#the best ask ever

[dymitre]

Can you make Fear as a slightly fluffy mutt and Disgust as a cute persian kitty

ok but Idk why I liked this idea 😭😭😭🤍

[shady-the-simp]

hear me out tho: making out with drunk!schlatt as he’s just grabbing onto your hips with such brute force that his fingernails leave marks. you can still taste the alcohol in his breath and you can feel him slowly starting to grind into you as you pull on his hair and nnhshhsusbskaiysgwbsixg

HOLY FUCKING SHIT! The way this had me low-key blushing and giggling. Like- Hear me out,

The moans that he would normally keep as quiet as possible would just absolutely POUR out of those pretty fucking lips of his. Like, the way his entire face would flush at that first tug, like- SOQSJUQSJUS

[babyblue711]

Hi Blue! Can I just say I loved reading your fics?

Devotion - Have yet to read this! In my reading list hehe

Redemption - I liked the idea of Will eventually growing up and reconnecting with OC who is now surer of herself, when before she was under Leah’s shadow. The slightly slow burn and reconnecting as if no time had passed.

Temptation - The biggest red flag out of all Ewanverse characters. BUT his story is also sort of lonely/tragic because canonically it was said he grew up on the ship and didn’t have much experience with physical affection/touch. I’m always a sucker for redemption (pun intended) stories and Temptation is what I had imagined would happen if Ettore had someone he could connect with. That way, he’d know what it’s like when he doesn’t have to force himself just to feel something. In my head, I interpreted it as Ettore trying to become a better man because he feels something for OC. It’s not yet love but it is something that could potentially develop into one.

Surrender - Oh to be fucked by both Targaryen brothers. Each chapter was more delicious than the last. Though I did wonder whether OC ended up with Aemond. From the last chapter, Aegon left with a parting kiss on her forehead while Aemond stayed. Now, I’m not sure whether Aemond was just being a gentleman but I sensed more here. Ohhh this made me slightly antsy because I wanted to know whether they continued seeing each other seriously or his ‘call you later’ is just to fuck later.

Loyalty - Not really a fan of Alys Rivers. Hear me out!!! Because Ewan’s portrayal kind of cemented him as Aemond and I can’t seem to unsee it. Fine, this is also me being jealous, not of Alys Rivers per se but the idea of a woman snagging his attentions. I mean if Alys was named with differently, I’d still be jealous. This one character just so happened to be namd Alys.

And unlike Aegon, Aemond is so stiff and proper, so dutiful that it is such a mystery to me - what did Aemond see in her?

But anyway, your story humanized her for me. Not as an ambitious woman with malicious intentions but a woman with no other choice but to live on the razor’s edge to survive.

Little Dragonseed - Now this intrigued me the most!! I feel like the Targaryen blood just calls to one another in a way other people can’t. I can’t wait to read more of this!

Hello lovely!

First, thank you so much! My heart is so overwhelmed by happiness reading your ask! Thank you for all the insightful details and I am so honored you have enjoyed my stories 💙

Devotion is actually my personal favorite but I would only read it when you are in the mood for a good slowburn! 💙

And I love what you said about Loyalty, especially this part: Not as an ambitious woman with malicious intentions but a woman with no other choice but to live on the razor’s edge to survive. THIS! I completely agree, but I think it could go either way honestly and I'm eager to see what the show does to her character. To your point, Aemond is so straight-laced how on earth does he end up with Alys of all people?! Is it true love? The way he speaks about her seems so "My Alys". Or is he tricked, hoodwinked as a power play for her to gain an advantage? Good ole' GRRM surely left it up to our imagination!

And I ADORED this about Little Dragonseed: I feel like the Targaryen blood just calls to one another in a way other people can’t. YES a million times!! So well said! I still like to think there is something mystical about the Targaryens and the dragons and that's how they all stay intertwined. Part 3 has now been posted if you haven't yet seen!

Thank you again, darling - reading this truly made my day! 💙💙😘😘

[ekiveki]

Meow :3

omg, hello!

[dustykneed]

survival is an act of rebellion. jim loves you SO MUCH. i hope this finds all of us who need it today. please stay alive so we can make it out together. sending so much love and strength

[hinamie]

I'm always pushing you away from me / but you come back with gravity / and when I call, you come home

[technically-human]

It's not complicated, it's just weird

[yvainart]

there is beauty in imperfections

[mischievous-thunder]

Is it gay to address your roommate by her full name while introducing the worst best version of your crush with whom you saved the world and decided to bring home?

[stealingpotatoes]

I love how you draw baby Luke and Leia's faces, they're so adorable sfghb! Luke's lil smile and Leia just blankly staring ahah

LOL thank you, idk why i started doing that but it's just stuck and it's now an integral part of me drawing the baby twins

[basslinegrave]

pin-up

b&w originals

[inkskinned]

so while i was writing the book, i became violently suicidal.

this was mostly due to the fact that i had a very bad reaction to some meds and my brain stopped producing any serotonin. also i was in the last semester of grad school where it's actually illegal to feel anything but dread. so it wasn't going well.

somewhere in the fog of it i became aware i needed help. nobody was taking clients or my insurance. i didn't want to do inpatient care - it wasn't right for my needs. there's not really an "in between" stage between "inpatient" and "no care," but i was trying to do the right thing. i was trying to activate the chain of command that was my emergency plan. i knew i needed help now.

i used betterhelp.

i know, i know. i'm a straight-A student and so smart and so clever, how could i ever use something so blatantly bad. to be honest with you, i didn't feel particularly keen on it from the getgo - things that seem too good to be true usually are. also, if something online is free, the price is usually your privacy.

the thing is that there was kind of a global pandemic happening at the time and i worked 5 jobs alongside of being a fulltime student and also like writing a book on the side. it is a miracle that i even thought about getting help. i would love to tell you i had the mental wherewithal to like, process whether this was the right choice for me. mostly i was desperate. i was so suicidal that i was trying to find a reason to stay inside of fortune cookies. i was the kind of suicidal that looks like splatterpaint. i hadn't been that bad in an entire decade.

they took my data. i gave them it freely. somewhere out there, they have a dossier on me. on everything i survived. my story in little datapoints, scattergraphed beautifully.

the first woman told me that really i should be grateful, because (and this is a direct quote): "at least you're not anne frank." i said that i felt that statement was antisemitic, as anne frank's life and experience shouldn't be compared to like, a nonbinary lesbian in western massachusetts. the therapist said that i should try to use lucid dreaming to try to picture myself in an actually scary situation, like running from nazis.

i applied for another therapist. i was willing to accept the possibility that there was a bad apple in the bunch. the next therapist and i even laughed about how inappropriate that statement was. and then, in our next session: the new therapist said if i was struggling with body image issues, i should just work harder on my appearance. she spent 3 sessions in a row talking about how she was grieving, and made me memorize facts about her grandmother so "she can live on through my clients."

i am a three's-a-charm kind of person. okay, so what if the last person made me uncomfortable. i figured it was just a misunderstanding of priorities - she had felt she was sharing with me, i had felt like i had to take care of her. i applied for another therapist.

the last woman asked me to help her pray. she bowed her head. i stared at her, frozen, while she said: lord, i beg you: cure her. take the pain of being gay away from her.

i spent somewhere between 2.5 and 3 months on betterhelp. in that whole time, i was not getting the professional help i so desperately needed, even though i was fucking trying.

in the end, i survived this because i finally could get off the meds that were literally killing me. a request for a real therapist finally went through. i survived because my friends saved my life. because nick let me sob myself dry in his arms. because maddie took the razors out of my room when i asked them to. because grace slept over in my bed for like 3 weeks in a row since nobody trusted me not to hurt myself when i was alone. i survived because i got fucking lucky. because even when i was desperately suicidal, i was too old and too self-aware to take "you need to be prettier" as good advice.

the thing is that there's a 19 year old me who isn't like that. who would have heard "just think about how grateful you should be" and said - oh, i see. i would have assumed that is what it means to be in therapy: the same thing my abusers used to tell me. that i am just pretending and lazy. that i am ugly and unworthy.

betterhelp positioned itself to take advantage of an incredibly vulnerable community. it preys on desperation. it knows it is serving people who are not doing well mentally. it saw that there is a huge need for real, immediate, compassionate mental health care: and then it fucking takes your money and privacy.

i still get their ads on instagram. last night i watched as a woman in a pool pretends to talk to a different woman. they discuss her anxiety.

there's a 19 year old version of me, and she didn't survive this. she was too tired, and drowning. i almost fucking died. this thing almost fucking killed me.

in the ad, the woman playing the therapist takes a note on a clipboard and then nods once, sagely.

i have to admit it's a pretty scene. the steam and light coming off the pool water lands on the actresses. like this, it almost looks baptismal, holy.

[nyancrimew]

So people once were calling me a terf, persecuting me just because I held some different opinion. After taking a break from social media, I've did some thinking, and I've came to accept this label as a part of who I am. I identify, inside and out, within the fibers if my soul, as a terf, and anyone who objects to this is being criticalphobic. After a while though, being so enshrined with terfness started exposing to me the many issues and hypocrisies terfs have, which I started rejecting. I just remembered I left my pizza in the oven, its burning uh

Eventually I realized that by rejecting trans people from society, I was arbitrarily drawing a line between what a person participating in society could be, completely discounting all the possible ways our biology I've so long revered could betray the labels our ancestors placed on ourselves. I stopped excluding trans people and started exclusively rejecting normal feminists, making me a ferf, until I walked outside and accidently talked to a guy and found they were normal. With no one familiar to belong to, I gave in and joined feminists and became a rfet.

Anyways do you want to hear about the time I almost drowned in a public water fountain

and the oscar for "best supporting anonymous bait" goes to....... whatever the fuck this is

[chloesimaginationthings]

Why is your springtrap design face blocky?

It’s easier to draw + IT’S FUN,,,

[demaparbat-hp]

Little Zuzu for an incoming project 🔥

[oakdown]

"Wilf quiet, fascinated by these two" THE END OF TIME: PART TWO, 2010