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Spiralling AGAIN would you believe it
#txt#trying to figure it out#i tried to be there for jim and listen to him and be a good partner#but he barely opened up#i didnt know he wanted to leave me#he chose to open up when i was mad#so i didnt respond#so that i didnt yell#not that that is his fault#i should have done better#but i couldny#in that house#i was so overstimulated all the fucking tome#time#like always#and i didnt even realise it#until he kicked me put#out*#and now im just guilty over everything.#why wasnt i better#why cpuldnt i be better#its not fair that he didnt tell me#3 months and you really couldnt tell me what was on your mind#thats unfair man#i was trying so hard to be better#to do better#giving him space is almost impossible#hes my best friend and my soul mate#i dont want to talk to anyone else tbh#so being ignored is like a knife to my chest and idk what to do about it and this is my last tag i can put it and i just dont even know
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its not my fault i keep playing against Daniel Day-Lewis mfs
#ive got 160+ hours as medic....i know what im doing but some spies are actually just brilliant actors and play in a non meta way#and im so busy keeping your arse alive that if they're going full method on the team - i heal them!#the amount of times people have given out at me is crazy....you didnt spot them either bruv#im not talking about those two times i ubered an enemy spy....corner of shame#ty for the 5k lads#team fortress 2#tf2 fanart#tf2#tf2 medic#tf2 heavy#heavy so annoyed he lives through 3 backstabs to yell
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Why do I keep seeing transmascs and trans men insisting or implying that all trans men are "female socialized," or "understand the female experience," or "navigated the world as a woman." Because yeah, sure, that can be true for some people. especially if you weren't gnc at all as a kid and didn't crack your egg until well into adulthood, it makes sense.
But they don't stop at saying they had that experience. It always comes with an addendum that trans men, as a group, all can relate to this experience. I don't know about the entirety of my demographic, but I never got even a little bit of what some of them talk about. I didn't even believe that women were scared of going out at night until I kept consistently seeing them say it, online or wherever, for years. I never realized catcalling was a thing until I saw some women complaining about it on reddit.
But they posit it as some sort of, you're safer than cis men, right? You know what it's like? Which, on top of being patently, demonstrably false in the case of myself and many other trans men, holds some unpleasant and often outright hostile implications about trans women. And they always deny it, but if you can't even conceptualize someone like me who grew up gnc, and never got the bulk (or any?) of whatever we consider to be 'female socialization,' what does that say about what you think trans girls went through, growing up? I don't want to speak for them, as I've never experienced that firsthand, but I can guarantee that (if you're even a little bit obviously trans) people don't treat you like a cis kid of the opposite gender. By and large, they don't get treated like cis boys.
It just makes me mad that we're taking this inaccurate framework that (ever so conveniently) puts trans people into the box of our assumed birth gender, and trying to fancy it up and use it with a faux-progressive veneer; never mind the way that transphobes use it to bar trans women from being athletes, or using the bathroom, or having access to any gendered resources they need. It would be bad enough to try and dust it off and use it even if it were largely accurate, due to the aforementioned connections to outright transphobia, but it literally is patently false. Not in all cases, obviously, but why are we trying to revamp this untrue, inaccurate generalization and pretend that we can make it 'trans-inclusive?'
#o.#trans#transphobia#transmisogyny#I may or may not be talking about a specific post I saw that made me irritated but I didnt wanna get in an argument with internet strangers#sorry guys I'm still heated over freaking collin allred capitulating to ted cruz and throwing trans girls under the bus bc he didnt have the#guts to stick to his morals#and called them ''this idiotic business with boys in girls sports'' or some crap#as if trans girls don't deserve to play the sports they love. like I imagine if they blocked trans men from being physicists or something#and I just wasn't able to pursue the career I want? that would destroy me#and I still had to vote for him because the other options were ted cruz and some freaking libertarian.#sorry thats all tangential but can we not use the same rhetoric that all these politicians do as an excuse to kick trans women out of public#life PLEASE 🙏#...also I really hate the Popular Transmasc Ideology that says that we all experience life as basically the same as a cis woman & never have#to navigate having male privilege & being an ally to women#and all have some sort of Innate Connection to femaleness or womanhood or whatever bc 'obviously' we all grew up just like girls do#ugh#this one's going out there sans editing so dont yell at me if I worded smth weird please 🙏
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i never know how to phrase it but something about the way beatles biographers and people in general view paul's reflexive placating persona and determination to smooth things over as manipulative or duplicitous and john's reflexive barbed persona and habit of lashing out as brave and subversive despite both being equally defensive mechanisms to shield themselves from the world that resulted in them saying things that weren't true says more about how we culturally view kindness or friendliness as inherently untrustworthy or flimsy and anger and carelessness as more believable as someone's true nature than it says about either of them in actuality
#the beatles#john lennon#paul mccartney#mclennon#idk if im explaining this well but it always gives me whiplash to read how 'beatles historians' elsewhere view them#bc it seems like for all that theyre able to make the simple connection between johns past and trauma to his behavior#as a protective mechanism to shield him from vulnerability#far fewer people make the equally reasonable connection between pauls past#with parents that never said i love you to each other or told their children about a serious illness#and an adult paul who doesnt examine his own feelings much less speak candidly about them#or stories like mike mccartney talking about being beaten by jim while paul yelled at him to just say that he 'didnt do it' so it would sto#and an adult paul who has clearly internalized the basic cause and effect of the things you say and the consequences that come from them#and how the truth is less relevant in those situations than the obvious path of least resistance that will spare you needless pain#idk i have a lot of thoughts and feelings on how people see paul mccartney#i want to shake some of these biographers and be like this mid-20s kid experiencing a level of scrutiny and pressure#the world had never seen before#was not puppeteering everything to meet his vision#he was trying to protect himself and his friends from the very real danger of public perception!!
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Dadinder and the boys staring in: Cat Snuggles <3
This was a rollercoaster of a drawing but I think I like where it ended up :D
at one point I accidentally set my "draw over everything" layer to multiply, which made everything super dark, and me and my friends agreed it was rad so you guys get to see it. (and another filter cuz it looks cool)
#cult of the lamb#cotl#cotl narinder#cult of the lamb narinder#cotl aym and baal#cotl aym#cotl baal#cult of the lamb aym#cult of the lamb baal#aym and baal#mewnie art#this isnt a shipping thing so dont yell at me in my asks. I just like it when animal characters cuddle okay?? Snuggles with cat dad alright#also I almost just posted a hastily colored sketch that I didnt like but then decided to just make a new layer and draw over everything#and im so happy I did cuz now it actually looks nice
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staring contest between luffy vs nyan-chan who's winning
#one piece#fanart#my art#monkey d. luffy#asl brothers#revolutionary sabo#portgas d ace#idk why ace is looking mad either#i started drawing this around midnight and idk what past me was thinkinh#the sketch was supposed to be sabo and ace yelling at luffy to come down#but when i did the line art it didnt look right#so now ace is angy and sabos trynna hold him back#tbf i like this look better but i still dont know why ace is angy#up to your interpretation ig
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i like to think they hang out sometimes
#HRRRGH HRR YELLING SUPER LOUDLY this sibling dynamic couldve been so good if the writers didnt make it weird :(#im slacking a bit in the rendering department but its ok i needed to get my feels out#if it wasnt obvious already i really like how karai became the older sister HRJJSOJAS i needed bonding moments#tmnt#tmnt 2012#2012 tmnt#tmnt fanart#art
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eleven is fascinating to me because he came right off the back of tens horrible traumatic breakdown after he lost everything and he immediately tried to establish himself as the opposite of that. he is funny and goofy and almost childlike, and he bulldozes on in his adventures with amy like nothing happened at all. but then something happens and his masks slips and it's like oh! the core of this man is still anger. he is so so angry all of the time and this façade is the only thing stopping him from being consumed by it. he isn't over any of it and he hasn't moved on. he is wearing a fez and laughing but under that all that exists is age old anger and grief and it is going to consume him
#i do think that this pit of anger was eventually covered and soothed by the ponds#but he didn't adress it and he couldn't even look at it until he was twelve#when he stopped pushing back and repressing everything and finally allowed himself to exist as he was#but ok listen#its all layed out in the first 3 episodes of season 5 and in the way amy sees him#episode 1. here is the new doctor he is energetic and reeling and fun#episode 2. the space whale comparison. here is the new doctor. he is unthinkably ancient and almost godlike but he is so so kind#and patient and good. he is ancient and lonely but he can't stand to see children cry. so the doctor helps people#episode 3. daleks. the doctor is a soldier. these are his age old enemies. he wants them dead and he will stop at nothing#all logic and reason vanish. he is hitting the dalek with a pipe and yelling his head off while amy watches in horror#like obviously we know why but amy didnt#this is not a sane or rational man he is unstable and angry#and in that episode he was stripped back to what he largely is: hate#you would make a good dalek ect ect ect#anyway 3 episodes with 3 very distinct and equally definitely traits layed out like: here you go#i don't like elevens era much but those first 3 episodes were great#doctor who#eleven#amy#eleventh doctor#matt smith#dr who#dw#i mean idk this is what river literally had to spell out for him#eleven was careening completely out of control#how long til doctor means warrior indeed?#mine
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"Watch a show" they said, "it'll be fun" they said
Everyone seems to not realize how seriously I end up taking stories I like. Well guess who got me to finally watch his gundams with him.
#chekhov irl#the scene I didnt draw is me stepping out of the shower#and finding my partner in the doorway#going 'you wanna watch the gundams with me so we can go to an event in tokyo together'#and that one worked i guess#now i can yell with him over suletta and miorine
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A little treat arrived today!!!!! Tysm @meltedmush for the adorable bingqiu charms and the sketch note ;0; I will be displaying all three ✨✨
#the envelope got tucked into a magazine in my mailbox somehow so i was double surprised when i found it lol#if you noticed i didnt peel off the protective plastic yet no you didnt#jay yells
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I put this on him and the second it loaded my jaw dropped
#is this allowed?? is this allowed????? hello??????#im normal <- a lie#ffxiv#final fantasy xiv#ff14#final fantasy 14#hyur#midlander#ffxiv screenshots#ffxiv gpose#gpose#ffxiv glamour#ffxiv oc#wol#warrior of light#gposers#ieeha de verral#ieeha#my screenshot#nabaath-areng#GOD IM SO. IM YELLING AND STRANGLING HIM AFFECTIONATELY#none of these match really cause didnt mean to make a set i wasnt even gonna take more#but then. oh my god. oh fuck.#im sorry. vibrates in my seat
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Livio Razlo epicness
#i cant believe i didnt finish this in one sitting#i hope the colors are so vibrant they yell at you#drag00niart#art#trigun#livio the double fang#livio#razlo the tri punisher of death#razlo the trip of death#razlo#trimax#trimax spoilers#trigun spoilers#trigun maximum
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"A little chirpin' going on here from Tkachuk. He's still yelling at the bench, 'Hey, that's what you get! That's what you get!' And it was Hagel who got wacked along the wall, and it was Hagel that he was yelling at for the most part. [...] Yep! There's Tkachuk, he is loving it. This is his kind-of game." "Hagel obviously leaking over there on the Lightning bench. He laid a big hit on Barkov in the opening minutes of this one."
"Welp, they got the upper hand right now and Tkachuk being who he is, he's taking advantage of that. But that sets the table for tommorow night, and he dun care about that. He will be more than happy to have it go that way. See, he's still—" Matthew: That's what you get! All of that! [?] "He's talking about how sorry you're gonna be. He's talking to Guentzel and a couple other guys. Just setting the table for tommorow." "Oh, man! He is not letting up down there is he?" "Nope!"
"That's what you fucking get. That! (referring to the Kuli on Hagel hit that caused Hagel to go to the bench) That's what you fucking get."
florida panthers @ tampa bay lightning | 12.22.24
#matthew tkachuk#florida panthers#2425#naturally maffhew who saw that hagel hit on sasha in the opening minutes and just stared him down as he got on the bench#also had the chirp him at the end as if he personally laid down the hit himself#this is also kuli being very frustrated with the refs for not giving him a boarding call with girgenssons#(to which he did talk to them about it after it happened)#i love maffhew yelling so loud it gets caught on the mic#hot mic! hot mic!#at the end of the day it always leads back to sasha huh#a shame the bolts telecast didnt have a good view of the hit but sasha does wobble a bit#so yeah karma babe#mr i hate tampa more showing how much he hates tampa#i just love them going this is about hagel [zooms out to kuch and jake at the end of the bench]#mr i love kuch but i will mercilessly chirp him too#and also jake#hey babe its a shame youre in blue now because i have to cheer extensively when maffhew engages#yap off who will win sibneys daughter or guy who has found in a cardboard box wet and all alone#thank you bolts telecast for this one i had to suffer your awful commentary but you did give me this so really#it doesnt balance out at all but you knkw
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hc design for a younger kotoko but i based most of her appearance on the theory she's that one unknown girl we see in harrow.
she likes to play wolves when she's not fist fighting bullies on the playground.
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kotoko - age 11~ had long hair as a kid. cut it short in middle school for many reasons. though, she neither liked nor disliked having it. strong sense of justice / black & white thinking from an early age
#milgram#digital footprint (my art)#kotoko yuzuriha#i didnt draw it but i imagine shes yelling at a baby fuuta bc he was being a bully lol#the worms r real#ran a yapathon on discord explaining her relationship with femininity + having long hair in a distant past#the colours look so much more bleak on my laptop screen kms but too lazy to try to fix it again
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snaek
#snake#this was a BIIIIG SNAEK#Glimmer foind it and yelled and yelled until i came to see what it was#she didnt get close to it tho so im proud of her lol#anyway it slithered off after this so i did not have to try and pick it up and relocate it myself#so all is well#it was soooo mad when it thought i was gonna pick it up it was like#smacking the leaves with its tail like a. rattlesnake. buddy you cannot fool me#i know. what a rattle snake looks like.
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sum thots on twitter dot com
#bg3#baldurs gate 3#baldurs gate#gale dekarios#bg3 gale#gale of waterdeep#bg3 astarion#astarion#bloodweave#to expand on this EVEN MORE (i have lots of thoughts):#i kinda understand game wise why they didnt have ur companions fight back so hard?#bc if its the players choice or whatever. your companions shouldnt be fighting you?#but at the same time there are so many moments where your companions will turn against you#and fight you#and be mad at you#and i genuinely think this is one of those moments!!!!!#sure go out in a blaze of glory with your loved ones thanking you for your sacrifice. thats all nice and good#but its BORING!!!!#give me astarion yelling and screaming and crying#telling gale he'll hate him forever if he does this#give it to me!!!!!!#okay im done for now. thanks
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