’t cry constantly anymore. I’m worse. You’re going by how it looks ( which I’ve had to fake ) not how it feels

[drowfag]

eating is a chore i force myself to do because i want my hair to grow back. it doesn't make it any less unpleasant, particularly when no food is remotely appetizing. this is not about weight and i don't think it ever was. i don't care if i'm fat anymore, i just don't want to eat.

[anxiously-avoiding]

Ed treatment centers: “one size fits all” is a very bad philosophy and should not exist. We don’t believe in that.

Also Ed treatment centers: our program is designed for textbook anorexia and bulimia and literally nothing else. We can’t make accommodations when the program doesn’t fit your needs. No we’ve never heard of ARFID

Me: …have you heard of hypocrisy?

[megandzane]

Honestly I don’t know how I’m ever gonna recover from this Eating disorder hell with a family who shames me whenever I’m struggling AND shames me when I let myself enjoy food.

[idkmehhhhh]

My dietitian wants me to go back to php so I'm going to stop services all together lol, this is what I get for actally being honest.