#trying to FIGURE IT OUT

[lemmielem]

Some Cardi doodz

[srslylini]

well OH I just realized what they meant with the last episodes title

it did occur to me that they are repeating season 1 in parallels, e.g the first act of season 1 ends similar to the first act of season 2, with Vi being the one left alone on the ground again.

it continues with us not seeing Vi until the second episode of both act twos in both season and so forth just think about it

no I actually like this this is good

anyways there is a pattern as they said

[flame-cat]

investigating

[jounosparticles]

need jouno and tecchou age reveal Please

[mooshymooshroom]

Im getting so tired of either feeling waaayyy too much or nothing at all.

[swan2swan]

sniff snoff sniff snoff sniff snoff sniff snoff

[clits-and-clips]

Spiralling AGAIN would you believe it

[amandarayyy]

On day 3 of my new nighttime ritual, I’m hoping I can stick to this. This year we are thriving, we are growing, we are seeking love within ourselves, we are doing lots of self care and making a plan to get outtttt of the toxic environment. If anyone else is starting new rituals and needs a buddy to stay on top of you, I got you!!! Message me. If you’re in a toxic relationship or have a horrible family life and you need someone to vent to, I got you, message me but make sure you’re prepared for my shit too hahah if you’re on a reading frenzie I FUCKING GOT YOU. If you need someone to text you everyday to not text your ex, I can try but I don’t know if I can succeed haha

[wizardbuckets]

working tirelessly in the lab to create a tumblr post that could get 4, even 5 notes

[chronic-pessimists]

Life is so tiring. Physically, I am exhausted, most days I find it difficult to so much as get up and out of bed. Most days I just end up laying in bed and sleeping all day, only getting up once or twice a day. But mentally... my mind is racing. I can't stop thinking of scenarios in my head, ones that end up making me sad, or thinking about how I could have done stuff differently, wishing I had done something different in the past, thinking about who I really am, thinking about how I am letting everyone down by being so lazy and tired all the time. I try and block out these thoughts with watching films or reading or listening to music, but nothing drowns them out completely. It is like there is a voice in my head telling me I will never be good enough, and my worst fear is that it is right. So yes, I sleep away the day and I am miserable and do nothing, but I am too tired to bother trying and doing anything else.

I say this but yet I still play school sports all year, only taking a break during the summer holiday. I play football (soccer), softball, and basketball. I actually quite enjoy softball, and I enjoy football (soccer) most of the time, but I absolutely HATE basketball. I sometimes enjoy watching basketball and I have nothing against the sport, I just absolutely despise playing it myself.

Going back to football, I started preseason and tryouts a couple weeks ago and have my first scrimmage tomorrow. For this scrimmage I am playing varsity for the first half and JV for the second half. I should be excited that I get to play varsity for the first half but all I can think is: I am not good enough to play for the whole game. What if I do bad and the coach decides I should just play JV for the whole season? What if I don't even actually get to play and I just sit the bench the entire time?

My point is, you can never escape your own thoughts. They are with you everywhere you go. It's funny cause it's true.

[mitriwww]

The little man

[twosomeofcuteness]

Dropped my phone so hard last night that I broke the charging port… luckily my roommate just upgraded her phone so I can use hers… unfortunately it’s an iPhone and I’ve been an android girlie all my life

[arodana]

I promise I’m working on the next chapter of my fic but I’ve been so busy 😭😭😭 hope to have it updated this week maybe. 🤪🙃

[mooshymooshroom]