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Good morning everyone! Happy Sunday! I'm confident to say, I woke up like this. Char!!

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Please don't worry about me. I'm fine.

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I can only remember the good times every time I think about the people I have met from Tumblr. How I wish I could see them all again, and do so many things together again. During the time that I was active in meetups and get-togethers with fellow tumblristas, I was actually searching for a place to belong. I mean, coming from the province, when I went to college in Manila, I was a fish out of water. I was alone, and I didn't know anybody. I was introduced to Tumblr and at first, I was just a chronic reblogger. I reblog typographies, aesthetic pictures when aesthetic wasn't even an overused word back then. Until I found my voice and say things that have been bottled inside for a long time. Eventually, I came out of my shell and decided to join Tumblr meetups and the rest was history. I've had lifelong friends and it's one of the best things that happened to me.

Many people have left - they moved on. They focused on their lives and I'm so happy for them. For me, I just can't let go and I'm focusing on my life at the same time. I ust owe it to this platform that get to talk about the things that are happening in my life freely. I can't just throw away 14 years! That's how long it's been. Wow! It's home.

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Went out of the house to go for a quick run today. Baby steps muna since kakasimula ko lang ulit. Pero it's a start! Sana maging consistent. Let's go!!!

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I promise myself that tomorrow, I will go back to exercising. Sadyang maulan lang netong mga nakaraang araw kaya hindi ako makalabas ng bahay and dala na rin ng katamaran. However, I think I am motivated now to do the work so, I hope and I will definitely do my best to get back in shape. Let's go!

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Officially took my oath as a Professional Teacher. #LPT

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So I have a dilemma. Hahaha. Did I spell that correctly? Anyway. It's my oath taking day on Sunday and hindi ko alam kung mag lolong sleeves ba ako na yung regular busines attire or mag-babarong. Gusto ko sana magbarong kaso di ako sure kung considered siyang business attire? Nagsearch ako sa google and, pang formal attire naman daw siya. Ugh ewan. Yung barong ko is classic barong na puti. Di ko lang sure kung appropriate ba. Bahala na. Eksena na lang ako dun sa venue. Hahahahahaha! Congrats to me!

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Hi. I just want to ask. Are you single?

Hala ang random? Hahaha yes, I am very single.

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I'm currently at a crossroads in my life so I'm praying that whatever decision or whatever it is I'm going to do, it's going to be worth it. Feels like starting over again but it is something that has to be done. Sacrificed a lot to get to this point and I just pray that this won't be something I regret. I'm excited and anxious at the same time but I really really want this. Here's to manifesting growth and success!

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Yesterday's ganap with my best friends!

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Hello!

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LPT NA AKO!! Just sharing this huge milestone here sa Tumblr dahil isa ito sa naging tahanan ng mga pangarap ko at some point in my life and it's good to see that I've really reached something for myself and I'm at a really happy place right now. Babalik at babalik pa rin dito! Sobrang saya ko!!!

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I can't sleep. A lot of things are bothering me lately. I'm doing my best to stay calm because I don't want the people around me to worry. I'll just keep everything to myself like it has always been. 😅

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It's okay to not know. You don't need all the answers. Embracing uncertainty can lead to new discoveries and learning opportunities.

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Happy birthday, self! Imagine, 31 years old ka na? Wow. Hehehe. Next year, wala na ako sa kalendaryo. Bwahahahaha. I'm getting better. I'm healing. And the best place to be is right here at home with my family. I feel so loved. Hehehe.

P.S. I'm 31 and I'm still here!! Thank you, Tumblr, for staying with me for 15 years now!!! Met so many people here, who I dearly miss and love. I wish I could go back to the old days, but everyone's busy growing up and living their lives - me included. Hehe. Sana happy ang lahat and kung may pinagdadaanan man kayo, you'll get through it! Malakas ka!! Hehe. Yun lang. Again, happy bday to me! MBTC!

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So I resigned from my work. Immediate resgination because I do not find joy with whatever it is that I'm doing anymore. I can't see myself in good light and maybe because I'm under a lot of pressure. I am drowning. So I decided to submit my resignation and went back home to Masbate. Coming here is the best decision. I am slowly but surely trying to bring back the 'me' I lost. I don't know what will happen to me in the future but one's thing for sure, I am in the right place in this moment and I wouldn't have it any other way.

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So ayun guys, grabe na ang anxiety ko ngayon. Wala talaga akong ibang mapagsabihan neto kasi nga ayokong malaman ng mga tao sa paligid ako na hindi ako okay. Dalawang tulog na lang, board exam ko na. Happy naman ako sa mga nireview ko and ready naman na ako. Kumbaga, bring it on LET 2024 mindset na talaga. Kaso kapag nakahiga tapos tahimik lang sa paligid, napapaisip pa rin ako. Overthinking to the max. Hindi dahil hindi ako ready or hindi dahil feeling ko kulang pa yung preparation ko. Pero yung waiting game. Yung days leading to that particular event yung nagpapaganto saken. Hayst. Siguro parang nonsense lang tong mga sinabi ko pero sariling experience ko naman to so I can definitely speak for myself. Siguro kailangan ko lang ng outlet para maexpress tong nasa loob ko. Tapos medyo sad pa ako but that's for another blog post. Hehehehe. Anyway, yun lang. Thanks for listening to my TedTalk!