#the depression is diagnosed

[fishandshesmygills]

they should invent an understanding and intellectualizing your feelings that makes them go away!!!

[thestralboy]

I can’t do it anymore, fr I‘m so tired

[squeakadeeks]

rotating my OC in my head wasnt enough. I had to bring him into the physical world too. four different times.

[systemdeez]

Anyone else feeling horribly alienated from the rest of society or is it just me.

[heymacy]

IAN GALLAGHER + his journey with bipolar disorder

╰┈➤ “At times, being bipolar can be an all-consuming challenge, requiring a lot of stamina and even more courage, so if you’re living with this illness and functioning at all, it’s something to be proud of, not ashamed of." - Carrie Fisher

[mikeyrrevenge]

[surrah698]

[mercifullymad]

i feel passionately about the need to enfold people experiencing (or diagnosed) with "just" depression or anxiety into the mad pride project. the more people who view themselves as mad, the better. much as the rhetorical move from "neurotypical" to "neuroconforming" emphasizes the artifice & social construction of "neurotypicality," so too will expanding identification as "mad" expose the sane/mad dichotomy as a false one.

it's true that (some) people with "just" depression and/or anxiety have an easier time navigating the psych system than people who have more stigmatized diagnoses. but this is not to say that they necessarily have an easy time — the carceral psych system is hostile to everyone subsumed by it, even the most "privileged" patients. we should of course critique & examine how our experiences are shaped by various intersections of privilege, but we cannot forget or ignore how someone with "just" a depression/anxiety diagnosis can still experience the full force of the carceral psych system brought down upon them (including but not limited to involuntary institutionalization, police intervention, & forced medication or other forced treatment).

we must encourage, if not insist, that those with the least-stigmatized diagnoses view their difficult experiences navigating the psych system as bound up with the liberation of people who have more stigmatized diagnoses &, often, a more violent experience of the psych system. we need more people to drop the "i have anxiety/depression but i'm not crazy" line and say loudly, "i have anxiety/depression & i am crazy. my access to just treatment is linked to the conditions of all other crazy people, who are my allies, peers, & friends. we are united in our cause & we all deserve a more liberating system of care."

[black-rose-writings]

My mom, after spending an extended weekend with my dad's old college classmates and their families: It's so weird that all of these very weird, intelligent and structured men who got their masters in engineering in the late 1980s have sons that are all autistic and daughters who all have mood disorders.

Me: Yeah, very weird. Why could that be?

[walnutmistjamie]

Are you fucking dying or some shit?

[chronicsymptomsyndrome]

Please take kids seriously they are actually people. sentient intelligent beings believe it or not. they know when they’re being blatantly lied to.

They might not understand it, but they know when grownups are being shady.

They know.

Please stop acting like it’s inconsequential if you lie to them or ignore them or dismiss their thoughts and feelings. It’s not. It stays with them forever.

Please take kids seriously.

[hexjulia]

this might be one of those things that only work for me specifically, but lately I've found that when executive dysfunction suddenly makes it hard to do things (and I'm really not talking about a "self-discipline" type issue here. Sometimes I suddenly find it hard to initiate anything; we're talking "simply move into a more comfortable position while working because this posture is uncomfortable" or "shower within the hour because I feel gross" type things) I can overcome it by doing everything but very....very slowly. Really just slowing down every movement. I don't know why it works, but after a certain point it gets my brain unstuck and the doing machine moving.

Sometimes it takes an 20 minutes of moving through molasses but after a certain point things become easy again. I think it has to do with being overwhelmed by sensory things maybe? and the very slow movements allowing for that to subside. Anyway just sharing in case it helps anyone because this is really not something I was ever taught in therapy.

[slnttyspydr]

I can't believe this needs to be said but...

Can we stop attacking Stolas for how he handled himself? He loves Octavia, and he loves Blitzo̶. They're the ones he loves the most.

Yes, he was on antidepressants to deal with the abuse from Stella. She openly stated how much she hated being married to him and treated him like crap. She even plotted his murder AT THE DINNER TABLE.

Yes, during Mastermind he chose to save Blitzo̶. Even given everything that happened between them, Stolas still has strong feelings for the imp. He chose Blitzo̶ for more than one reason. When Stolas slept with him the first time, he genuinely felt wanted and that he could love him, something he never felt from his own wife.

Yes, he stayed with Stella for Octavia. He genuinely loved her as a father but sometimes parents fuck up. It's life! She's also a teenager, and while she is justified, she can misunderstand the situation just like anyone else. Stolas even tried calling her for a month after he snapped out of his self-pity party.

Stolas' actions may not be what everyone wants, but one thing no one has even stated is...depression hits everyone differently. He just shuts down when he feels all is lost. Stolas is quick to make certain decisions because of anxiety, too. Why else would he give up everything without taking the time to think about it?

He didn't consciously make the decision to abandon his child, but one of his two greatest loves was in danger and he was saving him whether or not it cost his life.

Octavia was never in danger except for her gaslighting mother and uncle, which have basically had a whole month to poison her opinion of her father. And yet, she still tried to bring Stolas his happy pills.

Please just remember: these fictional characters from Hell are very human. Ironically, they may be more human than some actual humans.

That being said...I've watched the episode multiple times already.

[neurodivergenttales]

Nobody talks about how exhausting it is to be numb to everything

To drag yourself through every day knowing that you’re not going to get any pleasure or enjoyment from anything you do

To feel blank towards everyone and everything

It’s a never-ending cycle of looking to everyone else like you’re alive but feeling completely rotted down inside

I just want to feel like a person again

[tryingtoorbitthesun]

me to my therapist: I think I might be autistic...

therapist: I think that's a bit drastic... I would say you are bipolar.

me:

[lo-andbehold]

Cane user Percy cane user Percy cane user Percy cane user-

(A cane hooks around my waist and drags me offstage)