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"you should really stop provoking the organics of this planet."
"as if it was my fault she grew twice her height.."
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super silly goofy for @asimp4bee THE MOMENT I GOT PERMISSION I WAS COOKING!! half.. cooking; i got lazy 😬
first-ish time drawing hyperlock and roadkill, like they don't even have a ref sheet yet but oh well
#roadkill is my friends oc#hes the bigger one btw HEHEHEH#might be ooc honestly#whoopsies#hyperlock's a 10ft minibot#and while i was looking at mea's ref sheet i realized her super tall and cool cybertronian armor#was 12ft#and thought#oh how silly#and had an epiphany i was holding in for two days#transformers#transformers oc#my art#hyperlock#roadkill#asimp4bee#GIFTS!!#no sketch help#i thought i was the goat#then i started struggling#dazedpainter
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Here with you
+ bonus danganronpa blood version
#cw blood#do you have ANY idea hiw long I've been struggling with the colors#damn I haven't drawn any fully rendered pieces in a month#also my last year in college starts in two days#can't believe how fast the years have past#bnha#mha#my hero academia#boku no hero academia#bkdk#bakudeku#izuku midoriya#katsuki bakugo#fanart
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stayed gone but you're the sinners watching/listening
(AKA I spend an unnecessary amount of time editing)
#osrs.mp4#screen positions in the beginning are accurate to the transitions btw cause you can see specifically which screen it is in the transitions#also it starts at the news broadcast because NO ONE heard vox's intro. cameras weren't rolling yet#hardest part was trying to figure out how to do the alastor parts LMAO#guess vox can look like he's struggling against nothing and screaming at a radio why not#hazbin vox#hazbin hotel vox#vox#vox hazbin#vox hazbin hotel#hazbin alastor#hazbin hotel alastor#alastor#alastor hazbin#alastor hazbin hotel#alastor the radio demon#radiostatic#staticradio#onewaybroadcast#I know it's just stayed gone but who in these tags wouldn't want to see stayed gone right#hazbin hotel#1k#2k#5k
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drawing is hard so i tried to illustrate my struggles as video game bosses
#art#digital art#artists on tumblr#drawing#artist#my art#digital artist#illustration#illustration art#video game#concept art#struggles#not to mention how my only way to draw succesfully is hyperfixate until im done#I think it's been at least a few hours since i started and now it's past midnight#im sleepy#im going to bed
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You think Pyramid Steve to Bill is like Doodlebob to Spongebob or something like that
#gravity falls#my art#fan art#doodles#art#pyramid steve#gravity falls bill cipher#bill cipher#bill gravity falls#remind me to never draw those human bills again btw it was... a struggle LMAO#like design wise and everything theyre aight ig but MAN its just so. Off for me-#this is why i keep my boy as a shape bc although i CAN draw humans i HIGHLY prefer simple shapes/objects instead#glad i was able to squeeze this out just before uni starts again#xiakeik arts#id in alt text
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i think the people criticizing chappell roan right now don't understand how bipolar disorder works. chappell roan is diagnosed with bipolar 2. do you know how hard it is to keep it together with major life changes when you are constantly going through phases of hypomania/mania and depression? big life changes can trigger a catastrophic episode. i was hospitalized after moving or almost moving TWICE. you know what is a really big change? suddenly becoming as famous as she is in such a short period of time. bipolar can also cause paranoia and difficulty trusting people. you know what can trigger that? being constantly approached in public by people asking for hugs and pictures and literally FOLLOWING HER WHEREVER SHE GOES. SOME of yall are like "mental health matters <3" but as soon as someone puts down reasonable boundaries or prioritizes their mental health, y'all go after them. i feel that some of you guys just expect musicians and other artists to be emotionless content machines and call them selfish when they actually experience emotions and need boundaries in place. chappell roan is a human being before she is a musician. she does NOT owe you ANYTHING!! at this point the people whining just sound selfish and unsympathetic.
#as someone whos struggled with bipolar for all of their teenage and adult life. this situation makes me mad#i will always defend chappell roan#let me tell you right now if i were in her situation i would have started throwing rocks at people#she's more patient than i am#chappell roan#bipolar disorder#mental health#mental health matters
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Based on this tweet:
#my art#comic#hannigram#hannibal lecter#will graham#i left out the panel where they climb over the table and start kissing sloppy style#making good on my threat to start drawing+posting them more teehee >:3#oh it was a STRUGGLE to try and draw them and have them look like who theyre suppsoed to be#i hope i did alright
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advocatus diaboli
#baldur's gate 3#bg3#karlach#tiefling#barbarian#bg3 fanart#bg3 karlach#bg3 art#userpharawee#stuff and things#ugh idk I'm struggling with my art a bit lately and it's. fcking annoying!!#so this clearly isn't finished (whatever that means)#but I don't hate how it looks yet#so I'm just quickly going to throw it out there before I can start to overthink myself into disliking it lmao#easing my way back into liking what and how I draw. slowly but surely#anyway. karlach!! I still love her
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Please, if you can, take a moment to read and share this because I feel like I'm screaming underwater.
NPD (Narcissistic Personality Disorder) stigma is rampant right now, and seems to be getting progressively worse. Everyone is using it as a buzzword in the worst ways possible, spreading misinformation and hatred against a real disorder.
I could go on a long time about how this happened, why it's factually incorrect (and what the disorder actually IS), why it's harmful, and the changes I'd like to see. But to keep this concise, I'll simply link to a few posts under the cut for further reading.
The point of this post is a plea. Please help stop the spread of stigma. Even in mental health communities, even around others with personality disorders, in neurodivergent "safe" spaces, other communities I thought people would be supportive in (e.g. trans support groups, progressive spaces in general), it keeps coming up. So I'm willing to bet that a lot of people on this site need to see this.
Because it's so hard to exist in this world.
My disorder already makes me feel as if I'm worthless and unlovable, like there's something inherently wrong and damaged about me. And it's so much harder to fight that and heal when my daily life consists of:
Laughing and spending time with my friends, doing my utmost best to connect and stay present and focused on them, trying to let my guards down and be real and believe I'm lovable- when suddenly they throw out the word "narcissist" to describe horrible people or someone they hate, or the conversation turns to how evil "people with narcissistic personality disorder" are. (Seriously, you don't know which of your friends might have NPD and feels like shit when you say those things & now knows that you'd hate them if you knew.)
Trying to look up "mental health positivity for people with npd", "mental health positivity cluster bs", only to find a) none of that, and b) more of the same old vile shit that makes me feel terrible about myself.
Having a hard time (which is constant at this point) and trying to look up resources for myself, only to again, find the same stigma. And no resources.
Not having any clue how to help myself, because even the mental health field is spitting so much vitriol at people with DISORDERS (who they're supposed to be helping!) that there's no solid research or therapy programs for people like me.
Losing close friends when they find out, despite us having had a good relationship before, and them KNOWING me and knowing that I'm not like the trending image of pwNPD. Because now they only see me through the lens of stigma and misinformation.
Hearing the same stigma come up literally wherever I go. Clubs. Meetings. Any online space. At the bus stop. At the mall. At a restaurant. At work. Buzzword of the year that everyone loooves loudly throwing around with their friends or over the phone. Feels awesome for me, makes my day so much better/s
I could go on for a long time, but I'm scared no one will read/rb this if it gets too much longer.
So please. Stop using the word "narcissist" as a synonym for "abusive".
Stop bringing up people you hate who you believe to have NPD because of a stigmatizing article full of misinformation whenever someone with actual NPD opens their mouth. (Imagine if people did that with any other disorder! "Hey, I'm autistic." "Oh... my old roommate screamed at me whenever I made noise around him, and didn't understand my needs, which seems like sensory overload and difficulty with social cues. He was definitely autistic. But as long as you're self-aware and always restraining your innate desire to be an abusive asshole, you're okay I guess, maybe." ...See how offensive and ignorant that is?)
Stop preventing healthcare for people with a disorder just because it's trendy to use us as a scapegoat.
If you got this far, thank you for reading, and please share this if you can. Further reading is under the cut.
NPD Criteria, re-written by someone who actually has NPD
Stigma in the DSM
Common perception of the DSM criteria vs how someone may actually experience them (Keep in mind that this is the way I personally experience these symptoms, and that presentation can vary a lot between individuals)
"Idk, the stigma is right though, because I've known a lot of people with NPD who are jerks, so I'm going to continue to support the blockage of treatment for this condition."
(All of these were written by me, because I didn't want to link to other folks' posts without permission, but if you want to add your own links in reblogs or replies please feel free <3)
#actuallynpd#signal boost#actuallyautistic#mental health awareness#narcissistic personality disorder#people also need to realize that mental health professionals aren't immune from bias#(it really shouldn't come as a shock that the mental health field has a longstanding pattern of misunderstanding and mistreating ppl who ar#mentally ill or otherwise ND)#the first therapist i brought up NPD to like. literally pulled out the DSM bc she could barely remember the criteria. then said that there'#no way I have it because I have low self-esteem lmaoooooo#anyway throwback to being at work and chatting with a co-worker. and the conversation turning to mental health. and him saying that#he tries to stay informed and be aware and supportive of mental health conditions & that he doesn't want to be ignorant or spread harmful#misinformation. and then i mentioned that i do a lot of research into mental health stuff and i listed a bunch of things. which included#several personality disorders. one of which was NPD.#and after listening to my whole ass list he zeroed in on the NPD and immediately started talking about how narcissists are abusive and#he knew someone who had NPD and how the person who had it had an addiction and died from the addiction in a horrible way and he#was glad he did#fun times#or when i decided to be vulnerable and talk abt my self-criticism/self-hatred bc i knew my friends also struggled w that and i wanted to#support them by sharing my own coping methods. and they both(separately!) started picking and prodding at my npd through the lens of stigma#bc i'd recently opened up to them abt having it. they recognized self-hatred as a symptom and still jumped on me for it. despite me#trying to share hurt vulnerable parts of myself to help them and connect with them.#again..... fun times
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Council of lovefools.
[First] Prev <–-> Next
#poorly drawn mdzs#mdzs#wei wuxian#jiang yanli#jiang cheng#They don't have an actual sleepover in this scene but the vibes were so sleepover coded...I had to get them cozied up.#Late night talks with friends and family are some of the best conversations.#My siblings and I used to have room sleepovers with each other (Actually an excuse to stay up and talk about runescape)#Currently my flatmates and I also have really great heart to hearts late into the night.#Pondering shit like 'What defines confidence?“ and ”Why are people terrified of letting themselves fall in love?"#All that aside; There is a really great conversation between JC and WWX here. They are so close and yet so far way from each other!#Fundamentally they *agree* about many things - but JC now has to play the role of someone more 'mature'.#His temper is reigned in and he had to take a more nuanced approach. Whereas WWX can be far more reactionary.#JC has changed to become someone more mature (or at least he is trying).#Contrast this attitude with the scene *right* after where WWX literally goes baby mode with JYL. Rolling around going “I'm Fwee years old”.#When children are hurt we comfort them with hugs and warm food and a laugh. It's not enough when you're an adult. It's not simple anymore.#WWX is stuck in the past when everyone else is shifting and moving on! It's a depression allegory (and just...actual depression)#But we also get to see how some things have stayed the same. They still bicker about soup. They still tease. They are still together.#They all care for each other very much but they are struggling against trauma and are not equipped to talk about it.#You can't really blame WWX for being so protective over JYL. But JC is right: “You don't have a say in who she likes.”#It may have started as an arranged marriage but *she* is *choosing* what her heart wants. JC sees that. WWX cannot.#The final act of love is letting go after all.
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Short hair Chuuya
#bungou stray dogs#bsd#bsd chuuya#bsd dazai#skk#bungo stray dogs#bsd art#soukouku#my art#his hair……I struggle every time I can’t even draw his hair regularly???? half the time#hair started to look like mark I almost cried#every time I draw Chuuya he gets more piercings#well thats a lie but I will always draw him with piercings#I love seeing fanart of chuuya with piercings#Dazai is there because….I can’t seem to stop drawing him no matter what#he is supposed to have an undercut but its not really shown oops
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you open my Super Important Documents and its just pictures of charles xavier
#xmen#mcu#xmen movies#xmen first class#charles xavier#professor x#snap sketches#todays schedule has been ruined by my ever occurring need to practice drawing movie charles its horrendous#i started this sheet last night but then i kept adding to it and i keep wanting to add to it but i MUST stop myself#in an ideal world i get paid to draw charles xavier and erik lehnsherr but no i live in this baka society#sleepless charles WAS inspired by me starting this at 1AM and forcing myself to sleep at 4AM#and then here i am picking i up still later .... i need professional help i fear but i aint got time for that#NEVERTHELESS I THINK IT GOT IT NOW. I THINK IM OK. i think i know how i wanna go bout drawing him now ...#chat can i confess that like. .5% of the reason i barely draw FC charles i because of his hair#for some reason some demonic entity prevents me from drawing it easily i am in STRUGGLE CITY#the only thing that gets me is that whenever i draw him i can only think of the likes of a disney prince but man thems the strokes ig#i also drew a quick dark phoenix charles but i figured id just keep this first class oriented#anything else i want to say ? uh. hm. its funny i never do any of these sheets for erik#genuinely On My Life made One (1) sheet and was like 'no yeah i got it. i got it down'#literally not my fault his head is So Shaped and defined but anyways. this aint about him.#i mean it could be. i still wanna do a doodle page concentrated on drawing how his powers show#more specifically how do i wanna draw the glow cause i cant decide on it ... also i wanna draw the 'levels' ...#but thats for another time. for right now i should probably eat i havent eaten all day#bye bye !!!!!! here's to hoping i draw something thats not a doodle sheet one of these days
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Step Forward - Part 3 They are going on a date!!! Part 1, Part 2, Part 3, Part 4 Check out my tags for fun facts XD
Kofi
#perryshmirtz#heinz doofenshmirtz#human perry#phineas and ferb#perry the platypus#human!perry#human perry the platypus#agent p#fanart#dr doofenshmirtz#dr heinz doofenshmirtz#pnf fanart#pnf fan comic#disney fanart#disney series#fan comic#comic#artists on tumblr#prtz long comic#So sorry I took so loong#step forward#I struggled with composition and well anxiety lmao so thank you for your patience#Perry does talk in this story#He starts talking when he calls Heinz's name and asks him out#If you dont like talking Perry you can pretend that he signs all the time#selective mutism#The book/notebook doesnt hit Heinz's foot#I kinnda wanted it to happen but I didnt want to make it longer than it was#just imagine him being all shocked and then his book hits his foot and starts screaming while Perry patiently waits for his response#I have some of the script for the next chapters already
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Rick and Michonne Grimes - Their Journey Over the Years
It's a broken world, Michonne. And you're the only thing that puts it back together. Til my last breath I am yours.
#the walking dead#the ones who live#rick grimes#michonne grimes#danai gurira#tvedit#nessa007#chewieblog#richonne#userstream#usergif#dailyflicks#richonnegifs#dailytwd#cinematv#twdedit#towledit#tvarchive#otpsource#romancegifs#denim rose graphics#ajshxbsjakaksksk aka me screaming internally; I’m so excited to share this with you all#I think this is the most ambitious gifset I’ve ever made??? but I really wanted to see it through#I chose to do a page for each era of their story (S3; S4; S5; S6-7; S8-10; and finally TOWL)#I’ve wanted to do a magazine layout for a couple yrs now but I was too lazy lol#but when the urge came round again this time for Richonne I got my butt up and immediately started sketching thumbnails#I struggled to come up with a time for the mag cover until I remembered the last (?) TWD supply drop chose the CRM Tribune as its theme#tbh researching mag covers; trying to match fonts; hunting down scenes...it’s been some long nights#the amount of sleep I’ve lost over this set lol but I’m SO SO happy with the final outcome; love these two and their story#I hope you all enjoy!!
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Surrounded by stars
You've forgotten them all.
Greyscale version
#eyestrain#my art#isat#in stars and time#isat spoilers#in stars and time spoilers#sasasaap#start again spoilers#sasasaap spoilers#start again: a prologue#isat siffrin#start again start again start again#isat mirabelle#isat isabeau#isat odile#isat boniface#It was a color palette. I love color. but also its isat... the struggles... Im very accustomed to color. Not so much greyscale art#But ill get there hopefully?
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#I need to stop starting new stories and sit on my damn butt and just sprint to the god damn finish line#🦊#Why are WIPS so addicting?#It's a curse and a blessing#writing#writing memes#writing problems#on writing#writeblr#writers on tumblr#meme#writer#writerscommunity#writer stuff#fanfic writer#ao3 writer#memes and shitposts#writer memes#writing struggles#writing woes#tumblr writers#tumblr writing community#fanfiction memes#fanfic writing#fanfic meme#we are all clowns
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