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No beast master this live letter and patch and nothing interested me. It's time to unsub, my wallet will thank me for this hahaha.
#yes ive done relics#ive done ll yellow quests#ive done even the crafting relics#all custom deliveries#all beasttribes#bozja and eureka#island sanctuary#all trials#except the savage and extreme content#heck i even did the golden saucer stuff#i have my own grade 9 chocobo and won all racing challenges#ive done most blue mage content too#my own companion chocobo is rank 20#ive maxed all jobs#theres no reason for me to stay#and if there is. its not enough of a fun thing for me to do#and no i dont have a house only an apartment#and i dont like socializing in this game
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i think it's fascinating how so many people's view of a fix-it for MDZS involves wei wuxian staying loyal to yunmeng jiang and maintaining a position beneath jiang cheng as his right hand man, exactly like wei changze was to jiang fengmian and most likely exactly what the latter intended when he brought wei wuxian into his household to begin with.
it's almost like a majority of fans just utterly missed the point of the story. tell me the class critique and hypocrisy of the wealthy flew completely over your head without telling me.
there's a reason why the book frames it as a good thing for wei wuxian to have left yunmeng jiang and to not be brought back in even after his resurrection.
there's a reason why wei wuxian parallels his father, both eloping with the love of their lives and exiting mainstream cultivation society's sociopolitical affairs to righteously help others and pursue their own happiness.
there's a reason why even if it seems bittersweet, the ending of the novel is still good even for jiang cheng, because jiang cheng finally lets go. he internally accepts wei wuxian separating from him, stops doggedly antagonizing him, and stops thinking of their relationship in terms of debts that wei wuxian hasn't repaid.
#keri chats#mdzs#mo dao zu shi#mdzs spoilers#mo dao zu shi spoilers#wei wuxian#wei ying#jiang cheng#jiang fengmian#wei changze#imo the realest fix-it would be wwx's parents alive & they raise him as a rogue cultivator actually xoxo but u didn't hear it from me!#reconciliation is idealistic + ignores their growth... fics where wwx complacently stays at lotus pier put a bad taste in my mouth#THERES ALSO A REASON WHY OP OF THIS POST MENTIONS THE BOOK & ITS THEMES AND NOT THE SHOW btw
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90 minute leyendecker study b4 bed. heard cleo has a cat cafe this season :swoons:
#thellos art corner#zombiecleo fanart#hermitcraft#hermitblr#mcyt fanart#mcyt#ok time for a peek inside my skull: i really contemplated not posting this. not for any reasons of disliking it#im pretty conscious about how fat people are characterized/portrayed around food in media. both in fan works and canonized material#(flashbacks to hunk from voltron) i really think about ways to defy the way fat bodies are portrayed in my works. while also staying normal#i think at the end of the day i really see food as a love language. and serving people i love (even if its just coffee) brings me joy#even if theres a one-dimensional box that fat characters get put into regarding food. it makes me happy! so i'll try to do it with grace#i think representation isnt always this mentally twisting lol. but its definitely something i think about.#i hope i can positively project my feelings about food and love onto a plus size body (as a chubby girl :handheart:) and showcase that love#ok yeah yeah its 11pm. time to put meemaw in bed. if you read all this ur rad <3 also i stopped watching HC peeposad
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the company i work for decided that its switching from the german formal "You"(Sie) to the informal "you" (Du) in all of our websites so now we have to scour the entire database to change it and i quite frankly hate that, not just bc the unecessary extra work but especially bc its such a weird and unecessary change
i bet its bc everything here is getting englishfied (both literally and culturally it feels like, when my new boss talks its half in english bc every second german word is just replaced by an english one despite there being perfectly fine words for it in german too, its so annoying) and bc they want to sound more personal in hopes of getting more clients bc 'company is your fwiend uwu!!', i know this here is the amercian tm site so you wouldnt understand really but i do not want to be greeted with 'du' by companies, no, thats too personal, you dont know me and im not giving you my data, stay away!!
i guess thats how i would describe it .. the formal you is like a polite distance, like someone you dont know staying outside your personal space, but when its the informal 'you' it feels invasive unless i told you you can call me that, and that goes double for companies
maybe its a small thing that doesnt seem important but i cant stand it, im just a little part time worker doing data work so i got no say in it but the companies founder also announced hes giving his post to his kids some time ago so ...... since then theres been alot of changes and new projects that solely aim to imitate whats popular and whats done by other companies, despite ours being one that is, or used to be, intentionally different, like, that was the POINT, but i guess chasing trends is just too appealing for CEOs
#ganondoodles talks#personal#rare personal rant#theres more and more changes that feel so weirdly forced#like man#i thought being different was the whole point#like climate and ethics are .. or were .. the core idea and now i guess its just fine to do whatever conventional companies are doing#yeah woohoo lets also do an app thing that forces people to sign up if they want reasonable prices!#smartphones the standard everwhere!#who needs anything physical if you can put it in an a phone so syphon off data directly out of people fingertips!! yea!!!#lets use AI pitcures bc we refuse to hire more graphic desingers and they are jsut so overworked uwu#climate? ethic? whats that#argh#sorry this needed to get out#recently had a stupid conversation with a coworker bc i asked them why we are okay with AI shit now when it goes against what this-#company was presumably founded on#and he was rly defensive and said welll we dont have time and its cheap and also maybe we should got WITH the time#like that last thing especially pissed me tf off#but i cant afford to lose this job#im starting to hate it more though so the dream of being able to stay like this might not be real#i cant get a job in this place that is as nice to my mental health so idk man#i wish i was good enough at merch and online stuff so i could live of that#but even trying to find out how taxes work on that stuff is a nightmare to me
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out of curiosity, would you consider yourself butch?
used to be a blonde underweight twink and now I'm a based jock still got the chanel bag and the sick albeit matured mind of a suckpig to prove it so I'm gonna let you decide whether you wanna call me that word just cuz I got a pussy and short hair. I promise you that there have been enough advancements made in the art of lesbian sexual dynamics in the past 50 years to broaden the vocabulary used to describe the plethora of types of masculine females.
#being called butch just reminds me of how much males have the freedom to navigate between male archetypes and how people pay attention to#the distinguishing features of these varying masculinities#but when a female is seen as masculine it all gets lumped under the “butch” category#her masculinity is seen as unnatural and therefore incapable of being considered genuine or taken at face value as it is with males.#its always brought into question instead of taken in consideration with the rest of the woman's life and experiences and her particularities#Hence... Butch is still being treated as though its a huge lesbian cultural phenomena instead of a specific niche thing#also i dont mean to invite the “you dont pass!!” anons again bc that idiot is missing my point entirely (which is that im truly not trying)#but the fact is that for the past 3 years i have found myself increasingly navigating the male social world#and discovering what it means to me as a female to have access to the ability to take my “masculinity” for granted... relax#forget about it#etc#i think thats entirely antithetical to the Butch thing which seems to rest on the tension of other peoples expectations of her#people broadly are more surprised to find out that im interested in women just as much as they're surprised that im a gym queen iykwim...#ive worked hard for this and now that ive gotten the Woman Social Role thing pretty much entirely out of the way i am living the dream#i think a large part of that is learning as a dyke to appropriate the language of gay men theres a reason their terminology had#staying power even when their scene was *literally* dying meanwhile all that seemed to survive from dyke spaces was butch n femme ??#its because theirs didnt necessitate the building and maintenance of a scene in order for the subculture to hold its head above water#their labels *largely* weren't predicated on their relationships to gender roles and its telling that for dykes it was#their labels rested on the need to simply show up anonymous n be able to easily flag whether they were looking to fuck or be fucked#alongside the set of circumstances under which they would be fucking or getting fucked or what have you#it all comes back to the restrictions of female social blah blah blah and i think the sooner we collectively set down what we see as our#responsibility as lesbians and as feminists to Be A Woman the sooner we can step outside of that#n start thinking clearly about our individual circumstances and the necessity of putting on your own oxygen mask first before helping others
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@homestuckss pinch hit for @topfsecret !!
Reluctant face of the Alternian revolution Karkat is NOT quite used to having an entire security detail yet, and isn't sure why they're all dressed like sci fi adventure movie characters??
to which I would say, if you're gonna be planning an underground revolution against a spacefaring despot why WOULDN'T you dress for the occasion. c'mon.
#homestuckss#hsss2023#topfsecret#karkat vantas#aradia megido#sollux captor#kanaya maryam#while its not explicitly shippy i did make sure to throw aradia & sollux in since u mentioned them in particular as good karkat pairings#theres options here lol#anyway the outfits are a little silly but i was going for kind of a movie poster vibe and i figured if theyre moving around in the daytime#that they would need hoods/hats/etc to stay out of the sun (except kanaya who is wearing hers for fashion and to match the crew)#i like the idea that all his friends shift into de facto bodyguard mode real fast once he gets established as like#the big special revolutionary poster boy#and that hes not really sure how to feel about that! because theyre still his friends who dunk on him and stuff#but theyre also constantly on the lookout for threats that might give them reason to kill and/or die for him which is a new element#ANYWAY. u got me thinking i hope that comes across here lol anyway happy holidays sorry for the wait!!!!!!#draws
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In the equineswap au does everyone know that wwx lost his magic bc his horn is gone or does he pretend it's there somehow?
Wen Qing casted her scotch tape spell
#poorly drawn mdzs#equineswap au#mdzs#wei wuxian#wen ning#wen qing#big note here: These are *not* the final wen sibiling designs I want to do better#they really should be red horses but i couldnt find my marker B*(#wen ning carved it with his own two hooves#its a good enough fake unless you closely inspect it which it part of the reason the yllz stays somewhat secluded#they also painted JC’s transplant. He hasnt been swimming (or washing his horn) in *years* so he has no idea#wen ning shows him the can of paint he used 15 years ago and that kicks of the core reveal. Horn reveal#theres an ask burning in my inbox about how thrown together this lore is and FINE you GOT me#its mostly rule of funny.#but yeah wwx post horn loss 100% resorts to acting lazy to avoid showing his broken magic off. Necromancy is separate from unicorn magic#if he pretends he can use magic its gonna be like…stage magician stuff.
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one line in trimax that's always stuck with me is from chapter 65, right after wolfwood's death. when vash is sticking the punisher by his grave and he says "it was part of his life". that phrasing is so interesting to me. the neutrality of it is one thing that gets me, i think. it was part of his life. for better or worse, whatever it was, the punisher was wolfwood's.
It's pretty easy to think that the punisher might represent violence, the eye of michael, the role of assassin that was forced onto wolfwood, the loss of childhood. but it's not really presented that way, not overtly anyways. we never see wolfwood shun the punisher, he's not conflicted by his use of it. he never considers abandoning it for some other weapon. it's his weapon. he doesn't discard it when he eventually decides to take a more vash-like approach and actually let people live. he pretty easily accepts it as his own, a tool he can use. (to be fair, at least part of that is probably because the punisher is a very good gun.)
the punisher can still represent the harsher aspects of wolfwood's character, the violence he's committed, that he's capable of. that's an important part of his life! and the idea of it as representative of his violent adolescence, childhood that was stripped away, goes along with this - it's literally a cross to bear. but besides showing his past as a burden, i think of the punisher as being a cross of responsibility. when you have a gun you have power, agency - you have a responsibility to make a choice. that's what wolfwood tells vash in chapter 4.
the ability to take a life, the burden of it, is literally his cross to bear. that ability - and that responsibility - was given to him by the eom, literally in terms of the gun, and in terms of his skills. but the eye doesn't think twice about killing people. for them it's not really a choice, a responsibility, it's just a given. but wolfwood can't accept that. he's constantly considering the choices he makes.
so the punisher isn't only a symbol of the eye of michael, of the path that he was forced onto. it's also a way of expressing autonomy. the eye gave wolfwood the gun, but he decides how to use it and what it means. for much of the story wolfwood struggles to decide what to do, he's a very conflicted character. but eventually he resolves to use it against chapel, against knives, to help vash, and protect the orphanage. the gun gives him agency.
so the punisher was part of his life. it was the tool that he used to commit acts of violence, acts that he was forced into, but also the tool he used to break free.
it's heavy for vash, too. he's not exempt from that idea, the idea of responsibility. as wolfwood said much earlier in the story, vash has always been able to sidestep the question of "what do i choose?", because he's only ever given himself one option - everybody lives. and he's always succeeded. but as wolfwood says, "the day will come when you'll have to choose". one day, it's not going to work.
and of course the story progresses, the stakes ramp up, and vash learns more, goes through more, and is pushed to his limits. i think by this point, by wolfwood's death, and maybe because of it, vash has realized that he might have to make that difficult choice in the near future. that's one reason why he wants to "do him proud". he has a lot of reasons to say this of course - to not let wolfwood's sacrifice go to waste, for example. but if we're thinking of the cross as responsibility, then vash is saying he doesn't want to forget the lessons he learned because of wolfwood. wolfwood has always grappled with responsibility, with what the right thing to do is. and the right thing is often not easy. vash hopes that when the times comes for him to make a choice, he'll make a good one, one that does right by wolfwood's memory.
#trigun#trigun maximum#vash the stampede#trigun meta#trigun analysis#i have another post in my drafts abt wolfwood and autonomy so theres some stuff im not getting into but stay tuned#i hope this makes sense...the whole it was part of his life thing...it gets me for some reason#this is just me trying to articulate why#hopefully what im saying isnt too obvious and is actually insightful#this whole post was inspired by one of my art history classes#we were talking abt some of betye saars works and my prof mentioned the idea of weapons as symbolic of power and agency#so ofc i had to apply that to trigun#at that point i was only thinking of the punisher as 'eom = bad' but that just didnt feel right#so then guns...agency...it all came together#seems obvious in hindsight but i just didnt realize#too hung up on guns as violence and violence is bad#but obviously it's more than that#.lieii#.lieii txt#nicholas d. wolfwood#i just realized how long this post is uh sorry guys#i may have repeated myself too much with this one hopefully it's still legible#take a shot everytime i use the word agency or choice in this post#trimax spoilers
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one of my favorite things in teen titans is robin wearing his own mask underneath the red x mask
#i mean he obviously has an identical mask underneath his own mask lets not pretend#theres a scene where cyborg pulls him back hy the cape or something and they have like#that effect where the mask kind of stays floating in the air for a second and i pausit and he just had those#like round whites with a black outline#which is how they draw him comically sometimes#i literally don't remember if there's a moment where the mask is even mentioned in tt sorry#don't tell me I'm rewatching i barely remember anything so this is very fun#i di remember my favorite bits tho#so the red x and the apprentice episodes but that's all i think lmao#also i used to be so focused on robin when i was watching this as a kid#but rn im also appreciating the other characters as well though i hate all the#romance teasing this show has uh I don't see it i like robin and star as friends so much tho#i REALLY like robin and cyborg here tho they're awesome here for some reason hehehehee :]
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hi tumblr👋👋 bye tumbrl👋👋
^^^^^ original image
#👃🖌️#pikmin#dingo pikmin#is he talkinf to yonny? or pom? yeag ☝️😁#in news of my teenage bullshit;#the Boy works in the same strip mall as i do#meaninig he could feasibly come to MY restaurant of employment on lunch#which makes me NAUSEOUS with gleeful(?) anticipation#only reason i showed up this morning “wwhat if He is there eheheeeeee”#like obviously its thanksgiving so he wasnt working today but I WAS#i bar no possibilities thats how i stay winning chat 💪💪#that being said igot sent home early beause we were overstaffed. SAD. well. theres other shifts where he#ACTUALLY might show up. grins so hard my gums start bleeding#anyways im outta here AGAIN. still much work and shit to be done but i sweaaaar#once i get my shit sorted its back to gay aliens and menial blog posts as usual
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if you're not on r/skyrimmemes good but you're missing mod drama bc one of the mods is a stormcloak and ulfric defender but for all the worst and dumbest reasons
#LIKE PLEASE YOURE THE REASON PPL THINK IM NUTS TO SAY HES AN INTERESTING CHARACTER#AND TO SAY THE STORMCLOAKS DO HAVE VALID REASONS#im legit only seeing the drama bc reddit is trying really hard to push skyrim subreddits on me#bc i visit some elder scrolls subreddits a bit just in case theres tesvi news i missed or something#i have anti recommendations for subreddits. like ones to stay the fuck away from#r/skyrimmemes is one of them
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Want to perish but hanging on 👍
#Ronkey posts#venting#Still dealing with a mind breaking headache ontop of my heart telling me every single reason im better off fading away#Just a constant barrage of physical VS mental and i#fall inbetween#It feels like im actively fighting to stay happy and it feels so unfair with everything going around#id be angry. id lash out. id cry - but theres so little in me from how exhausted i feel. on an existential level#the world doesnt stop#time keeps moving#i fall behind and i miss out and im overwhelmed#no matter how much i have myself figured out its still there#perhaps fading wouldnt be so bad#im sorry if i dwindle socially#im still working on things - i resumed commission work so at least my customers dont suffer through whatever this is im going through agai#ill email everyones completed pieces soon
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#spiderverse#across the spiderverse#into the spider verse#yurr#i literally spent like 5 hours on this for some reason.#this did include me accidently staying up until 4am hahaha oops#gwen stacy#miles morales#i would tag the other two as well but theyre so small and i hate when ppl tag minor characters in stuff so ya#if ur seeing this u know theure there.#8/8 is only a homestuck refrence if you make it one#also yes i do hc gwen as ‘24 bcz it just feels right and also me too twin#also the hand one on the photo strip… i hope that makes sense and is cute bcz theres no take backsies atp#its meant to be a bulliten board type deal#ghostflower#its up to u if this is in miles or gwens room#hahaha ok bye#(like the lorde song)
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Sometimes I think Dan and Phil are totally platonic besties and then other times I’m convinced they fuck on the daily. I think they do it on purpose and it’s honestly iconic.
kind of the best thing is that they are that and everything in between. you can tell they just like being around each other. they've made content together for 15 years and the large majority of it was done in the strictly platonic sense for their audience. and they were still having so much fun with it. we're in the 'we know you know' era now so we get to see flashes of different dynamics they have, but they absolutely have more we Don't get to see bc they're not for us.
they like each other. stupidly fond of each other. spending time together doesn't feel exhausting. they're best friends and each others' harshest critics while being the biggest hypeman and also safe space.
dnp's relationship with us, their audience, always has been and always will be different than any other content creators. part of it is how they accumulated it, but another part is just the massive history we have with them. they Get us. they Know us. they're silly goofy sarcastic guys who love us and hate us sometimes. theyre grateful but careful too. they like to rile us up, just like they do each other. it's a love language, teasing, and we've shown positive responses to it over the years. i like to say that my relationship with dnp is antagonistic sometimes--cause i know they're pushing my buttons on purpose. and ykw? it's fun! it's fun for us and it's fun for them because they have the control. i know anything they let out is cause they chose to let it out because they Know how we are. so yes they absolutely adore messing with us. we're a funny bunch.
#im getting sappy again#the things you mention anon are not mutually exclusive for dnp. which is a lot of the fun of it#like for me personally. why be in a relationship with someone who isnt your best friend. i dont know how they couldnt be your favourite ever#like maybe im projecting but theirs is probably the healthiest depiction of love i have in my life#theres movies and tv but its not real. and yes dnp are produced. and aware. and curate. but theyre not selling a relationship.#sure we perceive it. but its not the goal. the product is the entertainment value of them together cause theyre funny.#whereas almost every relationship ive properly witnessed in my life seems like. a trap. genuinely.#its like well no love isnt actually real its a concept you just. are stuck. for the rest of existence. be happy about it.#and with dnp its like oh like love is actually real. like theres a reason people want to stay together forever.#like people Do get lost in each others eyes. they get a different look on their face that reads i love you#theres people out there who will love every aspect of you and never get enough of you or your time#i am. so far off on a tangent.#anyways love dnp love the cat and mouse game we play together#dnp#c.text#dan and phil#answered
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compilation of my other fav palette challenges from the years past... i should do them again sometime......
chara #9 belongs to @askbookwormflareon
#granted theres a glaring issue in one of them#i am not pointing it out lest you end up noticing it when you wouldnt normally~#my art#art q#digital painting#oc#mew#pokemon#purrloin#also i put in my request for availability change#apparently they can reject it...#i just cited second job as reason as to why i need mondays off now#my manager is gonna be super pissed tho cuz they always get mad at everyone who changes their availability#but like i mentally cant keep up with the randomised schedule#esp when i could find out the day before my day off that its my only day i can do comms#i dont have enough time to work my schedule for that w chores and having to go buy food or cat food etc etc#it will come into effect start of next month if they accept it#if they dont then ill just keep resubmitting until they write me upfor it lol idk#i was even nice and specifically asked other higher up staff what the best day to ask off was so it didnt hurt them too bad#but i ranted in stream the other day how like im not responsible for if the store gets fucked just cuz i took one day off my schedule yanno#its not my job to keep that from happening#also im part time and if i was full time id still have 2 guaranteed days off so like ??? idk#scared abt getting the cold shoulder and whatnot the next few weeks from the manager tho#also i stayed up till 4am by accident#and got up at 8am anyways#wish my ass luck
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@fushiglow hmm….wonder who i’d draw this for all of a sudden and why… 🤔🤔
#your reblog surprised me#THREE BUNS SUGURU (STAR WARS ER JUST FOR YOU!)#theyre covering riko or smt and smuggling her places (??)#drawing this i was like ‘oh suguru’s curses in a star wars environment should be robots and stuff#so this suguru is a mecanic (he makes them from scrappy parts people have thrown out#and trash materials (and hard work 😎)#diy pokemon#because what is the cursed energy people are letting out if not junk theyre letting go of#so yeah ; basic geto takes shit and turns it useful#i do realise thats already very generic for star wars (junk robots junk robots!) but like. yknow. this guy takes shit people wouldnt bother#trying to sell. miam. junk of the junk. geto my favourite recycling bin you were designed for a luxurious lifestyle clearly (gege not me!)#(and stuff…………. but im lazy to put my vision in words rn hah..)#gojo’s probably a princess#(let’s not lie. hes basically a prince already (clan heir is a different look on him))#this made me want to write ?.??#problem is i dont remember much about star wars (watched it as a kid (we have the cds) appart from the very basic storyline… i forgot 😔#then theres the jawa’s first appearance cuz for some reason they scared me and i am marked for life (THEYRE JUST SILLY LITTLE GUYS 😭😭))#thankfully i lowkey want to rewatch everything so these issues can be fixed#(unthankfully either way the chance of me writing anything is very slim BUT WE NEVER KNOW RIGHT)#(hashtag diverging your attention from that other older post is it working /j/j)#omg glo i still didnt read balance (i think of it from time to time but im intimidated to read it because i know its right up my alley and#that i will love it and lately idk why but i need to ready myself emotionally to read peak fiction (this is so dumb but its true 😭😭))#my bad im rambling lol#WAIT FUCK SAME THING FOR BUNNY’S RECENT THINGY THAT GOT IN MY AO3 UPDATE MAIL#A LOVE STORY TOLD THROUGH THE LENS OF A THIRD PARTY MY BELOVED#(itsg ive searchef for these types of stories in advanced search before#AND NOW THAT I HAVE SOME BY AUTHORS I ALREADY ADORE .. IM- I SEE THEM BUT. THEIR CONTENTS STAY A MYSTERY. IS THIS MY BODY SUBCONSCIOUSLY FI#FIGHTING THE TEAR LOSS I WOULD GET??? IS THIS MFING [BALLING-MY-EYES-OUT] PREVENTION !? WITHOUT MY PERMISSION..!? TCH!)#my bad. ramble again o7 — see ya glo !#wip
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