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Comfort and a kiss.

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First kiss just outside a pool party and before the truth of it all comes out.

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A first friend and the blinding light of love come together.

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The little pink striped shirt and the matching blue with each other... it's love and loyalty right there, isn't it?

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Mhee is my hero on every level. I love him so much. He brings out everyone else's bravery as well by being the one to talk about this openly and always being the one to stand up even when the others sit down and listen instead. He is the best boy in all the land and he deserves so many awards.

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It's the blinding light of love, y'all!

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The autistic diagnosis process in a nutshell.

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I love this autistic boy on every level. He's special to me. Look at him! He's doing his best and he's trying so hard and he's just so tiny and he knows he doesn't belong because every group he tries to join rejects him.

This poor boy. But also like... only one person can win no matter what. Even if it's not Mawin only one of you can win, damnit. This poor boy. He did nothing wrong but be good at math and awkward socially and that's enough to make so many people hate him and isn't that just real and painful?

But he has Err, even if he doesn't fully know it yet. But he will. He'll know he is not alone and that people care about him.

And there are more and more people who are finding themselves caring. Because Mawin matters. He matters to a lot of people and he can learn to understand that even if it takes time and effort from everyone around him to show him that.

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He's not even subtle about it. I mean, come on, do you remember the problem that's making everyone else laugh but was written just for you? Oh, Err. Your insecurities run so deep you don't even realize you're swimming.

Seriously, least subtle boy ever. Love him.

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I am clawing my eyes out WIN THAT BOY IS DYING AND YOU KNOW IT please save him because it's the only way to save yourself and to save everyone else. You love them all so much. Please. Please. You've mourned for 27 years trapped in this exact past and you need to do more to save Nut because if you don't save him then there's no part of yourself left to save and you know it. You can push him towards Lin all you want but if he dies you know your future doesn't change because you cannot move past that moment. Do more! Do better! You have to try.

It's even harder because Nut is so obviously doing these little flirty bits with him and Lin is flirting with Biu and everyone is hurting and Win is drowning in so many years of guilt and loss and loneliness and how he failed everyone and he's trapped in so many ways and Win just destroys me, okay?

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Shut up they're so cute. Look at them in their fancy little outfits and sharing food and so, so sweet and growing closer. I love them so much.

And he's going to count geese for him. GEESE! I cannot explain how adorable it is for them to agree to count geese in order to sleep. I love them. Your honor, I need them to kiss. Preferably with Ek on his tiptoes.

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Look at this man and that 27 year crush he's been carrying and unable to let go and getting called cute by him absolutely destroys him knowing that he's giving him up to Lin because that's what he truly believes he wants and the thing Win wants the most in the world is for Nut to be happy. And to live. Definitely to live. To be happy and to live. 27 years of love in a 17 year old body.

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I love them so much. And Ek changing into fancy clothing just because Chai came dressed to the nines? I love them even more. Please let them be boyfriends and happy forever.

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He just makes me so sad. Win and his 27 years of guilt and pain and loneliness choosing to make Nut's life better instead of his own because of that diary entry he read after his death that never left his soul no matter how long he lived.

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Y'all, they're so special to me. Chai is struggling but he cares so much despite the issues he's had and he cares about Ek

He's just a genuinely good kid who got swept up in the wrong group and now he's learning and getting better.

It's a good thing he found a new dream and his dream is a nerdy young man who needs him to be better so he can hang out with him.

Just look at them! I love them so much. Teeny tiny good news right before all their hearts get broken.

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I love Nut telling her about the future. Not the details she wants to know because he wants to change that and doesn't feel right revealing secrets but the parts that everyone wants to know.

Gotta talk about Thailand's soft power. Because it's true and it's wonderful and a gift.

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It's how Win is in a 17 year old body but has 27 years of trauma and can't tell anyone because he time traveled back to his teenage self and carries with him so much pain and so much loss and he has to find a way to change what he can and decide what that means for him. (But he also lives with loneliness and pain and the overwhelming knowledge of everything that was lost the first time around and how easily he could lose it all again and how much it broke him the first time around and what it could do to him to lose it all again despite his best efforts.) ((But even more he is making a choice between taking a chance on a future with Nut or giving Nut the future he thinks Nut wants instead and both choices come with risks and pain and Win carries all of that deep down inside him.))