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isa-ah · 5 months ago

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crick is a few years older than isaiah... what if he had very faint i was a little boy memories of isaiahs mom before she died oxo

#thinking sooo hard about it #really a blind leading the blind moment #they get along well honestly. crick enables isaiahs sadboy side where he just wants to mope about bad stuff in his life #and isaiah enables crick to actually get it out of his system because hes very active (destructive) about negative expression #isaiah isnt a crier hes a breaker. crick is a sogggggggggy drinker who just cries all day abt it #so theyre very cathartic left to their own devices #i think crick being like thank god my mom drove my dad off. hed probably be like your dad if he was still around #and isaiah goes i wish my mom was around to do that... and getting soggy about not having ever gotten to know her #so crick dredges up the faintst foggiest memories of knowing her before she died and isaiahs RAPT just RAPT #and it makes crick cry bc hes SUCH a mamas boy the idea of losting cathy like that makes him blubber #so they just blubber about it together #thats their whole dynamic LOL #its why they only ever let themselves be alone 1ce and they went on a wholeass sadboy road trip about it #then did NOT stay in touch after #bc its not. a very healthy friendship all things considered #its really great when hunter first leaves tho bc crick is the ONLY person who gets it. what isaiahs feeling #bc he and hunter werent together but he LOOOOVED him and crick had the same thing happen w d.alex when he left for college #and never ever came back. ever. he left for good the moment he got a foot out #ofc that comes around to isaiah and hunter absolutely end up together and crick and d.alex Do Not. dave never felt that way abt him so #but its for the best #cricks husband is VERY good for him. gideon is no nonsense and doesnt have time for moping #he whips crick into shape as his lil househusband instead LOL

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askblueandviolet · 11 months ago

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macaque go touch some fucking grass

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#lego monkie kid #lego monkie kid fanart #monkie kid #monkie kid fanart #lmk #lmk fanart #lmk macaque #monkie kid macaque #blue and violet #he is willing to bet you haven't touched amy grass recently #going outside is one thing #touching grass is another #sorry he seems a bit passive agressive #he is tired #he does not feel like leaving Baihe's side anyways #he did promise to stay after all #and maybe he takes it a little too literally

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fisheito · 5 months ago

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Super important question. Do you think Yakumo is ticklish?

wait hold on i have to look this up

#scrunches my face in serious contemplation while i scroll thru the results #my instinct said no #and upon reading the results for ARE SNAKES TICKLISH #seems like snakes ...according to the science so far... cannot feel ticklish #they may have sensitive areas that will make them go >:\ ???? or :O?!?!? if u touch em #making me think about From The Earth Nectar again #where yakumo (human version) is a bit sensitive after moulting #so he was actually a bit ticklish with his fresh skin. yeah. i'll incorporate that into my headcanon #my urge to stay somewhat true to science banishes me to the Boring Corner where yakumo isn't ticklish #especially not as a snake. but maybe in human form he gets a bit sensitive in certain areas #not like tickle torture level where you can poke his ribs and he'll yelp/start crying #but. uh. he's already so jumpy that he doesn't need to be ticklish to startle at an unexpected touch. you know??!#part of me DID consider... what if.. yakumo ticklish on his sides or smth #that's giving us another way to reduce him to tears............very tempting #for now i'll give him this ONE thing #this ONE advantage (?) in bodily control #i personally am not very ticklish so i'm also just going with the easiest-to-imagine headcanon #the few situations where someone manages to find a ticklish millimeter on me and i risk punching them out LOL #it's automatic and not a fun time for anyone involved #anon do you have thoughts about a ticklish yakumo?#are you about to open my eyes to another dazzling dimension?#nu carnival yakumo

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angesaurus · 5 months ago

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Trying to not let it bother me but it does hurt that all the daycare parents made plans to go to dinner and we were not invited. We all had a playground graduation party for the kids this afternoon and then to hear them making the plans kind of sneakily (low voices but I mean, I can hear them)….. kind of sucks? Like that feels a little shitty? Cecilia came and asked if we were going to the restaurant and I’m like ….. well we were not invited????? And she’s confused because “well all my friends are going!!!” And I’m like ????? I don’t know what to tell you.

A few weeks ago they all got together too (all parents no kids). We were the only couple not invited (thanks for showing me that Facebook lol).

#oh well #I try #I’ve tried all year to be super friendly and nice and I guess it did not work!!!!!#only 1 daycare friend is going to her school anyway so we probably won’t stay in touch with most of them but still #another couple was not invited to and the dad was like WTF to me after lol

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nerosdayinanime · 1 year ago

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feral giyuu beloved

hes gonna fucking kill Shinazugawa

so Sanemi pulls his stab-the-baby bullshit which terrifies Tanjiro, thinking he'd try to open the box next to burn her in the sun. as soon as Giyuu registers his distress all the tension he'd be holding in snaps violently- he lurches forward out of the lineup and lunges at Sanemi with the ferocity of an actual demon. Sabito and everyone else are stunned in place as Giyuu punches him hard enough to send him to the gravel, snatches Nezuko's box from him and leaps back pulling Tanjiro behind him. He stands there posed protectively in front of them, every muscle tensed ready to move as he stares Sanemi down snarling as loud as thunder. Obanai Mitsuri and Tengen are cringing back- Obanai because hes closest aside from Sanemi and can smell the intense sea-salt & pine through his mask, Mitsuri because shes an Omega Prime and the warning growl/threat scent affects her more, and Tengen because the sharp ring of loathing in the growl hurts his head. Sabito's still in the lineup baring his fangs, struggling to keep calm and not make the situation any worse for his partner despite the anxiety of the situation.

"Don't fucking touch them." "I didn't even touch your stupid brat!" "YOU STABBED HER!"

Everyone startles at the implication of that- Sanemi growls and starts berating him for imprinting on a demon, stomping closer, calling him a traitor for attacking him. Giyuu leans forward ready to rip out his throat at a moments notice, not lunging solely because Tanjiro's holding onto the back of his haori pleading for them not to fight. Sabito finally snarls and stands up- Kyojuro Mitsuri & Tengen follow, fully expecting to have to intervene when the three of them start tearing each other to shreds, "SIT!. ALL OF YOU!." He snaps, harshly grabbing Sanemi by the shoulder and shoving him down. Sanemi starts to protest but Sabito leans over him threateningly and grabs his throat, "You stay fucking put. You're already 5 feet down and i suggest you stop digging any further." Sanemi stares back at him, gripping the arm holding his neck, but doesn't do or say anything else, the others hesitantly settle back down. He lets go and straightens up, looking back at the other hashira, "We're going to sit here and wait for Oyakata-sama like civilized people," a pointed look at Sanemi, "Are we agreed upon?." When everyone murmurs in agreement he nods to Giyuu and kneels next to Sanemi, barricading him and the other hashira from Giyuu Tanjiro and Nezuko.

Giyuu finally stops growling and posturing, hesitating for a moment before turning and fretting over the two of them for a bit- they finally sit down when he calms. When Kagaya arrives hes immediately hit with the tension and thick fear-anger-stress scent filling the courtyard and asks what happened. Sanemi opens his mouth- Sabito slaps a hand under his chin and closes it again. Shinobu and Kyojuro pipe up, explaining that they were questioning the boy when Shinazugawa went ahead and stabbed the demon in the box, how Urokodaki stepped up and ...convinced everyone to sit back down. He finally brings out Sakonji's letter and asks everyone else to allow it like he did. Sanemi of course objects and asks to prove the demon's real nature. Giyuu immediately snaps at him to shut the fuck up- he's already done enough stabbing his fucking cub. Kagaya recognizes the gravity of the situation and offers Giyuu to come inside so he can check on her (and maybe possibly also show everyone else shes not so bad-). Giyuu quickly takes up the offer and pulls Tanjiro over with him in the far corner- Sabito follows them to the edge of the engawa and stands guard there between them and the other hashira.

Giyuu sits down in front of her box and gently opens it, little Nezuko crawling out and looking around for a moment. She sees the blood on Tanjiro's face and tries to wipe it off with her sleeve, Giyuu makes pointed eye contact with Sanemi and carefully cleans Tanjiro's face off. Nezuko patiently sits in his lap until he pats her head and inspects the damage to her clothes. The other hashira are talking, arguing maybe- he doesn't care enough to tell. "Shinazugawa, you owe me 5 yen." "The fuck do i owe you for jackass!?" "Thread, for the fucking HOLE you put through her-" "Ah!- Giyuu-san its fine!-"

Eventually its decided they'll let her live for now, "I also offer to take them in to the Butterfly Mansion, if that's okay with Tomioka-san." Giyuu notices the peace-offering look she gives him when she says that. "...I'll allow it.." Tanjiro herds Nezuko back into her box and Giyuu growls at the kakushi who try to pick up Nezuko's box. He puts the box on himself, Tanjiro tries to assure them he can walk on his own and immediately buckles when he puts pressure on his injured leg. Giyuu picks him up and carries the both of them out and to the butterfly mansion while Sabito stays for the rest of the meeting

#loserboy giyuu posting #neros art tag #abo sabigiyu surprise adoption au #giyuu dipped as soon as he could he did NOT want to stay around that mess any longer than he had to lmao #hes never been so junked up on adrenaline before- he dropped the two of them off in Aoi's care and went to run off the rest of it with a #few laps between the estate and the nearby village. grabbed some more thread while he was there #oh yeah i didnt talk about the mt natagumo scene w rui & shinobu #he was super panicky about possibly losing them to a lower moon so soon- he got there in time though and had that whole convo w tanjiro #abt not hesitating to slay demons- he was swayed by tanjiro and grabbed rui's clothes after he ran from shinobu. had em stuffed in his #sleeve the whole time- probably asked the btfy trio to wash it for him and gave it to tanjiro #tanjiro told him about the little family lower 5 was trying to make with the other demons- how he must've been trying to replace the family #he lost and going about it the wrong way given how happy the spider mother was to die. he smelled so profoundly *sad* when he was dying #giyuu gets why hes so sympathetic to demons like that. he doesnt really feel the same but he understands. hes just happy tanjiro found a #balance between his kind nature and his job as a slayer- he doesnt have to sacrifice his kindness and he doesnt have to sacrifice his *life #sabito eventually arrives w shinobu & fills giyuu in on the meeting stuff- they also talk about that little bit about 'his cub'#'what about it? they're ours now.' 'giyuu you cant just adopt-' 'i dont wanna hear that from you *urokodaki*' 'touche. they're ours now'#giyuu #tomioka giyuu #giyuu tomioka #sabito #kny sabito #sabito lives au #sabigiyuu #kamado tanjiro #kamado nezuko #originally it was supposed to just be a redraw but my obsession w sharp teeth won out #giyuu beloved #next im gonna try to draw somethin w giyuu original design #that fuckboy w the slutty gloves

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pergaminaa · 9 days ago

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Modern au

Manon would not believe she had this interaction with her sixteen months old daughter:

There was a box of cookies on the coffee table. The child has found the box, opened and grabbed a cookie and put it in her mouth. Not satisfied, he had the cookie half dangling from her mouth while her hands went to the box again.

Manon told her to finish the piece in her mouth first before grabbing another.

What did her adorable precious daughter do? She looked her straight on the eye, shoved the entire cookie in her mouth, and reached for the box hunting for another cookie.

#booklr #books and reading #throne of glass #manon blackbeak #tog #dorian havilliard #manon x dorian #manorian #listen the child just didn’t care #she shoved the whole cookie in her mouth while looking at her mother #and reaching for the rest #honestly it’s better to just keep thing out of her reach #because she doesn’t care #blackbeak-havilliard baby has selective hearing and does a good job ignoring both parents #it’s funny but also not because what if she suffocates #Manon asked Asterin if this is safe but Asterin said it’s fine she has teeth and can chew just fine #if she feels she’s in trouble she’ll just spit it out #because Asterin has two kids so she has experience #unlike Manon who’s trying not to panic at everything #but it’s hard because babies and toddler are suicidal without an a ounce of fear #she also does things that are ‘wrong’ while not breaking eye contact with any parent #she doesn’t hide it at all #it’s a thing that she does #she makes sure she has an audience and laughs while she proceeds with what she’s doing #like playing with yrene’s plants and always making sure yrene can see her touch them #one time yrene had fake plant and the kid did the same #yrene was amused because the child was looking at her to make sure she sees her touching the plant #yrene was like ‘it’s fake you can pull on it however u want’#with what her parents are like the child has quite the personality on her #after that she’s go to yrene and hug her all with settling on her lap resting her head on the woman’s shoulder and just staying there

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goodmorninglovelies42 · 8 months ago

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Just thinking about Ted Lasso as Dorothy and Beard, Nate, and Roy as the Scarecrow, the Lion, and the Tin Man. Have we done this yet?

#ted lasso #saw a post on Twitter speculating that Jason changed the ending #when nothing makes less sense to me #for 1 Ted’s whole journey is about fatherhood #dealing with his dad issues and becoming a better dad #he had to go back to be a present father #and in a more meta sense it’s a classic hero’s journey #he had to return home!#like Dorothy he had to come back to Kansas after his trip to oz and learning all he did on that trip #and beard is from Kansas too #but he needed to get his brain in oz and stay there #and Nate needed to gain self confidence #and Roy not only walked like the tin man but needed to get in touch with his feelings!#roy kent #coach beard #nate shelley

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whatisshelties · 2 months ago

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When you see the Purina Incredible Dog Challenge described as one of the most prestigious events in dog sports and you're like how?

You run the same agility course 2 times the day before filming so you can make sure you have it down for the camera. It's run 4 times total. You have to know someone who knows someone to be invited for anything other than disc and dock. It's a production? Not real????

I think because I don't train dogs for a living I don't find a lot of value in it as an accomplishment, so when people talk it up I'm like...it's not that big of a deal? I say this as someone who has done 3 of them, one being the "national."

#hmmm i wonder why i haven't been invited back?????#jk i haven't stayed in touch with anyone connected to the event #or had a dog worth competing with #i only went the years they had NADAC invite people #which i think was just...like 2 or 3 yrs lmfao #now it's just the same akc-usdaa-uki folks #over and over and over again #join me for more cynical takes on dog sport events #i may also be a little bitter for them not airing blue on the national in favor of the dog that placed after her #b/c we did distance and it didn't look good on camera to have a dog running the course without a person lmfao #i don't know that for sure #but that is my suspicion

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freebooter4ever · 8 months ago

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holy shit for the first time in ten years i forgot nicks birthday

#and ironically it was my friends video talking about march that clued me in #like fuck march passed and i didn't even notice it.... feels weird. very. weird.#jrnlsht #yikes he turned 40 this year #oh that makes me feel old lmao that makes me feel so old #i thought i had everything figured out when i was 25...of the two of us i was the one with the stable job that i loved #making art all day... and then staying up till 4am making art with nick #and like sadly literally not euphemistically #although those after hours set painting sessions did include some making out #he was such a mess back then #now we've swapped im the mess and he's the one with the stable job he loves #funny how life works out #i remember his 30th vividly his sister bought him this ridiculous bunch of balloons #which of course he hated #and he was forcing a smile cause he was trying to play nice and act like his life wasnt a total mess #and i just sat there giggling at him in his sisters kitchen with the balloons cause i could tell he was faking it #anyway it was fine i made it up to him with a much better present later that evening when we were alone :P #i dont think either of us ever imagined being this old #i certainly didnt #i remember the last time i touched his face a few years ago #it was the first time i realized that - oh- i could love wrinkles #bald with lines around his smile... it was still his face :)#but forgetting is a good thing #sometimes i need to let memories go and move on

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no1ryomafan · 11 months ago

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It’s the way I’m in between of “I’m okay if getter gets zero no content this year even though it’s the 50th anniversary because dynapro bot wise it’s grendizer year which has been long overdue, plus getter could be having it worse compared to other mechas” and “please god if your gonna give us even a crumb make it a new spin off manga at least even if I’m probably not gonna read immediately or just a fucking figure that ISN’T shin getter”

#meg text #getter robo #if they make a “happy 50th” figure and it’s just a more pricier shin getter I’m going to sob #<this is likely going to happen #shin getter is a cool design but can we get figures for NEW. PLEASE #ITS TURNING 20 THIS YEAR TOO AND DOING SOMETHING ALSO IN FAVOR OF 50TH A GOOD ENOUGH EXCUSE #and I’m perfectly fine if it’s just getter one even if two and three are super neglected #new getter one is low key becoming my favorite getter one so if I could get a new-Hah-figure of it that be awesome #but also real talk the getter spin offs random but why did they suddenly die after devo??#esp because despite mix reception in the fandom it seems Japan wise they liked it enough to get in SRW #or maybe that was only bc it shared creators with Netflix ultraman and that’s why they could get it in #and just “people are gonna be sick of arma and we can’t add arc yet so former most recent thing will do”#but I think if we can’t get another new anime or animes consistently the spin offs should stay #especially now that they touched arc maybe we can get mangas actually getting to use the boys #still probably wouldn’t follow the anime but they deserve to be in aus #speaking of which can we ever get ova mangas? Like epilogues of what happens after each ova? Please?#that’s never gonna happen but I can DREAM since it’s just such untap potential

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runningatypufullspeed · 8 months ago

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WOULD YOU GUYS LIKE TO SEE MY FUGLY UGLY ASS ALLEGORY OF THE CAVE X FAHRENHEIT 451 CROSSOVER DRAWING THAT I WAS FORCED TO DO FOR SCHOOL….. ITS SO UGLY AND MONTAG IS

WHITE.

AND THE HOUNDS ARE DISGUSTING THE COLORING IS SO SHITTY AND MILDRED …. Well ok she looks alright kindof but the COLORING ….. SKETCH WAS BETTER but do you guys. Do you still want to see it…….,,,,,,

ALSO NO OFFENSE TO WHITE PEOPLE PLEASE I LOVE YOU GUYS 🫶😁👍 within reason

#like ok maybe it isn’t. THAT bad #NO NO I TAKE THAT BACK I JUST LOOKED AT IT RIGHT NOW AND THE COMPOSITION IS ALL FUCKING VOER THE PLACE #IT. IT IS. THAT BAD #IF YOU GUYS SAY YESS YOULL SEE #ok but nasty bad art aside I know some of you will be asking why white Montag is such a bad thing and #there isn’t anything wrong with it!!! it’s just that for me personally #after I did a bit more thinking I was. physically incapable of perceiving Montag as anything other than POC/nonwhite #so when I look back at my old f451 art and stare into the eyes of a pale skittish twink it just #it doesn’t click. like that isn’t MY Montag if ykwim #now trembling BROWN skittish twink. that’s a different story #AGAIN I DONT have any issues with ppl making their own versions white I just think that . for me specifically. he looked a bit funny #a little off. a bit too crackerish for my liking #where is bros melanin 😭#I’m complaining right now but if I wanted to I could just… go in and try and make the skin tone darker #I might do that depending on how tired I feel after doomscrolling #also if it matters even though I have read the book over at least 8 times now not once have I touched either of the movies.#and it will STAY THAT WAY. until I completely log my notes for the book #then I can move on to the movies 🥰#but I will admit 2018 did sort of lead me to having a change of heart w my design. just a little. just a teensy bit. kinda. sort of?#actually not really now that I think about it #I have my own reasons.#TOO MANY WHITE PEOPLE MY EYES THEY BURN AAAYHHHHH MY EYES OW OW OW OWIEEEE #my Beatty design was so white that my eyes developed stage 4 cataracts #I needed a palate cleanser that WASNT Millie… oh god my Millie design…#she was white there too. terrible #it’s okay… 💔 I’ve since learned and moved on #ARGH GUYS I DONT HATE WHITE PEOPLE I JUST THINK THAT MORE SKIN COLOR VARIATIONS WOULD E NICE

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robinsnest2111 · 2 months ago

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ah of course my brain is regaling me with only the choicest of Bad Thoughts when I'm trying to fall asleep...

#tonight it's Remembering How My Parents Touching My Back Or Shoulders In A Friendly Gesture Is Making My Skin Crawl #because i do not want to be touched by them ever again. not after all they did to me. not after all the beatings and other physical abuse.#their audacity to think all is fine and dandy and they get to touch me now that it's been a couple years makes me so sick #but i can't say anything. need to stay in their good graces. living under their roof again. scared to lose my room if i act difficult #the thought alone of these Friendly Touches makes me wanna puke. sends a whole body shiver through me.#makes me wanna peel my skin off and run far far away idk #not in the right mind to sleep.........

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meme-loving-stuck · 1 year ago

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i remember being brought up christian like, almost concerned that i never felt a connection to any of the shit they were talkin about,

and when i was younger i was like "oh no! am i bad for not feeling connected to god?? is it bad i feel like my dead mom doesnt talk to me or watch over me?? am i horrible for pretending?????"

but turns out i just had Autism Powers that made me immune to it and i was able to completely sever myself from the idea of being Christian at the ripe old age of like 13. and it was such a HUGE comfort to see that there were all these other beliefs and spiritual sort of things that other people chose to believe in and didnt necessarily treat their beliefs as COLD HARD UNDENIABLE FACT the way christians treat the existence of god & heaven & hell

like now that i am older i know i was in fact traumatized by the culturally catholic beliefs my family held & forced on us all, but i am really immensely grateful that my child self looked at all the other aspects of christianity that would horrify most other children into behaving/conforming, and basically just went, "okay, source?"

and that was the end of that

#BLOGGING LOUDLY #okay source sounds so cringe ik but like #i really couldnt buy into any of it after a certain point #even though i almost found comfort in it! the idea of prayer was very much that for me the way it is for many ppl #i just literally could not believe something that didnt have proof i could see or touch #and when i was a bit older i did get hit with the 'well you cant SEE gravity but you believe in that'#but again immediately i was like... you can still prove gravity though. i learned it in seventh grade. LMAO #i dont know part of me is relieved i didnt feel the painful separation or conflict that so many others feel #but i am still kind of sad i couldnt just. be that way. and find a home somewhere #and that nothing else has really stood out to me except like non theistic satanism which also sounds. edgy teen boy #like it is a legitimate belief system and i feel closely aligned to it! but im still just kinda meh about using the label ... hrmm #perhaps need to look into the various kinds of satanism again #i tend to stay away from pagan stuff but its also something i found interesting #my partner seems very interested in becoming a jew despite not really... ever having been exposed to judaism or jewish cultures #but id like to learn more about it too i have many resources just kinda sitting....#idk i guess i started thinking about this bc actually studying other religions etc could be very fulfilling but i just....eh....

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feralsteddie · 2 years ago

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mid-apocalypse Steve with a shaved head is living rent free in my mind rn

#steve harrington #he struggles for a long time before he can actually manage to do it #but the occasional supply shipment the government actually lets through only has so much #and in the long run it was just… easier. felt better than letting it get all lank and dirty #robin did it too. In solidarity at first but then because she likes the buzzed feeling #and yeah when Steve occasionally looks into a grimey mirror it’s hard to see who he was before everything.#underneath the scars that trace all the way back to ‘83 and lack of puffed up mullet #but there wasn’t a lot of time for a hair routine in between swinging a bat at monsters anyways #the only attention he can spare for hair those days is when it’s his turn to wash and braids Max’s- still out after all that time #and when one of the other little kids with too long hair ask #because not all the lifers got out before it was sealed. too many kids stayed behind in the wasteland #but Steve was always good at three things anyways. Hair. Babysitting. and sticking himself into danger so no one else had to.#so it’s kind of fine that his hair was gone. better in some ways. less time to have to avoid looking at himself in the mirror #more time to take care of the others #Robin always affectionately runs her hand over his head anyways. pressed a quick kiss to every scar on his scalp #(if he survives he grows his hair nearly to his shoulders. treats caring for it like a ritual.)#(but that’s only if he lives)#pyreposting #something something his go to self-soothe being touching his hair and no longer being able to

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glimpsesofeuterpe · 3 months ago

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note to future-ish self: do not drink booze without eating something as well

#cringeposting #if you dont eat mind will go brrrrrrr #you gotta drink -and- eat #at first i didnt get it but now i totally get it lol #also fuck you stupid 10% of alcohol wtf i used to consume booze of 40% (occasionally) and stayed sober #apparently the cheaper the booze the harder it kicks #.......at this point i am almost sure id be sober-ish if ever try vodka (super unlikely actually touching it but still)#also also i get drunk just for like five times per year or so yet pretty sure this doesnt make me less of a 100% potencial drunkard #fdgdfgdfgdfdgfdgdffdgf #dammiiiittt #man this is so weird like i am в говнину aka 'totally wasted' but in control-ish and sane-ish #it's like mind separated in super drunk mode and sober mode at same time #system esfer confirmed???#of course the sober one is typing #in my defence: my own mom offered me to share a drink #i couldnt say no bcs you know if i did she would get too wasted and its not healthy besides she is not on good terms with booze #//./.... kay this sounds like excuses #i did it bcs i wanted to go into self destruction after a fine amount of healthy stuff that lasted for wow two weeks by now thats why #delete later

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neobisexual · 6 months ago

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had a very intense semi lucid dream last night where i was the daughter/acolyte of an insane cult leader/my dad who performed non consenual surgery on me and molested and raped me. it inspired me to start writing a lil sci fi novella but also to clean out my closet and find my vibrator cuz i was desperate for it after waking up lmfao

#he had like. grown me & a few other and inserted more and more mechanical parts into us through our lives #so we were mostly machine inside. but human-looking outside #and i tried to run away and got the shit kicked out of me by my sister/fellow cult member #she patched me up most of the way but for the complicated stuff dad had to help #one of my arms had been broken so he just cut the whole thing open to fuck with the wires and stuff. it felt so awful guhhhhh #and after that he started trying to finger me and asking questions about wether id slept with anyone while i had been away #and told me he knew id been touching myself and that made me disgusting and corrupt and that was why id tried to leave. and he had to fix #my mind too.#there was blood on his fingers when he pulled them out of me and he got so so pissed #i was crying and trying to explain i was on my period but he said that was a lie and id been trying to hide more injuries from him so he #couldnt finish fixing me #and he spent a solid twenty minutes beating me for it while groping me & continuing to finger me #he had a metal arm n that was the one he was using too so i kept getting cut and bleeding more and hed yell and hit me more and he just #wouldnt stop 😵‍💫😵‍💫#i was tied down by my wrists laying on my tummy but he forced me to roll over so he could punch my stomach a lot too ;-;#toward the end he got on top of me and started grinding against me #talking to me nice again and saying i was his girl and he just wanted to make me better and i only had to cooperate #i was sobbing and panicking still but he was just petting me #he tried to push his cock in me but he like. couldnt fit.#he could only get a couple inches in and he stayed sweet for a little longer but then he started getting frustrated #yelling at me to stop fighting him and slapping my face #and i was trying so so hard to relax and let him in so it could be over but i was just too small #he gave up after awhile and finished cleaning me up without saying anything then left me alone down there. still tied down and crying.#that was only one part of the dream there was a whole plotline where i had made contact with 2 people (a brother and sister) on the outside #who were trying to save me. and i was trying to talk my sister into leaving with me because i was so terrified of losing her #eventually i did get out and ended up living with the brother and sister and it was super cute and sweet #parts of the dream were from her pov too. she made us all matching hats :]

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