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Okay, so it's barely been five minutes and I already have updates!
Character Asks;
a. to start, when asking characters something- please specify who you're speaking to! there is a reason each of the characters has their own special tag and of course- their actual name and/or an animatronic name (some of these details are still in the works!)
b. all asks for characters must remain sfw- especially for the missing kids. if the character is said to be an adult, you can get mildly suggestive but don't go overboard! thank you
c. be courteous. i don't think this has to be said, but don't be an arse if you don't fully get the answer you're looking for!
d. to follow the last thing, because this crossover does have lore- some things will be kept ambiguous on purpose! since the character asks are meant to be in character too, there are going to be some stuff they obviously don't know- not to mention, i don't want to reveal everything immediately!
e. not all characters will be available for asks!
General Five Nights at Whoopee's Asks;
a. for the same reasons as before, not all information on lore will be shared! this is intended to become a fanfiction and i don't want to ruin the experience by rushing to reveal everything at once
b. please be mindful of the fact i do have a life and might not always be around to be constantly answering asks
c. i want this to be a fun, interactive experience and no, i will not talking about anything that is not the crossover in this blog. if you truly want to ask me personal things, at least do it on my main blog. unless it is absolutely necessary
d. feedback is always appreciated! just don't be weird-
e. this is not an x reader ask blog! so please, do that on my main- if you know where it is; that space and the crossover blog are not directly connected to each other
f. you are allowed to request headcanons for the characters! if something is left vague, it's like that for a reason, do with what you will for now!
Following the Blog
To make things easier on everyone, I figured having a list of tags you could use to figure out new information and whatnot was in order!
General Tag Follows;
five nights at whoopee's - general tag
whoopee's menagerie - the animatronic tag! (so far only randy has an official name in this, and that's randy red panda! but i will add the others later)
fnaw missing children - this one is fairly self explanatory
fnaw asks - the ask blog answers! (not sure how active this will be tbh, but i wanted to include it anyway and might be easier to find than "answering asks")
Emoji Tags;
🎸 - character tag for Randy Cunningham / Randy Red Panda
👾 - character tag for Howard Weinerman
🗝️ - character tag for Ellis Winslow
🎬 - character tag for Heidi Weinerman
⛩️ - character tag for First Ninja
📹 - character tag for Debbie Kang
Oof, I’m going to update these tags later but essentially the character tags are part of what I plan on using for when character asks open! Or just general things- either of the two, but please be patient with me; this is a new blog and I only recently returned to tumblr because of my neverending fixations!
#randy cunningham 9th grade ninja#rc9gn#five nights at whoopee's#fnaw asks#randy cunnigham#howard weinerman#debbie kang#theresa fowler#bucky hensletter#first ninja#ninja nomicon#rc9gn nomicon#human nomicon#ellis 'el' winslow#rc9gn characters#heidi weinerman#ask blog#character asks#canon character#original character#rc9gn original character#hyperfixation#i’m hyperfixating#im hyperfixating so hard rn#rc9gn crossover#fnaf crossover#this is a problem but do i care? no lmao let me hyperfix
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my sister will NOT let me read my puckurt in peace
#let a girl live and be cringe sometimes ok#also guys help im knee deep back in my glee hyperfixation again#liveblogging.pdf#controversial opinion but puckurt slays so hard#puck just fits so much better with kurt lmao#blaine is the loml but no offence klainers klaine just. crushes me because i have been the blaine in a klaine relationship SO MUCH#and kurt is awesome but he just brings out the worst in blaine#and their scenes are too painful for me i project too much onto gelmet it's a problem#LIKE HE IS ME#and i would do all that shit i did all that shit and i dont want to remember simp problems#my blaine otp/brotp/i dont really care do i look like i can tell the difference between romantic and platonic r/ps is#blam#they make my heart so happy#i dont even care if theyre romantic or besties theyre sooooooooooooo#and puckurt ehehe#aNyway spiralling so hard back into my brainrot#send help#anti klaine#just to be safe#puckurt
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I would like to hear a FOP (or ANW) headcanon for any of your favorite female characters. Smiles
I WAS ABOUT TO GO TO BED.................. HNGHGNGGHNGHNGHNG UNLEASHES A PACK OF DOGS ON YOU (LOVENGLY)
trixie tang
her family is kinda confusing??? shes adopted, but then her father remarried so her step brothers are chad n tad but then he got divorced AGAIN and kept the twins custody
her father also implanted the idea of "everyone should give you attention because umm money i guess" whomp whomp
i imagine if she got out of her shell more and was like, ur typical kid shed be kinda snarky n cheeky.... elbowing u and jokenly insulting you type of deal
the zone outer... shes just like me where after 20 min of class shed just spontaiously start to not pay attention and forget... idk how to explain it like when everything just feels so light that thing
by the time middle school rolled around she started to slightly blend in more w the crowd cuz no one rlly cared much for the idea of popular kids that much, started to rebel against her father while doing that (intentionally picking less fashionable clothing when going outside by herself etc)
she still likes fashion though, its just a VERY minor interest
probably has a obscure webcomic with a patreon chloe carmicheal
she gives me horse girl vibes, if you show her mlp she will completely loose her shit
the lonley-er....... ppl found her kinda werid cuz of the fact she stayed at the top of her classes and so they just kinda speak to her weridly (<- projecting cuz this is somewhat happening to me idk whats their problem either)
has a horrible habit of impulse buying random nicknacks if let loose cuz she hasnt rlly thought about it
probably becomes rlly close friends w kevin!!!!! aj and chester look at her from afar like small ktitens being introducted to a whole home and looking all puffed up, sanjay and elmer are indifferent lmao
im going to be so honest chef she is probably going down a rlly happy jolly girl -> completely deranged and lost it if shes still staying w her helicopter parents
chronic liar for useless information, she can already do anything (litterly) so its like, why not, but also because if she shows she fucked up its like the world is ending next tuesday
probably watches a bunch of random movies
hazel wells
slaps roof of car this kid could hold so much anxiety and stress inside her
she has SLEEP PROBLEMS!!!! and probably has alot of nightmares... TERRIFYING!!!!
she just happens to know how to play the drums
she HATES strong smells, and is extremely sensitive to onion
hates eye contact..... dont stare at her like that
her main stim is rocking back and fourth, she could be doing is mindlessly in class and the kid in the back would constantly tell her to stop doing that, shes trying to stop doing it buttt its not working out too well for her
she also really likes those tangle stim toys....
i went more indepth abt her autistic traits here
the crane wives liker
therian!!!!!!! jackalope!!!!!!!!!
transgirl, her fathers a transman... twinning
idk where to put this but arospec lesbian cuz im also one yay
she can barely cook on her own, like yeah fries and noodles are just fine but pancakes and bacon are notttt going to go well
she has the most bizzare turn of hyperfixations, and its mostly of things ppl dont tihnk about, like one day she could wake up and go "hm yknow i saw a really cool chair the other day at walmart" and completely spiral
she NEEDS to let her emotions out!!!!! she bottles them up like she could be so pissed at someone and still just smile at them and go yep bye untill a certain point, she should punch a wall and scream i think, i would let her
she lived next to a mine back in the day and antony just showed her around n it all went downhill from there
yk the way ppl would bully autistic kids before they knew it like they went in such a specific way, that thing happened to her so she didnt really have friends, she and jasmine just clicked and were like "huh werid that never happened before" neurodivergent to neurodivergent communication
jasmine tran
i have a whole post for this thing so
INATTENTIVE ADHD!!!!! UNDIAGNOSED!!!!!!!EXECUTIVE DYSFUNCTION AND REJECTION SENSITIVE DYSPHORIA AND ATTENTION SPAN HELL
i also have the same thing going on so ik this is ooc but shes always slightly insecure abt showing what she likes, but she still does it anyway so its like an oxymoron...... if that makes sense
she also has just rlly bad memory in general, like the planets of the solar system, dont get her started on math
stays up wayy late at night so occasonally you will see her sleep in class
LOVES EYECONTACT!!!!!!!!!! SHE CANT SMILE WELL BUT SHE WILL DO IT ANYWAY!!!!!!!!!!!! BUT IF U TELL HER SHES SCARY SHE IS GOING TO HIDE IN HER ROOM FOR THE NEXT 6 DAYS
grew up with a family who loved to playfully make fun of eachother often but she just couldnt tell
was THIS close to being assigned a fairy untill fearless which was like the catalyst on why shed have one and then they dropped her case, however life can be dream and i still gave her one anyway
BITER! BITER! BITER! so much chewlery, and shes so used to this that when her grandma packed her lunches with metal cutlery instead she STILL has bitten the handle expencting it to be wooden but ends up shocking her teeth in the end, she also does it out of stress but thats not as common anymore
also has pica but i already made an indepth post abt it replying to you so
popular on pinterest, makes moodboard requests on tumblr
xenofiction liker, rip jasmine u wouldve loved selling neon wolf adopts for 10 points on deviantart
on that note, i know damn well she'd have the warrior cats art style, thats her one thing like the moment winn recognised the characters she turned tothem with a stone sfx you know the one, her fave characters r sorreltail n mothwing btw if u even care, she has secrelty made every kid at school she knows a character based off them in a story shes brainstorming
angela wells
had a godparent read my lore boy
had SUCH a hard time with depression and anxiety during her early kid years, she was such a wreck, and got better as she got into teenhood dw (unless you count the time she got postpartum depression)
also had codependancy problems regarding godparent mentioned above, hazel gets those from her whoops
is def ace but it hasnt rlly set in for her yet yk, like she knows abt how different she feels but shes just like meh whatever . shes 45
didnt have a bad relationship w her family, just didnt like to share her feelings w her family, which is what shes trying to not do
i think this was specified in canon? but she does notttt really know how kids work psychologically speaking... she read psychology books for older people when she was strating to recover slowly and bc she was like 13 she was like wow im so mature with how im handling this and might be accidently handling hazel the same treatment, but also bc she didnt rlly go in the field of specifically childrens psychology, she doesnt do it out of malicious intent it could just probably backfire on you in 5 years if that makes sense
probably also autistic . looks away
#cupid.exe#maintagging this . go to hell u stupid fruit /ref#fop#fairly oddparents#fop a new wish#fairly oddparents a new wish
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Hey hey! [Intro post number. I don’t even know at this point lmao]
Hihi! The name��s uh. many things, but I mostly go by Silhouette, Sol, Stardust(ed) and River! You can see more things (which includes pronouns, other names / nicknames, honorifics and more) here if you want. Not required, but it’d be appreciated if you at least checked it out!
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I do NOT accept donation / advertisement asks. I am very, very much afraid of answering an ask and it being scam. Now, I’ll never straight up block you for sending asks unless you’re doing it repetitively and purposefully, I’ll just remove the ask and leave it be, but just keep this in mind.
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To get it over with quick, here’s a DNI, Thin Ice and BYI list.
DNI: - If you’re on any basic DNI list - If your blog is 18+, NSFW / NSFT, minors DNI, etc - If your blog is centered around any kind of discourse - If you enforce or heavily pressure your religion onto others - If you actively support something or someone that is inherently wrong - If you support AI art - If I blocked you (I blocked you for a reason. <3) [Note that this may change overtime, and that I do NOT support Blushcrunch (Creators of Dandy’s World) or Groink (Creator of AIB) for their actions. I simply like what they have created and interact with content made by other fans.]
THIN ICE: - If you ship mirrormystery / Rodger x Glisten (I personally hc them as siblings and dislike this ship heavily. I don’t care if you do ship it, just don’t bring it up around me, please.) - If you ship host x contestant (It generally makes me uncomfy for some reason I can’t describe well. I don’t mind if you ship anything of the sort as long as it ain’t problematic, just don’t bring it up to me pls.) [This may be updated in the future. This is all I have for now.]
BYI: - I am a minor! This is extremely important. Don’t be weird or you’re getting blocked, especially if you’re an adult. - I most likely have anger / emotional issues and I can get extremely emotional and pissed off pretty quick. I’m sorry if I cause anything bad to happen because my emotions are extremely chaotic and basically control how I act n stuff. - I am a huuuge mess, and a ping pong ball is constantly bouncing around in my brain - I probably have adhd, more specifically hyperactive impulsive adhd. I am not diagnosed (though I really want to get diagnosed), but I have done a decent amount of research to assume this, so please keep that in mind. - Tone tags are essentially my life support. Please use them or some other indicator for tone, since I can’t understand it unless it’s very blatantly being shoved in my face. - Anything I hyperfixate on something, you’re 100% going to notice by my reblogs. I will flood your page lol - I will like and mass reblog posts a lot!! If you don’t like this, please let me know. - At times, I will randomly condense my speech. If you can’t understand, I’ll fix that! - I refer to characters I really like or relate to a lot as “me”, especially Pitchfork from AIB. If you ever have a problem with this, PLEASE let me know. I myself am not a fictionkin, fictive or anything of the sort, so if this ever becomes a problem to you I’ll change it asap. - I can’t read things right sometimes. Be patient with me I’ll get it eventually lmao
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I use my own personal tags when making posts every once in a while! These tags will be listed below.
-.River’s shenanigans (Kind of a shitposting tag. Basically just dumb or silly things I post.) - River’s art (My art tag! NOT TO BE USED BY AI.) - River’s ask responses (My responses to things I get in my inbox!) - River’s thoughts (Kind of a vent tag atp, originally and sometimes used as a marker to indicate that I’m posting about things on my mind. Not used often.) - River’s writing (My writing! Read TWs on posts if needed.)
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Fandoms, interests and hyperfixations! I’m in quite a few communities in the moment. Some of these are:
-.Object shows (more specifically AIB) - Dandy’s World - Just Shapes n Beats - The Pink Corruption (I consider them two different things. If you don’t like this, don’t fight me over it; just DNI and move on, please.) - Pikuniku (Is there even a Pikuniku fandom-?) - Bugbo - Sprunki - Pressure - Blocktales - The Robloxia: Until Dawn
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Lastly, here’s a few funky lil userboxes. Thank you for reading! [Credits to the userboxes in order: 1 (me!), 2, 3, 4, 5, 6]
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Preferably like / interact with this post if you’ve read it, but I’m not forcin ya.
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Yes. The answer is yes. I'm about to be a problem and ask alot of shit regularly. Sorry.
1. That 1.5 relationship Klaus was in one ask about previous relationships had me like... 👀 like..how.. why the half.. or was I seeing things?
2. Since our cast is basically a bunch of kinda sus people except for Ira bless that sweet soul.
Ima come with my fav ask of all time. I don't know if it's been asked apologies if I missed it. But how jealous do the ROs get? Like they are at a festival and someone is trying to get into Io's pants during a crushing stage?
you're not seeing things (klaus is. a problem) and it's SO funny you think Ira is the least sus but that's all I'm gonna say about that :3c
For Val, it depends on how into it Io is. If Io is flirting back and playing along, they'll probably tease you about it later but mostly let it happen. Screaming on the inside, though. If Io is visibly annoyed, they're in full defense mode and will make an immediate opportunity to pull Io away. Pretending to be your partner is a viable option.
Kat is all over that shit, she's interfering whether you like it or not. She's in there with thinly veiled threats and that terrifying stare, and if they don't back off there's going to be a problem. She won't get touchy on Io about it, but she will hover over your shoulder and be impossible to ignore
Ira is immediately just :( :( :( They won't get involved but they will sulk the rest of the night and completely deny anything is wrong. They stick to you like velcro and need a major dose of attention to get over it. Asking about their current hyperfixation will probably do the trick lol
Unless it clashes with whatever he's got planned, Klaus does not care even a little bit. He's like hmm. weird. and moves on with his life. However, if Io decides to leave early with this person instead of being around Klaus, he'll be annoyed and by God will you know it. Snark dialed up to 11.
Constantine is a bit more difficult lmao, especially depending on how antagonistic you are with them. They'd rather die than admit someone flirting with Io bothers them, so they'll probably resort to being extra mean. Something about how that person was the ugliest motherfucker they've ever seen and you have horrific standards. Saints, why do you attract problems wherever you go?
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TWISTED WONDERLAND OCS!!
I have more but these are my MAIN ones! Anyways Twisted Wonderland is such a big hyperfixation of mine, literally always on my mind!
Anyways, SEELE!! I did have a really old account dedicated to her from like 2-3 years ago, but that's since been deleted. If anyone recognizes her, hi! Its me the same person i prommy!
This is my most recent drawing of her and its also a redesign!! I didn't have problems with her old design but HHHHHH the new one looks SO much better, I love her so much more now! She doesn't really have a set age though i mainly picture her being 17 when she has long hair and then 19-23 with her short hair! That said I really ship her with almost anyone in TWST!! She's a bit eccentric but tries to hide it when she comes to Twisted Wonderland to try and fit in(it doesn't last very long since after Azul's overblot she learns the importance of loving herself and goes back to being a total weirdo LOL) anyways she tries to fit in since she used to get bullied back at Earth. Also I do imagine her hair to be longer in the first drawing and either design she wears glasses, it was just to show what she looks like with and without glasses! I also imagine her to be a lot more accessorized I just didn't feel like drawing it yet, LOL! Also when I use Seele, its typically just her, none of my other TWST ocs, however my other TWSToc's were all brought together and live in Ramshackle together!
Next is Xanthi!! Their an alien! I really dig ocs that aren't just humans since y'know, Yuu can really come from ANYWHERE!! So seeing other ocs where they step out of that human realm really inspired me, and ofc, I love aliens soooo it was perfect! I actually debated making Seele an alien in her redesign since Seele calls herself an alien all the time LOL Anyways it's Xanthi time, not Seele time! Xanthi is 17(you'll find that most of my Yuu's are 17) and they escaped from area 51 LMAOOOOO. They can glamour themself to look human but obviously, there are limitations! They can't change Their eye color or strange pupils, and their tongue and blood color can't change. They loves mischief and causing chaos, if they aren't the one causing chaos then it finds them. They have a huge fascination with humans and have observed them for a bit, though they still struggle with a LOT of human stuff. Although, they're REALLY good at anything technology related! Anyways, if you're a human, chances are Xanthi will just SIT there and stare at you! I ship them with the Heartslabyul crew! I gotta draw them with Riddle since I just KNOW they'd get on Riddle's nerves. And Ace and Deuce would probably be even more protective after finding out that Xanthi is a clueless alien, although Xanthi would also piss them off too LMAOOOO (Also I'd probably mute their colors a little but oh well LOL)
Next is Maggie!! Much like with Seele I don't have a set age for her(in order to ship her with Leona! She's shipped with the Savanaclaw cast!) So 17-19 is the range I have set for Maggie! Although, she also doesn't change as much as Seele does in that time. Maggie is very laid back and chill, she also very loyal to her friends and looks out for them, and she doesn't hide it, she doesn't feel a need to. If she loves and cares about someone, then she should show it, in order to let that person know that they ARE loved! Platonically at least, Maggie's a mess when it comes to romantic feelings. Anyways Maggie is pretty independent, she doesn't really like relying on others and she can hold herself fine on her own. She's stubborn and refuses to ask for help. She doesn't take her studies very seriously, especially in the beginning since she just figures they'll all get sent home soon, however, she ends up feeling bad when her grades impact the others and starts working hard(Honestly, I can see her making that deal with Azul LMAO) Anyways, she's really protective and loyal to her friends and worries about others easily. She prefers to wear baggy clothes and does NOT follow the school's uniform regulations LOLOL
Next is Quincy!! She's a sweet 17 year old! She loves and cares about her friends deeply and gets attached easily. That said, she's got a mischievous streak to her name! Don't get it twisted, she's still extremely kind, but she ADORES horror and enjoys playing harmless little pranks on her friends. She likes to give her friends a little scare here and there. She doesn't show this side until WAY later into the friendship either and it comes suddenly. Maggie in Particular is creeped out by and worries for Quincy, and Quincy LOVES it! She's aware that she gives off a innocent impression, she's been told it so many times and she uses that to her advantage for a bit, she eventually comes clean with her pranks, she always does. She's a big fan of baking, and eating in general, literally adores going to the Monstro Lounge when she can afford it. I ship her with the Octavinelle cast!! She also always holds her arms up like that(Funnily enough, it's a bit of a habit I have too, and I just realized it fits with her whole bunny scheme too!) She has a bit of a lisp with her buck teeth, that she's grown to accept over the years. I didn't really know what to do for her second drawing my baaaad LOL
Next Is Scarlett!! Scarlett is a sweet and energetic 17 year old as well! She gets along really well with Peony AND Quincy, all three sharing a love for horror! Much like with Seele, Scarlett typically wears glasses and USUALLY has some kind of wound on them LOL! They're really reckless AND clumsy so not a good combo for staying unscathed. I ship her with the Scarabia cast, poor Jamil...Sorry for doing this to you(Seele isn't much better LMAO) Scarlett loves ART!! She loves CREATING!!! It's the ONE thing she can stay focused on(Other then watching horror videos, and even then she STILL gets distracted) You look away from her from 10 seconds and she's missing because she got distracted by something and HAD to go see what it was. That said she REALLY struggles with school work but she tries super hard, especially now that she knows that its not just her grades at risk. Feels bad when she becomes aware she stresses others out and causes them trouble. Can't cook to save her life, she tries(esp in culinary crucible) But hey, her cooking is probably more edible then Lillia's at least, so it's not the worst!
Next is Lorelai!! Oh my sweet Lorelai, my precious baby!! T-T she's an insecure 17 year old who's also very kind. Her dream is to be a lifeless doll, she knows it's a bit morbid, but she thinks dolls are pretty and if she were a doll that'd mean she's pretty too! She's VERY insecure about herself, which causes her to do some pretty harmful things to her body. Lorelai loves sewing and designing outfits, and all of her outfit's were made by her! She's very talented but does not think so, her parents are NOT supportive of her hobbies and want her to get a "real job"(like they ain't wearing clothes, stfu fr fr) Oh! I also ship her with the Pomefiore cast, I was listening to music and thought "I Know You" By Faye Webster fit her relationship with Vil ToT! She loves horror and it definitely doesn't help with her morbid thoughts of what she wants to do to herself. She's also a huge fan a romance but doesn't think she's capable of giving OR receiving love! Rook is a fucking whiplash to her, completely goes against everything she's ever thought(Sorry I love Pomefiore sm)
Next is Renae!! Renae is 18 years old and as the trend has been going, I ship her with Idia. They def game together! Renae was a popular streamer back on Earth(not that she remembers since y'know, memory loss!) She has a bit of a nerdy appearance but they love alt fashion a lot and would wear it when streaming. Since coming to Twisted Wonderland, it's kind of stopped as they don't have enough money to buy alt clothes, they don't see a point with the uniforms, and she cant commission someone since lack of money again. Their glasses are just reading glasses, so they're not on her all the time. She also does NOT know how to tie a tie LOL She's pretty laid back and does not care about a lot of things. Oh Ramshackle is falling apart? That's fine. They haven't eaten in three days? that's okay, more food for the others and more money saved. Much like with Xanthi, she's also tech savvy, not as much as Xanthi though LOL!
Next is Shiro!! She's 17 LOL and I was SOOOOO creative with the name/sar She's inspired off of shiro lolita fashion so I kinda just made her name Shiro LOLOL Anyways! She's a very smart an hardworking individual who loves to learn all about different things, she knows numerous strange facts and could go on long rambles about anything really! She also gets along well with Quincy, Lorelai, and Scarlett(mainly Lorelai though as they share SIMILAR aesthetics and Shiro likes to try to include Lorelai and make Lorelai feel wanted) as Shiro is also a horror fan and knows a lot of interesting facts about death. She's good at keeping a calm and level headed persona, but she's actually such a mess, if you compliment her she will excuse herself and start freaking out. She does not handle stressful situations well, no matter how calm she may look. She's also a bit upset that she's seen as someone to rely on in these situations since now she feels she can't rely on anyone, although she knows its also to be expected with the persona she puts up. Anyways I ship her with the Diasomnia cast!
Next is Raine!! She's 17 and an enigma LMAOOO Her hair works with the magic of my pen fr fr! She's mysterious and prefers to stay that way, never opening up to anyone. She has a strong sense of justice and sticks to her morals, that said when she see's someone in need of help, Raine is likely the first person to rush in and help them! I ship her with Rollo, Neige, Chenya, and Najma(I personally have always seen Najma as 16 as her official age hasn't been revealed yet) Raine loves flower language and studying herbs. Honestly, probably huge on crystals and other witch stuff! She has a bit of a playful side to her, pulling pranks and carrying on with a bit that she's actually a witch, which she refuses to let up(she's not actually a witch but some of the other Ramshackle residents genuinely don't know what to believe) A lot of people believe shes mature because of the way she holds herself but she is NOT!! She is just a silly THING!!
And finally is Ines!! She's like the only adult adult twst oc I have, with her being 26 years old! That said she feels a little out of place being taken to twisted wonderland and having to go to school, but she also spends a lot of time reminiscing on her school days. She's like a mom for the others(excluding Seele), although she also talks like a grandmother LOL! She used to have a bit of a mischievous streak to her name when she was younger and it still shows to this day, with her piercing and her hair still being platinum blonde at the ends! I ship her with Divus, Sam, and Fellow!(Crowley doesn't get love, I hate him >:3) She doesn't really understand the girls, but she supports them and their weirdness! She looks at them and see's a bit of herself in some of them(Renae and Lorelai mostly) Anyways, she actually has fun at the school, she doesn't dread it cause it's something new like the other do, rather she feels refreshed by the new topics, it'd be boring if she had to do the same lessons all over again!
#Twisted Wonderland#Twst#Twisted Wonderland oc#Twst oc#twst Seele#Twst Xanthi#Twst Maggie#Twst Quincy#Twst Scarlett#Twst Lorelai#Twst Renae#Twst Shiro#Twst Raine#Twst Ines#they're all traumatized and depressed because i CANNOT make a happy oc to save my life!#I was STRUGGLING with motivation for Ines LMAOOOO#NOW to work on their little sprites and outfits YIPPE!!#I gotta write full profiles for them as well LOLOL
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for the writer ask meme 👀 2, 3, 5, & 25 please!
its been a bajillion years but tysm for the ask!! i love the 2+3 = 5, 5x5 = 25 of it all.
2. Do you read/reread your own fics?
absolutely 100% for sure. i wrote them for me first and foremost! i don't reread all of them with the same frequency - some i like better than others, some are shorter and easier to reread, etc. after i post something, i'll generally go through a period of rereading it a lot, then i'll taper off and probably come back to it once in a blue moon, often if some beloved stranger leaves a comment or a kudos.
i don't always enjoy doing it - if the fic's a problem child, it can frustrate me - but i do think i learn stuff from what parts of it i don't think worked. and then if i do still love parts of it, i get to hear my past self tell me a story, which i always love. for example, i just reread let the heavens falter, where i'm like...okay, i rushed the last couple chapters and the editing, so if i were changing things about it now i would probably cut a bunch of stuff to make the pacing tighter, and let certain sections breathe and develop a bit more. and the fic is a deep dive into some messy stuff, and i don't know if i handled it all in a way i'm satisfied with, but i have a really good time seeing how i tried?
either way, i'm very pro-rereading ur own fic!
3. What’s your favorite fic that you’ve written?
oh, shit. i would say some sun has got to rise probably still takes the cake, even though it's from five years ago, now. it took me a year to write and i'm really proud of my teenage self for pouring so much of what i was feeling into it. it was really important to me then and it's still important to me today, especially knowing that it reached some other people and helped them through a hard time, too.
5. What’s a fic idea you’ve had that you will never write?
fuck, you picked good questions!! i have a bajillion, just because my follow through is not great and my attention span for a hyperfixation where i'll actually have the ability to make something for it is tragically limited at the moment. i would say i'm probably never going to write the lupe aloto backstory that exists in my mind (and in pieces on the aloto discord server) for a few reasons, though i do care deeply about it (and her) and if i ever finish my other lupe fics it'll be strongly informing them
25. Have you ever upset yourself with your own writing?
yeah, for sure. in different ways, too lmao - sometimes i make myself sad just because it's a sad scene, or i'm digging into grief or something. sometimes i upset myself because i don't like how it's turning out or turned out! writing is definitely a Hobby
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Posting this here because I feel like standing up for myself. Do I need to? Probably not, but it's going to make me feel better and given I have addressed this type of behavior in the pinned post on my blog, I just feel it needs to be addressed.
I like Michael Jackson and his music. I've sias it before and I'll say it again, I don't care what your opinion of him is so long as you aren't being petty and using it as a means to get under my skin. I understand that people make their MJ jokes and their silly "hee hee" jokes, buy at least they can actually be SEEN as jokes. Even if they may be off color, they still can easily be read as a joke. Fine. So long as those jokes are NOT at mine or someone else's expense, it's whatever. But the moment when you make a "joke" that literally consists of less than 4 words and then get defensive when someone doesn't immediately get the "joke" and turn to insults is just bullshit and stupid.
Below are some screenshots of an interaction with someone who I am going to just consider a troll and won't be interacting with further. I will not say what site this is on, but if you use their mobile app then I'm sure you'll recognize it. While I'm annoyed with them, I do want to make it a point and say DO NOT go after and harass them. It isn't worth the time or effort, and it's just going to cause more problems. However, I didn't hide their username because it's a way to let others know that they are, at least from this interaction and my opinion, a troll.
As I touched on with them in my final response, this type of behavior and "joke" can, believe it or not, trigger someone's anxiety and ptsd from past events, and that's exactly what this did to me.
I didn't know about Michael until it shook the world and crashed the internet that he had passes away. This was my introduction to his music and his legacy and I loved it. I was in 5th grade and I went gung-ho with the hyperfixation and this lasted until the summer after leaving 6th grade. I got my friends together and we did the Thriller dance for our 5th grade talent show. I bought his autobiography and my family bought me several other books and affordable accessories that I would like. Hell, I got vote the 3ds and Wii copies of MJ the Experience video game lmao.
But... why did my love for him and his music only last those two years?
Because I was bullied. Heavily bullied. I was made a target by all the stuck up girls and stupid boys from then on and I never really heard the end of it until getting into higschool. I was told how the only reason that I liked his music was because I secretly hoped he would kidnap me, take me to Neverland, and rape me "like he did to all the other little boys and girls". Parents of these kids would even chuckle and their kids' behavior ans bullying NEVER was reprimanded, being written off as kids being kids. Whenever Thriller came on at our elementary school dances, I wanted to have fun and dance yet these bullies would make the effort to literally try and trip me and make me fall to the floor and laugh every time and is the reason I stopped going to any school dances until my senior prom.
This bullying made me stop listening to Michael's music. Note that I was roughly 13 years old at this time. I didn't listen to ANY of his music again and probably never would have if it weren't for my one IRL friend surprising me by putting an MJ spotify playlist on in her car while she drove me to the mall for my 22nd birthday.
Note that age gap? 13yrs to 22yrs. I stopped listening to his music for almost 10 years because of the bullying and harassment I'd suffered from growing up. And yes, after that I went into another hypwrfixation because I forgot how much his music helped me relax and just let go for once.
So again, what may seem like a joke to you may not to others and just might trigger their anxiety and ptsd. It sure did for me with this troll and their "joke". When this happens, my ptsd is triggered and I go on the defensive and, as a redhead, get upset. Rightfully upset, at that.
Mind how your "jokes" may come across. It may be funny for you, but for some it brings emotional flashbacks and can trigger someone's anxiety and ptsd.
#mj#mjj#michael#joseph#jackson#michael joseph jackson#michael jackson#rant#defending myself#the bean speaks#trolls#offensive jokes#tw#trigger warning#tw rape#tw mention of rape#bullying#tw buying#tw mention of bullying#tw mention of harassment
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Uh this post kind of turns dark af. Sort of eh.... If you're into murder documentaries, stories, or the mind of a killer, you might like it......
Ps. My mind is all over the place.
Truthfully I be lying if those deep dark thoughts didn't cross my mind before tho. Like um..... when I'm extremely angry at someone who hurt me.
Or where I want revenge. But eh.... I also think deaths just an easy way out for people. Boom you're gone.
What's that accomplish but me feeling myself take your life away, I heard it's a powerful feeling once you cross that line man.
Okay. Fuck. Murderous shit does play out in my head obviously lmao but I think logically about it, why i wouldn't do it 😂
Serial killers on the OTHER HAND that are addicted to that... power, feeling, hungry, sensation.....
It's crazy I don't even have to do it to get a clue what they're talking about honestly.
Fuck I know, as I'm someone whose an addict is my nice way of saying it, to pretty much whatever gives me satisfaction inside (which is anything possible) but yeah as I have hyperfixation/obession. Whatever that fix is, I fucking want or need, it's all that's on my mind....it consumes you till you satisfy it. Crawls up your skin and just makes you wanna scratch your brains out, you need it AHHH.
Ah as my addiction lady simplifies it, just gotta ride the wave hahahah till that craving is gone.
Fuck comparing my 'addictions' to killing people now. Naw man I know there's a side in me that'd like to play god or his helper.
If I somehow accidently triggered that thirst........ say I was protecting someone for example in defense.
I didn't plan to kill this person but I did, and now I got a taste.
(Like when a dog fucking kills all your chickens or goes crazy or something and you have to put it down cause that's all it'll do now)
See where I'm going with this?
So yes. Say I didn't get charged or anything, I was let free whatever (This is all hypothetically).
I now know that feeling to take another's life, who I felt deserved it for what they did, hence no guilt. But I do have that side of me that's mad they're not alive to suffer more for their actions. Hmmmmm. Ah bipolar you like complicating things eh?
I feel people deserve to suffer more honestly. Unless their worst fear is death. Here I come hehe as I got the grim reaper on my arm. Lol jk.
Kay fuck. Back to what I was saying. I got the taste, I took this piece of trash out of this world by myself, which was just an ugly sight to look at. They were pretty much toxic waste that could kill innocent people...... it's like..... I could do this again. Feed the thirst while also cleaning up the trash.
Hehe it's like my calling, I always cared about the environment 😉😉 win, win situation. In my insane eyes.
Problem is finding those people..... that like I said DESERVE IT. Wait, like death note almost, watch the news lol easy to find.
*One mofo crosses me mind all the time...... killed two kids in an dd accident. Has no sympathy, threatens to do it again. Won his court case and bragged ' all I do is win baby '
Gawh perks of me being a cute innocent girl and uh damn I'm basically admitting I plotted this before in the past 🤣😂 shhhh I SAID NOTHING THESE ARE HYPOTHETICAL.
Like I have these thoughts in mania, psychosis but yenno what! There's a reasonable voice back there that tells me not to worry about it cause someone else will do it for me, or just wait for karma, whatever works, then I'm oh okay, I believe you.
To reassure everyone, I won't be on a killing spree hahahah I'm tooooo innocent.
'But we scorpions are also the devil in disguise......'
Carrying on, i think tho as much as that 'spree' would fill the thirst, you crave more and more, also I'd run out of waste to find at some point, and I'd have to start lowering the bar of my rules or 'standards' just to get that fix. Cause you fucking need it.
Like coffee, your outta the good stuff, so you settle for that shit you hate, just to get you're intake.
Guess this is where things get sloppy, the desire for the rush to take another life is higher then you're 'reasoning, excuses, rules' you made when you started this to begin with. To justify you're own actions in your head.
You get impatient waiting for... example of 'good batch of cocaine' cause the dealer slow as fuck so you settle once again with crappy shit cause you get it faster. (Haha from coffee to cocaine)
I wouldn't even be satisfying my original cravings out of all this. In the beginning it was a whole hmmmm let's say wonderful system/high that made you feel good in all ways. Like in your sick fucked up head, you've been doing a good deed to society. So you had reason to not feel like shit about the things you were doing and you had that fix. But with that out of the question, what's your excuse now? Just a sick sick person.... (or as we call it a junkie, low lives to society as most say, ick different topic I disagree with) yes you become the toxic waste that needs to be cleaned up now. Shhhh most don't know that. Denial. To deep in the addiction.
I'll use my jib addiction as an example, that fucking first hit amazing, YOU FEEL ON CLOUD 9, your able to focus on shit (for me i struggle with haha), confident, invincible and able to this or that. You dont need to consume much and only need it on occasion you're satisfied.
Flash forward, as time goes on, it takes more to feel what you did before, you're doing stupid shit to afford the next fix, stuff you'd never normally do, against you're own beliefs.
it's causing symptoms like zits, and swollen taste buds in your mouth, where your fuckin in pain and can't eat and yet you still keep getting high smoking tho it's no longer even making you feel high at all, your just legit smoking for nothing out of habit, and your in pain, suffering for no satisfaction AT ALL. Still dying for that fucking fix. You keep chasing it, getting sloppier and sloppier.
Things start becoming more obvious to outsiders somethings up. You're getting too messyyyyy, reckless, careless. Hehe next thing you know undercover cops are knocking on you're window running you're plates. Just as a fucking excuse to see whats up. You're paranoid you're being watched always now, well i would be haha confidence of being invincible has been knocked down a bunch of pegs. But fuck that fucking fix..... either continue as she goes or.....
Maybe this is when serial killers lie low for awhile....... they ride the wave. Thing about addictions tho? Relapse fucking happens eventually (props to one's that never relapse on a serious note)
And bam, YOURE BACK IN THE CYCLE!!!!!
(Side note, I remember this one serial killer who just boom gone one day. Idk 10 years later or something he was back at it again)
As if I mixed all my addiction problems to killing lmfao I think it was cause part of my head was thinking eh man, maybe I could do something like that. Like legit.
Then it's like no, think of you, how everything else in your life you get hooked on and how it always turns out.
I totally was comparing this to my old job lmfao a story I written about a serial killer, the interviews I've seen from killers and the simple old fucking addiction, hehe plus Tiffany on chucky saying they had a problem with killing. Which made me ALSO think of an episode of black mirror, he was addicted to pain I think? From his patients. Or even was it the experience of flat lining I don't remember..... but he ended up needed more and more until it consumed him and I think he ended up a vegetable in the end lol
Fuck I was totally going with a even darker story with this to mannnnnn! But I was thinking realistically if it was me doing all this, this is how my brain would actually work. If I somehow got the thirst for blood hahaha
I'm to..... sweet, never liked being mean or hurting people and if I do it's unintentional or I feel dead awful about it when I realize what I did during 'angry fit'. I like to keep that shit contained in my house when I'm alone to scream and shout hahah or on here if necessary to vent it out.
Once again devil in disguise, don't mean she not there, but I'm never gonna let her out lol
The other sides of me always always i think protect me from that. Like I said I'll have these insane thoughts or plots I wanna hurt someone like they hurt me and as always they tell me, relax and not to not worry about it. Shit happens as it's supposed to!
Once again murder aside. I rather see people being thrown away to rot. Death is for people in pain and need to be free or those that lived their full life and are ready for next in my opinion. Death is a privilege really, Death to soon is .... oh wow maybe another post on my opinion of that. Anyways.....
(I have strict rules of this..... people who have no remorse are the ones I see fit to go aka taken out, nothing will ever make them..... a safe or good person to be let back into society as our system is a joke, the disgusting ones are always set free, prison ment nothing to them) omg when I say rules. I mean the story I wrote..... haha but I guess it's still me....
I have to much empthy ( i do have switch to turn it off sometimws) So certain ones agh they fuck with my head to wrap around.... .
I don't wanna say who.....I'm not classing them all together but ick..... yeah..... I just feel bad cause I know some are in extreme pain for what they've done and ill but they're extra sick in the head if they caved to their desires and ...... fuck it's like please just let someone else take you out, I can't do it. You who gave no fucks, yes you I can deal with, you with the actually remorse. Man I can't help you. You're getting what you deserve honestly, suffering forever for what you did. That's my punishment of leaving you alive.
Man I'm feeling like the executioner rn or angel of death, my favourite the grim reaper. Ah but my version of the repear we just take the souls lol. *my next life is a reaper dun dun dun*
I guess the voices are right for that one. When you don't have to do anything at all. People will suffer in their own hell.
Holy shit balls the guy in my story is meeeeee almost. Well he had to be, I did come up with the rules didn't I?
This is all just fucked up shit in my head I never tell anyone lol
Wow. Who let me write all this.
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wait so fellow adhder I'm I think that actually all of the TFW are actually ND. Cas has autism, dean has adhd, and hear me out, Sam has ocd. the intrusive thoughts? obsessive behavior? eating and acting clean literally to a point where it is inconvenient for everyone involved? I think he is obsessing over being clean and fresh (compared to demon blood and souless Sam, sleazy and nasty Sam) also I have a few reasons for thinking dean us adhd but y do u think so sorry I'm rambling
let’i’ve been waiting all my life for you to come into my inbox and talk to me about this
of COURSE TFW are ND!!! of course!! and yes, yes, we all know Cas has autism I love my autistic angel and i love the hc that Sam has ocd because it does fit really well!
(sectioned all of this out because it’s better for adhders to read, you get it)
his ocd directly bleeds into his poor self-esteem like you said with the demon blood! he feels the need to be pure and even though he canonically knows that these things (like eating clean, running, etc) can’t help his problem, he still tries because he kind of... has to.
also OCD is often connected to a need for control, and the physical state of sam’s body is the one thing he has control over (which is also where we get into eating disorder territory). Sam has had so little control over his life, especially growing up, and for most his childhood, he didn’t even control what he ate (with Dean making/buying his meals). SO once he gets out of that environment, he hyperfixates on this new freedom!
we can also go to the hand pressing with this. a literal compulsion that even after the effect of the pain wears off once the hand heals, he still does it as a grounding method. nonsensical compulsion to calm anxiety? yes OCD
can also be linked to childhood trauma but what ND can’t be amirite
emotional regulation once again - remember Angry Boy King Sammy? So angry he doesn’t know what to do and can’t control it and feels like he’s gonna explode with the rage?
intrusive (sometimes violent) thoughts are a huge marker for OCD and Sam’s obviously sometimes come from Unnatural means but they are also a part of him and kind of always have been
religious themes are also huge in OCD which Fits and makes me EMOTIONAL Sam I’m so sorry he spent his whole childhood feeling unclean and unholy and Fixated on that to the point of praying to a God his family didn’t believe in just so he could be Clean fuck
also i think it’s really interesting and cool that of the two brothers, Sam shows the most obvious signs of OCD even though he is canonically the messier brother and the brother not worried about IRL germs (i know the writers didn’t try to do this but i don’t care they didn’t play into the OCD means i must germex! trope)
AND ADHD DEAN!!!
let’s first look at the obvious: Dean is highly skilled in combat, even though he hates physical exercise. Why? ADHD brain tied up with anxiety is hardwired into flight or fight, not sit and focus on one thing. it’s constantly picking up on threats and peripheral vision and all that shit
he also has a spotty history with books! like i’ve said before, not shit writing, this is Dean’s ADHD. Dean as a kid read some high-brow books and he still does occasionally but he doesn’t nearly as much as an adult because it became much harder!! and because he just couldn’t devote that much attention, even as a kid, to things that he wasn’t really interested in! This is why he hates research
he’s known far and wide for his impulsiveness, his knee jerk decisions. it’s part of what makes him a good hunter and part of what makes him human disorder incarnate - It’s ADHD
Low frustration tolerance and rejection-sensitive dysphoria! Dean has a really hard time regulating his emotions and especially anger - especially especially especially when he feels like he’s being rejected or abandoned. it’s literally his worst fear
^^^^ rejection-sensitive dysphoria also plays into his low self-esteem (god poor kid to have RSD in an environment growing up where Everyone Was Constantly Busting Each Other’s Balls and couldn’t be emotionally available to also tell you they actually love you), high self standards, and social anxiety (he’s a bullshitter, his chameleon charm is also a symptom of his social anxiety and RSD)
also Dean has lots of sleep problems both ways and complicated relationships with motivation and inner restlessness versus a yearning for stability
comfort items / food!! now i can’t find the research on this so forgive me because i know i’ve read it somewhere that ADHDers tend to gravitate toward familiar things or foods! (like Dean’s burgers and his car / motels that are all basically the same) it is a very ND thing in general as well
along that line, ADHDers tend to have sensory processing issues - it’s why Dean has an Outfit Recipe of the same types of clothes that he sticks to - also why he delights so much in sensory stuff like magic fingers and the Dead Guy Robe
(((jfc i thought of this point while writing out the last one and then forgot it and had to stare at the screen for a minute, now I’ve forgotten it again while writing this thank you adhd))) AH YES! auditory processing! Remember how we make fun of Dean for his lame comebacks? Remember how we make fun of him for his buffer speed in The Scene? baby that’s because it takes him five extra seconds to translate those words let alone RESPOND
not to mention people with ADHD often have much higher rates of anxiety/depression (duh) and substance abuse (yes)
lmao in researching this the article I was looking at says that lead exposure as a child can lead to ADHD and jfc you KNOW those shitty motels had Exclusively Lead Paint smh
BUT ONE OF MY FAVORITES of course has to be that Dean gets along so well with autistic Cas!! as an adhd dude with an autistic best friend, WE DIG! adhd and autism go so well together because we can get each other in ways that others just Can’t. adhd and autism have a lot of overlap/similarities in brain function and shit.
tend to eschew social conventions and be much more straightforward/want that in others
they can both have the tendency to fidget and depending on upbringing mask that for some people - which also leads to being social chameleons
they both have comfort items / foods that NT find really strange or childish in my experience
sensory disorders!!! cas with his ONE OUTFIT and Dean with his different colored ONE OUTFIT
Anyway i’m in love with this and i have so many thoughts but here are a few of them thank you very much for this ask i love that you came to me
#ask#willowwisk#adhd dean#dean has adhd#autistic cas#cas has autism#ocd sam#sam winchester#dean winchester#castiel#neurodiversity#tw: abuse#tw: eating disorders
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I am pretty quiet in general - I'm a Scorpio and tend to line up with a lot of those traits lmao I'm perfectly happy being alone, I'm pretty secretive, I watch more than I talk alot - but when I get to know someone, I can be a blabbermouth, hahaha! I get really bubbly, I try to make people laugh. I Too have the ADHD so I get hyperfixations and usually revolve my entire interest around them for however long they last. I can and will talk your ear off about my hyperfixation if I feel like you care haha. I really love writing! I also really love Vidya games but I'm not good at them hahaha. Doesn't stop me from Playing them 👀 I'm really quite daydreamy and get lost in my own head quite a bit!
I love really spicy food! Was that like, important? No, but I gotta brag. Actually I really love food in general - it's not uncommon for me to have a foody themed background on my phone. And I have a food side blog.
On the negative spectrum, I do definitely get distracted, and I need things repeated to me. Alot. I'm kind of a mess, in all aspects of the word! I get more sensitive than I'd like to admit to criticism, though I'm trying to work on that. I can be really petty and I play dumb more than I really should haha. I'm also really impulsive! I'm used to getting what I want in general u.u;
I'm told by others I'm just a really sweet person in general and I give really good hugs, so that's something!
You know how people send Anon hate messages? Since my teen years I just randomly do the fuckin opposite, I just
Anon love messages
"hope you have a great day, you' deserve it"
Lmao it's fun
Laaaast matchup!
I match you with Trey Clover!
-Silence until you have something to say is a style that works for him. Trey tends to adapt to the conversational needs of the room. But, so far as his preferences go: he likes the fact that when you speak it’s because of something you’re actually interested in. You’re not just trying to fill silence, and you don’t necessarily need him to keep the ball in the air. Ramble away. He finds it cute, and when you run out of words, that’s ok too.
-He’s a good grounding influence if you’re the type to space out a lot. He tends to be very plugged into the world around him as a matter of course, and can keep an eye out for anything important that you might miss while you’re in outer space. He’ll tease you about it from time to time, but for the most part he finds it endearing and is happy to let you take your own time.
-Trey’s wheelhouse tends to be sweets, but he’s also very capable of introducing spicy dishes when needed. His signature spell also comes in handy, meaning you can have it as hot as you want without burning everyone else’s tongues off in the process. Food is a bonding ritual for the two of you. One of his favorite more laidback date nights is going through your side blogs to find something new to challenge himself with, and then cooking it together. It keeps things fresh and gives him something to do with his hands while you talk.
-A born older brother, Trey is generally very patient and not overly uptight. Sometimes its unavoidable that he has a problem with something that’s happening, but he’s tuned enough into your mood to know how to say it without hurting your feelings too badly. He never minds having to repeat himself, as long as he knows that you do care enough about his feelings to listen when its really important.
-As a side effect of that, he has a tendency to turn his partners into spoiled brats. Trey actually likes that you’re assertive about what you want, and impulsive too. It's not how he’s wired, he has a tendency to just default to polite and accommodating. Still, he admires people who are ready to go for what they want (as long as they’re not being assholes about it). You find him pretty easy to bend to your will when you want, and he enjoys being able to keep you happy and satiated.
-Your kindness is a big part of the reason why he’s able to trust you with that, though. At the end of the day, even if it can sometimes appear to the outside view that he’s mothering you. He knows you care about other people, and about him, enough to be there for them when they really need it. That trust means that he’s more than happy to carry his weight.
And now. Finally. The Meetcute.
You really needed to ask Crowley about a map.
With how weird and dramatic the architecture was you wouldn’t think it’d be this hard to get around. But a few weeks into the semester you were still struggling to get a strong mental geography of the place. As a result, the trip from the store between the cafeteria had managed to take twice as long as it should before you finally got your bearings. By then the sun had sunk low in the sky, and most of the other students were filtering home to their respective doors. You were just hoping against hope that they hadn’t locked the doors...
Luck was on your side, though. The knob turned readily, allowing you to slip in to the hallway. Dinnertime had long since passed. Half the lights were turned on, and some of the janitorial ghost staff were out getting a head start on the evenings tasks. Graveyard shift, you thought but restrained yourself from saying out loud.
For a moment you stayed frozen by the door, waiting for someone to notice you and tell you to clear out. When that didn’t happen, you walked as briskly as you could while keeping the noise down, making a beeline for the employee entrance to the kitchen.
Technically you seriously doubted you were doing anything that would put you in trouble. You just didn’t technically know if this was allowed, and you were too bent on your purpose to really want to be stopped this close to the finish line. You spared the room one final glance and peered through the glass porthole to see if the kitchen was occupied. Not a single ghost. Must be working on dishes. You pushed the door open quickly-
And felt it smack into something solid quite forcefully. There was a “WHOA-” and a crashing sound next you that made you jump, ducking out of the threshold and into the hallway like the door had shocked you.
It took you a second to get your bearings. Someone must’ve been approaching the door at an angle you couldn’t see through the porthole, and you’d smacked right into them. Tentatively, you pushed the door open a little more, peering around the corner to see the damages.
The guy sprawled out on the ground was wearing a school uniform, though it was hard to make it out under the foodstuffs that had spilled all over him. You were hit by an eyewatering smell of cinnamon, though you could see a bag of sugar spilling everywhere too. He was seemingly still in the process of coming too, feeling his glasses for cracks as he slowly sat up.
“I am so sorry!” You said, quickly kneeling down to try and pull some of the stuff off of him and set in on the counter nearby. “I came in too fast, I didn’t see you at all-”
“Its alright.” He said, voice slightly strained sounding. Might’ve knocked the wind out of him with that fall, which wasn’t doing much to assuage your guilt. His glasses at least seemed undamaged, and he set them back in place as he gave an awkward smile. “Was carrying too much to see the door coming before it was too late.”
“...I can see that.” You say, looking around. Flour, sugar, cinnamon, yeast, a few bowls and whisks. Was this guy trying to carry off the entire baking section? “What’s all this...?”
“There’s a party coming up in my dorm and we’re a little wiped out for materials at the moment. It was too late to go to Sam’s store, and we’re allowed to take what we need from the kitchen if we reimburse the school.” He looked down at himself, grimacing as he tried and failed to brush the mess off of his red vest.
So he was in the same dorm as Ace and Deuce....unbidden a memory sprung to your mind of this exact guy, hair unfloured, sitting across from you. What was his name....”You’re....Trey, right?”
He seemed slightly surprised that you remembered him, eyes widening a little even as he nodded. “That’s right. You’re Ramshackle’s prefect, right?”
“Sounds a little stuffy when you say it like that.” You get to your feet, offering him a hand up. He takes it readily, though he gets to his feet easily enough. You take another look around at the damage, grimacing. “I don’t know how much of this can be saved.”
“They have a lot of supplies.” He stooped down to pick up a burst blag of flour. The powder spilled out of the tear in the bag, making a pile of white dust despite his best efforts to staunch the flow, and he sighs. “They’ll want us to clean this up.”
“I’ll....help.” You said, cringing as you looked around for a broom.
“Appreciate it.”
For a little while you work in relative silence, mostly focused on gathering up what can be saved and throwing out what can’t. You take a broom to sweep up the remainder while Trey tracks down replacements. At least the glassware seems alright, you don’t want to imagine what the staff would have to say if you’d broken that.
“So what were you doing here this late?” He said, startling you out of your thoughts.
“Oh...well, Crowley keeps the dorm supplied with a basic grocery list, but...its not very fleshed out.” You position the dustpan carefully next to your pile. “I came in here looking for some spices, mostly.” He leans over, tapping a cabinet to the right of the sink. “That’s mostly gonna be in here. What do you need?”
“Um....” You struggle to remember your list as you get what you can into the dustpan. Your sleeves and pants are gonna be covered in a thick layer of white dust at this rate. “Cayenne, chili powder, some garam masala if they have it, paprika...”
He lets out a low whistle, and you turn to see him giving you a wry smile as he pulls your requests from the shelves. “Some like it hot, huh?”
“Very hot.” You say, with a grin of your own. You turn to dump the pan into the trash, brushing your clothes off as best you can. “I’ve also got some new recipes I want to try out, and Sam’s inventory is actually pretty limited in that department.”
“If you want some advice, pass a list of things you need pretty regularly onto him. He’ll charge you through the nose for the special order but he’ll get it to you. Or, if you’re on a budget, have someone take you shopping off campus, there’s some decent stores in the area.” He finds a small pile of paper bags in one of the drawers and puts the spice jars inside, handing it off to you.
“Thanks, that’s actually good to know.” You reached out to take it, your fingers brushing against his in the tradeoff. His hand lingered for a second in midair, and he cleared his throat as he looks away.
“Uh...Ramshackle’s kitchen can’t be very well kept though, can it.”
“Its...a work in progress.” You admitted, rolling up the top of the bag to keep it tightly closed. “I’ve been making do with an old camp stove...oh!” Your eyes lit up as you looked at him. “Heartslabyul has a good kitchen, doesn’t it? Do you think I could come by some time to use it? After hours, I promise I’ll clean everything up and use strictly my own ingredients. If there’s anything else you want me to do-”
He seemed a little stunned by the overflow of words, but you noticed a smile tugging at the corners of his mouth. He holds up his hands to slow you down. “Iiiii’m not really the guy you should be asking about that, technically that’s a housewarden decision. But, uh, I can ask Riddle, I suppose? He might take the suggestion a little better coming from me.”
“I’d super appreciate it.” You said, beaming as you tuck the bag into your jacket. You take a final look around the room. “Do you have everything?”
“I think so..”He fishes in his pocket, pulling out a small roll of bills which he tucks under a nearby jar. “Just have to get them home.”
“Let me help with that, then.” You gathered up as much as you could carry before he could protest. He seemed a little awkward about accepting the help, but in the end let you follow him back to the dorm. He didn’t seem entirely displeased at the arrangement. Mostly he just listened to you ramble as he walked. Every now and then you’d turn, only to catch him staring right at you. He always went a little pink when he got caught.
A new friend. A new kitchen. And a bag full of spices. Possibilities were opening up right before your very eyes.
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May I request a matchup with a JJBA character? It can be any part but my fav part is 5! ^^
I'm an INTJ/5w4/True Neutral/Evil Polysexual (specifically romantically and sexually attracted to male and female though I lean more towards males), I'm polyamorous, and trans (FTM) with Neopronouns! (He/Him/Tree)
I'm a 5'0 Mexican-American, I speak Spanish (my native tongue), English (tho despite being an English Honors, I struggle with spelling and pronunciation from time to time), and sign ASL tho not completely fluently. My looks obviously aren't completely where I want them to be. Though, curiously, I naturally have more male hormones than female so I do look fairly masculine, I don't deal with periods, and I allow my facial hair to grow from time to time. I NEVER shave my legs, they're my pride lmao. I do have dyed curly hair, usually I let my friends pick the dye, but my fav color to have it is dark green. My style can be from goth to a pastel goth. To just straight up being dressed in Mickey Mouse merch (I have an obsession with the rat 💀) I do, do makeup though I see it more as an artistic thing. I don't try to make it look good I just have fun with it. Typically, eyeliner is what I mess with.
I have an older sibling and younger ones, I'm basically the middle child and have always taken care of all of them because I'm looked as the most responsible one, while also the most chaotic one. I'd say, personality wise I'm definitely a wildcard. It all depends on who I meet. I struggle with mental health so while I can be extremely energetic, fidgety, impulsive, forgetful, and bubbly bc of my ADHD, I'm also super aggressive because of my anger issues and Homicidal Ideation. And depression doesn't help either. I also have anxiety so, I'm not good at approaching ANYONE to the point I can't make eye contact. The most I can do is flash a glance at people's eyes before looking everywhere but them. But once you get to know me and I rlly like u as a person, you'll never get me to stfu especially if it's bc of a hyperfixation 💀 I also tend to dissociate a lot when I'm left alone/in silence for too long to the point when I snap back to reality, I sometimes don't even remember who I am or where I'm at for a minute. Which causes me to become panicked and anxious. Because of this, I can't go ANYWHERE without my headphones, whatever I may be doing or not doing, I have to be listening to SOMETHING at all times to keep myself grounded. Unless ppl r actively talking to me or letting me talk. I'm also a very curious and a naturally loud person, even when I'm speaking at what I assume is a normal level, I have ppl telling me to be quite 💀
However, I'd also say I'm very knowledgeable, determined, stubborn, a problem solver and a hard worker. I don't give up easily on myself nor others. I love and study Psychology and Sociology. And bc of my ADHD my hobbies are a wide range, from drawing, to reading, to sowing, to collecting specific items. I have a very hard time understanding others from an emotional stand point (in fact I can be very apathetic) but can very much understand them from a logical stand point. So while I'm not always the best at comforting, I'm great at giving advice/solutions. I'm not afraid to speak my mind and I'm also extremely honest/straight forward. However, I'm also very well known for appearing to not take things seriously bc I often joke/make witty comments as a defense mechanism to handle things/make it through tough times. And my biggest characteristic... I'm horny on main💀 However, I know when not to overstep people's boundaries. I myself have horrible experiences with that so I always make sure ppl are comfortable with whatever contact I make with them. I can be extremely affectionate depending on a person's love language! I just always want to make sure others feel cared for and comfortable around me since I know I can be overwhelming to people. Though, I like to care for others I don't very much like when others do the same for me. I'm very much someone that's used to taking care of everything and everyone so I absolutely refuse to ask for help unless it's a completely last resort.
I'm very sorry if this is a lot! This is the second matchup I've ever requested (;ŏ﹏ŏ)
I match you with... Pannacotta Fugo!
I believe he'd likely be an INTJ as well.
He's practically the middle child of the gang so he sort of sympathizes with you. Not to mention he greatly appreciates that the two of you also enjoy similar things to him but also are knowledgeable on many different topics.
The fact that you know when not to overstep people's boundaries is something he loves, finding himself at ease knowing that you won't intentionally overstep his boundaries.
He would love to sit down and have discussions on psychology and sociology, curious about what you know, and wishes to expand his knowledge on the subject if possible.
┉ˏ͛ ༝̩̩̥͙ ⑅͚˚ ҉ ⑅͚˚ ͛༝̩̩̥͙ ˎ┉
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Let’s talk about zodiacs and TPN Part 1
This is largely inspired by the fact that I talk about the characters’ zodiacs nonstop in the fanfic I’m working on for my tpn witch au, and I’ve been chortling to myself the entire time about how well some of them fit their sign and how some of them just... don’t. I’m going to simply infodump about each character, their sign, element, and some attributes they fit to a t while others don’t make sense. I will also touch on compatibility for all you shippers out there, don’t worryyy. Now this isn’t at all a critique or review of the characters themselves— I know astrology is not the first thing authors consider when choosing character birthdays, if they even do at all, this is simply me rambling about my hyperfixation and projecting onto fictional characters like we all do.
A couple last notes— one character in particular (cough cough Ray) has a different “canon” birthdate from “actual” so I’ll discuss both. Also, while I will be doing surface level research to make sure I’m not talking out of my ass, im not a professional astrologist, I’m simply a witch with an enthusiasm for zodiacs. Well then, without further ado, let’s talk about the kiddos.
Emma
Birthdate: August 22nd
Sign: Leo
Element: Fire
An overview: The funniest thing to me about Emma is that she’s literally the epitome of a Leo. Fire signs are generally very outgoing and energetic—they talk a lot and tend to be the leaders of the packs. Leos in particular are incredibly admirable and truly know their way around a conversation. If I ever wanted to get stuck in an elevator for 48 hours with no wifi or connection to the outside world and only one random stranger to talk to for the entire duration, I would pick a Leo in a heartbeat. Emma is very much the leader-type, she’s someone everyone pauses and listens to when she calls for their attention, and she always prefers to talk her way out of conflict rather than fight—but not in an underhanded manipulative way, no, Leos are very genuine with their feelings and will be upfront about their reasons for their actions.
Take this scene between Emma and Leuvis for example— this to me is about the closest to perfect of a summary of what Leos are like, and how Emma fits her sign beautifully.
She doesn’t want to fight, but she will if she has to—for the good of her friends and the good of humanity. She can stick to her ideals and yet extend a hand to the enemy anyway. This is what makes Leos such a force to be reckoned with in leadership roles.
Compatibility and ships: I know I know, this is the part you’re most excited about. I’m going to attempt to refrain from sharing my opinion on each ship itself, I will simply point out which have the highest compatibility levels. First of all, essentially all signs are most compatible with 1. Other signs of the same element and 2. Their compliment sign, their elemental opposite.
Since Emma is a fire sign, she’s generally compatible with other fire signs (Sagittarius, Aries, and of course Leo) as well as Air signs (Aquarius, Gemini, and Libra). So speaking broadly, she’s compatible of course with Norman as an Aries, as well as Ray IF he truly is an Aquarius. But if we narrow it down a little bit, I should mention that fire signs being fire signs can often clash with each other because both their energies are so high (personal experience lmao), and therefore their elemental opposite, air, are generally the way to go. Usually you’ll find on astrological charts and sites that Leos are most compatible with Geminis and Aquariuses, so Ray again if he is an Aquarius, and then we bring Violet into the picture because she’s a Gemini. (Uh, speaking as a Gemini, Leos are my favorite people to date, and I always seem to crush on them as well. I have a problem. A Leo problem.) I’m so sorry Gilemma shippers but fire and earth signs are like the worst combo, I don’t know how this happened because I love Gilemma with all my heart. The stars simply did not align for us this time
Norman
Birthdate: March 21st
Sign: Aries
Element: Fire
Overview: okay listen. I didn’t believe Norman was an Aries at first because he’s not as high energy as most fire signs, but then the more I thought about it, the more it just makes sense. The most key trait to an Aries is loyalty. They are so incredibly loyal and caring to the people they love that they often neglect themselves in the process. They can be very quick to anger if someone hurts or insults their friend, and are unafraid to start a fight or commit morally gray or even black actions in service of their loved ones. Point is you don’t mess with an Aries’ family or friends. You will get burned.
All the loyalty applies to Norman so incredibly well—the way that his plans and actions revolve entirely around Emma and Ray, and the way that he sacrifices himself for their escape even though he’s terrified of dying. But even more so this loyalty strikes you in the face when he returns as William Minerva, willing and committed to full on genocide all to keep his friends alive and safe. As I’ve said Aries are quick to anger, which seemingly isn’t very present in cool-headed, thoughtful Norman, but then you remember this:
Look at his expression. Even if he doesn’t easily lose his cool, when he does it’s terrifying. So essentially Norman is a much more subtle Aries— he’s not in your face aggressive or full of energy, but he has all the hidden signs. So yeah, I honestly can’t think of any other sign that describes him better. Norman is an Aries.
Compatibility and ships: being a fire sign and all, Norman’s compatibility is actually very similar to Emma’s. He’s compatible with other Fire signs (Sagittarius, Leo, and Aries) as well as Air signs (Libra, Aquarius, and Gemini). Speaking broadly that makes him compatible with Emma and Ray again, but narrowing it down Aries are much better in general with Libras and Leos so congrats Noremma shippers you won.
Ray
“Canon” Birthdate: January 15th
“Actual” Birthdate: February 5th
“Canon” sign: Capricorn
“Actual” sign: Aquarius
“Canon” Element: Earth
“Actual” Element: Air
Overview: alright Ray is a bit of a mixed bag to unpack. Because it’s been stated that Ray’s January 15th birthday is not his actual birthday outside of the source material, then it’s reasonable for me to count both birthdays because people have different ideas of what’s canon and what’s not. Interestingly enough though, Ray does indeed fit well enough into both the Capricorn and Aquarius signs, however I personally believe one shows through him better than the other.
We’ve been talking about fire signs for Emma and Norman so it’s finally time to dive into two other elements! We’ll start with Capricorn then, the Earth sign. The most important thing to remember is that the Earth signs are the most grounded and practical. If you want someone who can give you logical and rational advice, your best bet would be the Earth signs (Air signs are also good at this but this ain’t about them. Although you will notice some overlap in traits between these two, particularly in Capricorns and Aquariuses).
We can already see the ‘practical’ side show through in Ray by the way he hyperfocuses on taking Norman and Emma to escape but insists on leaving the other kids behind. This isn’t to say he doesn’t feel for them, on the contrary, Earth signs are indeed very in tune with their emotions and empathy, but Capricorns really know how to set that part of them aside in favor of the calm and certain route. They like tangible solutions, things they can grasp with the least amount of risk, and they’re very resistant to changes—like giant rocks. This is also noticeable in how Ray gets so very flustered by Norman and Emma’s impulsivity. He clashes with both of them because Earth signs prefer to take things slow while Fire signs just like to make a leap and hope for the best.
Note how Emma says “not that I mind...” meanwhile Ray is out here going “I MIND!!” Which we learn is because of his identity as the spy. He’s got his own plan and a tangible solution to shoot for, and Norman and his impulsivity and Emma going along with it is messing everything up. Thus, he forcibly retakes control of the situation via making a deal with Norman after the traitor is revealed. Very Capricorn stuff.
And if you want an image that just completely sums up the Capricorn in Ray, here you go:
On the OTHER hand, if we’re to go off Ray’s “actual” birthdate, which was so lovingly calculated by Tempo, then we get Aquarius Ray, the Air sign. The most important things to note about the air signs is that they’re the thinkers—the farthest from impulsive, they’re the least in tune with their emotions, and they are oh so horribly indecisive. Where Earth signs will be able to give advice that adheres to both logic and emotion, Air signs stick purely to logic. Where Earth signs are able to make calm and rational decisions, Air signs will agonize over options and often find themselves lost, searching perpetually for a solution with no cracks in it. Hello. I’m an Air sign. :’))
I’m gonna come right out and say it. I hate Aquarius men. Aquarius women and enby folks, they’re great. But Aquarius men? I may, as a Gemini, get along with them in surface level casual conversation, but behind every Aquarius man’s back is a Mal waiting to strangle him the moment I am given the opportunity. I’m so sorry Ray my son but you are not an Aquarius okay. Alright. Well, let’s just talk about the parts of him that do fit Aquarius.
So from the very start Ray is obviously a thinker, someone who considers his options very carefully before he makes a decision, and someone who hates making choices based solely on emotion. In fact, he hates expressing emotions at all. Aquariuses are very good at repressing or hiding their emotions behind other emotions (most air signs are). The most common way to do this is to put up a wall of either numbness or full-on rage. We can see both in Ray.
Instead of showing vulnerability in a healthy way, he would rather do that. Ok cool Ray.
Aquariuses can also be very quiet people, and Ray’s pretty dang quiet for most of the series too. They’re the intellectuals you know are intellectuals even though they aren’t up in your face about it. Their reserved nature makes them 10x scarier when they’re genuinely angry, because boy can an Aquarius rage.
The thing about Aquarius Ray for me here is that while Ray does indeed have Aquarius energy, it’s not the Core of Ray. To me he’s so much more of an Earth sign, so therefore I diagnose Ray with Capricorn.
Compatibility and ships: ok this is a mixed bag again. Now if you got Aquarius Ray then of course he’s compatible with other Air signs (Gemini, Libra, and Aquarius) and Fire signs (Leo, Aries, and Sagittarius), which would make him compatible with Norman and Emma for sure, as well as probably Ayshe for you Rayshe shippers because my personal HC is Aquarius Ayshe.
If you’ve got Capricorn Ray, then Capricorns are compatible with other earth signs (Taurus, Virgo, Capricorn) and their compliment water signs (Cancer, Pisces, and Scorpio), though they’re best with Cancers and Tauruses. So yes, Anna is a Taurus, which makes Rayanna a compatible pair. But guess who’s a Cancer. Don. ALL MY RAYDON SHIPPERS GET OUT HERE YOU COWARDS IM CALLING YOUR NAME. YOU WIN THE SHIP GAME.
Gilda
Birthdate: May 13th
Sign: Taurus
Element: Earth
Overview: So again with the practical and grounded Earth signs. Tauruses now, are the most stubborn of them, which can be a little irritating at times, but it’s also a great asset when you consider how reliable they truly are. They’re bulls, which makes them solid and difficult to move, and you can always fall back on them when you’ve leapt too far ahead. Gilda is of course the epitome of reliable, and her stubbornness does show through at times—like when she’s the one person against Emma going out into danger all the time, constantly trying to talk her down into a more practical and certain solution. She’s also the first to attempt to bring Emma to see Ray’s side of the escape plan, which is very earth sign of both of them good job guys.
Compatibility and ships: I know I know I’m still upset Gilemma isn’t compatible astrologically but we can talk about other Gilda ships! Tauruses are most compatible with other earth signs (Capricorn, Virgo, and Taurus) and water signs (Cancer, Scorpio, and Pisces) which makes her compatible with our other lovely Taurus, Anna! Gilanna shippers unite. But they’re best with Cancers and Scorpios, which means Gildon is is at highest compatibility.
Don
Birthdate: July 4th
Sign: Cancer
Element: Water
Overview: HEY YALL ITS TIME TO TALK ABOUT MY LEAST FAVORITE SIGNS: W A T E R. (I’m sorry my water friends, I’m sure you’re lovely, but as an air sign I am always extremely suspicious of water signs at first meeting because our compatibility is so low it might as well not exist) So the water signs are at the absolute highest emotional level. This can make them extraordinarily kind and nurturing, but it can also make them absolutely unreasonable and destructive. None is this more present than in Cancers, one of the most sensitive signs, but also one of the most empathetic. We can tell very clearly in Don that he wears his emotions on his sleeve—he’s unafraid to cry or show his anger, but he also takes very good care of his younger siblings and shows such an intense concern for them that it can become frightening.
He’s such a good boy 🥺
Compatibility and ships: okay so same drill, Cancers are generally compatible with other Water signs (Scorpio, Pisces, and Cancer) as well as Earth signs (Taurus, Capricorn, and Virgo) though their highest compatibility is with Tauruses and Capricorns. So again. GILDON AND RAYDON SHIPPERS R I S E.
God I’m so sorry if I cause a ship war. I rambled for too long and I’m very tired, so you only get these five characters for now. BUT! That’s why it’s a part 1. If you want more please feel free to harass me in my ask inbox about the characters you want me to overanalyze the signs of. Gemini out!
#the promised neverland#yakusoku no neverland#tpn#tpn analysis#rayemma#noremma#norray#I have no idea what to tag#should I be tagging ships???#I mean I guess??#violemma#gildon#raydon#i already forgot all the ships i mentioned#y’all I’m so tired help#literally once I learned the silliest idiot was a Taurus I started thinking about zodiacs again and went yknw what. im gnna do it#and then i wrote all this in one sitting and now my eyes feel like the sahara desert#i mean i barely slept last night either so that might have something to do with it#pls harass me for more character zodiac analyses u kno u want to 🥺#ok i. i might pass out at any second#mal rants#tpn manga spoilers
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asmr i psychoanalyze hide for fun
a lot of these are just stupid headcanons but a lot are also how i feel that’s just the way he is so
I know no one will read this it’s so very long but hello he’s my comfort character
(the words are under the cut bc THERE ARE SO MANY WORDS)
thoughts: It’s funny because most of the characters that I really love are just fucking idiots. So stupid. No thoughts head empty. And like at first glance you’d think the same with Hide, he’s got the look of a real dumbass, but he’s actually a really smart person? He just kind of, hides it. He did say he was like allergic to books once (it’s the adhd, king) but that doesn’t change the fact that he emotionally is actually a very intelligent person. It’s something he’s humble about because I don’t believe he really identifies with the intellectual crowd or sees himself as particularly above average, he just finds it easy to understand things. And he doesn’t ever use it for his own advantage even when it would be totally fine to do so, he pretty much always uses it to help other people and I think he believes if he used his strengths to help himself it would be, like, selfish. Which is a problem of his.
gemder n brand of gay: A lot of people in yonder Fandom like to see kaneki as bi and hide as gay but nah fam you’re off. Honestly I do not care about his Date With Rize in the slightest, that man is a homosexual. Hide is the bi one. (it’s not like this is a requirement or anything lmao i am just Saying also i’m bi and i’m projecting) I can also say with confidence that date with Rize was the only date Kaneki’s ever been on and he was definitely lying to himself. (i just, don’t know how you could look at Haise specifically and for one second think he has ever seen a boob) Hide’s the one who’s probably dated people before and he actually knows what’s attractive, he probably just doesn’t discuss that a lot with Kaneki since the bitch is Closeted and hide knows this. It’s funny because Hide canonically has two dads. Like I think that kind of explains him tbh. Bitch has good parents??? He’s the only one but we love him for it. U know Kaneki spent more of his life at Hide’s house than his own.
And as to gender, like obviously hide’s a guy, but i think he’s one of the few cisgenders who could like... tell you why. He’s well versed in those kinds of issues and has just thought about it a lot I guess? He’s comfortable in his skin and with a conventionally masculine appearance but he could tell you what Boy TM means other than yo macho man dude bro guy
personality type- ENFP-T: I took the fucking test for him and it was like... so easy. Took me ten minutes.
basically what this means is it just calls him out as a fucken loud ass sunshine boy who has very many emotion and cares way too much about his friend
love how this part of the description describes kaneki and hide perfectly
biggest strength: he’s so good at helping people?? Like I can honestly say if some random person started rambling about their relationship issues to him I’d give him 10 minutes before he had a perfect solution, he had the person crying and being comforted in just the right way. He’s the perfect medium of confident and caring and he’s not just a fucking ray of sunshine on accident, he’s like, mob psycho 100 style actively working to be nice and compassionate. He’s very aware of how his actions affect people and he always knows just the right thing to say, what to do, when to just let things go or when to say them. And Hide will forgive, literally anything, even if someone does something really shitty to him he’ll realize it’s the product of like, unresolved mental issues or something and seek to fix it instead of cutting the person off. It’s... really good for everyone around him. But well,,, not great for him, see below.
biggest weakness: bitch does nOT leave room for himself. Although he is generally a confident person and isn’t very insecure, he knows he’s giving too much of himself and simply ‘pretend i do not see it but in reality i do’. He’s never put himself first and feels more worthy when he makes someone else happy, and it’s really not that visible but it can take a pretty big toll on him. He’ll feel anger and frustration for his problems but eventually he will end up blaming himself for anything that goes wrong and will just resolve to Try Harder. (which, mood) He does problem solve well and he tries to come up with the best solutions to issues but the fact is he just does not prioritize his own happiness within those solutions. He gives too much and it’s fucking killing him.
what he likes most about himself: Although he does have issues obviously, I don’t see Hide as someone who has particularly low esteem of himself. I think he pretty much thinks he has himself figured out and therefore other people’s problems come first. He generally does, think fondly of himself, because most of the time he can fix people’s problems so he’s yknow, a good person. I think he likes his ability to enjoy life and live in the moment, and he likes his connections and friendships with other people. He values emotional connection and he likes that he can easily create and enjoy good vibes. He loves being the one who everyone just... goes to for a good time.
favorite things: I think I heard somewhere that he enjoys dumb american bands without really understanding what they’re saying which seems very on brand for him, but I’m gonna perscribe him some other stuff too. Obviously he likes bright colors and comic books, and places where he can have fun with other people. He generally likes college, even though it’s like, school, and unlike kaneki he actually had a good childhood and he enjoys the places he spent time and formed good memories, he has Nostalgia TM (see unbelievable by owl city hmmm he vibes to that he was born in 1996 or something right i can’t google things) he also just really likes to just, fix other people’s problems but we’ve covered that.
what he’s doing right and what he’s doing wrong: Hide is doing his best. He’s no less flawed than any of the other characters in tokyo ghoul, it’s just that his strategies tend to involve 100% less murder. Ok no, let me rephrase that, Hide is flawed, but i meant like emotionally, he’s not a war criminal like everyone else. He may seem at first glance like, just, perfect? Sorry for being a simp lmao but I feel like from the outside he’s just got it all together right? He knows what he’s doing and he’s super nice and helpful and smart and humble and just doesn’t have any visible flaws? He... tends to hide any evidence that he would ever be struggling. And that’s not very sexy of him. He feels it would be a burden on others to show pain or ever say he can’t take something on (if someone asked him to do something he’d do it even if he was already mentally at capacity etc) and that’s something he needs to work on. The good thing is that if they got to a point where after Kaneki’s Character Development they got to just... like, be happy and not be separated and everything Kaneki would be good for him because he compliments that. Hide helps him because he needs a lot of like, mental counseling lmao but now that Kaneki’s gone through a lot of that his eyes have been opened more to the fact that Hide hides his problems from Kaneki so if they could just bE HAPPY this is an issue that could be resolved
insecurities: I think Hide kind of believes he’s not allowed to be sad. Cause it’s like, not his job. He’s the source of happiness for everyone else, supposed to have everything together so he can fix everyone else’s problems. he’s not allowed to be in pain or feel bad for himself even though he knows “Boys Can Cry” it’s like, yes boys can cry, not me tho haha lmao it’s not about his masculinity it’s just he’s like “yeah but kaneki’s had it worse” so like if he finds himself in a bad place, he feels inadequate and like... fundametally broken. and it’s. Like. I felt that but also like king that’s not how it works
goal in life: I think he wouldn’t really be able to answer that question. What the truth would be is that he probably wants to do something grand and important that helps a lot of people and kind of changes the world. But he might not really think of it that way, since he’s usually focused more on smaller more isolated issues and he has no idea what he wants to do as a career. He admires activists and people who put themselves at risk but it probably makes him feel inferior that someone else is Doing Something About This Big Problem and he’s just sitting there riding around on his bisexual bike and being in college. (I’d like to say he’s probably changed majors at least a few times,,, that man was like “oh yeah lmao i’m gonna be a comic book artist” but someone said something about how he’s a good therapist and he’s like “brb kinshift i am now a psychology major” lmao.) (hello i am projecting but i’m right) He sees a tumblr post about some issue somewhere and he hyperfixates on it for days until he sees another post about something worse it’s an issue. But I think what he ended up doing was what he wanted to, even if he never recieved any recognition for it the internal sense that he was doing something Right TM in the eyes of history would probably make him cry
how he was raised: I can’t really say much to this because there’s barely any canon on this and the canon that does exist I have completely ignored other than the fact that he has two dads. Bro tbh? He didn’t need any tragic emo backstory I think he had a great childhood. Honestly he’s probably a rich kid. Not super rich but he’s not struggling man. Not gonna lie to you I think the only reason he went to Kamii was because he wanted to be at the same college as Kaneki who probably got a scholarship. Hide, didn’t. (it’s not like he’s not intelligent but I don’t really think that his grades are his biggest priority, the only time he ever pays attention in class is to give kaneki the answers when he’s gone)
What irks me about the random lore drop in the last chapter about him having a CCG dad that died or whatever- it kind of ruins the whole point for me. Personally I choose to believe he had nothing whatsoever to do with ghouls or the ccg before all that happened to Kaneki. He probably had correct opinions on them, but only like, in theory, it’s like straight people that are like “yeah ofc gay ppl valid” but they’ve never really had any personal experience with any. So when he gets involved in that- the fact is that the only reason he was... was bc of kaneki. It was never more complicated than that to me. YKNOW, SOME PEOPLE ARE JUST, NICE, OK?
And I think for me that the fact that he could actively choose to be nice and be aware of all these problems when he’s practically got every advantage in life is a lot more important. He didn’t have to be poor or have a dead parent or have a shitty childhood for him to be really genuinely good. I don’t think he’s ever been bullied or anything, but he can still be aware that it sucks to be bullied. I think he was just... raised right. I think his dads are probably pretty fucking baller for him to be such a bro. They taught him the right shit.
General philosophy: Hide is one of the only people in the series for whom the dynamics of right and wrong are not hard to understand. He’s never been required to pick up a weapon or actually truly fight in the CCG, he’s never been really mean to anyone. Of course I can say he’s probably decked a few ppl that made fun of Kaneki in middle school, but haven’t we all. The thing is that though he’s never suffered at the hands of others, everything that’s hurt him he’s gone in fully consenting to it- he can still understand and forgive what everyone else has done. Like bro he’s the literal only one around who’s not like a literal war criminal, but he’s not going to think he’s better because of it, because he understands that if he had been in their circumstances he couldn’t say how he would have turned out.
That’s why I think it’s so important that he never really had a bad childhood- he’s not better than them for turning out without any blood on his hands, because he was never required to. And he knows that and he goes through every day with all these people who have and is conscious of it. He can’t ever say he’s incapable of hurting other people, because he would have said that about Kaneki before all of it happened. So he’s quite politically correct compared to Kaneki and the others but he doesn’t see things that way.
relationship bullshit: i mean bro i know this is a serious post about like psychological and emotional things but i felt the need to discuss whY does everyone write hide as a bottom I mean like sure he’d bottom if his partner was a top but this is simply not the case with kaneki look at him. Hide. Service top. I rest my case. The man’s the biggest switch ever but when he’s a top he’s a nice top. I think Kaneki needs that to be perfectly honest. He really likes to take care of people. Also kind of off topic but his love language is quality time he just wants to play video games wit da homies and he might fall in love a bit
I find it genuinely funny how much i cannot get away from the tentacle porn on the god forsaken archive of our own just looking at the tags i already know it’s so out of character haitoheoihesdsdsa and don’t get me started on the vore
how kaneki sees him vs how he actually is: One of the biggest problems in kaneki and hide’s relationship is how in the beginning, Kaneki didn’t really understand at all that Hide could be hiding anything from him. Kaneki’s not good at picking up clues like that in general, but the fact that he was hiding so much himself didn’t help at all. Hide gives off the vibe of someone who has no inhibitions and shows every side of himself without hesitation, and Kaneki really does idolize that. He didn’t realize that Hide could possibly be suffering or imperfect compared to his vision. He sees Hide as practically an angel, and that’s exactly how Hide wants Kaneki to see him, because he doesn’t want to burden Kaneki with his own problems since he believes they’re not as important and they would make Kaneki sad. Kaneki knew Hide wasn’t as oblivious as he seemed, but he didn’t really understand what that meant until too late. The good thing about Kaneki’s character development though is that it then helps Kaneki understand that Hide was suffering because of him and he didn’t want Hide to hide it anymore (lmao). If they’d only executed that point well that could have been really good but well that’s what fanfic is for
how he sees kaneki vs how kaneki actually is: This one’s a lot more difficult, because well. Hide’s very good at knowing exactly how people are in their hearts, compared to Kaneki. But there are definitely some things that he’s not super up on. He wasn’t around for a lot of Kaneki’s development, so most of the time I think he still believes Kaneki doesn’t want to see his pain, which is, simply incorrect, Kaneki would obviously not be happy to hear it but it would tear him up inside to realize he’s been oblivious to it the whole time. He’s grown a lot more mature since he spent most of his time with Hide, and I really think Hide could benefit from being able to open up to Kaneki the way he is now. And well. I think his biggest misconception has to be that Kaneki enjoyed women lmao
the most him thing i’ve ever done: listening to a happy upbeat song and visibly bopping while also uncontrollably sobbing
miscellaneous headcanons:
-he’s a morning person lmao. Motherfucker gets up at 6 AM and Kaneki is like PL EA SE NO
-what he finds attractive is like. twinks and girls with hair in colors that don’t exist and ppl who don’t know what gender is
-He likes Imagine Dragons lmao you can see by the next point
-his coping mechanisms are mostly music and other people tbh he’s like “oh i am having emotions? disgusting” *goes to a party*
-he plays dnd and he mains a warlock i don’t make the rules
-he doesn’t look like someone who would do that shit but he probably knows how to use tarot cards
-idk how but that motherfucker is so neurodivergent i can smell the hyperempathy on him look at that man he has so much adhd
-he’s fully aware that his fashion sense is terrible and continues to wear more and more ridiculous clothes to piss kaneki off
-this man has tungle dot fuck. Look at him. His url is probably something along the lines of my ao3 username lmao
-he can see the forbidden shrimp colors smh
-this bitch likes mob psycho 100 and the promised neverland, kaneki keeps telling him to watch death note and he’s just like n o hhsdfhhfdshdfshdfs he probably kins tpn emma
-he doesn’t know how to drive lmao he bikes everywhere and he lives in tokyo
-i am once again thinking about how he was in a play with kaneki and kaneki was the main character and he was the spicy side character that’s not a headcanon just. that
songs that are, him:
-Stand By You (Rachel Platten)
-Luck (American Authors)
-Love (Imagine Dragons)
-If I Lose Myself (One Republic)
-Stardust (New Politics)
-Secrets (also one republic)
-Flaws (Bastille)
-100 Bad Days (AJR)
-I Lived (another one republic lmao)
-Battle Scars (Paradise Fears)
-Rise Up (Imagine Dragons)
yeah he definitely listens to this shit lmao
#tokyo ghoul#hideyoshi nagachika#hidekane#kanehide#jesus christ i am hyperfixated#rowan's hyperfixation essays
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Yooo yooo yoo, dude, homie, buddy. Is that. A NEW FIC AAAAAAHHHHH ITS ABOUT MY BOY AAAAAGGHHH
I dunno if english is your first language? But this is like really good, has no business being THAT thought-out for your first post!!!
YEAH YEAH Jiro does in fact refer to the gang as his “new family” in one of the Kento trailers! I love your attention to detail, in fact, I love your ideas so much that uhhhh is it okay if I rewrite the first few paragraphs of this fic??? (I say this, waiting to send you the new sentences and metaphors I came up for them)
op, I’m gonna be honest with you. I do have a few gripes about the way you presented it, (not the concept itself!) but I don’t know if. If you are doing this as a hobby or working towards self-betterment. I know some people are emotionally hurt by constructive criticism, and that’s okay! Know your limits, definitely.
That being said, is it fine if I give my advice/opinions on your fanfiction? I would hate to insult you in any form, so I want to make sure. I’m being careful, see?
Oh yeah feel free, It's my first fic as long as you don't emotionally crush me at every chance you get I'd be more than willing to hear.
Of course First fic being used loosely, I got a whole vault of stuff I've written that I never finished or just never showed anyone for one reason or another. It's mostly been just a fun hobby I do as a way to do something creative when my brain doesn't want to draw. But that doesn't mean I don't want to better it.
It might not be my main focus but I do enjoy seeing improvement in my work. Helps me be my best self and fulfills something in the back of my mind to know I'm not stagnating
But yeah English is my first(Currently only as well but I'm trying to expand that) language.
Though I did took a lot of writing courses as a kid, and my mom's a teacher so I guess that might've rubbed off(But not her handwriting or math skills)
I can understand why the presentation might not be the best I can get a little, uh, scatter brained when writing and have trouble with paragraph's at time(I know a good theory behind it, I just have issues getting my brain to actually uh use that knowledge. I'm not sure if that makes sense).
I'm also aware I have a repeating words problem. Most of the time my brain just uh get's bent on certain phrases and doesn't want to let them go like an angry dog so I try to clean it up into something a bit more fancy looking(Something that can be past off as a stylistic choice).
I did not know HTML before this, so I image the italics might be a bit wonky. (Thank god Bandit is an amazing friend who helped me)
As for the detail comment? Thank you ^u^. I really like making things(Whether it be art or story) that you can come back to and notice something new. Also hyperfixation commands me try to know stuff down to the detail(While also being detrimentally lazy in other areas lmao)
So yeah feel free!
And thank you for the feedback ^u^
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Like everyone else, i must thank you for this amazing game. It is, without a doubt, one of the best undertale fan games. Somethings:
1. It is my headcannon that the True Passion Route Is The Official Undertale Ending. It just feels like an ideal Ending for undertale, and it feels like undertale. It is a undertale love letter meets the official undertale.
2. Passion, The Major Theme Of Your Game, Is Just Perfect For Undertale Fangame.
2.1/3. The Theme Of Passion Was Very Special To Me. You see, I am on the autism spectrum, and my specific interest is undertale. So, I have a healthy but Strong Passion For Undertale. Seeing a Game Like This Is Very Fullfiling.
3. I already said that I love your art in previous Asks, but you surpassed yourself in this game. From the background, atmosphere, to The characters.
4. The writing is superb, just beautiful and heartfelt.
5. I must ask, If you don't want this ask public, it's okay. But if it is because i mentioned my autism, I must say that, unless you feel uncomfortable, it's okay to post. I am proud to boast my autism.
6. You actually made me empathize with Flowey. He Actually Acts Like Us, And With The Reason of not feeling Alone and wanting to connect with this world, and not wanting to leave this world.
7. I was going to choose Asgore as Final Call, But Azzy Stole The Spot.
8. Love and Admire All Your Works. No Pressure though, Just sending positive vibes in this paragraph.
Again, thank you for everything, And Stay Safe :)
Aaaaaa this is all so nice??? fdbhsafj I can’t come up with a singular paragraph response cause I just wanna say so much, so I’m going to respond to each of these ;w;
1 & 2 - I’m really glad you think so!! I really wanted to try and capture all of the passion I felt playing the game with that route’s ending -- and the game as a whole. It’s funny you call it a love letter, because in my head, Act to Flirt has always been an apology letter for how horrifically I thought of and treated this game when it came out purely due to how much it was shoved down my throat. But after getting a chance to play it, I honestly feel nothing but silly for putting it down so much.
But, with the whole theme of “Determination” being what guides you in Undertale, I always interpretted that to be like, how the reason you do something in video games isn’t because you’re necessarily acting as you would irl. It’s because, since you have no risk of hurting yourself or anyone else actually, it’s an open space, letting you act however you want with no real-life consequence. But when the game takes this for a spin and makes you step back to really bring the game to life and put it in a perspective... it really makes you wonder a lot about your choices more so than you would in any other game.
So, this being a “sequel,” based on timeline events; to Undertale, “Passion” is supposed to encapsule the care and feelings the player still has after they played the game. My main thought process when coming up with this was to sort of “market” the game at the beginning similarly to how Determination was merely shown as a power to you -- it’s just a silly, fun game where you can do whatever you please, directed at those who still feel very close to Undertale and its characters and are constantly looking for new content about it. It’s impossible to cover the bases for every player, and yet the majority of the game is designed around a specific type of player. It’s... risky from a game design standpoint, for sure lol. I genuinely wasn’t sure if anyone would play the game at all. But I’m really glad to see it’s resonated with you so well ;w;
3 & 4 - I’m so glad you think so 😭 this really means a lot aaaa thank you so much;;
I always worry I get a bit too repetitive or weirdly paced sometimes with my writing, since I write almost purely stream-of-consciousness while putting myself directly into the emotions the character I’m writing would be feeling. I struggle writing any other way, aha;;
5 (and 2 1/3 lol) - While I don’t have autism, I do have ADHD and have also always been between various hyperfixations my whole life. I’ve actually been measuring time based on them since I was a kid, and if I didn’t have one at the time of an event, I don’t remember it at all 😅 Fictional characters have always been a very important thing for me to lean on in life -- since, at many points, I didn’t have anybody else to go to. I’ve always wanted to make something with characters that have relatable problems to those learning about them so people can have a something to lean on with a problem they might otherwise feel alone on. And, well, one “problem” that I don’t think I’ve ever really had the chance to write about before is being significantly connected to fictional characters that you can’t meet in real life. With Undertale having the whole concept of “resets” being acknowledged in one form or another by a lot of the characters, and the cast being so wonderfully designed and written already; it made UT an obvious choice for being able to discuss that. It definitely made Sans’s route really fun to write... and I actually started crying a little writing his ending fdbshafjb i’m a mess LMAO
6 & 7 - I’m really glad, honestly!!! I didn’t like Flowey when I first played Undertale (and actually killed him my first playthrough... then again I killed a lot my first playthrough cause I didn’t realize it was optional 😅😅), but after learning more about him, Asriel, and Chara, I really grew to like him! He’s one of my favorite characters now, actually. The moment Asriel was able to start talking about his struggles, I understood him almost instantaneously just because I relate to a lot that he deals with. Asriel’s ending is actually tied for Papyrus’s as my favorite (of the ones I wrote! @alch3mic wrote Undyne’s, Toriel’s, Asgore’s, and Alphys’s ^^), too. So I’m really glad how I wrote him made you like him more as a character ;w;♥
annnnnnnd for 8....... you’re too nice, thank you so much fbdshafb I’m glad you like my works so much!! I really do my best to make things that can really resonate with people, so I’m always both astounded and happy to hear when someone’s been impacted by what I’ve made ;w;/
#zircon answers#long post#undertale act to flirt#omg i rewrote this like 50 times cause i started rambling too much fbdshafjb#hopefully it's not too long#but the more i wrote this the more i realized just how much of my personal self i've really injected into this game lol#randomasgore
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