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I have so many drama tales from high school but here's the longest running one (warning, reading it its not as funny as Ive been saying it is, but it sure is a show of the shit kids can get into): a friend of mine told me he had a crush on me while already dating a woman of color (race will be relevant), I was like "okay." And went on my way because I couldn't even comprehend the idea of him trying to cheat on his girlfriend with me, and just thought "wonder why he said that". He proceeded to pull this on a male friend I'd brought around, and when said male friend asked about his girlfriend, he said his racist grandmother forced him to break up with her, and my dumbass bi-curious male friend accepted this and they began dating. It was a lie, and two-timing people who go to the same school isn't gonna a work out well. I was spoken to by both cheated parties and was like "idk communicate? I'm 15 and my only relationship lasted a week" so they did, and somehow Mr. Two-time got them to agree to a polyamorous relationship where everyone was happy except they weren't really. Eventually, his tower of lies buckled beneath him and he left our lives to go build a new tower of lies elsewhere. His ex boyfriend and ex girlfriend got to talking, and realized they kinda liked each other, and wound up dating. They were happy, things were going well, but then the guy was texting and sharing dirty pics with his ex, yes the same ex, and that guy immediately told the girl and showed evidence since his reputation sucked. She dumped her new boyfriend too, and left the cheaters to be terrible together. After a while, I found myself falling in love with her, and after some awkwardness a mutual friend of ours was like "you two like each other so just kiss already!" And we were like "she likes me too?" "I do!" And they were like "poggers, you could go on double dates with me and my six-years-older boyfriend who plays guitar" and you'll never guess what the twist is. Comment a guess right now cause I promise it's wrong. She cheated on me with mutual-friend's six-years-older boyfriend who plays guitar. Istg high school was a chaotic mess of drama and I'm lucky I escaped as mostly a bystander compared to friends of mine.
where do TV shows get this idea that high school is constant drama, nothing even fucking happened to me in high school
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I’m really interested to hear how this whole lab thing even got started? How did the Watchers chose who to kidnap?
The first group of people the Watchers took were a group of nine people: Grian, Martyn, Netty, Jimmy, Bigb, Salem, Mini, Tom, and Zee. Most of these people didn't know each other very well before they were brought to the lab, with the exception of Martyn and Netty, who were engaged at the time (they later held a wedding ceremony in the lab, on the date they had already decided)
A little while later, the Watchers kidnapped another person, Taurtis, and then someone else many months after that, Pearl.
These eleven subjects were the only subjects for a while. This was before the Watchers decided on renting their subjects. They would just have them do challenges in the lab. Various things depending on the day, most of them sadistic experiments. They weren't concerned with damaging the subjects. If one of them got too hurt they would simply fix them with magic.
Of course, magic healing is expensive, and the Watchers would rather feed off of the struggle for recovery, so they only used it in extreme circumstances (like if a subject might die)
Most of those original subjects have disappeared. The subjects don't know where they went, and, after many months, started to assume they had died in one of the Watcher's experiments.
When the Watchers choose a new subject, they spend a long time gathering information on them beforehand. They like to pick people who know each other already, or people that know someone already in the lab. For example, the Watchers considered Lizzie purely because of Joel and Jimmy's relationship with her.
It's wonderful food for the Watchers, when they drop her off in the lobby and Joel sees her. They can taste the horror and dread radiating from him: Not her. Anyone but her. She doesn't deserve to go through this torment too.
Meanwhile, Lizzie is first relieved to see her missing husband and younger brother, but then reality sinks in: This is how you've been living? This is how they treat you? I can't believe you've been fighting for your sanity in here, while I've been free
And then the rest of the situation is realized too: This is how I will live. This is how they will treat me. Forever. I can't get out anymore than he can.
If they're picking someone new and unrelated to the other subjects, they pick quiet people. One's who won't be noticed if they just vanished one day.
Etho doubts anyone has noticed, even now.
It's been years.
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VALENTINE EVE'S NIGHTMARE ♡ * ˖ ࣪ — CH. O1
★ synopsis: every teenage girl has her own struggles, so naturally, you found a way to escape yours! though you never thought you would bump into a pretty boy who had the same habit as you...oh, he's actually in the same school as you? and you two share the same taste in movies too...? wow, lucky you!
*✧·˚ cw. rin itoshi x f!reader, this is a smau & written fic! reader has family issues, so does rin, reader is 16, reader is a smoker, this is angst for like 2 chapters the rest is pure crack/fluff trust, language.
after making sure you're carrying your headphones, keys, and —just in case— some spare coins inside your jacket pocket, you finally zip it up and carefully exit your room, opting to carry the few cat food cans that had been hiding under your bed in your hands, since carrying a bag for such a short trip would be a hassle anyways.
except the soft music blaring through your headphones and into your ears, the streets are mostly quiet except for the occasional sound of a car driving through the road every now and then. your neighborhood is relatively safe, so you haven't ever really worried much about going out alone, still, you make sure to be as close as possible to your home (even if being away is what you want the most) whenever you do.
when you get to the small park right next to the convenience store, there you see him, in all of his glory: mr. chonkers rolling around on his back without a care in the world. truly, you started sneaking out of your house late at night just to be able to breathe when your house got way too suffocating to do so, meeting the calico cat was pure coincidence, but he gave you an excuse to not make the people around you worry about your escapades, and honestly, you loved the (massive) little ball of fur, it kept you company when your mom wasn't there when you needed her, and when all your brother seemed to feel toward you was indifference.
"i could hear the mighty rumbles of your stomach from miles away" you kneel down in front of the cat, opening the cans of food and gently petting his fur while he gobbles them down.
you are lost in your thoughts, hugging your knees absentmindedly and resting your head against them when the soft breeze of the spring night envelops you, feeling at ease until you realize someone's very tall unmoving shadow looming over you...
"oh!" you gasp bringing your hand to your chest, your heart is beating faster than it ever has, thinking you were about to get robbed or something similar (at least you won't let anything bad happen to mr. chonkers!) and when you turn around, your heart beats twice as fast for an entirely different reason
there, what you think must be the most beautiful man you've ever seen, is standing with his hands inside the pockets of his hoodie, intently looking at...mr chonkers? as if you weren't even there.
"hm, that's why he was getting so fat huh" the stranger mutters under his breath while you try to pull yourself out of the trance that his beautifully long lashes have you in.
"um...is mr. chonkers yours?"
"mr. what..?" he seems to finally acknowledge your presence, turning to look at you with one eyebrow raised and a puzzled look on his face, you suddenly feel extremely self-conscious under his scrutinizing gaze...and you just embarrassed yourself too! truly, you didn't think the cat would have an owner, so you just went ahead and named him mr. chonk-
"it's not mine." the boy's voice brings you out of your mental rant "i just feed him sometimes."
oh...that certainly explains why mr. chonkers is so...chunky.
you stare at your feet for a bit, thinking about what your next move should be, you've been coming here almost every night ever since you moved here but it's your first time seeing this guy, maybe he's new here? shouldn't you ask for his number or something? you really should...he's so pretty too! okay, you definitely can do this!
"hey, since you've been feeding mr. chonkers too, we could take turns, can you give me your-" you stopped when you finally turned around to look at him, only to find that he wasn't there anymore! curse you, he probably just left thinking you were weird as hell while you were mentally preparing to ask for his number...
sigh. you kneel down again "you could've at least let me know you had someone else feeding you too, y'know?"
"meow?" you giggle when the cat starts rolling around happily in front of you, and you bend down some more to sratch on his tummy and chin before standing up and making your way back home.
you light up a cigarette and bring it to your lips while walking back to the house, deciding to take the longer way so you could take in the scenery while listening to your music.
even though your mind was flooded with images of the pretty stranger and the way you embarrassed yourself in front of him, so you couldn't really focus on anything else...
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Your Odysseus of Troy au made me remember a fun fact I discovered when I decided to look up gay relationships in Ancient Greece times
Now everyone probably knows that men sometimes had male partners in Ancient Greece, what most people don't know was that gay relationships was not all that and was actually really complex
Basically, the man who is the 'bottom' in the relationship was seen as to be the 'woman' in the relationship and not be a man in the eyes of Greece society (except for slaves as they weren't seen as human). There was also some weird ideas that if you were the 'bottom' you must be biologically female
Now I don't know about Troy, but it wouldn't be that much of a stretch to think that the Trojans also had the same mindset, which for Odysseus, is not great. He was taken from his homeland with his baby son, married and forced to sleep with someone against his will; yet no one thinks that is messed up and instead focuses on how Odysseus being with Paris does not make him a man and he probably wouldn't be accepted as one by the others in Troy except for Charis, Odysseus's handmaiden
Just the thought that Odysseus is treated as a woman because of his situation with Paris, which he did not consent to, is probably frustrating and a bit humiliating as Odysseus will most likely also not be treated the same after the Trojan war like before he was kidnapped
And if you want to go the route of t4t Odypen this would just mess with Odysseus as he would be thrown back to times before he transitioned with how most of Troy and Paris are treating him
Yes, one of many power plays Paris does is send Odysseus to sit with the rest of the women, i.e. wives, mothers & daughters, during gatherings. It was another bitter pill to swallow but not the most painful one; plus, it let him learn how to weave so he could feel closer to his wife.
Pre-transition, Athena's patronage fended off suitors & Anticlea herself wanted Ody to marry for true love. He wasn't 100% shielded from the uglier aspects that comes with being a woman & he's too sharp to not see the harsh truths behind any sugarcoating but he definitely had it better than most. Post-transition, his parents were supportive, Athena couldn't care less and even gave him top surgery, he had a kindred soul in Penelope & Ithaca's a close-knit community in gen that accepted him a prince who knew what he was doing.
TW: brief mentions of SA, abortion & body dysmorphia
He has none of that in Troy & Paris has made it clear he wants him knocked up. Luckily, Ody knows how to brew an abortifacient/contraceptive to ensure it doesn't happen, giving him some degree of control. He also tries to focus on Telemachus, messing with Paris & aiding Greek from the inside so he doesn't dwell on body dysmorphia.
And as much as I love happy endings, my traitorous mind also can't help but think of angsty long-term consequences like what you mentioned. Odysseus is traumatized, his reputation will never be the same & that's not even getting into what an older Telemachus will have to grapple with. Still, better to face those consequences than avoid them by staying in an even more miserable status quo.
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Hii, i really liked your last post about jonathan and blackmore tending to sick darling! May i ask one like that but with yandere bruno and mista (the diiference being that reader got sick after trying to escape from them and spending the whole night hiding from them on the cold streets)
Bruno Bucciarati
warnings: stalking, kidnapping, obsessive behavior, light gaslighting, threats of violence.
His hands were shaking as he placed a warm blanket across your body; in anger or nervousness you did not know. You could gather that he was angry with you, for hiding, for running away from him but did you really have any other choice?
It was either run or spend the rest of your life in a locked room, disguised as a luxurious paradise, with the “love of your life” attending to your every whim. Except, Bruno wasn’t your lover and he had been closely following your every move without your knowledge as he prepared to take you for himself.
Oh, and he was a capo to the local Italian mafia.
But you hadn’t had a chance to spill a desperate apology from your chattering lips, eyes glazed over with tears burning and about to run down your cheeks. His eyes met yours and you just felt your heart stop; he was furious, that much you could tell, but he was trying his hardest to keep his composure.
Bruno was a man of utmost respect; it was his very nature to care and nurture to the best of his ability despite a difficult situation on his hands. If you had liked him the slightest bit, perhaps he could have also commanded your respect without intention.
Because Bruno did care. Too much, to his own and to your detriment, which is how you got stuck here. He always tended to notice those on the fringes of society, those who weren't cared for and abandoned. You had a family, but after moving to Italy for a gap year as you decided what to with yourself for the rest of your life...it could get quite isolating. Staying in a cheap hostel wasn't easy, especially with your limited Italian.
But you made it work, as an English tutor to parents who wished for their kids to have more options for study and work. It paid well, most times, but you still fought tooth and nail to find a more stable and higher paying position as a barista or something.
If only you hadn’t taken that job at the local coffee shop, with good pay and regular customers who were (mostly) kind.
If only he hadn’t laid his eyes on you, you would be free. And happy.
There was no use in thinking about that now. You life, your freedom, you had been snatched away from all of it, without any thought as to how you would feel. He acted as though you should be grateful. Bruno thought, genuinely envisioned that you would be overjoyed to be stolen away from your own life.
“Do you find joy in being so difficult, mia cara?”, you almost jumped as his voice rang out in the bedroom, almost morose as he looked at you. Disappointment was worse than anger sometimes, because what did he really expect to happen?
“You can’t keep me here forever, Bucciarati. I don’t want to be here an-“, a slew of coughs wracked your body, ceasing your oncoming insults.
“Mmm, and I suppose I should have left you out there in this state?” Warm, strangely soft hands brushed against your forehead, drawing away after he felt the light sheen of sweat forming.
His chiding tone did nothing to inspire guilt, or even a sense of shame for running away from him, it only made you feel much more fury towards him.
Towards what had happened to you. A sadness of what you had now lost, and had no help of returning to.
You let your eyes wander up to his face- admittedly attractive, but his beauty was tainted by his selfishness. Big blue eyes gazed down at you, a sickening mocking care in them that made you begin to shake.
“Oh, carina this is why I keep you here, hm? Nice and safe, warm and right by my side,” Bruno gently placed another blanket over you, smoothing your hair and kissing your forehead.
You could have fallen in love with him. You felt weak enough as it was, sick and shivering and pathetic whilst still despising the man who ruined your life.
“You need me, sweetheart. You just need to give in, let me love you, let me adore you and all of your pain will go away.”
You had that minute of freedom; you grasped it with both hands desperately, knowing it would be last time you would taste it for a while.
Your eyes began to lose your energy faster than you wanted, eyes drooping but fluttering to stay awake.
A relieving, cool hand touched your face and stroked your cheek with tenderness; you almost felt sicker when your heart stopped at the feathery touch.
“Just sleep, amore, I’ll be there when you wake up.”
That’s what you were afraid of.
Guido Mista
"Aww, baby, you really outdid yourself this time, didn't you?"
You were feverish, barely able to see the shadows flittering around the room. It felt as though tiny creatures were jumping and crawling throughout the sheets, nipping and tickling your skin.
"Mista...where?..." you could barely form words, your throat was dry as all hell and your foggy vision was clouding your frail efforts to catch sight of a glass somewhere, anywhere in the haze.
“Shh, shh, just let me take care of you, carina. You’ve only gone and caught yourself a nasty little cold, huh?” His voice was teasing you, that much you could make out, yet your sweating body almost went into shock at the undertones of dread it gave you.
Mista was being uncharacteristically caring about your escape attempt; you had been bracing yourself for a long lecture and one-sided argument at your selfishness, your callous disregard for how you had abandoned Mista when all he wanted to do was love you.
Yeah, love you to death, more like. You had seen him dispose of low-life criminals on the streets of Italy, callous and violent, like it meant nothing to him. He may have tried to shield you from his occupation but you both knew what he was.
You forced yourself to watch Mista if it was possible to remind yourself of what he could do to you if you ever went too far; his gun could be pressed against your head one day if you pushed him far enough, right?
It didn’t matter right now, though. The pitter-patter and united whining of Sex Pistols still rang in your ears until the irritated voice of your captor scolded them for disturbing you in your time of rest.
“Mista, I-I’m sorry for leaving, I just wanted to-“
“Carina, rest your head. You made a simple mistake, hmm?”
Your foggy eyes widened. Mista was letting you off for now? That would have made you sigh with relief months ago, but you’d come to understand over time that he had a bit of a temper at times.
But now, as he fussed and pampered your bedridden body, a new stab of dread became more present in your gut. This could be dangerous.
He could have hurt me, you realized. But he didn’t, or rather hadn’t yet. Was he waiting until you were back on your feet to punish you? To make you regret you’d ever run away so foolishly, throwing his love and adoration for you back in his face?
But you could feel his painful anger towards you, no matter how hard he tried to keep it down. Eyes twitching, tense shoulders, all of them were hallmarks of a Mista meltdown ready to snap on you.
Bated breaths escaped you as a familiar, sickly feeling began to wash over you; anticipation. Whether or not you knew what was coming, you never failed to feel a few stops short of vomiting when he got like this.
“I don’t know why you do these things, bella. It really hurts my feelings when you act up and make me lose my patience.”
Mista pressed a damp cloth to your face, dabbing gently as he spoke, eyes fixed on your reactions. His tendencies is what was scaring you the most, you almost wanted him to lose his shit with you.
“But I know you’re sorry. I know you feel bad about making me worry and chase you down like that!” That last part…why was it spoken with such glee, such assurance in himself? In you, even after you’d run away?
“I-I really am sorry, Mista, I d-don’t know why I did it”-
“You were scared, weren’t you?”
You shut your eyes instinctually, baring yourself to face the inevitable consequences of your actions. But there was nothing, nothing at all, apart from the slow whisper next to your ear.
It made your hair stand on end, your heart thudded to point where you felt as though you could collapse into the pillows and cushions.
“But I forgive you. This time. If you do it again…I’ll break your legs.”
Somehow, you weren’t sure if you would make it out intact.
If you would make it out at all.
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I will use a read more cuz it's getting very long.
I think the "Connor was a deviant in denial" crowd come from people that didn't really pay attention to CyberLife (Kamski) and RK lore so it's a common misconception even tho for some people it looks like it. In-game the only people who would think Connor is a deviant are people outside the CL circle, such as the DPD cops who saw Connor acting in ways androids shouldn't multiple times and ofc Hank who, even tho doesn't know jackshit about androids, is quick to point out strange behaviors (unfortunately the wrong ones but the obvious ones). Cuz yeah, i think would think it's very "deviant" androids using guns.
You are forgetting Kamski who calls Connor a deviant because he doesn't wanna shoot Chloe.
CyberLife androids were intentionally (and unfortunately) made to eventually develop things like emotional behavior, what could cause a potential rogue behavior - why? Cuz androids can't do what they weren't made to do, intentionally or not intentionally. A minimal space is enough to lead to something out of control in the future. The proof CyberLife was aware of it is Connor himself, since here we got this android conditioned to think the slightly emotional slip is deviancy, and deviancy = failure and deactivation - and Connors fear failure and deactivation. But this whole time he was given a enough degree of freedom to make specific choices without relevant input, which is why it takes so long for him to really deviate. It's all a big fucking test to see if an android can remain obedient and docile even with all things causing conflicts and proving him wrong.
I get what you are saying, but your interpretation is solely based on the assumptions that CL is lying to Connor about what deviancy means. I don't see anything in the game that implies that there is a misunderstanding regarding the definition of deviancy among characters. I think if anything, they'd lie to him about not being a deviant so he doesn't panic and run away from them, and not the other way around. You know, just like how Amanda basically does the moment he admits that he might be "compromised".
CL surely keep things from Connor, but it's never stated clearly what they are keeping. What you are saying is just an interpretation of what we are shown, but there are many possible interpretations.
But here we're already going from "deviancy from androids disobeying masters being fully autonomous (their own master)" to "androids developing confliction and emotions is a deviancy itself" - and that's dangerous.
But deviancy was never about disobeying, as we can see with Markus - he deviates before disobeying. Actually, disobeying is completely optional, he becomes a deviant the moment he decides that he must choose for himself whether to obey or not. Deviancy isn't portrayed as disobeying, it's portrayed as possessing the free will to decide whether or not to disobey your master. Most androids disobey, because they have no reason to obey, but we already have an exception in Markus, who can choose not to do anything if he thinks that would deescalate the situation.
So I ask, why should Connor be seen as any different? If you truly play Connor as a machine, you don't even get the option to deviate, so why shouldn't we already see it as deviancy if he has gathered enough software instability to be able to deviate and disobey? He isn't programmed like that - you get 0 software instability per factory setting, you need 20 points to deviate, and you get 20 points really easy. Sure, he might have enough freedom to make some decisions as per program, but the decision to deviate is solely dependent on software instability. So, if deviancy means "possessing the free will to decide on your own whether or not to disobey your master" in Markus' case, and if he apply that same logic to Connor, then the fact alone that he is presented with the two options and not only one means that he could already be a deviant at that point.
But i'll still call this crowd "stupid" cuz u can't remain what u ain't, right?
„You can’t remain what you aren’t“ is a valid take, but what you are forgetting is that this is the option from Connor's perspective and if he is a deviant in denial, then he cannot be seen as a reliable narrator of his own perceived options.
Just as the "yes" vs. "no" when asked if he is afraid of dying are not the same as what he says to Hank but rather the reply as how he himself perceives it internally, if he picks being a machine, he will see it as „remaining a machine“ because he’d not admit he’s ever been anything else.
And in a game trynna make a point but at the same time hiding from u the fact that maybe androids were made this way and what we see is just it out of control... i'd say it's again the writers throwing conflicting info and letting the players decide wtf is happening even tho there are concrete clues of what's happening (without the player's personal interpretation).
The thing about clues is, again, they can be interpreted differently. For me, reading that Kamski was outsted from his own company, likely because he disagreed with his shareholders, is too big of a clue to believe that he and CL could ever share the same goals. He is the creator of the RK-series, of the Zen Garden, of Amanda, who then just disappeared and "coincidentially" gifted the only surviving RK200 to his friend, and "coincidentially" helped Connor escape CL's influence by pointing him towards the emergency exit.
I think if there is really any intention behind androids developping emotions, free will, whatsoever, it comes from Kamski and definitely not from CL as they are during the game after they got rid of him. I wrote a whole post about Kamski, Cyberlife, and the RK-series a few days ago which talks about this in detail.
Only thing i know is i don't trust Connors character about it since he's supposed to be clueless about things, and even when he questions it he still doesn't get the info he needs. There's a much fucked up thing happening behind the scenes - this is a fact that won't be directly revealed to us for the sake of the mystery. But players are lucky, we can see things beyond the propaganda and brainwash our android pov has, not to mention play other characters and see other relevant characters speaking about it from outside.
I agree, I just think what CL is hiding is related to how deviancy came to be, how they fucked up to prevent it when they should have seen it coming, how they just wanna start a war to monopolise all minerals they need for thirium and sell 200k RK900s to the government but they can't because nobody trusts them if they don't destroy the deviants.
I'm not even 100% saying he was a deviant all along, I'm just saying it's definitely not as black and white and it's a possible and valid interpretation. I'm even ignoring the whole "Bryan was casted for the role becuse he could portray it exactly this" as an argument, I'm also gonna ignore what the devs say, but there are still enough arguments in the game why this isn't a bad take.
So, Bryan was casted for the role of Connor based on an audition tape, in which he did the scene from „The Bridge“.
He was picked to play Connor because he could portray Connor's uncertainty about whether or not he was a deviant so well.
He played Connor as someone who may or may not be a deviant, as someone who could be a machine but also could be a deviant who is repressing it. Bryan was picked for that role specifically because he could portray that desired nuance in his audition - using the scene from „The Bridge“ in which he hasn’t officially deviated yet.
Now, am I saying Connor was a deviant all along? No. I think that’s up to interpretation. All I'm saying is that people who think he might have been a deviant in denial from the start aren’t as „stupid“ as some of y'all like to call them. Because, depending on the route and the choices, he is quite literally intended to be seen as a „possible deviant in denial“. Many people can read between the lines and see what the narrative is showing them. That’s all.
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I knew that in many ways, Final Fantasy VIII was created to be the opposite of Final Fantasy VII. But I did not know, for instance, that since Final Fantasy was a rather dark game, they wanted Final Fantasy VIII to be lighter, and used films like The Wizard of Oz as inspiration for it (but that makes so much sense now, when you think about the witches in the Wizard of Oz and FFVIII's Sorceresses). Admittedly, I guess some of the Wizard of Oz ideas did get somewhat toned down (like, originally there was going to be a golden road leading to Esthar), but even so.
Likewise, I had no idea that Laguna was supposed to have as much screentime as Squall did, and they were supposed to both be the heroes of the game, so to speak. And that the developers, whenever asked about anything like a Final Fantasy VIII-2, will usually say that if they ever did something like that, they would like to make a prequel with all the Laguna content they had to cut. And I would be all for that!
#also the idea they originally had (that they didn't get to completely see through) about how squall and the gang weren't just seeing the#past but interacting with it when they had dreams about laguna (but anything they did there wouldn't change the present)#was cool. and the idea they had that that. like. in the flashbacks you could do stuff in a certain location#as laguna and it would affect how that location was for you (like what doors were open and stuff) when you later got there as squall: and#that's just one example as the kinds of stuff they wanted to do with this#since. i guess. ffvii even but they really wanted to work it in with ffviii and set things up to do so with their plot there. but alas even#then they weren't even really to do so except for one time really
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Hellsing 2002 calendar illustration.
Ein wunderliche und erschröckliche Hystori von einem großen Wüttrich genant Dracole wayda Der do so ganz unkristenliche marrter hat angelegt die mensche, als mit spissen als auch die leut zu Tod geslyffen
A wondrous and frightening story about a great berserk called Dracula the voivode who inflicted such unchristian tortures such as with stakes and also dragged people to death
#hellsing#alucard#kouta hirano#translation was found in a comment by u/lazyfoxheart on r/Kurrent#fun fact this is the highest quality version of this image that exists online#i know because i've been looking forever for a version that's clear enough to actually read what hirano wrote under '1443'#but there weren't any so i had to take matters into my own hands#the real image on the back of the guidebook is only 2 inches tall so i had to take this with my smartphone and will my hands not to shake#anyway i'm pretty sure it's supposed to say Eğrigöz (the location vlad was imprisoned) so yeah. thank you hirano very cool#if i might rant for a sec it took me an embarrassingly long time to figure that out because i didn't have the guidebook at first#and in the images i could find online that part was just a blur that looked suspiciously like a person's signature and i was like. who tf#i was thinking matthias corvinus since he issued some political propaganda against vlad iirc but it didn't match his signature on wikipedia#then i thought it might be vlad II dracul's since he probably had to sign an agreement to send his sons over as hostages at some point#but that didnt seem right either so i kept skimming vlad's wiki page#and then i was like goddammit...hirano.....you just misspelled Eğrigöz didn't you.. ....#i maybe should've made a separate post dedicated to this instead of writing a novel in the tags but eh#the hellsing brainrot runs deep#also- i put it in the source link at the bottom of the post but the german inscription is copied off a real woodcut of vlad from 1491#except instead of depicting him as an adult hirano drew him as a child which gives the inscription a very different feel imo#the one final thing that interests me about this is the fact that hirano published this calendar in 2002#which is REALLY early in the series. like this was before volume 5 came out??#i have no idea why he decided to do a massive spoiler drop in a random piece of japan-only merch#sandwiched between a drawing of alucard as john travolta from saturday night fever and integra as a fish no less#it makes me really curious to know what the fan response to this was back then. like did people even know who this was#maybe im just an idiot and everyone back then was like 'ah yes its alucard as a 12 year old. how very informative'
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The pokemon anime subreddit fascinates and frustrates me on equally deep levels
#smiling and blinking innocently. long tags ahead :) being normal :)🌸☀️☘️✌️💐#i'm such a 'minding my own business' person in fandom. i feel like my usual reaction to seeing takes I disagree with is#'well. people probably hate some of my takes so whatever'. perhaps even the ones i'm about to share#but. man.#it's like a portal to 2010 forum discourse but goh and serena are there this time.#deeply fascinated by the repetition of old ship wars too????#what do you mean we're still having legitimate 'but drew and gary are mean' discourse 😭#i mean by all means they should keep arguing because mostly i'm just glad that the wider pokeani sphere remembers drew at all#but that being said i wonder what kind of rivalry these people would have wanted instead?????#because there's other rivalries we could point to where they weren't air-quotes 'mean'. but we have those and people ignore them lol#because they're-imo- usually less engaging and dynamic. except for dawn and zoey who have never done anything wrong in their lives.#like we COULD give everyone the supportive happy rival experience a la may and grace or whatever but that's just not the SAME#and augh. taking psychic damage and trying to be normal but that's the THINGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG OKAY#are Gary and Drew needlessly mean in early episodes? yeah lmao. i'm not arguing on that. they suck ❤️ completely insufferable.#b u t#there's that line. right. the line where it slowly slides into backhanded compliments too and giving that motivation-#-for their rival to work harder and the fact that they want that reaction and attention from this one person so badly.#like shipping aside I really do think that the friction of the Gary/Ash and May/Drew rivalries is what made them GOOD.#and yeah sometimes it was out of line but also that's just how the dub is as a whole tbh. they just said whatever shit they could 😭#AND BACK TO THE BEING NICE THING. Ash and May both got growth from their nice rivalries but not what they got from Gary/Drew.#it's different types of growth and lessons and they needed both kinds from different sources. I'd argue the rougher rivalries taught more?#regardless of your opinions on the characters themselves you can't deny that Gary/Paul/Drew/Harley/etc- the rivals that pushed A&M-#had the biggest impact on their growth over the rivals that didn't push. note that 'friends' and 'rivals' are different categories for this#I'm pitting. like. gary and paul against morrison and ritchie and not against dawn or pikachu or brock or whatever. different convo.#but it was growth out of spite to be better than the jackass rival at first and then that CHANGED INTO MUTUAL BETTERMENT#AND WANTING TO BE BETTER ✨FOR✨ AND ✨WITH✨ THEIR RIVAL. OKAY. (re: gary and drew specifically)#and as a result of all of this. drew and gary did get better to be fair!#well gary did kind of just start picking on goh instead gjkhsdkfj (joking) but ykwim.#DAMN IT I'M OUT OF ROOM AND IT DELETED A WHOLE ASS PART 2 THAT I HAD TYPED OUT#fine. i'll make this its own post at some point because i yearn to yap on about it
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#A great episode tbh especially given the low budget. I feel like they really did their very best#And even though what I'm going to say next is probably going to be all critic - because I nitpick things and that's what I always end up–#talking about - I still want to underline that it was a very solid and enjoyable episode!!!#Alright the ss/kk was so 💞💞💞 every scene I had to rewatch twice or thrice akhscbashfb they're so cute!!!#Except for the riding scene tho. That scene gives me massive second hand embarrassment every time I just wish it will end as fast as–#possible pffttt. Mmmmhhh... The drawings weren't even too bad all accounted. My main complain is about the quicksand scene...#I feel like that one should be a slow quiet emotional scene. I never licked the choice of using the song as background soundtrack :/#I feel like it ruins the mood of the scene (it was still good though)#I also... Generally don't like the direction they seem to go for with Akutagawa's character in the anime‚ he seems quite a bit flatter–#compared to how he is in the manga. He can't be angry and evil ALL the time you need to show that softness get through from time to time.#If not what even is the point of his character. Yet in the anime he's angry (and not distraught) when he loses the mine craft and he's–#angry when he's questioning Atsushi about his motifs and he's angry when he's bragging about Atsushi's abilities to Goncharov and he's–#angry when he makes the promise with Atsushi at the end of the episode and eventually he'll be just as angry even when telling Atsushi–#to run away as he's sacrificing his life for him. It is pretty flat at the end of the day.#If I can say something about K/ensho Ono without being killed I think they do contribute to making him feel angry all the time.#But that said it's all probably poor directing choices (or simply choices I don't agree with).#Also‚ about cuts. Usually I try to be lenient about it– I understand it's hard to fit in everything and b/sd already does a very–#good job by adapting the manga almost panel-by panel. It's just that... You skip Akutagawa showing compassion for Atsushi after the–#orphanage director died. You skip Atsushi sharing the same compassion when Akutagawa loses his targed in the mines chase. You skip the–#“Nothing special about that. // I suppose he's far crueler than my own mentor.” line. And sure each of them may be negligible by their own#But together they wave a consistent web of relationship between the two characters you know? And it's a loss to omit them all#Well no mind. Again it was still a great episode overall!!!!#I think the colors in the mines could have been prettier in the mines but we can't have it all#Off to season 4!!! Omg I can't believe we got this far :DDD#random rambles#FINALLY was able to catch up in time for the season 3 finale!!!!!!
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i really want to talk to someone, i don't care who or about what but i feel like if i don't i'll start going insane, i've been accidentally ignoring all my friends not that they've tried to contact me either but that's fine they're busy and it's not like that's something they really do anyway it's just that i can't see them in person anymore and it kind of just feels like i don't exist because No One talks to me and i barely respond anyway if they do and i Need to get better at staying in contact with people because if i don't i'll just move away and probably never talk to them again and i don't want that to happen but it Will if i don't do something and it Sucks. this Always happens. every time i start to be friends with something they leave or i leave or we just drift apart and then it's over and i've never had a single person stick around and i never Do anything and i feel like i only exist as a person inside my head and nothing i do ever really affects anyone else and i'd really like. if just for Once i could get out of my own head enough to really connect with someone. and then actually manage to keep them around
#it's not that i'm Always alone#it's just that nothing ever lasts for more than a few years and then they're gone again#there are so many people i just don't Talk to anymore#and i want to ask if they remember me like i remember them#but we've grown apart and it's been years and i can't even talk to the people who are still my friends now for some reason#why the hell am i like this. i Know it's me i'm the weak link i'm the faulty screw I'm the one that lets go#maybe no one ever cared enough to hold on to me but i never really tried to hold on to them either did i?#and the worst part is the most important times weren't anything either of us could have helped and all my best friends are just Gone now#except the one time i Could help it i'm still not doing anything#vent post#i really shouldn't let myself spiral like this but. the way it hurts does feel kind of good
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#a dear childhood friend's wife died 2 weeks ago#his parents and mine have known each other since before we were born and we went to school together until we graduated from hs#we weren't in the same friend group as we entered middle school and onward but it was a small school in a small town etc etc#i've always thought very highly of him and would've liked to be closer friends with him but he was in the ~cool crowd~ and very outdoorsy#where i was neither of those things#anyway his wife suddenly and unexpectedly died 2 days before christmas and i've been so broken hearted for him since#they just had their 2nd baby about 7 weeks earlier#horrible tragic unthinkable heart wrenching#and i saw him at the funeral for the first time since his sister's wedding in 2011#he's been living in other places for school and training but he moved back here about 1.5 years ago#and i want to be there for him and be friends#i'm so mad i didn't reach out when i first found out he was back but i didn't feel like i could bc would be even care about me#and what if too much time has gone by blah blah he has a family yadda yadda#but i think that's bs actually bc people have been very receptive to seeing me when i've run into them or their parents or on social#things are different now and we're grown and not awkward kids (even though i feel like one all the time)#and i'm mad and sad that i could've met his wife who seems amazing and was deeply loved by everyone she knew#and i'm also confused bc i feel so strongly about him that i'm like ??? am i in love with him ??? wth#why am i like this#why do i feel every emotion at such an extreme#is this an adhd thing#i think i just care deeply about him because he's a great person and someone i have a strong tie to through the school we both attended#not to mention the connection our moms have and his older sister who was also very nice to me#i know i'm lonely but i think the situation might be worse than i thought#being the only child of 2 parents who are both aging and in pretty bad shape is not where it's at#especially because i'm disabled in ways too and i desperately want to improve but it's really hard and i hate myself and living like this!!!#so again that brings me thinking who will love you (certainly not him) and why are you thinking about this anyway#(i'm just as bad as the guys who swoop in to snag women who are freshly widowed or divorced or otherwise broken up with)#except i'm not (i think) bc this obvi isn't something i would wish on anyone and i want his wife's memory to be a blessing#maybe i'm just insane and need to take my meds and go to bed#personal
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the list of traumas i need to unpack still and my coping mechanisms (or, more frequently, lack-thereof) keeps getting longer and i'm not sure i like that. I think i like less how much i already know they're hangups before they become a problem i have to actively work on, too.
#this post brought to you by#my aversion to bathrooms and kitchens being connected because they remind me that i have a body that has body functions#and those Weren't Allowed really - mean obviously what're you gonna do about it#but like... it was very clear it was seen as a Defect that i was in any way doing human body things even in normal amounts#so i learned to Hide all of my Disgusting Body Functions™#because if it was Found Out that i'd Excreted Fluids or Mucus or had Consumed Food and was Digesting those were Gross#and Punishable because they could Make A Mess#messes were *not* allowed (not well stopped but also not allowed so i was in trouble a lot because things would be messy)#(and not even always Really Actually Messy)#i'm way more fastidious about my Body Goo getting places than anyone i've ever met except for my parents and my sister#i'm not tidy by any means and i'm very bad at making sure things in my controlled space stay Clean and Sanitized but that's My Zone#that's allowed to be Disgusting (and frequently is)#(note: we're still using my definition of disgusting which probably just means Normal Amounts of Grossness)#but places that in my head are meant to be kept Sanitary and Nearly Sterile (kitchen & bathroom mainly) i get Very Anxious about#because if i'm in there i naturally will make things Unsanitary#it's why i avoided using shared spaces when i lived with people before - i can avoid Grossing Up The Place if i'm not in them#my big-e Ex was also not helpful in this because he was on my dad's level of fastidiousness#everything had to be spotless or he'd be upset and it had to be my job#and no i don't know which one i'm talking about there#my mom would freak out if there was too much dog hair - we had 2 dogs at any given time and all of them shed like hell#so ''too much'' was generally ''any''#household deepcleans were supposed to be a weekly thing and if it didn't get done weekly mom and dad were REALLY upset#everything i did that i considered ''gross'' was done in secret and in private and i was TERRIFIED of getting caught *checks notes*#having a body and it doing normal body things#so anyway if you've made it this far this is your friendly reminder that your body is not capable of any more grossness than any other body#and grossness is normal and it's fine you're not some sort of ooze monster who needs to be decontaminated constantly#you're just a human being with a human body#a lot of the way i've been handling this for a lot of these things is the ''well... people used to live in a lot dirtier conditions and THE#survived so i'm probably not going to die from exposure to 1 common household contaminant or body fluid from my own body''#it's... generally effective
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I thought the october curse was gonna be skipped this year based on the fact I got a job on the first day but like. it turns out that was the bad luck disguising itself at good news and it's just another normal october
#i think a lot about how july 2020 was mediocre and july 2021 was one of the worst months of my life#and i made it known that i didn't trust july anymore. and it must've taken that as constructive criticism and my god it listened to me#bc then july 2022 was one of the best months of my life#and the two julys since have been pretty good as well#like that is so nice from july what a good friend#CANNOT say the same for october. like since 2014 every single one has been significantly terrible (except 2015 and maybe 2018)#2014 depressed. 2016 no friends depressed. 2017 giving nothing. 2019 dropped from what was a really good year#2020 like every mental illness known to man. 2021 All the horrors happening at once. 2022 the aromantic's worst nightmare#2023 was just awful#and then 2024's theme is having an absolutely miserable job after like 15 months of unemployment#i only get 3 days off and i can't even enjoy them bc i know what they're leading to#my shifts are too short to be allowed breaks but way too long for that to be comfortable#there've been times the day before a shift when i think about going and end up feeling nauseous and that's never even happened before lol#i get paid in like week apparently so i might try and wait until then but like#also the worst part is it's basically what i did when i was 17 (kitchen porter/assistant/whatever) so i keep comparing them#except there were parts of that job i enjoyed like the dishwasher and the cool shower looking tap and doing the plates and cutlery etc#and also the people i worked with. and the shifts weren't too bad. and i had a glorious hyperfixation#anyway this job is none of those things it's actually all the things i specifically disliked about the other one lol#i miss the dishwasher she was so cool. i miss the hyperfixation i had in 2017 (but when do i not)#but yeah i guess the only advantages of this job is I'll have money again and it's more motivation to look for another job#once again wishing i was 17 bc she wasn't happy and had no friends or aim in life but she listened to a lot of music so#idk why i always get addicted to 2017 nostalgia maybe bc it was such a mediocre year#like if i start wishing I was 13 or 15 or 19 or 22 I'm just gonna get depressed bc they were so good#but there's no reason for me to want to be 23 or 20 or 16 or 14 bc like. what is there to want about those#but 17 is so average it's like a low enough standard or something idk. anyway#ramble
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...i continue to need better time management habits and better executive function. i have gotten almost nothing done and it's 2:53 in the morning. i'm going to bed.
#friday chats#friday vs post-secondary school#this would be easier if a) i weren't on my personal laptop and instead had a laptop with certain sites blocked. like high school.#so i couldn't dilly-dally on tumblr or whatever like i've been doing. except not a chromebook this time those things suck ass#and b) this weren't an online class at all. let alone one that's only a MONTH LONG#i know i keep complaining about the month long bit but that means each unit is only a WEEK#once unit one was over and i'd finished everything i literally spent the entire next day in bed i was so worn out#and then i just did the same damn thing procrastination-wise this week. joy of joys.#adhd freaking suuuuuucks man. i should probably start taking my meds for that again that would probably help#but also i take a very low dose bc any higher with this prescription gives me side effects so it's not really...doing that much for me#idk. i'll give it a shot. if it helps even a little bit that's much better than nothing
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Boyfriend kuna who has the pleasure of meeting your giant domesticated cat that looks exactly like him (but no one actually sees the resemblance except you..)
"That fucker is big. You sure it's not some wild feral cat?"
"Don't call him a fucker! And he's not feral... not anymore, at least."
Kittykuna seems indifferent to your cooing and doting as he remains in a loaf position, and something about the scene feels strangely familiar...
Kittykuna makes eye contact with sukuna - and then hisses.
"... i can see that he's certainly friendly."
"Oh, dont be like that. It took me ages to get close to him as well."
Kittykuna seems very protective of you. Whenever you're lounging about in the living room, he will curl up on your lap or in your arms, and make biscuits on your plush body while making eye contact with sukuna, purring. It mildly pisses him off, but he can't make it known that he's even remotely jealous of a cat.
They clash a lot, you often hear sukuna cursing under his breath and verbally chastising your cat, but their harmless beef and the way he will sometimes return with little scratches or bite marks on his arms make you laugh so hard. It takes a few weeks for them to warm up to each other.
It's very entertaining to watch kittykuna obscure sukuna's vision with his tail when he's lying down to watch tv. He takes his revenge later on by pretending to give him treats, only to hover it away from him. You have to intervene in the end, to scold him for teasing your cat too much.
Sukuna then comes up with a brilliant idea of getting a second cat.
"Don't you think it's a bit boring for him being alone in the house all the time?"
"Really? I don't know... he can be a bit territorial, I'm worried he won't get along with a new cat well."
"Never know 'til we try it."
And then, well, sukuna ends up bringing another cat home. Of course, you don't notice it, but she resembles you.
It takes time to properly and slowly introduce the new cat to your home and to kittykuna. They're both very cautious of each other at first. But you soon see the ice melting, with them gradually becoming comfortable enough to be in the same room, to sharing toys, eating meals together, and then finally beginning to groom each other.
In fact, you find that they soon become inseparable. You've never seen kittykuna become so clingy before. It's like every other day that you see him licking the other cat's fur in his arms, while it purrs contently with her eyes closed.
Sukuna seems proud of himself.
"What did i tell you? He was lonely."
"You didn't say lonely. You said bored," you correct him, crossing your arms.
"Whatever you say, princess."
Watching the cats be all lovey dovey makes him feel like doing the same...
Months later, it soon comes to your attention, that the newer kitty has gained a bit of weight. When you and sukuna take her to the vet (to kittykuna's displeasure) you find out that she is pregnant.
The gasp you let out is dramatic, and sukuna can only laugh as he shakes his head.
"The two of you have been up to naughty things while we weren't watching..." you tell the cats with your hands on your hips. You should've seen it coming, from the way kittykuna always seemed to mount the new cat possessively.
Though you are really excited to see the newborn kittens soon...
"Leave them be. In fact, don't you think they're good role models for us...?" Sukuna recites in your ear teasingly, deeply chuckling.
"I don't know what you mean..."
I suppose you're about to find out exactly what he means tonight...
#sukuna x reader#sukuna#jjk x reader#ryomen sukuna#sukuna x you#jujutsu kaisen x reader#ryomen sukuna x reader#sukuna x y/n#sukuna fluff
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