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#the sandman#tv: the sandman#moodboard#death of the endless#i just love her okay#aesthetic#death aesthetic#eye of thoth#eyes of horus#ankh#symbols have power#the sound of her wings#the big sis i never had
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Jason āmy family doesnāt know im aliveā Todd and Danny āmy family doesnāt know Iām deadā Fenton going alongside each of their plans my beloved. like Danny will absolutely go head-to-head with all of Gotham to support his new best friend on all his crime lord endeavors while he drags Jason to also attend collage with him. They are roommates and there never seems to a mention of family from either side. Itās an unspoken understanding they have. They met because Crime alley as a ghost lair thrummed with so much loneliness, it was at first the perfect place for Danny to hide his ecto signature in. But then he saw the dumbass whose lair it was lean his motorcycle just a tad too much when making a sharp turn to an alley, he sweeped the floor through a lifted chain link that passed his body but not his helmet. Yep thatās right the red thing got stuck. Danny who at the moment happened to be watching through his window snorted. Much to his horror because if not a ghost that dude couldāve gotten his head flung off.
Still, the scene was ridiculous.
On a whim he irrationally sees the police closing in on the guy and panicked at the thought of the guy using intangibility to free himself so Danny phased them both through his apartment wall and left the guy sprawled in his couch. Jason didnāt freak out but thatās normal when oneās got a concussion, one the guy immediately denied having as Danny laid out the medical supplies. The idiot proceeded to almost flatten four steps to the door with his stubbornness. He also said āIām asexualā in the most deadpan voice as Danny dropped him back in the couch.
Danny sighed. Clearly though, heād done so too early in the night because the guy kept trying to go, kept trying to knock Danny out, kept trying to slash him with knifes Danny didnāt know he had stashed. Heād only disarmed the guy from his guns. The visible ones apparently, cause at one point the guy did take out a gun and shoot until the ammo ran out and then teetered the thing like it was an art prop and hit his moon lamp.
Danny "yeah you arenāt officially my friend until youāve tried to kill me" fenton my guys.
Anyways both keep having the same argument over if Danny technically kidnapped Jason or not. Danny holds the fact that the police at least didnāt see the guy make the ridicule. Jason argued that happened cause he was sporting a concussion. Danny argued he got that after.
Jason at first thinks the guy's a meta, but no. Danny introduces himself, sheepily now that he recognizes this is who the lair he invaded is from. He bandages him and tries to cook for him. If Danny didnāt have ice powers he most certainly wouldāve burned the apartment. Jason then proceeds to kick him out of his own kitchen and make them both enchiladas. Itās the most normal both had in a while with another person and the air seems oddly settled. From then on, Jason constantly invited himself over, under the pretense that this was his territory and therefore he could drop in unannounced. Danny who has actual powers says he only allows this because Jason cooks very well.
Danny stays away from the crime fighting business unless his buddy is in deep shit he canāt get himself out. Also itās Dannyās turn to cover for his vigilante friend which Sam and Tucker give him so much shit for. (but also advice)
And they were roommates. (omg) Danny effectively derails Jasonās big comeback plans by casually dropping ghost lore every two days. Like,
Jason, talking about how he doesnāt want Bats snooping on his territory:
Danny: Just donāt let them in
Jason: ??
Danny: yeah!! Hasnāt Batman died and got revived??? You can totally kick out death touched people you donāt want entering on your lair.
Jason: ā¦I can?
Danny: Yep dude, your lairās supposed to feel safe.
Jason: wait does that mean I can kick you out?
Danny: First this is my apartment. Second, im dead, not dead touched. Third, itās too late to get rid of me. bitch.
Anyways Jason is super excited. You mean to tell him he can actually deny people over to his territory haunt?? (Yes itās only to people who have died and came back but still!! The sample size is exactly the type of people he doesnāt want to seeā!)
Joker my beloathed canāt step foot in Crime Alley.
(Jasonād feel a lot safer if the clown was dead but the possibility of his murderer turning into a ghost and their little loophole not applying on the clown is too scary to contemplate.)
Anyways, Jason loves experimenting with the power. It can go from simply making people shudder and not want to enter crime Alley to straight up not letting them enter like thereās an invisible wall blocking the way.
Jason because heās hurt that Bruce never even patrols Crime Alley and also because heās petty put B under the category of āinvisible wallā blacklist. His reasoning is that the man doesnāt even attempt to enter Crime Alley. To him itās surely just a place shadowed in tragedy. (anyways thatās itās the place he met Jason)
Ironically, Jason totally forgets that Batman does venture into Crime Alley one day in the whole year. The day he met Jason.
Okay. He didnāt forget at first. The first year Jason remembers cause it was only a few months till then but then the nextā Jason forgets that todayās the anniversary of the dayās Bruceās parents died. He forgets to allow B in when he feels a slight tug and dismiss the feeling that prompts Bruce to investigate because he literally canāt enter Crime Alley. He starts the trialsTM, he scouts on the very edge and sees people the whole day enter and get out and cross with no problem but Bruce canāt.
Itās literally just Bruce.
Time to call Constantine, i guess.
#bat shenanigans ensue#JSJSJS okay so i dont have a well versed timeline of events but two years after utrh who HASNT died of the batfam#cause those are the ones who are gonna go undercover to find what shady shit is this: )#im going with timmy cass and duke#sorry steph i KNOW you have died#the others have plausible deniability from my part#the trio is gonna come down hard on this unsuspecting pair#let's just say constantine just had one spare magical rune for each of them so they'll be able to identify who was powerful enough to do it#and duke found civvie jason. cass found civvie danny and tim also found jason a la squared. in his red hood get up later that night#the only useful photos are from tim's side but anyways since they got three suspects (one suspected to be the other. so really-- two)#they decide to split each other up and tag one each (whoever doesn't get the correct guy loses)#tim calls dibs on the twink. cass rolls her eyes and narrows her eyes at the red hood and duke smirks when he gets to keep his guy#he's not cheating if he didn't protest to getting to have the guy he already saw the aura of. he's sure he is IT#coincidentally duke happens to be the only bat jason doesn't recognize (and vice versa)#meanwhile cass is gonna be the one shadowing red hood which at this point he doesn't kill that much since he has his rules verymuch enforce#he does kill tho#so at some point they're gonna clash but at the start of the investigation no#let them be siblings your honor#big sis cass and her little brother 6'4 jay#and tim finally is gonna be the one to smoothly get himself in the conversation with cryptid roommate civilian danny fenton#genius dumbasses protection club#their first meeting is of course arranged but no less meet cute coffee shop au#anyways jason wants to know why the fuck hes got a bat tagging along with him so out of the blue and also why can't he fucking chase her of#cass is curious about how the red hood's mood constantly changes within her range yet he never attacks her despite his hurt-longing-anger#the boy who doesn't make noise fucking screeches when she sneaks up to him#and duke fucking brings his hands to block the chernobyl reject glow stick sun that's stands next to tim#while tim looks like his whole system is rebooting cause that's jason todd#dp x dc#danny phantom#jason todd
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she had hair so long that it look like weave
#LIKE MY GOOD SIS HAD INCHES#yeah she was batshit insane here but the hair game never failed#that shit down to her waist like i see you š#okay i see you#lo & li did they big one fr#she said thirty inch buss down wet and silky#azula atla#princess azula#azula#atla#avatar the last airbender
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seeing the scarlet witch comics made me wonder what do you think of wandavision / mcu wanda
i have legitimately like. no conscious memory i watched a movie with her in it but i did because i watched age of ultron nearly a decade ago with my bro and multiverse of madness within the last like. five years With My Bro so now what ...
#snap chats#i think the funniest part is that my sister- who isnt into comics in the slightest- wanted to watch wandavision with me#i dont even know if she actually watched it she didnt mention it again after that day#i wasnt even super into comics again at that time i think my bro and i just watched doctor strange and she mentioned it#i think she was trying to do that thing where she watched all the mcu movies and stuff in the 'right' order idk#its actually funny how we... never talk about the mcu ..... she had like a Very Apparent interest in it but ... huh#lol. anyways.#i legitimately have no memory of what she does in either of those movies. like i know shes 'the big bad' in doctor strange#but im trying so hard to remember what happens. in ultron i know pietro dies my sister was Vile for reminding me of that š#im p sure in doctor strange she was trying to keep her kids or somethin to that degree ... i dont remember forgive me ..#maybe if its somehow brought up in convo will like. watch wandavision or even ds again with my sis LOL#tbf tho i actually heard- when it was first coming out- that wandavision was actually like. good?#they changed the ending as people pieced things together which sucked tho but anyway ....#her skin in rivals makes me pissed tho. if thats anything of note. why are you white#like ik wanda hasnt always been portrayed with dark hair and darker skin but her base is in the game ..#also the blonde is taking me out elizabeth olsen is more like ...ginger no .. not blonde at least...#insane work really ....
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there's been a goofy side effect of spending dozens of hours doing my re:kinder transcript in that I spent most of those listening to songs from 2010's latinoamerican preteen soap operas and it has ended up in having to catch myself singing them all the time ... they are taking over my life who decided to make them go this hard
#not art#i talk!!!#pointing to violetta most of all#like Violetta's songs went the hardest i think about them a lot now#aside from violetta i also listened to Soy Luna's soundtrack i would have liked it if they included the significant reprises on stream#this probably sounds very confusing to people outside of latino america who have never heard of these shows#you should totally listen to their soundtrack they have a lot of songs#violetta has a few in multiple languages VIOLETTA GOES ABOVE AND BEYOND FOR ABSOLUTELY NO REASON OTHER THAN IT CAN#its funny because when they were airing i wasn't much to care about them since it had real people acting it struck me as a grown up show#like. cool big teenager show because my brain could not handle seeing real people acting... and still cant but thats not the point#and now their songs are all i can listen to right now I KNEW THEY WERE GOOD BEFORE I JUST DIDNT RECALL THEM GOING THIS HARD#the things that happen after listening to them in repeat for 30+ hours#y si no hay vuelta atras.... hay que arriesgarlo todo on my mind 24/7
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my bestest friend š§”š.
@thatgirlavaa @moonmoutainn
#australia#sydney#new south wales#love#sis#sister#big sister I never had#love her#soul sister#best friend
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Baby photos of Scoria and when she first came home <3
Poor dear was in blue when we first met. If I knew I'd have asked to wait! She was the grumpiest she'd ever been in her life, and I can't blame her. I was scared too, it was my first time meeting a snake I can remember, and I had no idea what I was in for. With how upset she was and at first I was worried I made a mistake and brought a dangerous animal into my home that would forever be aggressive and hostile!
I now know she was just scared, not only blind but no idea where she was or what was happening. We quickly fell in love with each other platonically, and trust one another completely. Meeting her is the best thing that's happened in my life! ... And a lot of pretty great things have happened in my life. But Scoria? I've never met so selfless, pure, and sweet a person. And she's so cute! The way she looks at me I think the feeling is mutual, and that makes me so happy <3
#snake#snakes#hognoses#hognose#pets#scoria#scoria rose#when I picked her up after she had time to settle in she hissed at me and tried to look scary#I quickly put her back fearfully but also as carefully as i could so i didn't hurt her#she seemed so surprised she scared me I think and the way she acted made me think she was like āoh maybe i over did itā#like she felt bad she terrorized me lol#her so tiny and me so big like okay yes i will put you down immediately- her breeder probably never reacted like that#and i know many are probably thinking I'm anthropomorphizing her#but the thing is she's always been so so so sweet after that day#almost like she's thinking āi don't want to scare you againā#and i mean i have always been respectful of her just a little clumsy sometimes and she seems to understand#there are so many times she just somehow understands#and sometimes I just know what she wants too#it's like we have a special connection#i think when you spend a lot of time with someone it becomes second nature anticipating them#but sometimes I wonder if it is more than that#either way#Scoria is a light in my life who has guided me out of several times of darkness now#and she is without a doubt meant to be in my life#as well as Sakura's#Sakura would not have been able to recover without Scoria#I struggled to reach her and help her but Scoria worked miracles to teach Sakura about love and trust and the fun to be found in the world#without Scoria Sakura never would have found her confidence and we would be nowhere near where we are let alone her becoming cuddly like sis#We were meant to be a family#together we are all living our best lives
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can i ask about your experience as a quaker (or growing up as one? i just saw you mention bein one in some tags)
i jus don't know much about them
so i was not raised quaker, i was raised baptist. which was. 0/10, do not recommend. all the guilt of catholicism with none of the stained glass lmaooo
like, i did resinate with the idea of there being some sort of higher power and i liked the idea of getting together with other believers to discuss spiritual matters but as i got older and started thinking for myself i realized i really didn't like a lot of things about the church. i hated the bigoted beliefs of its members. i hated the emphasis on blind obedience to authority. i didn't believe that the whole literal truth could be found within one book, specifically one group's interpretation of said book. and the idea that people were born inherently bad and sinful and that a supposedly kind and just god would condemn people to eternal suffering just for not believing the "right" things just did not sit well with me at all
when i went off to college i decided to try out a few different churches around town. i ended up settling on a progressive presbyterian church. the community was great and very accepting of queer people. i had some minor qualms with the theology but it wasn't like with my parents' church where every sermon made me feel increasingly nauseous, and i generally felt *good* during and after the services
and then covid hit and while they did stream their sermons, i lost that sense of community and just kinda... fell away
throughout all this i was researching different faiths online, both christian and non-christian. and one faith that kept popping up a lot that i liked the sound of was quakerism. like at one point i remember taking some online quiz of like "what religion do your values most align with" and quakerism was very in the lead. (before this, i'd only really been exposed to quakerism in history textbooks and assumed the religion died out alongside puritanism)
in the end what got me really interested was actually a video by a youtuber i liked, a queer/disability advocate and historical fashion enjoyer who also happened to be quaker
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and after looking more into it, i decided to try attending a quaker meeting. which was easier due to covid cuz i could find a church online (located physically hundreds of miles from me) that did their sunday services over zoom
and so i attended and the people there were great and were doing actual good in their communities. and the way services were run, and their beliefs about what god *was* and all of that just hit me with an intense feeling of like. holy shit this is what i've always wanted from religion.
the video explains the sort of core beliefs and practices of quakerism better than i can but the main belief is that like. every person is godly. as such, it's our job to treat all living people as equally and kindly as possible. additionally, since we all have god inside of us, we need to look inwards and come to our own conclusions about our own religious beliefs and practices (and generally respect other people's religious beliefs even if they differ from our own, so long as they're not causing real tangible harm)
i haven't attended any meetings in a while, due to that group going back to semi in person (they still stream it out but it feels more like being a spectator than a member) and there being no quaker meetinghouses in the tiny town i currently live in, coinciding with me being too depressed to regularly attend anything. but i'm planning to start attending quaker meetings again once i move to a real city
#eliot posts#christianity cw#quakerism#tangentially: another faith that popped up a lot in my searches was reform judaism#from what i read it had a lot of the same things that i liked about quakerism. and was second place in that quiz i took lol#also my big sister was really interested in judaism when she was a teen (tho never converted)#bc our mother's side of the family is ashkenazi jewish but just ethnically not in practice. and my sis was interested in our roots#so i have a bit of a soft spot towards the faith because of her lol#but i decided i didn't wanna try and join any synagogues even online unless i was really serious about considering conversion#figured they didnt need a clueless gentile bargin in and being Confused and i felt too awkward to directly ask any individuals abt it#which was prolly like 20% a reasonable conclusion and 80% my anxious tendencies telling me i'm just a nuisance#but yeah lmao i think in a nearby parallel universe (if those exist) there's an eliot that converted to progressive judaism lol#long post
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Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: å“©åļ¼ęē©¹éé | Honkai: Star Rail (Video Game) Rating: General Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Characters: Clara (Honkai: Star Rail), Serval (Honkai: Star Rail) Additional Tags: Fluff, Fluff and Humor, Canon Compliant, At least I think it's canon compliant?, it takes place years after the current setting so its hard to say lol, One Shot, Short One Shot, Mentor/ProtĆ©gĆ©, mentor serval and mentee clara!, also it's kinda like a field trip, or more like a summer camp actually, but space-y in a way, brief mention of Screwllum and Welt and Hook, and of course mentions of Svarog, clara going through a major milestone in life, late-teens Clara Summary:
Clara's on a special trip to a faraway land, and in a moment of respite she takes the time to compose a letter to send back home to let Mr. Svarog know how she's doing!
#whoa this is kinda cool i can just teleport the tags + summary and stuff into tumblr#idk if that's what people usually do but I may as well try it out lol#honkai star rail#hsr#honkai fanfic#hsr fanfic#honkai star rail fanfic#honkai clara#clara and svarog#honkai serval#serval landau#hsr clara#hsr serval#honkai svarog#hsr svarog#ALSO CLARA IS SO HECKIN' ADORABLE#i finally did her companion missions and she's so sweet and smart and adorable#and every time she calls me (technically stelle) big sis i die of adorableness#she's so precious T_T#clara's the younger sister i never had
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will you be adding Kieran in your next gen champs au?
he is technically champion level and became champion of the bb league
Probably not hahah
Idk, bc in my aus and hcs, I only went w the regional Champions, and since Kieran is Champion of the BB league, which is just a lil league in Blueberry Academy located in Unova, I didn't consider him as part of the next gen champs group, since I also already have two Unova Champions in the au (those being Iris and Hilbert ofc)
Then again, we could consider him Champion of Kitakami, as he is from that region, but like Kitakami doesn't have its own league so he's really just Champion of his school's league
#but also imagine if he did went on and challenged unova's league#fucking imagine him beating iris cbndnd#imagine how drayton would react to that too hahah#kieran already beat him and took his title as the bb league's champion#now kieran's gon take iris'- dray's sister- champion title too#and its not even like his own title which is just champ of the school#bc iris' title is unova's champion the real fucking deal#while i know drayton and kieran are friends#it would be interesting to see more of it yknow cause like#drayton has the vibes that he holds grudges but he never ever makes it known bc hes just so chill#and he loves his big sis so much he looks up to her and think shes really the strongest trainer ever#ofc his sis is unova's champ#so imagine him finding out one of his friends had beat his sister and took the title of unova's champion#and its none other than one of his friends who fought tooth and nail to become the bb league's champion too#your honour they make me insane omf#watch me post abt dray and iris now hahaha#pokemon hcs#next gen champs au#?? i mean its abt it so hey hahah#an ask and an answer#anon
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life would be so much better if i wasnāt so absolutely fucking depleted and exhausted all the time lol
#or afraid of getting covid#purrs#like life is passing me by i think. i am very small and i have nothing to say. i cannot sustain all the ways im being stretched. i am#not capable of deep thoughts or lifechanging insights or rocking chair conversations or warm eyes. i will not be getting my learners permit#when i said i would because im just too fucking tired. i will proceed to spend the week sleeping until 1pm and playing video games all day a#and barely moving at all and letting life live me instead of living it myself. i just do not have any energy at all ever. i donāt even have#spoons at this point i have like.. metal scraps. CONSTANTLY. the mortifying ordeal of knowing i am wasting my life and not living to the#fullest or making a meaningful contribution to the world or creating magic and love and change in relationships with other people and the mo#mortifying ordeal of no longer having the bandwith / strength / wherewithal to care much less do anything about it ššš#like omg. i have never gotten covid and god fucking willing i never will but the psychological damage this pandemic has had on meeeeee. the#fact that we havenāt taken like a solid week as a society to process it all. the fact that i am socially mentally emotionally stunted in#ways i will never recover from no matter how hard i try. gotta love it ššššššš#delete later#<- itās not just bc of covid obviously bc everything at home and at work is in massive transition and i do not do well w instability. i#would like at least one area of my life to be stable please. i donāt think thatās such a big as#*ask lol#im just depressed bc im tired and this week has been insane and my dyshydr*sis is flaring up HORRIBLY rn but also the overwhelming excruciat#excruciating awareness that i am a nothing girl living a nothing life and i did that to myself as a survival mechanism except survijlving =#scraping myself along the ground in every fathomable area of my life. awesome
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No but I'm still looking for the Denny's that is still in the middle of nowhere
having cis guy friends is so funny like youll ask if they wanna hang out and theyll send you to the dark woods
#no joke#my brother. fresh out of the house. 19#years old. rolls up to our house right after midnight with a car full of teenagers. tells me and my little sister to get in.#obviously we're asking questions. where are we going. how long are we going to be gone. what are we doing. why are all these people in here.#the whole shebang#he answers NONE of them.#so we get in the back seat. I'm being gay with my friend at the time. and we're chilling listening to tunes on the radio.#except now they're talking about a Denny's. i look to the front seat where my brother is driving and he pulls up pictures on his phone#of the inside of somebody's. house. What?#and if that wasn't weird enough. we had already driven 20 minutes off a sideroad into the middle of nowhere. nothing but grass#and a big ol barn/farmhouse that looks like it came straight out of a Scooby Doo snapshot. it's dark as hell out. the lone building appearin#blue in the dark. with a single orange lantern lit hanging from the top. i look to my brother who has never lead me astray before.#and I feel like i am part of Scooby Doo. five teenagers in a car. in the middle of the night. wondering where the hell Denny's went.#now finally my brother has some wits to him. and we take a tight u turn and turn ourselves around. good. shows over right? WRONG.#this bitch pulls up YET ANOTHER place on his phone and starts driving 15 MINUTES UP ONTO A DIRT ROAD AND KEEPS DRIVING.#we're going to a haunted bridge boys!#in the middle of the night! at like 3am! the witching hour! great plan broski. sounds awesome. good thinking there.#we get to this haunted bridge. and this mf is barely 5ft across. but the water below is dark and murky and my lil sis INSISTS she sees a#dude down below. so I'm silently freaking out because what the hell do i say to that. she's like. 13. i tell her it'll be okay. because#that's what big/middle bros do. we drive over the bridge. nothing happens. cue relaxation. my brother is audibly disappointed#āwell that was uselessā bro you almost took us to Denny's in some cannibalistic farmdudes basement. i think I'll take the barely haunted#bridge. my brother. who still wants to show us an adventure. and probably save face in front of his friends. flips us around yet again and#starts heading off into a whole NEW direction. towards the World's Largest Gas Station!#it is like 4am by now. we're hungry. we're cramping. losing our marbles with exhaustion. and still processing our latest episode with the#Mystery Machine. so fine. I'm taking a nap. just don't get us killed in the long run.#we survived. btw. if that wasn't obvious. and we did actually make it to The World's Biggest Gas Station. and it was pretty fun.#as far as gas stations go at least. i got some honey sticks and a lollipop in the shape of a bear. i don't really like honey. but it wascute#there were walls FILLED with stuffed animals.a whole clothing department. a candy shop. and even a full fledged restaurant on the other side#i think there were even two levels to it? i can't remember. but anyways. we eat. we leave. we survive. end of story.
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#on the off chance you find me here after not accepting you back on fb#which I never really used and you used to know that#I canāt do it#you were my best friend for seven. fucking. years.#and you threw me away and demonized me to all of our mutual friends#you made me feel like a fucking monster#and then when you try to message me months after driving me to my darkest point#the closest Iāve been to SI#you try to say you love me and that āwe both made our choicesā when you never even gave me a choice to begin with#all because I was concerned for you and my emotions were too big for you#I loved you more than myself and you threw me away with less regard than a Kleenex#thereās a part of me that misses the good parts of our friendship#but I canāt do it#I had a panic attack on my therapist just talking about what you put me through#I hope youāre doing better wherever you are but I just canāt bring you back into my life#Iām doing well if you truly care#Iāve moved to MN and have a wonderful partner#I really do hope youāre doing okay#Iām not angry I just hurt too much when I think about you
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I can not live laugh love in these conditions
#im venting in tags bcus fuck you#i miss my source#i miss my friends#i miss my lovers#i wish i had them back#i know its not healthy to be overly connected to source but i genuinely cant seperate rn#i want to cry until i pass out#i want to be held and conforted by them again as i fall asleep#i want my hands to be too full to grab stuff because im holding their hands#i want to hug my big sis as she tells me its ok to cry#i want to play with my friends again#i want my family back#i want my friends back#but im stuck away from them and ill never have them. back#even if i find them it wont be THEM#im probably just tired and i just started my period but im so tired of it#we have so many things we rlly need to vent tbh but have nowhere to put ot#so heres this#throwing it to the void#did system#did alter#introject#fictive#alter#alter vent#vent#(im not saying who this is)
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here's some more unsolicited adult advice as someone in her 30s who knows there are a lot of twenty somethings and teens that follow her: if you're trying to build a new habit you really want, and are struggling, you have to break it down to the smallest building block possible. If you're failing, you haven't thought small enough. I know it's possible to hear stories of people who just snapped into new life mode one day by "just deciding", but truly what's happening there is a confluence of events and experiences that force the brain into some sort of epiphany. You cannot will an epiphany. It'll never work. For most times of your life, you will need to build habits intentionally, and that means not working against yourself and to set micro goals. like laughably tiny goals. because once that easy tiny goal is met, you can build off it, tiny goal after tiny goal until you reach your big goal.
so for example, if you want to be a morning person that gets up at ass crack dawn so that you can work out, eat brekkie, shower, and get to work at a leisurely pace, and you're not that person because you will hit your snooze button 800 times, you have to get the big picture goal out of your head. think smaller. "I want to get up 15 minutes earlier than I normally do." If you can't do that, make it 5 minutes. "I want to cook breakfast every day" hell no too big. "I want to eat something, anything, before I leave the house" hell yeah, fantastic. When you go to the grocery store to make sure there are things in the house for breakfast, if you keep buying bagels and microwave sandwiches that you ignore, you gotta think smaller. SMALLER. What's something so easy to eat that you'll never say no to. Is it a yogurt? Is it a handful of grapes? Is it a hostess ho ho? is it hot cheetos? FORGET the big picture of the fantasy put-together woman preparing a full nutritious meal that you'd be proud to admit to. Think only of the smallest goal you can achieve. If you know you can't say no to an ice cream sandwich, put a ton of ice cream sandwiches in your freezer and have one for breakfast every day until it's so instilled in you that you gotta get up to eat something you can start diversifying.
It sounds like, from the lack of habit place, that must take forever. But really it doesn't take too long to form the habit once the discipline kicks in. the trick is that you have to give your brain something easy to become disciplined to. If it's too hard, think easier and smaller. No one has to know. Literally no one in the gd world has to know that for 4 weeks when you were 22 you had an ice cream sandwich for breakfast every day. who cares. If it gets you eating oatmeal with fresh fruit in a few months who cares. you did it, yay. smaller, easier. if you can't do it, think smaller and easier. smaller!! EASIER!!! You are not thinking smaller and easier enough. break your brain thinking how small and easy you can go. SMALLER. EVEN SMALLER, SIS.
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today my sister told me āyouāre like a sunflowerā, and it was one of the nicest things anyone has ever said to me. š¤
im so proud of you for doing what you need to do to heal from the things that you donāt talk about. youre one of the most beautiful people ive ever met & im so glad to have someone that my soul feels so in tune with.
love you always, my soul sister. š¤
@moonmoutainn @thatgirlavaa
#sister#sisters#proud of you#soul sister#sis#big sister I never had#love you#mental health matters#mental health#brainhealth#push through#sunflowers are my favourite
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