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so uh the grass is on fire??
#just…how??#like how?#im so confused#this isn’t good for practice time#but just…#what?#the sleep deprivation is getting to me#that’s such a big mark though#formula one#china gp 2024#fp1#f1#scuderia ferrari#mercedes#mercedes amg petronas#red bull racing#red bull f1#mclaren racing#mclaren#aston martin f1#aston martin#williams racing#alpine#alpine racing#kick sauber#visa cashapp racing bulls
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I go off about Catholic/christian religious influencers of all kinds and I do so for many reasons but one of the main ones is just. the feeling they’re selling (and it is a feeling and they’re selling it, even if just for views) it doesn’t feel like that for everyone. That whole simplistic set-up of struggle struggle struggle, breakthrough, clarity, emotional peace, tears streaming down the face. That’s not real. Or at least it’s not real much of the time in MANY cases and even when it is real that isn’t the only part or the most important part of having a relationship with God. It’s probably the least important part, the feeling. and so it fills me with RAGE when the emotional part of religion is sold and packaged and paraded and presented on Instagram as “inspiration”! it distorts the whole reality of a relationship with God and puts a literal and figurative Instagram filter over the whole thing.
#I mean. pray in silence where your Father who is in Heaven can see you. like??????#I’m sure I’m getting the direct reference wrong but.#anyways it just bugs me so much because I’m a highly emotional and intense person and religious experiences just aren’t like that for me#and faith isn’t like that for me. and it just isn’t this soft-hearted feel-good thing all the time!!!!!!!! most of the time it isn’t#and it makes me feel sooooooo bad and awful when some Instagram influencer with woman femininity or grace in her handle#shows up in my feed ready to talk about the waters that the Lord has led her through#like I can’t even begin to articulate my own journey with God#nor do I feel compelled to do so. but seeing other people do it makes me feel so instantly awful and alienated#and …. grubby#it makes me feel grubby because I am not seeing the world through soft pastels and lens flares#and because I don’t experience God’s love for me as a feeling#never have probably never WILL#and it’s just upsetting and maddening and I think it’s so bad for the culture#also I’ve started reading a little bit of st. Francis de sales every night#much against my will at first because pretty much all spiritual reading makes me bristle and makes me anxious#but honestly it’s been so good and he finds that kind of insta-influencing DEAD#because it isn’t fake and it isn’t performative and it is practical#and generally it’s realistic and hopeful and simple#anyway just ughhhhhhhhhhhhh. I have so many feelings about this
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I love starting something new and just KNOWING that the story is going to destroy me, even though I’m going in blind
So anyway I started in stars and time today—
#in stars and time#Shen’s isat experience#new tag for a new game#if anyone gives me spoilers I’m going to eat your teeth#I’m not even very far in#but time loops + an mc who blatantly hates himself isn’t a good sign#like wow siffrin is so self loathing#he practically breaks down over making mirabelle slightly upset#sir this isn’t healthy and I’m afraid#loop seems cool tho I like them#they’re probably also severely traumatized#but right now it’s silly star dude#oh btw I fucked around and ate the pineapple
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Fuck anatomy, perspective and clothing folds they’re difficult af and they’re even more ridiculous when you try to combine the three
#if it isn’t obvious these are practice sketches of the three#and I’m failing spectacularly#especially with clothing folds i hate him with a passion#but i also love them with a passion#ah to have a love/hate relationship#anyway time to sleep so good night#anothers art#diamond is unbreakable#josuke higashikata#jjba#jjba fanart#jjba josuke#jojo#jojo josuke#jojo fanart#jjba diamond is unbreakable#jjba part 4#jojo part 4
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The borzoi babes did a couple things at the UKC shows yesterday! This counts as Kram’s first competition win anywhere!
#dogblr#petblr#show dogs#UKC dog show#borzoi#puppy#puppy borzoi#sighthound#dog#Krampus#margo#we go for practice#he isn’t competitive in AKC yet#and I don’t necessarily want the community and judges to have a picture of him in any puppy uglies lolol#so UKC is a great practice ground#also a good place to brush up on handling skills#margo comes to keep practiced for when I bring her out for specialties#my sister also does the silken thing#so we have a good time I guess rofl
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I woke up at a reasonable time I contacted my realtor I picked out houses to look at this weekend I set up an appt with my mortgage person I did my dishes I did my laundry I took out the piles of trash/empty boxes/etc I decluttered every surface in my apartment I dusted I picked up so much junk that was on the floor I put clothes away I shoved a lot of stuff into boxes and put the boxes in a closet/corner/etc I cleaned my water bottle I cleaned the bathroom I cleaned the window and window sill that I use for late night moody gazing time I fed myself I reviewed my finances I brushed my cat
and I finally feel 72% less overwhelmed by life than I have in ages
All of this is stuff that has been needing done for a long while and somehow I’m supposed to manage these things while also working every day? I’m never going to manage that man I’m going to have to build in “get my life together” staycations into my work time off from now on which is. A bit annoying as that means I have less time off to use for fun things like ACTUALLY GOING ON VACATIONS and doing fun things but I will adjust my life as I need to remain sane because I will love myself and meet myself where I’m at instead of trying to force me to be a way that I’m not 😙
And now. It is 5PM. I have worked enough today. It’s now edible + sudoku + bob’s burgers time baybeeeee 😎
#starlight personal#I just wanted to pat myself on the back for getting so much done today when it’s mid-PMDD luteal phase hell#so this is a bit of a humble brag I’ll admit that but I am genuinely proud of myself for knowing my limits#and working with my brain instead of against it#if I need to take time off for this stuff then I’m gonna do it because I deserve some ease#I don’t have enough time-energy-stamina to do this type of cleaning and also work and a weekend isn’t enough time to recuperate and get -#on top of things - and I’m balancing self-care (self-indulgent) and self-care (practically helpful)#I did things that were good for me (made my living space habitable and crossed things off of todo list)#and now I’m doing things that are good for me in a fun way (getting fucked up and doing puzzles)#I wish I had a jigsaw puzzle FUCK that would be the only way to make today better#self love and self compassion is hard and I feel stupid and silly BUT THAT’S OKAY it’s worth it!!!!#I cannot wait for the edible to hit so I can take a shower with spiritual significance#that’s the best part of weed tbh it’s getting to a nice level of high and then taking a shower and remembering that life is magical#high showers feel SO good and refreshing and it’s probs one of my favorite experiences in life
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If I see one more skinny Aziraphale… may someone help them.
#I’m so sick and tired of it#HES BEEN FAT FOR MILLIONS OF YEARS GET IT TOGETHER#SINCE BEFORE THE CONCEPT OF TIME ITSELF HES BEEN FAT#LOOK UP REFERENCES PRACTICE IDGAF#THIS DOESNT EVEN FOR JUST AZI BASICALLY LOTS OF CANON FAT CHARACTERS#ranting#good omens#ineffable husbands#please for the love of somebody do better#this isn’t aimed at everyone most of the fandom is good with it#They know who they are#fat character
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So I’m working on being able to sing Mephisto, the Oshi No Ko ED, cus the singer is a trans woman and I’m obsessed with her voice and range and
Look at this:
… Holy shit man
#like I /can/ do it… it’s very very hard and it’ll take a lot of practice to sound good but I can#it’s a little bit short of a two octave jump but the range of the whole song is like a little more than two octaves#I just love the song a whole lot cus she’s not trying to disguise her voice. she doesn’t sound like a cis person and she isn’t trying to.#i love it cus I spend a lot of time self conscious abt my voice and not sounding cis. I love that she doesn’t care#that she’s leaning into it. cus hell yeah trans voices are weird and beautiful.
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So for some reason, I thought I would not have to do specialty-specific research to match pulm/crit, and that I could get away with exclusively having medical education scholarly projects. This was probably dumb of me, but I am nevertheless really unhappy to find out I was wrong. I just hate research man. I love science, I love digging into the literature and coming up with good questions and synthesizing information, but I hate performing analysis myself. I especially hate churning out shitty chart reviews and case reports just to pack my resume, and the thought of having to keep doing that during residency makes me wanna throw up. The vast majority of research done by physicians is utter trash (we do not have the time or training to complete meaningful research on our own most of the time!), it doesn’t improve physicians’ scientific literacy, it is just chasing prestige. I hate it. Please please let me work on a project that is actually meaningful.
#I so often feel like the wrong kind of person for medicine purely because I am more focused on teaching and community health#and I do not care about getting in NEJM or whatever#like good for the people who are actually doing good research#I am not one of them#can we not consider that maybe medicine should have multiple types of people with different interests#also I do not have infinite time#so doing shitty research projects takes my time away from actually worthwhile projects that I care about#also like half the reason I switched from neurosurgery was that I didn’t wanna be trapped doing shitty research#just to hang onto an academic job so I can occasionally teach#and it looks like I am trapped there anyway with IM!#god fucking dammit!#i just hate it i fucking hate it#why isn’t it enough to practice medicine and teach residents and med students#why do I have to be a scientist before I can be an ICU doctor#they are different fucking professions#okay I guess I’ll wrap up my rant here#my content#my text posts#medblr#med school#medicine#med student
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Modern versions
#my art#my ocs#oc art#modern au#Ernest might’ve been goth if not more ‘dark academia’ fashioned#santos mom was always goth tho the clothing isn’t practical for a small and very poor village#and Ms. Dahl is still the same but now has estrogen available! good for her!!#santo is self indulgent here cause ughhh I love that modern (kinda traditional and streetwear mixed?) Chicano fashion#I think he would probably embrace his intersex identity more too#modern times are more lenient than the 1920s so he can be who he wants to be
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Oh my GOD can these people stop making Weverse lives so cringe and embarrassing 😭😭 lives w the boys used to be a sacred time between them and army to sincerely ask questions and update us with their current projects, thoughts, interests etc and now they can’t even read the comments bc authentic armys comments are getting drowned in the spams of shippers and weird kids who think it’s okay to project their delusions on the artists. I am v upset rn I fear certain members will hardly go back to lives bc of the lack of proper interactions 😣
Also // I feel like most of the real time viewers now joined recently and weren’t a part of the whole “one live per year” if even that so they take the content for granted. 💔
#please people#I am BEGGING#stop ruining our artist fan relationship#they already give us SO much#I can not stand Weverse armys I’m sorry#yet the good ones end up being the ones practically filtered out??#Weverse just needs to step it up and hire an actual human ADMIN#to physically report#ban#and delete comments in real time#so that people learn what is and isn’t acceptable#okay I’m done#random ish#ignore me
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see i have all these spicy takes in the drafts that i don’t post out of self-restraint but then i see a spicy take that i hate SO MUCH and then i want to post mine out of revenge. it’s a terrible cycle tbh.
#it is actually and fundamentally not good for my weaknesses to be here lol#but I also love it! And love the community and the support and don’t find a ready-made replacement for that in real life#so yeah. I wrestle with it#if I could always use it as an opportunity to practice charity and restraint and shutting up it would be a good thing#but I have to be careful with any known potential irritant because I have such a temper and get so genuinely pissed off so easily#while also having poor impulse control#and like. it isn’t fair of me to be out there baiting people with my opinions and being provoking with takes I know will be upsetting#to the circle in which I move on here#but I also love to say a thing I think is true or feel is true and talking my way into a more nuanced opinion is how I do it!#but also like. the simple truth is that it also isn’t kind or charitable or necessary most of the time#no matter how I try to dress it up with comments on my personality and how I learn/like to analyze things#I really wrestle with it. there was a part of me that so at peace when I was gone from tumblr (essentially) for half a year#but again. I missed it#teaching helps a lot. my personality can take the very age-appropriate obnoxiousness and idiocy that comes with talking about literature#to teenagers#but I’m kind of so over trying to have a nuanced conversation online#it’s just so hard. I need the body language and the one to one you can only have in person for certain conversations#and disagreements. tbh it’s better and kinder and just BETTER if i stay out of it online#but I never do it perfectly#I’m just rambling. But yeah#thanks for listening#this has been#3 text posts in a row with Maria
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From a very young age, Kaeya held such a fondness for handholding. Whether it was his father clinging tightly to him to make sure he didn’t get lost, Adelinde’s gentle, grounding hand closed over his to comfort him whenever his nerves got the better of him, Crepus’s rough-palmed, firm yet comforting grip as he brought him back home, or, as it was most often of all, Diluc’s warm, yet at times uncomfortably tight hold as he dragged him anywhere, everywhere, determined to always keep Kaeya close and eagerly show him all there was to see, Kaeya treasured the gesture greatly.
Of course, being as shy as he was, initiating it himself was always the harder part. So much so, he would tend to hold pinkies, rather than outright take a person’s hand in his own. Eventually, it would become his most common way to go about the gesture of affection.
#hc; kaeya#//Handholding is one of his favorite ways of affection bc 1) it’s not too overwhelming when it comes to his touch aversion#//The sensation is all focused in one spot; and even then; it’s more grounding than uncomfortable bc of how firm people’s grasp tends to be#//He really took to holding pinkies bc he realized he could ‘test’ people that way#//If it was a bother to them; they wouldn’t blink twice before moving their hand from his hold. so rejection isn’t as BIG; more subtle#//And if they Liked it; they could either accept it as is or make him happier and take firmer hold of his hand#//Once he was more confident; he would go straight to more outright handholding. Klee ofc got that RIGHT from the getgo. Bc she is smol &#liked him from the start. Even if her Pyro energy did make him uncomfortable at first; but he got used to it. for her#//Luc made it easy to go right to it to—the kid would always seem to know when he wanted to hold hands for whatever reason and grabbed hold#before Kae could link pinkies. kae did like the fact that Luc would Pout the few times Kae did link pinkies instead of hold hands#//Pout; & snatch his hand firmly in his like ‘Why did you do that? THIS way’s better’. Love the image of bby!Kae grabbing bby!Luc’s sleeves#but lbr; they deffo held hands a lot as kiddos. Bc we all know just how (canonically) indulging Luc is with whatever Kae wants. Once Luc#//figured him out; it was a Very common sight; seeing Luc tromping around like the proud lil protector he was; & Kae scurrying after him#//Lil subtle delighted gleams in his eye compared to Luc’s more overt confidence and joy. So common a sight; it was no surprise that#Kae was Deffo distressed when Luc inevitably grew out of it. Adjusted; yeah; but the sudden Change was deffo NOT good for his nerves#//Clung to Addie a lot to make up for it; until he heard the maids tittering abt how childish he was being#//He quit that FAST; finding other ways to stave off his nerves and show his affection#//Sometimes when he’s drunk at Angel’s Share; he gets tempted to hold Luc’s hand—an old habit dredged back up bc he wants comfort#//But any sudden moves Luc makes; whether bc he noticed Kae reaching out or not; utterly scare the urge away every time#//He’s made his peace with Luc resenting him; but it still stings that the ONE person he felt closest to is now practically a Chasm away#//Not like he helps any with that; running away or lashing out every time Luc tries to bridge gaps or shows concern#//Sends him into fight or flight mode every time—who’s to say Kae won’t fuck it up and make a Luc regret trying?#//Might as well sabotage it all himself—at least THEN he knows with utmost certainty it will end failure. Whoops veered off topic#//The closer he is to someone; the more likely he ends up toying with their hands a bit—esp if Interested in them#//Likes playing with their fingers; linking; unlinking and slotting them together; tracing lines on their palms#//Cute shit like that. He likes seeing how they fit together; the differences in size and how they feel#//This was all bc I saw a detail from a show pointed out on the Twitter ndnfn. And thought the pinkie thing was SO cute. Anywho#//Hi. Shit happened irl & I am still not 100%. Not saying what bc it’s not a pleasant topic; but know I am ok#//Just a lil tired. But kinda wanna hcs for rn. I had a lil burst of energy earlier today. that was nice. Over a long dead show; no less#//But it helped lift my mood a bit. I still kinda wish I could drink rn tho. Think it’d help my brain rn
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What’s the appropriate way for me to respond to customers handing me religious pamphlets/cards? I’m not worried about getting fired btw.
#sorenhoots#I was considering eating the pamphlet but that isn’t fun in practice. only theory#I considered crumpling it up and throwing it in their face but that might count as like. attacking lol.#like I have so much to say. maybe I should just vent at them about how Christianity left me broken and hopeless and [redacting details].#not for their benefit. just to drag them through my incredibly painful emotions. maybe to make them suffer with me. maybe just to vent#without worrying about how my vent will impact them.#the first one took his card back when I said no. the second left his pamphlet and the TONE he used when he told me to read it. THE TONE.#was like a parent telling a toddler to eat their vegetables. ‘we’ll give it a try. it’s good for you. it’s got good stuff in it’#god I wish I had facial recognition so I could refuse to check him out next time.#the first guy has a memorable appearance so I’ll never check him out again.#but that fucking second one. ohhhhh I was so mad. I went on break and went straight to the warehouse#to break down boxes for the bailer. exercise is very regulating for me! I felt much better afterwards#BUT I WANT TO SAY SOMETHING NEXT TIME. either funny. or scathing. or rude as all hell. or anything.#anything that will let me feel like I have some control over the situation. I can’t make them take back their pamphlet… well I could. lol.#Sir do NOT leave your trash here. I am not a trash can. you can throw it away down there#where our trash can is located.#anyways another guy tipped me $2 so that was real nice
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#little depressing vent moment over here don’t mind me#i am genuinely such a good and kind person i don’t understand why people don’t like me#i have had 2 friends for the last 5 years#and not even the same 2 just 2 total#and we never talk#i go months without seeing anyone but my family or the people i encounter at my job#i’m not even trying to be annoying or anything it’s just so hard to be this lonely for this long#(i’m not very close with my 2 family members. the time we spend with each other on a daily basis is probably less than an hour)#(especially with my brother)#sure i have internet friends but we practically don’t talk at all anymore#i mean they’re busy and there’s times differences and it’s just part of having online friends#so nothing against them it’s just#it’s not enough after a while :/#and i’m an introvert#i get drained by people SO FAST#but life with no one isn’t fun for me :(#rin rants
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got my big speech tomorrow… I’ve practiced it twice and I’m so fucked
#Both times I’ve been five second short of going over the time limit#which isn’t good#and I’ve genuinely practiced this one less than the last one#and my one fucking critique on the last one was I was too in my notes#I love being in my notes cmon#anyway I’m so nervous
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