#they aren’t really similar

[youngyoo-apologist]

When it comes to OG!Cale ships I like both OG!AlCale and OG!ChoiHan but it really depends on the scenario

For example, I like OG!AlCale in both regression aus and TBoaH adjacent timeline things because I think a huge thing I like in their dynamic is how mysterious they both are to the other party. The fun of their dynamic is them discovering more about each other and the various miscommunications they have cause of their own personalities, and I think that works very well no matter the universe.

But with OG!ChoiCale, I feel like I can really only enjoy it in TBoaH adjacent things or if they both have the memories of the first life.

To me, a big thing about OG!ChoiCale is about the life they lived together, how they hated eachother, how they both didn’t know eachother for years, how they could have spent time together during the war due to unfortunate circumstances(there not being enough people left)

Like, I think OG!ChoiCale can be such a cool dynamic, such a sad, but comforting one at the same time. It’s a little bitter how the man you thought you would hate forever became a close companion, how he’s more similar to you than your younger self woild have ever thought, but do you really hate it?

Can you really hate having a person who understands you, when so many people have died? When so many are gone?

Something about the sadness of it all, how it was tragedy that brought them against each other at first, but now it brings them together. How they could only ever grow to understand eachother because of the pain they face, the pain that they shared. At some point, can you really hate him, even until the end? After all those years? After coming to understand him? No, you cannot.

Like, it adds in extra layers when they both care about each other at some point mid-way through the war, but they still can’t really talk to eachother properly. They care, but they frustrate one another, anger each other. Choi Han doing increasingly more risky and self sacrificial things because ‘I’m a hero’ ‘I have to do it.’ ‘It is justice to save people’, despite the fact that it’s at the expense of himself

And Cale’s frustration at Choi Han’s attitude. He can never wrap his head around the fact that Choi Han destroys himself for the sake of other people, and believes it’s heroic(He knows Choi Han doesnt, he know Choi Han hates it too, but he doesn’t know what else to say to himself other than the fact that ‘it’s for the greater good’, because he will go crazy if he doesn’t)

He’s mad, but there’s some twisted sense of understanding in there too. Cale understands, because he became trash for his family, he became trash to protect them, he had to do it.

But that’s only what he thought.

He was older now, he had lost them all, and he had seen how his trash act hadn’t done anything to protect them. It only distanced him from them, and now they were gone, and he could never see them again, he could never make amends.

Cale is mad at Choi Han for sacrificing himself because while Choi Han is hurting himself, the people who he loves, and the people who love him, watch him do it over and over again and he doesn’t listen to their worried cries.

He’s mad, but he understands. It was frustrating to be on the other side, watching someone destroy themselves for the sake of others when the people who cared about them wanted the exact opposite. The only difference between him and Choi Han was that Choi Han was never a good liar, he could never hide how much pain he went through.

In a way, Cale thought it was better that way.

At some point, there is love that is there. Love that follows them, and it’s so painful because they both know the tragedy edy to it that is how they are doomed, how they can never be happy in the first time line where they knew each other.

Because as Cale and Choi Han, they can’t be happy. Not when so much has been lost, not when the world is falling apart, they may love each other, but loving each other as they are means being in a world where everything else they love is gone.

It is a cruel kind of love.

Like let’s say they do pursue these feelings, even though knowing those two I don’t think they’d ever say anything in that scenario. If they did it would probably be Cale going like:

“Choi Han, do you love me?”

Choi Han doesn’t say anything, but his silence in place of adamant refusal is enough of an answer.

“Do you love me, Cale?”

Cale doesn’t say anything either, only smiling at Choi Han with his signature, cynical and bitter smile.

He didn’t deny it either.

It was a confirmation of feelings, but unlike the confessions from romance novels and stories, the main character and lead do not end up together and live happily ever after.

They stay together, but the world around them is not happy, not at all. They are together, but not as partners or as lovers, but two people who live in their suffering because all they can do is live.

I feel like anything they do together would always have an air of melancholy to it. Maybe they kiss, once, and no more, because there is no point in making it a regular thing. Not when everything in their world will end, even if they keep on fighting for it to not be that way.

They kiss, and it’s short, but in that short moment, the world is nothing but Cale and Choi Han.

Isn’t that selfish? If it’s like this, then they could ignore how everything has gone so badly. But that is exactly why they cannot be together, there is no ignoring the reality of their situation, no matter how sweet it would be to live in a false dream and never wake up.

I like my OG!ChoiCale a little doomed.

[winn-wynn]

Percy and Oliver is autism x adhd couple but I will argue that Percy has adhd while Oliver has autism

[thatbuddie]

did y’all know that my summer of buddie event was literally copied and turned into a buckt*mmy event and i didn’t say anything about it because I understand that sometimes other fans take inspiration in other fandom events? but did y’all know the event is like literally a perfect copy of mine? well, now that we’re talking about “plagiarism” and “copying” and accusing fans of shit i thought i’d just let you know that this did happen :)

[silvantransthranduiltrash]

Honestly, shout out to Oropher and Thranduil for not getting involved in the incest party.

Legolas politely doesn’t think about the fact that Elladan, Elrohir, and Arwen’s family tree is a wreath, because honestly, he finds it super weird. The amount of times Legolas has had to restrain himself from clapping back at any comments about his family with “yeah, well at least our romantic interests isn’t made up exclusively of our cousins” is surreal.

Legolas, when Aragorn and Arwen fall in love: so! I love and support you both, i would die for you! But would it kill ya’ll to stop falling in love with your cousins?!? I know it’s technically the nth time removed, but still!

[quietwingsinthesky]

best thing about doctor who is that it is unpoisoned by the irony that most long-running media gets cannibalized by. it is invincible because it is so silly and so full of love and it takes each premise with the exact amount of seriousness it deserves. the closest you get ever is that some of bill’s lines are verbatim little teasing nitpicks of the show that the fandom bandied about, but they don’t come off as mocking the premise, they come off as loving the premise and how silly it is. why’s his time machine anagram work in english? it just does. his name is doctor who.

[beigetiger]

It’s fucking over you guys. What the fuck.

[ghostingink]

I need you guys to hear me out on a Mizuki, Rui, Akito and Len April fools cover of villain

[aroaessidhe]

2024 reads / storygraph

Pluralities

sci-fi novella

a burned out 20-something with premonitions has a gender-questioning journey, after quitting their job and becoming friends with benefits with a trans guy

with a parallel narrative about a runaway alien prince in a space empire and his complicated friendship with his sentient spaceship friend

audiobook arc from netgalley!

[rolandkaros]

one day we will talk about how tennis fans talk about/treat players they find attractive versus players they dont…………

[lavenderjewels]

kenjaku benefits a lot from being closer to the classic evil mad scientist than just an evil mastermind

[odetojupiter]

can’t get kevjean and catradora parallels out of my head it’s making me sad

[echo-of-the-eye]

My experience with outer wilds is kinda weird. It’s my favorite game, but I played it wrong.

I’m bad at video games. That’s not a self deprecation thing, it’s just a fact. I struggle with the controls (they just don’t come intuitively to me). I also get genuinely stressed out to the point where I often can’t keep playing.

Most of my experience with video games comes from watching others play them, which then inspires me to play them myself. Many might find this pointless, especially cause I mostly play story heavy games and if I’ve seen a playthrough I already know the story, but i still like to play it myself.

With outer wilds I actually started playing it without spoilers first like you’re supposed to. But I was never really told “do not look stuff up” explicitly, so I did. A lot. I’m a completionist, so I tried to explore planet by planet and if I got stuck on something I looked it up. I didn’t actually finish the game. I explored most of giants deep, brittle hollow, timber hearth, the attlerock and some of ember twin. I didn’t reach any of the harder locations and I don’t think I was really processing much of the info. Eventually I gave up. I got stuck on ember twin cause the time pressure stressed me out.

I still really liked it so I decided to watch a playthrough. And I fell in love. The story really got to me and I immediately started playing it again. I know the whole point of outer wilds is to experience it yourself. And knowing how to complete the game ruins it. But I still played through it, finding all the text and letting the story sink in. (I actually haven’t reached the ending, I tried once but immediately crashed and died and got so stressed I had to stop, I haven’t had the motivation to try again yet)

I regret it now. I wish I got the true outer wilds experience. I still love the game, I love the story, but I never truly got to explore and put all the clues together myself. And that’s my own fault. Luckily I didn’t watch echoes of the eye and I’m going to play it soon with minimal spoilers and hopefully reach the end. (This has been sitting in my drafts for a while so at the time I’m posting this I actually just started!)

I wonder if there are any others in the outer wilds fandom that didn’t play it “correctly”. Since people talk a lot about their experiences playing the game and how it changed them I always felt like I was missing out on something since my personal experience of playing the game is kinda “wrong”. But I think it shows you can still love something even if you didn’t experience it the way it was meant to be experienced. I love the story and the world so much and it means a lot to me.

[mayoiayasep]

if i had a nickel for every time i read a yuri manga with a pink haired arospec/arospec coded protagonist and a dark haired upperclassman love interest who is also the focus of a unrequited crush from a blond classmate i would have two nickels. which isn’t a lot but it’s weird it happened twice

[quibbs126]

You know I really do wonder what Radish and Rosemary’s parents look like, considering they’re sisters but don’t really look all that related

Heck, their ingredients don’t really seem that related, other than them both starting with R and being things you can grow in a garden

…Ah wait crap, now I’ve invited the request suggestion. I don’t know what to make them!

[peteytheparrot]

Literally every single story I’ve been infatuated in some way was a mystery,,, I love mysteries,,,, why aren’t my stories MYSTERIES-

[frascospecimen]

Have people even watched howls moving castle or do they just think that guy is hot