#these two destroy me in the best way
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Tian and Wang are when two very different sets of abandonment issues meet each other and try to care about each other and keep finding all the jagged edges that don't quite meet but also smooth and soothe each other when they allow it.
(Both used to being alone for different reasons and both feeling it's safer to be that way, to be alone, to be protected, to avoid relying on other people because relying on other people is a risk that never pays off but also desperate to love and be loved in return despite their own fears and certainties it can never last.)
#the on1y one#tian x wang#taiwanese series#taiwanese bl#bl drama#bl series#asianlgbtqdramas#asian lgbtq dramas#taiwanese bl drama#taiwan bl#taiwanese drama#these two destroy me in the best way#just the emotional distance between them that neither one wants#but that they're creating#each with their own fears and issues#and their own quiet certainty that no one sticks around
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Enomatsumiki ot3 charts bc them and Chappell Roan is the only thing that has been keeping me stable
#scarposts#not going in ANY major tags#nope#enomatsumiki#that one is ok bc its mostly empty anyway#anyway i have been cooking with my Remnant Matsuda au#you should totally ask me about it btw#but with the actual chart#alot of it is steeped in canon#like matsuda being the first to apologize after a fight#which he does in dr0#and mikan too bc she would apologize before the fight was even over#also the firsts are a bit confusing mainly bc matsushima was together way beforehand so#except the wake up one#thats bc i believe that they would wake up together at the same time bc they commute to work together#if they sleep to begin with#junko however just snoozes away#also not sure with the tropes#childhood freinds are a given#but i did coworkers and classmates for matsumiki bc thats the best i could#and love at first sight and patient nurse for junkan bc i have no fucking clue#pick your poison i suppose#Jealousy is not with each other btw its outsiders#matsuda with two people who thrive off pda when he absolutely does not#its ok they have each other then they can bother him when they are alone#Actually whats with mikan working well with people she absolutely should not?#mikan: i dont like when ppl are mad or bored... i always think its my fault :(#junko and yasuke: 😐😠#mikan: <333333333333333333333333333#she chose the woman who destroyed the world bc of boredom and the guy who is immune to having a good day
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stoic illiterate unwilling assassin deeply in love with unfailingly kind rich sad gay man almost stabs his crush's brother because the brother cares so much and so genuinely for the gay man that he searched assassin's room out of worry and found knives and a mysterious letter before being interrupted by the assassin who then does not want to show him the letter which seems incredibly suspicious, only for a later scene (after the gay man interrupts them and thus stops any escalation from happening) to quietly reveal that the very sus letter in possession of this illiterate assassin is not in fact a sign he's lying about being illiterate.... it's just two pages of him practicing the gay man's name over and over in neatly spaced lines...... a reveal which he was going to STAB a man over because he doesn't know that the gay man's brother knows the man is gay and loves him with his whole heart and would never ever do anything to hurt him........ i will never get over this, how could i ever get over this, everything else ever is going to be downhill from here
#yeah HI. if you are WONDERING. i am still being absolutely destroyed. utterly torn to pieces. smashed into a million happy little bits. by#to sir with love#it's not even the romance. though the romance is excellent and only getting better (and also hilarious. THE CHONBURI SCENES???)#but the siblings!!!! these brothers!!!!! everything in the world is trying to turn them against each other and every time i hold my breath#and every time!! without fail!!!! without hesitation even!!!!!! they go no. i love him and i trust him and he would never hurt me or i him.#and i CANNOT TELL YOU. how hard that's fucking me up. in the best of ways#it would be SO easy in a hiiiigh drama messy family show like this to go the easy route and just have the two sides of the family#actually fully at war with each other. or to have one of these brothers betray the other / let some misunderstanding fester#and 🤞🤞🤞 because i still have a good deal of show to go but so far. oh my goddddd. they choose each other. they choose each other always#anyway. if anyone reads this and is looking for some very high quality actually good soap melodrama. to sir with love is free on youtube
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you might think i grew out my hair because I simply think it's pretty. but in truth it is so that i can eat ice cream and when i inevitably get it on my shirt, i can simply hide the stain with my hair.
#when i was young my parents never bought me white or light-colored clothing because i would get them dirty#in ways even the best detergent was impossible to get clean#(i mean we had a sour cherry tree to climb around on. and sour cherr stains are forever)#my mom was right if course.#when i was 13ish - in my parents mind old and responsible enough to get light-colored pants i wanted#i destroyed them literally the first time i wore them#didn't jusz get them dirty#fell down skateboarding and had two giant holes in both knees#i mean i was used to sturdy jeans which would have been fine probably#but yeah i am not made for light clothing#i used to only wear black band or Festival shirts for metal reasons#and earlier this year i bought two light green shirts#because it is hot af in summer#guess what happens every time i wear them#guess what happened just now as i was sitting down in a not-windy area and eating ice cream
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More lolcalised stuff- this time, about Supreme Sadness when Billy turns green
:'(
Before the fight, lolcalised!Hubbie gives some meaningless stuff, but jp!Hubbie... already guessed, and/or knew, how "special" Billy was, after all, they, of all people, should be able to rekt Solon and a bunch of Agarthans, right?
The lolcalisation toned down Hubbie's fondness for Supreme Leader, Billy is "our professor" and not only, Supreme Leader's mentor. Damn, combining this with the ealier mention, what were Hubert's thoughts about Billy during WC?
They're not their teacher, did he just saw them as one of Supreme Leader's fancy or one of her whims - who also happens to be someone who would help or ruin them?
Note how the "why" was turned in a "what" and the "in such a way" it's just, chief's kiss.
"mah teacher, why did you turn in a lizard?!?"
"because otherwise your science minister would have killed me? My bad, I can't say that."
I feel like the wordless "..." conveys more shock/ire than the "I see" from the lolcalised version (and the seiyuu is basically giving a long "inspire then expire" sound, as if Supreme Leader is trying to calm down), but think of Supreme Leader here, the SoC + being lizard colored means, to her, that Billy is indeed kin to Seiros who was also "loved by the goddess".
No matter how hard she denies it, now it's real : Billy's part lizard :(
Pat removed some parts, Sothis now "looks" favorably upon Billy and Seiros just because Billy wears the SoC, nothing about their new lizard traits.
Pat : "Supreme Leader just asks how Billy will use that power, it's Billy who pick choices!"
FE16 : Supreme Leader pits "the world and the people" against the Monastery, surely, this isn't foreshadowing anything :)
Note how Billy doesn't mention the Monastery in their choices, maybe it's what "the students" was supposed to be, or it's to sell a certain later choice?
(But then Supreme Leader adds that if the World and the Students were to fight, no matter what side Billy would pick, it'd still mean he fights for both so...)
#in a way it's fun to see Pat try to erase or round the edges of some characters#either to make the twist not that obvious or to make them more sympathic for his audience#damn the 'why did you become a lizard???' killed me lol#Called it#but Hubbie never gaf about Billy bar Billy being his liege's new obsession#a certain fic has been tackling the relationship between Billy and those two in Tru Piss#especially the ugly things only hinted like Billy being part lizard and what that means for those two#note that Supreme Leader later only mentions the world and the students and no mention of the monastery lol#it's already a given that she will destroy it#or maybe she doesn't want to hear Billy say they will side with the inhuman beasts who are masquerading as humans?#poor Supreme Leader#lolcalisation woes#Pat tried his best but FE16's Supreme Leader is pretty radical#in her views about nabatean people so...
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"i hated owen for all/most of s1 i only started liking him in s2" weak. i liked owen since he got choked against a wall by an angry woman and then told her he wanted to shag her immediately afterwards. and then even more when he spent ep3 trying to intimidate and murder a rapist
#txt#torchwood posting#owen in the pilot? trash. but i tend to think ep3 was his comeuppance#anyway i was biased goin into tw but nonetheless. i loved him near immediately#i was like oh hermann from pr but hes a mean shitty little twink ohh???#oh hes fucked up! oh he has murder in his eyes and hes crying! oh im obsessed! and it spiraled from there#which is usually how it goes#sigh#but yeah ep3 was when i rllyyyy started to love owen#the obsession. the vigilantism. going against jack's orders.#that one shot where gwen looks at him and he looks dangerous#i think what got me was in ep1 we see torchwood broke suzie and pushed her to kill#so seeing that a second torchwood member was also at that point only two eps later#it was like ohhhhh. ohhh thats whats going on here#and then it's amplified like the end of s1 is just owen spiraling so hard he almost destroys the world. and it was fucking fantastic#even if the cgi was bad lmfao#s1s character arcs all have to do with exploring how that life breaks people. esp ppl who were already broken. as we find out in s2e12#& owen's the best example he's sooo fucking mentally ill and self destructive and toxic and miserable and he means the fucking world to me#and then they threw it all away in s2 to make him palatable 😒#but thats a me problem. i do luv s2 owen just in a diff way#and im v fond of the undead arc#but s1 owen just hits diff for me. burn played him as a scared little boy and it rlly rlly shows#sss
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@crankbaby You got me in my feels about young Trikey so I made this. Based off the song Say Something by A Great Big World ft. Christina Aguilera
#and i forget just why i taste [michael de santa]#Betcha' kiss your knuckles right before they touch my cheek [Trikey]#These two are literally destroying me in the best way possible#anywhere I would have followed you is soooo fucking Trevor @ Mikey#Trikey#Trikey save
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I’m writing a Jason Todd fic that has everything I want. The foundation of the fic is love: it’s Bruce’s love for his long-lost son. But it’s love that’s gone wrong. It’s love, but it’s love for someone who’s gone (or never existed in the first place). It’s Bruce’s fear — of losing the people he loves, of losing what makes him feel like he’s making the right choices, of feeling completely lost, because admitting that he’s making a mistake, making MANY mistakes, well. That means he’s failed. He can’t fail. Not in this. Not again.
This fic is about love: one person begging the other to see them, to love them as they are, to help them in the way they need. The other person is suffocating the first because they love them. They love them so much and just want them to be happy, but happiness to them has a certain look. Happiness can only be achieved in the right way. It’s horrible and painful and frightening and sad. It’s a story about love. It’s a horror. It’s a ghost story. Don’t you see? In the end, it’s all about love. And how sometimes the people who love us are the ones who kill us.
#jason Todd#bruce wayne#red hood#batman#Zilla’s things#guys you don’t even know I’ve had this fic rotating in my head for YEARS now#I love horror. I love love. I love love that’s horror and horror that’s love#Bruce loves his son. he loves him enough to hurt him.#jason loves his father. he wishes bruce loved him back.#they’re two lines that no longer run parallel to each other#but bruce is willing to Fix That.#he loves his son. he loves his son so much that he’s willing to force him to fit his ideals#the tree grew crooked in his eyes. so he will go in and fix it. regardless of jason begging him not to.#jason begs bruce to accept him as he is and bruce says ‘’but I can fix you. I can make you as you were.’’#jason has fundamentally changed and bruce wants to scrape him out and mold him into what HE wants#because BRUCE thinks he knows best. he HAS to know best. if he doesn’t know best than maybe he’s wrong.#and if bruce is wrong? what else is he wrong about. was he wrong about the batarang?#he can’t think about it. physically can’t. if he lets that doubt in it’s the end of everything#so instead he just. slowly destroys his son. in the name of love.#(this is a gen story with no shipping and no canonical LGBT+ themes but it’s also a VERY queer-coded story)#(and 100% not at all a parallel to my life NOPE NOPE NOPE NOPE)#(being suffocated by people who love you? who think they know the best for you regardless of what you say?#loving those people even though they hurt you? begging for them to see you as you are? BEGGING for them to accept you?#and instead being met with ‘’let me fix you until you fit the idealized version I project over your childhood.’’#‘’let me fix you so you can be happy in a way I can accept.’’#‘’let me fix you. we can be happy again. at the cost of you.’’#HAHAHAHHHAHAHAAHAHAHA. anyway.)
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not to be a milennial but harry potter and the prisoner of azkaban really is that bitch....
#mom wanted to rewatch the movies so we've been going thru them <3#talk about a movie thats just like. grief. i turn into the jamie lee curtis halloween trauma supercut#SORRY..... the visuals are peak like that IS the hp vibe to ME and i am BLOWN AWAY this movie was made in 2004 it feels ahead of its time#the first two are so whimsical and magical enrapturing and this movie is like. a well worn cardigan. this feels 2011 cozycore to me#sorry but the introduction of lupin becoming a comforting trusted guardian type of figure AND the dementors representing hollow depression#this 13 yr old whos been kept in the dark on so many things being extra vulnerable prey to them bc of the severe trauma#but getting lessons on how to withstand that creeping dread.. through happy memories... still bonding w lupin increasngly ouagh...#the grief between them both over james and lily. also btw ofc defense against the dark arts being fighting yr fears through laughter. aaaaaa#and then sirius. black. im. i know we meme on the twelve years of it! in azkaban! but as a bitch whos now closer to those characters in age#and can appreciate and understand them obv more than i could when i was. a tween. that just hits like ok shit. VALID#so valid and real to see the child of your friends you knew at that age but who DIED and then see the friend who betrayed them#to see like the best of BOTH of them mirrored and living on in him and be like yknow what???? you WILL be protected frm that same fate#hoooo the briefest moment where harry might hope things will turn out okay. w sirius' name being cleared and peter having to explain himself#and sirius being like hey i get it if you want to stay w your family that is fine but. if you wanna move in w me...#(harry relaying this to hermione later as well. dreaming of a place fr just the two of them somewhere in the countryside#somewhere..... sirius might see the sky..... bc he thinks he would like that after all those years locked up do not even touch me rn.......)#only fr everything to turn to shit two friends fighting w deadly force. the chance to set this right slipping off into the night.#a million dementors descending relentlessly until utter exhaustion and certain death. some strange salvation? fight for a second chance?#but then still havign to say goodbye when they only just GOT this. and everything still being so. god. and lupin having to leave as well.#the thought of sirius also WANTING that guardian type connection but being forced to live in 1. a cave barely living more freely than before#2. then being confined to the stuffy somber abusive home he ran away from as a teen w that portrait still up there and everything.. bitch...#oh man the way i KNOW when we get to ootp (my favourite) its gonna leave me blasted into a million little pieces#the way i know shit like the knowing wink the entirety of the wall tapestry room scene and of course nice one james is gonna DESTROY me..#dont even talk to me abt that dark turn at the end of gof and how everything after gets soooo. god. w everything just getting destroyed and.#i cant even think abt it i cant even talk about it. wah#i dont care btw that they aged those guys up undermining how insanely young these people died. perfect casting fr the remaining marauders ok
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love watching weather science videos but like. why am i 1000x more interested in tornadoes over hurricanes. they're both spinning air
#we wanted to be a stormchaser when we were younger#nowadays we have to worry about our health too much to have such a risky high-stress high reaction time job#been watching nothing but tornado history videos for days it's one of our intermittent special interests#stemming from the weather science workbook we OBSESSED over as a kid#would read that thing cover to cover multiple times a week. i was the kind of autistic who would read the Encyclopedia for fun#i actually had a fave encyclopedia entry as a kid and now i cannot fucking remember it 😭#i also learned what sex was through the encyclopedia 😭😭😭😭 was legit my first exposure to the concept#but like even though we watch A TON of weather videos including tons of stuff about thunderstorms and blizzards#(thunderstorms my fucking beloved. favourite weather pattern ever. cumulonimbus my bestest friend <3)#most of the videos we watch are mostly tornado videos. and hurricane videos feel boring to us#even though hurricanes are wayyy more powerful#tornadoes are still fucking powerful it's just more. concentrated#tornadoes to me feel Targeted like. that's weather that says Fuck YOU in particular actually#especially multivortex tornadoes where you can literally have two houses both in the middle of the storm at once#and still only one of them gets destroyed#or like pictures you can see of demolished houses with their mailbox in the yard simply untouched#i like to watch tornado videos bc they help me. prepare. just in case#our state gets hit with tornadoes pretty frequently though not as much as tornado alley#and i like to know all the information for sheltering and what to do in the event of a collapsed building and such#i have a little survival kit in the bathroom just in case with like basic first aid and a radio and bottled water#bc thats probably the safest room for me to be in since it's not near any external walls and also hiding in the tub is usually good#also in the event you're caught on the road during a tornado#DO NOT UNDER ANY CIRCUMSTANCE shelter under a bridge or overpass#those work basically like straws where as the air gets pushed through it goes MUCH faster and gets dangerous way easier#as far as im aware the best place to be is in a ditch or hole if you absolutely cannot find a shelter in time#if you do not have a car with roll protection then being in your car will probably be worse#NOT AN EXPERT THO pls verify this information on your own if you think it is relevant or necessary i have poor memory and can be stupid#i just know that overpasses are dangerous as hell
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Mmmmmm thinking about Nine the fox walking around with his two bodyguards (Alpha Grim Sonic and Chaos Sonic) again
The fox and his most devoted halberds who are also possessive bitches
No but like but like I need you to understand
Chaos Sonic who was originally revived to take Sonic's place, to fill the hole in a frienship Nine came to believe as fake, and yet clearly held onto so dearly. Chaos Sonic, who was supposed to be the same as before, except made to be Nine's devoted best friend who would never betray him.
Alpha Grim Sonic who Nine reportedly modeled after the hedgehog he (foolishly) thought of as a friend. A robot copy of Sonic who would not talk back, who would not think, who was only made to serve and protect Nine.
Chaos Sonic, whose time spent with Nine turned programmed allegiance and care into some form of love (obsession and possessiveness)
Alpha Grim Sonic, who was not supposed to think and feel. And yet, with time spent serving Nine and opposing Shadow, he begins to feel and to think (a budding soul forming within his metal frame and existing beyond his programming). A robot created to protect and serve, whose feelings for his creator and master begin to grow over time.
When did his internal drive shift from playing the role of Nine's best friend? When did he begin to resent Sonic for what he did to Nine? When did he begin to want to see Nine happy and safe and accomplished (rather than just simply alive and able to complete his goals)? When did he begin to crave Nine's attention and to make him stop thinking about Sonic?
Wasn't he programmed to be no more than an unfeeling robot, a set of algorithms designed to allow him to fight, protect, serve, and strategize only as needed? Why does he want to hurt Shadow so much (is it really just out of the drive to protect Nine, or is it to make the hedgehog pay?)? He'd follow Nine's orders to the ends of the earth, but why does he worry about Nine when they’re separated? Why has he started to covet Nine's smiles and bouts of happiness? Why does he feel annoyance when Nine converses with Chaos Sonic like he's also not there? Why is he starting to understand why Chaos Sonic resents Sonic, beyond the fact that Chaos Sonic has always fancied replacing him? Alpha Grim Sonic has never wanted to replace the real thing, never understood why Chaos Sonic would, but he's starting to understand jealousy (in the way one begins to feel things they cannot put words to).
Chaos Sonic would tell you it's because he and Nine are best friends. Alpha Grim Sonic would tell you that it's because Nine is his master. Yet, deep down, the two have begun to want to be useful and important to Nine. They want to protect him and see his goals through past any loyalty programming. It does not matter whether such an outcome was inevitable or not (based upon their programming or the holes Nine made them fill in his life), only that they believe that they'd choose this even if Nine tried to let them go.
And Nine... Nine who creates distance between himself and the two robots almost instinctively, as if he's trying not to grow attached (ironic, given the roles he placed the two in, the holes in his life he made them fill after he believed that Sonic had backstabbed him). And yet, just as much as he insists that Alpha Grim Sonic is cold and unfeeling and programmed to serve or that Chaos Sonic is just like that (given the personality programmed into him and his similarities to Sonic) and was programmed to follow orders, he finds himself beginning to value the two as more. He should see them as tools, he tries to think of them as tools. And, yet, over time, the two become irreplaceable agents of his will. He can’t allow himself to believe they really care about them, but he wants them to know that he likes having them around, that no other robot can fill the roles he programmed them for, and no real mobian could be as effective as them (even if it's embarrassing to admit). They become...a comforting presence, especially when he's stuck in the Grim post canon, practically alone, closed off from being able to see Sonic again
Do you get me do you get me?
#sonic prime#sonic the hedgehog#miles nine prower#nine sonic prime#nine the fox#chaos sonic#alpha grim sonic#chanine#nine x alpha Grim sonic#alpha grim sonic x nine#nine x grim sonic#grim sonic x nine#chaos sonic x nine#nine x chaos sonic#crystalbondshipping#crystalbond#For now that's my on the spot Alpha Grim Sonic/Nine ship name#i just be ramblin#Gaaaaah I'm just lowkey obsessed with these relationships that only exist in my head#What's more delicious is that none of these three really know much about love (and Nine and Chaos Sonic barely have a leg up in having some#sort of understanding of best friendship)#So all three of them just have complicated feelings regarding each other. All the robots know is that they want Nine to be happy and healthy#and safe‚ all Nine knows is that he doesn’t want to see them destroyed#‚ and while Nine is coming to terms with wanting those two at his side always‚ the other two know they just want to be beside Nine as long#as they live#And by god the ways Alpha Grim Sonic and Chaos Sonic mirror and foil each other gets me‚ even down to their design differences and the way#Chaos Sonic was intended to be like Sonic‚ while Alpha Grim was intended to be without personality and feeling#Or even just the way that Chaos Sonic and Alpha Grim resent and have a thing for fighting Sonic and Shadow respectively#But just as much as there's fun in Nine embracing his devoted robots (power thruple)‚ there's inherent tragedy in those two being unable to#escape or surpass Nine's memory and feeling for Sonic the Hedgehog
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zeph's life is about to become a comedy when they run into gortash for the first time.
like, imagine your bestie has told you all these awful things about the guy who fucked her over and ruined her life and you hate him so bad because he fucked with your best friend so of course you hate his ass and you're so ready to get your hands on him and finally put your murderous instincts to good use because this guy deserves the most brutal killing you're capable of...
...and then you set eyes on his stupid face for the first time and something in the back of your mind says you know what this dude's dick tastes like.
#he's truly the funniest person to be exes with if youre close to karlach at all#like what do you do when you have the sweetest strongest most beautiful best friend in the whole world#and then you find out that the worst thing that ever happened to her#was the aging former rockstar ass dude in a guy fieri shirt who you fucked in a past life#and also he seems to think HE'S your bestie and not the literal angel standing two feet away ready to destroy him#that is pure comedy. to me#like that is the silliest possible way to find out you used to be the leader of a death cult i think#oc: zeph#bg3 oc#bg3 durge#durge oc#dark urge#karlach#karlach cliffgate#gortash#enver gortash#bg3#baldur’s gate 3
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Hahaa so remember liiike 3-4 years ago I said I’d come back wellllll 👉👈
Yall~
Let’s ignore all that and just know that I am very much back on this hell site!✨ and have soo much art and AU’s to share 👀
So stay tuned~~~
Wait and see✨
FOR REAL THIS TIME!!!!
#chibiq#kate why#good omens#good omens 2#AHHH TAGS I MISSED YOU SO!! HELLO MY DARLINGS!!!#i have actually still been around this whole time mainly lurking LIKING things answering certain DM’s the usual#but aaAHHHH SEASON TWO DESTROYED ME IN ALL THE BEST WAYS NEIL CAN AND IT GAVE ME THE COURAGE TO POST AGAIN!!#so yupyup get ready for scribbles doodles wips and all that jazz of these ineffable idiots cause I havn’t stopped drawing them since 2019🤍🖤#seeee yall soooooooon *goes to fix up some older pieces*
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I keep listening to different pieces of music that I love and then my brain comes in all helpful with 'this sounds like great music to die with doesn't it'
#tw suicide#im just. so tired#and i know that right now part of it is im sick (not covid tho) but still.#and it's like im grieving the lost friendship all over again and what might have been#i am the best version of myself when im with the boy. but now no wonder he is avoiding me. and i don't blame him! but for some reason it's#hitting rlly hard again atm and it's just. Im Sad.#i really don't know why that's so prevalent in my mind right now#and it's rlly not safe for me to drive long distances alone i think. i find driving v stressful#and any guesses what *that* leads to#tw sh#the answer was: a frightening amount.#and then there are things i don't understand#my brother begged me to destroy the suicide note i wrote yesterday#and i don't know why. because it's very unlikely to be something that i would stop to do tbh. so what there is would at least explain#*something* perhaps. i don't know#i have spent more than half of my waking hours in the last week seriously thinking of suicide. i don't know how to stop this#and given that i've read two books in full and gone to a play i enjoyed that says something about what hte rest of the time has been filled#with. i don't know how to get out of this. in some ways i feel like it's worse now than it was bc i expected it to get better when mum and#dad got back. if anything it's worse - more constant.#the lows are not quite as low but the baseline is definitely lower#i am just feeling very hopeless rn#yesterday i was driving and reciting psalm 23 and i was so overcome with emotion and i repeated it multiple times and that helped somewhat#but only in the moment ig. i don't know. i don't know how to fix this or even improve it#if im still feeling like this on monday i am so going to walk over the road and straight-up ask to borrow a kitten overnight.#and hope the kitten doesn't decide to go near all the cuts :(#a part of me is genuinely wondering if i should check myself into a psych ward. the other parts of me say either that this isn't bad enough#for that or thta i am simply too scared to. which is true. nasty stuff in psych wards for obvious reasons#anyway i need prayers thankyou
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“It was like A Chorus Line fucked Our Town.”
Bradley Whitford, talking about his Juilliard class meeting up 31 years later, on WTF with Marc Maron
#today in#things i didnt know i needed#but definitely needed#bradley whitford#he really does have a way with words#marc maron#I’ve been in a bradley whitford renaissance since rewatching some of the west wing over christmas and I don’t hate it#his marc maron & west wing weekly podcast appearances are all gold and I love them v much#and this quote in particular destroyed me#bc those were two of my very favorite things as a teen#and he was one of my very favorite things as a young adult#and idk hearing him talk about them fucking was pleasing to me WHAT DO YOU WANT FROM ME#(also would that I could go back in time to see his *naked* off broadway debut in the 80s)#alas I was a few years from being born#ANYWAY#bradley whitford is the best and so josh lyman irl and I love him a lot#(also petition for a west wing reunion on a streamer bc josh would say fuck like A LOT and I’d enjoy that)#loml#wtf with marc maron#he really does some excellent interviews#josh lyman#the west wing
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i'm calling you all out for not paying enough attention to the way tommy breathes in deep after their lips separate like he, too, is taking a moment to savor and gather his wits
and he keeps his eyes closed longer than buck, like this man sure wanted buck back too, huh
underrated (imo) moments of tommy in the loft scene
#bucktommy#evan buckley#tommy kinard#the nuances man the nuances are insane and destroying me in the best ways#the acting choices these two make are insane
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