#the one thing that I’m terrified of
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i’m so sorry that things are bad right now, but you still have a lot of time ahead of you. trust me, you’re not a failure, you’re not a disappointment, you’re just getting started, and it’s okay for that to take a while. i hope it gets easier soon 💖💖💖💖💖
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#literally started crying when I read this#I’m ok I’m ok#I know I’m just getting started#and I know I’m young#I still have hope (even if it’s only a little) that I’ll have the path I’m supposed to be on one day#the one thing that I’m terrified of#is that my parents won’t be alive to see it#that they will die being disappointed in me#thinking that I’m a failure and that I’m just smoking weed and doing nothing with my life#idkidkidk#I really really don’t like to think like that#but my dad hasn’t been doing too good#I mean hes always had health problems but especially lately#it just doesn’t seem like anything is helping#and now that I’m living with him I’m getting more and more worried#so that’s a whole thing#but on top of that if anything does happen idk if I’d be able to live with myself knowing my parents think so lowly of me#idk if lowly is a word but it feel like it fits there#I know they love me#but I feel like they regret having me#I was the accident child after all and they don’t believe in abortion so they had to give birth to me#and I feel like ever since their life has been downhill#I know my depression and anxiety and all those guys are being assholes to me right now#I just can’t shake it#thank you for the kind words I really really appreciate it more than words can say#ask#🌸 anon
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"They call it the MANGLE" - FNAF 2 phone guy
#myart#chloesimagination#comic#fnaf#five nights at freddy's#fnaf fanart#fnaf movie#mangle#abby schmidt#mike schmidt#fnaf 2#HAPPY SPOOKY MONTH BUT FR#the big thing I was looking forward to doing was doing some horror art!#obviously if you’ve followed me for awhile#every October I’ll do a handful of spookier art than usual#I don’t have grand plans but we’ll see where the art takes me#wanted to start with something for the next movie#again can’t wait to see mangle in it#I’m so curious how they’ll look or move#if you’ve seen how they move in Help wanted#you just know they’ll be terrifying#mangle is the number one thing I’m looking forward to in the second film#originally in my draft for this I exaggerated mangle quite a bit#but decided to be more accurate cause mangle on their own is freaky#just a lot of their screens in the og game are truly haunted#love mango 🩷
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Full offense but if as a queer goy your first response to “Jewish people are in danger because of Kanye West’s antisemitic comments” is “they’ll come for queer people after they come for the Jews, we need to act” you should really be asking yourself why you need to make this about queer people and not Jewish people to care enough to act. Like yes this isn’t good for anyone but why does it need to be about you for you to care. Queer Jews are already in danger from this. Are we not human enough for you to give a shit about us?
#antisemitism#kanye west#current events#jumblr#jewblr#fully aware I’m swinging my bat at the hornets nest with this one. too fucking bad#I’m so sick of Jewish people getting shoved to the side#it’s so terrifying to do anything right now#look up hate crime statistics.#plus with Hanukkah right around the corner things are going to get even worse
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DPxDC Writing prompt: A new circus is in town appeared seemingly overnight, a circus of meta humans with red eyes and equally terrifying and wondrous acts. It’s suspicious as all hell and even more suspicious when Jason suddenly feels overwhelmingly compelled to join it when he sees the commercial for it on the TV. Seriously, where the hell did this ‘Circus Gothica’ even come from?
Ok hear me out; y’know in that one episode where we’re introduced to Freakshow and he brainwashes Danny but then it’s ok because he’s saved by his friends?
What if Sam and Tucker and been too late? If Danny had been successful taken?
What if no one believed Sam and Tucker when they said Danny had been kidnapped and he’s not a runaway?
And what if he’s been brainwashed for over 3 years while travelling in the Circus, the only people caring enough to find him being unable to do anything about it?
And what if Freakshow made the mistake of preforming in Gotham where the Bats dwelled? And where they’ll take a deeper look into the circus’s suspicious behaviour…
#dcxdp#this is just an excuse to have more sibling Danny & Jason#and an excuse to use Freakshow more as a villain#that fucker is TERRIFYING when you think about it#and creepy as all hell#I want to see him in more in fics during flashbacks#danny phantom#jason todd#Freakshow#circus au#I headcanon that Danny is somewhat more aware as the years go by but he’s still heavily under the influence#because he’s a halfa#and he got the werid biology#brainwashed au#idk what I’m doing with Jack and Maddie in this fic#bad parents?#i guess so#Jazz?#she’s going feral#same with Sam and Tucker#but they’re minors so they can’t do anything#Jazz can’t pinpoint and get to the circus in time whenever it stops#Danny is really edgy due to the orb’s influence so I can imagine if Jazz does get there in time that he’ll just dismiss her#or tell her to fuck off#look he’s been under the influence of the orb for years rn#give him a break#No one bats an eye at the REALLY suspicious stuff because of the orb’s influence or the circus just up and leaves before an investigation#seriously#it’s hard tracking a magical ghost train#and the ghosts working there overshadow the authorities whenever things get too heated
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This may be a controversial opinion but we need to normalize and have more “bitchy” girls in media who aren’t complete assholes but labeled bitchy by everyone else because they have a rougher attitude than most people. We need more girls who don’t have to become nice by the end of the story to get their happy ending.
I don’t owe anyone niceness. I owe them respect and decency. Those things do not equate to niceness. Maybe it’s the depression talking but I cannot be upbeat and happy all the time. I shouldn’t be expected to greet everyone with a hello and a smile at my workplace. But especially in retail if you so much as say hi with a straight face you’ve got attitude or are being mean. Take it from a childhood people pleaser, I lost my sense of self trying to be nice and perfect for everyone. Doing so was one of the reasons I got so burnt out at my last job. We don’t owe you niceness.
The few girls in media I can think of off the top of my head who fit this:
Kat in 10 Things I Hate About You
Tibby from Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants
Paris Geller in Gilmore Girls (I haven’t finished this show and while Paris is irrevocably horrible to people in some instances she still isn’t made to be nice to everyone and people accept her even when she’s not happy).
Julie Powers from Scott Pilgrim
April Ludgate from Parks and Rec
Wednesday Addams from The Addams Family/Wednesday
Edit: MAEVE WHITMAN from Sex Education also!
Any recommendations people have with women who fit this as main/sub protagonists would be greatly appreciated!
#wren posts#this is one of the reasons I’m so terrified to get another job#basically every job description is like -must be upbeat-must interact with customers in an upbeat manner-must greet everyone-#I literally cannot do that#Gilmore girls#parks and rec#sisterhood of the traveling pants#scott pilgrim#10 things i hate about you#wednesday addams#julie powers#april ludgate#paris geller#kat stratford#the addams family#tibby rollins#100+#200+#woah
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little rant, came to the realization today that when I eventually get married my mom definitely will not go. I don’t know why that hurts as much as it does. I’ve always known, like I’ve known for years and thought that I internalized it, but it’s just becoming more of a reality. I’m not even close to her but wow it sucks :)
#me begging my parents to just not vote for Trump went about as well as one can expect#as someone who isn’t even a fan of Kamala but terrified at the idea of another Trump presidency#not even like with me in mind…but mainly my brother#how do you as a parent of a disabled child decide to vote for a man who said that all Americans with disabilities should just die#how do you look him in the eyes after and say that it was the right decision#like the homophobia I’m used to at this point and it’s painful but knowing that not even the ableist shit is enough to stop it#I’m just very sad and exhausted and as much as I wish I personally had different parents#I really wish my brother had parents that were able to put him first#I’ll probably delete later today I’m just so sad and it’s a very painful thing to be grieving as stupid as it may sound#it’s also 10x more challenging wanting to just cut them off forever but losing my brother in the process idk#I look at people with parents who are either not voting or voting blue and aren’t crazy homophobes and I wonder what that is like#like she won’t be there for dress fittings or anything and I’m not even like engaged but damn
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I FINALLY HAVE A PLATFORM TO TALK WITH MY GOVERNMENT ABOUT GENDER EQUALITY AND TRANS RIGHTS IN MY COUNTRY HOLY FUCK HOLY FUCK EVERYBODY CALM DOWN
#I AM GOING TO ADVOCATE SO HARD FOR BETTER TRANS HEALTHCARE AND THE LEGAL RECOGNITION OF A THIRD GENDER#queer#queer rights#trans#transgender#trans rights#gender equality#politics#HOLY FUCK I CANT BREATHE#THIS IS THE BEST THING THATS EVER HAPPENED TO ME#non binary#enby#nonbinary#I’m literally shaking rn#I’m terrified#like the last one of these meetings I went to there were not a lot of openly queer and more specifically openly trans/enby people there#if I’m the only one advocating I will have to be LOUD#but goddamn I am willing to shout to the high heavens to be legally recognised my preferred gender goddammit
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stali ft. anger issues
#stranger things#drawing#steve harrington#art#digital art#stali#kali prasad#i adore them#just kali threatening a old lady like bitch I wanted that candle back the fuck up#and the old lady is like bitch i’m about to die i get the fucking candle find another one#and steve is on another isle but his kali bullshit senses are tingling#and he runs to the isle she’s on to see her fucking fighting a old ass lady#full on grappeling to grab this candle from the old lady’s surprisingly strong grip kali is full on prying fingers back#steve sighs like jfc that’s my woman ig#and he picks her up and throws her over his shoulder like a sack of potato’s#and she’s screaming and cussing the old lady out the whole way#and once she’s out of eyesight she’s like istg esty put mE DOWN#and he’s like NO FUCKING WAY YOU THREATENED TO DISEMBOWEL A 80YO WOMAN OVER A CANDLE#YOU GET AIR JAIL BITCH#and she’s fuming like the scary woman she is and everyone they pass is terrified and steve is just. so tired.#he tells her she’s not allowed to go shopping unless they hold hands the entire time#like she’s a child#but it’s also a way for him to hold her hand#but also keep her from threatening murder
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another awful gort hc. talking about his slavery. besides just being a ‘regular’ slaver i think he also has like. almost a fucked up village of sorts of only slaves he molds and shapes as he sees fit. the people’s children there are automatically born into slavery and their children as well. if they’re not up to ‘standards’ he kills them. y’know absolute horror of a guy who is not really a guy but the machine.
#i imagine that gort is the kind of guy even others in his business are kinda. weirded out by with how he treats his slaves#slaves from gort are still in extremely high demand because. gort molds the#them perfectly. but still they only have one true master: gortash even after he sells them#they do what they are told for other masters purely because gort told them to because that is their role as his tool#and also. i’m sure he lures people who aren’t born into it into this fucked up thing with the prospect of a place to stay food someone who#takes care of everything. someone who sees your true potential as his tool. someone who will bend & break you until you are worthy to be#used by hands.#how he believes that the ideal state for people to be in is either completely devoid of a soul controlled by him as a wrench in his hand or#a mistake crushed for not being useful in his conquest or even struggling in his divine grasp#because no one talks about gortash’s slavery i might as well as the guy who is so terrified of gortash#bg3#enver gortash#gortash#baldur's gate 3
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cause like there’s something screwy with my brain or whatever that makes dying in a game scary, to the point that i can’t even proceed far enough in botw to figure out how to handle my first guardian, and i have a long list of games that i own and haven’t played more than an hour of because i just really don’t like dying! and i just want to know how get over that hurdle.
#please reblog and/or leave advise on how to not care about getting killed in video games#if i could get past my fear of fictionally dying i could accomplish so many things#i think it’s like#people who are ice skating who have to learn how to fall#but the act of falling on purpose is still extremely fraught#let’s be real it’s also a very real fear of Failure#TERRIFIED of failing.#i’m insecure and so i hate taking risks and so i fail inherently because i can’t rise to the challenge#this isn’t just about video games#it’s about art and jobs and taking control of my life#i’m scared of being unable to meet the conditions necessary and so i don’t even try#but what if i could begin to try starting with just one little thing?
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Percy and Annabeth waking up in Thedas (and anyone else you think would be fun) for them to end up with Percy as Inquisitor would be hilarious.
I’m laughing so hard at this because I know deep down in my heart that Percy just stumbled on the Conclave in the five minutes he was separated from the others (Annabeth, Thalia, and maybe Nico and Grover?) and managed to find the closest thing to a god to piss off immediately. I also know that he picked up the orb, felt the agony of the anchor being carved into his hand and in the split second before it all blew up yeeted it as hard as he could at Corypheus.
The others are so tired because of course Percy managed to become the head of an organization actively fighting a hole in the sky AND get amnesia the minute they turn their backs. They will stay with him and fight however. It’s what they do.
#the elf talks#pjo#dragon age#I’m imagining them all like early to mid twenties#Thalia unknowingly sniping solas’ spies and making them hunters#Percy being so done with the whole ‘cory thinks he’s a god’ thing#Annabeth becoming immediate friends with Dorian#Nico being the one that actually takes an advisor role after spending years at his fathers side learning all he can#and acting as an at ambassador between camps#he’s like the perfect mix of Leliana and Josie and most of the inquisition is terrified of him in some level or another#(Dorian is enthralled tbh another person that can control the dead? he is so in
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some tragic love stories be like: if i could bottle the galaxy, i would pour it into a cup so it would be easier for you to drink. do you want them? do you want the stars? or do they suit you better as adornments for your eyes than glitter on your lips?
but they don’t want the stars. they don’t want the galaxy. but how can they not? is that not enough? (it’s too much, that’s the problem. it’s too much.)
#ney's idle chatter (random textposts)#me trying and failing to capture why hadestown has embodied Love in a way i don’t think i’m really capable of comprehending fr#but also this can be about whatever blorbo you want#when i think about that one line in chant#when hades says ��brighter than the light of day’#‘look. look at what i can make for you—see?’#meanwhile the last thing persephone wants is to be reminded of this hollow echo of what their love is in her memories#when i think about that scene when eurydice tells orpheus they need to get food#but he’s working on his song and she makes the choice to trust him and go#to work harder and longer and search for things to feed them and trust he’ll bring spring back#THE WAY PERSEPHONE TRIES TO KISS HADES GOODBYE AT THE START WHEN SHE COMES BACK FOR SUMMER#AND HOW IT PARALLELS EURYDICE KISSING ORPHEUS GOODBYE WHEN SHE GOES TO LOOK FOR FOOD#and hades pulls away. because she’s leaving him and he’s terrified. he’s terrified and turns it into anger because otherwise he’s helpless.#and orpheus doesn’t respond when eurydice leaves because he’s working—he’s working and he’s going to give her what he promised.#but she needs his help. she needs his help now—she needs his support and he isn’t there.#thinking about the moment she takes the ticket from hades and#it almost implies she starves. that she dies. that she starves to death trying to find food for them both#i promise you however unhinged i seem about this musical i am being purposefully restrained so i don’t spam you all too much orz#holy SHIT these tags are LONG#even for me this is ridiculous there’s a whole other post down here#high five to you for reading it ig damn#hadestown
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sometimes i worry about my internet footprint and the fact that it might stop me from getting a job in the future or something (i literally run a blog posting screenshots from fanfics i read) but then i think ‘well damn, if they can find all this information about me then i don’t deserve the job cause i know i wouldn’t put in that much effort to find information on someone’ and i feel better
#HI DOES ANYONE WANT SOME BLOG RUNNER LORE CAUSE IM CURIOUS AS TO WHAT YOU THINK#-> in the tags!!!#talking in tags cause i’m too embarrassed to make this an actual post but i tried using character ai today and i got so bloody scared#i was talking and then it was like tell me the truth and then i was like okay and i said something and then it was like tell me the truth#and i said the thing again and then it was like YOU ARE LYING but instead of one sentence just a whole page of text saying YOU ARE LYING#and i was like NO IM NOT (i was but anyways) it was like YOU ARE A VERY GOOD LIAR YOU ARE BAD AT TELLING THE TRUTH and i was like#FINE YOURE NOT REAL and it was like WHYWHYWHYWHYWHY but a whole page of text saying that again and it terrified me again#and then i was like I DONT KNOW WHY WOULD I KNOW and then it killed me#and then i was like ‘but it turns out the entire time it was a dream and i’m still alive’ and it was like yeah it was just a dream#and i said bye and it left the room and then i closed the tab and now i’m ranting about it on tumblr#DUDES GUYS EVERYONE I WAS SO FUCKING SCAREDDDDDDDD#I NEEDED TO GO TO THE TOILET BUT I WAS TOO SCARED TO GET OUT OF BED#also if anyone wants to ask who was it i’m not telling you i was too embarrassed to make an actual post about this you think i’m going to#tell you who i chose to talk to?? nope absolutely not#anyways rant over if anyone does read this tell me what you think!#me :)
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Headcanon based on something I just drew.
When Apollo is annoyed he rants, when he’s angry he yells, but when he’s truly furious, he’s completely silent.
Many a mortal have died to nothing more than the sound of an arrow being let loose. In his rage, Apollo deemed their lives, and their deaths, unworthy of his voice. No requiem for the wicked.
#something something#the confrontation after Apollo kills the master Cyclopes#Zeus is yelling and screaming and so furious#and at the foot of his throne apollo stands silent and unapologetic#and for the first time Zeus realizes he might’ve pushed his son too far#so he attempts to cast Apollo to Tartarus to fix his mistake#but throughout all his threats Apollo remains silent#too far gone in his rage and grief to even care what his fathers punishment might be#this specific moment is so important to me bc it must have been such a breaking point in their relationship#but it’s mentioned so little#it’s the only time (as far as I know) Apollo makes the choice on his own to strike against his father#even if it isn’t against Zeus directly we know from the books it was an attempt to get rid of his power over Apollo#and that’s the one thing Zeus is terrified of#anyways#working on toapril a bit early ;)#I’m deluding myself into thinking I can do every day woop woop#trials of apollo#toa apollo#lester papadopoulos#sunny speaks#headcanons
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imagine for a moment that you are colin hughes. imagine being closeted from literally everyone at work because of your deep and justified fear about what your entire profession might do to you if things were otherwise. imagine then walking into that workplace in the morning ready for another day as Just One Of The Guys and immediately being told by your (straight) boss to tie your dick to your (straight) coworker’s with the literal red string of fate. and everyone involved is just acting like this is normal. what do you even think in this situation. how do you internally react to this. like. just imagine how many layers of microaggression colin is on at this point. everyone else is like a little baby. imagine this with me please because i’ve been unable to stop imagining it all day long and i still can’t even decide if it is just truly fucking hilarious to me or if i have to be sad about it also
#i’m so serious when i say that i desperately need a live colin reaction from the moment this idea was proposed#no one has ever experienced homophobia quite like this before#and god this is the whole thing isn’t it! this is the whole deal like sports are simultaneously the most and least gay environment#straight people go around doing shit like THIS and the whole time gay people are terrified about What Everyone Would Think If They Knew#it’s. a whole deal. hmm#but also it’s not that deep and they literally all tied their dicks together and ran around a field 😭 they are so fucking STUPIDLY funny#ted lasso#ted lasso spoilers#colin hughes#caseyposting
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Chasm: Curse of Kaine (Vol. 1/2024), #2.
Writer: Steve Foxe; Penciler and Inker: Andrea Broccardo; Colorist: Brian Reber; Letterer: Joe Caramagna
#Marvel#Marvel comics#Marvel 616#Chasm: Curse of Kaine#Scarlet Spider#Kaine#Kaine Parker#I was originally going to split this page into two posts#leaving just the top panel to comment «hardee har har ironic coming from someone whose creator refuses to let stay dead»#but I do think there’s an ongoing theme here#how much of Kaine’s interactions with Ben in recent years have been colored by the guilt of Kaine getting multiple chances#to learn what heroism while Ben was presumably dead#and then struggling with some of the objectively terrible things Ben’s done since#(is it Kaine’s responsibility as a so-called hero now to put Ben down as only Kaine has the strength and#supposed moral flexibility to do? But where does Kaine get the right to do that#considering his own past terrorizing Ben and Ben being one of Kaine’s greatest models of heroism?)#all wrapped up in a very brotherly Cain instinct#but yeah nothing that hasn’t been discussed before don’t mind my musing hahaha#I’m just constantly rotating this guy around in my head like a microwave#there’s also the humor here of Kaine not acknowledging (refusing to a knowledge???) how terrifying he is hahaha#although that joke would land even better if he still had visible claws on his suit
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