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*deep breath*
IF ALL TRANS PEOPLE WANTED TO DO WAS ABUSE YOUR CHILDREN THEY WOULD SIMPLY BECOME PRIESTS OR BOY SCOUT LEADERS OR COPS OR JUST NOT OPENLY IDENTIFY AS TRANS.
IF THEY WERE "JUST MEN THAT WANTED TO INVADE WOMEN'S SPACES," THEY COULD DO THAT AS REGULAR HETEROSEXUAL MEN.
YOUR PATHETIC TRANSPHOBIC RHETORIC HAS INFLAMED THE PUBLIC AGAINST AN OBVIOUS SCAPEGOAT AND IT DOES NOT MAKE ANY SENSE TO CALL YOURSELF TRANS OPENLY IF YOUR ONLY INTENTION IS TO MOLEST CHILDREN BECAUSE THAT KIND OF ACTIVITY HAS BEEN CONDONED BY STRAIGHT CIS MEN FROM TIME IMMEMORIAL. WHY MAKE THINGS MUCH HARDER FOR YOURSELF IN LITERALLY EVERY WAY IF THAT WAS YOUR SOLE GOAL???
why does this not make sense to these braindead dumbasses?
Anyway.
Carry on.
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mha (lov) x shio (hsl) crossover
tw// grooming
I think a lot about how tomura and the lov would react to certain behaviors Shio would exhibit due to being gr00med. And I just feel sick to my stomach, like throwing up, but also sad. I think of the things Satou has normalized for Shio and so forth and the way Shio acts because of that. And the lov and tomura slowly realizing it.
Thinking of them realizing the relationship between Shio and Satou. And then, Shio being eventually explained to that she was gr00med and just.. sad. Her reaction might depend on when in hsl story the lov are telling her this, but I feel like she overall would get upset and deny it (especially after the events of hsl). My brain is just thinking of her saying all the things like how Satou was nothing like her family or anyone. She was warm. She loved Shio, and Shio loved her, and how they could possibly never understand. And Tomura’s just there (this taking place later in mha’s story) and all he can think about is AFO and how he felt with him. He was a father figure. He was warmth, a ‘helping hand’ when everyone walked by him. He loved afo… and he thought AFO loved him back. But he was justing using and abusing him. He was gr00med. And he’s just thinking of it all through Shio’s words. He obviously can’t understand the differences in how they were groomed (tomura was groomed into a weapon, shio was romantically groomed), but he can understand the pain and how badly she, and how badly he at the time, couldn’t bear the thought that he was being abused. That the one person who he loved and thought loved him, would hurt him so much.
#happy sugar life#tw happy sugar life#shio koube#tw satou matsuzaka#mha#bnha#my hero academia#boku no hero academia#lov#tomura shigaraki#shigaraki tomura#au#crossover#tw#tw abuse#tw child abuse#tw grooming#tw child grooming#comfort au
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Yandere Dev: There's a set definition of grooming and this doesn't fit in with that at all!!!!
Also Yandere Dev: *fits in with all three definitions of child grooming in psychology*
#lock him up#fuck yandere dev#anti yandere dev#his ''nature sexualises children'' statement will never leave my mind it's fucking nauseating#tw grooming#tw child grooming#tw swearing#tw cursing#anti yandere simulator#yandere dev#yandere simulator#fuck yandere simulator#the source I've put is a 2006 article by craven et al about grooming which includes the three definitions
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POSSIBLY TRIGGERING CONTENT AHEAD. YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED.
And I am the idiot with the painted face
In the corner, taking up space
But when he walks in, I am loved
I am loved...?
Once more, I cannot stress enough that this depiction is not meant to be perceived in a positive light whatsoever - despite the drawing being referenced from a painting typically associated with romance.
The intention was to convey how in that particular scenario, Hunter's perception of reality and his relationship with Belos is warped from his inner turmoils resulting both from that unhealthy infatuation as well as the abuse he endured.
As he's desperate for any positive emotional stimuli, he clings onto what little vulnerability and intimacy Belos offers him - glamorizing it in his brain and treating it as evidence that Belos isn't actually horrible, without realising that they are a form of abuse too, designed to keep him loyal and in line.
And almost last but not least, I am still not a licensed professional in psychology. All my knowledge on abuse comes from personal and thus to some degree subjective observation of both fiction and reality, you know the drill.
Image Description : A painting of Belos and Hunter from The Owl House, morbidly referencing the painting "The Kiss" by Gustav Klimt. Much like the original painting, it is colored mostly in yellows, oranges and warm browns.
To the right, Hunter is shown wearing his Golden Guard uniform, his white cape adorned with patterns consisting of orange dots and brown vines shaped into spirals. He looks off to the side with an expression of both exhaustion and bitter fulfillment at the same time, as he's slightly smiling. His left hand is gently laid over Belos' hand and wrist, which is holding him by the chin in what he believes to be an affectionate gesture.
To the left stands an alternate version of Belos that does not exist in canon, as he appears significantly younger with brown hair, with his blemishes being colored blue : referencing his initial storyboard version.
He is wearing a black robe with a white cape and brown pauldrons over it, resembling the clothes he was first shown in. The cape is adorned with rectangular orange, white and brown patterns, momentarily covered up with circular cross-hatching : also brown colored.
Despite holding Hunter's face by his chin and by the back of his head in what appears to be a tender and intimate gesture, he stares down at Hunter with a neutral expression that borders on being resentful : to which Hunter is oblivious. His left eye, which is obscured by the shadows, emits a slight blue glow.
The background meanwhile is painted over with light brown colored spirals, waves and yellow dots that are overlaid on top of a yellow and golden background. The patterns form no specific shape. End description.
#tw abuse mention#tw trauma talk#tw child grooming#toh#the owl house#alt belos#toh hunter#empgold#Once again the tag is here so that people may filter this post out easier for their own comfort.#I do not actually ship them in any way shape or form.#rhineart
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not me accidentally finding pedopony's old tumblr blog and seeing a bunch of anti feminist posts on there lollllllll
#mandopony's like a jumpscare#I was looking for nate stuff gtfo#of course he doesn't give two fucks about women's movements. how else will he be able to creep on teenage girls#tw pedophila mention#tw child grooming
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// YouTuber apologies are so funny. //
Interpretive dance for SA accusations.
NOW the most MILLENNIAL FUCKING APOLOGY. Pulled out a god damn ukulele and sang a song. Bitch yur a creep and child groomer 😭😭😭
Like you're a 30+ fucking year old woman accused with accused of grooming children. You have CHILDREN. she's digusting lol.
"I messaged my fans and overshared" bitch u asked a minor for butt pictures.
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Also edit: makin it clear, yeah ima be more wordy and use of words bc its a fictional character and a character i like? Her and shio arent real, and can therefore be used for commentary and retrospective shi. Idk if that makes sense. Maybe my ocd just going haywire 😭
Hot take maybe? BUT IM SO TIRED OF PEOPLE CALLING SATOU A P*DOPHILE. She’s not. She’s a child groomer. She romantically groomed a child. There’s a difference. And don’t let the word change make you think that she’s “not as bad” because I know word changes like that are often used to by p words to make themself look less bad to the public. She’s still a terrible person. She still groomed and abused a child. But I feel like the idea that she’s a p*dophile is such a huge misunderstanding of her character. Satou is a SURVIVOR of SA and p*dophilia. Not to mention shows no s*xual interest in Shio (and more against it), which is the basis of the p word. Satou is disgusted by s*x due to her trauma. And she wants to keep Shio happy and “innocent.” And while that doesn’t stop her from other actions (like the marriage vows or kissing), hence romantic grooming. And she’s still a terrible person. She’s not a p word. And I think its important to understand her character because Satou in the end is a story of how victims of abuse can become abusers themselves. She’s a “cautionary tale.” And it’s important to understand how she got there. And I feel like labeling her as ‘bad p word’ and just leaving it there is such a untrue and surface look at her character. Satou is not “just a big bad evil” and she’s not a misunderstood hero. She is a terrible person with terrible actions, but her emotions and intentions are real and pure. Her trauma is real. And the way it has effected her has warped her perception in life. I? Idk im rambling. No clue if i made any sense to anyone
#happy sugar life tw#tw happy sugar life#happy sugar life analysis#tw satou matsuzaka#satou matsuzaka#tw pedophila mention#tw child abuse#tw child grooming
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TW: discussions of child sexual abuse
I had to report (not to the FBI because of several reasons, but like people who get accounts taken down for predatory behavior) somebody who is almost certainly a child putting themselves in danger. When they saw this they apparently ‘wanted to be preyed upon’ (more or less), and now I don’t know how to feel. Because the account definitely needs to be taken down, predators should not have easy access to this child; I also understand that to them is feels like internet harassment (and they probably have unfortunately gotten hate which is fucked up) and this could potentially push them further into this.
so….yeah. I Guess I just want to , I dunno, ask for advice? Sorta
The only thing I am able to say is to report their account and any content on their account alluding to being prayed upon or pursued by adults. Unfortunately this is an extremely common thing in many communities, specifically the radqueer community but there isn't much we can do to actually get rid of the accounts. You could attempt to contact the person and talk them out of this type of behaviour but usually they don't listen. It's messed up that people would harass a minor but yeah.
If anyone else has any other advice, feel free to comment or reblog with it!
#anti radqueer#antiradqueer#anti radpara#anti proship#anti contact#antiradpara#tw child predator#tw child grooming#tw pedophila mention#stay safe
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So, you know that guy Squimpus McGrimpus, who made the FNAF VHS stuff?
Yeah he's a child groomer
Yeah he admitted to it too.
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So is the implication from that headcanon is that Belos sexually a*saulted Hunter? If yes, why did he do it? Is it like a chain of harm thing, like he himself was abused as a child, or was it just to be a prick?
The short answer would be yes, but the long version is a bit more complex than that.
More in-depth, but possibly triggering answer, below the cut
Okay, so. I'll begin with a disclaimer again.
The Belos pictured above is not canon Belos, and never was supposed to be. He exists solely as a device to explore an alternative scenario that would not make sense for canon Belos, as well as the weight behind it.
The main difference between this Belos and the canon one, is that he does not perceive Hunter as his nephew - to him, he was simply the boy he made specifically for being available at the snap of a finger. The abuse depicted in canon was clearly based on familial bonds, so I wanted to stray from that.
Disclaimer over.
So. Let's begin with Hunter.
While he is certainly a victim, assault isn't exactly the word I'd use to describe the specific type of sexual abuse he had gone through. To me, assault always implied something sudden, violent and unwanted from the get go - you know it's wrong from the start.
And that's precisely the opposite of Hunter's situation as depicted in the fic.
He's what I like to call an Unsympathetic Victim - the kind that most people doubt when they describe their story, the kind that doesn't fit into the convenient, tasteful or sometimes fetishized box of what being a victim means. Sucks, but unfortunately, it still happens everywhere. Those people, though their experiences and feelings are viewed unsavory or even sometimes disgusting by society, are still just as valid as those approved by it. Trauma isn’t a fucking measuring contest, and that’s that.
As for what that exactly entails...
Hunter, due to being isolated from peers and other adults, ended up developing an unhealthy infatuation with Belos, which resulted both from him being the only "good" adult in his life, as well as intrusive thoughts based in his already existing trauma, on top of teenage hormonal changes. Of course, he had no idea that it was wrong. He had no reference points whatsoever on what was right and wrong.
At some point he had admitted to those feelings and normal for his age desires - which, unfortunately to him, Belos decided to entertain. I won't go too much into detail, but eventually, Belos and Hunter's already awful relationship ended up gaining a sexual layer to it.
Here is where the "unsympathetic" part starts :
Due to his lack of proper education and severe emotional manipulation from Belos, Hunter never considered himself a victim. Right up until he started watching that movie with Luz, he thought it was perfectly normal for a teenager and an adult to be in a sexual relationship. Of course, for him the adult in question turned out to be a genocidal maniac and narcissist, but he never hated those more intimate parts. If anything, he was always happy to participate as he did enjoy it, as ugly as it may sound.
Of course, his logic skips on the parts where Belos guilt-tripped consent out of him, or that he was afraid of the disappointment that would follow after openly saying no, which as we know resulted in physical abuse in canon. All he knew was that he trusted Belos and that the act itself was physically pleasurable for both of them, so it couldn't have actually been something wrong. That it couldn't have been abuse as well.
That is, again, right up until he was proven otherwise by Luz, to which he reacted with brief panic then shutting down. Not only was that last illusion of normalcy taken away from him, now he believes it was his fault for having those thoughts to begin with. If there was one thing Belos taught him well, it was the art of self-victim blaming.
But in shorter words...
No. Technically speaking Hunter was not assaulted - rather, he was groomed and coerced, and mayhaps gaslit. While those two situations are both sexual abuse, they are two different kinds of it and that kind of distinction is important.
Now, as for Belos...
I personally do not like writing him with a "chain of harm" trope, as likely as it might've been, because I feel like it defeats the point of him consciously making the decision to do the wrong thing for over 400 years.
However, reducing it to him just "being a prick" misses the point as well.
Canon Belos first and foremost, wanted to have complete and utter authority and control over Hunter, while also demanding devotion, adoration and loyalty from him - which applies to This version of Belos as well.
So, when Hunter ended up coming forward with his intrusive thoughts and desires, to Belos it was an opportunity for two things :
Truly becoming Hunter's number one everything - further preventing him from finding someone else to possibly prioritize over him, which is why in canon he detested the sight of Flapjack so much, on top of him being Caleb's/Evelyn's palisman. Anyone from the outside of his influence was a threat to his control over Hunter. So, with him being Hunter's God, mentor, caretaker, superior and then """lover""", he was This close to stopping the redemption arc from happening. Alas, Flapjack and Luz still came around.
Satisfying physical urges without having to look too far, and without the risk of landing with someone who could stab him in the back. Hunter just so happened to be the perfect fit : willing, obedient, not ugly and always available. Sometimes, that's all there is to it with abusers.
In shorter words, again :
It was more about asserting his control and blowing off steam while at it, not just being an asshole.
Again, I cannot stress enough that this headcanon/interpretation/whatever is NOT meant to be in any way titillating or romanticizing sexual abuse. It is, first and foremost, a character study that’s based and inspired both by personal experiences and observations of both fiction and real life - in hopes of partially bringing light to often overlooked or stigmatized effects and types of trauma. In case you were wondering, no I am still not a therapist or any other kind of licensed professional, so do Not take my word as 100% credible and without fault as I am only human. That will be all for now.
#tw trauma talk#tw csa mention#tw child grooming#toh#the owl house#rhine rambling tag#storyboard belos#toh hunter#alt belos#I should probably get a different tag for this guy so people can filter him out easier if there's a need for that.#empgold#??? is that the right tag??? I dont' ACTUALLY ship them in any way shape or form.#I really don't want people to get the wrong idea. I swear to God I don't view the dynamic like That.#On another note#To the people who had similar experience/s like described above...#I see you. You're not disgusting for that and you didn't deserve it just as much as every other victim/survivor out there. You're not alone
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Y'all check out what I found on Etsy
#tw child grooming#colleen apology#colleen ballinger#toxic gossip train#youtube#youtube apology#youtube drama#etsy#etsyseller#ukulele#ukelele apologies#ukulele apology#miranda sings#lmfao bye
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Wait wait HES A CHILD GROOMER? I knew about some of the frankly crazy and dangerous stuff he’s done to people but not that. I pirated the movie but if I knew he fell into that category of try evil I wouldn’t even be acknowledging this movie
legally no. ezra miller has never been indicted for child grooming, however the parents of tokota iron eyes have filed for a protective order on their child's behalf. a judge signed off on it but it was never enforced because both of their whereabouts were, at the time, unknown. idk if there's been any significant changes since then but overall....not a good look. here's an article by the vulture w/ a general timeline if u want to know more.
#like sorry but this isn't really a new story....#.asks#tw child grooming#hopefully that tag covers it let me know if it doesn't
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I can't even get away from it in south park :(
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I don't understand, not one bit
I lie beneath you, whimpering with fear
Yet desire you to just take me already, bit by bit
And I cry more as you come near
I don't understand why I feel this way
Wishing you to not touch me or hurt me
But wanting you to slide in as I cry and lay
And say, "Daddy's here" like a dad should be
I don't understand as to the sexualization
I feel gross at myself, wish to isolate
But want you to pull me back, a realization
That maybe it's different, that I want it, don't have to dissociate
I don't understand why I miss the monsters
But I don't! I really don't! Go away!
Yet I think of you having me with a misinterpreted smile and saunter
And you keeping me "safe" all day, everyday
I really don't understand my feelings
Hold me, let me sob, and kiss me like a daddy
Say I'm safe as my tears slip and I stare at the ceiling
Then be gentle, slow movements, I'm your baby
I don't understand what they thought
Taking advantage of little me, no childhood
Now I'm forever tainted, all lessons taught
And everything feels so gross, even food
I don't understand why I think like this
Why I fantasize about it happening again
But this time you're gentle and I feel some bliss
You give a choice unlike the other men
I don't understand what I squirm to
Fantasizing a rape of vulnerable me
Screaming into your hand, blood leaking too
And my virgin blood coats my legs like a sea
I don't understand why I try to relive it
I don't want to torture myself but I'm broken
Hold me, daddy, please, I might throw a fit
So take my trauma and treat it, I'm open
I don't understand why I ruin all good things
And rush to you when I know pain is coming
I don't care if my ass if spanked with hard rings
But it hurts when you slide in when my mind is a child, sweet and unwelcoming
I don't understand what I think
I want it back, I want my fucking innocence
So please hold me, hands in a link
And never rape me despite my protest, vulnerability and sickness
I don't understand or know, but please, I beg
Just hold me and ask me what's wrong
Let me cry and don't touch me grossly, a beg
Let me be a kid for a while more, sing a song
I don't understand why I ache down there
When I am in no state for adult stuff
And I crave to be a little one, fragile here
Yet craving for that abuse and the rough
I don't understand, I don't want to bleed
I want to be loved without the sex
And I most certainly don't want a sticky seed
That plants and grows to just vex
I don't understand why I cry and whine
When I think this, I am so sick
I want freedom, but I'm a prize, your "mine"
And I shudder with frozen disgust with a lick
I don't understand, let me go, I don't want this
Please just cuddle me without your lust
No hard tools or lies or a naughty kiss
Don't rape me even if I cry and ask if you must
#poetry#sad boy#tw sex abuse#tw sexualization of minors#tw sexulization#tw selfhate#tw self destructive thoughts#tw self loathing#tw rap3#tw molestation#tw abuse#tw trama#tw trauma#tw triggers#tw childhood abuse#tw child grooming#repressed feelings#avoiding feelings#sad poem#disgusting#ptsd poetry#ptsd poem#complex ptsd#ptsd recovery#ptsd things#sexualization#wanting a different outcome#hoping#i hope this makes sense#i have daddy issues
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⚠️⚠️⚠️TW: PHYSICAL ABUSE. SEXUAL ABUSE. HARASSMENT. BULLYING. ALCOHOLISM. SUICIDE. DEPRESSION. SELF HARM. MANIPULATION. TOXIC BEHAVIOR. KNIFES. CHILD ABUSE. AND MANY OTHER. VIEWER DISCRETION ADVISED ⚠️⚠️⚠️
It's fun looking back and remembering old characters, you can read exactly how I felt and what i was thinking about.
This boy is a really only character, i callem him "Geraldo" in Portuguese, "Gerald" in English. He is my biggest regret and my biggest achievement.
I made him with the intention to see how far I could go, my reaching point of what's ethically ok to do, and what's not
Of course i learned a lot with him, i related to his sadness back then. But now i see I've doomed him from the start, and i can never forgive me for that.
He lost his mom in an early age, in a car accident. She entered a coma, while him and his dad suffered light injuries. His dad blamed him, and eventually he blamed himself too.
With Time, the grieve took a hard tool on his dad. He became very irritable and started to hit Gerald, taking his anger on him. Gerald couldn't do anything, and started to copy the irritable manner of his dad on school.
He'd often get in trouble, and in house he would get spanked. It kept that way for a while, his dad getting more and more abusive, berating Gerald for every little thing, and starting to drink too.
One day, when Gerald was 7, his dad had some friends over. Drinking and laughing, they were also used to abuse Gerald. He hated those guys, and wasn't afraid of showing it.
The game they must liked to do with Gerald was force him to drink excessive, and force him to do random things. Like read a book (he didn't knew how to read well), pour water, pile things up.
He'd fail most of times, or get hurt. And would only get laughed at. They did that until he was phisicaly incapable of getting up, or throw up all over himself.
The things changed when one time, one of his dad new friend made an offer. He offered money to have a night of "fun" with Gerald. Enough money for the father not only to consider, but accept and offer their basement to him.
They hammered Gerald, took him down the basement, tied him up.. and the guy had his fun.
After that, it became an usual thing. People would offer money, he would accept, and Gerald would get abused. It was the most traumatic thing he has ever suffered, but it wasn't the end sadly
Felling even more powerless than before, and in fear of worse things, his behave shifted on school. He became much more silent, almost didn't talked, and would sit alone most of the time. The other kids make a great notice of this, and decided to give back the bullying he'd made, back to him
He got bullied hard, getting trowed around at school, get his things stolen, get called names, tumors being spread, even getting beaten some times
He didn't saw anything good in life, and at age of 9, he decided to take his life out.
After a his dad friends went away, he went to the kitchen. Took a knife, and held it close to his chest, ready to stab himself on the throat
His dad looked at him, scoffed and reminded that, if his mom ever woke up from the coma, she would be so disappointed to know her only son took his life.
Gerald wanted to end his life, he hated everything about it and didn't wished to be alive anymore. But thinking about his mom gave him a glimmer of hope he hadn't felt in a long time..
Maybe, if she woke up and see what his dad is doing to him, she could help. She was so sweet, always read Gerald his favorite stories before sleep, and prepared the most delicious sweets. She could be his salvation, he didn't wanted to bring her sadness.
He didn't killed himself that night, but that wasn't the last attempt
It kept that way for a long time, his dad charging more and more as Gerald grow up. In highschool, the bullying didn't stopped, but with time he became numb to it
Distancing himself, disconnecting from the real world and just lose the sense of his body, as a way to avoid his current situation. He was losing himself, and ironically enough, he started to drink like his dad too.
He'd steak his dad drink, bring it to school and just drink trought the day. It didn't bought him any joy, and he even got caught some times, but he couldn't stop. He needed that, and even found some kids that talked to him and drank with him.
It werent real connections, not even good people, they just liked the sense of wronging and someone they could trash on, but Gerald didn't had any other connections, so he stayed with them
One time his so called friends decided to go out to drink, and trash on some houses and cars. They made Gerald steal his dad alcohol, and bring it to them, in a private area that wasn't supposed to be crossed. And Gerald did it, he did and they drank the night out
His friends didn't got too hammered, of course. But when they couldn't drink anymore, they made Gerald drink the whole rest of it, with the excuse of "not leaving any proof"
He did so, and couldn't even talk right afterwards. The friends laughed at him, until they heard someone coming. Of course they ran away and left Gerald in that horrible state.
The person who came was a girl from Gerald school, she was the class orienteer and the teacher pet of the class. Always getting the best grades, and loved and liked by everyone, even with her snarky personality.
She came to check what was the fuss about, the property was her house backyard, so she came to check when she heard weird noises.
She immediatly recognized Gerald, and started to berate and saying she would call the police before realizing the pitiful state he's in.
She took a moment to think, sighed and helped Gerald get up. He was as limp as a doll, and it was a great effort to get him into her house, but she eventually got it. There, she helped him take all the alcohol out of body (by vomiting) and gave him something warm to eat
She berate him, but much more lightly. Said how those people aren't good for him, and he should to better if he wants a decent future. He just began to cry, bawl his eyes out
He told her everything, not leaving a single thing out, finally letting out everything he had kept to himself for years. And she heard him.
When he finished crying and talking, they stayed silent for s bit.
She then stated "I'll be your new friend, you need new ones. I'll be your first one"
Gerald didn't really understood and thought the was joking. But she kept her word and started to walk with him on school.
Helped him combat with his grades (even tho it didn't changed much, he appreciated the intension), she made sure he didn't had alcohol with him on school, And even walked with him home.
That was one of the first time he felt loved, truly wanted. Thinking about her made his heart race, and he realized. He was in love
Seeing her was one of the only times he felt good, he felt happy. He got addicted to that felling, and wouldn't leave her side.
Well, she had other friends, and with time the necessity and dependency he developed on her started to affect her private life, and she tried to put an end to it
She talked to him, stated he was way to pushy, and go back off a bit.. and he didn't took that well. He did backed off, but also started to avoid her actively
On the start she appreciated the alone time, and focused on getting with her old friends and studying. But with time she started to get regretful.
Seeing him being again victim of bullying, and remembering everything he told her that first night, same as what she told him. She regretted, and decided to talk to him again
She chased him day after day, trying to get a hold of him, either he runned away, or just looked very frighten by her
With Time, she gave up. If he didn't wanted to talk to him, then she wouldn't disturb him anymore, but made sure to tell him that, if he ever wanted to talk again, she was free
They did talked again, a week before the highschool Graduation. He looked very happy, and talked a lot. They caught up the last times, she apologized and he did aswell. Even gave her a present, a small little necklace with a horse on it (her favorite animal).
She was so happy he started to talk to her again, they kept on contact till the day before the graduation. She was excited, and he was excited too, they promised to each other to meet up on the graduation, and so they parted ways
The next day, she met Gerald, he had a bag with him and said he needed to do something before the graduation. She told him to not take long, and so he went
The graduation time came, and Gerald was nowhere to be seen. The graduation ended, and she went after him. Searching everywhere
In the back of the school, in a tree, she found Gerald. He had hanged himself there, his limp body moving with the light wind, the bag open under his feet now empty.
She screamed, cried, and blamed herself. She took a long time to get over his death.. but she made peace with herself
He had left a letter, telling his history and why he did that. And what he whished to happen. He told his side crush, how he felt, how she made him fell. And what he whished her to a good life, full of well deserved happiness
She kept the necklace, always wearing it everywhere. And living a happy life with a husband. Even if her friend isn't there anymore, if he could see her, she want him to be proud
And that's the end of his history. With his death
I think he was a important part of my structure as a creator, test how trauma works and ways to cope with it, but that's doesn't mean I'm completely proud of it
I hope with this, some can see that it's ok to make mistakes when creating. Not everything need to be perfect, And flaws are there for a reason. Still, there need to be a limit, and to know that limit you first have to cross it.
None of the things i described here are ok, most aren't even legal in most of places. I am aware of it now, but i can't let go of him
That's it, thank you all
Take care
#tw knife#tw abuse#tw toxic behavior#tw toxic friendship#tw toxic parents#tw blo0d#tw sui attempt#tw sui cide#tw manipulation#tw alcohol#tw alcoholism#tw child grooming#tw child trauma#tw child abuse#tw sex abuse#tw harassment#tw depression#tw dead body#tw physical abuse#long post#character#backstory
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If you followed me without realizing I hate fucking terfs, this is a reminder to unfollow me, because I hate terfs.
This is not a terf friendly space. This is not a radfem man hating space either.
I'm nonbinary and a little trans, and I fucking despise transphobes, whether they're conservatives who think trans people are child groomers or radical feminists who pretend they're progressive but all they actually do is continue to perpetuate the patriarchal ideals of womanhood.
You're so fucking stupid. Stay the hell away from me.
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