#diaryposting

[theseventeensteps]

obsessed with how fixable society is, on a structural level.

obsessed with how all you need to do is throw money at public education and eliminate most standardized testing and you will start getting smarter, more engaged, kinder adults. obsessed with how giving people safe housing, reliable access to good food, and decent wages dramatically reduces drug overdoses and gun violence. obsessed with how much people actually want to get together and fix infrastructure, invent new ways of helping each other, and create global ways of living sustainably once you give them livable pay to do so. obsessed with how tracking diseases, developing medicines, and improving public health becomes so much easier when you just make healthcare free at point of use.

obsessed with how easy it all becomes, if we can just figure out how to wrench the wealth out of the hands of the hoarders.

[valokuvapaivakirja]

[ladyflybutterbug]

In my last post I shared my empty notebook collection. Now here I present my finished journals aka the story of my (conscious) life, literally.

[fennopunk]

One of the problems with ADHD is that even when you're sick and don't have the energy to do anything, your brain doesn't actually slow down and needs the constant stimulation or you get ✨bored✨. And being bored is so illegal for my brand of ADHD at least, that the concept barely even exists (same reason I struggle with meditation).

[neurodivergenttales]

Nobody talks about how exhausting it is to be numb to everything

To drag yourself through every day knowing that you’re not going to get any pleasure or enjoyment from anything you do

To feel blank towards everyone and everything

It’s a never-ending cycle of looking to everyone else like you’re alive but feeling completely rotted down inside

I just want to feel like a person again

[aropride]

june 3, 2020

[gardening--tools]

me, this morning: Oh Boy! i sure am proud of this big project i finished!! i should take some time to rest and relax before i start any new ones.

inspiration, not two seconds later:

[filminah]

a reminder for you (but mainly for me)

the ideal university experience is a myth - all your mutuals on instagram posting about all their cool parties and cool friends don't live everyday like that, they probably don't look like that everyday either, people will only show you their best moments. people can be immature in uni just like they were in college and in school, coming to uni doesn't suddenly make you mature and neither does it make anyone else either. friendship breakups and all that petty shit happens to everyone. you're there to get a degree and not make friends, if the living environment or the people put you off, do you really want it that badly? i think i lost all my uni friends today because of a misunderstanding, some of them are in my classes and one is my flatmate who i can't avoid. but its only my foundation year and i'll meet other people next year. and when people have real jobs they have to work with people they dont like aswell, so its kinda like practice for the future. i think i'm gonna get back into movie reviews, drawing and painting again, and i was considering starting fencing? i think it would be fun. and i'm going to take my iron medication and vitamins too. because being alone isn't the end of the world. until next time (which is probably soon) Amina

[velvetporcelain]

goodnight.

[gayjewishwerewolf]

my friend and i have been roped into putting together a purim spiel for this year and (zero experience writing or directing or producing plays) (not a lot of time to organise it) (the chair has put out multiple announcements about how we have it totally under control already) it'll be fine!

[theseventeensteps]

every time i think "god i wish I was better at X", the voice of Arin Hanson comes back to me like the voice of a benevolent ancestral spirit, speaking to me the words of ancient wisdom:

'do you think i came out the pussy drawing fuckin' Mozart?!'

[valokuvapaivakirja]

[kataninjaa]

WAKASEO KISS REAL

[fennopunk]

It's kinda funny when someone sees me unravel a fiber project either partially or completely, and gets distressed on my behalf and I have to go "No no no, it's part of the process! You gotta trust the process."

[neurodivergenttales]

People talk about wanting to recover so that they can re-gain their old selves, their old passions, their old interests

What do you do when you don't have an old self to go back to and re-gain? There wasn't a 'me' before mental illness or if there was I don't remember them

When you start struggling with your mental health at a young age, it becomes all that you know and your identity can become distorted around it

Now I'm an adult who has no idea what they like, what they enjoy or even how to comfort themselves

What am I supposed to do with myself and how am I supposed to find reasons to recover when it feels like drowning is all I know?

[meteoritesystem]

many such cases