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This is not something that I ever post. I am not someone to ask for help, but the county decided not to help with my husband today and I have five days to come up with $2500, to be able to bring him back home. Again, I never ask for help, but I lost my husband unexpectedly last month. Shares, anything at all, would help me so much. I also have things like Cashapp, Venmo, Paypal, Zelle to donate directly. I'm sorry for putting this on my dash, but I am desperate.

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Does anyone want to send Anakin memes?

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Trying to work my way back to active and planned on it today but life decided fuck you

My husband died today.

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Late Night Panic Attack

"I woke up and you weren't there."

"I heard you screaming."

"Oh, no - another nightmare?"

"Okay, hey, I'm here - I'm here -"

"Whoa hey what the fuck - are you okay?"

"It's just a nightmare! Wake up!"

"How did you end up on the floor? [Name]?"

"[Name]? Are you - hey - are you okay?"

"Look at me. Look at me! I'm here!"

"Not again - you're safe."

"You're okay, you're at home, you're in bed."

"Snap out of it! Please! You're scaring me!"

"Wake up!!"

"How did you get into the hall?"

"We need to get you back to bed."

"I can't bre - breathe -"

"They're back, they came back for me -"

"Where am I?!"

"Get off me! No! No! Wait - wait, I'm sorry -"

"It's not safe - it's not safe here -"

"Don't leave me, don't - don't go - "

"Ow - how did I end up on the floor?"

"Not again... I just want to sleep..."

"I'm s- so sor-sorry -"

"I can't st-stop shaking -"

"Is it this? Forever? Every night?"

"My - chest - hurts -"

"Don't let go of me, please, please -"

"My throat hurts... oh, no, was I screaming?"

"I didn't mean to wake you, I'm sorry, I just.. I got so scared. So scared..."

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Send this to all your favourite moots and pass the pumpkin round! KEEP THE PUMPKIN TRAIN GOING 🎃🖤🎃🖤🎃

Thank you and love you lots <3

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It's been a really hectic time. I'm finally getting to a stable place with homework. My town had a horrible flood last weekend, and all everyone wants to focus on in all of that and it is horriblle. But sometimes, I need to not think. Then, two nights ago, there was a huge bbout of violence outside my bedroom window that ended with someone dying. My PTSD is through the roof.

So of course, I just want to write my favorite-deeply flawed Jedi/Sith. Like for a Anakin/Vader Starter. You can choose a verse if you prefer. I do have suitless Vader. My default tends to be during The Clone Wars. The era not the show.

You can also send me a meme. I'll probably post a couple too. I tend to be up fairly late, reliving my teenage years and General Hospital livelihood.

Like for a starter. Specify if you're a multimuse or sideblog. Feel free to specify a verse.

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What are the odds I could catch up on some replies during Game 5 of this tense baseball series?

Also hi, I have missed you all.

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School is stupid and making me insane. I still owe people things and starters. Also, I hope you all in the path of the hurricane are safe <3

Between baseball playoffs, watching General Hospital everyday for Lucky again (I would 100% write him and Elizabeth on Discord, I'm just saying), still watching Grey's, watching 20 year old episodes of General Hospital, my brain is a mess. I likely would write Lucky, Anakin (depending on who with), and my Grey's characters on Discord.

But, I am hoping to make progress. The above also, I will make progress with here, asap.

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insp 

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I haven't done this in FOREVER, so have an Anakin Skywalker / or if you want Vader (you can request suitless) just let me know / starter call with Revenge of the Sith book quotes. It won't be a one-liner but I will write you one with the quote.

You can specify a verse if you'd like. Otherwise, it will likely be during the Clone Wars / Revenge of the Sith / Post Revenge of the Sith era.

Like for a starter. If you're a multi, please specify. Same with sideblogs. I'll likely write them tonight while doing homework.

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I wish we could have gotten something comparable to the book when Anakin first comes into consciousness, fully suited. I mean, I'm not fully convinced he ever was out of consciousness because Sidious did keep him awake the whole surgery. But, what the book gave us is SO SO GOOD and the movie did give us a really good scene. I mean, we got the force scream and the ICON James Earl Jones voice. But, it is so so good in the book.

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12 hours of homework is too much homework. I'm not even done.

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I think part of the reason that I have always willingly accepted Darth Vader as part of Anakin is I met him first. We were introduced to Vader and learned that Anakin lived and hadn't died. Darth Vader had been Anakin Skywalker all along. Even though he only let down his guard in those final moments, we got to see the vulnerability that we would meet in the prequels.

In the prequels, Anakin was developed and we saw what caused him to fall to the darkness, to embrace being Darth Vader.

He always had the darkness in him. He went through things that would turn so many people dark, but for so long, he fought against it, until he couldn't anymore. But in the end, he did overcome it, despite his body failing him.

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part of what makes tragedies tragic is the story being preventable from the outside but unpreventable from the inside

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I often think about the first time that I met you. […] It was immediately apparent to me that I was meeting someone truly special and not just as an actor but as a person and that I was meeting a friend. A friend who would later go on to chop off both my legs and leave me for dead on the side of a volcano but I guess I kinda had that coming. — Hayden Christensen

EWAN MCGREGOR and HAYDEN CHRISTENSEN Ewan's Hollywood Walk of Fame ceremony | September 12, 2024

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He was tired. He was tired of fighting. He didn't even know how long he would be home this time. He could have to leave in the morning, a couple days, a week. Obi-Wan had mentioned something about them going to the Outer Rim and being gone for a long time. He knew he was expected to be at the Temple tonight, but it wasn't like he didn't have his comm on him. Besides, Obi-Wan wasn't as dumb about the situation, as he liked to think. He was sure of it. But, they didn't talk about it. He didn't want to think about Obi-Wan.

Anakin was perceptive. He was overly perceptive. He could tell sleep was not coming easy to her. He headed in there and he smiled when he saw her and raised his eyebrow. "Did you just put your nightgown on your body? Were you waiting for someone? I mean, I don't think 3PO does it for you."

She stepped closer to him and he smiled at her. "I have heard that, as well. With a Jedi wandering around, he might need to come and check on you. You should probably leave your clothes on, when said Jedi checks on you. Rumor is, you went and got married. I think your husband would be very very jealous, if anyone else saw you like that."He smirked at her, before moving to lift her up in his arms and pressed his forehead to hers.

"You never know what those Jedi might be thinking, you know."

She had been laying awake for most of the night. She barely found sleep when she knew Anakin was gone. Out there fighting others, fighting for his life, for something bigger than the two of them. And she knew what he did was right, she would be out there herself if she could. But in moments like these, where she found no sleep, she suddenly felt so selfish for thinking Anakin should come back home to her, stay with her and never leave again. Soemtimes, she would drift off to sleep then, eventually waking up in the morning and wondering how she managed to do so.

Tonight was one of those where she laid awake.

And tonight, she heard noises. sitting up in her bed, she waited only a second before she got up on her feet, slipping into her nightgown and wandering around the bed. But before she could reach the door, it already opened and Anakin walked in. Relief washed over her and she started smiling immediately.

"I don't think I ever really felt unsafe in this penthouse." she spoke, taking a step towards him. "In case, this is the most secured place here. Only a fool would try to break in here." she explained as she took another step towards him. Padme stopped right in front of him, looking up at him. "Besides, I've heard things that a Jedi might be roaming around at times. Who would even dare to think of breaking inside?" she asked with a grin, her brown eyes looking up to meet his in the dark.