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teteminne · 1 year ago

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Just finished Hannibal.

This is the most brilliant shit i've ever seen in my entire life wtf

#hannibal #im still scared shitless to go out of my apartment to take a smoke #but it was so so worth it #omg this is insane how was this acrually produced #from time to time i just stare off into the nothingness and half gasp half laugh cause like #wtf #they were insane for this #bryan fuller was insane for this #and mads and hugh omg #this was so #i cant i cant #the way that hannibal knew that will knew he was in love with him #and will knew he knew that he knew #and there was just this implicit understanding between them #fully wordless #that carried the whole chapter #omg i am going insane over this i will never be normal again #my friends will all desert me I already got drunk af a couple days ago and said that 'sex is like cannibalism'#they wont be able to handle me now #omg omg omg

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ywpd-translations · 1 month ago

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Ride 793: The palms of their hands

Pag 1

1: Holding hands with you rival

Pag 2

1: Grasping tightly the gratitude

They're moving forward... to the future!!

Pag 3

1: 1500m left until the mountain line!!

Pag 4

2: You're kidding....

He's coming....?

He's getting closer?

3: So odd, and yet I thought I had left him behind completely

This is “three times”, isn't it?

5: He's coming

And moreover

Pag 5

1: He's doing it while singing!!

Even though Hakogaku's Manami had left him so much behind in a moment...

Mountain King is getting closer!!

He's not giving up!!

The distance is closing!!

That's right ♪ I know ♪ If you do this ♪

Pag 6

1: The princess' wish ♪

2: Will come true ♪

3: Mountain King is amazing!! He's humming a tune!!

I heard of this, Mountain King becomes faster when he hums a tune!!

What, amazing!

The magic singing!!

I'll try singing too next time I'll climb!

4: No

It's not magic

5: For you, that “song”

Pag 7

1: it's a device to activate your power!!

2: Like a car's key

3: To carry people and luggage up a mountain road a vehicle needs both a sturdy body, small parts

4: and a powerful engine

5: For bikes, the “body”

Pag 8

1: Practice, repetition, recovery, determination, challenges- everything

2: piles up!!

3: Only someone who has worked

4: tirelessly, without rest....

Pag 9

1: Could get to this position of the mountain stage on the Inter High's first day!!

2: And he can even keep up with my “three times”!!

4: I see, so that's what it means

You piled everything up during this past year...

Pag 10

1: Ouch

2: Ah, damn, I pressed something weird

Ah....

3: Oh, I have a message

Ah, it's from Sakamichi-kun

Ah... it's from three months ago..

Hehehe, ops

4: What is it, what is it...? “Do you remember? The promise we made on the last day?”

Oh... I remember

“We said 'let's race for the mountain stage on the first day next time'”

Ah.. we did, we did

6: “Are we still on for that?”

8: “Of course”

Pag 11

1: To protect your promise with me!!

Wait, Manami-kun!!

Princess ♪...!!

2: Sakamichi-kun!!

3: Manami-kun!!

Pag 12

1: Mountain King caught up!!

He caught Hakogaku's Manami, who had attacked and opened the gap!!

2: He's not surrendering!!

Neither of them is surrendering!!

1200m left until the mountain line!!

Pag 13

1: Now another race...

2: starts!!

4: They're both taking the curve

5: while colliding against each other!!

Pag 14

1: Aaaaaa

Soooreeee

I won't surrender!!

2: They're still neck and neck!!

3: Amazing!

Pag 15

1: From the inner side!!

2: Sooreeee

Manami fell back for a moment and then forced his way forward!!

They hit each other!!

5: The trees are getting lower again

6: One more time...

Pag 16

1: Let's go, “three times”!!

Pag 17

2: Manami used the wind and accelerated again!!

Incredible, what's that!

3: What about Mountain King!?

Pag 18

1: Musical note shaped wings!?

Pag 19

1: Aaaaaaaa

2: Amazing

3: It's just like you

4: You were so desperate to catch me that you unconsciously used the wind to accelerate

5: Interesting!!

Pag 20

1: Mountain King is clinging to him!! I thought Manami had attacked but

Manami didn't get away!!

He caught up with such a weird acceleration!?

Amazing!

2: Maybe your singing is something more than a key

3: Ahhhh

5: These past three years have been fun

Huh!?

Pag 21

1: I'm glad you were here for the past three years

3: Huh... ah!!

4: Thank you

Pag 22

2: Such a close battle like this, such a once-in-a-lifetime battle like this, it could only have been with you

3: Yeah... yeah!!

“The past three years”....!!

4: No, that, I should be the one saying that, really!!

5: That's right... this is my match against Manami-kun...

Pag 23

1: Let's go until the mountain line

2: Let's give everything we have

3: Let's make the most of every second of the time we have left!!

5: 1km until the end....

Pag 24

1: It's the final climb!!

Pag 25

1: Yeah!!

Pag 26

3: Th-thank god I made it in time...

This... I couldn't miss this today

4: Sangaku said that

5: “It will be the culmination of the past three years”

#yowamushi pedal #yowapeda #yowamushi pedal translations #yowapeda manga #yowamushi pedal spoilers #yowamushi pedal manga #ride 793 #no im not crying i just have 793 chapter of yowapeda in my eyes ;A;#watanabe please stop reminding me that this manga is gonna end!!! I dont wanna hear it!!#and neither does onoda!! Look at his desperate face when he realizes that that's his last race against manami!!!#excuse meeee ;A; i cant do this #so imma focus on the nice things #like onoda sining that 'the princess' wish comes true' right when he sees manami #bc THATS HIS WISH MANAMI IS HIS WISH AND ITS FINALLY COME TRUE #or how cute Manami is in the flashback page and the way he jumps up to reply to onoda #like the only thing missing there was him adding 'it's a date' to that text #bc thats what it is okay its obvious #honestly i understand why onoda is so scared that this is his last chance with manami #given that he had to wait 3 months for a single text lmao #he's scared he wont hear from manami at all once they wont be able to meet at the ih - and he's right #manami please reply to your phone onoda needs you #im babbling to not focus on the last pages bc theyre making me too emotional and I CANNOT HANDLE THIS #if i think about this manga ending imma melt in a puddle of tears okay #so ill just focus on sansaka being canon for now :')

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skunkes · 2 months ago

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not an ask, but I saw ur post and relate a lot to it.

anticipatory grief sucks. people will tell you not to think about it, not to let it steal from today, but some days are just so hard. sometimes it feels unavoidable, like it’s some goliath mountain in the distance or even the sky and you can’t not look at it. it’s like you have to keep trying to distract yourself not to think about it, and it’s exhausting, and you’re so fucking scared of the inevitable.

like how does anyone even function? the idea of the world continuing to spin when there’s this terrible, horrible thing that will happen some day is unfathomable but it does, and it’s horrible. Some day will mark the before and the after. nobody can ever be ready for it.

I hope the love you have keeps you strong. wishing you the best.

this is literally it. i know thinking about it Now wont make the actual day it happens any easier. but it's impossible to not think about it, especially since there's no tangible way to preserve memories or feelings or the like forever. i cry easily and get emotional over most anything and everything, which is another layer of difficulty wrt it because I spiral. I want to squeeze out of my body. im not meant for any of it

#skunk mail #Anonymous #ill be in a car with my dad fighting tears thinking about how ill miss it one day and there's no way for my brain to capture the moment and #make a simulation of it. and even then that wouldnt help. ykwim #sometimes i sit in my parents room while my parents and brother are there and i cant stop thinking about when ill see them for the last tim #and how i wish i could full really truly wring every last drop of ''appreciation'' from the moment.#i think about that time isnt linear thing. how everything that has happened or will happen exists on its own #and i think about the cheye experiencing the After tragedy. and i cant handle it. not now or then. i envy the past cheye #even the one of 5 seconds ago. because that was 5 seconds ive lost. 5 seconds closer to events that will #separate my life into Before and After. over and over again #(like you said anon. i think abt that all the time too)#i think this is also why im struggling with the thought of moving out #we all have so little time. dont even get me started on the fear and grief i feel for my own life #not only fearing dying but fearing the lead up where ive lost and cried over much. just me. alone.#ill never see them again. it will never be today again. we'll never be in my parents room like today again. i cant take it.#even if i spend every last second with everybody i still wont be able to take it. i cant believe it #human beings that were all somebody's baby once. tomorrow it will be like they were never here at all. all their memories #go with them. it hurts so bad. i cant take it #i cant even breathe rn ruminating abt it *peace sign emoji*

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halogalopaghost · 9 months ago

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#IM SO STRESSED IM SO STRESSED #I feel like I'm not handling ANYTHING well rn #so many people have symptoms that are WAAAAAAY fucking worse and they're like. working full time jobs and being a parent and shit and #I'm like waaah oh no I have body aches and chronic fatigue looks like I'll have to be unemployed and never do anything ever 💀#how am I gonna live?? like. my parents are taking care of me and I'm so fucking glad but #SOMEDAY THEY WONT BE AROUND and that stresses me out so bad #I'm 25 years old and I NEED my mom every day if not physically then emotionally because I'm a little bitch baby that can't do anything for #herself. im having a hard time feeding myself I'm having a hard time keeping my living space clean #I'm not taking care of anything except the dogs sometimes and my lizard and she's not getting as much attention as she used to #I need a job and I need to be able to suck it up and DO THINGS but I feel like I'm not the person u was anymore #I was strong and I could push thru things and make myself do things and now I can't???? I just lay on the fucking couch!! and feel bad abtit #is it the tism. is it the ADHD. what about the chronic depression. how bout the fibromyalgia?#and the thing is that ALL OF THOSE THINGS ARE MILD #I don't have severe pain (yet).#I just can't handle it I don't WANT to handle it #so. shoutout to my mom I guess because if it wasn't for her I simply wouldn't be alive #I feel like I've never been happy!! why can't I just be content and be happy!!!!#I have no fucking reason to be unhappy!!!!!!

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lemon-wedges · 4 months ago

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#havening trouble falling asleep and i KNOW anything i think about right now is just blown out of proportion #but genuinely not looking forward to my grandfather coming home tomorrow #living with him stresses me out so much #in some fucked up way im glad he wasnt here when kevin died #i cant imagine those first few days of grief having to also deal with him #i guess im just afraid that whatever progress ive gone thru is going to get lost the moment he comes #or if i trigger myself i wont be able to handle it as well #sigh #i know ill just have to take it as it comes

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kal-thas · 3 months ago

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guys when the disability is disabling 👎

#sorry stupid vent post <3 #im gonna be angry in the tags here for a second #im just. idk. sick of being aware of the fact that im getting worse.#i had a week off from work for moving and school purposes #and now that im back i am . oh boy 👍 not great #literally passed out this morning which . thats new. dont like that.#hopefully its just a . one off thing. i dont know. but. idk.#something something capitalism something something ableism something something im tired of this grandpa #i am tired of being in pain <3 im tired of feeling like im falling behind constantly and like im letting everyone down #by just not being able to do the things i feel i should be able to do.#and like. also currently looking at wfh jobs bc i do not think my body can handle school and work and having to stand and walk and stairs #that much . every single day.#and i feel bad about that too bc i transfered to this store ! i put in work to be here at this store and my fucking body is giving out !!#its not even bad. its a much quieter store than the one i came from. everyone ive talked to is nice. the manager is understanding #and i hate that i feel like im just. deteriorating. and failing at everything <3 #but like whatever . its whatever. i know its just the. internalized shit of 'yeah but im not bad enough to warrant this'#like ! fuck !#idk. things to bring up in therapy i guess <3 #ok goop night sorry for this. i wont be deleting bc fuck me if i ever delete a post. cringe is dead or wtvr

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princessmyriad · 27 days ago

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#personal #it feels like im not allowed to complain about my own life on my own blog #or at least that if im allowed to that it seems very firstworld problem very selfish very not appropriate with all thats going on #that people will and do think less of me for expressing my own sadness and frustrations because theres no way it compares #to a lot of peoples very big and very real problems #but im so fucking sick of being poor and small. all ive had to eat today is 2min noodles roughly 10 hours ago #and all ill get tomorrow is a bowl of 2min noodles but ittl be another 15 or so hours until its the most reasonable to eat that #thats the real girlmath and then thats the last of my noodles. that leaves me with one (1) small tin of tuna #which might end up being tonights intermediary food if i really cant wait 15 nore hours for my next noodles but is supposed to be #the one meal of the day after tomorrow. so if i eat it too soon then i have even more time that i just dont fucking eat #im so sick to death of being in this position. like its literally killing me and theres fuck all i can do to make it better #ive tried. and i try and i try and i try but i can never afford anything #my landagent keeps sending me textx asking when theyll see a patment for my $50 water bill #i have to stop myself from texting back every time. youll see payment when im not spending literally 75% of my pay on rent alone #when i can afford to buy food and bills at the same time. whn i dont feel like kms-ing would be better than paying you my rent every frtnite #i crave a burger so bad i cant make myself do any tasks. i cant start or continue any crafts or chores because all im thinking about #is a burger like a blorbo rotating in my mind alongside the background noise that i wont get a burger and will only get noodles but not for #hours. a whole days worth of hours almost #my shitawful roomate is back and i have to play nice but he gives me the same feelings my abusive mother did. im scared to leave my room #in the safeplace house ive spent the last two years building for myself. this feels awful. things were all going so right and now #all of a sudden theyre all going as wrong as possible and im struggling so much. with no one to help. no one cares enough to help #the few people i do have are wrapped up in their own lives. which i get. but it doesnt take away the hurt of dealing with it all alone again #lot of momma trauma coming up with the end of eclipse season and i thought i was handling it. now i just feel fucking awful all the time #like ik healing isnt linear but the roomate triggers so hard things i thought i had processed and was on top of #would a burger fix that? no but itd atleast give me something to emotionally lean on for strength though it. but all ive got is noodles #24 hour apart one meal per day noodles. and tomorrow is my last pack. my only solace lately is that ive been invited to my first ever rave #or my first real rave anyway ive only been to one other 'edm event' that was not really a rave of any scale it was like 25 people #but its a halloween rave so im hoping for spooky fun dancetimes at least theres that. im out of data and spotifyprem so i havent been able #to take my silly little mental health walks bc theres zero chance im doing that without music and so itll be noce to get outside fr the rave #anyway. im doing very poorly i appreciate you few who reached out while i wasnt active but i expect ill continue to do poorly for some time

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snaxle · 1 year ago

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im just sick of feeling guilty for spending money 😭😭 ..

#og #i wanna save my money so bad but the past year has been really hard on my family. lots of bad shit has been going on #and i just wanted to get stuff to treat everyone so we can have a nice holiday and to show them i love them #but now i have less money in my savings and it makes me really sad </3 #im trying to save my money up to eventually get a car which will allow me to get a better job and be able to move out #although i probably wont be able to move out for another few years bc. everything is so expensive #although my mom is trying really hard to find a job even tho i really dont think she should bc she's sick. but like. we're poor #and it's even sadder bc my younger brother wants to get a job to get some money too and it's like. no please it's fine #we can handle it you don't need to help out we're okay right now #OOF SORRY FOR VENT..#next year i just really hope i'll be able to like. save my money up a lot which. idk if i can #so to make myself happy i get myself a lil treat here and there otherwise im probably gonna get depressed LOL

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warlordfelwinter · 4 months ago

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you ever only realize your mental state was resting entirely on a single thing when that single thing falls through

#the hair dresser cancelled my appointment without notifying me #im guessing she was out sick or something cause No One was there #but i was really looking forward to getting my haircut #and now my brain has just done a graceful high dive into the deep end of the depression pool #maybe I'll buy myself a little treat since i saved the haircut costs #this is also just going to exacerbate any future haircut anxiety #i already hate walking into ulta to get to the salon but now i know sometimes they just wont be there and no one told you #and you'll sit there for 10 minutes like an idiot with no employees bothering to ask if they can help #even though they must know the stylists are gone??#i wish we had a regular cheap hair dresser in town but its either ulta or little expensive boutique style shops that cater to black hair #which im sure theyd be able to handle my hair texture just fine but id feel just as weird being there as in a makeup store #im having a Week and it's only tuesday #personal

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mikuyuuss · 5 months ago

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Guess who just got her hands on a survival horror game

#personal #survival horror #horror #fatal frame 4 #fatal frame #Gone where the days where I used to just watch youtubers play horror games for me #this time I PLAY it myself #ngl I thought i wont be able to handle it and yeah its still scary #but also IM HAVING FUN!#cant wait to unlock the cute outfits #also now I wanna play ff5 too

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halfdeadwallfly · 7 months ago

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guess who is so absolutely shit at everything that they are failing at school, won't have the gpa to keep their financial aid at the ridiculously expensive institution they attend, and is probably gonna have to move back home next semester

#boink #it's me #lol #nothing feels real #i just slept for 15 hours #god i hate myself so much #i am such a fucking piece of shit #i was finally starting to settle in here #god im supposed to be in charge of my music group and im literally abandoning them #i finally started to feel like i maybe fit in with them #and now im going to be back at my house #like im in high school #because i cant be trusted to handle myself #things are hard here but at least i started to feel like a person #god i mean i started to feel like an individual #i went to a party this week an i had a good time #i asked someone out on a date for gods sake #these are things that i absolutely never could have done a year ago #and now im going back home #and i wont even be able to say i have school like i used to #that was who ive always been and its just fucking not now #obviously #its like i had the most terrifying realistic nightmare #and when i wake up its actually real #i am going to have to leave all of this #i dont even deserve it anyway #i wish i did #the world is getting so much smaller again

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imabiscuitinthousandworlds · 10 months ago

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i would like to thank any gods out there that the physics exam was in fact manageable and most questions worked like the ones i did manage to look over. no idea if i got to the correct conclusion but i'm pretty sure my formulas are all in order. i'm careful not to hope too much but i definitely didn't completely screw it up.

i would also like to thank the snow that i got to go home earlier.

i would also like to fight my french teacher and stop french classes immediately i don't understand a damn thing and there's too much grammar and i can't focus and i'm too demotivated to spend the time on it i should and i wanna cry

#a biscuit's rambles #EVEN IF I DONT USE THE SUBJONCTIF FRENCH PPL ARENT STUPID THEYLL KNOW WHAT I WANNA SAY #also leave me alone i was prepared for the way u usually test someone in class #not that #i woulda been able to handle that other stuff #also i KNEW my vocab okay that one phrase wasnt even in That vocab #we have two french lessons back-to-back on wednesdays and they make me wanna commit spontaneous self-ignition #just crumble to dust for a while. ill come back after french please and thank you #but hey physics went. well imma be a bit careful so i wont say well but better than expected for sure #at least thats done #now just small maths and politics tests on friday #and the spanish exam next week #and that other one in two weeks #and-- okay okay one exam at a time #im not gonna die but i will wish to be taken over by blue fungus for a prolonged if finite period of time

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autistic-shaiapouf · 9 months ago

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Beginning to really wonder how much of my financial concern is manufactured and handed to me as opposed to something I'm genuinely concerned by