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He didn't like having to worry about her too, right now. He did that enough as it was. He knew that she liked to get herself into trouble and sending herself into this mess was a way to do it. He would protect her though, and people didn't question when he protected her when she showed up somewhere. He'd been her bodyguard numerous times. R2 and 3P0 knew the truth and okay, Rex knew something, but they tried to keep things quiet

"That's what I was going to say and I am the General here, Senator." He could get rid of battle droid in his sleep. He was so sick of battle droids. But, he did enjoy watching them fall apart.

She pulled at his robe and he was about to comment something but his senses picked up something. "I sense a large group of droids. Stay behind me. Blast what you can. Don't use yourself as bait."

Padme smiled at him, knowing she would rather trust her instincts than leaving every fight to him. But for now, she agreed with him with a simple nod. She didn't want to argue what she could do and what not. And she determined to help those who really needed her help. So, she was ready to leave, ready to fight. And with Anakin at her side, she feared no longer for her life. Because he was there. She was safe.

"Let's go." she spoke, ready to hit the way. Right then battle droids appeared. She started to shoot at some but Anakin pulled them closer and got rid of them, leaving her back to grin. "Now, that's a way to get rid of those." she grinned. But then, they really didn't have any time to tease each other. She tugged at his robe, pulling him intot he direction they had to go.

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People keep saying that I don't like angst, because I don't want it at the moment, to happen to my couple on GH who have been through 20 years of it. I take it personal if someone thinks I can't handle angst.

I can do angst better than a lot of people.

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I know I am the worst at communication since losing my husband but I take being ghosted 10000% personal now, especially if its a close friendship or ever was.

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I think our lives are about to be destroyed anyway.

STAR WARS EPISODE II: ATTACK OF THE CLONES 2002 — dir. George Lucas

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HAYDEN CHRISTENSEN On the set of Ahsoka (2023)

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cursed is the one who trusts in human beings, who seeks his strength in the flesh.

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It is so hard to find a Padme who can handle ROTS level angst. Like, I am picky about veering off canon. But, say he does run-away with her on Mustafar or does survive and they both do but reunite later? There is still anger there. He cannot just not be a Sith and if he does, once he gave himself fully to the Dark Side, it is a part of him.

It is also necessary for Anakin when it comes to balancing the force. He has to undersetand both sides of the force.

It is why he was finally able to balance the force. Vader always believed in the force.

I love writing Vader, suitless or not, and don't mind Anidala. But, accepting that it changed Anakin is so important.

But I am more than willing to write them, here or on Discord. I'm picky about other ships on him but if it makes sense, I sometimes will see.

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I'll never stop saying that Padme did betray Anakin by not telling him about the Delegation of 2000. He was her husband.

He was not wrong about her betraying him.

Was he wrong about her betraying him with Obi-Wan? Yes.

By Mustafar, everything between them, had fallen apart.

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You know, I'm fairly certain that Anakin's lack of faith in Obi-Wan in Revenge of the Sith was a lot of things. But, I think it definitely ties into the whole Rakko Hardeen thing in The Clone Wars too. Nothing was okay after that.

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Anakin was never quiet. That just wasn't who he was. He'd never been quiet. But, he had a lot on his mind a lot of the time. Too much of the time, all he thought about was the war and he was tired of it. He was tired of the Jedi Order. Was he tired of being Anakin Skywalker? Did he even know who Anakin Skywalker was, beyond being a slave and a Jedi? Not really.

Sabe had helped him learn a lot about himself and it was unexpected when he had fallen in love with her. He'd never expected to get over Padme, but they both had. Did he spend time with Padme still? Yes. But, they were friends. It just hadn't been meant to be. Sabe had been right that it was best for them to move outside of Coruscant. It was not right for them.

He watched her stand up and he took a deep breath and smiled. She was amusing, still trying to show him that she could do anything that she used to be able to do. Leaning into her touch, he took a deep breath.

"You're not what's wrong. It's everything else. This stupid war. The Jedi, I don't trust them. They're destroying me and I have too much important in my life, us and our future, to deal with what they are driving me towards, with all their pressure and their lies. If they don't trust me, why should I stay? They failed Ahsoka and she left me, Obi-Wan lied to me before that. I don't think I wish to be a Jedi anymore and I think if it is not me doing it on my own, they will do something to stop me...or someone else will use it to their advantage."

He took a deep breath. He hadn't said it out loud before. He just, hated the war. He hated the politics. Could he ever give up the force? Never.

"It wouldn't mean I would be turning on the force. Everything in me believes in the power of the force but I do know there is a lot of both sides of the force in me. I can feel it. The Sith Lord wants me on his side. I don't want to be on anyone's side but yours."

Anakin has been quiet.

That is never a good thing. Anakin is not a quiet man, he can barely even handle a comfortable silence, much less a silence as uncomfortable as the ones they've been having. Something is wrong, and Sabé has been waiting to see if she will have to ask, or if he will open up about it on his own the way he always insists she must do. No bottling up feelings, they agreed on that a long time ago.

But Sabé trusts him to know that he could tell her anything. Trusts him to speak up without needing to be poked.

That doesn't make her any less worried.

His words get a chuckle out of her, something small that temporarily takes some of her worries away.

"Pregnant or not, I have not slowed down," she points out matter of factly.

Finally, after a debriefing at the temple, he seems ready to talk. He's got that face he usually has when he has something to say and he knows she's not going to like it. Like a massiff that ate something it shouldn't and knows is only a matter of time before its owner finds out. Already, Sabé feels her chest a little tighter. Are they sending him on another mission to the outer rim already?

Sabé puts down her holopad and stands up from where she's been sitting on the floor by the window. Her previous statement is only slightly debunked by the extra seconds it takes her to rise to her feet, but she uses the wall for support and manages, too proud to not be able to stand on her own regardless of the baby's weight wanting to keep he down. She steps closer, reaching up and cradling his cheek with one hand, her thumb brushing the edge of the scar on his cheek right under his eye.

"Tell me what's wrong" she says. It's not a question, for she already knows that something is definitely wrong. But not quite a demand either, she just wants Anakin to trust her.

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I am watching Revenge of the Sith as I do homework. Here's hoping it can get me to focus. Feel free to send me a meme or an ask to plot.

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I need to figure out where to put him. Maybe next to the portrait of my husband and dog.

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I did a thing this week. I always wanted the I got this but I needed it to be more than a Sons of Anarchy tattoo. I got this is just as much Jax as Opie. It's my handwriting and my anniversary in my husband's. Then my other one, his favorite was the I love you and I know but I don't like han solo so I went with a galaxy look and each of our thumbprints in a heart. Most people know that I lost my husband in October.

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*flirting* if you had to kill me how would you do it

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@mayxthexforce get a new thing and another spin off of our main verse because we can have a 1 minute conversation and I get an idea.

Anakin was tired. That was the understatement of the year. He had been tired for a while. His heart wasn't in being a Jedi anymore. His force energy definitely had been feeling more on the dark side and it wasn't just the war. It was not feeling like he could trust people. He had lost Ahsoka. She had left him...or the Order. Both of them. Even though Obi-Wan knew about him and Sabe and it wasn't exactly a secret in the Order either, he still had lied to him and that was before Ahsoka left. He had let him belief he was dead.

That was when all of his negative thoughts had started and it was being away from Sabe. She was pregnant and he felt normal, when he was around her. He had been thinking more and more that, he just was tired of it all.

He had half tried to voice it to a few people and no one took him seriously. It was like everyone thought because of the prophecy, that he had to have this life. The Jedi were not even Jedi, anymore. They were prisoners to this war and he was tired of being a prisoner. He had been one since he was born.

He didn't know what he would do if Sabe didn't agree with him on this. He didn't want to give up the force. The force was a huge part of him and he knew that he would always play a large part, but he wanted something apart from all this. He had been doing this for so long. He had nearly been killed by Ventress, though he had won. The thing with Dooku had happened. He wasn't willing to lose himself to something he didn't know if he trusted and he felt didn't trust him.

Having gotten back late last night, he had been fairly quiet. He had to do a debriefing this morning at the Temple but when Anakin got back, he had things on his mind. Searching, he finally found her.

"You know, you would think you would be easier to find now that you're slower." He took a deep breath and smiled at her. He had that 'we need to talk' look. That look often meant that he was being sent to the Outer Rim, but this time it didn't. Would she still want him if he was just him?

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Star Wars: Episode III – Revenge of the Sith dir. George Lucas | 2005

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𝐇𝐀𝐘𝐃𝐄𝐍 𝐂𝐇𝐑𝐈𝐒𝐓𝐄𝐍𝐒𝐄𝐍 𝐀𝐒 𝐀𝐍𝐀𝐊𝐈𝐍 𝐒𝐊𝐘𝐖𝐀𝐋𝐊𝐄𝐑.

in revenge of the sith.