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This manga sure was something
#can you just die my darling#konya wa tsuki ga kirei desu ga toriaezu shine#the amount of tw and cw is quite huge but i had a fun time#also its a meme#i now the gay feelings are unrequited .. but at least theyre canonically gay feelings!#also Neibu loves everyone so he DID love Ka— *ending my dream before it gets too massive*#this manga had so many women wrongs. what a W#im quite surprised by the fact it doesnt seem more popular#theres nothing in the tumblr tags#they love someone so much they want them dead. thats. basically the storyline (but with twists! and also they dont rlly want to kill them#but they really do etc etc)(some are really down to kill their beloved. others are less)#uhh.. manga in which yandere is true to its name and is actually a disease/virus you can catch
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behold, part of reubens team !
both kind of a diva in their own way, to balance out reub’s normalness
#feel free to ask questions bc i have nothing built up in my head rn 😁#vanya was supposed to be pale blond tbh#maybe he dyes his hair occasionally so dont get used to this#someone in the team once brought their kid and the kid kept calling him annie#so theres that too#annie can just be a large ass bald dude sometimes and thats ok#cerberulix art tag#digital art#art#artists on tumblr#f1 art#f1 oc#reuben engel#;sal#;vanya#<-the tags unless i come up w some last names#original character#oc
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nina!!!!!! :3
wanted to do a more cartoony kind of style than usual hehe
aaaaaaaaand a transparent version as well 😈😈😈
i love her!! also my recent posts have gotten so much love thank you guys so much for that holy shit :,o really ups my motivation with starting to post again i appreciate it a bunch :D
#art#digital art#small artist#artists on tumblr#fanart#my artwork#creepypasta#creepypasta fanart#creepypasta fandom#nina the killer#nina the killer fanart#i love her#crp fandom#crp fanart#crp save me from everything thats going on irl#slender take me into ur mansion already plz#do u guys actually read the tags??#hiiiiii!! :3#might draw more later today who knows#im sick rn so#nothing crazy just a cold#i use the tags to yap about shit ppl dont care abt LMAO#i have a new idea for my sona……#might doodle some of that…………#ok im done sorry LOL#OMG NO IM NOT I JUST REALIZED THERES A WEIRD LINE ON HER FACE I FORGOT TO ERASE FUCK#TOO LATE NOW LOL
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Im not THAT obsessed with Coalecr-
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#i have tagged posts that have nothing to do with the ship with the ship tag#just without thinking#i wrote a SONG for them (still a w.i.p.)#i have screenrecords of ouaw bits and 80% of them is just any hint at those two bastards#i am so not normal about them#still dreaming i could be THE Coalecroux tumblr blog#but i havent even drawn them kissing lmaooooo#not that thats what defines a relationship yknow#i literally started listening to ouaw bc in one of the shorts i heard theres a cannon gay marriage so i went straight (ba dum tss) to it#they are the start of all of this#and they will be the end#what am i even saying#anyway#coalecroux ramblings#i blame coalecroux for this#kremy lecroux#gideon coal#coalecroux#ouaw#once upon a witchlight#legends of avantris#jat rambles#gideon x kremy#kremy x gideon#jatmin speaks
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Someone PLEASE post the full video that Francis made on Twitter I am so unwell I need it on my blog right NOW
ImGOING TO DIE
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Link:
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#ultrakill#Gabriel ultrakill#gabv1el#I am. going to die.#I am suffering from every disease known to humanity#Francis PLEASE#IM CHEWING DRYWALL IMEATING GLASS#IM GONNA DISINTEGRATE#SOMEONE PLEASE POST THIS OJ TUMBLR IM BEGGINE RN IM ON MY KNEES#really did this on the same day that the official art got released#I am. barely holding it together.#I’m goiNG THROGUHT THE TUMBLR TAGS THERES NOTHING HERE YET
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A little costume with eyebrow whiskers again.. making their return lol..
#fantasy costume#fantasy fashion#fantasy aesthetic#No idea what to tag this generally or which tags are even used on tumblr lol... I think thats the thing I'm worst at with social media#is just knowing how to understand and use tags. I think I take them too literally or something or have trouble categorizing#Since I go to the tag and check it and it's too scattered of a group of things then I'm not sure whether something fits there#or not since it's like 'eh.. well.. there are also a lot of things in there that ARENt like what i'm posting''#I have like the opposite problem of those spam blogs that will tag their posts with 800 barely related things. like a picture of a random#girl in a dress and it's tagged 'the simpsons. macklemore. downton abbey. fortnite. girly things. gothic horror. vibes. brad pitt. golf.''#or whatever lol.. where I will feel like if less than 85% of the tag is exactly completely related to what im posting then its like 'eh...#maybe I shouldnt post there...who knows what its even for.. . what if theres some tv show named 'fantasy costume' which im unaware of#and people will assume i'm mocking the show' or some weird thing like that. Anyway lol#Another one I almost didn't post since I've just hated all my costumes recently.. I'm not sure why.. maybe my camera is getting old??#Because they look fine in person - it's more specifically that I dont like the PICTURES of them for the past 2-3 yrs or so. like i know#it's not my facial features it's more like... the lighting or something?? I just always feel so much like it looks nothing like how it#did in the mirror in real life. Like the colors will be off or it will be too bright or weirdly shadowed or something. maybe one day I#accidentally changed a setting on my camera and never changed it back. But it used to be a lot easier to find images I was okay with. -_-#I did just really want to do the eyebrow whiskers again though since I've always found them fun. And also to use the star things as part of#mouth jewelry. They're actually just star shaped paperclips that I kind of bent to be larger. Then the green shawl thing is a pillowcase#Looking back on it I would've liked to do horns or something since the top of the head is a bit bare lol#self
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mini-zine about online friends, and not giving up.
#vapour.png#zine#mini zine#online friends#me when i dont know how to tag this. does this count as traditional...? i drew it digitally...#artists on tumblr#<- OL RELIABLE!!!!#this zine is about a handful of things i think. more than just the 2 i listed up there. i mean its still very much about those ones! i mean#i made it while thinking about a certain friend in my life. same one that inspired the 'im so happy that i met you!' drawing from last year#but theres other things it can be about too! i hope it can mean something to you :+) even if it's nothing. that's somethin!
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dungeons and daddies s1 was, supposedly, about the funnies and it turned out to be about the horrors (and old man yaoi). we now need to make dungeons and daddies s3, which is supposedly about the horrors, into the funnies (and also old woman yuri)
#dndads#dungeons and daddies#we have the opportunity to make the funniest thing ever here guys cmon#imagine if you will when the horrors begin fr fr in s3 you go to tumblr after listening to a fuckin scary ass episode#and the tag is just FULL of fluff and jokes as if nothing is happening in-canon#like in s1 we had the tag be all about the horriffic mistakes parents can do to their kids bcs of trauma they got from their own parents#mw the actual s1 is like Farts Farts Penis Also! for the majority HDBFBSNDN#and also theres gay men . theres gay old men#(i dont want anyone to misunderstand i think its obvious if u go to my page dndads is my absolute favourite thing on planet earth)#(just throwing it out there i fucking love farts farts the cyclical nature of parental abuse farts penis farts)#the peachyville horror#dndads s3#dndads s2
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i dont know what the plan is now, i have never had a plan for anything, but i dont want to delete the previous posts bc it feels like im trying to sweep things under the rug or act like they didnt happen
#ganondoodles talks#personal#i wish it was easier to know when to stand my ground and when to see i am wrong or when to ignore things#i am a chronical self doubter so even for the most obvious things when someone talks against me theres a moment i am hit with doubt#someone could tell me 'ganondorf is actually a perfectly true representation of all arabic people at once (somehow)'-#and i will go 'wait is he??' no hes not you idiot you know it isnt you spend alot of time learning about it the fuck#if it werent for those horrible scary (rare-not online) meltdowns i think how easily i am to doubt myself and be influenced by others is-#-what makes me feel the most childish#idk if thats an autism thing or just a me thing#even when theres a belief or opinion that is cemented into my brain unchangibly i still doubt if its right or if i am allowed it somehow#its such a contradictory thing again. easily influenced and made to doubt myself but also immovable .. even on dumb things#like theres nothing that can change how i feel about totk but i still doubt it anyway#what if i am wrong and an idiot and everyone saying the opposite of me is actually more right?? (still doesnt change opinion but doubt tm)#also can tumblr plese stop recommending me suicidal tags when i type 'what if' in here???????????????#i am trying to get OUT and AWAY from that as far as possible i dont find it funney hehe#(and i dont think i typed any of those phrases before)
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Late to the game as I’ve kinda been kinda non-here for a minute but I scrolled through the Dot and Bubble tag, and thought I wanted to write this post into existence.
There's this part in Doctor Who Unleashed where RTD says this:
“What we can’t tell is how many people will have worked that out before the ending. Because they’ve seen white person after white person after white person, and television these days is very diverse. I wonder, will you be ten minutes into it, will you be fifteen, will you be twenty, before you start to think, everyone in this community is white. And if you don’t think that — why didn’t you? So, that’s gonna be interesting. I hope it’s one of those pieces of television you see, and always remember.”
And I'm like. Yeah. But the reason this works even as well as it does is largely thanks to the work of the previous showrunner with the previous creative team, which was notably the first era to have any writers of color (amongst other firsts in terms of inclusivity in directors, composer, actors). While Chibnall fumbled whenever he tried to write about race himself, he did have the self-awareness to have Black and South Asian writers writing the episodes where race is the focus (and a female writer for the episode where sexism is a focus; my point is, he seemed to know his shortcomings).
I wonder what the current creative team looks like? (not really, but I wasn't 100% sure for all of them)
To quote RTD:
“...before you start to think, everyone in this community is white.”
This is pretty non-self-aware, right? It's pretty “It is said, and I understand this, there was a history of racism with the original Toymaker, the Celestial Toymaker, who had ‘celestial,’ and I did not know this, but ‘celestial’ can mean of Chinese origin, but in a derogatory way,” right? (from The Giggle Unleashed) It's pretty “and I had problems with that, and a lot of us on the production team had problems with that: associating disability with evil,” right? (from Destination Skaro Unleashed)
—none of which are issues that should be overlooked, but think how much exponentially better they might’ve been addressed if he’d consulted with Chinese writers and wheelchair-using writers before going straight to giving the Toymaker weird fake accents and making Davros walk?
How many Black or non-white people do we think saw the Dot and Bubble script before it landed in Ncuti’s hands?
And this just keeps happening.
And like, from some of the shocked responses I've seen from white viewers to the ending of Dot and Bubble, maybe the episode's unsubtlety was needed? From the way RTD talks about it in Unleashed, the episode was written with a white audience in mind, Baby's First Microaggressions (where of course the microaggressions come from people who are pretty self-admittedly white supremacists). Ricky September, a more seemingly normal depiction of someone in the racist bubble of Finetime, seemed like an interesting element, up until the way he died.
The ending worked for me, because I do think the Doctor's reaction is true to how the Doctor would react. I just keep thinking of how much better the core themes could've been handled by someone with actual lived experience on the subject matter.
#dot and bubble#fifteenth doctor#rtd critical#anti rtd#ricky september#lindy pepper bean#dw negativity#racism#antiblackness#words by seaweed#not to be anti rtd. im just very critical. Anti RTD is just a tag which people use or block#every showrunner has their flaws but RTD is the only one self-righteously virtu signling over NOTHING. which is why im more critical.#plus the on-set sxual hrassment and what happened with Chris Eccleston etc. it vindicates me. idk. not tryna be a hater#ALSO dot and bubble is leaps and bounds better than any racism commentary I expected from Russell T Davies. so theres that.#can you tell I'm shy abt making long posts that someone is likely gonna be not happy about-#I usually search tumblr for posts to rb and talk in tags. but I couldnt find any posts about this this morning! tho I think ppl have since#etc its fine to critically appreciate imperfect media etc I do it all the time (as a Black fan) (who also thinks Rosa has Flaws) etc#I did see someone on twitter pointing out the hypocrisy of all white writers but twitter does not have space to talk about things#also love that The Church on Ruby Road has Mark Tonderai who became the first black director w The Ghost Monument. I love his directing#but that's the Christmas special. it is not part of this season. and honestly fr it's not close to enough#love the inclusivity in front of the camera. lets get some of that in the writing team NOW. it's hurting for it.#bring back Charlene James. can you hear me? was the best episode of Season 12.#the ep felt like a commentary on the “RIP Doctor Who” ppl under every official Doctor Who post? hence social media?#it does work best that way!! it just felt a little off of that way in rtd talking#idk im rambling. I did enjoy it tho. I just wish. but well.
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Final Fifteen opinion almost a year after the release of season 2 YAYYYYYYY
Thing is I personally never interpretated aziraphale's "you're the bad guys" as something that meant "you crowley are also a bad guy because you're a demon from hell". I always saw that "you" as a reference to hell. I mean crowley constantly says "your lot" even in s2 to aziraphale when he refers to heaven so i never saw the difference between what crowley does to what aziraphale did in that moment, they were talking about hell and heaven anyway. Also aziraphale and does not believe crowley is a proper bad guy, he believes he is nice. (and why would he take someone he thought was bad to the """good""" place anyway?)
And that also never made the scene less heartbreaking from crowley's POV in my opinion. A conclusion that we come at by the end of season 1 is that both heaven and hell are bad in one way or another with both aziraphale and crowley completely accepting that and that's also one of the reasons they now are on their side. So if aziraphale thinks hell is bad and heaven is good it seems like he's taken a step backwards and somewhat rejects (?) "their" side. So if that made sense i don't think this pov made the words hurt less for crowley or something?
Now whether aziraphale actually means it/rejects their side or not a different discussion 😭
#personally i think he saw an opportunity for him and crowley to be safe and took it#or thats a very simplified version of what i believe#i could write an essay on what i think went on aziraphales head during the final fifteen#BUT THAT WAS NOT THE POINT OF MY POST KSHWWKJ#aziraphale haters dni thats for sure tho 🤨#i kinda hate making posts like these#but im curious to see what others also have to say like is there anyone that shares the same view or what are the different ones#WHAT WAS AZIRAPHALE'S YOU ABT THE QUESTION OF THE CENTURY ‼#we have a couple of years till gomens 3 comes out lets analyse everything we have nothing better to do#good omens#final fifteen#aziraphale#crowley#theres a chance none of what ive written makes sense#but im very bored and what a better thing to do than talk abt good omens on tumblr#i feel like ive talked too much on tags#i think ive said this on twt as well but tumblr feels so much better to write long posts
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it is called kenny and the gluttonous beast.
In this painting, kenny is sad because cartman got to the kfc first
#south park#drawing#kenny mccormick#kenny#cartman#eric cartman#painting#kenny and the gluttonous beast#artists on tumblr#traditional art#watercolor#do not tag as ship#kenny hates cartman in this moment#theres nothing romantic or platonic about it as it is a secret third thing
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need 2 find myself again in 2025 . tbhwu
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#depression has hollowed me out in2 a shell of my former self#and i thmk i need 2 grit my teeth and just get over It whatever It is#recognizing its no easy task but also knowing i cant keep on like this#and allowing myself to spiral into misery thereby preventing any possible change or growth#sigh …. sogh .. i want 2 be a person again . picture friends circa 2008 outlining me in chalk. i want 2 know theres something there#how u ask (me asking myself)#idk but one way or anotjer . and not in that new yrs resolution fallacy way#anyways . anyways z . crazy how a week off from work will leave u feeling real again#i gotta get out of there . step 1😭🙏🙏#its especially hard when everyone arnd you is objectively doing better. partners finances purpose . >staring in2 the camera 1000 yd stare#u get thru the beast of being a teenager like thank god thats over and then b4 you even catch ur breath#your mid 20s are casting a shadow over u like some menacing thing and u have to gulp and say hes right behind me isnt he#i think people often like to give the advice that youll figure it out but it leaves me feeling so disquieted#bc its like sure im sure i will ive made it this far i can do what i need to get by when the moment matters#but it does nothing to assauge the immediate anxiety and feelings of worthlessness and lack of direction yk#goddmanit assuage i spelled it wrong everyone point and laugh#bc its like what if i dont and i mean that in a very like . existential & not material way . idk what im saying but i think thats the advice#i hate most . not sure if u have felt or do feel the same . -__- like yes oersonal experience sure whatever happens will happen and you will#simply adjust but will i ever feel like its something i want to experience/endure .#whatever anyways x2. im journalling i think that helps me the best rn . and its the one thing thats allowed me hope and i think#having that time to examine and mull over and deconstruct is rly helpful tbh. and i would like to think#over the long term i can repair my creativity and cultivate a new outlet that doesnt leave me feeling empty if i cant draw as i used to#yaar#i feel like i dont write for very long tho thats the one thing that kinda blows#two pages maybe and ive only addressed two maybe three points if im being generous lol i get so bored with the actual motion#when my mind moves 10x as fast . and idc for audio logs either ykwim.#ohh tumblr how i love u . tag system like no other
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irl friend asked me what was a ship i would want to see happen even if only for funny points, so i present to you: the many hilarious possibilities of joker rarepairs
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joker x hayami: never have i ever seen "finally a WORTHY OPPONENT" rival energy stronger than whatever the fuck these two have okay. im absolutely fucking distraught that hayami shows up for only one episode in the anime. they both get outsmarted by the other and its the sexiest thing in their lives. they probably spend 2 hours going back and forth with absolutely incomprehensible banter that requires 5 phds worth of context to barely grasp and then they turn away while internally thinking "i NEED this man carnally". they would play 4d chess with their relationship. they are everything.
joker x hyakkimaru: as my friend puts it, "hyakkimaru gets hachi on the weekends," which made me laugh so hard i almost spilled my chemistry practical. on one hand, imagine a dangerous outsider whisks away the little kid youve been protecting all your childhood and finding out he's now happier and braver than you ever saw him your whole life. i would start crying there and then not gonna lie. but on the other hand, imagine being hachi and the two people you look up to the most in your life are being So Fucking Weird about each other. the comedy potential. they met in literally only two occasions in the anime and act like divorced parents. sometimes family can be you, your actual parents and 9 siblings, and your two other older brother figures who are very not-so-subtly fighting over you but also in the weirdest most divorced way possible.
joker x haruka: okay i could go on with haha cop and criminal dynamics but thats not my goal. please. please please please. just imagine oniyama's face if this happened. i rest my case.
#i dont actually have any idea on how to tag this#kaitou joker#i dont even know their full names bruh#hayami kyotaro#hyakkimaru koga#haruka oniyama#who wants to bet none of them have a tumblr tag yet#whoop#my art#about a year ago i saw a post saying joker hyakkimaru and hachis relationship is kinda analogous to marriage#and its so fucking funny cause i know exactly what theyre talking about#like. village girl gets wed off to some far off land to some mysterious guy and theres nothing her family can do about it etc etc#no im not a johachi shipper but the analogy is there okay you get what i mean
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Adolphe sketcherssss
#nothing better than a cup of art#except.... maybe ellenolphe#yep#im hysterical#this is heavily based on the film from 2002.#theres illustrations of adolphe with short hair but like i like him with longer hair because hes my little girlboy thingy i like and love#adolphe#benjamin constant#spreading propaganda and agenda for people to read adolphe by benjamin constant#artists on tumblr#my art#digital art#artwork#art#digital illustration#digital drawing#digital painting#sketch#sketches#my skecth#hes so babygirl........ my little girlboy#the fucking french loverboygirl#of all time#ellenolphe tag#benjamin constant adolphe#adolphe benjamin constant#adolphetag#ellenoretag#yeah yeah ik its just her leg or whatever but even her leg is very important to me
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idkkkkkkk sometimes i feel like the me that exists in happy communities like discord servers and flight rising and lives in my it/its and my byte/bit and my ^w^s and my astro boy posting and the me that goes to work and lies on my bed rotting and wants to go back on the stage so badly but cant because of covid and gets called by my given name and wears a posh coat and skirt are different people who are at war with each other.
#i KNOWWWWW i know this is like spiraling or moral ocd or whatever the fuck but i really do feel like a faker in every aspect of my life#even in private i am lying to myself and/or my true self feels like a lie#im playing up my autism im playing up my executive issues im playing up my arospec and my genderqueer and my kindness and my wisdom and hop#or else im toning them down#i could shapeshift and no form would be my true one there wouldnt be any unmasking id feel like a fraud in every skin#vent#it feels like everything i do i choose to do on purpose#i decide on purpose how serious/silly i am how autistic/allistic i am how emotional/numb i am how kind/mean i am how struggling/lazy i am#how talented or smart or sympathetic or oblivious or hardworking or anarchist or spiritual i am i decide those in the moment to my benefit#i seamlessly move from one emotional state to a total other im a manipulator i choose not to put effort into the lives of others#or!!!! or thats NOT true and its NOT on purpose!!!!#and i CANT TELL!!!!!!!!!!#I CANT TELL WHICH#I FEEL LIKE I SHOULD BE ABLE TO TELL WHETHER IM DOING SOMETHING ON PURPOSE OR NOT#can i admit something im scared to here#like 2 months ago or smth i had a voice in my head. for the first time i experienced a real like 'wait thats not me' second person in there#skipping a lot of details but i talked abt it in a space w a lot of plural friends and the conclusion was that i may be plural#but the other voice keeps coming and going#and since that first time it has felt more and more like im just faking. just deliberately imagining a second person in my head#to feel better. which like theres nothing wrong with that imo but its DIFFERENT from being plural#and i dont know. but ive already given them a pk proxy and a tumblr tag (thats what my 🪛 tag is)#and when they do come back i just feel like im deliberately pretending to be a different person. just putting on yet another mask#and having yet more dialects in my head like always#but couching them in plural terms without actually having plural experiences or issues#just. choosing to project who i always have been through an imaginary acting role this time. for fun
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