#idk. i wanna draw so badly 😭 and i do it and sometimes it works out and sometimes im just staring at the screen like. oh.

[skitskatdacat63]

Why do I say things like this. Like what was the need. Why do I feel the need to jinx myself. What was the reason.

[petrodragonicapocalypse]

15 questions about meee!

i was tagged by @intrasport!! thank uu :D

1. Are you named after anyone? nope but i might as well be. extremely common name

2. When was the last time you cried? 3 days ago, category 5 work this time incident

3. Do you have kids? noooo.

4. Do you use sarcasm a lot? i don't think so... sometimes i say something incorrect very deadpan-ly as a joke but people tend to think im for serious so i don't do it that much

5. What's the first thing you notice about people? idk honestly im so oblivious. tralalala. if they seem intimidating or not i suppose

6. What's your eye colour? blue with a brown bit in my uhh. well its in one of my eyes but i can't see them so

7. Scary movie or happy ending? conceptually i love horror and scary things but unfortunately im soso scared forever

8. Any special talents? i can hoot tunes with my hands like an owl or pigeon. badly

9. Where were you born? Bath (city in england.)

10. What are your hobbies? ooohh playing piano, drawing, whatever craft project of the month, thinking about drawing, autism indulgence, looking under rocks, ive also been sort of trying to figure out the flute recently

11. Have you got any pets? no well actually one of my terrariums has tiny bugs in it so sort of

12. What sports do you play/have you played? not much of a sports guy tbh... i was pretty into hiking in scouts for a bit though

13. How tall are you? 5'7 ish

14. Favourite subject in school? music music music. also design tech

15. Dream job? version of my current job (guitar builder) but where i get to do whatever i want forever and make affordable guitars for people who'll actually play them. and earn enough money. well a girl can dream 😭

im too shy to tag anyone so if u wanna do it then just imagine i tagged u 😁

[littlesecretdiary]

10:05 am on Wednesday, July 24th, 2024

give, always give what you can, even when your allies draw lines in the sand and dig, always dig a little deeper, sometimes it's hard to be my brother's keeper. love, so you let love in, baby I am home in the wake of your skin, and it's crazy how we wear our ceremony, always be open to your path and your journey. yes, she cradles my loneliness, a home in a forest nest, universal test, feel the weight of my love, put your hand on my chest and rest in the cradle of my arms. the battle that we face is the place where our scars come from, and to pick up the gun, my love, we are destined to teach these ones to be brave, and never run away, courage is birthed from the womb on the first light of day. yeah the day you were born, you came out perfect never meant to be torn in silence, never been so loud in the violence, never been so proud of a people, when we're fighting for change, not afraid to lose it all despite all the rage. we are animals, and we cannot be caged, provoke us to fight so we burn a little sage and write poetry, wiser than the enemy will ever be, the minority. and authority, are you here to protect or arrest me? I can't tolerate this hate and I'm losing sleep, can't breathe cause they're choking out a war in me, immorality. love letters to God, I wonder if She reads them, or if they get lost in the stars, the stars, in the stars. so many parts to a heavy heart; if there's no beginning, then where would you start? start, start, where would you start?

yesterday the household went grocery shopping at Aldi's and Costco. poor Handrew, spending so much on groceries 😭 I feel bad. but I can't really afford to pitch in for anything else.... I just sent him $555 for rent/utilities and I have to pay toward my Visa too since I'm using it for my hair appt on Tuesday 😬 I hope I can get a little extra cash from odd jobs in the bank sooner than later again. D's been very good about paying me to clean, and I pet sat for Judy this weekend (and again next weekend! but she's already paid me for both weekends I believe), so that's all helped me stay in gas and food and weed (more important than food tbh)..... I need to stop buying food and just eat when I'm home. maybe today I will bring Snacks™ to work. or maybe not. or maybe I will. fuck idk I don't wanna think abt food but I don't wanna get hungry and spend money like always so I should bring food. there's a fridge and I have a lunch box, I just need to do the damn thing. this morning I was 185 exactly.............. I need to lose weight. badly. BADLY. I feel huge and bloated most days and I hate how I look in most of my clothes now. it's hard. I was so much thinner last year, and even then I wasn't SKINNY skinny. ugh. I wish I'd never gained all that weight........ maybe I'll do what that one gal did and get super famous on OF and then use the money to get a tummy tuck lol

[tsunderedoctor]

hiii it's my first time actually requesting something !! i hope i don't say anything stupid i'm really nervous 😭

as someone who's been diagnosed with this, may i ask for autistic reader with ace and cora? preferably male reader but gn is fine too !

idk if you know much abt it but i do wanna put in some of the stuff i tend to do !! since it is a spectrum, being autustic varies for those who are — but for me personally i have the urge to stim a lot, specifically i get urges to flap and shake my hands often or to just rock back and forth while sitting, or to say certain words like "pop" or "bubble". i really struggle with eye contact and overall most social situations, especially face-to-face but that doesn't mean i'm ignoring them ><

and also sensory issues with how certain things feel/sound/etc, like damp clothing or really loud sounds — sometimes i get really overwhelmed when there's too many things at once ( e.g. flashing lights, loud sounds, too many people, etc. all at once ) and kinda just meltdown uncontrollably. :( but i also love how certain things feel, like soft fur or weighted blankets !! and also certain special interests like aquatic creatures and just the overall marine stuff, or just drawing ! cats too

also random side note i remember seeing you join a one piece artist server i was in and i wanted to say hi so badly since you're my favorite comfort blog !! but i got so scared and nervous and didn't want to bother you so i didn't ☹️ also sorry for rambling a lot i didn't think i would write that many words haha ! that's all i wanted to say though i'll be very happy if you do my request, but it's fine if you don't, just take your time !!!

So, so sorry that you had to wait so long for this!!! I hope you are doing well and know I love you so much!! Also, always feel free to talk to me!! I don’t mind, really!! I’m also in quite a few discords (I left ones I was inactive in-), so feel free to say hi there too!! 💜💜💜

I broke this down into the symptoms you had mentioned and how they first react to now being used to it, so I hope this makes sense!!

Stimming:

When you first presented the stimming, the brunet might be a bit confused at first, but once you explain the situation he just gives you a smile and lets you carry on!

Now he is used to it and doesn’t mind it at all. If anyone says anything rude or gives you dirty looks, be prepared for them to be sat down as he explains the symptoms of Autism to the bystander. If they want to be ignorant, he’s going to teach them a lesson!

Echolalia: 

This one might surprise you, but he is used to Luffy saying random things at times, so he doesn’t even realize it was an issue for you. When you mention it, he just waves it off, it’s not annoying, don’t you worry!

Sometimes he finds himself mimicking you now! You might utter the world “bubble” and the brunet just whispers out “pop” subconsciously, he doesn’t even realize he does it! 

Eye contact:

He also struggles with this! Not from Autism, but due to his trauma. If there is one thing Ace doesn’t feel like he is, is worthy. He doesn’t understand why people always get upset with him, so he is very understanding when you struggle with it too. It’s okay, you’re safe here.

This is something I think would be amazing that you both can work on together! Whenever one another notices the other not looking at them, be direct about it and let them express why they might can’t! It’s a great bonding exercise to get the other to talk and also expressing yourself to others who also might ask! 

Sensory issues:

Do you see this man?? He hardly wears shirts (though I think it’s more to due with his Devil Fruit-), so he totally understands and doesn’t mind supporting some natural looks. As long as you are comfortable and still somewhat decent, he doesn’t mind or won’t get embarrassed! 

As for sounds, he might not realize it until it’s too late. He’s quite the loud man when it comes to fighting and the crew he is in isn’t the quietest either. So with some good communication, the crew and him work on letting you know a head of time! 

Even now he still feels the same way. As long as your clothing choices are kid friendly, he doesn’t mind what you wear or choose not to wear. he also goes out of his way to make sure not to get certain fabrics or have a change of clothes if you happen to get wet.

Selective mutism:

He’s going to be confused at first if you happen to go mute without telling him. He might react negatively too and think he did something wrong, so just let him know through pen and paper you just can’t talk right now and he will be fine. 

Starts to pick up on your low level cues and knows what to expect when you go mute. It’s taken a while, but he is now a pro at it and can speak up for you if needed! 

Stimming:

I like to think that due to his background and education with different countries, Cora would have some knowledge about Autism. So when he sees you stimming for the first time, it just automatically clicks to him and he just goes with the flow as if nothing changed (and nothing has!).

The type to move something out of your reach when you stim just so you don’t accidentally break it or knock it over. He doesn’t want you to feel guilty later when you have better control over your body. 

Echolalia: 

Again, since he has some knowledge he understands what is happening when you say certain words randomly or mimic someone unintentionally. However, he has the book smarts, so he doesn’t have any practical knowledge on this symptom. 

Has more knowledge now and knows how to help you break out of it if you find it difficult on your own. He doesn’t mind it either way, but wants to be helpful to you and your feelings.

Eye contact:

He struggled with this as well, but living in the military had forced this habit on him. That doesn’t mean he is going to force it on you though! He would never do something that causes you discomfort and if you can’t look at him or others, than so be it! 

Let’s people know ahead of time (especially Sengoku) that you might not look at them directly. Just so they don’t go poking around demanding or asking personal questions you don’t want to answer!

Sensory issues:

Might get quite embarrassed if you change your clothes right away when they get wet. Always offers his jackets (even the fluffy coat) for you, even if you are dressed. He just likes seeing you in them and that he can comfort you!

As far as loud sounds go, this man has you covered! He will use his Devil Fruit to mute any loud sounds for around you, giving you a chance to relax and catch your breath again! 

Selective mutism:

He completely understands, he spent years being mute, so when you need a break, just let him know and he will mute you with his Devil Fruit, allowing you to not have to hear others or speak up.

If it comes to people like Doffy, he will let them know you are completely mute. He doesn’t want you to speak to these kinds of people anyway. Call him possessive, but there aren’t many people he is comfortable with you talking to.