#therapy is torture to me

[neptunediary]

Spent most of the week at home recovering from a throat efection. So it felt great to go out today. I had lunch with my brother at his favourite sushi place. Then I went to take a walk by the river by myself. But my day couldn't end without a random creepy old man trying to interact with me.

Also, I'm starting therapy again next week, and I've already cried my eyes out just from the thought of it 🥲

[nipuni]

The Hardys 🥰 some more Broadchurch sketches

[calciumcryptid]

Kinn would use pet names because he is the type of dork who would find them genuinely romantic.

Kim would use pet names because he thinks it gets him a good grade in boyfriend, a normal and possible thing to want to achieve.

Vegas would use pet names because he is exerting ownership in ways deemed socially acceptable, but he has to be pretentious about it.

[merriclo]

BSD characters as things me and my friends have said part two <3

> part 1 <

[amereslare]

I'm unwell. Send help.

[tiredandoptimistic]

I'm thinking thoughts about Agent Curt Mega today. Specifically him at the end of Doing This, when Tatiana ends their kiss. I highly doubt that he's ever come out to anyone other than the men he's slept with, and he's still too afraid to say it out loud. But it's not just that he explains through a euphemism ("you're not my type"), it's that when Tatiana tries to say it more plainly he cuts her off ("so you're into-" "yeah"), because he can't even handle hearing it from her. He is fully expecting her to hate him for being gay, and when she doesn't, and just continues the conversation as normally as she can, even saying she still wants to be his friend, he is blown away by positive emotions because this man has probably never had a real friend before. It's just so.

What I love about the ending of the musical, when Curt kills Owen, is that he realizes that he deserves better. He realizes that his relationship with Owen isn't worth fighting for, and that his friendships with Barb and Tatiana are. And that's really meaningful to me, seeing platonic love held up as a happy ending and romantic love acknowledged as fallible.

[qttheo]

want him to start off by saying i look like a bitch and groping my tits until he can't take it anymore and locks me in his basement and tortures me until i admit i'm a girl, and when i do he invites his friends over and they all use me like a slut, like im meant to be used

[houseswife]

find it sooo funny that foreman is cuddy now and chase is house because although cuddy was an enabler she at least had some semblance of what you’re meant to do as a doctor. so she could hold up the facade a tiny bit. chase is gonna walk in like “I need approval to amputate this guy’s perfectly working legs and then re-attach them using dental floss. without anaesthesia btw. and we’re gonna hypnotise his medical proxy to get consent. we think he has a mild mint allergy and I need the answer” and foreman isn’t even gonna look up from his paperwork before responding “k lol”

[ruvviks]

PLEASE DO NOT TAG AS YOUR OWN OC OR PAIRING.

Nathan and Ruben share a bond more powerful than most; mutual understanding through past experiences no one should ever have to go through, and through past actions so horrible they cannot be spoken of. Their grief and the blood on their hands binds them to the STEM technology they created, which has alienated them from the rest of the world— but they give each other the comfort they have both longed for so desperately for years, and that is all they need. They are each other's counterpart; you cannot imagine one without the other, like two sides of the same coin. Through their pain, their grief, their desire, and their regret, they have become one.

anna akhmatova, the guest // bones; equinox // 'i won't become' by kim jakobsson // agustín gómez-arcos, the carnivorous lamb // by oxy // achilles come down; gang of youths // czeslaw milosz, from 'new and collected poems: 1931-2001' // 'extended ambience portrait from a resonant biostructure' and 'migraine tenfold times ten' by daniel vega // a little death; the neighbourhood // marina tsvetaeva, from 'poem of the end' // by drummnist // katie maria, winter // 'nocturne in black and gold the falling rocket' by james abbott mcneill whistler // micah nemerever, these violent delights // body language; we are fury // 'the penitent' by emil melmoth // chelsea dingman, from 'of those who can't afford to be gentle'

taglist (opt in/out)

@shellibisshe, @florbelles, @ncytiri, @hibernationsuit, @stars-of-the-heart;

@lestatlioncunt, @katsigian, @radioactiveshitstorm, @estevnys, @adelaidedrubman;

@celticwoman, @rindemption, @carlosoliveiraa, @noirapocalypto, @dickytwister;

@killerspinal, @euryalex, @ri-a-rose, @velocitic, @thedeadthree

[therantingsage]

uh oh. I was trying to sate my ISAT hyperfixation by just reading fics and looking at art and NOT coming up with a story to write myself and it was working because I had no ideas that felt compelling AND unique but I just came up with one. no. oh no plz not when I have other things to write I can't keep doing this no plz-

[birchtreestick]

"SAys he's happy, he's a LIAR, blame the ARSON for the FIRE"

Is one of the sickest lyrics I've ever heard

It's so cool but also:

[bokettochild]

hey when legend randomly gets hit hard with feeling of depression what is his immediate reaction

just an innocent ask nothing more

and by depression I just mean the sudden like big sad of i can't even do this anymore please- I just want to sleep-

anyways yeah just an innocent cute lil ask

His immediate reaction is "crap not again" quickly followed by stuffing it down and telling himself "I'll cry about that later" and then he just never does, because when later comes he is physically unable to cry. In general he can't actually cry. I speak as someone with the same affliction, it just doesn't happen even if he's not stopping himself.

I think Legend tends to muscle his way through whatever thing is overwhelming him until the end of the day, at which point he just curls up on his bedroll as tightly as possible to burrow away and just.... feel. He can't fix the things that trigger his depression, and while answers are usually there, they require burdening someone else, a big no-no, so he just stews until he falls asleep or just sits up overthinking until he's choking on sobs that won't come.

And come the next day he's just the same as any other day, because that's an issue for another day and when there's the security and safety to actually sort it out (AKA never)

[chaos-bringer-13]

@void-of-unparalled-chaos did you see me going through Epic the musical tag on your blog? It's because you infected me. I am no longer sane. Because of you posting about Epic I went and watched both streams recordings on youtube and am currently making my way through literally every video about Epic on Jay's channel. I am obsessed. I ranted to my parents for an hour and then started sending memes to my friend who barely has any context. I am vibrating through walls. There is something fundamentally changed in me now. I am losing my sense of humanity. Please if you ever want to infodump and have someone to share your freaking out - message or tag me. I need to know every single detail and I'm too bad at noticing the motifs and instruments myself. Someone save me

[dykevanny]

every time people misinterpret the ar emails I go even more insane

[i3utterflyeffect]

also here's a loc!dark. they are comfy

[minhosimthings]

Um..

Sunghoon....

"Tch tch. Can't even suck properly like my good girl can you princess?"

The Adam's apple I need to suck them so bad MIZU WHY