#transferring it onto here

[lilac-rose-writes]

"I can't do this anymore"

(or- nugget, penny & lily parallels because i couldn't help myself)

nugget & penny both reach a breaking point, and it's only then that they rebel against the principals. nugget was intended to be an experiment; billy was an accidental substitute. penny wasn't meant to be an experiment; she still acted as a useful tool. both nugget & penny know more than they should about what the principals are up to. billy confided in nugget about what he knew, penny's been exposed to it firsthand. the principals control them via drugs and remotes, and both of them are despondent because of it.

and then there's lily. lily refuses to take the pills, refuses to give in to the principals, and she ends up in the reverse situation. her brother's gone, she's bullied relentlessly, and she's losing the will to live more by the day. when cindy pushes lily to her breaking point, lily does the opposite of rebelling. lily gives up.

penny tries to die and fails, so decides to help with the rescue instead despite the threat it puts on her life. the female principal kills her for it. the moment penny fights back, she's given what she wanted- in a death she couldn't achieve alone.

nugget can no longer remember what billy said to him, but he wants to help nonetheless. he gives up the note even though it's one of the only memories of billy he still has left. nugget can read. how many times do you think he's gone through it, deciphering the handwriting and committing each word to memory?

lily can't read. lily's trying to find billy. lily's the reason there's a statue watching everyone in the playground. lily's putting herself in danger. nugget's scared of the principal, scared of speaking against him, scared of putting both lily and himself in danger when he's almost entirely convinced that billy's already dead. nugget makes a memorial. no-one but billy had seen inside of his cave before. in giving kid the note, he gets what he wanted too- billy back in his life.

lily gives up. lily doesn't fight. in that loop, lily dies. in a way, that's what she wanted too.

there's also a difference in how they give in. nugget trips over his words, tearful and scared. nobody's allowed to talk about billy, not without the devices in their pockets blowing up. he's overcome with grief and trying to reminisce about a friend he's been forced to forget hurts more than he can put into words. nugget's is a confession. nugget's is a cry for help.

penny cries out. penny's in anguish, penny's brain and will and body are all rebelling against each other. people aren't meant to be robots. penny knows she wasn't meant to survive. she's desperate, she's shouting because no-one will listen. penny's is a warning that she won't stay. penny's is rebellion, because she can't find it in herself to obey anymore even as a plastic smile stays plastered on her face.

lily's apathetic. every word is monosyllabic until she reaches the end of her sentence. "mean" is juveline, "mean" is simplistic. lily's a child. she focuses on cindy's bullying so she doesn't have to think about everything else she's lost, everything else on her mind. lily's miserable. lily's detached. lily speaks softly. lily goes without a fight.

…, !!!, . nugget gives detail, struggling to express just how affected he's been by billy's disappearance. penny's words are short and capitalised, as loud as ted's agonised screams when he's pushed into the hole. lily offers two short sentences: a surrender.

[rubybloodhound]

Imagine Meta Knight having to get his vaccines updated so he has to go to the doctor (puffball version of the vet) but he fucking HATES it and has to get lured into his crate

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[cosmospkmn]

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[solar-halos]

that’s fucking it im making a side blog (also editing to say that this post is giving pg13 so if that makes u uncomfy/if thats something u shouldn’t be reading then don’t click the “keep reading” option ok if u do i WILL find you)

i know i shouldn’t be embarrassed about having interests! that still doesn’t change the fact that i am. so here is the last time i will ever planet of the apes post on main:

i think it would be so cute for annie and zira to be pregnant at the same time. the repeated mentions of annie and finnick fucking nasty style was something i included bc 1) fucking nasty style?? in cages??? yeah, sounds about right coming from these two 2) yall can’t be surprised when we move onto the next installment of the series and annie is suddenly pregnant. like if anything it should be expected bc in any universe finnick’s pullout game is so weak

[naomiknight-17]

This was supposed to be an 'Ominous Potato' for, uh, @ominouspotato ... but I think I leaned too hard into the Junji Ito style and went right past ominous and into horror

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I am raising money to fix my broken oven, click here to see how you can get a doodle!

[bookwyrminspiration]

fillinf out all the stupid forms and ordering a stupid transcript to explain to the stupid financial aid people that the reason I have so many stupid credits but am not in my stupid degree program yet is because they're stupid transfers from stupid OTHER college and stupid OTHER degrees and most of the stupid credits are not! actually! relevant! to my stupid CURRENT degree paths!

[quatregats]

Hornblower as a character is like catnip to me but C.S. Forester is so so annoying <3

[marclef]

the marclef has drawn another clef. i kinda like both clefairy and clefable equally so they were both on this list, they're both good pink friends.

i love the idea that these little pink blobs are based on the whole moon rabbit thing. so i kinda went full Rabbit Chonk with this boy.

[opens-up-4-nobody]

God. One of my little sisters is such a bitch. She's done me some genuine damage in exacerbating my already social bad anxiety. But when I have dreams where she's been hurt or killed, it's so horrible bc she's still my lil sister :-(

[autumnrory]

okay tentatively have everything planned for the next gifset so. think i'll get on the old computer tonight and see how it goes on there lol

[pochapal]

kanon caring for jessica is kind of making me 🥺 not gonna lie

[hotsugarbyglassanimals]

the parallels between hatred of children for not knowing how to do things like emotional regulation or fine motor skills parallels with a lot of attitudes around disabilities that I hadn’t made the connection with before

[th4t-bug]

Oh.

There's five followers

Welp guess I'm gonna have to write in place of practicing for my speech in class the jaw after tomorrow /silly

[themapleleafdiaries]

my 10 year old GTX 770 has finally kicked the bucket

[sysig]

I remember this game (Patreon)