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Please tell me anonymously or not why you follow me. I could use some positive messages

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BUFFY THE VAMPIRE SLAYER | S5E18: Intervention

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I am trying so hard to get back, yall. I am hoping to be able to write some tonight and this weekend. Grief sucks ass. I already knew that but yeah.

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This is not something that I ever post. I am not someone to ask for help, but the county decided not to help with my husband today and I have five days to come up with $2500, to be able to bring him back home. Again, I never ask for help, but I lost my husband unexpectedly last month. Shares, anything at all, would help me so much. I also have things like Cashapp, Venmo, Paypal, Zelle to donate directly. I'm sorry for putting this on my dash, but I am desperate.

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Does anyone want to send Anakin memes?

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Trying to work my way back to active and planned on it today but life decided fuck you

My husband died today.

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Late Night Panic Attack

"I woke up and you weren't there."

"I heard you screaming."

"Oh, no - another nightmare?"

"Okay, hey, I'm here - I'm here -"

"Whoa hey what the fuck - are you okay?"

"It's just a nightmare! Wake up!"

"How did you end up on the floor? [Name]?"

"[Name]? Are you - hey - are you okay?"

"Look at me. Look at me! I'm here!"

"Not again - you're safe."

"You're okay, you're at home, you're in bed."

"Snap out of it! Please! You're scaring me!"

"Wake up!!"

"How did you get into the hall?"

"We need to get you back to bed."

"I can't bre - breathe -"

"They're back, they came back for me -"

"Where am I?!"

"Get off me! No! No! Wait - wait, I'm sorry -"

"It's not safe - it's not safe here -"

"Don't leave me, don't - don't go - "

"Ow - how did I end up on the floor?"

"Not again... I just want to sleep..."

"I'm s- so sor-sorry -"

"I can't st-stop shaking -"

"Is it this? Forever? Every night?"

"My - chest - hurts -"

"Don't let go of me, please, please -"

"My throat hurts... oh, no, was I screaming?"

"I didn't mean to wake you, I'm sorry, I just.. I got so scared. So scared..."

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Send this to all your favourite moots and pass the pumpkin round! KEEP THE PUMPKIN TRAIN GOING 🎃🖤🎃🖤🎃

Thank you and love you lots <3

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It's been a really hectic time. I'm finally getting to a stable place with homework. My town had a horrible flood last weekend, and all everyone wants to focus on in all of that and it is horriblle. But sometimes, I need to not think. Then, two nights ago, there was a huge bbout of violence outside my bedroom window that ended with someone dying. My PTSD is through the roof.

So of course, I just want to write my favorite-deeply flawed Jedi/Sith. Like for a Anakin/Vader Starter. You can choose a verse if you prefer. I do have suitless Vader. My default tends to be during The Clone Wars. The era not the show.

You can also send me a meme. I'll probably post a couple too. I tend to be up fairly late, reliving my teenage years and General Hospital livelihood.

Like for a starter. Specify if you're a multimuse or sideblog. Feel free to specify a verse.

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What are the odds I could catch up on some replies during Game 5 of this tense baseball series?

Also hi, I have missed you all.

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School is stupid and making me insane. I still owe people things and starters. Also, I hope you all in the path of the hurricane are safe <3

Between baseball playoffs, watching General Hospital everyday for Lucky again (I would 100% write him and Elizabeth on Discord, I'm just saying), still watching Grey's, watching 20 year old episodes of General Hospital, my brain is a mess. I likely would write Lucky, Anakin (depending on who with), and my Grey's characters on Discord.

But, I am hoping to make progress. The above also, I will make progress with here, asap.

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insp 

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I haven't done this in FOREVER, so have an Anakin Skywalker / or if you want Vader (you can request suitless) just let me know / starter call with Revenge of the Sith book quotes. It won't be a one-liner but I will write you one with the quote.

You can specify a verse if you'd like. Otherwise, it will likely be during the Clone Wars / Revenge of the Sith / Post Revenge of the Sith era.

Like for a starter. If you're a multi, please specify. Same with sideblogs. I'll likely write them tonight while doing homework.

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I wish we could have gotten something comparable to the book when Anakin first comes into consciousness, fully suited. I mean, I'm not fully convinced he ever was out of consciousness because Sidious did keep him awake the whole surgery. But, what the book gave us is SO SO GOOD and the movie did give us a really good scene. I mean, we got the force scream and the ICON James Earl Jones voice. But, it is so so good in the book.

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12 hours of homework is too much homework. I'm not even done.