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ganondoodle · 2 months ago

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i dont know what the plan is now, i have never had a plan for anything, but i dont want to delete the previous posts bc it feels like im trying to sweep things under the rug or act like they didnt happen

#ganondoodles talks #personal #i wish it was easier to know when to stand my ground and when to see i am wrong or when to ignore things #i am a chronical self doubter so even for the most obvious things when someone talks against me theres a moment i am hit with doubt #someone could tell me 'ganondorf is actually a perfectly true representation of all arabic people at once (somehow)'-#and i will go 'wait is he??' no hes not you idiot you know it isnt you spend alot of time learning about it the fuck #if it werent for those horrible scary (rare-not online) meltdowns i think how easily i am to doubt myself and be influenced by others is-#-what makes me feel the most childish #idk if thats an autism thing or just a me thing #even when theres a belief or opinion that is cemented into my brain unchangibly i still doubt if its right or if i am allowed it somehow #its such a contradictory thing again. easily influenced and made to doubt myself but also immovable .. even on dumb things #like theres nothing that can change how i feel about totk but i still doubt it anyway #what if i am wrong and an idiot and everyone saying the opposite of me is actually more right?? (still doesnt change opinion but doubt tm)#also can tumblr plese stop recommending me suicidal tags when i type 'what if' in here???????????????#i am trying to get OUT and AWAY from that as far as possible i dont find it funney hehe #(and i dont think i typed any of those phrases before)

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