#i dont even know their full names bruh

[loud-whistling-yes]

irl friend asked me what was a ship i would want to see happen even if only for funny points, so i present to you: the many hilarious possibilities of joker rarepairs

yes, i am gonna defend myself under the cut

joker x hayami: never have i ever seen "finally a WORTHY OPPONENT" rival energy stronger than whatever the fuck these two have okay. im absolutely fucking distraught that hayami shows up for only one episode in the anime. they both get outsmarted by the other and its the sexiest thing in their lives. they probably spend 2 hours going back and forth with absolutely incomprehensible banter that requires 5 phds worth of context to barely grasp and then they turn away while internally thinking "i NEED this man carnally". they would play 4d chess with their relationship. they are everything.

joker x hyakkimaru: as my friend puts it, "hyakkimaru gets hachi on the weekends," which made me laugh so hard i almost spilled my chemistry practical. on one hand, imagine a dangerous outsider whisks away the little kid youve been protecting all your childhood and finding out he's now happier and braver than you ever saw him your whole life. i would start crying there and then not gonna lie. but on the other hand, imagine being hachi and the two people you look up to the most in your life are being So Fucking Weird about each other. the comedy potential. they met in literally only two occasions in the anime and act like divorced parents. sometimes family can be you, your actual parents and 9 siblings, and your two other older brother figures who are very not-so-subtly fighting over you but also in the weirdest most divorced way possible.

joker x haruka: okay i could go on with haha cop and criminal dynamics but thats not my goal. please. please please please. just imagine oniyama's face if this happened. i rest my case.

[cosmosluckycharms]

Bug like angel

Feeling Good today

technically just filler and for fun tbh

chatfic i know people hate them but i needed more spiderkids crumbs

idk if people wanted to be tagged in this since technically there wasnt a plot so no tags for rn ig

this was okay idk i hate it

lots of stupid brainrot prolly unfunny but i had fun with this

also pavitr and reader can break the 4th wall dont think too hard abt it

Y/N L/N Made a group chat

Y/N L/N Added Hobart Brown

Y/N L/N Added Pavitr Prabhakar

Y/N L/N Added Miles Morales

Y/N L/N Added Gwen Stacy

Y/N L/N Added Peni Parker

Y/N L/N added Margo Kess

Y/N L/N Changed their name to y/n

y/n: hey guys

Pavitr changed their name to Pav

Gwen Stacy changed their name to Gwen

Miles Morales changed their name to Miles

Hobart Brown changed their name to Hobie

Margo Kess changed their name to Margo

Peni Parker changed their name to Peni

y/n changed Peni's name to Penjamin

Penjamin: what (　｀□´)

Peni Parker changed their name to Peni

y/n changed Peni's name to Penjamin Penjamin: BR9

BRO*

Penjamin changed their name to peni

y/n changed peni's name to penjamin

penjamin changed their name to peni

y/n changed peni's name to penjamin

penjamin changed their name to peni

y/n changed peni's name to penjamin

penjamin changed their name to peni

y/n changed peni's name to penis

penis: ill stick to penjamin ig (｡-｀へ´-｡)

y/n: LMFAOOOOOO

y/n changed penis's name to peni

peni: YAY

y/n: peni doesnt look like a real word anymore

miles: why r u guys awake its like 2 am

y/n: dont worry about it

gwen: no but like actually

why r u awake

ur a sleepy person

y/n: dude its cause like

my family is so fuckinf loud it actually pisses me off

like idgaf what yall do stop screaming

stop cryin and start grinding

miles: LMFAOO

what r they even doing

y/n: damian and jason r fighting like full on fist fighting

tim is yelling over not being able to do his work

dick is tryna defuse the situation

bruce is brooding also tryna calm everything down

and alfred js pmo

gwen: not the alfred stray

miles: guys

wanna sneak out

we should all like

go to see a movie

y/n: omg ur so right

guys

@.everyone

qho can comw

miles: who* can*

y/n: KILL YOURSELF

miles: WOWWWW OKAY DIE I GUESS

anyway

@.everyone

peni: i can! (*･ω･*)

gwen: same

margo: me too

y/n: RARE MARGO APPEARANCE!!!!!!

margo: rare margo appearance!

pav: i can also come! can we sneak snacks in?

y/n: HI PAVIIII and yessss

hobie: lets sneak in

margo: no lets use y/ns dads credit card

we hate that guy

gwen: wait we should

@.y/n

y/n: what

oh

OH

HELL YEAH i love spending his money

hes too rich

miles: throwback to back when we all used his money to get us tickets to concerts lmfao

pav: #ihatebrucewayne

y/n: LMFAOOO ty twin ily

ur so funny pavi please dont get run over by a horse carriage

pav: ???

hobie: what movie

y/n: idk lets freeball it

miles: meet me in my universe

pav: Y/N WHAT DO YOU MEAN DONT GET RUN OVERARE YOU PLOTTING SOMETHING

y/n: dont worry about it

y/n: hi guys

guys i just made a rly good tamale

miles:tyler the creator reference

y/n: I LOVE THAT SONG

throwback to when pavi literally almost burnt my kitchen down

pav: THAT WAS ONE TIME

y/n: DUDE ISTG UR LUCKY MY FAMILY WASNT HOME AND I DISABLED THE CAMERAS

they prolly wouldve grounded me

miles: i wish they grounded youWOAAAHHH WHO SAID THAT

y/n: miles remember who got you and gwen to datedont play with me rn

miles: i stand by what i said

gwen: miles stop teasing y/n

miles: id like to apologize.

margo: LMFAOOOOOO

peni: NOT THE SWITCH UPP

y/n: i DONT forgive you

miles: aight lets fight

y/n: OH BRIELLA WAITI NEED THAT!

miles: oh dear

margo: you guys are so brainrotted i fear

hobie: right

y/n: hobie where have you beenyou ahvent been in this chat lately

hobie: dont worry about it

Miles: my dad js bought me a bunch of markers

Y/N: whats that

whats a 𝓯𝓪𝓽𝓱𝓮𝓻

gwen: STOPP

margo: i can feel the pain in her dih🥀

y/n: nah 🥀 she 🥀 got 🥀you 🥀 blushin 🥀 twin 🥀 aw 🥀hell 🥀naw 🥀twin 🥀 you 🥀gotta 🥀 lock up 🥀 twin 🥀bruh🥀 this 🥀ain’t 🥀 even 🥀you 🥀twin 🥀on 🥀fomeon🥀grave 🥀bruh 🥀euuahhhh

peni: GOODBYE

y/n: dude i got into an argument with my school councler like a year ago cause i said my family was pissing me off and neglecting melike js cause my fathers the richest man ever does NOT make me like him

"hes family" he can smd

margo: your whole family pisses me off

y/n: i hate them all

one time damian dropped a vase and blamed it on tim who blamed it on me

and THEN when i argued and proved myself right i still got in trouble.

miles: im on thar good koosh and alekhauwl

y/n: die

peni: have you guys seen my remote

for my tv

gwen: peni your technology is like a million years away from ours

why would we have it

miles: didnt you leave it inside your jewlery box

margo: my jewl

peni: YOU WERE RIGHT THANK YOU MILES (/--)/

miles: yw (^.^)

hobie: i just blew up a car

gwen: can i have it

hobie: no its mine

gwen: sigh

hey y/n

youve been quiet for a while

r u ok

miles: yeah lowk im worried

margo: y/n r u dead

peni: she probably is

y/n is typing...

hobie: oh boy here we go

y/n: guys i am hiding in a vent in my closet rn damian chased me cause i called him an asshole and he has a katana help

gwen: oh my god??? are you??? okay???

y/n: help yes i am okay i just panicked and ran into a wall my nose bleeding help

pav: im omw

y/n: I JUST SLIPPED ON MY NOSW BLEED BLOOD LKFAOOOOO

miles: bro 😭

y/n: guys im okay now damian called me pathetic and walked away mopping the blood rn

margo: how are you always hurting yourself

y/n: parker luck

y/n: guys pavi literally cursed me

pav: ?

y/n: im a really good cook as you guys know

and a really good baker cause yk all neglected reader stories make the reader a baker for some reason

gwen: ???what

pav: YOU CAN BREAK THE 4RTH WALL TOO?? I THOUGHT ONLY I COULD DO THAT

y/n: YESSSSS I THOUGHT I WAS GOINF INSANE

we got twin telepathy fr

pav: real

y/n: anyways

pav cursed me now i js almost burnt down the kitchen

its a good thing miguels on speed dial i almost burnt down the manor with me in it

pav: I DID NOT CURSE YOU

y/n: YOU DIDYOU RUINED MY KITCHEN

pav: I DID NOT GWEN SEND HER AWAY TO JAIL AND HAVE HER IMPRISONED 😡😡😡😡

gwen: WHY ME

y/n: you and margo r the only responsible ones here

miles: im responsible!

y/n: me when i lie

miles: die

i hope you uhhhhh get chased again by damian again

y/n: you guys dont know true fear until your youngest sibling chases you with a long knife

y/n: miles i have a bone to pick with you

miles: its not even 1 pm yet what did i do

y/n: YOU STOLE THE COOKIES I BAKED FOR UR PARENTS HO

miles: ya and id do it again

y/n: you pmo me off

miles: fuck u

(image.jpeg)

y/n: STOP NO DELETE THAT

gwen: AW WAIT THATS CUTE

margo: cutie

peni: the image wont load for me what is it

pav: ITS Y/N SLEEPING ON MIGUELS SHOULDERS

peni: OHHHHHH

y/n: i see how it is

(image.jpeg)

miles: WHERED YOU GET THAT FROM

peni: my phone is tweaking what is it

gwen: MILES UR SO CUTE

pav: its a pic of miles asleep at his dads desk 😭

miles: Y/N WHEN DID U TAKE THAT

y/n: dont worry about it

peni: im cryinf this is so silly

y/n: penjamin you are NOT safe

(image.jpeg)

peni: MY PHONE IS TWEAKING is it the pic of me on noirs back

pav: yes

peni: i knew it isighwait NOOOO NOT PENJAMIN

y/n: peni penjamin we r so back

hobie: girl scout cookies

margo: preach

y/n: never heard anything truer

gwen: i believe in you

pav: proud of you

peni: can i have one

miles: girl cookie scout

pav: do you all notice you all have a spider parent besides me and margo and hobie

gwen: huh

pav: miles has peter b, gwen you have jess, y/n has miguel, and peni is greedy and has 2 which are noir and ham

margo: damn share with the class peni

peni: those are MY DADS (＾ω＾)

y/n: miguel is saved as 'spider-dad' on my phone

hes actually my emergency contact

miles: im peter b's emergency contact that man is always up to something

gwen: jess is like my 2nd emergency contact

margo: whats the order

gwen: miles (♡) jess and my dad in that order

y/n: wowwww so not me

gwen: girl you are the emergency

y/n: die ho die

y/n: miles

miles

miles

miless

miles: what

y/n: whats ur mom making tonight

miles: yeah im doing great thanks for asking

y/n: shut up and tell me

miles: lemme check

arroz con gandules

y/n: im coming over

miles: no youre not

y/n: yeah i am

miles: i hate you

y/n: lyt

im so happy your mom cooks i love puerto ricans

miles: die

the chatfic no one asked for and no one needed

also prolly highkey ooc cause its a crackchatfic and im half asleep

guys im actually working on the next chapter i swear

no taglist cause i dont think anyone wanted this

[bytemee]

OPERA HOUSE 2 (continued) — yu jimin.

♫ playing… opera house by cigarettes after sex

synopsis. you moved to seoul for school, with barely enough money to cover your rent, a language you were still learning clumsy and slow, and your little sister back home constantly asking you to look out for her favorite idols, as if they’d just show up next to you at a crosswalk.

you weren’t here to chase anything. not fame, not love, not even a dream, really but just something to make it through.

but she found you anyway, and in her mind, without meaning to, she started building something quiet and vast just for you — like an opera house tucked deep in a place no one else could reach, a place no one else would ever know how to find, and she still doesn’t understand why or how or what it was supposed to mean, only that she was meant to love you, and even now, even after everything, she still does.

pairing. idol!karina x collegestudent!fem!reader

genre. romance, slow burn, angst / hurt-comfort, emotional drama.

disclaimer(s). unresolved trauma, ANGST bruh, fluffy too heh, kissing, L translated korean (not a lot dont fear), lot of timeskips, karina wants that cookie so bad dude...and let me know if there's more!

final part guys sorry for the three split 💔

word count. 8.3k

main masterlist. part one. part two.

you start seeing her name in your notifications a little more often, even more often than before, if that was possible. and as the weeks passed, it became normal, somehow. like you were meant to be right here, side by side, making her laugh through the phone, whispering jokes to her under the sheets.

so much so that it feels weird not seeing her number pop up.

a photo of her lunch captioned: "bet u eat like a child"

a voice memo where she tries to sing a song she got stuck in her head and then begins giggling halfwaythrough because she thinks it's embarrassing.

a random fact:

did you know that sea turtles have no teeth?

you didn't. but it was still nice to know.

it's cute how excited she is to share the most trivial details, the things no one else would think twice about. even cuter was how you knew her, all the different parts. you learned a lot, after those months, and they were all quiet discoveries:

her favorite color is blue. she hates coffee. she likes chocolate ice cream. she sings when she brushes her teeth. she always wears the bracelet you fixed the first time you met, no matter where she goes or what the outfit is. she never checks the news but loves listening to old rock bands.

but maybe the most interesting thing you learn about her is

the reason her laugh was always so bright and beautiful wasn't because she had practiced it. it was just who she was. you only wish she saw herself the way you do.

you still have other things going on. group projects, late shifts, laundry, and cramming formulas into your brain for the upcoming midterm. you meet jae for coffee one morning because he complained you've been neglecting him for too long. vivian makes you facetime her because she misses your face. your mother calls again. but still nothing from your dad.

you're there (over the phone) when livi unboxes her new computer. you send her a picture of you smiling, then a shocked face, to which she replies, "ew."

you buy her a coffee. she sends back a sticker of a cat vomiting. you tell her to be grateful.

vivian begs you to help her thrift a look for a '90s-themed party she got dragged into. sora picks up a few night shifts at the bookstore and keeps coming home with niche self-help books that she insists you all read together.

life feels full. almost overflowing, in a way, and it's hard to believe you started this year not sure if you could afford the rent, the gas, the food. but, somehow, it's happening. you're making it happen.

vivan, jae, sora

vivian:

uh oh

it's tuesday

you failed another math quiz didn't you y/n

you:

i didn't fail...

i just didn't pass

jae:

rip

you:

stfu

sora:

hey.

you:

sorry

vivian:

do you guys wanna go get bbq

sora:

omgggg yesss

jae:

yess.

you:

im studying.

vivian:

boring ://

sora:

im sure u can study later

vivian:

can you spare an hour or so???

jae:

she literally failed.

sora:

studying isn't going anywhere.

vivian:

its better late then never tho

you:

im locked in guys. im sorry.

jae:

top 10 worst anime betrayals

you groan and turn your phone face down. you weren't paying all this money to fail.

your phone buzzes.

karina:

i thought you said you'd call me after 8

karina:

but it's already 9

:(

your lips twitch.

you:

well technically 9 is after 8

karina:

(¬_¬")

she's cute.

you feel yourself soften, a familiar warmth spreading inside your chest, and without thinking, you dial her number. you don't even get through the first ring before she picks up.

"hi." her voice is soft, like she was waiting.

you smile, just a little. "hi."

there's a rustling sound on the other end; it sounds like wind. you picture her outside, hair probably tied back, phone pressed to her ear, with one hand shoved into her jacket pocket. "i didn't forget," you say, leaning back in your chair. "i've just been trying to get through this math set."

"mhm." she sounds unconvinced. "did you actually study, or did you just glare at the worksheet for two hours and pretend to absorb it through osmosis?"

"...maybe both."

"thought so."

you run a hand over your face and sigh. "i don't get it. it's like the more i try to cram in, the less i remember. i keep doing this thing where i look at the answer key and then try to reverse-engineer the problem, but that only works for, like... half a second. i'm gonna flunk the final."

she pauses. you hear the wind again, a car door slamming. "...are you outside?" you ask, blinking.

"maybe."

you sit up. "wait. like outside-outside?"

a beat. then, so casually, it makes you freeze: "can you let me in?"

you blink. "what?"

"what?" she echoes, voice light. "i was in the neighborhood."

you push away from your desk, startled, almost knocking over your water bottle. "are you serious—wait, seriously?"

"why would i lie about being outside your house? c'mon, i brought food. let me in before it gets cold."

you scramble up and head toward the door, heart picking up a little, palms suddenly a bit clammy. you can't help it. it's been two and a half weeks since the party. and ever since, all you've done is talk and text and learn everything except how it feels to have her skin under your fingertips and her voice close enough to make your toes curl.

you open the door to the sight of her standing there with a paper bag cradled in her arms and a book tucked under one elbow.

you stare.

she raises a brow. "are you gonna make me stand here in the cold, or—?"

you step back without a word, and she brushes past you. she's in jeans and a simple sweater, hair pulled back. it looks like she came straight from practice, or an interview, or something.

it smells like spring.

you realize, belatedly, that you should probably shut the door. you reach back and lock it. turn around.

"what are you doing here?" you blurt.

she smiles, lifting the bag. "feeding you," she says matter-of-factly, her expression turning mischievous. "unless you already ate? in which case, i'm a fool—"

"no, no." you take a few steps forward. "um, it's fine. i'm—not. eaten."

"okay, good.' cause i didn't, either. so we can eat together."

she kicks off her shoes before walking the familiar path toward your bedroom, setting the food on your desk before eyeing your notes.

you glare. "don't start."

"i'm just saying," she says, dropping her book onto your bed. "it's good that you're trying, but this is actual nonsense. you circled the same number twice and wrote 'why' under it."

you shove the notes aside. "okay, maybe i'm floundering a little."

she smiles—a small, private one—and reaches into the bag. "eat first. you look like you need the fuel, and it'll give you some energy."

"i'm energized."

"you are not. sit."

you do, because when she uses that tone—light but certain—you kind of always do.

she hands you a pair of chopsticks and sits across from you, tucking one leg under the other. for a few minutes, you just eat. the noodles are decent. nothing fancy, just a hole-in-the-wall place down the street, and definitely not the type of food you'd usually share. but the taste is comforting somehow, a familiar mix of garlic and pork.

karina doesn't say anything while you eat, and for a while, the silence is peaceful, almost comforting. it's hard to remember a time when the quiet between the two of you felt heavy, or forced, or unsure.

"thanks," you say eventually. "for coming."

she shrugs. "felt like seeing you."

you nod, swallowing another bite. "i wasn't sure when that would happen."

she pauses.

"you think about things too much, y/n."

she lifts a piece of chicken and blows on it lightly, waiting.

you're not sure what to say. it's not as if the thought hadn't crossed your mind. how you both danced around it for the past few weeks. her being busy, her group getting new schedules, you dealing with work.

there were days when you wondered if she was having second thoughts or if something happened, or even if you made things awkward or weird.

"sometimes," she adds quietly, like she can sense the way you're spiraling. "i forget we live in the same city."

your laugh comes out shaky. "we're both pretty busy people."

she takes a bite. chews. swallows. "mm," she hums. then: "that doesn't mean i don't want to see you." she looks up, and her eyes are dark and sincere.

you exhale slowly, trying to ignore the rush of warmth, and nod. "okay."

karina chews. swallows. brings her bowl closer. "how have you been?"

you lift a shoulder. "okay. school is kicking my ass. sora keeps finding me books, so."

"any more life-changing ones?"

"nope, just self-help. they all sound like they were written by the same person."

"but useful?"

you make a face. "if you consider self-help useful."

"which i do, for the most part. some of those things aren't always obvious. sometimes they're not easy, either."

her voice trails off, her gaze falling down again.

"hm," is all you say before you lean in slightly, tilting your head. "what's that book?"

she looks confused and then looks at where you point.

"oh. this?" she sets her bowl down. picks up the thick book beside her; it looks fresh, brand new almost. "i've been practicing it too," she says, tapping the cover with her finger.

"it's a math book," she adds, "i wanted to help you study."

you blink. "you study... math. in your spare time... because of me? why?"

"because you said you were bad at it."

"i didn't—" you pause. "well, yeah, i did, but..."

"so here's the plan. we can practice the chapters, and you'll get better. and then you'll ace your final and not have to retake the class. win-win, right?"

you hesitate. "karina, that's not—this is the rest of your day, not to mention your week—"

she rolls her eyes. "y/n," she murmurs, running a fingertip over the spine of the book, looking amused.

"what?"

"i want to."

your mouth snaps shut. "okay," you manage to say.

"okay," she echoes.

for a moment, the two of you stare at each other.

then she cracks a smile. small, a little smug. "you're kind of cute when you short-circuit."

you groan, covering your face with one hand. "don't say that."

"i'm serious," she teases, nudging your leg with hers under the table. "all flustered and grateful."

"i'm not flustered."

"you're definitely grateful, though."

that makes you glance up. she's grinning now, chopsticks dangling loosely in her hand, hair a little messy. you set your bowl aside and leave your spot on the bed to sit at your desk. "so what, you're my tutor now?"

"sure," she says. "honorary tutor-slash-moral support-slash-food delivery. add that to my resume."

you stifle a smile. "you're going to regret this."

"no, i won't." she gives you a look.

you get through two questions, both wrong, and you swear under your breath, about to scribble them out, but karina's already standing.

she comes over quietly, reaching past you to point something out on the paper, her necklace swinging forward, her hair brushing your shoulder like a whisper. "okay, wait," she says, kneeling beside your chair, eyes narrowing at the problem.

"try walking me through it. just say what you're thinking." you hesitate mostly because you're not sure if you're thinking anything at all—but she waits patiently, tilting her head a little, close enough that her knee bumps yours. and so, slowly, you try again. she doesn't interrupt.

she's always been a good listener, anyway, which makes this whole thing feel a lot easier.

and when you finally get one right—one stupid, simple problem that's been tripping you up all week—karina turns to you with a grin like you just solved world hunger and leans in to press a kiss into the corner of your mouth without warning.

"that was real tutor behavior," she says. "ten points to you."

"you didn't say there'd be kisses involved," you mutter, flustered, but not pulling away.

she shrugs like it's nothing. "it's how i motivate my students."

another half-hour passes like that, the math problems growing more complicated, her instructions more thorough, and your professors lectures being the missing puzzle piece to make them click.

at some point she huffs, clearly bored of hovering over your shoulder, and without much warning, she plops herself down into your lap.

you go still, pencil frozen in midair, and karina just smirks, arms looping lazily around your neck as she leans into you, peering down at the next problem. "relax," she murmurs, adjusting her weight slightly, your heartbeat now obnoxiously loud in your ears.

there was no way in hell you were gonna be able to relax.

"you're ridiculous," you say, voice too thin to carry any real bite, and she hums innocently, fingers tracing aimless circles on your back while you try—and fail—to solve the equation in front of you.

when the numbers start blurring together, you groan and push the worksheet aside, and karina makes a noise of protest.

"i can't." you lean back. "it's over. the universe has decided."

she sighs, exaggerated and dramatic, like she's disappointed in you—but there's a smile tugging at her lips, betraying the fact that she's not really upset at all. "you barely lasted thirty minutes," she teases, poking you.

"i lasted longer than i thought i would," you mutter, your hands settling instinctively on her hips, keeping her close.

"what's that supposed to mean?"

"you're distracting. in a good way," you add, smiling faintly. "but still... a distraction."

"how can someone studying math be distracting?"

"you're literally sitting in my lap right now, and yet, here we are."

her nose crinkles. "touché," she whispers, glancing at the textbook and then back at you. her thumb brushes along your jaw, featherlight, her touch lingering, and the air shifts, softens.

she smells like lavender, or something warm and sweet, and your brain feels sluggish, too focused on the way she looks.

she seems to notice your stare.

"what's wrong?"

"nothing."

you lift a hand, brushing the pad of your thumb lightly over her cheek, watching the color rise under your touch, her eyelashes dipping low, a question in her expression.

"can i?" you murmur.

a quiet beat. then she nods.

you brush her bangs back, a gentle, sweeping touch that makes her exhale, eyes fluttering shut. when they open, her gaze is heavy.

"hi," you say softly.

the smile she gives you is the softest thing.

"hi."

you lean in and catch her mouth. she lets out a little breath, her hands finding your shoulders, and her grip tightens when you slide your tongue past her teeth, slow, achingly careful.

her hair spills forward, framing her face. her hands are trembling, sliding from your collarbones down, then up, until they frame the sides of your neck. you part, breathe, and then find each other again, the kiss deeper and hotter this time, almost dizzying.

your head spins, and you feel her melt, a rush of warmth that sends a jolt straight to your spine. you let your hand travel, slow and tentative, drifting over the curve of her waist before dipping beneath the hem of her sweater.

"y/n," she murmurs after the fifth or sixth kiss, and you hum a reply, sliding a hand down her spine and making her shudder.

"yeah?"

you hear her swallow, feel the tremble of her ribcage, and the frantic pace of her heartbeat.

"i like being in your presence," she says, words ghosting over the edge of your lips.

your throat goes dry. "mm. is that all?"

"i think about you all the time," she adds quietly, like she can hardly bring herself to say it. "i miss you when we're apart. even when i'm not aware."

the heat that crawls up the back of your neck has nothing to do with embarrassment.

you look down.

she takes a slow inhale.

"so yeah," she continues, a hint of humor in her voice. "it's kind of annoying, actually. i like all of you—even the you that's horrible at math."

you let out a dry laugh, switching to english with your accent thick in your next words, more noticeable when you're caught off guard. "that's real cute comin' from someone who hasn't touched a calculator since high school."

"oh my god," she breathes, and then she's laughing for real, head falling against your shoulder. "you're lucky i like your accent."

you switch back to korean, a childlike grin on your face. "that's crazy. no one likes my accent."

"well, i do."

she smiles, and her dimple appears. you don't resist the urge to trace it with the tip of your index finger.

"good," you say.

⭑𓂃

karina, somewhere far away in the haze of a comeback prep she's too tired to process, thinks about the opera house.

not a literal one. it's this image that keeps coming to her when her eyes close during the five-minute breaks between dance practices or when the vocal booth grows quiet and nobody realizes she's still standing in there, headphones limp around her neck.

a tall, aching structure. white stone. aged wood. wrapped in vines, dripping in green. built deep in the jungle. far, far away from lights and lenses. somewhere no one else would go unless she led them there.

in her head, she imagines the performance meant for only one person. an entire orchestra hidden in the trees. every note, every high note, every breath—it would be for you.

because that's what you do to her. make her want to build beautiful, impossible things in the middle of nowhere.

just to prove she means it.

just to show she loves you.

but lately, she hasn't seen you. or maybe she has, but not in the same way or for the right amount of time. she's never really seen you spiral before. you always seem to have everything together, and the rare moment you don't, you push through it to the point it looks as though it was just a blip on the radar.

she knew the first semester would be hard; the workload was not a walk in the park, and the expectations were different than anything either of you had dealt with before. but she also knows you well enough by now that she recognizes the way your mouth thins when something doesn't come easy and the tension you get in your shoulders when you're not satisfied.

and in your head it starts off small. a call from home, livi asking for money because apparently the monthly stipend mom gives isn't enough. and even though it stings, even though the bank app gives you a long pause, you say yes.

you don't tell anyone, not even livi, that the cost ate through most of what you'd put aside for tuition. that it was supposed to cover january's payments.

you tell yourself you'll figure it out later. but you stop eating out with your roommates. you cut a few corners where you can. the coffee cart becomes a staple. your favorite foods slowly disappear. you're quieter in the group chat. you leave your room less.

vivian notices first. she offers you part of her sandwich after class. you shake your head.

jae stops calling you annoying. that's how you know it's bad.

sora finds you in the library. says she got extra free tickets for the aquarium. wants to know if you'll come with.

you shake your head. tell her the usual: work, midterm, stress.

she leaves a book. "what's this?"

"meditation for dummies. don't give me that look. just read the introduction."

"are you implying i'm a dummy?"

she smiles, soft, knowing. "of course not. just... consider it, okay? i promise you'll like it."

you nod, swallowing.

she's a good friend.

karina hasn't texted in two days, and you don't blame her. you've been dry. too distant for a girlfriend. you didn't mean to be; it just happened.

the last thing you sent her was a thumbs-up. you hate yourself for it.

but she's been busy. so have you. so has everyone. it just feels like there aren't enough hours in a day anymore and the ones you do have are spent thinking about the debt building up or the assignments you should probably start or the rent bill or—

karina's sitting on the floor of the practice room with her hair tied up and shoes kicked off when livi calls her.

it wasn't unusual. the two actually spoke.

sometimes about you, sometimes not.

the call starts off casual. karina asks her about school, about the dance team, about her new favorite drama and what the characters are like, and what sort of books she's reading these days. livi responds easily, talking about the boy she likes and the dumb stuff they pull to catch each other's attention.

but then her voice drops, quieter, hesitant, almost, and it's such a sharp change in tone, such a drastic contrast, that karina knows something's wrong.

"jimin."

"hm."

"you've talked to her recently, yeah? is everything okay? she sounds..."

her voice trails off, her next words carefully picked.

"...busy."

there's a beat. a sigh, then: "i'm not sure."

"did she mention anything? y'know, like, a rough day, or—"

karina swallows, and the silence is too long. "not... really. i'm sure it's fine," she murmurs, not sounding sure at all.

"hm," is all livi says, and the conversation changes topic.

karina spends the next hour wondering why her stomach is twisted, why her hands are a little clammy, and why her chest is a bit heavy.

then, it hits her:

fear.

it was fear, and it was irrational and stupid and unhelpful, but the truth is, karina hadn't spoken to you since yesterday.

well, technically. you both had. she called. you picked up. then, you were quick. rushed. almost tense.

and she hated how fast the whole conversation was, the distance, and the strange coldness to it, and so, after you hung up, she sat down in the studio and started staring at the wall and wishing she could rewind time, somehow, back to a moment when things were easy and she hadn't ruined everything yet.

the next morning, karina's summoned into a company meeting, walking out wishing she hadn't shown up at all.

the conversation was so rehearsed to the point her manager didn't even meet her eyes.

karina doesn't react. she simply nods, letting her ears ring, feeling the words wash over her and sink into her skin.

they explain, clearly, with the least amount of emotion that they can muster.

she wants to ask, how long? or is it forever? should she even get her hopes up?

but she knows the answers and doesn't ask.

they end the meeting and leave without a word.

a minute passes. then two.

when the door clicks shut, karina's lips twitch. she feels a laugh bubbling up, hysterical and disbelieving, and she bites the inside of her cheek until it hurts, her face going blank and her body turning numb.

she doesn't text you. she doesn't trust herself not to say something too raw.

you don't text her. don't even tell her you're going home for christmas. in some ways, maybe you were trying to spare her from your... drought or whatever, and in other ways, maybe you just didn't face whatever's happening between the two of you.

the air feels colder inside your childhood house than it does outside. your parents speak like strangers, and your sister doesn't make a single noise, which is worse than any argument, any slammed door, any raised voices.

livi's curled up in the armchair with a blanket pulled to her chin, her eyes on the tv but not really watching. an old christmas movie plays in the background. mom sits by the fireplace, flipping through an issue of her latest obsession—an art magazine—and dad is making a cup of coffee, his movements mechanical.

the clock ticks. no one looks at each other.

"when are we going to open presents?"

livi finally speaks up. her eyes flicker toward yours, and you realize this is the first thing she's said directly to you all morning.

dad sets his mug on the counter. "i'm not sure."

mom frowns. "we're supposed to wait."

livi shoots her a look. "wait for who, the queen?"

"livia," your mom sighs, the same way she always does. "please."

livi's silent again.

"maybe we can do it later," your dad says, after a long, tense pause.

mom doesn't seem happy about it, but she doesn't fight, and livi seems to be satisfied enough, so the silence resumes, and you feel like you could die.

later, as you walk upstairs, someone's hand wraps around your wrist. you turn. livi.

"can we talk?"

"is this an intervention, or—?"

she gives you a flat stare. "very funny," she mutters, before walking into her room and expecting you to follow.

you hesitate, before shutting the door behind you, a bit nervously.

she's still for a few moments. the wind howls. and then she's spinning on her heel, looking right at you, her jaw clenched.

"what's wrong?" she demands.

"i could ask you the same thing."

"something's bothering you. tell me."

"it's not a big deal."

"don't."

your expression tightens. "livi," you mutter.

"this is exactly what you did last time," she continues, her voice hard. "last year. i saw how sad you were, how distant you were. like something was eating away at you, and no matter how much i asked, or tried to get close to you, or call you it wasn't enough. i saw it. i didn't understand. but now you're doing the same thing."

you swallow, not responding.

"you've been quiet and... distant. ever since you got here, you've barely looked at anyone, not even me, and it's the same. i can tell."

you stare down at the floor, jaw working. "i'm okay," you say, softly, weakly.

"tell me why. now. is it the money? mom and dad's marriage?"

"no."

"then what."

you take a slow, deep inhale.

"if you're not ready or scared, i'll wait until you are," livi adds, voice a bit quieter. "just..."

she trails off, a frown pulling at her lips.

"whatever it is, i want to help. i know you want to be the strong one. always. and you are. for me. for your friends. but not for yourself."

you breathe, closing your eyes, and after a beat, you murmur, "when did you get so smart?"

livi doesn't smile. just crosses the space between you, arms wrapping around your middle, a gentle, warm touch. you exhale and hold her.

"i've always been smart, jerk. you're the one that was distracted."

you rest your cheek against the top of her head and whisper, "i'm sorry."

later, in the kitchen, your mom wipes the counter with too much effort. she's been moving things around that don't need to be moved, cleaning already clean surfaces.

"i'm making the roast tomorrow," she says, almost to herself. "the one your dad likes."

you lean against the doorway, arms crossed. "he won't eat it anyway."

she glances at you, sharp. "don't start."

you shrug. "just saying."

she sighs through her nose. "you could help, you know. do something while you're here instead of sulking."

"i've been home twelve hours."

"and already with the attitude."

you grit your teeth. "i'm not trying to fight."

"could've fooled me."

the silence after that is cold. she opens the fridge just to stare inside, not grabbing anything.

she speaks again, quieter. "you know, you used to be different when you came home."

you furrow your brow. "when?"

"before." her voice thins. "you used to smile more. you were easier."

you blink, caught off guard. "easier?"

she shrugs. "to talk to. to understand."

your stomach turns. "i haven't changed, mom. i grew up. people do that, y'know. grow up. get older. that's normal."

her mouth presses into a line.

"is that what you're calling it?" she asks, voice careful. "growing up?"

you don't answer. you don't need to.

she scoffs, just once. then she reaches for a wine glass and pours herself half a cup like it's a reflex.

your voice sounds smaller. more vulnerable.

"mom, can you not? today."

"hm?"

"you know, can't we not talk about me growing up, or whatever, or—"

"it's not easy for us either."

she cuts in. sharp.

"we don't have any answers. we're not perfect parents. it's hard and scary, and you have no idea how frustrating it can be."

"that's not fair," you manage to say. "i'm not a parent, but i'm not a kid anymore either. you can't expect me to pretend everything is fine. because it's not, okay, and maybe the holidays are hard, but that's not my fault. i never said it wasn't. it doesn't mean we have to drink through it every year."

her gaze flashes. "what a stupid thing to say."

you don't argue.

"we're trying, y/n. you should know better than anyone."

you look down at the table. your words sound thick and shaky.

"i do know."

"do you?"

she waits, and when you don't speak, she goes still.

"oh," she murmurs. "i see."

"it's not the same."

"because you've found better people."

"they're not—no, mom, i didn't—"

"it's not an accusation, sweetheart."

you stare at each other, and the air is strange, thick, almost, and neither of you knows what to say. there's a long pause. the fridge hums behind her, the dishwasher ticks in the background, and for once, the house feels loud in the wrong places.

your mother clears her throat. "well," she says. "dinner's at five."

you nod. it's automatic.

she leaves the glass of wine on the counter and disappears down the hallway. a door clicks shut.

and that's that.

you don't cry. you don't yell. you don't slam anything.

you just sit there for a while, hunched at the kitchen table with your hands clasped tight and your jaw locked. you listen to the faint sound of livi's movie still playing, the muffled voices of people pretending to fall in love under fake snow.

eventually, you go upstairs. you pack quietly. fold your things carefully. the morning is quiet when you leave, and no one says goodbye.

⭑𓂃

the flight was long, and by the time you make it back to the apartment, you can hardly stand upright because you're so tired, your vision fuzzy.

jae looks shocked when he finds you standing in the doorway. he blinks twice, then three times, as if not believing you.

"y/n? are you a hallucination?"

"what are you talking about? i was gone for two days."

he narrows his eyes. "didn't think you were coming back," he says, but his expression is lighter now. he glances at your suitcase, then back at your face. "what happened? family emergency?"

you shrug. "something like that."

"was the roast that good?"

you give him a look. he just smirks.

"seriously," jae says, shifting. "are you alright? you were... weird before you left."

you pause. look down. then, very slowly, you nod.

"yeah," you whisper, and he must believe you, or maybe he doesn't, but either way, he's smiling. you give him a closed-mouth smile and duck into your room, and when the door closes behind you, you sag against it, exhaling.

you open her contact. you don't let yourself overthink it this time. you press the call button, and it rings. once. twice.

she answers on the third.

"y/n?"

her voice is quiet, a little hoarse. you wonder if she was asleep. or avoiding you.

you clear your throat. "are you busy?"

a pause.

"no."

you swallow. "can you come over?"

another pause. longer this time.

"i'll be there in twenty."

she doesn't even change out of her sweatpants. doesn't brush her hair. she just grabs a coat—one that still smells faintly like the perfume you always wear.

in her head, the whole drive over, she rehearses, and then dismisses, and then repeats the things she wants to say. she wonders if it would be easier if you weren't here, if she had a week or two, or hell, even a few more hours, to really think it over. but the fact is, she doesn't, and she can't afford to wait or plan or calculate a million different outcomes. not right now, or ever, because life is messy and short, and there aren't enough hours to be careful or self-aware, not in the right ways, anyway.

so when the elevator reaches your floor, she doesn't know what she's walking into. she doesn't even know if you want her there because you miss her or because everything fell apart and you needed someone you could ruin gently.

but she continues to walk towards that door.

because she would go even if you hadn't asked.

you don't open the door right away.

karina lifts her hand to knock a second time, but the lock clicks, and there you are—hoodie sleeves past your hands, eyes rimmed pink.

you're tired. exhausted, really. the type where a part of you thinks you won't get any real sleep, even if you try.

"hi," she whispers.

you hold the door wider.

"come in."

when the door is shut behind her, you move to your room, not speaking.

she doesn't ask any questions.

the door opens, and you disappear inside.

she follows, closing the door and dropping her bag near the doorway, and you're already sitting on your bed, staring at her, waiting.

"you look tired," she says.

you nod. "didn't sleep much."

she fidgets with the drawstring on her hoodie. "me neither."

she takes a breath, trying to decide how she wants to do this—if she should ask first, or dive right in, or even speak at all.

her mouth opens. closes.

you speak first.

"i didn't know who else to call."

karina's eyes soften, her posture relaxing slightly. her words come out slower, less calculated. "i'm glad you did."

you exhale slowly, rubbing your palm over your thigh.

"feels like i've been holding my breath for two weeks straight."

karina swallows.

you glance at her, then away. "i thought maybe i imagined everything. us."

she flinches.

and for a second, you wish you could take it back. but she lifts her chin and looks at you.

"you didn't."

you don't move. just stare at each other, a strange, tense silence falling between the two of you.

it goes on for a while. too long.

until karina moves. slowly, like she's scared, like you might run, or snap, or worse—but she still moves.

she stands in front of you and hesitates only once before taking a seat on the bed.

"it feels like my life is running away from me."

karina frowns, brow furrowing, a bit lost.

you're not going to have enough money for rent this month and your tuition because fuck, because you went home only to be reminded that family doesn't always mean home.

your voice drops lower, and a strange emotion passes over your face, raw, almost.

"i also... i keep... feeling like you are too. and i never got the chance to stop it. because we were so busy, and then there wasn't a good moment, or a time, or anything and—"

"hey," karina interrupts, "what? hey, slow down."

your gaze lifts to hers, and the second you do, she knows exactly what's happening, and it hurts in the best and worst ways possible.

"talk to me," she whispers, taking your hand and squeezing it lightly. "tell me."

you swallow.

"you're a fucking star, y'know. like, literally, not figuratively. and i can't get to you."

she frowns.

"you're so far out of my orbit, and it's selfish and dumb, and i'm sorry, and—"

"hey, hey," she murmurs, scooting closer, cupping the side of your neck. you inhale shakily, and she shakes her head.

"don't."

"don't what?"

"don't say things you're not going to let me reply to."

you fall silent.

"it's okay," she says, "just listen."

she holds your hand in hers, smoothing her thumb across your knuckles.

"there's not a place, not a galaxy, not an entire universe out there that you aren't allowed in." she says it with a kind of steady, desperate conviction, her voice growing a little thicker. you try to swallow around the tightness in your throat, but she keeps talking, and her words come slowly, the way they always do when she's nervous or worried.

"i wanted to come earlier. i—i almost got in trouble just trying to leave the dorm tonight. it's been... weird lately."

you blink. "weird how?"

karina hesitates. she lets out a breath, then looks down at your intertwined hands before murmuring, "there's a new dating ban. it's... official. a rule, now since our comeback is happening, and we had meetings about it and the company's being... strict."

your stomach flips.

you're quiet for a long time. too long.

karina rushes to fill the space, her voice rising.

"i didn't want to tell you because i knew—i know—how it sounds. like an excuse, or like i'm choosing something over you, and i'm not. i swear i'm not—"

"rina."

she stops.

you're still calm. still.

not because you don't care. you do—god, you do—but you're too tired to panic. too tired to do the whole dramatic, spiraling thing. you've done it enough the past two weeks.

"you love your job," you say softly. "and you're amazing at it."

she nods, shakily.

"i always knew this might happen," you continue, looking at her. "and i knew it wouldn't be easy."

karina makes a noise, pained.

her eyes brim. you know that look. you know what's coming.

"but i love you," she whispers, her voice cracking on the word. "i love you, and i'm scared. i've never—this is the only time i've ever been scared of love. i didn't even know that was a thing."

you close your eyes.

"rina..."

"no, wait." she leans forward now, pressing her forehead to yours. her hands tremble on your shoulders. "i've never loved anyone like i love you. never. i don't think i can. i think that's it for me. you're it."

you exhale sharply, eyes still shut, like maybe if you don't look at her, you won't fall apart.

"and if i lose you because of some stupid contract, i don't know what i'll do. i don't know how to be okay with that."

your voice is barely above a whisper. "if you leave me today, i'll still be here. i'm not going anywhere."

she nods. swallows. neither of you move, foreheads still touching.

she speaks first.

"y/n."

your hands move to frame her face, tilting her chin up, and her eyelashes flutter.

"can you kiss me, please?"

so you do.

you tilt her chin up and brush a kiss across her lips, and you feel her breathe into it, a sigh that settles over both of you and melts the remaining distance away.

when the kiss breaks, she doesn't move away, staying pressed as close as she can.

"i don't wanna make you wait long. not forever, not even a year or two."

you run a knuckle over her cheekbone. "i'd wait," you say.

she looks down.

"no one's made me feel the way you have," you whisper.

her eyes snap back to yours. "really?"

you smile faintly. "that's pretty cheesy," you point out, but the words sound fragile, almost.

she ignores it.

"is it true?"

you nod.

"yeah."

she reaches for you, arms sliding over your shoulders and wrapping loosely around your neck, her mouth a hairsbreadth from yours. she kisses the corner of your mouth, once, and again, lingering, warm.

you exhale, turning your head slightly so her mouth catches yours, and you're kissing her again.

and karina goes pliant, melting into you.

⭑𓂃

you're sitting on the curb outside the café where you work, half a sandwich in hand, picking the crust off even though you're hungry. it's just past 3 p.m., and it's quite hot outside for springtime.

"that you?" jae's voice calls out.

you don't even turn your head. "who else would it be? my evil twin sister? i thought she was supposed to visit next week, but maybe i was mistaken—"

"god, i get it." he sighs dramatically. you finally glance over and watch him cross the street without looking because he's an idiot with his backpack hanging off one shoulder. he looks sweaty, a bit flushed from the heat, hair sticking to his forehead.

you try not to cringe.

he joins you on the curb, pulling his water bottle out, taking a huge swig. when he lowers it, a bit of droplets stick to the corner of his mouth. gross.

jae swallows and then glances at your hand.

he grimaces. "that's not the healthiest choice for lunch."

"don't start. the fridge is empty."

he rolls his eyes. "why's that any surprise."

"bitch, can i eat in peace?" he laughs, and you fight a smile.

the sun beats down a bit, the two of you quiet, before his gaze moves toward the parking lot and he speaks.

it's been a long week. month. year. you're not even sure anymore. but it's been quieter lately. still hard sometimes, still weird, but manageable. like you're finally catching your breath after forgetting how to breathe.

he nudges your side gently, bringing you back.

"how was the morning shift?"

you shrug. "long, mostly. not busy enough."

he snorts.

"you used to complain that it was too busy... so now i'm just a little confused."

"mmm... well. now, it's annoying, because i'm bored."

"you're a weird one."

"i know," you sigh.

you look down at your knees, jeans faded and soft from overuse.

"my parents finalized the divorce," you say. "like, last week."

jae looks at you, but doesn't interrupt.

"i didn't even feel anything when they told me," you continue, voice low. "it was just like—okay. cool. we're done pretending."

"i'm sorry."

you nod once. "i think i used to believe that people would stay together for the sake of the family. their kids. their kid. it was easier to pretend than to tell the truth. and that sucks. the lies were kinder than the real thing."

you lean back, palms against the sidewalk. "we can't control other people."

you feel the weight of his stare.

"i'm just glad that's over."

he doesn't say anything after that. just bumps his shoulder against yours.

"you still thinking about acting?" he asks after a moment.

you blink. "sometimes."

"i think you should."

you scoff. "you think i should audition for those weird web dramas with twelve views and a fake sponsor?"

"nah," he says. "i think you should actually do something with it. you've got that thing."

you arch a brow. "what thing?"

"the sad, haunted vibe. directors love that."

you laugh—like, really laugh—for the first time that day. "you're an asshole."

"but i'm right," he smirks. "you've always wanted this. don't act like you haven't been quietly posting monologue tests on your finsta again."

you squint. "how do you know about that?"

"i have spies."

you roll your eyes, smiling, before muttering, "it feels a bit dumb. chasing something like this. there are more stable, reasonable things to chase, and most people wouldn't just jump ship and follow a stupid dream."

"and that's exactly why you should do it," he replies, shrugging. "do what scares you."

your stomach does an odd little flip. you look down at your feet. "when did you get all wise and shit."

"im not actually a bimbo, you know," he mutters.

"oh, trust me, i'm aware. it's just... nice. the way you're good at putting things. makes you a great guy."

"you're sweet," he drawls sarcastically. you grin, leaning back. the sun feels good on your face, warm and light and soothing, and the air isn't heavy, doesn't feel tight.

he stands up after a bit and stretches. "you walking home?"

"yeah."

"i'll come with," he says. "i need to get some chips anyway."

you both end up walking in silence for a bit, until you stop outside the gs25.

"i'll just be a second," you say, slipping inside and heading straight for the atm in the corner. another semester another payment.

it's second nature when you insert your card, type your id, curse at the tuition balance, and pay what you can. but today's different. you punch in your info. the screen loads. and then—

₩0 krw

you stare. you check the number again. blink a few times. hit refresh. same thing. ₩0 krw. "what the..."

you back out of the page. re-enter your info. nothing changes.

you look around like someone's gonna explain it. the cashier's talking on the phone about some anime. no help there. you hit the button to print a receipt. hold it in your hand. ₩0 krw

you walk outside, clutching the slip like it's about to start burning in your hand. "yo," jae says, tossing his empty water bottle in the air. "you good?"

you blink at him. "i think—" you hold up the receipt. "the machine's broken."

"why?"

"it says my tuition's zero."

"isn't that a good thing?"

"no—it's not right. i didn't pay it yet."

he frowns. "like, not even a partial thing?"

"nothing. it's cleared."

jae tilts his head. "maybe check on your laptop when you get home?"

you nod slowly. "yeah. yeah."

the rest of the walk is weird. your fingers are still gripping the paper like it might start making sense if you fold it enough times.

when you get inside, sora's on the floor doing her nails. she glances up at the door closing, then back to you. "helloooooooo."

"hi," you croak, not even registering her tone, not looking her in the eye as you kick off your shoes. she raises a brow, noticing the strange shift, and continues to paint her nails.

"uh-oh."

"huh?"

"are you still mad i finished death note without you?"

"not today, sora, not today."

she puts her brush down and leans back, stretching her legs out. "oh my god, are you dying or something? or, oh! you found out the bakery stopped making the blueberry muffins you love. is that it? is the world coming to an end?"

you take a slow, deep breath.

"my tuition's paid."

her lips curl into a confused smile. "that's a good thing, no?"

you think out your lips. "no. yes. i don't know. i'll be right back." you mumble, heading straight for your room.

"weirdo!"

you open the student portal, enter your password, and wait, chewing the inside of your cheek.

same result.

tuition paid. balance: ₩0 krw. you stare at the screen for a long, long time. then you call the finance office. miraculously, someone picks up. "hi—i just... i'm seeing something strange on my account? i was going to pay my tuition today, but it says my balance is zero. i haven't made any recent payments, so i'm wondering if it's a system error—"

"can i get your student id?" the woman asks.

you give it.

there's typing on the other end.

"it says here your account was settled earlier this week. monday."

"settled... like paid?"

"yes. full amount."

you press the phone tighter against your ear. "by who?"

"the payment was made via direct transfer."

"so—was there a name?"

more typing.

"no name listed. it was submitted anonymously."

anonymous.

funny how unanimous that action is.

"is everything okay?" jae asks from the doorway.

you glance back at the screen, where the total's still the same. ₩0 krw.

you haven't touched it since, just left it open because maybe if you didn't believe it, it'd change. but it hasn't, and now you're sitting with the receipt you printed, trying to wrap your brain around it.

"i don't know what i'm gonna do," you manage, eyes burning.

jae sits on the bed next to you and offers you his palm. you place the slip in it.

he studies it. then the screen. then looks over at you.

"have you thanked your mom for this, yet?"

your expression shutters. "it wasn't her."

"how are you so sure?"

you meet his eyes, steady, even though your hands are trembling a bit. "i would've known if it was."

he pauses, seeming to recognize that, then looks back to the screen.

"okay, so, we don't know who it was, then. but... does it matter, y/n? isn't it good, or something? that you don't owe anything?"

your stomach knots, but you swallow and nod.

"i guess."

jae nudges your knee.

"you know who it is?"

"it was karina."

it's the only option that makes sense. you'd mentioned to her the struggle once or twice, in passing. nothing detailed. but it had always been the most likely choice.

she knew.

knew what your family was like, where your headspace was. and somehow, through it all, through her own life falling apart, through a dating ban that would leave both of you raw, bleeding, she had remembered and done the one thing that was easy and hard and messy and clean all at the same time.

the two of you haven't spoken in five months. not since christmas, when you were the one that was the coward, who told yourself it was easier, that the distance would heal whatever wounds you didn't want to touch, or see, or even acknowledge.

and the truth is, it hasn't. the truth is, the cuts and bruises are still there, still fresh, and they still hurt.

they've gotten easier, sure. better. the pain lessened.

but there's still a hole in you. not a huge one. just a spot where she used to be. a spot no one else can reach or fill.

and a part of you hates her for that. and another part is still a little in love with her.

"well," he murmurs.

"well," you echo, eyes drifting back toward the laptop, the numbers.

"are you gonna text her?"

"why would i."

"to say thanks? or sorry. or whatever else."

"i...can't."

"why?"

your jaw works. you look down. "because," you sigh. "i just can't."

"you're acting like a baby."

he says it like he's tired for you. like he's been watching you circle the same block of grief for months, slowing only to pretend you're fine before picking up speed again. like he's held the door open all winter, and you're the one refusing to walk through.

you press your knuckles to your eyes. "i'm not ready."

he shifts beside you.

"her comeback's not over," you admit after a beat, voice quiet. "the dating ban's still in place. and i—"

you exhale, shaky. "i don't think i could handle it, jae. seeing her, but not having her. talking, but only through windows. being careful all the time. like—like i'd be setting myself on fire just to sit next to her again."

his expression softens.

he knows you mean that, in every sense.

"you're the strongest person i've ever met, y/n."

you breathe out a laugh.

"i'm serious," jae says. "what you're doing is really brave."

"running away?"

"facing reality."

you take a moment. think, for once. "sometimes, i wonder," you say, the words coming slowly, hesitantly. "if... i'm really making the right choice. is this fair, y'know, for either of us?"

"you're not hurting anyone."

you look down at the sheets. "but am i hurting her."

"she chose her job. and you chose to move on. no one's fault. no one's mistake."

you bite your lip. a long silence. the fan spins overhead, quiet.

your voice is the first to return, hoarse."y ou think i'll ever stop loving her?"

jae doesn't answer right away. you don't look at him.

but eventually, he says, just above a whisper,

"i think you were meant to."

you let out a soft laugh, then a sniff follows behind, and for the first time in months, you let yourself cry.

main masterlist. part one. part two.

[mxxnlightbae08]

Some plots that I want to see for Arc 3 before I actually lose my sanity bcs I WILL be throwing hands if Netflix doesn't give us a sign:

Planning for the return of Aaravos (obviously). Claudia's return alongside with it too dont forget. (i wonder how she'll look like)

Callum learning all the arcanums. I feel like this is really important because this will help with defeating Aaravos since it's been shown he knows all primal sources. I want to see Callum at his strongest too it's gonna be so cool ngl.

Aanya and Ezran + Soren and Corvus TOGETHER PLEASE 🕯️🕯️🕯️

Kim'dael (or however you say her name) What happened to her? Where is she and why did they completely forget about her existence? I was expecting Rayla to go against her in a battle especially after what she did to her as a kid, but ig we were robbed once again. We could've maybe seen her in a bloodmoon form if that is possible for normal moonshadow elves to do.💔

Claudia either having the most emotional redemption arc (I still have a tiny bit of hope left for my girl), or becoming a full fledged villian. Maybe even worse than Aaravos. No inbetween because as much as I love this show sm, it can be a bit undecided with it's plots here and there.

Rayla finds out she's pregnant. Guys just hear me out. It could be such a good plot, kind of like Twilight: Breaking Dawn. Whilst planning for Aaravos's return, they also have to deal with the first halfling baby that hasn't been seen in Xadia for years (i think), and if it will have more abilities than usual. And I saw on someone's post that it being born at the end could represent the love and a new era between human's and elves. And other than that, it'd be cute seeing everyone stress over Rayla being reckless the entire time. (I'll pray for them all, especially Callum😭)

Zym becoming the new archdragon king. This is another important plot needed because I'm pretty sure he's the only archdragon left. Unless he goes on some sort of journey to see if there are any other archdragons out there to help rule alongside with him. Plus, we legit heard him talk bruh. I NEED MORE OF DRAGON ZUKO!!!

WE NEED ARC 3 ABEG 🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾

(these are just my personal thoughts i daydreamed abt delusionally btw, if i have any other ideas I'll do another post at some point)

[romsabombs]

Malevolent part 49 The Suspects notes!!

i dont remember who any of these people are

harlan french accent💀

"i did not kill langward" ok trust🙏

"i fucking hate cultists" he says in a room full of cultists

ohhh horig smart as hell

azatoth??

i have no idea whats going on

"do you think theres someone here pretending to be someone theyre not" wuh oh

ya hes too crumpled up to be a prince

avoiding the question by yapping

its among us

"if you find anything you'll tell us" yeah...... sure....

HAHA he cant even stand up from a chair

hes dying from the plague

eat the elephant mentioned

being a coward is prolly the only way to survive this

ok maybe not

omg he's lying arthur taught him how to be a detective

"im sure you'll make a handsome corpse" OKAYY

OKAYYYY white boy queening out

WOAH

"let this show that if i was, you'd be dead" hot

are you kidding me . pulling a candle and the wall opens😐

dumbass tries to pull out the lighter

after YOU 👺

"i have no dagger, you do😐" "i INSIST👹"

how did he not notice isnt there a big echo here

HAHA not the painting with the eyes cut out to spy on people

scooby doo ahh mansion

hmmmmmmm strange symbol . im sure that wont be a devastating revelation later

OH 😨😨😨

oh . . oh no

any excuse to kill a cultist

oh :( blud is dying

quietlyCOUGHCOUGHCOUGH

HAHA "perhaps we should split up"💀

i think arthurs gonna get this guy killed when they're trying to be sneaky and he starts coughing

WHAT

NOO OWHAT WHAT WHAT HWGWTAN NOOOOO OHHH OH MY GOD OHH

ohhhh that is WORSE

if barnabas doesnt kill him the plague certainly will

imagine having faced horrors and monsters beyond comprehension and then dying to just a Guy . embarrassing

ohhhh nooooooooo😟😟😟

ohh hes gonna Die asf

saved by plot armor yet again

"i saw barnabas vent"

aw :( "im sorry for this"

oh no. .. . . . ..

"ill survive" will you???🤨

HAHA HE FELL DOWN ANOTHER HOLE

a forest?????

their bag is in a tree💀 throw another rock at it or something

these boys have the worst luck imaginable

why didnt he kill him?? he just left

KELLAN? omg kellan mentioned

"we're not getting out of this one" oh:(

yorrick is stuck in the tree😭

he doesn't care coz hes gonna die anyway

oh hes Hopeless hopeless

arthur cant keep up with the lore

OHH DONT DO THIS TO ME DONTT

COME ON NOT MARIE :((((

can we read oscars letter now . no wait its in the bag

bluds just giving up🤨 bro we have promises to keep and miles to go before we sleep

HAHA hes so pathetic

YAAA OSCARS LETTERRRRR YESS

HE REMEMBERSSS :333

THIS ISAWESOME OSCARS LETTER

whatever is in that letter is gonna give him hope and determination to keep going

ITS A POEMMM WHAAT :((((

gay as hell no straight explanation for this

I AM TJE MASTER OF MY FATE I AM TJE CAPTION OF MYSOUL☹️☹️

:( OH :((( HAHAA THATS SO AWFUL

:((((((( oh :( :( :( man . thats terrible

hes crazy hes a madman

MILES TO GOOOOO MILES TO GO

"woke me up too" 💀

guyss what about the creature

we'll never get to know what he wrote what if i jump off a bridge

is it a wendigo

this is what the symbol was about wasnt it

DUDEE😭 insane

OH THE DARK YOUNGGGGG OHH

ohhhh my christ the dark young

loving the references in this episode

motherless behavior

YESSS ARHTUR👹👹

oh OH oh no

GET UPPP

jumpscare in 3 2 1

OH 💥💥💥💥 KILL ITTT

the bullet bounced off💀

WE DID ITTT :3 YIPPEE

oh ya hes still dying

OH !! 😨

WHAT Barnabas was it the witch

YAA women in male dominated fields

bring yorrick back🙏🙏

hand of malevolence is still crazy to me

OH the coin

OH COME ON can we just get a break

personal hunting grounds💀

so what he kills awful people .

"remarkable performance" okayyy

OHHH THE COIN

whaaat hes an ally now

no bruh they didnt talk at all😭

ohhh shit . they both hate cultists

dang . it all comes together

ohhh hes just giving it to us??

:3 arthur "curious name" 😭

ohh ya hes still dying

"humanity in all of its forms" ☹️

oh shit she can heal us

ALMOST any affliction

so the answer was friendship 🎀🙏

BRO HAHA we're his enemy asf . working for kayne

insane episode actually

[maiyz]

episode 7. I just yawned i think i need to sleep soon. I'm locked in i need to wake up at 8 every day.

oh we're here i kinda forgot but BOOO KUON everyone boo him

fuck off raichi i hate blonde guys

"i'll crush them!" yeah right isagi

i hate this anime the brother's eyes keep on jumpscaring PUT YOUR TONGUE BACK IN YOUR MOUTH smh

bro finally saved a goal 😭😭 i keep reading his name as Lemon not Iemon. like with an i.

okay i kinda feel bad for chigiri now

OOOOH SIGMA TAKEDOWN IN THAT FLASHBACK

why did i feel that injury. yikes.

isagi pulls up with the cliche ass sports anime main character don't give up dialogue smh

WHAT THE HELL

i don't like this anime anymore gng

chigiri finally locked in took him one and a half episodes

woah... wait... he's kinda peak.

WOAH

im sorry chigiri for disrespecting you i didn't know your game

WOAAH

isagi picking up boyfriends left and right.............

GET BACHIRA'S BUNS OFF MY SCREEN

NAGIREO SEEN

why he rubbing his hair with his toes out.... peak yaoi.

piggybacking too without hesitation this IS peak yaoi

SHUT UP ISAGI DON'T DISTURB THEIR YAOI OH MY GOD GO AWAY GO AWAY

episode 8!! i'm scared im pretty sure they'll get bodied by team v. one more episode and i'm done i need to sleep

SHUT UP ISAGI

you know this would be differrent in HAIKYUU because nagi = kenma and- isagi and hinata are both main characters. HINATA AND KENMA is a VALID SHIP TOO i hate this

waiter waiter! more yaoi!

where did nagi get a phone...

"after all he's my treasure" YAOI

this isn't even subtle anymore.

wait childhood friends is this a kuroken reference

nevermind. bruh. they baited me with that childhood flashback.

bro rushed for that phone like his life depended on it 😭😭

he flat out said can i have some money 😭 oh dear

how does one go up to someone and say "i want him!" yaoi

WHAT THE FUCK I KEEP ON GETTING JUMPSCARED BY BACHIR

GET THIS FREAK OFF MY SCREEN

"one more time" is this a haikyuu reference

yeah isagi sucks good night

bachisagi yaoi for 3 seconds

gay gay gay gay gay

ominous bell

A MASSAGE? I underestimated the yaoi

okay i'm done good night twin

same person who shipped kuon and gagamaru 😂😂😂😂

i hate aHIM behh…. i want him OUT

i hope he crushes me w his thighs

who just said that

behhhh my tounge is outtt..

i thought his name was lemonn… ngl! um

yeah eat ur words and kick rocks

yeah sure wahtever u say sweetie

i dont remember anything anymoreee 😢

ok dork

cus hes… well hes… kinda gay..

MOVE IT.

why he do that

you WILL lick it.

CHIGIRI IS THE GOATTT….. actually eat ur words

yeah punk

whats ur problem w chigiri hes soo fjne….

yeahhh… yeahhhh….

idk who ur talking about

pesnut brian..

yeah AND PUT THEM ON MINE!

tounge out and moving!

nagireo PEAK yaoi…………. i lovr them sm

i piggy back all my friends idk what ur talking about 🥹🥹😂 no jk im too weak

isagi is SUCHHH a homewrecker… ruined a PEFRECTLY HEALTHY RELATIONSHIP (kainess 🥹)

what he do 🫤🥺🥺🥺 hes just a babeh

i saw a edit of a kenma and nagi so i thunk

i loveee nagii… i live nagi.. i got a lot of pins off him… im trying to get bullied maxxed,,, my backpack and stanley will be glammed out!

waiter waitrtee!!! hehe… i love u waiter… im the witer

idk where i was gonna go w thatt.

he got 3 goals in team v vs team smth when they won 8-0 and traded it for a phone

behh I LOVE THEM I LOVE THEM SM I LOVE THEM

the closest is glass but reos is pink and sparkling i like reo

what

what

tagts me actually 13 hour screen time 🥹🥹

SOO LIKE I WOULD DO THE SAME

i wanna be rich so bad….

well i have one possible reason (gay)

well i get jumpscared when i get an ask for you but I DONT hate. heh

jk… ily twan 🥹🥹

get this ASK off my screen.

i look really disgusted rn

umm u suck.. butt

um for the FULL anime blub. and manga

me when i go on ur blog ngl

the additional time is littarly called “wife material reo”

let me wife him up!

gn tein dint let the bed bugs bite

im on epsidoe 5 haikyu

[herb-on-a-stick]

Just finished your beautiful beautiful very yummy and very angsty analysis of love in paradise ( maybe I shed a little tear here and there, maybe I didn't, you can't know that ) so I thought this would be right moment to leave you an ask for a gods game analysis maybe?? *stares at you with big brown eyes*

Last one of this saga!!!! Yayyy

Praying ill remember all the musical parts ive heard about but im sure theres so much hidden i forgot/didnt hear about yet

30. God Games

We open with a choir of course, because...gods! Athena decides to do something (finially)

“Father, God King” (athena asks daddy for help SIJGSEIG)

“Rarely do I ask for favors” being the good favorite daughter

“Now, I’m knocking on your door, with hopes to save a friendship with one who’s a prisoner far from home....Odysseus” I LOVE the melody of this part somehow??? especially how the drop before “odysseus”, ALSO SHE CALLS IT A FRIENDSHIP INFRONT OF ZEUS TOO

“Divine intervention, is that what you seek?” ........yes, bruh. Zeus dont fuck this up, u are decent enough in Homers Odyssey

“To untie apprehensions that were placed on that Greek?” okay i had to google “apprehentions, and apperently it both means “arrest” and “concern/fear”...........to untie the arrest on Ody, and at the same time the concerns of Odysseus THATS GENIUS, Ive heard Homer does a lot of these double meanings of words in his Epics and IM SO HERE FOR IT, also “that Greek”, come on, dont use it as a slur >:)

“You are playing with thunder for a man full of shame”..................NOW WHO PUT THIS SHAME ON HIM YOU MF, YOU WHAT KIND OF SICK GAME IS THIS-

“But if he’s worth the risk of going under, why not make it a game?” Lukes vocal performance in this part is something else, like dude??? hello? youre a tenor SIEJGSEIGJ, its good, also WDYM GOING UNDER??? HUH??? ....yeah of course you make it a game, because everything is a game to you, because really, theres nothing and noone who poses a thread to you

“Convince each of them that he ought to be released, and I’ll release him” the slight echo effect in that voice.......fascinatinggg, wish i knew if the melody in this part had any meaning, gotta look it up

“Who’s them?” Athena god of wisdom asking about details before agreeing to deals *cough* Odysseus, learn from your friend

“Apollo” APPOLO MY GUY ehehehehee

“Hephaestus” okay, fair

“Aphrodite” the wWAY HE PROUNCES HER NAME?? OMG

“Ares”, yea yea imposing yada yada

“Hera” cant exclude his wife

“Or me” OR me, so its ALL of them, or him? bruh

“What do you say?” WHAT IS SHE SUPPOSED TO SAY

“Great” ehehehehe apollo <3

“Very well” just doing it because

“Eh” shes so excited

“Alright” he IS excited

“Groovy”....ok? um...imma move on

“Bring it” of course she would choose all of them over Zeus, its Zeus, he just WANTS you to loose, bc hes the god king

“Apollo!” parrot

“You all know I’m a fan of catchy songs” god of music yada yada HIS VOICE

“so with so many sirens gone, I think Ody’s in the wrong”.........there are so many reasons to dislike Odysseus and you pick the SIRENS? .......did you just join for the fun and had no real reasons or did u get dragged there or-....but its ok, your voice is amazing, also IIRC it should be the melody of suffering??? of different beast??? i forgorrrr norrrr also Lyreeee in the background! ehehehe

“They were trying to do him worse, All he did was reimburse them Now they’ll tread with caution first To live another day and sing another verse” maybe the melody was in this part. also, yeah tell him athena, what kind of argument is that, they tried to kill him he just did what he had to--------admittely he was VERY cruel about it, but athena doesnt have to mention that, and well Ody probably protected even more sailors in the future through his actions

ALSO DONT COME AT ME WITH “but all the sirens are dead” THERE ARE MORE, theyre obviously not talking about the sirens Ody killed, its about all other Sirens out at see that woudlve seen the others dying after being brutally cut down by a human, they WILL be more cautious in the future

“If that’s true, release him”, yeah u really had nothing to argue against, he just shrugs it off LMAO

“Hephaestus!” Hefefuf ehehehe ALSO JORGES DAD YAY adorable, tho when first listened i rly thought it was Jorge with voice changer again THEY SOUND SO SIMILIAR

“Trust is not given, it’s forged”...true, valid argument, Also Scylla melody??? I THink?

“Why should I give him my support? He sacrificed his own cohort”......well....um.....he didnt rly have much of a CHOICE ....but its a more valid concern, the sounds that sound like a hammers in a forge sound cool btw

“Did you forget they failed to listen?”.........yeah literally

“He was betrayed and then imprisoned” IMPRISONED AH ODY, but yeah EXACTLY, the WIND BAG, THE MUTINY AH

“But if you make the right decision He can still build a future with those who miss him” AND BUILD TRUST WITH THEM AGAIN AHHHHHHH yes. Hefefuf choose right.

“Fine, release him” good.

the music making it sound like steps in a game as you level up....fine, it sounds nice

“Aphrodite” seductive, i like it

“Your little high and mighty Odysseus” SHeS pissed, and does not like Ody you can hear the “high and mighty” in her voice :”) ouch

“Claims to love his mother But let her die of a broken heart” LIKE HE HAD A CHOICE IN THE MATTER HE TRIED TO GET HOME SHE DIDNT HAVE TO JUMP

“He was busy fighting”, yeaaah

“More like busy spiting the cyclops”.........yeah okay we can get behin that this was stupid decision but it wasnt a rational decision either he just lost his best friend, THATS LOVE TOO; GIVE HIM SOME SLACK

“Let him feel the pain that his mother felt and rot” WHY U BE SO COLD HEARTED , i love the melody/music in this tho

“Wait, please reconsider this”, athena using quick thought on a goddess, intriguing! also shes begging her :tear: aw man

“Really Athena? These old tricks?” annoyed older brother breaking into quick thought to the rescuse of his lover, makes him likeable somehow, i love the delivery of this line

“Ares!” yeah shes pissed

“What kind of sick coward Holds back his power While his friends get devoured? He didn’t even fight Scylla Didn’t even try to kill her Hides inside a wooden horse to get the job done Never handles things upfront” sorry that he didnt want to DIE dude??? i get your concern with straight forward, open combat but???? is dying on the battle field rly that much worse than wanting to come home COME ON, he wins, he is EFFECTIVE, are you jealous of his stragedies? HE GOT MENTORED BY ATHENA; OFC HE WILL CHOOSE THE SMART WAY OUT NOT THE QUICKEST-WAY-TO-DIE WAY OUT smh

“Pathetic and weak like his son” thats a low blow what is your issue with telemachus bro, the drums for ares makes sense

“Hold your tongue now His son’s my friend” awwww shes calling him a frienddddddd

“And tell your lover that a broken heart can mend” AHAHAH “tell your lover”, true true

“You want more bloodshed? Then set him free To get back to his homestead, he’ll make everybody bleed” SEUHGSOUEGESH “if you let him back he’ll kill everyone” Ares: :D thats what i like to hear, Athenas piano playing again, as she fights Ares is fun too

“Ugh, release him”, what made them change their mind? Esp Aphrodite? was it Athenas concern for Telemachus? and for Ares athenas promise of bloodshed? maybe who knows

“Hey baby”.....okay, flirty? from Hera? alright, lets interpret it as motherly flirting

“Hera” how to hit those high notes

“So many heroes So many tales Give me one good reason why yours should prevail” NOW THAT is intersting, everyone else so far gave a reason NOT to release him, but now Hera asks her to give her one reason WHY he deserves to be released “dont tell me of all the sins he didnt commit, tell me of the virtue he holds” typa thing

“He’s got the mind of a genius”, fair, but there would be others

“Try harder”, encouraging, she doesnt rly want her to loose does she? she support it, she just wants to see if Athena is worth it, i do like this characterization (as long as i ignore the disco animatic, i know its Jorges creative freedom but my brain tries to refuse ANYTHING that would be a reference to modernity, let me live in the bliss of ignorance to pretend its a movie set in ancient greece x)

“He’s pretty skilled with words”, hes a lair, i love him for it

“You can do better than that”, ...yeah

“He’s kind of funny?” running out of reasons athena, also YOU THINK HES FUNNY? LMAO ur right, the odyssey is quite the commedy for anyone but odysseus (and a few others but yk)

“Eh” doesnt sound convinced heh

“Never once has he cheated on his wife” HA HA HAHAHAHAHA HA right thing to say to Hera

[also the whole debate about “did odysseus cheat or not” no. idc what anyone says. if anyone argues he INITALLY consented to Calypso: fine, its blurry in the narrative, anyone can choose how to interpret that as they wish, but Circe was bestowed upon him by Hermes (in the myth at least, in Epic there ofc very clearly refuses her, and she accepts him (hear that calypso? HEAR THAT CALYPSO)) and Calypso, at the very least later on turned VERY unconsensual. FOR SEVEN YEARS., but the “he liked her no more” could also mean she didnt like her as a person anymore after she saved him. its not 100% clear how the relationship started out, we just know how it ends rly, but given the historic context too, it might very well be that it wouldntve been considered as cheating, even if it was consensual, would hera consider it cheating bc she does so with Zeus? maybe, idk, i think the idea of Ody being (one of) the only greek hero(es) that doesnt cheat is one i like, he gets praised enough by homer for all his skills he might as well have the skill of being true to his wife, in EPIC we know that Ody refuses her from the beginning so whatever did or did not remain unnamed in Epic, would NOT be cheating,.........and anyone who mentions Odys proof for cheating being the telegony or any other later versions where suddenly children show up, and he offs penelope for cheating and telemachus marries circe, can kindly, do some more reading into the history of the text and how later authors added their own twists, we dont know if the odyssey from homer was the most well known version, i think, but its the one we consider canon now, and i rly refuse to believe that Ody coming home only to get a new wife]

“Release him” the side glace Zeus mustve gotten LMAO

...ok angry zeus choir again, rly?

“I’ve played your game and won”, she did, fair and square

“Release him” you better

“You dare to defy me?”, what happend to your voice zeus? also....are you pissed that she called you out on cheating? bro, ur just pissed that she choose everyone else over you, grow up zeus

“To make me feel shame?” shame about loosing the game or shame for the humiliation about cheating, mhh

“No one beats me, no one wins my game!”, sounds like my 3rd brother, but hes at least cute when hes throwing a fit about a game having rules

“Thunder, bring her through the wringer Show her I’m the judgement call The one who makes her kingdom fall! ”.your voice is getting worse btw, but...are we talking about pride still? Athenas pride? or is “her” just Athena now? mhhhh, Odysseus DID call her “selfish, prideful and vain”, so maybe it does refer to her pride, she DID Have a character arc tho >:) unlike zeus, hes just an ass, also he gets a choir background for this? intersting,

NOW HE THROWS LIGHTING AT HER??? thats intense, i was gasping when i saw, night sound design

“Is she dead?”, he does sound concerned, is it bc big brother energy or bc athena was zeus favorite child? or do they know how Zeus fucked up just now? hah..ha

the flashes you can hear in the music....aaaah

NOW THIS INSTRUMETAL PART

IS SO BEAUTIFUL ITS SO GOOD THE WAY “WARRIOR OF THE MIND” AND TELEMACHUS LULLABY AND LEGENDARY BLEND TOGETHER AND BECOME “ATHENAS FINIAL STAND” (as its supposedly called) ITS SO GOOD i ah i like this part the most of the song, together with apollos voice aseghsegij Aphrodite is fine too :) and "rly athena; these old tricks"

AlSO her having a flashback to Ody giving her Telemachus to hold after his birth, PLS??? Thats so vulnerableeeeee aaaaaaaaah yeah, yea that was good

“Let him go, please, Let him go”, she reaches out to Zeus, as her light dims and she begs him to let Ody go, nothing left of the selfish and prideful goddess, she was selfless- sacrifcing herself and ler go of her pride to beg to Zeus to let him go, who stops as he grabs to throw another lighting, in shocked realization of what he has done.

The song fades out. And we are left to wonder if Athena is ded or not

now initially i rly thought Jorge killed a goddess

by now im more hopeful that she isnt dead (im hoping for that, mostly for the fun of sticking to the source material of Athenas help in the last chapter(s) of the story)

but

im still doubting a bit. the chance is there that she is, infact, dead, but i dont know how that would impact the narrative-,...i suppose we’ll see, either in the vengence saga, or at the lastest in the ithica saga x)

[cosmicallyloved]

Its finally updated yayyy!

LETS GO

SPOILERS FOR 3.3 HSR AMPHOREUS

Thoughts: (im literally putting a sentence per in-game line, so this is LONG)

Did they change Caelus AND STELLE VA?!? BROO

Im not joking if they get kicked out im gonna be very sad

Multiplayer mode yay

"Mydei, may your battles know no defeat" uh MC...

I REALLY think Dan Heng will get the water coreflame, idk why, its the vibes

MC trying to focus but their phone buzzing is a mood

Cipher just enabled MC's trash lover side, girl

I dislike Styxia's OST. Its scary and i feel anxious

BRO IS ALREADY HERE??! FLAME REAVER GO AWAY

Why does flame reaver keep getting his clothes stuck on stuff, another piece of cloak!

HE WANTS THAT COREFLAME SO BAD AAAA😭

"the river of souls, full of fish" -> mem: what.

MEOW MEOW?? IS FLAME REAVER JUST A HUMANOID CAT??

Wait... This isnt Cipher is it?

I love how Mem starts questioning if this is dangerous WHEN flame reaver starts meowing😭 THATS THE BAR, MEM?? THAT?

I knew it was Cipher (is that why he kills her? Cus she made him a catboy?)

So if we make everyone believe flame reaver doesnt exist, with Zagreus's power, he will poof?

Cipher's way of getting around the prophecy is smart but also, its a cycle, you are forced to die so it can start the next cycle, it mightve worked if it was linear tho

Wait, if Dan Heng dies, will HE come back? He isnt a demi-god but he is a vidyadhara

Didnt Aquila's curse work ONLY on Amphoreus ppl? Lygus should be able to use that loophole to send us back yea?

Did Dan Heng seriously skip the whole vote casting JUST to go nerd on the elder's records? Based

IM SO SAD DAN HENG HAS NO VOICE! ID LOVE TO HEAR NICK GOING ABSOLUTELY CRAZY PLEASEEE

Being neutral in a fight is like cheering for both sides, what Lygus?

Joshua waters is crazy for their/his work on Phai, truly Amphoreus voice over is peak (honorable mention to Gnaeus's VA, gave me shivers)

"those who cant walk out of the shadows of their past are ultimately weak"

I hate hearing heartbeats, AND THIS PLACE IS BEATING SO LOUD DAM [grove of Epiphany library]

HALF OF THE DRAFT GOT DELETED BRUH

Yes blame your bad ending of love stories of flame reaver

"my professor cant be this shy" rlly gave MC flashbacks

Somehow Phainon reading scam books is a lot worse than reading "things he shouldnt read"

so Cyrene did write the Amphoreus story

"the cleaners" is such a bad name😭

Is Phai the type of person to say "language" when someone swears??

FAT FURRRR [Little Ica, AKA fat f***]

OLD MANNN [Krateros]

BRUH IS AGGY DYING THIS PATCH?? DIDNT EVEN SHOW IN TRAILER

Has she been alive for THAT long?

Caenis has the "anime dead mom" hairstyle

"aggy is beauty, aggy is grace, aggy will stab you in the face" wise words said by Hayden Daviau -> Tribbios VA

AGLAEA'S PROPHECY WAS THIS?!

Is "Bartholos" flame reaver? Dont tell me he can use any demi-god ability😄

[arch-nemesis-of-our-own]

heyyy!!! heres my super long info about me😭 i would like a matchup for pjo pls :) TAKE UR TIME IM SORRU!

personal info? 15 yrs old, i'm a girl, she/her(truly idc), bisexual, half mexican (white dad...)

physical: i have medium length wavy brown hair with grown out bangs, im 5'4 average weight, pretty tan, brown eyes, silver circle glasses, i wear smudgy eyeliner w/mascara, i either wear tank tops with big pants or big t shirt with shorts

personality: I'm honestly very weird with the people im close with, like very. i have brainrot humor so im always saying weird ass shit acting like it's normal and quoting tiktoks ALL THE TIME. i'm also very sarcastic and if im not very close with someone i give them like O reaction i guess and they cant tell im being sarcastic? idk ppl tell me im nonchalant but that sounds rily corny 😬anyway im very embarrassing in public when im with my friends and they hate it but i think its funny idc!! im also pretty moody but im just a teenage girl!!!!! i dont get mad that easily tho like i can take a joke i just get ANNOYED easily but then ill be fine in a few minutes. also ppl tell me im very funny so (meat riding myself) YES IM A NO SABO KID I AM TRYING TO LEARN SOANISH.

im an infp i think, taurus, my love language is quality time and acts of service, i like receiving gifts :) idrc for pet names i think theyre kinda corny and i use them ironically 😭

nicknames (real name faith): faithy, faithard, faithy poo, farty, froth (???) idk theyre weird

hobbies/intrests: love love love listening to music, love tv girl, tyler, mitski, arctic monkeys, the smiths, depeche mode, the cure, lana, tame impala, beabadoobee and so many other generes and artists but i only know like 2 songs🫣

i also had a severe fnaf phase, avatar the last airbender, spiderverse, saiki, and obvi percyjackson. currebtly into gravity falls now

currently OBSESSED with slushy noobz they are my whole personality they are how i act. along with avascreams on tiktok ive literally had 6 different ppl tell me "you know that one girl on tiktok?? you act just like her" IM TRILY NOT EVEN TRYING TO ACT LIKE HER I SWEAR. also love sam and colby i full heartedly believe in ghosts just watch ima become a ghost hunter☺️☺️

as of right now my hobbies are playing stardew valley and never getting my homework done, i also love to draw but im not very good at it. i also love painting but i haven't done it in a while bo of school:(( i take piano lessons as well but again, not very good even after 5 years. i rlly like reading too but again be of school i haven't read as much lately, love playing with my pets (dog and cat) they're so cute i love animals so so much i want more but know im busy, ive also gotten into working out be im tryna lose this face fat!🫥

me at school: im taking all hard class rn😞😞 just a bunch of honors with ap and dual credit😢 if i could choose i wouldnt be taking them but my mom is forcing me… i havr straught As right NOW but just wait a few months and theyll drop

anyway im pretty quiet in school and i dont really talk if i dont know anyone in the class bc im really awkward i feel, but if i have a friend in the class i dont feel uncomfortable and i act like an extrovert tbh

im not in any after school sports but i wanna fo art club (theres a cute guy there🤗)

likes: love carnival rides!!!! they're so fun i love the fair SO MUCH. beautiful atmosphere truly. the zipper is so fun don't let anyone lie to you, nature, i love going on walks in the woods but i can't be i don't live near any food i love tood, korean, mexican, american, japanese, i love it all. english class! teacher is so sweet i love her and its also easy and boring so

dislikes: six flags. i hate roller coasters. annoying ppl like bruh stfu up OH MY GOD. when my mom asks me about college, leave me alone pls! (i have way more dislikes i just cant remember at the top of my head)

okay thats all im so so sorry its so much info!!! again PLS take ur time !

-faith 😋

bro you are so me coded I fw you so heavy

Your PJO/HOO match is...

Leo Valdez!

leo would match your energy so well

he knows Spanish so trust he would help you lock in

i feel the two of you together is like dangerous levels of matching each other's freak

loves listening to music with to. it helps his brain quiet down for a moment.

he’s fixing your broken headphones, carrying your sketchbook, sneaking you snacks after class

he would cry on the zipper. as one does.

he fixes your stuff before you even know it's broken. with permission ofc, he's not evil

if you ever feel burnt out about school, he's always willing to help you escape the pressure for at least a moment with him

you would discuss the important things (can ghosts eat spicy foods? faith can possibly bench press Leo)

[br0jangles]

2x6 - IT'S NOT THAT SIMPLE

(spoilers for all three complete seasons will come up at various times as i point out foreshadowing)

about 5.3k words below the cut

lots of good the immortal content this episode, and some classic allen soft dom content

"resume watching?" sigghhhh no ill watch more than just the allen clips this time

i cant BELIEVE rex is about to get shot in the head and GET BACK UP he really proved he dont use his brains for anything

damn but watching it is still shocking T-T rip little baby ill miss u even tho ur an asshole

rudy just sitting dead still and letting the carnage splash him in the face while he works and everyone fights like hell around him hahaha okay go off rudy

like even his hair is flying all around and hes chilling, i guess he got over his human death fears pretty quickly

ouughghgh and the martin gets some more of that real good begging in while hes begging for someone to come take the device and detonate it (his name is shapesmith dude, LEARN NAMES)

man this dick measuring competition between the immortal and mark is kinda crazy, its crazy that this traumatized shell of a man with the im-the-only-one-who-ever-lives-in-the-end complex has the presence of mind to take a step back and let mark do his thing

okay they managed to make the visually unsatisfying fight more satisfying by giving it personal drama, alright invincible writers ill learn to be patient, i will learn my lessons too

THE IMMORTAL DOESNT JUST STEP BACK AND LET MARK DO HIS THING, THAT MAN FALLS IN LINE BEHIND HIM, PROVIDES HIM WITH BACKUP AND HELPS PUSH HIM FORWARD SO EVERYONE CAN WIN, I THINK IM IN LOVE WITH THE IMMORTAL, WHAT A MAN!!!!!!!!!!

and bulletproof shouting "HELL YES WE DID IT!!!!!" is such a good inclusion bc its so easy to see mark deliver the final blow and think "mark did it" but its their teamwork that got them through it, THEY ALL DID IT

and the immortal brings it in at the end to meet mark in the middle and they both save the day T-T

bruh im gonna cry why is the immortal like that, hes trying his best guys TTT-TTT thats why hes such a good rex ship cuz rex isnt trying AT ALL, hes just riding his good looks and hoping for the best, and if he wants immortal to show him how its done he has to ask sincerely. but he doesnt know how to be sincere and he doesnt know what hes missing out on

omg and rex let the immortals girlfriend die, i bet hes FULL OF A PENT UP SOMETHING FOR THAT BOY

this is fucking nuts dude hahahahaha

jeeeeeesus

ugh its so pathetic that rex is whimpering and flinching away from such an unscary dude, you just fought a guy big enough to bite off your hand, and youre scared of this little snake?

not to discount rexs pain, of course hes scared and he had half his brain blown out im sure hes right to be a little disoriented, but its like T-T. THAT GUY is doing this to you?

KICK HIS ASS REX, DONT LET HIM DO THIS TO YOU

"i cant believe you shot me in the fucking head" WHO BRINGS A GUN TO A SUPE FIGHT?

STOMP HIS ASS REX

REMIND HIM HES JUST A WORM

its crazy the way the title screen feels so cheap and meaningless when its a rex throw hahahaha that boy is so unserious. wasnt the only other one that time rex said it after the maulers blew up? when mark was being very UN-vincible

DAMN RAE WAS IN THERE THE WHOLE TIME? GIRL ARE YOU OKAY?

"we can not let you leave with the great betrayer" and shapesmith looking around like "who me?" yeah your cute little ignorant son of a bitch act isnt gonna work right now, you fucked up for real

theyre really trying to make me like rudy, is he the only one who knows how to fly that ship? sometimes a guy is too good at something and it makes him a monster. (same can be said for conquest, and angstrom, and all the alternate marks, and the main character of perfume by patrick suskind). he IS really smart but he thinks that it makes him THE smartest and he doesnt understand that he cant always be in control of everything. if he thinks amanda is going to let him control her hes got another thing coming. its a good thing he decided to start off as a child cuz hes got a lot to learn. (all 30 year old men are children on the inside, they dont know how to grow up)

okay shapesmith oversharing about his school trip instead of just saying he doesnt know how the ship works is nudging back into appropriate territory hahaha but he still got off too easy for his massive fuckup

AND MARK CLIMBS OUT THE SHIP TO TAKE MATTERS INTO HIS OWN HANDS, THATS WHAT IM TALKING ABOUT BABYYYYYYYYYYY

TAKE EM OUT MARKY

the immortal really boosted his confidence earlier

and he gets rewarded with an eve hug when hes done, i guess he deserves it. theyre really starting to…. yk… behind ambers back….

NOOOO THE IMMORTAL TELLS MARK HE DID A GOOD JOB AND OFFERS HIM A HANDSHAKE, IM GONNA SCREAM AT THE TOP OF MY LUNGS

the immortal is a king, hes doing king shit, okay i take back what i said about him not being a good leader, hes traumatized but hes got his shit together

i actually love the contrast between rudys robot ass "it was unpleasant having my mind under sequid control" and shes like "no shit bro that shit was nuts" hahahahahahaha i love her

oh he BRINGS UP what i said about him controlling his fears. its unclear to me if he managed to conquer his fears naturally or if he went ahead and did science on his brain, but the way he uses it to gateway into offering to fix amanda again makes me think he did science to his brain

ugh the way she says no and he keeps pushing her so she has to say no AGAIN rudy youre on thin ice. i sympathize but youre on THIN ICE.

"im sorry i didnt mean to" if youre going to apologize to her then you need to take the apology seriously and understand why it hurt her feelings and work toward coming to a stance you can both agree on. at the end of the day its her body and her choice and if you dont like what shes doing with it then you can mind your own business and get lost. i know when he does manage to cure her later she DOES end up being happy with the results, but the road to get there is extremely rocky. offering to help her once was enough. shes allowed to sit with the offer and come to her own conclusion on her own time, you dont have to keep shoving it down her throat until she has no choice but to throw it back up. you already told her, she already knows youre willing to help, just let her decide for herself. to put it in robot terms, what hes doing to her is like if you logged on to your computer and your search engine popped up all on its own and started searching for cat pictures, but you dont want to look at cat pictures right now, youre trying to access your work email, but your algorithm says you really like cat pictures and you must want to look at cat pictures right now right???? and youre trying to close the tabs but he just keeps opening new ones until theres so many you get that little drop down menu bc they dont fit on your screen anymore, just cat pictures, endless cat pictures, until youre like well… theyre kinda cute tho ig

ive tried to start the next scene with debbie and cecil like six times but im still thinking about rudy, they did it, they made me get into his head, let me move on please

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA DEBBIE SAYS "alright lets see if we can get through this without you peeing on me again" like shes talking to oliver, but shes talking DIRECTLY TO CECIL

debbie roasts cecil so good, god i love her

i bet debbie and nolan used to have cecil hater gossip sessions back when they were still happily married

"the gda has a whole department of" blah blah blah

debbie has zero time for cecils shit anymore hahahahaha

this is his best attempt at a charming smile because he has no other options left while he says "we paint clouds on the ceiling" as if painted clouds could EVER replace what its like for a child to see real ones

get a life cecil, get losttttt

"no one expects you to raise his kid, let us help" BRUH STEP OUT OF HER PERSONAL LIFE, ITS NOT YOUR FAMILY ITS HERS!!!!!!!!!!!!! YOURE A GOVERNMENT BITCH TAMER AND THE GRAYSONS REFUSE TO BE YOUR BITCHES

debbie trying to tell cecil "its not about nolan, its about mark, this is his brother" girl youre wasting your breath, youre not going to make his heart grow, he doesnt have one

and that little nugget of wisdom is ALL he gets before he tries to cut her off again, but she just plows right over his pathetic ass to say "im gonna mother the fuck out of this kid and you cant stop me" (but debbie maybe you should slow down before you start painting your childs skin a different colour. theres confidence and then theres OVER confidence which comes with a lot more blind spots)

"alright you win. but i expect to be kept in the loop" cecil that is NOT YOUR CHILD WHO DO YOU THINK YOU ARE???? YOURE ACTING LIKE SHES YOUR BABY MOMMA AND SHES MAKING YOU PAY CHILD SUPPORT AND NOT LETTING YOU SEE HIM, GET OUT OF HERE, SHE DOESNT EVEN WANT YOUR GRUBBY MONEY

eve: "im gonna need an entire box of qtips to get the sequid slime out of my ears" mark: "youre lucky it only got in your ears" EXCUSE ME?? HAHAHA where else did they touch you mark, show us on the doll

why black samson say "uh oh" when he sees donald in the hospital

uuugggghhhhhh the immortal sitting with kates mangled body im gonna throw up, hes soo saaaadddddddd uuuggghghhhhhh

THE IMMORTALLLLLLLLLLLL TTT-TTT

mark i swear to GOD take your fucking mask off during emotional moments, you look like a cunt rn

ugh and eve being all sad at rexs window all by herself cuz shes the only one who cares about him and cuz he just reminded her how sweet he could be when hes not being a fuck up. why do boys always fuck up????? why dont they ever learn????? its ok eve, cry for a lil bit, its ok

ugh and mark runs to amber cuz he thinks thats what he SHOULD do and they just stand there and hug while she cries and they dont actually talk about anything

i hate that debbie named him oliver instead of letting him choose his own name, i hate it i hate it so much, her cultural oppression of him has begun. you dont have to call him "nolans alien baby" you can call him "marks brother" just like you told cecil earlier. being marks brother is what makes him important to you so why would you call him "nolans alien baby". i hope he gets an arc at some point where he chooses his own name (at least he gets to pick kid omniman)

and mark trusts debbie (of course he should, shes been making incredible choices for his whole life until now) so he just agrees its a good name and lets it happen

the immortal: "kate was a fearless warrior" SHE WAAASSSSS "though her powers were a family curse, she believed they were a gift" KKKAAAATTTEEEEEEEE ITS A BLESSING AND A CURSE BABY MAN UP AND BE THE MAGICAL GIRL YOU WERE DESTINED TO BE!!!!!!!!!!!!!! "she encouraged me to do the same" NOOOOO I SHIP THEM SO MUCHHHHH WHY DOES HE FORGET HER LATER "kate was a kindred soul" oh the immortal oh honeyyy, life is hard and then you move on, thats all you can do

"why do i feel this way markus" omg nolan just had the EXACT SAME LINE OF DIALOGUE when he was choking mark out and demanding to know why he cared for those little bug aliens so much. the way the immortal starts crying about it before lashing out is a real sign of how much more mature than nolan he is. nolans still a little baby experiencing love for the first time, and the immortal has lost more loves than he can count

"i loved many others before kate. all of them died as well." hes so good at articulating his emotions, omfg TTT-TTT "but this… this is different" THEN WHY DID YOU FORGET HERRRRR you gotta remember all your loves and cherish them bc they were what made your life worth living, even when they end in tragedy

"i thought we had more time together" it always feels like that doesnt it sweetheart TTT-TTT but things end, good things end for the same reason bad things do, nothing lasts forever, and she died dedicating herself to her lifes purpose

omg and we cut to a scene of mark and amber sitting awkwardly across from each other at a cafe? yikes this cant be good

oh god this is so awkward

but mark DOES get +1 points for letting amber insist he go first and then using his turn to ask amber how she is

IS MARK FUCKING WITH HER BY SAYING DEBBIE CHEWS OLIVERS FOOD

HES NOT FUCKING WITH HER HAHAHAHAHA

he cant read a room to save his life, tell her something NORMAL

"can i just say this feels like a first date? i missed you…" oh amber please just leave him, hes gone already, he was never there in the first place and now hes noticing how hard eve is simping for him, hes a lost cause

the way she touches his hand to try to spark that intimacy back up T-T amberrrrr

and he leans in and DOESNT KISS HER???? YOU JUST SAID ITS NOT A FIRST DATE, KISS HER LIKE SHES YOUR GIRLFRIEND

girl you can do so much better please im begging you on my knees

uggghghhhh shes trying again to tell him how she hates having to lie on his behalf, hes putting her into a box and she cant move

"sure theres william but hes more your friend than mine" OH AMBERRRR LET WILL AND AMBER BE FRIENDS, WILL IS SUCH A GOOD WINGMAN AND CAN HELP HER FIND A REAL MAN

"its our first time being free and it feels like we are missing it" oh shes trying to be so gentle with him by saying "we" instead of "me"… mark shes telling you shes desperate, she needs to have a life and youre stringing her along

"you know sometimes i wish i never got powers, then i could just be with you" mark your dad did it and you can do it too, youre just not committed, you dont appreciate her enough

"but you do have powers and that means you have an obligation to make the world a better place" SHE SAID WITH GREAT POWER COMES GREAT RESPONSIBILITY "and if you didnt feel that way we wouldnt be dating to begin with" oof girl ive got some news for you, your man is a pussy whos afraid of his own powers, you picked him that way on purpose. (sorry sorry i know hes learning and getting better but hes just got such a punchable face and hes fucking up)

and mark asks "so what do we do now" and it cuts to the next scene bc marks not smart enough to figure it out yet

omg will looks so happpyyyyyy that rick is back, he deserves it

rick says "turns out im… fine?" like he doesnt believe hes fine T-T

will is so up beat and carrying the whole conversation though, and poor donny is trying to be there for these fucked up kids but hes got his own fucked up shit going on

mark: "its like nothing happened" don: "but something DID happen" TELL MARK CECIL IS EVIL DONALD

mark visits rex in the hospital and rex asks "hows rae" oh you sneaky little

"yk when i died i saw my life flash before my eyes" did it change you? please tell me it changed you. "and i didnt like what i saw" so what are you gonna do about it sweetheart?

"i was such a dick to every woman i ever dated" it took you getting shot in the head to figure that out?

"i dont know why i had to get my brains blow out to see that" i think a rough cock in the mouth would have had the same effect

the way rex whines and moans before asking mark whats on his mind hahahahaha i love you rex, the only one with the balls to tell mark his emo shit is exhausting

before i move onto the next scene i wanna add about rex, he should have taken getting shot in the head as an opportunity to get out. if he cant even handle a guy with a gun, what chance did he have of surviving the fight thats coming? he should have taken the leap to commit to rae and retire with her, but he couldnt do it. hes still caught up in his sexy boy fantasy and doesnt realize when enough is enough and he fucking dies, rip rex

the way rex jumps up and screams her name when eve walks in, maybe he CAN learn how to beg

omg rex keep your mouth shut dont tell marks business to eve hahahaha he swings and misses every time he almost does a good thing

cecil sending those nanny spies and debbie shooing them out and mumbling "that man cant take a hint" DO YOU THINK???? youre too easy on him

man and he still manages to pick a nanny that debbie cant resist, i really hope this doesnt come back to bite the graysons in the ass. "i work for you miss grayson, not cecil" i hope youre telling the truth

why the fuck is cecil in eves treehouse

leave her alone, dont prey on her desires to be part of a team to bring her to your heel

she handles it with a surprising amount of grace though

amber coming to visit eve is crazy cuz she cant just fly there T-T

literally why does mark go to art hahahaha why the fuck would you pick art

"i love amber and i want to be with her but" honey that "but" is the reason you dont really love her, if you did then you wouldnt have so many excuses not to prove it to her

"rex is the only boyfriend i ever had, which is so sad to admit out loud" hahahaha yeah eve

he cheated on her so much, eveeeee dont make the same mistake of putting mark on that pedestal, listen to how much he hurt amber and dont let him hurt you too

"mark puts himself on the line for people he doesnt even know" amber starts, and mark cuts her off before she can get to "but he wont put himself on the line for me and it sucks"

"the problem is, im invincible" no buddy no no no no no its not your powers fault its YOURS for not using them the right way. guns dont kill people, people kill people.

amber says mark makes her feel like a jerk for missing him when hes not there T-T no girl it hurts because he makes you miss him even when hes standing right in front of you

mark is trying to say his dad wasnt around enough, and maybe thats true, but he did his best to be AROUND when he was around. debbie taught him how to enjoy a baseball game, and he tried to help mark learn how to ride his bike before he got pulled away to go save a life. he made an EFFORT and its something mark hasnt learned how to do yet

art: "well if you cant always be together then make the time you ARE together count for something" art is so wise listen to him mark

amber: "i feel guilty, like im taking him away from people who really need him" GIRL YOU NEED HIM! AND IF HES GOING TO CLAIM TO BE YOUR BOYFRIEND THEN YOUR NEEDS SHOULD MATTER TO HIM! he refuses to center her AT ALL. he just wants A GIRLFRIEND and doesnt care who she is

"i knew dating mark would be difficult, i just didnt know it would be so lonely" omg amber im so sorry for you T-T

he makes her feel like a failure bc HIS failures are so large, and he leaves other people to clean up his messes just like his daddy

eve giving amber the advice: "you should be talking to him" strikes a wildly different chord than the one it strikes when art says it to mark. eve is just victim blaming amber cuz shes jealous of amber, as if amber hasnt tried hard enough to get mark to open up, while arts advice to mark is sincere. focus on her or you will lose her!!!

"even after everything he did, i didnt realize how much i missed him" MARKKKK "maybe that makes me a bad person" art: "no mark it makes you human" LISTEN TO HIM MARK

nolan gave his erotica novels to art as a tip once, they totally messed around, nolan is a swinger

i mean look at arts face

hes got a few fond memories to recall of nolan

more book covers to capture

"lost inside the chasm to oblivion" and "hate tribes on the planet wreck"

cut to will saying "yeah they just rebuilt the quad exactly the same" to his boyfriend who they rebuilt exactly the same

rick is giving real buffy the vampire slayer vibes when they bring her back from the dead

"am i… me again?" OH RICK, IM SO GLAD WILL IS SO SUPPORTIVE

and mark starts reading his daddys books ohhhh, im so soft rn, im so soft rn, he gets to enjoy his dads company through his writing!!!! im soooo sooofooffttttt

the way he laughs at the title and goes "catchy title dad" HE LOVES HIS DAD SOO MUCHHHH READ HIS BOOKS MARK GET TO KNOW HIM MORE INTIMATELY

the way it cuts to a full picture enactment of it implies mark is living the fantasy while reading, im so fucking SOFT RN

nolans writing voice is so cute i want to kiss him, little fucking scifi nerd, let me at him

nolan: "if the infinity gun is real, it poses a huge threat to our mission" mark: "huh ok" ARE YOU LISTENING???? YOU NEED TO FIND THE GUN

nolan had a partner when he went on these adventures??? that means he had opportunity in the past to form real connections with his peers and failed to do so. either because he didnt know how, or because they also had their guards up so far, or both. the viltrumites look down on love to such a degree he cant even have a camaraderie with his partner, its strictly business.

nolan writing play pretend like he was scared when he got surrounded by those monsters, he knows a good novel is nothing without a little tension

nolan: "i had underestimated these creatures, and i feared this place would be my grave" just like how you underestimated humans?

and mark gets all exciting when hes reading like

is this the part where the monsters fuck him? we will never know bc cecil is here to ruin everything again (sorry i said you didnt know how to read mark, i forgot you did read them yourself)

cecil trying to force the immortal off duty and the immortal seething at him "how dare you!?" ohhhh get him the immortal, dont let him talk to you like that

"i dont need your pinheads poking around my brain!" TELL HIM THE IMMORTAL

"kates death was difficult for everyone" please put your entire fist down his throat the immortal please please please

the way he screams "i said im fine!" hes trying so hard to stay polite T-T he could say fuck off but hes got manners

"someones coming in hot from deep space" cecil always talks about allen this way hahahaha as if allen is a fucking meteor plummeting toward earth and needs to be stopped

omg this is when allen gets to soft dom the immortal LETS GOOOO

youre so big and buff now baby look at you

you take up the WHOLE SCREEN MY GUY

allen dodges him sooooo easy, the immortals lashing out like fuck and allens just holding him back by the forehead and letting him wear himself out

"hey chill the hell out! i do not want to hurt you sir!"

SOFT DOM HIM ALLEN, CALM HIM DOWN, he does really need a hug rn and your big strong arms are right there

youre levelling him up to verbal insults, youre really pushing him the immortal

"ill kill you!!!" "we just met!!!!" god i love allen more than anything, get to know a guy a little before you try to kill him

allens alien jokes "you have those on earth right? douchebags?" are so corny hes so corny ugghhhhh its never funny when he does it like when the shapesmith does it hahahaha

allens ability to connect with people in their heads but being unable to connect two other minds is soooooo him… he can make you fall in love with him, but he cant make you fall in love with each other

allen ripping on the immortals beard is so fucking funny ksdjbfgs he has a type and its nolan grayson

thats it allen wear him down gently, ease it into him nice and slow

and the way the immortal floats away all sad, sorry big guy hahahaha you can come back and fight allen a little more if you want, he just wanted you to take him to dinner first

mark on the other hand, allen wont fight him til he grows up a little, instead hes just gonna swoop in and offer a helping hand and urge him along and pat him on the head and be on his way

amber trying to text mark she misses him and deleting it, oh amberrrrrr just break up with him, break up with him before you get even more hurt!!!! he cant keep you safe!!!!!

jesus lord almighty though, the way he leans in over mark to say "that means somebodys fucking" hes a soft bully through and through BULLY THAT VIRGIN

allen is patient and knows how to bide his time til a guy is ready for him ouughghghghg he knows hes too powerful for a virgin to handle (but i want mark to try to handle him anyway, god damn it dude)

"youre a lot bigger than the last time i saw you" guess what else is bigger mark? keep gassing him up and youll find out

allen: "yeah i got murdered by viltrumites and changed a little" mark: "im not gonna ask if youre okay though"

allens trying to tell mark about the old guy but he doesnt even have enough info to give, he says "he rebelled like.. years ago!" bc that old fucker wont give him anything real to work with

and he says "if only we could win over your dad"

oh you will win him over, dont you worry your pretty big head about it

mark says "theyre gonna execute him" i swear i dont listen, the last time i watched this i was questioning if they knew about the execution or not

im having such a hard time not taking thousands of screenies of allen hahahaha hes looking good this ep

the voice he gives his little COP speech in aaaaa hes so silly i love him so dearly

allen insists that mark needs to come with him and mark is like "yeah but i have relationship problems" and allen is like "well thats a good excuse, i guess you can stay and figure it out" HES SO FULL OF LOVEEEEEEE

"nah, i dont fight friends. cuz i would win." allen youre so big and strong and sexy, one day mark will be on your level

but allen can fight with nolan as much as he wants, cant he OTL

allen is so thrilled to see nolans books omfgfgggg

hes so cute i cant stand it

"can i scan these to take back to the COPs?" i guess so…

allen offering to put out feelers for mark on nolans whereabouts is so many thousands of times more useful than anything cecil has ever done

hahahaha will coming back to remind me to daydream about mark and allen fucking with the sock on the door

the one eyed viltrumite trying to intimidate nolan is so pathetic, sorry, idk if he gets scary later but hes not scary yet

he spits in nolans face: "you were a terrible monster, one of the greatest ever raised by the empire, and you think youre allowed to change your mind now?" YES CUNT HE CAN CHANGE HIS MIND

and he throws nolan against the wall in his big tough guy fit, girl nolan let you do that cuz hes suicidal rn but youll pay for it later

and he threatens nolans precious humans which gets a bit of a rise out of nolan, but its still not enough to make him stand up and fight back. what happened to all that bravery he was showing in front of mark? isnt it kill or be killed? you gonna let that little bitch kill your family?

i forgot the real guy shapesmith took the face of exists HAHA

man those fucking squids wont die will they, just like those green bug aliens from season one

angstrom just stole that fucking suit jacket bro, call the police

2x5 < [2x6] > 2x7

all episodes

[lookotherway]

idk how many times i have to say this but i will say this again and again until your brain expands and gets some space for basic manners that BLACK ASIAN AND BLASIAN ARE EXTREMELY RACIST TO ASIAN.

Asia have like, 48 countries, 5 regions, 3 trans-continentals, is extremely diverse and divergent not just geographically but also historically and culturally. Asian has mixed, yes, but even if we are not mixed our skins still range from pale to rosy to tanned to dark; that doesn’t make Asian any other race than Asian themselves. if you refer any tanned/dark-skin Asian as black asian or blasian - placing ‘black’ before ‘asian’ - you are fucking including two races as one and five regions as one and several cultures as one then dismissing all of them to claim that as your black people. that’s fucking racist, thank you.

first you people deem every light-skin Asian Chinese, then you deem light-skin Asian has white-passing, now you claim dark/tanned-skin Asian as black people.

What the fuck is that???? have we Asian lost entirely our human rights to that point?

don’t you fucking dare use those words. Asian has learnt not to use n*gg* nowaday because we have been taught to respect black people so now if you want true racial equality you better respect Asian as well. stop using ‘black asian’ ‘blasian’, stop dismissing blackwashing Asian character, stop painting your representation over Asian representation, stop thinking only your races have to face racism in history and modern day, stop racist to other races. 

if you commit anything above, you’re violating what’s called racial equality.

[jumengz]

math and love ;lee juyeon>

math was really a wreck ball for you, you never understood it, but soon enough, who knew would soon be a turn over with the help of juyeon; quiet, smart, mean and couldn't be bothered about anyone but he is such a heart throbber, why must such a jerk be so pretty?

math.. it was the most dreading 3 hours of your day, you, barely awake, woken up by your name called out by your teacher. you quickly stood up full of anticipation you actually studied for this exam so it made you more excited expecting a good results. your results... disappointed you so badly but why? you studied for long hours for this exam though.. you slumped your shoulders as your math teacher gave you that look, she wanted to talk to you, "i think you really need some help.. your results gets worse each time. meet me after class" shitty was what you felt it was so annoying, you never understood math and now really proves math is really not your subject.

the bell rang, i slowly picked my bag to look for your math teacher. you entered her classroom, but she wasnt the only one there, beside her was a tall, black haired, well put upped; lee juyeon. what the hell. you didnt even want to take a step closer anything with juyeon would be hell, he was mean to everyone and so selfish. "there you are! i think i found your way to ace this class" your math teacher said with a wide smile on her face pointing to juyeon "your new tutor!", he just looked at you with no reaction. "oh please, he barely even shares his notes, your asking him to teach me now?" you said full of disgust "i dont think so, he was the one that actually proposed this idea to me juyeon is such a gem!" you stood there mouth agape, in disbelief as you swallowed her words, you looked up to see juyeon looking right in your eyes pricking up a grin 'nah bruh..' you thought.

well you still had to suck it up, but you still couldn't believe it even at the fact that your walking to his house together now to start your first session "so, let me guess you dont study at all?" juyeon said raising his eyebrows, oh that made you little angry, "hey! i actually did! really hard! i just cant get math, math hates me i hate math" you said juyeon just looked at you admiring you, it was just juyeon but come to look at him hes actually really pretty. reality hits when you took a step into his room, math... again. "so what is so difficult for you" he said that with his head leaning on his right hand staring right into your eyes, "i dont know..." you replied he just chuckled showing his pearly whites. after sometime, we finally got somewhere to start, honestly i dont know why but for the first time i actually understood math a lot better it was unbelievable.

you tried doing the question but at the corner of your eyes you kept looking at him, but he was already staring deep at you, you quickly looked away with your rosy cheeked, cursing yourself, then juyeon let out a laugh "was that worth a laugh?" you yelped "it was pretty cute" juyeon laughed pinching your cheeks, that made your heart race so fast "why am i acting like this?" you quietly thought. it was dark already and you were getting alot tired, you kept dozing off and waking up until you really felt off and slept while juyeon went to go get water for you, he came back to you sleeping on his table, he quietly took tiny steps back to his seat infront of you, placing the water gently on the table, he looked at you, adrenaline rush came it was full of love, he reached out his hands and tucked your hair behind your ear "your so cute fuck" he cursed he went closer to you feeling the warmth between the two of you.

juyeon fully laid beside you with both your heads on the tables, you slowly opened your eyes only to see juyeons perfects face causing you to react and the cup of water spilled all over you "shit" you let out juyeon quickly picked up the cup, getting a cloth to dry your shirt he quickly went to his closet to bring out a hoodie "its abit big but wear this, i dont want you falling sick" he said with a concerning voice. coming out of the toilet with his clothes, why have you not ever notice how juyeon was such a sweet person it made you fold for him much more, you have never seen this side of him before you were only used to the juyeon that gave people looks ,selfish, never shared any notes with anyone. juyeon keep his eyes as you walked over to him "sorry.." you said he just nodded his head he was too busy looking at his clothes on you "my clothes look even better on you, you worked really hard today, and honestly i had a hard time trying to keep my feeling kept but fuck your so loveable, i may be a jerk to everyone but honestly i would do anything for you it kills me to just see you and i would be too scared to approach you, i really like you" you just stood there "what the fuck" was the shit you thought i never imagined this but honestly i loved him so much more today, you walked to him, heat generating in you as you leaned to him and you placed your lips on his, he took it and embraced it, the warmth filled the room, breaking the kiss juyeon chuckled "stay with me tonight and forever please"

[almalvo]

STAR TREK: DISCOVERY | S1E5 "Choose Your Pain"

[I will react to each episode individually and in full, raw reception and then post as is unrevised here onto my tumblr for the full span of every and all NuTrek episodes and series that have been and will be released. If this falls under your field of interest - I welcome your company in joining me. Enjoy the ride.] -------

yeah i still dont like a black woman being "someone to fear burnham" idk guess we'll see. hmm i feel like there could be something in that telescope oml this view into the bridge and other facilities onboard discovery at the start of this episode is SO PRETTYYY let me LIVE. there. oh this is weird oh so space bear gets the titty stab but not burnham XD ofc ofc awww space bear depressed let him outttt id be depressed too, stuck in there with only a slop bucket and no moss in sight :/

ayyyyeee vulcan aboardd also why katrina's eyes are so red is she ok? bruh i been preoccupied by tardigrades too um ok lorca, mr. isaac clarke over here with your eye stabbery i kinda like lorca's face. hes so "f everything idgaf" oh my god the scale of the ship next to the shuttlepod

beat em up oh crap hmm hes gone so acting captain'll be saru thatll be interesting ugh i love this intro theres this feeling of utter suspension hearing and seeing it ugh seeing discovery fly through all these things and spin its so nice ugh the handssssssssssss i love the measurements and all these things and the constellations left behind ugh so much to see look at saruuuu cant wait till he frkn understands burnham's previous decisions and can stop treating her so blah i love his eyes WHO ARCHER JONATHAN AAAA PIKE CHRISTOPHER OH FUCKKKKK AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA AND THEN IT WILL BE you know. you know. YOU. KNOW. oh my god ok shaking okokokokok MUDD DID YOU JUST SAY YOUR NAME IS MUDD MUDDDDDDDDDDD AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA oh my god this is so cool

oh dang. this poor guy. he was just in there to get foot in face. you sure are mudd. you sure do do that survivin. hi stamets. lmaooooo he knows hes brilliant - get it stamets own that shit it is kind of odd hearing burnham say such praise haha oh yeah its all BURNHAMS fault uhuh. cool to see some lone captain scenes its so odd to see such serious lighting in a trek production. listen. this is still all so NEW to me k. this guy ash tyler is pretty what is that its cute but also id be way to scared to come anywhere near that thing ughhh this outside shot of ncc discovery is so PRETTY thats so interesting? warp freeways because of space shrooms. damn. im with it.

DI DID DID DID THE THEY USE THE F WORD ON S T A R T R E K ???? DID THEY FUCKING USE THE FUCKING F BOMB ON FUCKING STAR TREK, ON THE FUCKING STAR TREK ARE YOU FUCKING SHITTING ME RIGHT FUCKING NOW HOLY FUCK I DID NOT I DID NOT HEAR THAT. my fucking mandible fell off when i heard that. i cannot believe what i just witnessed. i cannot believe my ears. not even AOS did the "fuck". oh my god "fuck" is canon in trek. that brought tears to my eyes hang on yall holy. shit… ima table that cuz i cant get over that idk when i can wow

saru has the perfect voice its so saru. its really cool to see his face like this the prosthetic is so great. it looks more real than (almost) anything pure cgi. cuz it IS real. i love it. beautiful example of practical effects. beautiful execution. also sorry but "predator"? really…? i dont appreciate burnham's treatment at all when its already bad enough that black women are almost always represented racially or with such a societal disdain cuz fucking EVERYONE hates black women. it is what critically annoys me in this series above all else so far :/ also sorry but WHAT THE FUCK DID STEWART DO HOW DARE YOU FUCKING THROW IT FUCK. YOU.

#LorcaNotMyCaptain

ugh not again with the titty stabbers. dude. this is slavery. let the fucking space bear go. look what you did to it. he shriveled up to survive. i HATE the treatment of other lifeforms in this series so far. CRACK IT OPEN? fuck you saru. fuck you too stamets. man everyone is so unlikeable. thats another issue i have in this show so far almost everyone is unlikeable af.

i didnt get to know phillipa that much so not much to say. burnham is so standoffish, idk if we have anough time to unravel her dimensionally. sylvia is kind of more annoying than endearing. lorca is lorca. ofc i dont like him (except i DO like an unperfect captain - i just wonder if hes redeemable). stamets is so catty like i get it yes be proud of your ideas that people might be ignorant towards but bruh still theres not enough good quality to counterbalance it so far. saru looks cool sure but hes so blatantly crass towards even other non-human lifeforms when he himself is non-human, cuz sry all that "crack it open" bullshit is gross af, desperation or not. i would NOT want him as my acting captain, ill say that, no matter how pretty he might be. i like ash tyler the most so far. i mean i get it its only episode 5 of 15 in s1 of 5 seasons - but still maybe im not too used to this many characters simultaneously being difficult to connect with. im gonna wait and see if this all develops. saru's feet. are hooflike his hands are so expressive his shape is so hes so lank. im SO impressed with how amazing he looks up close. i can SEE the subsurface scattering of his skin and the blood in his veins yeah please. we need this small talk with saru. thanks. k. i needed to see this redemptive quality in saru and co. cuz the getgo, everyones so adverse to alignment and connectivity

poor space bear i really hope you will be happy out there, mossie. youre FREEEE oh my god. space bear just warped. oh my god WARPING space bear. i need a plushie of it. mossie. stamets and doc. they gay for each other. they hubbies. they are literally brushing teeth together. yeuip. they gay. mhm. for sure. wow. first ever fucking explicitly gay couple in star trek. and it took this FUCKING long. i aint talking about TOS yall, we all know the love story that is the first 4 seasons + 6 classic films + 3 alternate reality films of Star Trek k - i just mean very literal and established archetypically, that makes sense. about fucking time. IDIC is literally mother gay but this took half an entire century to fucking show a gay couple onscreen. fuck me. k well. SNW Season 2 and 3, dont let us down. Im going to fucking die if theres even a wisp of something near Lower Deck's "K+S" carving scene. i digress.

alright DISCO, ima see how you unpack all this universal animosity, cuz damn are you thick with it in the first entire third of your first season.

[burgycreeper405-blog]

a messy rant talk cuz am angy

bruh, osc twitter is so fnckin toxic like, they just gave me extreme trust issues that i just start to not follow or even interact with anyone outside of my friend circle immediately even if they art is cool and chet cuz whenever i interact with anyone (like follow, reply or somthin) they will go and block me bcuz someone tells them that i did something bad without even knowing what it is, yet they believe them like they know me better

and the only thing i did was ship knife and mic, ive known that the siblings hc is everywhere and i asked allot of times why its so popular, yet no one is telling me so i did my own search about it but noooo they be harassing and spamming me in quote retweets and calling me out and chet for an info that a newcomer wouldnt know instead of just dm-ing me,, they fr had to tell the public about it

like bro, i just joined not even a year in, just a month in, yet they harassing me like ive been here since day one

and might i let you know that the “proof” they be spamming me is almost a decade old, like, they didnt even ask the person if theyre still okay with it or not, a friend of mine has to ask them about it and guess what, he doesnt even mind it anymore

and then them saying “we reached out to burgy but they did nothing” like??? did my thread that i did and deleting the microknife art mean nothing?? even if the person said that its not even a big deal anymore?? yall need to get more info than just info that’s decades ago cuz like, you do know people change right?

and just cuz i posted that thread a day late cuz like bro, i was tryna write it as clear as possible yet that is nothing to you???

like yeah, i blocked some people but they were spamming and harrassing the frick out of me and chet like dude, i get it, your proof is a decade old, try and see if its still accurate sheesh, shut up, i have never blocked anyone unless theyre being annoying, and thats what i did, i unblocked them a few days later

and now its about the GKGG au??? like bro, it’s an au, obviously its different from canon, and now bcuz of that, my friend has to do an explanation about it here even if it’s so obviously obvious (they even explained there on twitter that the backstory is different from canon, but i guess they don’t know how to read)

haysst

i am so glad that i decide to just keave twitter, ive been wanting to leave twitter since a long time ago cuz i dont even know what to do with it than just like my friends’ & brother’s post and funny retweets and CoryxKenshin says to follow him on twitter/hj

and now, i finally dumped that bird app on the trash cuz, my dash was so full of osc people that i dont even want to interact cuz my gosh, every week is just full of callouts and stuff,and like, they just be bringing up old drama, like even if the person theyre calling out is trying to change and chet or just even the drama was like months or years ago, they be bringing it up like its nothing, like the person didnt apologized and stuff, and what’s worse, people believes the one who did the callout post, they didnt look if what theyre saying is true or not like dude, whats worse is if it’s a fresh wound and the person is trying to change, but i guess the osc twitter doesnt understand the word “sorry” even if you did a whole essay about how sorry you are, it’s like they dont even wait for the other half side of the story bro

two months in knowing and drawing ii and the osc twitter was so toxic like bro, i dont think i can handle years being there, let alone just a month like sheesh

aight

here’s a old random sketch of Katie and a oc named Erick from my tlm superhero au as a, i dunno, a thank you i guess? if you took the time to read all dat, i dunno

i wanna draw more of them,,

[sailorhyunjinz]

SKZ SHORT REACTION TO YOU ALWAYS CRYING , WHINING , AND RUBBING YOUR FACE INTO THEM DURING SEX 😭🥺🥺 CUTE FDDFFGG

It just always feels so good and overwhelming to have fat cock inside of your tiny pussy 🥺

Also ilysm <33 hry ?

-🐈

KITTEN! how are youuu~? i’m doing just fine, thank you for asking ^^

also... wish i could relate but do i get dick? no, none. ASHAHSHSA

OK QUICK REACTION (aka cherry word vomits) LEGO

warnings; dom!skz x gn!reader, dacryphilia, explicit sexual scenes, slight impact play, moaning, sex (well no fucking shit), orgasm,,, uh what more,,

before starting lemme just say this; as a collective THEY LOVE IT, EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM LOVES IT but sure... some more than others 

Bangchan

nah mate you got him whipped 

W H I P P E D

just imagine holding him close and rubbing your face against his muscles while he’s just going at it OH LORD-

he already likes being in control

and when you show that you are weak in the presence of this dominant aura it just boosts that aura tenfolds.

i dont think he’d go as far as to see you cry but like tear up yk?

but BRUH HE LOSES HIS SHIT WHEN YOU’RE CLINGY

your toes curling as you try to move away from his touch, him already beginning on your fourth orgasm that night

you try to hold on to anything which is most likely his broad shoulders (oop drooling a bit)

DUDE HAS THEM GUNS TO BE ABLE TO MANHANDLE YOU WITH EASE

which he does... a lot 

but he would always ask if you felt comfortable and would remind you to use the safeword because caring dom shit 

whine his name and BYE- he cums

would ask you to say it louder

“let everyone hear how good im making my baby feel”

Minho

SKSKASK all of you guys are going to say that i’m stereotyping minho

BUT IT MUST BE SAID

he likes it to a certain extent

if you belong to the more extremely squirmy people chances are he would get kinda annoyed having to hold you down LMAO

THATS NOT TO SAY THAT HE DOESNT LOVE SEEING YOU WRECKED

nononono honey... this man is corruption kink in human form

crying >>>>> moaning

WELL THATS MY GUESS

he’d be all cocky about it

“only i can make you feel like that baby?” 

WAIT LISTEN TO THIS

he has a whole ass folder on his phone that’s just pictures of you being completely wrecked 

he uses them to jerk off 110%

it can really be any kind of pictures but his favorite is the one where you have both cum and tears running down your face

somebody take the internet away from me 

Changbin

awh binnie baby likes it v v much 

it let’s him know how much you are enjoying it which is more important then getting his own pleasure

oof service top binnie?? ok stop cherry dont LMAO

weak for your whining 100%

especially if it’s all like,, high pitched and cute I CANT-

ngl it gets him even hornier 

you’re feeding his horny monster by holding onto him, scratching his back and leaving all kinds of marks. 

just gonna say it; he likes seeing you desperate

“binnie~ i need you inside of m-me..”

say that and HE A GONER

BECAUSE HE LIKES SEEING OTHERS WANT HIM (i know all your secrets dont even try to hide it you smug hot mf)

because of his buff arms he would have no problem pinning you down if you squirmed around too much 

his sturdy arms in contrast with your quivering body OH GAWD

“you want me? beg then” 

and you can’t simply ask 

you need to whine it

IT DOESNT HAVE TO SOUND CUTE

just desperate ;)))

Hyunjin

the whole fucking rubbing your face and hair against him; in love

it doesnt even have to be against him

against the bed or against a pillow is enough to keep him going

your hair all disheveled when you look at him :((

“do i fuck you that good, baby?” he cooed at you, your head burried in a multitude of pillows. you nod, your hair in your face as your whole body jerks forward from his powerful thrust

we all know that this boy is vocal 

so you would have to be EVEN LOUDER to get him off

which you were

god you know the dance lives??

when he’s all sweaty and is heaving for air?

head empty. only that

yeah... he would like a clingy s/o

because then he can go around and be proud of himself that he made you cry in bed LMAO

he wouldnt tell it to anyone, seeing it more as a personal achievement HASHASH

a sucker of you being squirmy

gives him more reason to use force when pinning you down 

showing himself off a lil...

blushing mess if you compliment him on his muscles tho... 

Jisung

you know that video where felix bites a banana with the peel still on and jisung goes all “SPIT IT OUT YOU FUCK” 

yeah thats what happens when you start crying from how hard he’s going

he thinks he fucked up real bad

no dude you just hitting it too good (HASHASH bye im yeeting myself off a cliff)

crying in bed makes him scared but do you know what really gets him?

whining

A LOT OF IT

he loves how they go from small murmurs to full out long whines that are all uneven

some incoherent words mixed into them together with his name

he also loves how they sound mixed with his moans and growls

i feel like he’s very moved by sound

the mf that would record your moans no cap

i feel like he would be the one to rub his head against you??

yk missonary (wow cherry has nothing else to come with LMAO) he drops his head when he’s close to cumming, shaking his head slightly against your shoulder, his soft hair tickling you

he would be the one tearing up when he’s close

BECAUSE you feel too good wrapped around his aching dick :((

can we really blame him? 

Felix

OOOOH MY GOD 

OOOOOOOOOOOH MY GOD

he loves it

more than he should

all of it; the crying, the rubbing against him, the whining, the hair in your face LIkE OOF

why? because it gives him a sense of being in control 

he has you under his control which IS RARE FOR HIM

OK he subs for you a lot and then he does the same thing, probably even more than you do

yk the whole rubbing his hair against your chest as he’s whining at the top of his lungs

BUT HE REDEEMS THAT WHEN HE DOMS

which is perfect because then its a give and take situation

happy sexy times

where the both of you are enjoying it waaay to much

WAIT THIS

imagine him pounding you in missionary right.... and both of you cry!?!?!

two overwhelmed babies :(((

Seungmin

Puppyboy is all for it 

let me just say,,, he has a corruption kink SAHSSAHS 

OK I KNOW EVERYONE IS GOING TO BE LIKE

“cherry he’s so neat and tidy, how could he possibly have a corruption kink?”

THATS WHY. BECAUSE HE LOVES SEEING YOU ALL TIDY AT DAYTIME

but god forbid nighttime because then you are nothing but a drooling and crying mess, holding onto him for dear life as he mercilessly pounds into you 

i swear this dude is all about drastic changes like duality is in his DNA

and i feel like he likes people that have that same charm??!?

IMAGINE THIS RIGHT;

you’re riding him, tired and fucked out of your mind, eventually leaning down to his chest and nuzzling your face in the crook of his neck, crying from overstimulation

AND THIS MF lifts you up slightly and starts thrusting up into you 

thats it. 

i love him AHSHASH

Jeongin

it would take a while for him to get used to you crying in bed 

first time it happened he got scared, stopped and hugged you, apologizing like a thousand times

you all like “...it was just getting good?”

he doesn’t understand shit at first???

“b-but why are you crying then? tell me the truth y/n”

“but i am?” 

after you explained that it just happens to you he’d nod and continue

after a while... he starts liking it

and if you one time don’t cry he’d be confused again, this time saying;

“did you not l-like it?” 

“dork, of course i did” you say ruffling his hair and he feels relieved hearing you say that 

ah cutie :(((

ALSO the whining and the squirming; total sucker for that LMAO 

OK IMMA SLEEP NOW holy shit my back is scoliosis central rn and im so damn nervous for my exam tomorrow AAAAAAH fuck fuck fuck 

ANYHOW HOPE THIS WAS FUN READING <333

[under-the-cherrytree]

The Phantom of the opera chapter 4❣︎ Phantom Hanako x reader x Tsukasa Chapter one Previous chapter (chapter three) A/n: dont know what im doing but im rolling with it bruh- here's the next chapter do people even want this-?

The boy kept you close as he led you down to what looked like the dungeon. He didn’t make eye contact with you once. This place looked so old… How was he living down here all this time? The walls were moldy and there were what looked like broken statues scattered around. This was what was under the opera house. 

You soon saw a big body of water and a small boat. You stopped walking forward, a bit hesitant. He finally turned back to you, sighing softly. 

“Don’t be nervous, I won’t hurt you..” He held his hand out for you to take. You thought for a moment, placing your hand in his. He held onto you as he helped you into the boat. His touch was soft and delicate. He started to row the boat, getting deeper into the shallow body of water. 

“Excuse me… what’s your name?” You asked him, wanting to break the silence. 

“Oh, I’m Hanako, Hanako of the opera” He looked at you. Half of his face was covered with a mask and he has a small seal on his vidibal cheak. His look made you curious.

“Were you the ones sending me those letters?” 

“I was” 

It almost shocked you how fast he admitted it. 

“Why do you even want me to sing? What if I don’t want to?” You glared at him slightly but he looked amused by your challenge. 

“You have an amazing voice, Y/n, you should use it. I plan to be your teacher” He grinned and you looked at him shocked. You just decided to stay quiet knowing it would be better for you if you didn’t argue with him on such a small boat. 

You soon arrived at what looked like a little island filled with treasure. There were shiny objects and such on the island and what looked like old costumes. 

“What is this place?” You asked in awe. 

“This is the underside of the opera house and what was left of the props years ago. This used to be the storage place before the opera house became bigger and got more popular.” 

You felt your heart sink. Has he been here that long?

You two came to your stop and Hanako helped you out of the boat. You looked around at the broken props and random outfits scattered in a pile. There were also multiple candles around, lighting up the dark place. 

“Y/n!” Nene ran up to you and hugged you tightly “I was worried! When Hanako told me that you were kidnapped- are you okay?!” 

“Nene…? What are you doing here?” You asked, confused as to why she is still in the opera house. 

“I know Hanako! He has been teaching me different ways to sing or dance to help me on stage!” She smiles “Hanako has been interested in you for quite a while now!” 

You two looked over to the phantom to see his cheeks turn pink before he walked to a big piano in the middle of the clutter. 

“I see…” You didn’t bother to ask anymore questions. You answered Yashiros questions, telling her that you were okay. Hanako told you about his brother, how he probably kidnapped you because he was interested in you. Hanako took you back to the opera house, letting you and Yashiro go home. 

You walked into the opera house, a shiver going down your spine. You were a bit nervous about going into the opera house again, afraid of being kidnapped. However, Hanako said he would protect you and Yashiro can also see the phantoms so she can help you too. 

You walked into the girls changing room. Not seeing anyone else in there which was old. Normally the changing room was full of girls gossiping. 

“Hey, Y/n…” You heard a voice and you looked behind you to see the ballet teacher. Sakura, the same person who kidnapped you. 

“You… What do you want?” You glared at her slightly but her dull face didn’t change. 

“Don’t glare at me like that, it wasn’t my intention to kidnap you…” She looked to the side, sighing softly. She then walked to the door, looking back for a moment, a smile on her lips “No hard feelings, okay?”

chapter five...