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I can't sleep. A lot of things are bothering me lately. I'm doing my best to stay calm because I don't want the people around me to worry. I'll just keep everything to myself like it has always been. 😅

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It's okay to not know. You don't need all the answers. Embracing uncertainty can lead to new discoveries and learning opportunities.

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Happy birthday, self! Imagine, 31 years old ka na? Wow. Hehehe. Next year, wala na ako sa kalendaryo. Bwahahahaha. I'm getting better. I'm healing. And the best place to be is right here at home with my family. I feel so loved. Hehehe.

P.S. I'm 31 and I'm still here!! Thank you, Tumblr, for staying with me for 15 years now!!! Met so many people here, who I dearly miss and love. I wish I could go back to the old days, but everyone's busy growing up and living their lives - me included. Hehe. Sana happy ang lahat and kung may pinagdadaanan man kayo, you'll get through it! Malakas ka!! Hehe. Yun lang. Again, happy bday to me! MBTC!

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So I resigned from my work. Immediate resgination because I do not find joy with whatever it is that I'm doing anymore. I can't see myself in good light and maybe because I'm under a lot of pressure. I am drowning. So I decided to submit my resignation and went back home to Masbate. Coming here is the best decision. I am slowly but surely trying to bring back the 'me' I lost. I don't know what will happen to me in the future but one's thing for sure, I am in the right place in this moment and I wouldn't have it any other way.

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So ayun guys, grabe na ang anxiety ko ngayon. Wala talaga akong ibang mapagsabihan neto kasi nga ayokong malaman ng mga tao sa paligid ako na hindi ako okay. Dalawang tulog na lang, board exam ko na. Happy naman ako sa mga nireview ko and ready naman na ako. Kumbaga, bring it on LET 2024 mindset na talaga. Kaso kapag nakahiga tapos tahimik lang sa paligid, napapaisip pa rin ako. Overthinking to the max. Hindi dahil hindi ako ready or hindi dahil feeling ko kulang pa yung preparation ko. Pero yung waiting game. Yung days leading to that particular event yung nagpapaganto saken. Hayst. Siguro parang nonsense lang tong mga sinabi ko pero sariling experience ko naman to so I can definitely speak for myself. Siguro kailangan ko lang ng outlet para maexpress tong nasa loob ko. Tapos medyo sad pa ako but that's for another blog post. Hehehehe. Anyway, yun lang. Thanks for listening to my TedTalk!

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10 reasons why some people are single

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I want the kind of relationship that’s unknown, not the public kind of relationship where everybody has to know. I will not say that I’m single nor will I deny the fact that somebody already has my heart. But nobody has to know with who and what goes on between us.

I really think the quietest relationships last the longest. The number one reason that ruins relationships are their surroundings.

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With my Tumblr constants. Almost 10 years na ang samahan! Madalang man magkita pero pag magkakasama na, parang kahapon lang ang lumipas. So lucky to have made such wonderful friends from this platform. More get-togethers and mini reunions please!!! Nakakamiss ang mga Tumblr meetups tuloy! So many memories!!!

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They say time heals all wounds but your wounds cut so deep. I guess I had to lose you on the way to finding me. Even though I loved you, wish I didn't have to leave. I hope it all works out and you find everything you need.

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Maging proud ka palagi sa sarili mo kasi marami ka nang kinaya na pagsubok na hindi alam ng iba.

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You might already be a verson of yourself you used to dream about. You probably deal with things better now than you ever imagined you'd be able to. Stop for a second and take note of how far you have actually come.

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Sa totoo lang. Medyo pressured na ako ngayon since almost 1 month na lang, board exam na for teachers. I graduated last 2022 and this year palang ako naglakas-loob na magboard exam. Huhu. Worried lang ako baka the time I took was too long pero I'm still positive and hoping na makapasa kahit self-review lang ako. I'm just taking it one day at a time. Buti na lang talaga super understanding ng mga tao sa office and pinapayagan akong magtake ng time para magreview kahit on duty (basta tapos na mga tasks and hindi busy, keri!). I'm also relieved to have my best friend with me every step of the way. Sabay kaming grumaduate, sabay din kaming nag-apply sa work namin ngayon 2 years ago. Sabay kaming napromote! Hahahah at ngayon, sabay din kaming nagrereview para sa board exam na pareho naming itetake next month. Kakayanin!!!!

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If you saw it from my point of view, you would understand why it hurt me so bad.

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It's my 14 year anniversary on Tumblr 🥳

Talaga ba?

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There's often a sense of disappointment when expectations aren't met, especially if you were counting on the person. On a more personal level, it can be hurtful if you feel the person doesn’t value your time or feelings.

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Kaya pa ba, Sir Guil?

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One of the most disheartening experiences is getting into a fight with someone after expressing what upset you. Instead of receiving an apology, they twist the situation to make you feel guilty, leaving you regretting that you spoke up in the first place.