#thats not how time works at all but its okay cause time doesnt exist

[freakenomenon]

Hi friend :] I want to understand Ellen as a character better and you seem to have a good grasp on her, so could I ask about your ideas for her? No pressure though either !

YOURE ASKING ME ABOUT MY IDEAS FOR ELLEN?? IVE WAITED YEARS FOR SOMEONE TO ASK ME ABOUT MY IDEAS FOR ELLEN!!! /REF .. AGAIN

OKAY to start off. the biggest thing i noticed about her in particular that is pointed out better in the manual than it is displayed in the game is the fact she would rather run away or ignore a problem than actually deal with it and heal. and if you combine this with the fact she usually reacts to ( and CONFUSES ) her own fear with anger. or hostility.

stating herself that she hates crying because she knows she doesnt feel "sad" ,, she just wants to kicks someones ass. which is probably a trauma response. considering she grew up in a rather unsafe neighborhood, which resulted in the death of her brother and cousin. IM JUST RESTATING CANON HERE BUT MY POINT IS.

i feel like if in the game they reeled in the part of her character that is very clearly avoidant, distant and even frequently disassociative. they'd have. a character.

alongside the fact that it's implied she very clearly cannot grasp the concept of not being able to handle something. she's overcome almost everything in her life, but the moment she can't understand another humans feelings. or why another human would treat her the way. most of the people in her life have.

she's more familiar with algorithms than people after all. not to mention that nimdok ( ugh. ) says that ellen is honest to the point of being offensive. first of all fucking. Jesus autistic much. secondly this could also be due to her isolating herself and feeling more at home with her work and electronics than she is with people. a computer is easily fixable if she ends up fucking something up.

its not like you can remove a rom chip on a person and reprogram it to not feel insulted if you tell them they look like they have a dirty microwave. that is probably an oversimplification of my thoughts on that part, but you get the point.

now. to. just. get this part of her character out of the way. just. warning for mentions of rape , miscarriages and other nasty things ahead.

i am not saying that in the situation where someone were to rewrite the game. you have to completely remove the aspect of her being a victim of rape. i simply just think it could've been approached in a better way. as I've stated many times. personally i don't even know where to start with rewriting this aspect of her character??? the most i have is replacing the maintenance man with someone she might have known. just to add more to what I have. maybe a boss or coworker she was close with who exploited their position above her both in the workplace and within the more obvious racial bias of society at the time. using it against her as an excuse to break her boundaries, break down her defenses, and eventually take advantage of her. something like that. just so it has more of an impact on her as a whole, and make her relationship with intimacy and relationships with humans , platonic or not. more strained. having to scratch and fight with the core of her being that wants. and deserves proper intimacy and general care. to keep herself safe. to prevent herself from being violated like that again. her vulnerability is what caused her to end up in that spot. she cant let that happen again. she cant be a hopeless victim again. not again.

yknow because thats how trauma works. it actually effects the victims life in ways other than just ending up with fucked up trigger and a fucked up phobia. wow.

now to the other part of this. I'm. going to be so honest. I would just scrap the miscarriage stuff and the existence of eddie as a whole.

it's so meaningless and minuscule in her character that i bet my pinky toe that half the fandom would look at you like you just said something TED levels of crazy if you brought it up without further grueling context.

.. that's. actually all I've got for now if you trim off me just asking to further establish aspects of her character that i think are interesting. if you've got any questions ill be more than happy to answer! <3

[marinetteplztakeabreak]

Im so in love with the narrative use of sentimonsters in ml???? And how it serves as a metaphor for parents who are Wrong??

You have Félix, who’s the most direct case of “parent thinks that having a child is like a little trophy and checkmark on the list and doesn’t want the child to actually be a person or exist or cause inconvenience.” His father literally didn’t see him as a person and based on the fact that he literally broke Félix’s miraculous he seemed to see Félix as either disposable or unbreakable. There was no sense that he needed to be loved or protected.

But then you also have Adrien, who Gabriel *theoretically* loves. I think Gabriel actually thinks that he loves Adrien as a person. But he has this idea that he can make Adrien happy through obedience alone. He thinks he can just order Adrien to be content or to have the same priorities as him. He calls Adrien melodramatic a few times even and it’s like???

Gabriel *theoretically* wants Adrien to be happy but it doesn’t cross his mind that it’s going to take more than him yelling “hey Adrien i order you to be calm and content.” And ordering Adrien to love the career Gabriel Chooses and love the girl Gabriel Chooses for him and the hobbies that Gabriel Chooses for him. And when that doesn’t work he decides that Adrien is just Beyond His Help and will be better only with his mom there.

And it’s like???? Very fun nuance with this idea of,,, you cannot yell or force someone into being happy,,, it doesn’t matter if you have their best interest in mind,,, if you never listen to what they actually want or see them as a human person then you’ll still be the villian in their story

And THEN!!!!! You have Kagami who’s a completely different case even though she starts with the same circumstance. Because Kagami IS treated like a person and has a good amount of autonomy. It’s just all Conditional. She can do whatever she wants with her life as long as its also exactly what her mother wants. And her mother doesn’t always explain why. And the thing with that is!!! It DOES work for a while!!!! She does trust her mother and actually talk to her about things. And she will defend her mother to the ends of the earth.

But all it takes is that One argument where kagami says “hey . please stop making me date adrien. i dont want to . its hurting me” and tomoe TAKES HER RING instead of listening. And its like. Thats IT.

It doesnt matter if you spent years making a foundation of trust in a relationship because Eventually your kid is Going to grow up and theyre Going to disagree with you on Something Eventually. Kagami was so ready to listen to whatever her mother had to say but her mom didn’t elaborate on anything she just basically said “okay if you wont listen without question you dont get to have autonomy” and of COURSE kagami’s gonna be like. Okay. Bye then.

And i just think it’s soooo cool how there’s these different Layers of “parents forgetting that their child is a person and not a tool for your own personal gain” and that ml shows how it can manifest in so many different ways and it shows that it messes ,up trust and relationships and then it also shows that the kids are all okay once they have love and support and someone who treats them as a person with autonomy

and theres this theme of “it is not too much to ask that you be treated like a human person . no matter how broken or how much of a disappointment you think you are. you are still in the right for demanding to be seen as a person.” And i just. I really love my senti kids i love them soooo much

this show really said “it doesnt matter what sacrifices your parents made for you, youll never be an object that they own” and i just,,, yessssss

[mrgladstonegander]

MORE BOOTLEG DUCKTALES ‼️team science (oops! all identity issues!) edition

team magic here

archimedes gallas / gyro = more like other versions where he's nice but this man is carrying SOOOO much guilt. insane amounts. his entire character is focused on how much his self-worth is down the drain (also hes being haunted by the narrative (phoebe/della)). also he's half japanese. based off the onagadori

cherry pekin / huey = has a similar problem to archie where she has overwhelming feelings of needing to seem mature, and responsible, where she overworks herself

sydney eggtooth-diazi / fenton = REALLYY wants to seem like a Professional Normal Dude. repressing EVERY urge to wear silly ties. sees morality in a black and white sort of way and it WILL cause problems later. he puts archie on a pedestal and its super obvious and it just makes archie more mentally ill

salem milly / gandra = planning to really lean into how she joined fowl bc they were the only ones that supported her. mainly the contrast with how the Main Family supports each other with unconditional love, the love she has is purely conditional, and she's constantly convincing herself that she Wants to do bad things, and that she doesnt care about these people, because despite how she says she only listens to herself, shes stuck to FOUL, and thats her 'family'. based on mille fleur d'uccle

frankie loon / fethry = IT IS PART OF TEAM SCIENCE‼️ after getting back to mainland after being alone at sea for four years, he joins as a janitor. pulling back the marine biology in the sense that he is interested in EVERYTHING. man of a 10000 copies. winning the idgaf war (DOES care abt how his family is disinterested in his interests but its FINE because HE cares its fine its fine. he's accepted he'll be alone). its presence WILL send everyone else into a shock about their identity. hopefully it'll happen vice versa as well

widget-time-tech / widget / gizmoduck / lil bulb = theyre being consolidated and also theyre lil bug guys now!! i dont care if you hate bugs theyre cute as shit!! widget is Usually in the little ball, but also helps control the suit with sydney. it still has anger issues so it'll make things harder for sydney rather than just silly incompetence. and it was DEFINENTLY made to be a superhero ai. no other purposes. at all. certainly not messing with the fabric of time. just helping the ppl of the town :)

mad clucktor / mad clucktor = iwhile he IS a villain he isn't necessarily a bad person. hes a physical manifestation of the part of archie that WANTS to be alive! that KNOWS his worth! he doesn't have to work himself to death to make up for his guilt!

and he's the reason why toby is even active. why he's back

toby / boyd = cannot be normal abt this sorry

he was made to be archie's idea of the "perfect boy". the perfect kid. what he wants to be what he WISHED he would be growing up. hes happy, he can do everything right, he's intelligent, he's strong. his existence is free of human doubt and anxiety, he's the perfect boy and if he was in archie's place everything would be fine

but it isnt! he gets used! toby's used for evil through no fault of his own. but he becomes a symbol of things that are "wrong" about archie. toby didn't resent anyone or be upset with how people treat him. toby doesnt have his own needs. he can do whatever people need him to do. toby was his symbol of hope but becomes a symbol of how everything with him goes wrong. he becomes an unachievable goal that archie is trying to be to make up for the existence of toby!!

and so the only way for either of them to be "truly human" is when archie learns that he doesn't have to be perfect. he never had to be. even if he's made mistakes, he still deserves to LIVE!! he doesn't have to hide his pain and discomfort for anyone!! and its okay for toby to be toby!

[fictionfixations]

This is so off topic but i really want to write a time travel fic of someone twst. Like an actual multichapter one not just the oneshot with silver and sebbie (and yuu) I blame the actual sebek time travel fic i read before i made it to book 7 And i blame the fact i had a dream where sebek had time traveled and like he was doing stuff to undo things and he got caught and they were waiting for him to explain and it was tense and somehow he ended up pretending to be asleep to get out of it and also did i forget to mention that I was sebek and it felt so real that for a few minutes i was just sitting there in bed still pretending to be asleep waiting for someone to leave and then slowly was trying to think like ‘..this doesnt feel like–’ cause sebek was like leaning on lilia’s shoulder ????? or something like that and i realized WAIT that was just a DREAM

Its wild. Like. there was this person who was like trying to get sebbie to stop threateningly like ‘i have a criminal record’ and he kept repeating it and its just aAAA (as in they arent afraid to get violent D:) IDK it felt like there was like some war going on in the background with lilia and malleus and some horrible thing was going to happen that sebek wanted to stop

And so it was in the library with something something secret passage that led to like 3 glowing blue balls (HAHA BALLS) on top of like a cushion in a box and i cant remember wtf they did just that they were important. I cant remember if it was a bad thing or not. I think that probably came from LoCF influence cause of the thing in the library crossman curse thingy whatever i forgot

But so it was really nerve wracking.

And i remember reading this fic with general lilia having a twin and it was started because the person writing it had dreams of it. And i was like woah thats cool. I dont think id have dreams like that but id like to.

HAHA i jinxed myself like months later cause wtf it felt weirdly real even though its nothing like my irl life. Like usually i get tricked because its taking place in locations ive been to before (i once had a dream i had a cat and i felt so sad because i didnt have one irl) but NOPE 

Anyway idk where silver was but it was strongly implied that it was in the past past like general lilia type past except malleus existed then too

Idk why sebek was there (or why i was sebek ??? i think i just got huge brainrot rfom that sebek time travel fic tbh)

but so . i was so hesitant to say something about it bc idk it felt weird so i sat on this for 4 days but weirdly enough i still remember a good chunk of it like the many details i just didnt write down originally

..i feel like this is a sign i should write it. i just wish i knew what the balls were for 💀. i mean i think it was bad because the library was implied to be like in like their home or base right?? and he was trying to take it away. but he was gonna touch it with his bare hand idk dream logic causing dumb shit im pretty sure they're magical balls.

anyway i cant remember if he managed to get them or if he got caught or how?? did he get caught in the act? i mean how else would they be suspicious???

in the first place why are they not suspicious of him being there

like

like

did he somehow bullshit his way in there

like okay JP spoilers (i think it'll appear in the NEXT main story update on EN)

like how he was like describing to baur his grandpa (who is baur btw but baur doesnt know it i dont think?) and like how hes half fae and baur acknowledging him as one of them and is like 'well for all i know you could be a zigvolt' and like being accepting and its just like shfuisdhfuisehdij

but so anyway that worked so idk maybe it works for them. idfk what excuse he made up

aughhhh why do i have to have brainrot over this when im trying to write something else tho

[nyxi-pixie]

You tits are magnificent and that take on Chuuya as a Hound is superb.

However I am kind of missing pocket pooches in your definition. What about the dogs whose purpose it is to be loved? Are they hounds? Fulfilling their duty to still only be considered for the work they do? What about the dogs that are loved as equal to a human being while still housing the potential for a rabid beast? Sharp teeth, strong jaws. That tear apart their veneer of tameness if threatened and especially if the one that has showered them with love is threatened?

PLS took a minute to respond to this so now telling me my tits are great is wildly out of context😭

but anyway! like i said!! its a scale! you can come up with a bunch of different ways the trope manifests (as youve just done🙏). i <3 dog motif, but with popularity for any theme used for character exploration comes people using it as a one size fits all deal, more for shock factor than actual exploration. and thats frustrating! its dependent on the character at hand (and sometimes it just. doesnt fit at all. which is okay too!)

i said in the tags of the original post that not all dog poems apply to every dog-coded character, and this is what i mean. you can use the dog to represent a whole lot of different things (many of which outright conflict eo). essentially: when youre analysing a character through the lens of any general metaphor, it should be done with the character as the baseline rather than the metaphor as the baseline. you figure out where the dog fits into the blorbo rather than how you can shove the blorbo into whatever dog quote youve recently seen.

gonna ramble abt ur specific examples under the cut, but the above is the important part.

in my hound/mutt spectrum idea, the hound is like a subclass of purebred dogs in general. anything bred specifically for some purpose fits around that side of the scale. i do a lot of thinking abt the victorians' dog experimentation when im thinking abt this side of things. its like an extreme version of the idea behind the dog's evolution from wolf - they are built to fulfil a human need of some kind. its all about conditional love and the reward of being good and doing what you were made to do for the benefit of another.

so where hound characters like chuuya are typically ones carrying out a defending/protecting job, you also have the small pet breeds as you mentioned, who are loved for presenting a certain picture or acting solely to be of comfort to the owner (usually in this trope, the owner is a parent). so very similar to the hound idea, the individual exists as a possession, desired for what it can do for you, and loved only as long as it keeps that up. and with this you get the acting out being natural instincts surpassing rewarded actions. 'a pet that bites isnt loving enough' and all that, because this version is at no point supposed to make its owner uncomfortable in any way.

dogs considered equal are sort of an outlier bc a lot of dog motif centres on dehumanisation as making the character inherently Lower (loyalty, servitude, obeisance or 'unintelligent' violence and the inability to restrain oneself as making them Lower than humanity). but yeah, like you said!!! theres always the rabid beast lingering underneath. so you can have the 'theyre equal until they remind you that theyre Different' thing, where you get dehumanisation that only really crops up in times of tension, easily hidden until theyve cause to bite. characters with messy pasts whose loyalty manifests as violence and all that fun stuff.

point being, as youve demonstrated, there are loads of ways the trope manifests, its NOT a one size fits all, and just bc people say a character is dog coded does NAWT mean every single thing abt dogs applies to them.

[coveredinredpaint]

hi! my name is rex too and i think thats pretty cool

anyway, i was wondering if you had any tips on dressing feminine but like,,,, also being able to pass? or tips on being confident enough to not need to pass?

heyy that is pretty cool!!

im gonna be honest with you, i never really managed to pass before starting t. there were like 5 times ppl gendered me correctly but after that they immediatly "corrected" themselves. the only person who didnt was a toddler, i hope hes doing great.

all the tips and tricks ppl gave out never worked for me, never managed to figure out why, im thinking it was mostly my voice.

so i got absolutely no passing advice for you, but i can definitely tell you how to work on your confidence and say fuck you to societies ridiculous expectations

(it turned out longer than i distracted, i cant give concrete advice apparently my apologies)

tw: mention of bullying and some mental health stuff but nothing heavy

before i start i will say that it takes time. it takes time to learn and let go of this need to fit in. to learn to do your own thing even if you have to do it alone. to grow and learn who you want to be or are.

first we need to understand that expectations of how we should act or dress or look, whether based on our gender or not, are absolute bullshit. like straight up made up.

step one is kill the cop in your head. every time you judge yourself (or someone else) for something, ask why you care about that. most of the time its cause you have been taught in some way that what youre doing is not according to "the rules". this can be for the smallest things, like when i get really excited and stim about something i used to feel embarassed because "men dont act like that". sometimes i still feel that way. its not something you can just get rid of, so its important to actively affirm yourself that what youre doing is okay and that you are allowed to do what makes you happy.

dealing with yourself is already a hell of a challenge, but other people, that something else. i hope you live in an accepting area and i have heard many stories of people are queer fully accepted for it. but often thats sadly not yet the case. surely isnt for me at my school. there are people who are gonna make you feel like shit, who are gonna call you all the horrible things the voice in your brain calls you too. you are gonna wish you were "normal" sometimes, even if you dont really mean it.

going back to normal? going back in the closet? letting go of the clothes that make my feel better even on the most dysphoric days? fuck no, i finally started to get myself, my life back, im not sacrificing that for some teens whos names i dont even know. so you turn it around, no longer "why do they treat me like that" but "how dare they treat me like that" if they kick you while youre down you better bite their ankles and dont let go. most people who bully people who are "other" are terrified of what they see in us. we are living proof that their belief of how the world should work is very wrong. they call you a fag and a tranny? you better come to school next day in the gayest clothes you own. they call you an emo and bark at you? you better be dressed even more punk the next day. they may laugh at you, yell at you, even record you or push you around. it doesnt matter, they hold no power over who you are.

but please do not try and carry this alone. dont let yourself turn bitter. its is difficult to be treated like shit for simply existing. even when it doesnt hurt as much as it did its still exhausting. find someone to talk to, whether its a family member you trust, a friend, a mental health professional or other queer people online. its important not to suppress your feelings. get them out, by either talking about them or writing or making art or music.

know that its your life and you can live it however the hell you want. be kind to yourseld, be kind to others. if you are not where you want to be to right now you will in the future. cant really call it a life if you didnt live for it. it will get better, you just got to keep going and keep fighting.

[ohyoru]

Hey im not good with words or english, but its ok to feel burnt out or tired. Youre not obligated to provide anything to us. You are an author who writes for free. Maybe to have fun maybe to express yourself. You have your own life and thats a good thing. I havent been playing genshin in a while because theres so much work i need to do there like building characters. I havent watched link click s2 because i cant bring myself to sit down for that long. Im sure everyone has something like this happening to them and i just remind myself that it doesnt matter that much. Post unfinished things, make your character builds crap, dont finish a book youve started it doesntmatter. Its about having fun. Its about forgetting your problems(at least for me) or its about spending time with your online friends. Taking a break is necessary. Spending time for yourself is necessary. Taking care of yourself is necessary. I hope i could get my message across. I cant even take my own advice seriously as im too scared to post this without anon but i hope i was able to make you feel better somehow. I also want to say i really love your works even if i dont know who the person you’re writing about is. Ive been following your works for a while and i dont regret it one bit. I would be pretty sad if you were to stop writing for certain people but if it makes you feel happy then i dont mind and im sure others wouldn’t mind it as well. Youre free to do whatever you want ( as long as youre not intruding on other peoples freedom obviously) thank you for reading my wordvomit written in an attempt to comfort you.

dearie anon,

to have you in my inbox is already a blessing enough for me. thank you so much for taking the time of your day to cheer me up, you have no idea how much this means to me (brb crying i dont deserve you sob)

first of all, your message got across. i'm not sure about your english being not good part, but really, your message resonates with me on a level deeper than language can ever explain, truly.

i appreciate your kind reminder that i shouldn't feel obliged to write for anyone. i honestly feel like it's eating me out because i put myself in the equation as well. i had been a writer before, back when tokyo revengers (anime) was still in its first season since i'm more of a manga reader. if you were in that era, you might came across my work. alas, things happened. what used to be good memories (including writing) turned into very hurtful ones and i stopped doing what i love because they're causing me so much pain. nonetheless, i still slowly died inside. it took me a while to be at peace with my past and understand that writing is what makes me the person i am. so i'm determined to start again and keep it up. but when life gets in the way and hold me back from writing (again), it depresses me. (including not playing genshin). honestly, i'm feeling lonely. what and who i used to know and love seemed to only exist in the past. people moved on, topics became irrelevant, relationship broke. which i don't blame, but it still makes me cry once in a while.

sorry for the traumadump uh- i feel like i should explain myself a little. i hope that didn't scare you too much. but anyway, you're right! i should do whatever i want. maybe i need to reframe my perspective. i love that you mention about reading book thingy because i have the same issue and yes, i'm a reader through and through. but it's been so long since i read.. the irony. maybe all i need to do is start. and love myself a bit more to stop torturing myself with unnecessary thoughts..

you know what anon? i love the past me. i dont remember exactly what i love about her, but she used to be so at peace. i'm trying to find my way back to her, and i think you're helping me set my way there, so thank you. i dont know about your problems, but if you're willing to share, i'm more than happy to listen. don't forget to take care of yourself too okay? i hope your days ahead are the loveliest yet!

also, thank you for appreciating my works! when i started writing again, i told myself and whoever that's willing to take the time of their day to consume my content that i don't need anyone's attention or approval (shadowban be damned. if it happens, it happens). i did it solely for myself. but god knows how much your kind words and others' fill up the spaces in my heart.

i'm not going to ask anything from my works. your support is something i could never repay, but i'll always appreciate it from the bottom of my heart.

(btw yes, you did send this on anon hehe i got a hunch on who you might be but if you prefer to keep it a secret, then rest assured, your secret is safe with me!)

[dickthyology]

Oh please, allow me to rekindle that reaction, because i love small boat sailing and history and i think this is dumb tech bro shit that exists to get VC money then fizzle.

These parafoils (which is whats pictured in previous posts), or kites, or parasails, or spinnakers all are established technologies. For like hundreds of years, thats why i could name so many similarly mastless sails. (Oh btw all of them work better with masts, but with the right winds they can be deployed however)

Previous posters did a great job speculating about retrofitting existing ships and i really am not trying to attack them, however i put forth that it doesnt really matter how you mount them, cause they wont be installed. Not because people underestimate the value of free energy from sails, but because everyone forgets how great screw propellors are

First, these kites are nowhere near as effective as sails on a mast. Lets look at two diagrams.

The first diagram shows the possible points of sail for a masted vessel, whereas the second shows that for a kite sail (kitesailing, windboarding, whatever) but with an emphasis on the “power zone” where it will get far more power. This is more important for the kites because in the “soft zone” the kite will hopefully have enough force to stay aloft, and behind it it will certainly not. Its worth noting that masted sails also get considerably more power on a run, which its equivalent to the power zone, only if the wind is slightly behind the path of the masted boat (labeled close) the boat still moves forward and does not have to turn around and pick up their sail.

So the sails will only be deployed of the wind is such to push the boat forward. Okay, sure most people figured thats the thing but its usually windy so like whatever right? Lets look at two maps detailing wind conditions in the atlantic, then compare it to a chart of global shipping corridors to see what kind of winds the cargo ships encounter.

Uh oh! Looks like the cargo ships LOVE crossing that really quiet non-windy bit in the middle. They love it like they’ve wanted to take that more direct route for hundreds of years but have only been able to do so for the last 150 years or so.

But look, the routes overlap with the winds sometimes! Sometimes in one but not the other? Ah yeah its wind and it changes based on the month, day, and hour. That right there is enough to take every statement made anywhere with huge grains of salt. Especially mine.

But, the strawman insisted, there are times when the wind is blowing with the ships, surely then it could be- SO LETS CONTINUE LOOKING into these kite sails. Recreationally there is an amount of wind which will not be able to lift the sail up into the air. These sails are made of various materials, all of them effected by gravity. The sails needed to pull a cargo shit weighing thousands of tons would need to be WAY bigger than to pull an instagram user, but nonetheless lets assume they have the same minimum relative windspeed to lift off, 10 kts. This means anywhere with darker blue sails will not work at all, cant even be deployed.

Oh right i said RELATIVE wind because if the sail is meant to be in ADDITION to engine forces then we can only use the wind thats going FASTER than the ship to pull us forward. So lets take the average leisurely, and fuel efficient speed of a cargo ship, 21kts. They often go faster, but they also at times purposefully slow roll, im not going any further into ocean bound logistics though and im not sorry. Look at this post is a monster already.

So! 21kts plus the 10 kts minimum gives us 31 kts minimum speed to get anything out of this sail we dragged along. Now on our wind maps anything blue, including some blue green is disqualified as useful wind. Sometimes its not nothing even!

The next question we must ask is how much power are we getting from that sail? I dont want to do the exact calculations so lets use a heuristic to calculate how much power;

0.015 hp/sqr ft of sail @ 7-10 kts wind speed

0.020 hp/sqr ft of sail @ 11-16 kts ''

0.040 hp/sqr ft of sail @ 17-21 kts "

0.070 hp/sqr ft of sail @ 22-27 kts "

Lets consider the MS beluga skysails which made its partially kite powered maiden voyage in 2008 across the atlantic. This kits has a square footage of 17,000 m2, giving it a maximum of 119 hp.

The average container ship engine with a screw propeller has between 26,000 and 33,000hp. I told you screw propellers were underestimated.

And that’s at the maximum relative wind. And again, its relative wind because the MS beluga Skysails was a hybrid vessel! It still burned fossil fuels on every single one of its tests and voyages, and never turned off its engines. WHEN sail power could be used it reported a 5% reduction in that portion of the journeys fuel usage. The PORTION.

So all thats left is to decide if its worth it to bring along. Every ounce of weight added to a ship affects the hulls drag coefficient, as well as the system and sail taking up physical space on the ship, which is the valuable part of a journey, meaning they are effectively paying or losing out on revenue in order to take the damn thing with it.

So is it worth it? Is it useful? Maybe the 15 years between 2008 and 2023 are because it was foolishly overlooked by an entire planet seeming to squeeze every last drop of efficiency out of the global trade networks. I kinda want it to be, I genuinely love sailing and recommend the experience to anyone. Hell even a tarp and a skate board will give ya a fun afternoon.

But its not anyone entrypoint into a cherished hobby its just another tech-esque headline that doesnt hold up to scrutiny. Doomed to be spread for the glimmer of hope we may not end our own species, though it may only achieve a few rounds of venture capital funding.

We dont need to speculate whether this new innovation will sweep across the worlds shipping lanes, because the numbers have already been run, the consensus is deafening; no it’s dumb.

Shout out to the other passionate posters, i mean nothing against them. Its just a thing that bothers me everytime i see it.

And lastly; enjoy this photo of a few small sailboats called sunfish because i love them.

[dumbbitchfrommars]

12am and i cant sleep.

its been so hard adjusting to all the change. it was unexpected, and i got used to something and didnt realise how that momentum would just disappear and how uncomfortable i would be about that.

i think i got used to the chaos of being a student. now i feel stuck, and im doubting myself. im really, really questioning.

but somehow i was blessed with a really wonderful man amidst it all?

doubt/fear/self criticism. its confusing me... i havent properly cried in so long. ive just gotten a bit too comfortable with the subtle, constant voice in my head putting me down for every little mistake and unmet expectation.

i am a good writer. i missed writing, really writing. i got so lazy. i feel so lazy, all the time. like im never quite putting in 100%, but if i did, i know id be able to achieve so much. id be so successful - probably at anything i put my mind into.

instead im so afraid of failing or being disappointed that i barely try at all.

my confidence is thin... i wonder if people can see through my facade?

im so ashamed and angry at myself for losing my temper today. it completely derailed the rest of my day. i feel terrible. i deserved to get in trouble today. it was my karma for being impatient, and mean, and angry. life is not that serious. nothing is worth that kind of anger. no stranger deserves that kind of anger...

im so tired but the coffee that i knew would throw me off is keeping me up. i was shaking for half the day today! i genuinely helped so many people but i also feel judged, criticised and under appreciated. i am not rostered again for this entire week.

work is not worth this frustration and anger and hurt. ive exhausted myself analysing the situation and its done. but, what is left if not that? what do i worry about instead? how others might judge me for dating this guy? or how my car is stuck in a carpark tonight and might be towed away by the morning? or, that i have $40 to my name right now with multiple trips interstate planned in the next few months? money doesnt matter. it never really mattered and is the least of my problems, and yet it floats back to me constantly like a persistent fly. i got bit on the fucking face by a mosquito!

but being hugged like that healed something in me. it was the most comforting hug ive had in so, so long. i could cry just thinking about feeling that way all the time. so warm and safe and protected and loved.

its nice to feel like i can be a shy girl again. like i dont have to pretend to be confident all the time, cause someone else is already, and hes ready to take the lead for me. so i can let my guards down and just be my self and not worry about scaring him off or making him insecure. and i like the way he tells me things. like he really shows me, and gets me to visualise what hes trying to explain. and i like how he rubbed my knee when i said i wasnt listening to him for one second. and i like how he kinda just decided for me that were hanging out again tomorrow. and i like how he asked "are you okay" when i got all anxious and made me laugh at myself instead of being awkward. how did he do that? he helped me not overthink by making a sweet joke and i could laugh. and my critical side is non existent when im with him, cause hes so confident in himself. hes so man. and i actually like him. i like talking to him, i like his personality, im drawn to him, i think hes attractive. i mean, he has odd style but it suits him. and he has some opinions that i disagree with but they arent dealbreakers. and hes such a boyyyy like hes so masculine man like wow they really do exist. all i had to do was look in a different place to my own. I KNEW IT TOO. i knew i liked them a little rough around the edges. ugh. okay. i think thats enough fawning over him now.

i wonder when we'll finally kiss. i dont think im ready yet... im scared of rushing and getting hurt again. i think he can tell and thats why hes been so slow and gentle with me. is crazy, isnt it? i seem so confident and attractive and cool from the outside. i feel like everyone profiles me as having so much handed to me. but its honestly so scary and hard to try do relationships and friendships. ive been hurt so much and im so so sensitive. but maybe i seem strong and like my walls are up or something, so people think im indestructible. but secretly im so soft and fragile and i need time. and i feel like hes giving me that time? like i dont think ive ever gone this long talking to a guy. i havent hung out with a guy 3 times without kissing once. thats a lie... but its also true, cause the taurus i always just expected it to not be romantic. i dont think i ever really saw us being in a relationship. but i can see myself with the scorpio. so its even a shock just for me, to see how seriously im taking this by not rushing. i want everything to be special and the right timing. i even want to meet his family and friends. and my sister really likes him. thats how i know hes good for me. because shes never wrong about people. could this be why i had such a trainwreck day today? did i receive some kind of evil eye the other night? but...who...? everyone seemed so sweet and happy and lovely. maybe its just a bad day and i shouldnt overthink it.

ugh.

its fucking freezing cold and now its past 1am. ugh.

i would love another one of those hugs, please. it was so lovely and nice and ugh. holy shit. i really like him!

[dear-happypills]

me: i thought id be happy

or at least happier than i was.

its not like i dont know that happiness is fleeting -- maybe even illusory.

its like, youre at point A, and you want to get to point B; point B will make you happy. but then when you reach point B, you just push off your next set of happiness to point C, and so on.

i mean... i already knew this...

i... know this.

and yet. here i am... ...

happypills: jeeeeezzohweez. show a little gratitude. seems like just yesterday about you bitching about not getting what you have today.

me: wellllll, technically... i dont have it yet. it was just an offer; the pay wont hit until next pay period. sooo...

happypills: -_-... *sarcastically OH, so maybe your point C is two weeks from now... hopeyoudontdieinthenexttwowweeks.

me: BLEHH, thats what im sayyingggg. its just.

it teases with me. and then when im there.... i tell myself something else, or the next thing, will make things more happy.... you know? and... now. imjusttired. ....

so tired.

happypills: yea ... i. .. i was being sarcastic.

me: well, then fuxx you. thats NOT encouraging at all.

happypills: i think... my presence... here with you... just showsssss how... you, quite literally, have happiness... bottled up, all UP Heeyaaa. *points to feet and head just be thankful for the things you do have brrrrroooooh.

me: .... uugghhh NOooooh. i kept you to remind myself how ... .....asinine happiness is... how ridiculous.... you are. how... im just delusional... to think that i could ever be happy...

happypills: -_-;;; okay now youre just being hurtful. happiness is in my blood yo.....

me: lol.

happypills: NO, SERIOUSLY. whether if its because of my chemistry. or mayyybee. MAIBEH.....

even my destiny.

DOT. DOT. DOT.

i am, happiness.

always.

its my nattureeeeee.

me: yea................................................................................................... this is exactly the kind of delusions im talking about...

dot, dot, dot. WTF.... who the hell does that???

happypills: *SCOFFS PWUH, why,... how..... like... why???? would you even doubt me??? just because YOU arent happy, DOESNT MEAN I AM TOO.

VAIN MUCH????

you know what? thats actually a good point. maybe you arent happy because of how selfish you are. you subjectify happiness as a reflection of your desires, but maybe thats the issue.

me: well,,... .YEA. no shix i subjectify happiness around my desires.... like NO SHIX. how the fuxx would you define happiness mr happypills.

happypills: ah NNOOhhhhHH.

what i mean is that... you, people, humans. YOU set scales to happiness. measurements. metrics.

going from point A to B to C. scheming to increase your current level of what is 'happy'-- seeking to be happier, to your current disposition. trying to control the derivatives and its inflection points; working toward events that trigger happiness or staying away from those that cause distress. desiring what you dont have.

its all just... numbers.

and i dont mean just with money. its just any variable: with someone, something, some place, some time.. just some quantities - of chemistry and the physics of this world - formulating some… finite thing..

… that you are trying to fit into an infinite soul…. …..

BU T thats the thing. with numbers...

the whole notion of happiness falls apart. ... since .. happiness is subjective. you know???

like, what is a number, but something to be greater and always less at the same time.

so yea, it makes sense to think happiness doesnt exist in those terms.

but as happypills... on authority of all happiness ... ....

me: ... wait... wait.. i dont think... id bank the authority of happiness, especially all happiness, to happypil.......

happypills: AHEMMMMMM... as I WAS SAYING.

as happypills, i sayeth that happiness is not the point...

.... ....

..

me: well,......... then what is the point???...... ...... how do i .... how can i stop feeling so miserable?.........

happypills: ...........i ummmmm.... i already told you.

show a little pilling gratitude. and you will find joy eternal.

me: …OHH OkAY. just like that huhhh? i mean, don’t mind that joy eternal is beyond what i am… in every capacity. in every conceivable way…

happypills: yupp. but you can still be with it — in all its divinity. it’s been done..

done so that happiness can last… amid all the burdens and toils of this world. it will endure.

…

so sayeth happypills, MwuHaahaa

me: -_-.. idk. i dont think you get happiness.

- happypills

[gay-furry-poseidon-lover]

All of this is very fair, and good to read about. Though I do think Op has a point about the black and white of how people treat Epic's Odysseus verses anyone who gets in his way, and how hypocritical the treatment of Calypso specifically is if you look at how like. Any man in greek myths is treated. I believe Odysseus took women as slaves on his ship in The Illiad. Sometimes its someone else but he is one of the people who said they must kill the son of Hector, he dropped this baby off of a wall. Sure you can argue "it was willed by Zues," but I dont think that makes it any better morally. When he gets home he commands that an unfaithful servant be strung up and tortured untill death, as well as killing every female servant who was unfaithful to him. We dont neccesarily know to what degree, or even if engagement with the suitors was consensual. But all of this is to say that there really is no true good or evil character. I say all of these things as someone who really enjoys the Odyssey and Odysseus. We can recognize that acting in the ways he did would not be okay or acceptable in our society today, but we still tell his story and praise him for his loyalty and endurance.

Epic is a work of fiction inspired by The Odyssey. It is not meant to follow it exactly, nor portray an accurate example of how the story plays out in the book, and we must keep this in mind. In greek myth there are many versions of each story, many differing translations and interpretations, and long before they were written down they were passed on through oral tradition. I approach this with the mind that with each new retelling we learn about the time it was written, and what biases a translator or story teller may have let leak into it. Not that they are neccesarily false, just different, and products of different people.

A persons first introduction to Calypso will certainly influence their opinions on her as she is present in many different pieces of media. And what i think is most important is that we remember she is fictional. She's a goddess, a nymph, someone that exists only in the stories we tell. And the same with Odysseus. Its very likely writers took inspirations from real heroes and their experiences, but the Odysseus we know today is not a real person. Neither him nor Calypso are personally affected by the things we say about them. You can't conflate theorizing about the different possibilities of how an ancient story went with say, denying the story of a modern victim of rape. These are very different things in very different contexts. I thought fans of greek myth would be on the same page about this, what with the plentiful rape, incest, murder, slavery, and beastiality described in myths. But apparantly it needs to be said that enjoying stories that contain violence and crimes like these does not mean you condone or support these actions taking place in our modern society.

People are free to talk about Zues and enjoy his character without constantly giving disclaimers that we can never forgive him and he has done bad things. Because we know that, its established, its clear. People dont accuse you of being a rape sympathizer or being into fucking cows just because you mention Zues. Hes low hanging fruit though. Hera, Aphrodite, Artemis and Apollo, theyve all done horrific shit. But we dont immediately critisize anyone who talks of them fondly. Achilles did it with a corpse cause he thought she was just that beautiful. Obviously thats gross and bad. Liking his stories doesnt automatically mean you agree with that.

I'm not on tiktok (thank god) but ive seen a couple videos and posts that are very black and white. Calypso is an evil abusor and if you like her than you support abuse and rape. It's annoying as hell. I've been abused, ive been in coercive sexual relationships, I know first hand that thats bad. Duh. And if you find comfort in relating to Odysseus because of your own experiences, and that leads you to hate Calypso, thats okay. If people talking about Calypso is upsetting or triggering to you, don't engage with it by all means. Take care of yourself. Block, hit not interested, scroll away.

But what you should not do is tell random people on the internet that they are as bad as rapist abusors because they were talking about the one sided love of a nymph goddess and a mortal man in a musical inspired by anime and video games.

People are able to sepparate fiction from reality with so many other characters, why is it that Calypso is such a controversial one. Her character, and her backstory, have so much to explore and think about, and we can do that without believing that she is without any flaws or faults.

Think of her what you want, say about her what you want. Just stop projecting whatever beliefs you have about what it means to enjoy a fictional character onto everyone who disagrees with you. If you are do passionate about justice for victims, go outside, engage with local communities, see a friend, see a therapist. Speak out about the real, alive abusors and rapists who hold positions of power in our world right now. That will bring much more good to the world than starting discourse on tiktok, I promise you. (not directed at op or reblogger, but for people in general.)

Something I'm starting to notice about this fandom; y'all can like Epic's version of Odysseus without trying to paint Calypso as a rapist.

Odysseus in the original tale did cheat on his wife. Several times. And there's nothing wrong with acknowledging that. But trying to paint him as blameless and all the other women as rapists for seducing him is not the winning move y'all think it is.

Like Tiktok is becoming the worst when it comes to the topic of Calypso.

[fictionfixations]

book 7 exploration stuff

book 7 part 4 spoilers

the game makes you wait (unless you want to spend gems) to continue the story so be prepared for posts every now and then about this of me screenshotting things i think are interesting or funny

okay. listen. i still maintain the 'the ironclads and the fae have a HUGE misunderstanding' idea, BUT that doesnt mean everyone has good intentions... and i mean some people think that if they're their enemy, then nothings fof limits right? (to be fair when we run off the ironclads we also steal like their supplies.. but like... geez... these ones ARENT fighters, you're attacking civilians!)

ohh more backstory

its the black shadow-y thing back from before in the other dreams that tried to bring us to a deeper sleep

malleus?

LMFAO

OH DAMN what is with this game and kicks. if i had a nickel for every time someone kicked another person to get them to move, id have two nickels. which isnt a lot but its weird it happened twice (bro in book 6 in one of the PTMs riddle kicked azul to get him out of the way. with his HEELED BOOT by the way, OW?)

gAH (i know im supposed to be supportive of the 'good guys' but haha no. godd i really cant wait for people to write fics about this ive had a hankering for diasomnia fics lately, especially from silver and/or sebek pov)

wow thats some dark imagery. although i cant be surprised... (yknow what? i actually wonder what people think of them in those clothes. like. idk. any weird 'what are you wearing'??? do we have any items on ourselves like a phone or something to get the dreamer really confused and make them realize 'wait a second...'????)

im a third of the way there (im still at the beginning area lMFAO)

aww. family bonding.

what else can we introduce to them though to make them horribly confused or shocked or amazed since we come from a different time period entirely?? (we shocked them with good food, in a bigger quantity then even the nobles have too, idk if it counts but sebek and silver have their training from lilia, which knocked his mask off and made him surprised that a human could get him...)

i wonder. what if there were spells that exist now that are way more convenient with little magic cost. but before it wasnt nearly as tested so its more difficult and stuff to magic??

in any case i think fae are magic so like. doubt. (we barely beat him anyway. well i didnt i used a retry ticket because i struggled so bad)

then again

how to make up for us basically time traveling (without it being permanent though since its a dream)? by making our only knowledgeable party members (silver and sebek) not having as much knowledge. cause like. they know things happened and stuff but its never been written or spoken about what happened. so all of its new to them. like i mean

they know the end result but how they got there is lost. especially the details.

..people are going to make such cool works out of book seven and i am PUMPED.

[ardeidaze]

alright buddy hit me with it. how did u kill sasha and what is ghost-her up to afterwards

well it just so happens that grime was just slow enough in this particular universe that sasha elizabeth waybright became one of those fifth grade science projects where you try and package an egg properly so itll survive being dropped from the third storey of a building. anne did not get a very good grade on this project.

ghost sasha regains awareness on top of the crumbling tower, remembers none of this and Also is unaware that shes a ghost. anything that might clue her in just doesnt process so she's really confused as to why anne is screaming and sobbing at the ground cause girl theres nothing fucking there. she is Pissed that the toads are leaving without her but the tower is unstable so she is like oh my Fuck anne calm Down get off this tower before we all *die* and anne looks at her like. well like shes seen a ghost. they leave and anne and the plantars are like okay what the hell are we supposed to do with this teenage ghost who will probably kill us and also doesnt seem to understand shes dead and anne who is Not having a good time is like Please can we bring her with us i promise ill make this work and theyre skeptical but also. this kids best friend just died in front of her what are you going to do say no? so thats the story of how ghost sasha ends up living in wartwood and plaguing anne with her existence every single day.

sasha getting less terrible is a bit of a Process but it happens. when they meet up w marcy marcys like. oh my god what have i done and spills the truth but in a grand turn of events anne is way more mad abt this than sasha is bc to anne amphibia was "get stuck in the woods get stuck in a town that doesnt trust you break your arm watch your friend try to kill your grandpa and then sacrifice herself for you and get haunted by a ghost" meanwhile amphibia to sasha was "get put in jail have an adventure realize you can be a better person and then do some self improvement" so anne goes back to wartwood w the plantars like in canon but sasha stays with marcy.

temple time! first two temples go exactly as in canon. third temple? well when sasha goes to charge the stone she almost disappears. sasha being a ghost is directly tied to the strength gem's power so. well that has some consequences and the weakening of her ghost form un-represses all the fun memories of going splat like a bug on a windshield. so sasha gets to have a little oh my god im dead crisis

they go back to the king like sorry were not charging the fucking box sasha will die he gets mad shit happens i havent gotten this part planned out well they beat him up yk the drill

...aaaand then moon time. it goes the same as in canon except for the little detail that with taking the power of the gems that means no gem for sasha and she dies. and the guardian is a little bitch asshole so while itll revive anne bc it wants to retire it doesnt give a shit about sasha. and anne has marcy and her family to go back to so she gets sent back. sasha effectively dies twice its great im having so much fun (/lying. this au makes me feel ill. in a cathartic way but still)

[thewaywardbruja]

What happened at the doctor? ( A Vent )

Okay, so basically, I had a doctors appointment yesterday, that I had no idea why I was there, little did I know it was to see another liver doctor.

Fine.

So I went, drove for 30 minutes around the parking lot trying to find a space. ( The hospital and parking lot are both shit )

So I was already in a fowl mood when I walked in. Tried to push that aside, got checked in, sat and waited, playing Pokemon Go to calm my nerves.

Got called in, and started sharing my medical history with my doctor, he listened and asked questions all fine and well.

And then he looked over my last blood draw which was in March and couldnt quite figure out why I hadnt had my blood drawn since then.

So then he looked at my blood results from the last three draws and told me that I am on the wrong prescription yet again for my liver. That shocked me.

I asked him a few questions and he explained to me how the pills actually work.

So, the liver pill I am on is called Urso, it basically makes it easier for the bile to travel through my liver since the disease causes your liver to swell pretty badly.

( From the NHS Website: )

Bile is a liquid produced inside the liver that's used to help digest fats and remove waste products from the body. It passes out of the liver through small tubes called bile ducts.

In PBC, the immune system (the body's natural defence against infection and illness) mistakenly attacks the bile ducts.

It's not clear why this happens, but it's thought to be caused by a combination of subtle differences in how the immune system works.

The bile ducts become damaged and injured, causing bile to build up in the liver. This further damages the liver and may lead to scarring.

----

PBC is a progressive condition, which means the damage to the liver can steadily get worse over time.

The rate at which PBC progresses varies between individuals. Sometimes, it can take decades.

Without treatment, the liver can become so badly damaged that it no longer works properly. This is known as liver failure and can be fatal.

----

So basically, what the doctor explained to me. Is that I need a higher dose of the liver pills, fine. But he also said that he wasnt sure it was going to help. He said we can try it, but the way my blood was reading, the previous doctor should have known I needed a higher dose.

He said and I quote "There are people who go on living with the disease for many years with no symptoms and no problems... and then there is you, and something needs to be done."

The pills are not a cure, there is no cure for the disease. They just, prolong the inevitable - as he said.

So, he said that if the blood comes back elevated, after today ( which I'm sure its going to ) that we are going to raise my dose from 1000mg a day, to 1500mg a day.

If that doesnt work ( again we arent sure ) - then hes going to try the other pill thats available.

If that doesnt work, then I have to go to Liverpool ( Irony ) and do pill trials until they find one that does.

And if that doesnt work, theres nothing to be done except a liver transplant.

So I'm three steps away from my entire world being flipped upside down yet again. Because of this disease.

--

On the other side of it, we now know why I am extremely tired, and unmotivated all the time, as one of the major symptoms is extreme lethargy and fatigue. And theres nothing they can do for that either.

And why my sex drive is non-existant. So that made me feel better.

--

So yeah, feelings?

Frustrated, upset and just like I didnt realize that my liver was that bad off.

Husband and I have decided to completely use this as a kick in the ass and get healthy once and for all. I havent been eating that bad lately, if at all sometimes so, that wont be too difficult for me.

But yeah, the news broke me.

[istherewifiinhell]

Apparently i needed to do a whole essay just about todays star trek sunday? WUH? HUH??? Okay anyway im culturally christian athetist and Literally just some guy on the internet but Sisko is The Emissary and please accept him into your heart

OKAY OKAY. theeee. literal narative purpose that the Fake Out Emissary guy is WRITTEN so he is an obstacle in and "social issue of the episode" thing aside. like. he could be his OWN very complex character, super juicy perspectives etcetc. But hes NOT hes a character in a FABLE. SEE.

Sisko is the MOST guy who doesnt want to do the thing EVER. im sure a thing that has never happened to any other religious important figure/messanger of the gods./s He is not a literal believer in the prophets. he does believe his senses tho. but that episode i think does a good thing in showing he does not just believe 'yeah theres aliens that live in the wormhole' a la the keiko school ep.

Cause sisko doesnt just believe his own perceptions. he believes the prophets/aliens perceptions too. sisko is so good as a character where we see him go up against character after character, and philosphy after philosphy. and i THINK. its a disservice to try and divide that into secular and religious aspects.

new not emissary guy so clearly interprets what happened to him. all these things for a REASON. see he would have DIED. but they saved him. he was removed from time. so CLEARLY hes been moved to bring something from the past. but sisko knows enough, even if he doesnt WANT TO. to know that doesnt make a lot of sense.

And they go to the wormhole to decide. does reaching the celestial temple FIRST give him crendence as the Real Emissary. but. of course, the prophet/aliens Have No conception of FIRST.

Well okay but the aliens/prophets. literally saved this man from death. Does That have meaning? well, they have no greater reason for healing him than, that is what you do with an injured person. does there ever NEED to be a bigger reason?

In fact, they YOINKED him out of the past, FOR SISKO. in the 'future'. they did something in the 'past' AFTER the thing they did in the 'present'. They DO NOT. experience time linearly.

SO WHY FOR SISKO? Well sisko is the one that talked to the prophet/aliens. and explained to them how linear time works. but they also showed HIM. that he is NOT linear. part of him exists in a past moment of loss of grief. despite that he continues in the present. They proving. Allowing for sisko to prove to himself, that he IS the right person, the person they choose, and thats a good thing.

AND WHY AT ALL? something the alien/prophets WANT. is the protection of bajor. (genuinly dont have enough of the show in my head to go more into why lets just say thats what they want). But they are NOT. telling sisko what do to or how to do it. part of siskos ability to protect bajor is his role/position in starfleet. part of what will MAKE him protect bajor is his feelings towards it. he WANTS to protect them.

Sisko is good for Bajor, as an Emissary, as a Man, in a way the miracle blessed famous poet was not. And getting caught up in the Religion as some Other Thing in that is kinda like a trap i think.....

like. grah. okay. episode we see directly after. Sisko is putting his GOD DAMN ALL. into representing Worf in the trial for like. Literal War Crimes. The option to lose, to go along with the klingon lawyers i guess. plea deal. IS NOT THERE. THE WHOLE TIME. We watch him and he is just In This Thing. Seeing everyones testimonies. which are given in such a striking non digetic format. one that blurs, linearity. that really PUTS the idea of perspective and recall and memory, in front of mind. btw.

This works to both as to make it more interesting, visually and emotionally. AND show there are completely mundane situations where this level of conceptional complexity come into play. If existence is just, things that happen, people who exist, etc. But what happens and who people are, is so fraught by perception, and our understanding OF peoples perceptions. We are working from perceptions of the past, decision of the present, and predictions of the future. So How the FUCK do you determine the TRUTH. OF ANYTHING? EVER!

But Sisko wins THAT GD CASE. by breaking the very CONCEPT of what they were debating over in the first place. The opposition said they agreed with the facts as presented, but want to decide what was in Worf's heart. WELL. the facts as presented WERE VERY MUCH up for debate. It was never a real ship that was blown up, or crime that was commited. All the while what was IN WORFS HEART was REAL, while the ship, was not.

AND THEN. we see Sisko reprimand worf for his actions. This Whole Time we had no SIGN of that in sisko. But now that Worf has been protected from that trail. There remains that An Incedent happened. (Except of course. that it didnt, it was an illusion) and the behaviour still needs to be corrected. So Sisko guides Worf into understanding that behaviour, his mistakes. (Which he already partly knew). They can settle that matter. Sisko lays out to Worf the assurance of future sucess and future dilemmas. With certainy. One day when you are captain. Which will of course. Happen. When you have Even more people to protect, which of course, you will, and maybe when you might have to sacrifice, which of course, you would. There will still be time to create joy, which of course, you must.

LIKE? DO YOU UNDERSTAND ME HERE? There IS NO DIFFERENCE. Between the religious Figure parts of sisko and the secular Officer. He is the same man. And he is Exactly the Right man. He IS OF BAJOR because he Decides to be and He WILL BE. Because time is not linear. He accepts the alien/prophets and the prophet/aliens accept him cause he is as keen and as canny at talking to and unweaving the ideas at play, the perceptions had and philosphies held by them, as he is to any mudane scenario. Because non off them are mudane. Existence is a headache and the stakes are monumental. But there's No Other Option and he will put Everything he is to it.

WEH HEHEHE. non linear aliens like yes indeedy. we did something in the past because of something we did in the more recent past. your past. what you call the past. LIKE. YEAH. OKAY.

[incorrect-hs-quotes]

@ mod dave I'm not a dave kinnie but I'm jealous of you cuz you deadass just ARE your kin

thing is (and this has genuinely shocked people before) im not even actual kin i just projected so damn hard onto the bastard i decided to absorb him and now thats just how i exist in real time

i think thats called a synpath or a selfhood or some shit idk the specifics actually. summed up tho i dont point at dave and go “oh im gonna be him” i point at dave and go “oh hes gonna be me”

-mod dave