#this has been a vent

[nero-neptune]

i fully understand and accept the mutual drifting apart btwn friends bc that's life. but then there's having regular contact with someone you consider a friend until, all of a sudden, there's dead silence on their end for Months (even tho their last message was about whether or not you wanted to hang out). so, periodically, you keep texting updates and well-wishes their way (bc, fair enough, what if they need space? what if they're not doing okay?), but not so much that it's Weird. but, wait! you happen upon their social media where said friend has been out doing shit after all, just without you. and at this point, you'd Def be the weird one (stepping over the line, even) for reaching out on a totally different platform. not that you're entitled to their time (obvs), but idk. it's not the first time this has happened, and i bet it won't be the last. it's just something that's Always gonna sting.

[a-milestone]

So I've reached the top band on my wage structure and can't move onto the next band as I'm not a teacher. Instead of a pay rise, I've received a bonus for exceptional performance which was lovely! However, the tax man has basically taken all of it (plus a little towards my student loan).

It basically has taken away my incentive to keep working harder than I would. I have no desire to be a teacher, it's another two years of training to start off with. I have a new role which I've worked really hard at for 3 years, created a new environment, proposed policy changes, ran teacher and parent workshops, and volunteered for nearly every new initiative.

So the question I find myself asking now is what next? Education is not where you go to make money, and that isn't my primary goal, but on the current economic climate, I would like to be paid a fair wage where I can plan for the future. 2 of my brothers and 3 of my friends are home owners, I am not. I last went on a holiday 2 years ago to Spain, before that it was 2012 to Berlin. I want to do nice things and have a home, and I can't do that without a proper decent wage.

[koushirouizumi]

ME, rubbing my hands ALL over my Adv+02 Chosen head-canons BECAUSE I CAN: Wow I can't believe people like me with my specific background existed in the early 2000's and in the year '02 THIS ENTIRE TIME!!!

[muggle-born-princess]

Reblog if you're LGBT and are against MAPS/Child Groomers

[90sdiablo]

would ya look at that? someone had the audacity to misgender me in an argument before I blocked them.

[ionomycin]

Welcome home

[murderspice]

aaa games: we have some of the most CUTTING EDGE character customization options for you!! you can't make them fat tho, only cause we'd have to design more clothing models and adjust the animation for them and we just don't have the resources for that haha you understand right. that's totally the only reason we don't let you do that. anyways which of these 6 cocks would you like your character to have

[6wings-manyeyes]

I want to share a picture of my work desk with you

You get a hands-on hobby and the next thing you know is your workspace is fucked. It is fucked and there is no escape

[pussysidon]

Living with a disability, especially a progressive or dynamic one is so fucking stressful. I don't know whether I'll be able to do things I can do now in a couple of years or even a couple of months. Maybe today I'm up and dancing but tomorrow I can barely leave my bed. I'm already grieving the things I know I won't be able to do in the future and it's so, so so so hard. The worst part is that there's nothing you can do but try to enjoy life right now and hope you can keep doing what you love

[mossy-aro]

ultimately i think my insistence on aro positivity honestly is as much a political stance as a personal one.

when i say aro positivity is crucial and that i dislike doomer-ist posts that express sentiments like 'I hate being aro so much I wish I was dead instead’ it's not because I don’t think there can and should be a space for negativity and acknowledging self-hate, or the many ways being aromantic can really suck sometimes. i find that to be very important!

that being said. there is smth here about how self-hate posts are sometimes just arophobia that we inflict on ourselves. and when we put that out into the ether it (intentionally or not) can become arophobia that we inflict on other members of the community. i think there absolutely needs to be a place for negativity and the expression of anger and frustration and self loathing even - these are all good things to talk about because these are things that we experience. that being said, it can also be genuinely upsetting and triggering to people to have what is essentially arophobia shown to them and then have that be validated by other aspec people. your personal thoughts can affect your wider community on a level you may not anticipate. and i understand it i truly do! it took me so long to be able to recover from accepting being aroace - it threw my entire world off kilter and made me question everything about my place in the world.

but my insistence on aro joy and positivity is because ultimately i do believe that building is at the core essence of it all. that ultimately discussions and the purpose of community should be about construction, not destruction. and this is both a personal and a political stance. talking about how much you hate yourself and cultivating online discussions/spaces where negativity about aspec identity is the main and only theme is destructive - if that’s where we let the conversation end. these thoughts can and should be used as a vehicle to look for a path forward!

joy and positivity create a space where the focus can become on forging a path forward, on construction, on community building instead of tearing ourselves and others down with negative thoughts. it’s not productive or healthy when it stops at a place of negativity - it becomes actively destructive to the essence of community.

and i do think that this is especially poignant considering the fact that being any kind of queer, but especially aromantic (and/or asexual) means forging a path for yourself and making your own happiness where there is no obvious way forward. our communities exist mostly online (right now, anyway), there is little recognition of our existence in the real world, the effects of amatonormativity are both pervasive and actively dehumanising, and there are legal, economic and social structures in place actively making our lives more difficult. yes that all sucks! it’s good to acknowledge that. we need to in order to change it. but more importantly, that’s not the end. we are still here and our happiness, our future is for us to determine. even if we can’t change the laws or society, loving yourself and understanding aromanticism as a political identity (as well as personal), as a radical worldview, and as a protest against amatonormativity is essential for both community and personal well being. the personal is political.

tldr. i guess my point is that as a community, we should focus on building, improving, and nurturing ourselves and each other (construction) as opposed to destruction. we should recognise aromanticism and asexuality as political identities as well as personal ones and rely on community and self-love in the absence of anything else as a form of protest and political power. destruction (the recognition of everything that is wrong) is essential as a starting point - but where do we go from there? we rebuild.

[hoofpeet]

Problems guy part 200

[candiedfright]

something's wrong, deep inside

[frostfires-blog]

Me rn:

The thoughts:

[lazylittledragon]

this sounds like such 14-year-old bullshit but nobody prepares you for how you feel when you realise that some of your friends actually don't really like or care about you that much

[pierrotdoesnteat]

"why am i not losing weight?"

- you might be gaining muscle first - it might be water weight - it might be you weighing after eating/still dressed/before using the bathroom/not weighing in a routine - you may not be getting enough protein - you may not be getting enough exercise - you might be losing, but very slowly!

everyone's body is different, and everyone's weight loss will happen differently. its okay to lose slower than others, and its okay to lose faster! just do the best you can to stay healthy while doing it.

[philonob]

Overwhelmed.