#this is all very much in my head atm

[bluiex]

Aw shit, here we go again. Throwing my new blorbos into the Fallout universe! This time it's Poolverine/Deadclaws! Haha!

Here it is, my fallout poolverine/deadclaw AU idea cuz I'm feral as fuck.

Here's back story/plotlines!

Wade was a vault dweller, born and raised. The experiment of this vault was long forgotten, the vault opened up to the rest of the world allowing settlers inside the vault. Wade was a guard, top of his marks and damn good with katanas as well as any weapon. He had a loving girlfriend (Vanessa), sure as hell planned to marry her one day but his vault got raided. (I love you so much Vanessa, my queen, but I have to kill you off for the plot) Wade seeing her shot and killed, he loses it and starts killing the raiders without mercy as they've done to his home. Wade eventually got overpowered and shot by a syringer that knocked him out and was taken by the raiders to some scientist group and experimented on and turned into a ghoul with regenerative healing power. He managed to escape them and killed them all and burnt the place down in the process.

Logan was also a vault dweller, kinda. But he was alive before the bombs dropped, apart of the ongoing war with Russia and China. Him and his brother, Victor, signed up into the army together, both orphans since young kids after their parents died. Logan was ruthless in the battlefield, he didn't like the power armor but Victor did and was far more ruthless and uncaring with it. As soon as the military got whiff of the bombs are going to be dropped, He and Victor were put into a special vault by the military. Experimented on daily, it was down right torture at some points, turned into mutants along with his fellow vault dwellers. Logan got the regenerative healing and the claws. Victor turned and morphed more into the saberstooth design we know an love. Logan was given the adamantium bones through it as well. He goes bezeerk one day and escapes that vault some 200+ years later, along side his brother who chased after him trying to get Logan to stay because Victor was more loyal to whoever ran the vault but Logan got away. And now he's on the run from Victor who was tasked to return him back to the vault. (I might change this a bit to add his memory loss but Idk?)

Okay but what makes it poolverine/deadclaws? Let me tell you dear reader.

Wade starts his mercenary work, it's been a few years since he's escaped. Made a name for himself, Merc with a Mouth, but he gets the job done.

Logan is a loner, travels the wasteland, taking odd jobs here and there. He was somewhat a merc himself, he found solice at some point with Charles and all the others before he leaves again because he catches wind of Victor close to his location.

This is where the two collide, Wade was minding his own business on a job in some random city settlement, when in comes Logan crashing through the abandoned building Wade was hiding out in, Victor hot on his tail.

The two team up to fight off Victor who eventually is knocked out by Logan. Logan was gonna leave it at that until Wade marches up and points a gun to Victor's unconscious head. Logan claws the gun to pieces with a growl about how he's the one who gets to kill Victor, just not yet.

Wade offers them to team up, he could really use the help on this job of his and Wade sure as hell became smitten and impressed with Logan in this small scurmish. So yeah with a lot of Logan's protest and Wade's never ending insistence eventually they're working together to take down another facility that's forcing experiments on people like how they'd done with Wade.

They'll stick together, as much as Logan hates Wade, he's very hard to get rid of, he tried. Multiple times. He's like a disease.(/affectionate)

Enemies to Friends to Lovers yada yada yada

[jazzically]

i cannot tell u how many times ive watched this in the last 12 hours

[hella1975]

so there's a reason my new job got back to me so quickly about my application and that's bc it's an absolute fucking shambles like actually perfect timing for me to decide to rewatch the bear bc i have never more felt like ive been thrown into a broke on-its-knees establishment trying to crawl its way up the ladder where i am somehow a godsend to them. my old job was crazy and shambolic in the sense that the industry is just Like That but this one?????? insanity. every 5 mins i am questioning what im doing with my life. ive already had a walk-in fridge moment

[lunarharp]

figured i'd do this again..bit early i guess..

[stemacademics]

small update

ok so um I got my number theory paper today, and the TA had cut marks for me because i left the answer at 66^2 and not 4356 (fermat's little theorem) 😔 I even wrote the full proof

my friend told me I should mail the TA about this, I got 14/20 and should be getting 17or18/20 😔

scores aside, number theory is so much fun, so much fun. the only good thing here is that I know the concepts well, and I fully knew the paper (still fucked it up, because I'm so frickin slow while writing and time). and it hurts worse because there's not enough proof that validates my knowledge. which in turn makes me question if i actually do have any.

I am, in general, a person who does well in concepts but screws up the exams (70% of the time) and I'm trying, I'm trying to get myself out of this "exam paniK" that I often spiral into, just minutes before the exam. I hope I change and grow; I hope, I hope.

[suffarustuffaru]

I don’t speak Japanese so I’d LOVE to hear more about the differences between the English and Japanese Re:Zero fandoms

yeah sure its very interesting to me now that ive noticed it more lately :o !! though ok disclaimer - i dont speak japanese either hah so if anyone is seeing this and does speak japanese + is familiar with the japanese speaking side of this fandom please add info if youd like!! and of course ill be mainly speaking from the english side of things bc im more familiar with that yes (sorry anon again im not a japanese speaker T^TT so sorry if i tread on info you already know!!). but yeah im speaking from my own experiences given the Topic at hand. ive been in this fandom since... 2019?? which is so wild to me aljsdfljsd.

anyway so - i think the big difference is mainly that the english fandom and many english speaking people that engage with rezero are. to put it bluntly, misconception runs Rampant to a very Interesting degree. to the point where it seems like the english speaking side of the fandom is More. Aggressive. than the japanese fandom. not that the japanese speaking side of the fandom is perfect - also bc what fandom is ever perfect 100% of the time, tbh - but that the louder people in the english rezero fandom are. well its a Very low bar. Very low. and from what little ive seen and heard so far, the japanese fandom tends to understand rezero and its characters better than the english fandom. which ig makes sense bc you know, rezero is japanese media, and also im sure cultural differences come into play here as well (im not familiar enough on this to speak about it in depth but the cultural differences feel Pretty Clear even though i cant 100% put my finger on what they specifically are).

but also bc yeah. its not That hard to beat some of the english fandom when it comes to media comprehension. misreading rezero is unfortunately Extremely common, both in and out of the rezero community. its Everywhere - youtube, myanimelist, ao3, ff.net, reddit, twitter, various rezero discords - and from what ive experienced, rezero tumblr basically kind of feels like finding an oasis after crawling through the desert for days on end lajdslfjs. which is probs bc rezero tumblr is Smaller and also a lot of us seem to be lgbtq+ in some way or be allies, so you dodge a lot of the misogyny and homophobia that happens in other rezero english circles. its why you see a lot of openly queer rezero-related posts on here while its a bit more. barren. in other rezero english places yes. bc its more safe to post queer rezero things on rezero tumblr rather than rezero reddit for Sure.

im not sure how the japanese fandom is with that exactly but theres some interesting differences between whats popular in the english fandom vs the japanese fandom. i mean as an otto fan ive been noticing how hes more popular with the japanese fandom—and on top of that, ottosuba is Way More popular in the japanese fandom too. reinsuba and julisuba seem to usually be the most popular mlm subaru ships in both fandoms but ottosuba is like A Little Up There in the japanese fandom. not sure if its on the same level as a ship like reinsuba but ottosubas Definitely loved as a ship. from what little ive seen it also seems like ships like vichisha are more acknowledged by the japanese fandom? im not entirely sure on like—Complete differences regarding what the japanese fandom finds interesting that may differ from english fandom, so ill really have to look more into the japanese fandoms fanart and fanfic when i can bc im pretty curious too. in general though, it seems like the japanese fandom has a bit more variety…. you can find fanart on So Many characters in rezero (which already has a very Massive cast full of very fleshed out characters) there. not that you cant in the english fandom bc theres a Bit of variety too, but id more so contribute that a little more to the Big Cast and less to having actual variety in fancontent. and of course im not saying that the japanese fandom may be a bit barren in some areas of fancontent—bc inevitably when u have a big cast of characters, side character content is gonna be more sparse compared to the main characters, but to me it does feel like the english fandom lacks variety in comparison. (and also yeah. seems like the japanese fandom acknowledges gay ships more in general tbh.)

whats focused in fancontent makes it easy to tell what may be popular in a fandom in terms of how fans perceive the source material and what fandoms want to do with the source material, if that makes sense. and its very easy to tell that with the english fandom if you just hop on rezero ao3–or even better, rezero reddit given theres a fanfic ideas thread thats usually pinned right at the top of the site. again i havent looked at japanese fanfic for rezero yet (bc i dont know where to look oops ajdndn) but when it comes to the english fandom you can tell that theyre generally more focused on the female cast both in fanart and in fanfic bc. theyre women and many fans on say, reddit or various rezero discords, are cis straight men, so inevitably… well lets just say you can tell when a man makes content for this fandom o.o theres also the. very weird reaction fic trends and trends following popular fics in the fandom, the two biggest being the watching him die again and again react fic and re:forgotten, the former of which includes a harem plot with subaru and the main girls of rezero while the latter is one of those subaru gets tortured by his ooc friends and then he gets revenge on them fics. which i suppose says something about the english fandom too.

of course on ao3 its dominated mainly by english fics (of course not all fics on there for rezero are in english— big shoutout to all the non english fics on rezero ao3 ur doing great <3 — but the majority are in english). and while yeah ur occasionally gonna find stuff like queer content or side character content or rarepair content, its definitely not that big in amount and also comes with the risk of. Hate. if anyones reading this and remembers the lone star stuff. (if u dont know—lone star was a julius x emilia fic where they NTR subaru or some shit and then it got bombed with hate bc of the ship? yeah.) so yeah english fandom is very cis straight oriented, ironically with the nastiest people being the very people that rezero criticizes. though this is also my personal experience, i do know several people personally whove been in this fandom for a while or were here for a while and yeah english fandom isnt very welcoming at times???? and it seems like at the very least the japanese fandom is A Little Less Aggressive than the english fandom is.

otherwise. yeah im very very curious about more of the differences in popular content between the japanese vs english fandom. i mean the english fandom’s main focus on the female cast for. Interesting Reasons other than their actual character depth is… interesting. and the astreas being popular in general vs otto + ottosubas popularity fluctuating is also very interesting to me (but i have several guesses as to Why that is), among other things. yeah id love to know what else the japanese fandom likes about rezero and see more of their content. i also have to wonder if characters like emilia and subaru are hated less by the japanese fandom…. T^T well that and the english fandom and many english speaking people engaging in rezero have this interesting pattern of either hating subaru No Matter What, wanting subaru to Not Be Subaru (ie using him as a self insert almost or attempting to change him into virtually another character), or putting subaru on a pedestal and ignoring his flaws and mistakes and that he Can do wrong. like theres Really not a lot of nuance there. so i wonder if the japanese fandom is. A Little more chill when it comes to character opinions like this too.

[sweetshire]

me after i finished reading legendborn:

EXCUSE ME, TRACY DEONN, WHO GAVE YOU THE RIGHT TO PLUCK AT MY HEARTSTRINGS LIKE A FUCKING GUITAR PLAYER??

[gif credit: @shegos]

[loumauve]

the goddamn toast water post just made me utter "history is fucking real" in the most solemn and serious tone of voice, out loud, to myself, in the goddamn bathtub

[phagodyke]

sometimes I wish I was a more interesting + charismatic person just so I could keep conversations going bc I like sharing space with other ppl but they routinely lose all interest and leave once I run out of things to say/start talking abt things that don't concern them :-(

[skitskatdacat63]

Why do I say things like this. Like what was the need. Why do I feel the need to jinx myself. What was the reason.

[foreverxdaydreaming]

hello hello guess who's still alive 👀

feels weird to be away from tumblr sm bc this place has always felt like & always will be like home away from home

[eggmeralda]

my notre dame de paris obsession was so embarrassing bc all I talked about pierre and my truffula flu obsession was so embarrassing bc all I talked about was swag and my coronation street obsession is so embarrassing bc all I talk about is hilda and

[tartagliatum]

SPOILERS FOR FONTAINE ARCHON QUEST PART 4

This just gave us so much help

I mean we had aether throwing up and then freminet (idk if he's a little too young for you or not) with the primordial sea water 😶😶😶

the way aether brought it on himself too like pls 😭😭 unless it happens again but i have Yet to finish bc of work </3

there isn't really enough of freminet yet for me to figure out his character but i honestly just felt like sad for him. the LYNEY material though ohhhh :) all of his fear and pain rooted in codependence/abandonment issues and the need to shoulder the blame causing him to panic even thru a sedative making him all sick and slow and blurry like .......maybe his anxiety ridden ass needed to be tranquilized damn. i can't lie i really did enjoy the angst and pain they put lyney thru i lov him so much <3

[caramelmochacrow]

this totally happened to her once (inspired by real events! :D)

[vampirebutterflies]

listen ‘ere boy there is a voice in ur head telling u ur fine and you don’t need to go to therapy tomorrow and that voice is a f u c k i n g liar don’t listen to it boy don’t fuckin’ listen to that rat ass bastard it does NOT have ur best interests at heart

[hecksupremechips]

Love the way I’m just constantly flip flopping between "i am the greatest writer in the world my ideas are so big brained I understand how people work" and "oh my god I’m so stupid this is garbage I’m just saying shit that could fall apart within seconds what the hell even is this"