#traumatic unpacking

[keeping-up-with-the-sanders]

Orange: Don’t you just love how mental disorders are just buy one get seven free?

Patton: I didn’t even really want the first one. My old boyfriend made me buy it.

Roman: Mine’s a family heirloom, passed down through generations.

Remus: Same.

Janus: I think mine was one of the things my dad threw at me as a child.

Logan: I’m pretty sure my parents gave it to me because they shoplifted it and didn’t want to go to jail.

Virgil & Andy: Ours came in a package deal: Being gay, homophobic parents, mental illness.

Remy: Bitch, you had parents?

Emilie: Mine was the last thing my parents gave me before they abandoned me in the middle of a Wendy’s parking lot.

Thomas: Jesus Christ, are you ok?!

[notpercieved]

Sometimes i think about the fact that Jing Yuan has no one he can lean onto and be completely vulnerable, you know those situations of "i look for an adult, but it turns out im the adult" situations? Thats him

Im not saying he has no companions, he does, old and new, but there always feels like a gap inbetween them, a bridge no one nor him wants to cross, either its from his fear of losing more people in his life without realizing or his title as a general

His position doesnt help him in that aspect either, because if the people sees their leader waver it would shatter the trust, he always has to be multiple steps ahead all the time and put a front that he knows what hes doing no matter if he does or doesnt

Hes not alone, and yet he keeps everyone at arms length, surely itd get lonely eventually?

[captainofallships]

The Golden Raven Spoilers

Cannot get over the fact this book ends with Jeremy trying to kiss Jean’s crotch. The silliest man ever to live.

[vampyre-kin]

My family doesn't love me, you know what that means!! Time to go sexualize the trauma of never being truly cared for and idealize the roles of family members I desperately wish would acknowledge me kindly!!!

[perfectlysunny02]

“And you trust that?”

“Me and Hondo? A 100%”

I KNOW THATS RIGHT.

[gideonisms]

My impression is that John admitted to those things because it gives the illusion that he's being upfront and forthcoming, while also avoiding admitting something much worse. Like... If a teenager breaks something, and admits to having a bad grade so their parents have something less severe to be distracted by? I think John has that kind of juvenile urge, taken to a frightening psychological extreme. And that obviously begs the question, what has he done that admitting to That Shit was the better optical choice? It's really interesting to think about

I think this is definitely a plausible read of his motivations! It's hard to say what exactly he was thinking but it does seem like he wants harrow to approve of him in some way even as he admits these things to her. Fundamentally I think John misjudges her level of commitment to him, and maybe he thinks they're on firm enough ground that he can admit to anything and she'll forgive him. It didn't work with alecto, cytherea, mercy, or augustine, but who knows! Maybe this time will be the time. He seems trapped in his own cycle

[wallbeatjournal]

Archie hallucinates a lot. Thoughts?

oh. so many. unsure if insightful but

as a ptsd symptom:

this starts after grundy (archie's first hallucination is when he imagines the talent show auditorium full of wolves)

ptsd-related visual hallucinations are most commonly associated with sexual abuse and thought to be connected to the way the brain reworks its understanding of danger following major trauma. can't trust the standard senses anymore, better layer in some additional signal

archie has a few not-in-touch-with-really-real-reality symptoms going on. hallucinations but also disruptive trauma flashbacks, and repressed/distorted memories

as a storytelling mechanism:

archie doesn't unpack his experiences by talking through them, the way other characters do. he's quite isolated, and showing these hallucinations (and flashbacks, and dream sequences) onscreen is a way to communicate his inner state to the audience...without actually ever having him open up to anyone(!!!!)

there's such a dark and tragic parallel between archie's post-grundy stage fright wolves-in-the-crowd vision and archie's post-hiram fake graduation army guys vision. in s1 he chooses to stay there in that auditorium and tryyyy to connect to veronica and fred. in s4 he's in such a box (mentally and practically) that he just...follows them out and enlists

i love the way the ghosts of his army friends haunt him in s5 - it's a guilt thing, it's a military ptsd media trope, AND it's a parallel to jughead's AA support group. it's archie (over the course of the season) contextualizing some of his experiences within a broader culture of predation and abuse and survivorship and becoming less isolated / more willing to believe he can actually be a part of a community (which flows into the unionization plot and realization that defeating percival requires a teamup, not an individual martyrdom)

[johanna-swann]

Not to hate-post on main, I know other people like him and sympathise with him because of his trauma, but to me the Punisher represents everything I hate in a man and character. Cis-het white military macho man who murders people and thinks himself to be righteous because his wife got fridged. Thank you, but no thank you.

[spocks-kaathyra]

"ur repressed" okay well have u even considered that emotions r purposeless and only serve to cause harm to those around u and I have achieved a unique transcendent state beyond them. have u considered that

[kingcunny]

Viserys x Lyonel interactions are sooo underrated. I especially love the "good king" conversation when Viserys tells him he's "right as always." The entire season, Viserys keeps trying to get Lyonel to play his flirty petty ego slap fight games like he does with Otto, and Lyonel just does not know how to respond. He's aware and observant enough to know that Viserys is just being a Targaryen, and none of his interpersonal relationships are normal. But it's very, "I don't know, man. I just work here," energy from Lyonel. And Viserys gets so visibly disappointed when he won't play along.

god yes please i need to convert more people to my lyonel x viserys agenda. its probably the closest viserys comes to a healthy relationship. but viserys is still his BOSS so its not like lyonel can. directly reject him.

viserys shows such a vulnerability to lyonel that he doesnt show with anyone else. the “good king” conversation the “truly great targaryen king i am” during the hunt. even coming to him for advice about who he should marry (and viserys acting very different from how weve seen him act around anyone else…). he doesnt share these anxieties he has about his legacy with anyone else, just lyonel. and lyonel could very easily use this to his advantage, but he doesnt. but he also refues to stroke viserys ego about it. he just continues to give him good, honest advice. and thats probably why viserys feels so comfortable opening up to him…

and yeah you almost get the sense that as perplexed as lyonel is about viserys targaryenisms toward him, viserys gets just as perplexed about lyonels refusal to take advantage of him, like otto, or fluff him up, like daemon, because thats all he KNOWS.

[jva-reblogs]

Guess whose depression is now officially managed wowowow thank you lexapro and vitamin d

[ruminate88]

This year hasn’t been easy but don’t think and stress about all the goals you didn’t hit 🙏🏻 but look at the progress you’ve made!

Woooooo so, last fall/Christmas I fell off a ladder putting up Christmas lights and had deep bruises on my legs which actually mirrored back to me that I had deep emotional wounds 🥺🫶🏻 wow…. So I started this “healing journey” and needless to say, I’ve been slowly unraveling the past and the tangled AND unresolved feelings ❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹

Also a tragedy happened with my in-laws back in Jan. It was a traumatic event and put everyone in a grief state. I was already feeling sad over my past as I was learning about emotional abuse and realizing who I believe my exes were and WHY I am the way I am since being betrayed by them. I eventually learned about betrayal trauma and was making sense of it all.

I did feel I was getting into a trauma bond with my mom in law as what happened to the family was cruel and heartbreaking. My mom in law was leaning on me cuz I understand the situation the most now that I am self aware of myself and my past. We did so much talking but a lot of it was sad 😓❤️‍🩹 So that brought me low for sure…. Eventually I tried NOT to talk about it so much with her cuz it only brings us down.

at some point I felt my whole life was trauma on trauma on trauma….. why was I experiencing SO MUCH TRAUMA?? I still don’t have the answer to that but I have learned a GREAT DEAL and I’ve had to seriously challenge thoughts and beliefs about myself. I’ve had so much grief and even more numbness but eventually in the last month or so, I’ve been able to cry again ❤️‍🩹👍🏻

CRYING IS HEALTHY 🙏🏻👍🏻 Not just crying but SCREAMING and even kicking. It’s NOT dramatic or crazy. It’s truly releasing the trauma. I watched my mom in law full on lay on her bed face down and kick so hard and cry out cuz of the pain that was inflicted in January 🥺😳 So… I would say this year was eventful both sad and tragic but good too! I’ve had my eyes opened a lot this year!! I feel I’ve done good considering it all 🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻

Idk what all the trauma is bringing or teaching me but I’m still learning and transforming daily!!! IT’S NOT OVER ❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹 I feel my mom in law and I did break out of the trauma bond recently cuz it wasn’t meant to last. I feel she’s accepted the situation and gotten SOME peace over it 🙏🏻 Idk what’s coming next but I’m open to whatever is meant to happen next!

Also, this past year I’ve been daily working to forgive my exes ❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹 even believing they’re probably not sorry or think they did anything wrong but I don’t have any proof so can’t judge them but forgive them in my heart!

[swordsovereign]

now that he has a job, he can ... start feeling a little more like a normal person. not someone linked to the sea of stars all the time. a little more like basilio. he can relax a little, the world's not ending anymore. actually, it seems like things are looking bright!

[astradyke]

oh no talking about my own life again? on my blog? i should be stoned

[a-concert-just-for-me]

Arcane s2 spoilers

Powder in episode 7 is so unsettling to me. They neurotypicalized my girl. She’s in regular girl clothes and has a boyfriend and a stable job and is able to think rationally and also work towards her goals and reach her potential…she’s no longer #hashtag relatable. That whole arc had me like “put it back!!!!! I need that girl to be fucking insane!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!”

[definitelynotshouting]

Why do I get the feeling that the Grian and Pearl convo is not going to help and is in fact going to make everything worse

I feel like the conclusion is going to make everyone guilty

On gods they are both fumbling the bag with this conversation SO badly,