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So for some reason, I thought I would not have to do specialty-specific research to match pulm/crit, and that I could get away with exclusively having medical education scholarly projects. This was probably dumb of me, but I am nevertheless really unhappy to find out I was wrong. I just hate research man. I love science, I love digging into the literature and coming up with good questions and synthesizing information, but I hate performing analysis myself. I especially hate churning out shitty chart reviews and case reports just to pack my resume, and the thought of having to keep doing that during residency makes me wanna throw up. The vast majority of research done by physicians is utter trash (we do not have the time or training to complete meaningful research on our own most of the time!), it doesn’t improve physicians’ scientific literacy, it is just chasing prestige. I hate it. Please please let me work on a project that is actually meaningful.
#I so often feel like the wrong kind of person for medicine purely because I am more focused on teaching and community health#and I do not care about getting in NEJM or whatever#like good for the people who are actually doing good research#I am not one of them#can we not consider that maybe medicine should have multiple types of people with different interests#also I do not have infinite time#so doing shitty research projects takes my time away from actually worthwhile projects that I care about#also like half the reason I switched from neurosurgery was that I didn’t wanna be trapped doing shitty research#just to hang onto an academic job so I can occasionally teach#and it looks like I am trapped there anyway with IM!#god fucking dammit!#i just hate it i fucking hate it#why isn’t it enough to practice medicine and teach residents and med students#why do I have to be a scientist before I can be an ICU doctor#they are different fucking professions#okay I guess I’ll wrap up my rant here#my content#my text posts#medblr#med school#medicine#med student
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(Tents fingers) So I've had a very indulgent Lethal Company OC concept on the mind for a while, and now that I've drawn it, of course it's spiraled into a 80+ panel comic HILJKFD
Employee names are tentative right now, but they go by Cap'n, Kid (shortie, actual name is Scoot), Skeets (tall one, short for Skeeter) and Mav (wide one, goes by that or Maverick). Genders are also tentative, but I'm warming up to the idea of them all being women with Kid being the only boy!
Value keys for the comic are under the cut, along with some story beats/thumbnails and the uncensored version of Cap'n's injuries from the attack! (It's sketchy, but it is drawn gore so be warned!)
#artists on tumblr#lethal company#lethal company oc#eyeless dog#lethal company eyeless dog#blind dog#werecreature#wereeyeless dog#<- needs a better name#wereblind dog#<- also bad. what else am I suppose to do man? hIKLJFD#eyeless weredog#<- infinitely better name. friend mentioned it. adding it to the tags now.#my draws#sfw#blood cw#honestly after I did the 'Cap'n circling the ship' visual I was like 'OKAY time to wrap this up. I got to exactly where I wanted to get to.#also you have to imagine Mav with Pearl's voice from SU. It was an accident however that is currently their voice claim.#I'm saying 'the names are tentative!' but we all know that's a lie. Ratman's name was tentative too....... I hate coming up with names hILK#capn tag
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Danny raises Superman au
So we all know that Superman touched down in Kansas and was adopted by the Kents and bla bla bla. But you know what state also has farms and is only like 600 miles away? Illinois.
So Danny is chilling in the countryside, enjoying his sweet, peaceful early retirement when an alien pod, that's a little a lot off course, suddenly crashes near his house. When he checks it out, there's a baby inside. Welp looks like he's a father now. No way is he risking the government getting their greedy little mits on this precious ray of sunshine.
Clark grows up with a father who teaches him early on how to control his powers and use them for good (They may or may not stop a robbery or two occasionally). He also gets two cool aunts. One is free spirited and always bringing him souvenirs from her travels. The other is very grounded and teaches him many techniques to deal with his conflicting emotions (his father is not happy when he uses said techniques on him).
Danny for his part is happy we his son develops a support system like he did. They can even actively help him beat up the villains! He's overjoyed at the man Clark becomes and even happier when he brings home an ace reporter who knows how shifty the government can be. He might be already saving up for their wedding but who can say?
#dp x dc#dc x dp#dpxdc#dcxdp#a ghost raising an alien?#what could go wrong?#clark might have a slightly warped perception of what humans are capable of#that's what could go wrong#he's in for quite the shock once he gets to metropolis#what do you mean ordinary humans can't lift tractors?#at least danny taught him how to control his strength early on#danny also taught him and there was to know about kryptonian culture#probably even cooked some kryptonian dishes from time to time#the perks of being the king of the infinite realms i suppose#clark probably knows more about krypton than kara herself#rip to her i guess#also because he has a clone for an aunt he takes to kon instantly#this is my last little side ramble and then i'm done but for all the people hating on clark no one seems to hate on kara#despite the fact that she tried to kill kon twice#purely because she thought clones were abominations#i personally feel like an interal rift in the family would be much juicer but oh well#i might be the chance i want to see about that soon#anyways i'll keep my promise and stop rambling in the tags now#hyper prompts
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Curtwen Week Day 6: Happy Ending
#I like to believe that there is a universe where they get to grow old together#just one#look once upon a time I read a fic that had me bawling my fuckin eyes out where they get to grow old together#I do want to say that I believe in personal growth and I think that Curt can 100% have a happy ending without Owen- where he can grow#away from that experience and where he can healthily cope with the trauma he ended up with#where he can find solace in something other than alcohol and where he can find it in himself to forge new relationships and build his#connections with people like Tatiana#etc etc#I just want to make it known that this is one of many happy endings that could happen#(amongst the several sad ones that I know also exist)#ALSO I wanted to draw the old men and I do what I want#but yeah something something if the universe is infinite /ref#maybe this is a universe where the banana incident never happened and they were able to retire together#ough#the curtwen feels are really getting me today#I adore them#also I used a new brush ive been having fun with this past week#doesn’t it look cool?#I really like drawing with it and I like how it looks so#we might be seeing more of this one in the future#although 6b is still my guy#damn y’know hypothetically- if Owen (depending on the au) and Curt lived to be in their 60s (at least) they would witness the first Pride#god can you imagine that?#At the very least Curt being around for stonewall and everything that came after that with queer rights#FUCK anyways#fun fact: a group of frogs is called an army#isn’t that cute#reminds me of that one person on TikTok that raised like a thousand frogs- they had a literal army of frogs#crazy#curtwen week
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I've done the coloring for @papabay 's lineart which she posted some years ago. I know I'm very late to this because I joined very late (xD) but I can't resist this beautiful lineart. And for some reason I do like lineart having scratches because that's BEAUTY.
And dear artist, your arts are my FAVORITE. You are the life of NejiTen in the Naruto fandom. Great going sis, and thanks for making us happy by giving beautiful NejiTen arts! ❤️❤️
NejiTen is such a beautiful pairing that deserved to happen but nothing stops me from loving them as a ship.
#i'll have to start drawing some neji x tenten stuff#but i've been drawn too much into beyblade#and my coloring looks infinite times better in your art dear artist#i also need to study more about lighting to do it accurately#naruto#nejiten#neji hyuga#tenten#neji x tenten#lineart coloring#coloring
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Sorry Gadget, his lack of full power also means he can't warp reality into making you think medicine tastes anything but just The Worst.
#sonic fanart#sth#Infidget#infinite the jackal#gadget the wolf#rookinite#If I Have To Be Sick So Do You drawing sorry Gadget#Warm up sketch I accidentally spent way more time one than I meant to AHOY#minturts#Me; Gives Gadget and Infinite matching ear notches from surviving their separate near death experiences#Also Me; Draws them at a different point in the ear EVERY TIME-
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gen loss dump part 2 :]
i have a gen loss playlist so the last two was me hitting randomize and drawing a pic based on the song before it finished. the second one technically isn’t that cause charlie’s inferno isn’t on apple music cause they hate me so it’s way more of the song out of spite because they wouldn’t give it to me.
#spotify is prolly better (definitely is for finding playlists i use spotify to find playlists still and then add those songs to my own lmao#but dad pays for a family apple music subscription and free music streaming is infinitely better then paying for my own spotify#also my wound reference i feel like i let him off easy from the seven foot tall wire security monster#but idk this was drawn a year ago idk what i was doing#like i agree w the vest just being REALLLL bad bruising and internal stuff but i feel like he had wayyyy more open area besides that to get#fucked up besides just his arms#but i guess since the wire monster also got turned off by the button since it didn’t immediately go at ranboo next then maybe that’s still#reasonable idk#generation loss#generation loss fanart#ranboo fanart#continuing my not spamming tags trend so even though i bc puls have tagged all three of them im not gonna#still posting this primarily for me and for everyone else second#OH THE OUTFITS ARE FROM MY PIN BOARDS#I MAKE OUTFIT BOARDS FOR EVERYTHING ITS SO FUN#LIKE EVERY FANDOM IVE POSTED HERE HAS ONE#ITS BAD#and then irl i wear sweats and t shirt lmao#i found mouse trap game board earrings#i spend too much time on those finding highly specific bullshit#the jrwi one is especially cringe cause i have a different section for all of the what ifs#and that shit lasted one (1) episode#also the full color drawing i’m so >:| about it#i need to practice coloring sooooo badly but i always get frustrated w it#i need to slow tf down idk#but thats also from nearly a year ago so
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If I ever talk about Natlan characters this is who I mean btw
#genshin impact#kachina#mualani#kinich#citlali#xilonen#iansan#chasca#mavuika#olorun#these aren't perfect but it's infinitely preferable to what we got#ik giving darker characters light hair and eyes is its own kind of racist but i don't have time to do all that 😔#maybe when they get official art#also my choices were based on what looks good to me + cultural inspiration#(hence iansan and olorun being black)#(though it kinda makes olorun blend into the background lol)
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Beach day
#yakuza#yakuza like a dragon#like a dragon#lad infinite wealth#like a dragon infinite wealth#yakuza 7#yakuza 8#jo sawashiro#im in fucking shambles i tell you#let him go to hawaii#also i am still playing through the game do not spoil it jahdjdjfj#i will cry#might have made the tattoo a bit too white but whatever#the amount of time i spent on it :)#sawashiro jo
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I took a break from the more serious piece with the throne and all to draw this quicker, silly thing because they have started airing Hallmark movies on TV and I was possessed by the Christmas Spirit :')
There's also a short lil drabble thingy underneath the 'Keep Reading', bcs I couldn't help myself 😭😭 If Tracy won't let her characters have some Silly Time™, I WILL. 😭😭😭
The snowball soars through the air in a high arch, and lands with a wet, satisfying "fwump".
Loud cheers and "woo"s chorus from the other team, and it takes everything in me to hold back my own laughter at the sight. Nick seems to fight just as hard to do the same.
"...Aaand Miss Chen hits the bullseye! Another point for team...what was your name, again?" Valec calls from the sidelines with his, by now, classic announcer-voice, acting judge for today's match.
Classic, because this is the third snowball fight we've had since the snow first fell, and our team has been losing every single one so far. Sel has been too busy dodging the snowballs to realize that he has been our opponents' only target, despite there being three people on our team.
Alice turns to Valec with a wide grin and high-fives William. Lark is doubled over behind them, laughing.
"Team Victory," She reminds him gleefully, and Valec nods with a snap of his fingers. More so to jab another thumb into Sel's side than actually needing the reminder.
Mariah sits at his side, trying to hide her own snicker behind a steaming cup of hot cocoa. She caught onto our pact halfway through the first game, and is now just as eager as the rest of us to see how long it takes the Kingsmage to notice.
"One more point to team Victory! Making the current score.... 5-2, their favor."
Sel tries to wipe the already melting snow off his cheek before it runs down under the collar of his coat. With a wet flick of his gloved hand, he uncovers the scowl underneath.
"What kind of defense are you two supposed to be if you are not defending the whole team?"
"I thought you were behind me, I swear," I say, but can't seem to disguise my lie well enough, because Sel's mouth curves further downwards even before I finish. "You know, behind the shield."
"What's the matter, Kingsmage? Lost yer spark?" Lark taunts from where he now stands straighter, only barely holding it together.
Sel spins around to face the other Merlin with a sneer before shaking more snow out of his hair. "Douglas, you better sleep with one eye open unless you like your dreams of 'White Christmases' very vivid," He growls, and the scheming smirk across his lips makes me certain that the threat of taking the snowball fight off-court and into Larkin's bedroom is a very real one.
He barks out a sarcastic laugh in return, but can't quite seem to keep the amused glint out of his eye, "I sure would like to see ye get 'merry and bright', Kane."
With another flick of Sel's wrist, aether flows to his hands as if he were to craft his usual staff, but instead forms something resembling a lacrosse racket, solid like a shovel. He twirls it in his hand once before bending down to scoop up fresh snow, muttering, more to himself than to the other Merlin;
"Oh, I'll show you 'merry and bright', you-"
"Would you look at that!" William cuts in, making all our heads turn to him.
He looks up at the sky, shielding his eyes from the sun, before taking a step back towards the wall of snow shielding us from Volition.
"Oh, shit!"
Nick understands faster than I do, and casts a new aether shield and grabs my arm in one swift movement. He pulls me along, laughing all the while. "Get down!"
Sel is frozen in place, shovel-racket still mid-scoop, and completely alone on our side of the battlefield. He doesn't bother looking at either of us, but his narrowed eyes and shift in his jaw makes the betrayal apparent.
William reaches out a hand to the wall and shoves it right into the snow. With no visible effort, he lifts up a chunk nearly as big as himself, easily balancing it in one hand. He slowly turns to the Kingsmage with a smirk, promise of perfect aim in his eyes and voice both;
"Midday, is it not?"
#legendborn#legendborn fanart#legendborn fanfiction#i got The Most ominous email from my boss yesterday and need any and every distraction I can get lol so yes this is a lil rushed#but hey this was good pose and proportions/perspective training sjfsjs#and also a good way to try out how the quality is exported from Infinite Painter (which is pretty 1:1 which is great for me lol)#and also Tracy's post about “writing over 650 pages of character turmoil and swoony plot” did NOT make me feel any calmer ;u;#oathbound may kill me at this point LOL#AND LIKE DO WE EVEN KNOW HOW LONG IT MIGHT TAKE BEFORE BOOK 4???#like I said#If Tracy won't give her characters some downtime to be silly and have a Good Time I guess we'll have to do it ourselves :')))#also note the lil heart atop Sel's hair lol <333#will never let him be fully “daRk AnD dAnGerOuS” on my watch lol uwu#never escaping the “just a lil guy <33” allegations jfhdjhfjdf#my art
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Ace Attorney crossover where, in very typical Phoenix Wright fashion, he's neglected to find out WHO IN HELL his newest client is until he's sitting right across from him at the detention center's visitation room, and he's forced to confront the fact that he's going to bat for a murderous clown who IS innocent this time around
Aka: Ace Attorney crossover, but ClownPierce is his client--
#yea so im cooking chat#can you SEE the vision#phoenix panicking bc clowns assassin status is a secret told with OPEN doors — everyone knows it but nobody can prove it#clown being the most respectful client phoenix has ever had and somehow STILL the most deranged#something something clownzy at some point bc these bad bitches cant be kept appart from each other#uhhhhhh the real killer isssss oh man idk. fuckin. uh#what would be the funniest option???#reddoons? ashswag?? minutetech maybe??? idk man I've not watched lifesteal enough to know the dynamics#in my head the real killer is branzy who gets away with it and only did it bc he was trying to court clown with that#(bc OFC he would)#and takes them all out on a dinner as an apology#maya is all in for whatever the fuck is this weird shit going on#she's having the time of her life#maya is like. using clown as a climbing gym and speaking to him and doing her weird medium tricks with him#he's probably teaching her how to use a knife and how to disarm a man thrice her size in 20 different ways#the only reason phoenie isn't stopping him is bc he's still kinda traumatized from the whole matt engarde debacle#i think the only infinitely funnier option to this is if BRANZY is the defendant#mostly bc clown bursting into the court waiting room to chastise branzy and make sure hes okay and be menacingly standing in a corner is-#-my personal peak comedy honestly#also just bc phoenix would get constant peeks at the bloodthirsty creature living in his veins...#also is it peek? peak? peek right???#fuck english#just.#imagine it#phoenix being mildly terrified of what everyone considers is a wet poodle lost in ikea#anyway#demon rambles™#ace attorney#ace attorney phoenix wright#clownpierce
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can we all remember to just say 'oh no thank you, i dont like that kind of food' but apply that logic and rules to shipping and letting other people ship again
#my t#dirkhal#yes im tagging this because thats what this is about#i see the start of another stupid fucking morality-based ship war in this tag and im not here for it#dirkhal is historically considered stridercest#using stridercest as an umbrella term#it doesnt mean the -cest part has to mean incest if you dont want it to. it can absolutely mean selfcest#davedavesprite is also concidered stridercest but its much more in line with dirkhal in that its selfcest. see the logic?#but like#can yall be fucking nice to your neighbours weve been here for a long time and havent been hurting anyone#if you can come to terms with the thought of dirkhal with hal/AR CANONICALLY being a brain clone of a 13y/o dirk#when we have no actual solid evidence to prove that he ages like dirk does in his physical body#then you can learn to share a fucking tag. because nothing in stridercest mirrors actual irl criminal or harmful activity#because its playing with dolls. we're all playing with our barbies and ponies here#and the problem with all of us trying to play w/ our barbies and ponies is that some very scared people see other ppl enjoying making ponie#kiss and they start screaming and trying to take all of our toys away when they dont actually have a monopoly on any of these toys. we shar#we share. that is what we do in fandom. theres an infinite amount of ways to interpret dirkhal#if you dont apply this logic to fans who enjoy things like game of thrones then dont do it here#take a step back and breath. we're all being normal. youre being a bad guest. please learn to share again. youre not being hurt#having a reaction to art is not actually Being Hurt
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ADHD really does put everything at equal levels of importance, huh? Like I'll have an email I need to write that'll take maybe 10 minutes, and getting that done will alleviate 6 months of stress. Then I'll notice a sock on the floor I need to put away. Then I'll get the strong conviction that it's up to me to cure cancer. And my brain will tell me that I need to do all of them at once, start and finish them all in the time span of 0 seconds, and my executive dysfunction will throw up its hands and do none of the above.
#adhd#actuallyadhd#executive dysfunction#examples were courtesy of my partner. it made me laugh so hard because i've never heard anything more accurate#i'll read stuff like ''adhd makes it difficult to prioritize things!'' and i never paid that much attention because i was like#''i can easily sort things into categories. it's just the doing them that's the issue.''#but then i realized. that the REASON doing things is an issue is because it's not happening at the conscious logical level#it's happening at a nearly-subconscious rapid fire in-the-moment response time#i've been working a lot on my adhd these past few months & have also been meditating a lot lately and it's been making my awareness more an#more broad and precise#and at this point i'm wondering if this is straight up the cause of my adhd. the brain putting absolutely everything at the same ''URGENT#URGENT URGENT'' level. since i can't do everything in the world at the same time at infinite speed and perfection#i'm thrown into ''freeze mode''. and that's also why we've learned to weaponize fear against ourself as a motivator. because it forces the#task we're trying to do into front view. makes it take priority over everything else we're scared of not doing.#we've been working on a lot of useful coping skills. haven't entirely figured out how to manage this yet but the awareness itself has#been very useful.
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guess which show i’m finally watching in its entirety
#the context that make this doodle infinitely funnier: i’ve been bedridden with the flu these past couple of days#and have been having the fred mentality of ‘i hate this i want to Do Things’#also i drew this to avoid going to sleep oops#also in case you don't know the text next to the doodle is an actual quote shaggy says about fred in the episode djhsgfgsds#but YEAH i knew i was going to love be cool but MAN it’s so so good i love everything about it#i’m currently up to s2e1#when i’m feeling better/have the time definitely expect some more art of it from me!!!#scooby doo#fred jones#fred scooby doo#be cool scooby doo#nem art :)#scooby doo and nemmet too!
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Thinking about "your weakness is how you always want to be the hero" and how the series returns to this at the end
Li Lianhua hated how he acted as Li Xiangyi and spent years trying to distance himself from it, but ultimately he still fell back into the similar patterns, for all his added experience
His main priority was always to "do the right thing" regardless of how that would impact on those around him. And it *did* impact those around him. From Qiao Wanmian and Shan Gudao as Li Xiangyi to Fang Duobing and Di Feisheng as Li Lianhua
Giving the Styx flower to the emperor so he could use it as leverage to guarantee Fang Duobing and his family's safety. Using the last of his power to save Yun Biqiu. Constantly putting others above himself whilst actively refusing to recognise that his self-sacrificial nature would hurt those he cared about most
And sure, he thinks he's going to die anyway. They're going to be hurt regardless and he can't do anything about that. His odds are low of the Styx flower even working. But ultimately, he refuses to even consider trying. Li Xiangyi has been dead a long time and Li Lianhua is just there to tide things over. What value is the life of a ghost
To the end, he lives and dies a hero. To the end, he refuses to live for himself.
#sth about how he almost managed to live for himself but his past and need to do right doomed him.#those missing years before canon starts were probably the closest he got but even then the knowledge he couldn't use martial arts#must have killed him (no pun intended). because he'd put so much stock in his identity as sigu sect leader + hero + prodigy#so to have such a massive part of his identity stripped from him... honestly it doesn't seem that he ever fully comes to terms with it#but he makes progress and he tries to do better. + that leads to him becoming a different type of 'hero' than the symbol he was originally#deep down he wants to help people with all he has but his capacity isn't infinite + at some point can only be taken from himself#mysterious lotus casebook#mlc spoilers#also to be clear I mention shan gudao not to say lxy should have realised earlier bc for a lot of the time he was too young to notice#and later on sgd did better at hiding his intentions. but more for how lxy tunnel visioned towards his idea of righteousness#and steamrolled over everyone else. both sgd and qwm were placed far below the importance of the sigu sect#and lxy's arrogance made it such that sigu became reliant on him alone as he shut others out (hence domino fall once he went).#idk if he could ever have 'fixed' what was btwn him and sgd bc it was so deep rooted but I do think that his actions#helped convince sgd that sgd was entirely in the right to choose his path#mlc#edit: just went and checked the exact wording of the TL and it's actually 'you like being a hero' rather than 'you want to be the hero'#which is different but still close enough in implications for my point to stand (I think)
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one thing thats so interesting about being a vegetarian is you get to hear all about everyones hypothetical activism that they care about very deeply when talking specifically about your diet and why it's stupid, but literally will never bring up ever again in any other context
#good idea generator#ppl will honest to god hit me with a 'well what about the dmg caused by plant agriculture' when i say im vegetarian for the environment#oh please tell me more about all the things youre doing to try to minimize your impact on the environment#and all the things you know about agriculture. in your infinite wisdom of [checks notes] doing the exact same thing you always have#or is the argument that because individual choices make little difference that we shouldnt even try or talk about it in case its annoying?#its not necessarily that these people arent making good points also#its just that when you have these same conversations 75 times over and over and over and OVER and get nowhere#it starts to become obvious most people learn these arguments in order to avoid genuinely interrogating their eating practices#either on an individual or communal level. am not asking you to cut out meat or go vegan (not a realistic demand of everyone on earth)#but i AM asking that you please do some self reflection on why the idea makes you so defensive#and about what exactly is so terrible of the idea that we may need to produce and consume less meat#i thought about 75 disclaimers i could put on this post but honestly if they become necessary it would prove my point
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