#the autism is autisming today (negative)
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alliumsduo · 26 days ago
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Halloween costume but i'm dressed up as ctommy and i have a c!dream plush and i dropkick him into oncoming traffic
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autisticlee · 4 months ago
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sometimes people who struggle like to make jokes or find positives about their condition that causes them to struggle so they can escape the constant negative and struggle. sometimes autistic people will say things like "the 'tism" or use the "autism creature" or say their autism helped them have a *positive trait* to feel better about their struggles. because living your life only focusing on the struggles and negatives is depressing and makes it hard to want to live, even if those struggle take up 100% of your life and you can't actually escape them. sometimes any little seemingly positive thing can help a lot.
but there's so many other autistic people that hate when we do that and call it "reducing autism to a cute trendy thing" and say it takes away from *their* struggles and is bad and shouldn't be used. maybe *you* want to only focus on your struggles, but some people can't live in constant negative and need some positive or to find ways to make their condition more positive so they can feel better about living with their struggles. life is hard. I take anything I can get.
I cant get jobs. I can't make and keep friends. I can't get help and support for doing "normal" things so sometimes I go weeks without being able to shower and without eating more than a bowl of cereal a day. most times can't even do things I like. struggle to communicate. have meltdowns. i'll never be able to live independently. I struggle a lot. but instead of sitting here always depressed and having no motivation to live, i'd rather try to joke about "my 'tism is acting up again" when i'm struggling (just an example. don't think I ever actually used the 'tism thing but i saw others use it) or say "i'm just being a creature" when I need to stay in my dark room because everything is too much and I personally find it cute to be a little creature meant in a positive way. i'm not actually downplaying mine or anyone else's struggles. I still acknowledge them and that silly jokes dont make them go away. i'm not trying to be trendy. i'm not doing any of the things people say we do by making silly little jokes. i'm using the silly little jokes to convince myself life can be a little more than pointless, painful garbage all the time.
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#dont know why continuing in tags but here is more#sometimes we need to ask “why” and not just get mad about how we feel personally. because other people feel differently#yes im guilty of only thinking my feelings and situation and how it relates too and forgetting other peoples. i also need to learn#and everyone's feelings should be valid. just because something might “hurt” you it might be important for someone else#everyones feelings are valid. but we cant protect everyones feeling. so idk the solution#but stopping someone from having a small positive among a sea of nevgative seems a little mean to me#youre not being empathetic to their side. and i can turn it around and be not empathetic to your side and say stop being upset#and get over it and let people have fun. but i wont. i hear you. but at the same time maybe hear us too.#not everyone wants to live only negatively. youre allowed to but dont expect others to.#and yes i GET IT these things can make the allistics and neurotypicals be even worse towards us. but what do we do?#throw out any positivity we can find and grovel in our struggles because the allistics wont take us seriously?#DO THEY TAKE US SERIOUSLY WITHOUT THOSE SILLY TRENDY THINGS? NO! THEY NEVER HAVE#like i said i dont know the solution and everything still be used against us by those people anyway so might as well have fun?#if we focus on struggles they baby us and dont let us do things and block us from living life#if we focus on positive they dismiss our struggles and try to make us do what we cant and dont help us#we cant win! so its not “the 'tism” or whatever other things people made up that cause them to act this way#they already act that way and wont stop unless we figure out how to teach them! but i dont know how! im just a useless little creature#this is probably controversial and someone will get because i dont agree with their perspective despite respecting it#someome will comment to lecture me even though i get it. i do. but two things can exist at the same time!! idk what to tell you!#autistic#autism#actually autistic#lee rambles#words are hard so dont know if i worded it well or not. probably not#also why take away fun things because another group used it for bad? make them stop the bad not stop the good!#i also might be missing more context. i think is about tiktok using these for bad. tiktok is just bad in general and i refuse to use it#why tiktok dictate and ruin our lives now in general? tiktok is really bad 😂 but that another conversation#no one yell at me and say i dismiss struggles of struggling autistics. maybe you dismiss me needing negative thing to have positive?#not in mood for negative response. will probably cry fhhddhsjdjdjkd#today is real struggle day but if i be little creature i feel better
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rexscanonwife · 1 month ago
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No I'm fine it's cool I'm just
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dewgongs · 2 months ago
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hmmm i have really really been struggling with this part of my job
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bunnyboy-juice · 8 months ago
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would y'all still think I'm hot if i slammed my head into a wall repeatedly until i started bleeding?
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rackartyg · 8 months ago
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in therapy today i just talked about the dark urge and astarion and my therapist was elated about it. it was fantastic. “wow you’ve really been using this story and those characters to process things. that’s amazing!”
the era of being ashamed of my interests is over. it’s apparently Cool and Healthy to use fiction to cope. i wish i could tell fifteen year old me about this it would blow her mind
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haemosexuality · 4 months ago
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i always feel like the way i type is autistic as fuck. i get sorta self conscious about it sometimes
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stupid-lemon-eater · 4 months ago
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icb my brain hurts just bc i have brain hurting disorder
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sanguinewolves · 6 months ago
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that poll is litrally sickening to me like not to be an evil pedant but it is OBJECTIVELY yea not yay. YOU CAN FUCKING LOOK IT UP THIS IS PUBLICLY AVAILABLE INFO. YOU LEARN THIS SHIT IN ELEMENTARY SCHOOL I DOTN UNDERSTAND HOW EVERYONE IS VOTING YAY. THIS IS AN OBJECTIVE FACT AUGGGHHHHHHHHHHHH
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ikishima · 7 months ago
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#the amount of compassion you have to pour directly into a bad-faith asshole's mouth without knowing whether there's even a point#in order to get them to the point where they're willing to engage at a level where they actually take your feelings & words into account#the point where they even start hearing you and seeing you as a potential equal in conversation#the point where learning and growing becomes a possibility#is fucking exhausting. and i understand why a lot of people refuse to do it. i understand why some people dont practice what they preach#because sometimes the congregation in question is just there to throw tomatoes without any intent of listening#but idc! idc! im not gonna let a bunch of assholes close my heart off. id rather be naive but kind and get taken advantage of#if the alternative is leaving people behind or making a single person feel the way i have felt#having good intentions but being unable to express it w/o negative emotion or without the correct words or not being given a fighting chanc#to never be seen as a person or heard or listened to is so hurtful#i never want to do that to someone#and if i have parted ways with you or made you feel like that at any point please know it is only when i have no other options left#i know it's an autism thing to be so utterly gutted at being misunderstood and i'm most likely giving energy to people who don't deserve it#but i dont care! i dont care!#my compassion IS a renewable resource because i keep feeding it hope and humanity#i get mad sometimes but please know every angry word i've ever said has stuck on my mind like a glue trap#i remember every fight i have been slightly too aggressive and potentially awful in since the fifth grade and i continue to ruminate#on harm i have caused however big or small#i feel so surrounded by hate and anger and i just want to be that person who doesnt get caught up in it and can be compassionate no matter#lots to think about today ...#x
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kingofhearts709 · 11 months ago
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sometimes i wonder whether im just fucked in the head or if i really do have autism
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sk3l3t0n1n · 1 year ago
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i hate myself so fucking much
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lalaboy · 2 years ago
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Yeah i don't know if i can assume THAT much about you from your artstyle but. Ex-hamilton liker for SURE just like you said. And you probbaly liked it a lot if you were watching animatics. And you like or have at some point liked anime at least a little bit
looks at the amount of ouran highschool host club ive reblogged... hmm 'Anime' Never Heard of It /j
I think my art now is mainly influenced by the graphic novels im reading, Snotgirl in particular has one of the best art styles i've seen
Hamilton was definitely a secondary special interest of mine for id say a year or two! Made sure my entire family was very aware (forced my mom to watch the entire musical in animatics, played the music constantly in the car, even got my brother to like it a little bit) but now ii... I dont have anything nice to say about the actual thing or dear miranda BUT the fandom or at least a small few artists were actually really influential to me- to the point I can say the Hamilton fandom transed my gender (and minecraft roleplays made me gay yippie!)
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leitmotif · 2 years ago
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why is it so fucking hard to make friends in college guys
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marzzrocks · 4 months ago
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oh god i’m so bad at being a person and literally everyone can tell
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pissditching · 2 years ago
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When i was in middle school i had autism and i got really into american history. I started wondering whether popular opinions about which presidents were good and bad was accurate, so i decided to read every piece of legislation and every executive order in us history to figure out objectively who was the best president. However there was the slight setback that each of these documents was hundreds of pages of dense legalese and there are thousands of them. I swung hard left in high school and realised that theres no such thing as a good president but i had already spent a year on that project and had to restart twice bc of calculating errors so i just kept doing it. Cut to today i have a spreadsheet with 1358 bills (not all of them. Its just not possible) and their impacts positives and negatives, and a list double that of executive orders. Its been three different presidents since i started.
dude holy fuck. i love autistic people
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