#this show makes me so fucking angry
Explore tagged Tumblr posts
Text
what is it with men in house md and rejecting baddies.... i dont understand.... first house dont want cameron then chase dont want cameron then house dont want STACY??? yall bitches gay af! id be all over that!!!
#house cant handle women bc his true soulmate is a man#that man is wilson#wilson just dont know it yet#this show makes me so fucking angry#house md#gregory house#alison cameron#robert chase#stacy warner
45 notes
·
View notes
Note
Do you think vi was a virgin before The Scene
nah. my girl was in prison for 7 yrs. did u see how quick she DROPPED to her knees like that shit comes from experience yall. she knows what the fuck shes doing sdlkfjsodiaghadlf
#🌧 raindrops#arcane#♨ steamy#truly like no i see the vision for vi being a virgin but at least in my hc shes like... so angry all the time#she DEF started fights and like.... how else to cool off sometimes but with a good hatefuck? mm. delicious#consider prison!vi x thief!reader who gets throne in a few years after vi gets put in#and vi immediately recognizes u like “ur the bitch who stole from one of our jobs” and ur like wow~~~ im honored u rmbr me#shell fuck u against her cell wall w her fingers shoved down ur throat to muffle ur moans#whisper about all the trouble she'd gotten in bc of ur hands while twisting them behind ur back#“not so quick w ur hands now are you?”#or make you finger her but like is super demeaning about it#“what happened? thought ur fingers were supposed to be faster than this -- show me what you got”#dude i need jesus LOL#vi x reader#vi smut#arcane smut#arcane x reader
460 notes
·
View notes
Text
ive been watching the dog motif show... why is no one talking about this guy. isaac lahey come home from france,,,, sweet boy,,,, we miss you,,,
#teen wolf#fanart#isaac lahey#x#there is actually so much to his character that it makes me wanna gnaw my fingers off#what do you mean he dug his own grave and accepted the bite with the assurance that it would save him from his abuse#but in reality he just traded one angry man for another#and he never escapes this cycle#and there is no other ending to this story#because he gets written off the show but he doesn't even get a tragic death bc the actor wanted to keep all his options open#daniel sharman when i fucking catch you#ugh#also i think this post is very on brand for me#sorry falsettos fans another niche no-demand fandom inside a fandom was calling my name#god i love bad television#punica granatum
287 notes
·
View notes
Note
I WANT TO WISH U A HAPPY NY🎉🎄!! (now in my country they celebrate🥲)I'M GLAD TO MEET UR BLOG. THIS IS THE CUTEST N MOST WONDERFUL BLOG. I very rarely see creativity with our sweet Nori!! But when I saw your blog, I was so happy!! I hope that in the future the blog will develop and thnq, dear froggy, for pleasing our eyes!!😭😭😭💗💗YOU'RE THE SUN & THE CHARM!!(◡‿◡✿)
*sorry for my strange english, I have problems w/ it 😞*
HAPPY END OF YEAR TO ALL OF YOU
Your english is lovely, dw. tysm for finding my cult in this corner and liking what you found! Also for reminding me today is the last day of the year (my time)
aint no fucking way am i gonna allow this cult having more depictions of me than Noritoshi fucking Kamo. So i present to you, my beloved cult members, a bunch of doodles i have of Noritoshi.
there is no particular order
#noritoshi#kamo noritoshi#noritoshi kamo#noritoshi x reader#kamo noritoshi x reader#noritoshi kamo x reader#jjk#jujutsu kaisen#chunga-chuck#this guy has been rottin my brain for a while#i love him your honor but this also makes me realize i havent drawn much of the other characters.. like at all.. damn#im a shy bitch to show my nsfw/suggestive work so i might make a separate post for that if enough ppl are interested#OR NOT WHO KNOWS. WTV#i like drawing noritoshi blushing or angry#hes cute#but im neglecting his other cute emotions.. will get there#AH BUT HNY i dont celebrate much but the hype from everyone is rubbin off on me#tumblr better not fuck up this formatting istg#if it does ITS NOT MY FAULT#null rot
310 notes
·
View notes
Text
I'm so sick of Sam being left out of What if...? (In general, and also to legitimise Peggy as cap)
Is it because they think that without Steve and the morning run meet-cute, that there's no way to recruit Sam? Be real. Ffs.
Because with the tiniest shred of imagination they could make it work.
Take Rhodey. In Iron Man 1 he's the Air Force liaison for research and development, right? He's got a background in aerospace engineering, right? So presumably he'd know about the EXO Falcon program, yeah?
So when a world crisis is underway and the good guys need a little back up, or even pararescue to help civilians, Rhodey could be the one to say 'I know a guy.. Let's call in some help'.
If these are all alternate timelines you could even bring in both Sam and Riley, cos maybe Riley never died and that's why Sam is still active and on-call. A bonus great opportunity to see more of Sam's history and wingman dynamic (which was important enough to make him quit when Riley was killed.)
Point is, if the show creators wanted to, they would.
#sam wilson#sam wilson meta#what if#honestly fuck this show i'm glad i'm not watching#i was never an outright peggy anti but this show is making me one#this is my villain origin story#(also idgaf about st*cky never have never will so that's not my motivation. i'm just angry about sam)#what if season 2#mcu critical#rhodey#james rhodes
264 notes
·
View notes
Text
i’ve never been as angry on behalf of a character as i am for sam winchester
#currently thinking about season four and five. absolutely fuckibg mental#the world literally reshapes itself around him to prove him wrong#its all framed as God. Sam was so stupid and selfish and reckless for drinking demon blood. He just liked the power of it and he chose a#DEMON over DEAN.#but. that’s not the story they tell in s4.#like even aside from every single other complexity. Sam is literally right. he has ZERO WAY of knowing that killing lilith is the final seal#AND DEAN DOESNT KNOW TJAT EITHER. like sam is literally right he can kill lilith and he does kill lilith. dean wants lilith dead just as#much. sam’s cardinal sin is disobeying dean and then the world flips around on him and plot twist sam and dean were both wrong all along and#killing lilith is what will bring back lucifer :)#but. it’s not framed like that either. it’s framed like SAM BROUGHT BACK LUCIFER BY KILLING LILITH WHILE HIGH ON DEMON BLOOD#dean you wanted to kill lilith too?????????#but. doesn’t matter dean despite being mostly motivated by jealous anger is retroactively proven to be Right#and sam is retroactively proven to be Wrong. he is bad#i just. jesus. sam’s not evil ever. he’s hardly even that fucking morally grey#and he still thinks there’s something wrong with him that he’s a freak that he’s inherently evil and needs to be purified#why?? cause of something fucked up that happened to him when he was a baby#and because he’s disobeyed his father and his brother and been angry at awful things that have happened to him#makes me feel fucking insane actually#no wonder narrative frames sam as evil no wonder he’s inherently marked as Bad by the forces in supernatural like even on a meta level#in supernatural gods just another shitty father. embodiment of the familial patriarch. and from sam’s very first moment on the show he’s in#opposition to that he’s ran away from john and he argues with dean. therefore he is evil#i don’t think my words r really making sense right now but. fucking hell#and sam is so swamped in guilt all of season five and he just fucking accepts that everything bad is his fault#and he gets tortured in the cage to save the fucking world and it’s STILL not enough. not to appease his own guilt and not to appease deans#anger at him. dean is still throwing his perceived violations back at him in like season nine!!#and whenever he tries to get out it’s treated as yet another Sin. narrative acts like sam thinking dean was dead and having a life outside#of hunting is The Worst Thing He Ever Did#worst sin sam ever commits in the eyes of the show is disobedience. Absolutely awful actually#spn#sam winchester
142 notes
·
View notes
Text
Dean is such a paradox for me because on the one hand, I have been actively triggered by him in the show, there are moments where, intentionally or not, the writers managed to create a portrayal of manipulation and abuse and control issues that it sets off actual alarms for me. And on the other hand, I would not have him any other way. There is something — not comforting, that’s too soft a word — about knowing where Dean’s actions stem from, having seen and learned all that we do about his childhood neglect and parentification and the trauma he goes through repeatedly in the show, and that he doesn’t come out clean. He comes out a goddamn mess who ends up hurting the people around him in reaction to his own pain!
There’s a reality there that’s. Almost nice, actually. Distressing to watch, but it is a fucking mess, it’s a good mess! He’s got zero healthy coping skills and a healthy relationship with say, his brother, is terrifying because it leaves him open to abandonment!
I’m not sure I’m wording this correctly. There is a way to be a good abuse victim. Take the pain, martyr yourself on it, and then, even if you have no support or idea how to, then you have to become a Good Person who never hurts anyone the way you have been learning to your entire life. Simply toss everything that shaped you out the door and emerge a saint with a tragic backstory. And Dean is not that. And that’s so fucking good. Everything that he has gone through continues to effect the way he treats the people around him, and he can’t fight the behaviors he might recognize as harmful because he also sees them as protecting him (or protecting Sam by keeping Sam with him.)
And sometimes, idk. It feels good to see a guy who didn’t heal the “right way.” Who mostly didn’t heal at all, just keeps the wound open because it’s easier that way.
#there’s a whole other bit to this about how like. it’s hard for fandom to hold the idea that someone can be both a victim and abusive#at the same time. that the ways someone has been hurt don’t always shape them into kindness and wide-eyed sympathy. occasionally it just#makes them hard to live with. and I think most obviously is the thing that a lot of what Dean does is an expression of love. of protection.#he’s very much his father’s son in that way. that’s why Sam. the guy he’s been Told to protect his whole life. is also the person he ends up#hurting the most. it’s tragedy. it’s realistic. it’s a good fucking mess.#and that’s why I don’t get interpretations of dean that are determined to shave off the ugly parts of his character. to me those are the#parts that make him a character worth revisiting. he’s so full of love. and he uses it to hurt people. he means to sometimes. a lot of the#time he doesn’t but hurts them anyway. he has been shaped by violence his whole life. and it’s just. I get why someone might take this#part of him away. to make him easier to love. because I get that he’s stressful to watch also like I get that. but he is.#he is compelling. in his anger and his controlling behavior and his strangling love. he is compelling in all the ways he has become this.#Dean’s degradation into these behaviors can be both a failure of a show that ran to long but also the believable trajectory of a man who#can’t heal. and I love him for that. I love him for emerging from pain as a angry sharp thing. I love that it brings the glimpses of him#being gentler and recognizing his actions as bad into stark relief. I love that this recognition often only lasts until he is hurt again and#then he backpedals into the safety of behaviors he knows will allow him to control a situation through force or manipulation.#it’s good fucking mess. you know? dean winchester everybody.#maybe I should have put all that in the main post. oh well. too late now.#spn#dean winchester#tw abuse
266 notes
·
View notes
Text
google search dark magic spells to kill your bitchass professor
#sorry have to do a tiny vent here#oh my GOD he makes me so fucking angry#every time he starts to slowly earn my favor back he takes it and spits in my face#I know I’m being over dramatic about it in reality but. GOD he pisses me off#todays class was so fucking miserable oh my god#but luckily there was coincidentally ANOTHER free drag show at my school tonight#so I forced myself to get up and go to that bc I knew it would make me feel better and it did 👍#thank you drag 👍
28 notes
·
View notes
Text
sorry him saying he has no idea where the misogyny thing comes from when ludwig just talked about how he sent him a big apology for calling his friend a whore when it was about THE WRONG WOMAN is funny as fuck
i dont think he realizes that the reason no one gives a shit about his apologies and honestly just straight up ignores them is because EVEN IN THE EVENT THAT THEY ARE TRUE he's been proven to lie soooooo many times to the point where you really cant believe a word that comes out of his mouth. he says something and im like "damn maybe i was wrong about that one... i'll look into it" and you get more info and go "oh. he just made that part up. and misworded that. and lied about that part... oh it was actually WORSE than i initially thought!"
#im sure tommy has done some dumb shit#i am MUCH more likely to believe he can change and grow as a person than you can 🧍#im willing to stick by him and watch him become a better person and own up to his mistakes#i have been trying so hard to see the good in you for like 4 years now and i just. cant. every time i think i might be wrong im right again#i HATE to bring it back to this bc it's such a non-issue and not very relevant but#the speedrun issue really was where he showed his true colors#the actual subject here doesnt matter im talking about the way he handled it. im still pissed off all this time later i'll never get over i#he cheats. BLATANTLY cheats. gets proven. sends his mob after the mods. denies everything#hires someone with all this money he has to say he didnt cheat (BUT THE GUY NEVER EVEN SAYS THAT HE JUST CLAIMS THE GUY SAYS IT)#(BC HE DOESNT EXPECT ANYONE TO ACTUALLY READ THIS DOC HE THINKS HIS SUMMARY IS ALL THAT MATTERS)#finds out he did cheat But On Accident (supposedly)#DOESNT SAY SHIT FOR MONTHS AND LETS EVERYONE CONTINUE TO HARASS THE MODS. GEO IS SUICIDAL#and then does a stream where he's like haha hey guys so umm i did an oopsie 😝 but i didnt cheat this isnt cheating it's just. lying!#anyways it doesnt matter bc this was so fun and i had a blast making content :) and besides it isnt a big deal anyways it's just a game :)#months of harassment didnt affect ME so you should be fine :D was a lot of fun thx guys :)#THAT SHIT was where i lost all respect for him#THAT was where i saw this same pattern every damn time#doesnt matter how big or small the issue is it's the same damn thing every single time#even when you're right. you've destroyed all your credibility by continuing this behavior!#yeah you're valid in thinking tommy downplaying your videos is just mean but. frankly i dont give a fuck!#you're probably right about a few other things too and again i just dont care!! he can change and grow and you never will!!!#i'm willing to give him a chance. you've had PLEEEEENTY of chances and havent taken a single one#chat#discourse#i guess? idk this is the only angry rant i'll do. i feel bad might as well add to it lmao
28 notes
·
View notes
Text
i just need to know what it is about me that everyone thinks it’s okay to constantly disrespect me and treat me like a subhuman. everyone keeps telling me it’s not my fault that i keep getting used and fucked over but the common denominator is me.
like i don’t know what it is about guys being on the internet that makes them think women are a roster for them to act how every they want and have no consequences. im sorry it’s fucking trashy and what’s worse is when they’re people you have been friends with for years. even worse when they’re in a relationship. being online does not mean anonymous and social media is not a fucking dating or hookup app and i dont do that shit. i dont associate with people who do that shit and i don’t tolerate it being done to me.
you can ask people to stop but unless they respect you and actually want to i guess change for lack of a better word you’re stuck on a constant cycle of this harassment and borderline mental abuse and it’s really starting to take its fucking toll on me.
I’ve lost some of my best friends who think i just fuck around with whoever gives me attention because of my personality i guess i don’t know but it makes me sick to my stomach and i have never hated myself more. and then to find out your boyfriend is/was doing the same thing? it’s fucking devastating.
all it tells me is that im worth nothing to no one. the only thing im good for is sex or my appearance and when they get bored of me theres always someone else.
i have given up so much of myself to people who don’t deserve to be a thought in my mind and I still will protect them because i want to be the better person.
i just can’t take it anymore. i want to be chosen by someone who chooses me. me the person. sure i want the compliments and the flirty bits n all that but like there’s so much more to me than just my appearance and it’s becoming sickening clear that’s all im good for.
i’ve never felt so alone and i hate myself for it.
#like i don’t even pursue anything with people#i don’t initiate this shit and i sure as shit don’t reciprocate#so i don’t understand why this keeps happening#like these people know me#they know exactly how i am#why do they think i’ll act any differently online#i am a one guy kind of girl#i do not fuck around#even now i wont#and literally no one knows about the boyfriend situation#we’re still acting like everything is normal to the friend group#again because even though he deserves no grace i still want to protect him#i don’t want people talking bad about him despite how much i still hurt#so as far as everyone is concerned aside from the like 2 people who know#im in a relationship and it just shows that people have no fucking respect for that#like aside from tumblr two people know what’s up#one moved away like 5yrs ago and doesn’t talk to anyone#and the other kinda got thrown into the middle of it at no fault of their own#so like literally people just have zero disrespect for me#and i don’t want it to make me angry or bitter#but it’s so fucking hard
20 notes
·
View notes
Text
Can't believe this show just said that yeah these broken children that have finally managed to claw some semblance of family out of the train wreck their psychotic father made of them, these children now adults, don't get peace, they don't deserve it. actually the world is so much better without them in it. They are the direct reason why so many people they have met are not living happier lives and the universe would be a much happier safer place with them gone. They were pawns in their father's game and now they are victims of their "mother's" scheme. And this is all they get, there was never any happy ending for them in the cards the universe rebukes their very existence and it is constantly trying to write them out of it.
They doomed the world from the start, the blame is all at their feet and they must pay for the crime of being born "special".
The fucking implications of that my god!
That's the message you ended your show on. That is what you are leaving us with. Why?
#not even a group hug? really?!?!#what are the impilcations of this steven? what are they huh?#KC watches#the umbrella academy#the fact that the handler is alive well and thriving while the girl she abused for years had to die for it is so ughhhhhh. The implications#I still don't get what Reggie's wife was trying to prove shit wasnt going to happen to you purposely kick started it and for what?#to show reggie that you feel guilty for destroying your world by destroying another world?#would have been better if she was just a straight villian because what? what are you sincerely yapping about#God I didn't think this would make me so angry because honestly I'm all for the occasioanl tragic ending#the don't look ups where you gave it your best shot but it just didn't work out but that was handled so much fucking better than this#also the message in that movie is a fucking warning what are you trying to warn us about steve? Emotionally underdeveloped adults are bad?#God I'm not trying to accuse anyone on the show of some underlying ism#but come on not a single person was a little bit concered about the implications? the fucking implication my god#god I'm going to make a longer post about my general thoughts soon#tua season 4#tua#tua s4#tua spoilers#hargreeves siblings#ben hargreeves#five hargreeves#allison hargreeves#luther hargreeves#diego hargreeves#lila pitts#umbrella acedmy#hargreeves family
26 notes
·
View notes
Text
people bitch about fan service but the second a show does something the audience doesnt like everyone goes apeshit. yes this is about izzy’s death, but it’s also about go2 when aziraphale left with the metatron. there’s a reason these things happen, and your favourite tv show isnt always going to go just how you want it to without flaws.
#izzys death was tragic and yeah im sad about it but the way some ppl are posting about it on here are making me so angry#the importance and value of the show is not undermined by one thing happening that you dont like#can we please for the love of fucking god just celebrate how amazing it was that we got another season?#ofmd#our flag means death#ofmd s2#taika waititi#rhys darby
138 notes
·
View notes
Text
okay when i say "what adult swim did to metalocalypse is a travesty" i don't mean it in a "this is my all-time favorite show on adult swim and im still bitter about it 10 years later" kind of way, i mean it in a "mike lazzo fucked over one of the most popular shows on adult swim at the time, before the story had even finished, out of almost nothing but pure spite and pettiness against the showrunners, and the following actions he took after canceling it should never have been handled in the way that it was" kind of way
#like sure cancel the show if you want#but to LITERALLY SHOW A LIVESTREAM IN THE MTL TIME SLOT#OF YOU PRINTING OUT FAXED FAN LETTERS ONLY FOR THEM TO GO RIGHT INTO A SHREDDER#IS THE PETTIEST MOST DOGSHIT WAY OF HANDLING SOMETHING I HAVE EVER SEEN#ESPECIALLY AS A FUCKING PRESIDENT OF A NETWORK???#YOU CAN HAVE SPITE FOR A SHOWRUNNER#WHATEVER#BUT SHOWING YOUR SPITE FOR THAT SHOWRUNNER IN THAT MANNER IS THE MOST CHILDISH THING I HAVE EVER SEEN#it just makes me. so angry???#ugh.#metalocalypse#dethklok#not stam1na#not sabaton#jamesposting#jamesranting
149 notes
·
View notes
Note
i politely demand you talk about your nge/pacrim au!
thank you for enabling my behavior and for all your art omg <33333 i will attempt to coherently and briefly outline my thoughts
the short version is: yuuta/rika saves you post-battle and both are irrationally upset when it turns out that you already have a boyfriend.
yuuta would like to take some of the credit for digging you out the rubble, but the truth is, it was like his mech was on auto-pilot, overriding all of his controls to dig you out of a lifeless environment and stash your cold, limp body in the center chamber until yuuta and rika were transported back to the base.
yuuta doesn’t understand why he lost control of rika like that, nor does he understand why he feels so upset when he goes to visit you in the infirmary and there’s already some other man by your bedside holding your hand. he vaguely recognizes kokichi as a junior engineer who’s done a few surface level repairs on rika, and he’s surprised and green with envy to find out that kokichi is also your boyfriend.
yuuta doesn’t understand the anger he feels, or the headache he gets, or the panic attack that’s threatening to rise in him, or why his feet automatically drag him back to his mech, or why he feels like he could hear rika’s faint sobs and screams in his head and he lay in his pilot chamber. none of it makes sense and he can barely sleep because of it, but it happens every time he thinks about you and kokichi for too long; and strangely enough, if the thinks about how rika seemed to come to life to save you for too long. there’s some kind of missing link he can’t piece together.
when you’re conscious, you can’t seem to recall any part your childhood, and only have your memories from college onwards, save for bits and pieces of the attack you were a victim of. yuuta learns that you were studying to be an engineer, that you were moving to work at the hangar and be closer to your boyfriend, that kokichi was slated to pick you up from the airport that ended up being the site of attack. a small part of yuuta wishes kokichi had been there, thinks that rika wouldn’t have found him in the rubble.
you’re the miracle save, and somewhat become the baby of the hangar. world-renowned pilots you’d only ever studied in class stopped by to give you their condolences, offer their help. you try to remain calm when satoru gojo and kento nanami make an appearance as a duo in your tiny recovery room, calling you brave and bowing to you with a home cooked meal in hand. senior engineers do their best to recover your work from college, assuring you that your injuries and recovery period would be a non-factor in the hiring process—that you were free to start as soon as you felt comfortable. you get the most attention from yuuta, who makes himself a friend, and a critical part of your recovery, essentially firing your physical therapist in favor of fixing you himself.
everyone makes you feel welcome, but yuuta makes you feel safe. he holds your waist while you re-learn to walk, he sneaks you into the pilot’s lounge while the jaegers have their repairs done—and nods in faux-sympathy as you mourn the presence of your boyfriend, who seems busier than ever these days with nuisance repairs, jokes about how yuuji and megumi seem to be particularly reckless with their jaeger lately—he squeezes your hand when you have headaches and fractured flashbacks of your past that you can’t piece together, he holds you when you cry out of pure frustration of not being able to remember who you are
yuuta’s a real smooth talker, too. always knows exactly how to comfort you while your boyfriend is busy, always talks to the press about you so preciously, always makes you feel like you have a purpose even if you can’t remember your past self—maybe you weren’t meant to remember anything before him and rika, maybe it was meant to be this way. it’s a twisted comfort, but it’s something to cling to, it’s better than crying over memories you no longer have.
everyone notices yuuta’s weird reverse stockholm syndrome lol… the way he hovers over you like he���s your sole protector and savior, the way he demands to be privy to all decisions about your health care, the way he remains close to you with no fear of your boyfriend. nobody says anything, though—yuuta’s a pilot, a good one, and one the few solo pilots in the entire world. he’s precious and vital to humanity, worth a thousand men, worth ten thousand engineers. besides, his friends see something special between you two, especially the co-pilot pairs; satoru and kento, megumi and yuuji, choso and yuki—they know compatibility when they see it, and boyfriend or not, you have something special with yuuta. they all share a common thought: kokichi is fighting a losing battle. and even if he could beat yuuta, he’d never win against rika.
#answered#teehee there's So Much Lore that i could talk about but i tried to keep this a reasonable length#and i hope it feels slightly ominious teehee <333#this is really just me bringing back my favorite point to light again: none of the jjk boys are SHIT!#boyfriend>? never heard of him! to yuuta he's YOUR save#he and rika pulled you out of the dirt and snow and brought you back to life... hows ur boyfriend gonna compete with that? he shouldnt ://#he should give up :// it sure would make yuuta's life easier... sigh#also note! the rest of them aint shit either! bc WHY are they rooting for him 😭 terrible#there's so many versions of the au the temptation to truman show it is also there but i think i want that for something different#teehee <333 anyway thank u for ur art my dear !!!!!!!!!!#there's also another version which is simply youre a co-pilot with someone else#and the yuuta comes along looking like a kicked wet puppy and somehow he's like 98% compatible with you#and everyones like whoah what the fuck... which makes u angry bc u were perfectly happy being previously more compatible with ur boyfriend!#and here comes along this LOSER to ruin everything....... love of ur life but a LOSER#yuuta x reader#pacrim au
42 notes
·
View notes
Text
the temptation to make a dani/illyana smut fic where it's literally just them pining over kitty and rahne, respectively. dani accidentally using her mirage powers over the both of them to project their greatest desires.....
#ough the angst potential....#they so badly want to be loved but don't want to admit it#dani is the leader and can never show her weakness#she can't admit that she wants rahne bc rahne *doesn't* like her like that (rahne still hasn't undone the damage her upbringing did)#illyana doesn't think she deserves someone like kitty#but she *wants*#she aches#and she can put down her mental sheilds for this. she can bask in the fantasy. just once (or twice. or three times. or-)#and it becomes a reoccuring thing#illyana brings them both to limbo and they use each other to forget#it's rough and angry but also so soft and sweet at the same time#and then it's over and the mirage fades and dani closed her eyes and pretends like she's burying her face into short red fuzz#while illyana makes herself believe that the hair tickling her skin are from kitty's curls#and they're not even enemies. they don't hate eachother. they don't truly love eachother either. they have an silent agreement#the ethics of using psychic powers to fuck your crush#can this be classified as toxic yuri#maybe just pining yuri#idk man#i read a dani/illyana fic and now it's given me brainrot#new mutants#illyana rasputin#dani moonstar
12 notes
·
View notes
Text
I’m allowed one (1) vent of the colossal amounts of pressure my body and mind are under per month and i usually do my best to bury it in the early hours of the morning, so now that i’ve provided this valuable and important context:
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
#my stuff#i need to be beaten to death i need to be eaten alive i need to be slashed and stabbed and burned to ash#nothing i do will ever EVER be enough to make up for the existential guilt that gnaws at my soul#i’m hungry i’m tired i’m stressed about work and the safety and well-being of my family and friends#i miss my goddamn ex over a year after the end of a 6 month relationship like a pathetic wretch#i will never be pretty the way i wanted to be as a child and can only make myself enough of a freak that i don’t care#i want to be brutally harmed so the flesh of my body will show a fraction of the damage i feel inside#these wounds do not heal no matter how much i try to treat them with friendship and food and music and life#it is all insufficient. i was not supposed to live this long.#i try every day to be kind and to make the world a better place so that maybe just maybe i can say i earned the right to live that day#it never feels like enough. it probly never will#i’m so angry i’m so sad i feel incurable lonely no matter how much time i spend with friends#as soon as the call is over or i head home the darkness washes right back in and i feel like an abandoned cat on the roadside again#i want everything to be okay. It’s not right now#i want everyone i love to be warm to be safe to have enough to eat but I AM NOT GOD#i can’t fix everything no matter how much it makes me writhe inside#i’m a broke fucking grad student with a useless fucking project and they should bury me alive in the field research camp#perhaps a vegetable would cause less despair
14 notes
·
View notes