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Captain's confession
Sumarry: Levi doesnt know how to confess to you so he asks his trusted people: Erwin and Hanjie.
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"You what?" Erwin looks at Levi then at Hanjie, the confused look evident in their faces. "Can you repeat that?"
"How do I confess them?" Levi repeats through his gritted teeth, he felt emberassed to repeat it but he knows damn well it was the first time Erwin and Hanjie ever heard Levi asks that question.
Erwin puts his pen down, clasps his hands together on the desk, and asks, "Who's them?"
"Them."
Oh.
Everyone knows you are the captain's little assistance, you followed him around like a lost dog. You consistently deliver his tea at the same time on the same day, work with him on paperwork, and assist him with cleaning his office and quarters.
Levi starts to develop feelings for you throughout these periods.
Wait.
Or it already been there from the start?
The first time he saw you; love touched his heart at first sight and grew deeper and stronger until it consumed his thoughts every day.
The fact that a grown man in his mid-30s liked you made him feel embarrassed at first. It was the first time he had ever liked someone who made his stomach turn over and his heart ache even a little. As though God made you specifically for him, he didn't feel this strongly about anyone until you came around. He keeps it hidden inside of him with his typical stoic demeanour.
You are a bold adult, and it is not dishonourable to back down from any obstacles, no matter how small, that put his worries for your safety at bay. He watches you like a bounty hunter, and he hates it when you are irresponsible, let alone put yourself in danger.
He admires you, your skills, your face, the way you laugh with others, and how you get along. It's like he can't compete with that. He sometimes thinks hes not good for you; you are his captain, and you just a comrade.
Every time he thinks about it, it hurts his heart to realise that, despite your perfection, you are more ideal for someone else than for him. Hell, has he never indicated whether you genuinely like him?
He understands that you respect him as captain and that he does the same for you, but if he's being completely honest with himself, he would prefer to let you go if you have ideal someone than him. That way, it will be much simpler for him to move on.
Even it hurts so much.
"Why them?" Erwin asks, raising his bushy eyebrow, giving Levi a warm kind smile.
"Is shorty in love?" Hanjie teases, wiggling their eyebrows.
"Shut it, four-eyes! Who says I am in love? Is just a question!" Levi crosses his arms stubbornly, tapping his foot impatiently. "Why them? Well, is easy, them! Thats all."
"You're not giving us an exact reason why them," Erwin chuckles lightly, side-glancing at Hanjie, who's grinning plastered on their face. "Why them? In all people, Levi. They're just your comrade."
"Yeah! Why them? Care to give us a reason why?" Hanjie still wiggles their eyebrows. Levi wants to throw a chair at them if he wants if Erwin allows him.
"I am not explaining much why them!" Levi gritted his teeth again. "I just wanna know how do I confess to them? Explaining why them is a waste of time. I used my willpower to ask them if they're free from this evening and said yes, I am not losing chances."
Erwin and Hanjie exchange a knowing smile as they glance at each other. Erwin's eyes scan Levi's entire body, assessing his current state of stress and anticipation for the confession he will make to you this evening. He hums to himself, aware that his own closest friend is in love. It is an uncommon sight, to predict that this short, stoic man is in love and is seeking assistance in how to confess.
"We'll help," Erwin straightens himself. "First and foremost, you need to calm down, take a deep breath, and know whatever the upcoming they'll say is up to you to react."
"What if they say no?" Levi gripped his nails to his forearms; he hates the thought but is up to him to react. "What if they rejected me on the spot? How would that help me?"
"Go find someone new; it's easy as that," Hanjie chirms, placing their elbow at the armrest and their hand on their cheek. "Yknow, if you got rejected, then the only comfort way is to find someone new."
"Is not that easy, four eyes!" Levi grumbles as he furrowed his eyebrows. "I'd been weighing on my mind every day; thinking about them is like a fucking annoying fly that buzzes around at my ears. They're like a god at my eyes, and they're the purest human being that set on this planet."
He makes eye contact with the two, and he inhales deeply before exhaling through his mouth. His nail is sinking further into his forearms, and he's tapping his foot more impatiently now simply because he's so nervous. Only you are what he desires. He hates the thought and finds it much worse than he expected, and he has a hard time finding someone else if you reject him.
"I don't want someone new," Levi sighed calmly, "I want them."
That made Erwin and Hanjie look at each other again. Oh, he's really in love. Really, Erwin clears his throat as he inhales and looks at Levi with his calm, ocean blue eyes.
"If you confess, what would you say?" asks Erwin, which caused Hanjie to roar in laughter.
"Will you marry me?"
"Shorty, that's not how you say it!" Hanjie laughs harder, causing Levi to stand up and shake them violently to stop laughing, his face tinted with red and his eyes bulging out of his sockets.
Erwin attempts to contain his laughter, but Levi snaps his head at him. If Erwin isn't a commander, Levi might do the same to Hanjie. Even so, he returns to his chair, averting his gaze as he crosses his arms and taps his foot once more.
Hanjie adjusts their uniform, still grinning. "How about not that. If you're not up to tell your feelings, why not buy something for them at least?" Erwin suggested. "That way, they instantly know the gesture and that you can tell them you like them."
"How would I know what they want?" Levi huffs, "They're never told me the things they'd like."
"Flowers." Hanjie suggested, "If you can't tell what they like, then maybe start giving them gifts."
"Eugh. What if they are allergies to flowers?"
"Nonsense! There's an open flower shop down town; they give the best flowers. Trust me, they'll love what you bought!"
Levi thinks for a moment and nodded slowly, "I guess I'll buy it. Is worth the money to spent."
Erwin nodded in comprehension as Hanjie clapped their hands, and Levi got up from his chair and gave him the thumbs up. He modifies his carvant, restyles his hair, and pats his fictitious dust on his clothing. After closing his eyes and taking a long breath, he felt as though he was ready for anything.
"I am ready," He says checking the time. "I should be going."
Hanjie gave him a roar of support and Erwin do the same.
"And if anything happens, pull out method is your champion!" Hanjie exclaimed before Levi departed.
He gave them the finger.
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Levi never asks you whether you're free, so you were rather anxious. Your dying crush on your captain asked you that question for the first time, and you replied in the affirmative. Why did you say Yes? Why did you readily acquiesce and now pay the price?!
Oh my, Sina walls. What's got into you?!
You have been pacing around for minutes after he ordered you to meet up in his office. You have attempted to divert your attention by looking at anything in his office to calm yourself, but this isn't working. This isn't even functioning!
What is he going to do? Murder you? Asks you to clean the quarters from top to bottom? Clean horses? Kick Jean and Eren to stop them from fighting again? Do more paperwork? Ripped Erwin's bushy eyebrows at one point Levi told you he hates those?
You clutched your hair in exasperation, as though you wanted them to tear it out. The moment you saw him for the first time, you were infatuated. He is the most skilled soldier in humanity, a captain, an ackerman, a clean freak, and attractive. What else is there to desire in a man?
Oh lala, you are so in love!
On several occasions, you begged Mikasa for assistance in confessing Captain Levi Ackerman. Even though she's bored of you chatting about Levi for so long, she still wants to choke you with her red scarf.
She indeed helped yes and was very supportive calmly, but that one conversation still lingered in your mind that may or may not you despise her:
"If he has a short dick like his height, you choose the wrong man."
You picked the right one, man, hell! You always do; you know that. To boost your confidence even further, he is the ideal man you have been looking for! You choose him the first you lay eyes on that gorgeous face, and you're not backing down.
At last, you took a exhaled deeply, and let everything out. You must maintain your composure. When Levi arrives at this office, you follow his instructions as always.
Click.
Looking up to see Levi enters the office, your jaw drops to the floor. Your eyes bulge in shock at the scene unfold. What the fuck?
Levi has chocolate with a teddy bear and the largest bouquet of flowers. He handed you the flowers and set the chocolate and teddy bear on the desk, facing you. Holding on to them as your arms nearly give out from the weight.
"Wh-What I am gonna do with these flowers, sir? P-put them in your vase?" You stammered your words to your shock Levi shakes his head.
"Not put them in the vase, is for you." He says, crossing his arms as your eyes wide in shock. For you? This all for you?!
"Sorry, what?" You blink at him. Levi scoffs as he looks away, a red hue across his cheeks and his eyebrows furrowered. "For me?"
"Yes, for you." Levi begins, "I have to fight a rich guy from the flower shop, saying he doesn't care if I am a captain or humanity's strongest; he needs those flowers for his girlfriend."
You are stunned at your spot. Your blood reached to your cheeks, and you tried to let out some words, but it got stuck in your throat. Is this.. something you'd been dreaming about? Levi confessing to you? Or this is something else.
"You don't have to fight—"
Levi cuts you off with his hand. "He's rich fucker, and he can get what he wants. To me, that's well spent money. Do you not like it? I also bought chocolate and teddy for you."
You nodded at him and swallowed as you looked at the flowers. They are lovely, fresh from the roots, and their scent is delightful. They are also well maintained. This was completely unexpected; in fact, it's more akin to a startling turn of events!
"Why give it to me?" You asks, placing the boquet on the floor. "I don't... I.."
"You deserves it," Levi says pocketing his hands as he looks at his boots. This is is now or never, "Is because I like you."
You were absolutely shocked! You felt the time was frozen in place upon hearing what he just said. You have to make sure this is true, not some sick joke.
"I'm sorry repeat that?"
Levi gave a tch sound, his brows twitch as his face redden deeply. Oh Lord, are you deaf? It felt like torture to say it again, "I like you, brat. Have you not heard it the first time I'd said it?"
Silence fell. Your lack of response made Levi feel nauseous. He was mentally cursing himself from the inside out while you stood there in a state of dumbfoundedness. He shouldn't have spoken or done these things because he felt worse right now. Fortunately, he has a window in his office, so he can jump out of it and leave if things go badly or simply leave his office without speaking to you.
No, that would be rude.
Finally after a while, Levi's face washed up in relief and glint of happiness from his silver eyes: "I like you too."
You felt lighter and as though a load had been lifted when you uttered that. You were so joyful that you thought you were in heaven. You like him, and he likes you too.
"Since when?" You asks.
"Since the day I have my eyes on you."
Oh, you two were on the same boat.
"Same here."
Levi smiled warmly at you, and you thought you had won the lottery because it was the first time he had ever smiled, much less for you and you alone.
You were the luckiest person alive, and thank the walls you have crushed on Levi; if not, then this poor man will go to shambles. Who doesn't want to have a crush on Levi?
As Levi took your hand in his, he entwined his fingers and pressed his lips to your knuckles, sealing the two of you together.
"Then we can get marry after?" Levi looks at you with his warm, soften eyes.
Thank to the wall again!
You wheeze, kissing his knuckles as well. "It's too soon, Levi. Once the titan dissapeared from this world, then we'll get married."
And Levi never felt more happier from that.
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You can find them on ao3
Happy readings!!
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is this something i should've included in my 2024 wrapped? probably. but i'm still doing it to close off the year! (´◡`)
incredibly grateful to have gotten so much love in the past three months. i'm not able to respond to everything, but trust that i see every comment— whether in the replies, reblogs, or in my inbox.
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how lucky am i to get to say that this is a mere fraction of all the kindness i've been afforded. again: i see all the nice words directed my way, and it motivates me to stay on this godforsaken site (lol) for at least one more day. thank you, thank you, thank you.
if i can love well, it's because i've been loved well. please let me repay all your kindness in 2025 and for however much longer that i can (。•̀ᴗ-)✧ if you got this far: happy new year! i wish you clarity, courage, and compassion at every turn. xo
— kae
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I wish people could understand that Mel CAN be a manipulator and an empathetic person, one does not cancel out the other, and the fact you guys keep trying to say for others to, "understand the complexity of the character" but KEEP IGNORING IMPORTANT CHARACTER FACTS its frustrating.
Mel is a good manipulator bc she understand others, her empathy is used to work towards others feelings, and THAT'S why she can manipulate Jayce so well, because he is ALWAYS open with his feelings, he always feels the need of aproval, and Mel is always there to say what he wants to hear, and I swear if I see someone else saying "Jayce wanted to be manipulated" I will jump (Wth is WANTING to be manipulated??? manipulated is doing something for others want, not yours).
This is not only throwing away ALL of Jayce's arc and character through the window, but is ALSO throwing away all Mel's character, she IS A FCKIN GOOD MANIPULATOR THATS WHY SHE IS THE FOX AND NOT THE WOLF AND HER ARC IS ABOUT TURNING INTO BOTH NOT JUST BEING ONE
And that's why they couldn't work out, they were meant to help eachother grow in character, yes, but not to grow together (Not criticizing people who ship them). But thats why all their scenes together just doesn't feel right, Mel is always surprised when Jayce comes to her seeking confort, yes, she can care about him, she can love him, her manipulating him doesn't mean she can't love him (after all she is the daugher of Ambessa, she only knows this about love, she doesn't think its something so big), and at some point she could have loved him romantically, but deeply? I don't think she knew Jayce deeply enough to really love him that way. The same with him.
Mel used Jayce, Jayce used Mel (In ways he probably didn’t even know, he used her for confort, for being a safe haven for him, also, maybe thats why HE apologized in the end to her, I will probably analyze this scene better later), Mel used Jayce for all her purposes and thought it was doing good for him too, after all, who wouldn't want a chair at the council sit? With all the investments and privilegies. Mel did have good intentions all the time, but she doesn't come front with people to ask what they want, she assumes, she do, she never asks, she tries to never show weakness but she always will show compassion, in many ways she is like her mother.
Mel is a interesing character because she commits bad things with good intentions, not noticing she is also hurting others, she does to others what she would want for herself, but never actually asks herself if others would REALLY want that. In top of that, she IS classicist towards Viktor, the same way all characters of piltover are in one way or another, this is embedded in their heads internally and sometimes they don't even know, the way she ignores him and is just going towards Jayce's aproval to get aproved the hextech weapons, the way she looks at him with arrogance, she looks down on him.
The thing with Arcane characters, is that most of them have more than one facet, they wont fit perfectly into the "good" or "bad" person, and I really wish Mel's character to not be boiled down into just "did nothing wrong ever" or "Girl character that stayed bettwen my ship"
#mel medarda#mel arcane#mel and jayce#mel and ambessa#arcane lol#arcane league of legends#arcane#arcane s2#arcane season 2 spoilers#I really really like her character#LIKE#To have a black women interpreting a character who doesnt end up with a men#and to have this much agency in the story#To have a participating role so important as to be daugher of one of the main antagonists#To her arc to be THIS controversial#One of my favorites
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Im going to fight someone the next time i see a person say wrong information about how i got the flare. This is the 5th time today and i fucking hate it. So im going to explain it under the cut once again but on this blog instead of my own personal one (tw capslock because im extremely pissed off and cant do this anymore)
I WAS NOT BITTEN OR SCRATCHED OR INJECTED.
THE VIRUS WAS RELEASED AS AN AIRBORNE VIRUS AND IT INFECTED EVERYONE ON THE PLANET. IT WAS FOR POPULATION CONTROL TO KILL THE WEAKEST PEOPLE. SOME PEOPLE ARE MORE VULNERABLE TO THE VIRUS AND DIED. THEN IT MUTATED BECAUSE THE SUN WAS TOO HOT AND MORE PEOPLE DIED FROM THE VIRUS. AND THEN IT PROLONGUES PEOPLES LIVES COZ THEY DONT DIE IMMEDIATELY BUT IT EATS AWAY AT THEIR BRAIN AND MAKES THEM GO CRAZY. THEY ARE NOT ZOMBIES, THEY ARE STILL ALIVE, WE JUST LOOKED BAD BECAUSE WE WERE LITERALLY FIGHTING EACH OTHER TO STAY ALIVE. WE WOULD KILL EACH OTHER IN DEFENSE. HENCE THE INJURIES THAT MAKE PEOPLE THINK WE'RE ZOMBIES. WE ARE COMPLETELY DIFFERENT TO ZOMBIES.
I HAD THE FLARE THE WHOLE TIME. THERE WAS NO SPECIFIC POINT WHEN I CONTRACTED IT, OTHER THAN WHEN IT WAS ORIGINALLY RELEASED.
THE VIRUS WAS IN EVERYONES BRAIN. SOME WERE JUST IMMUNE AND HAD NO REACTION, BUT THEY STILL HAD IT. ALL EXCEPT TOMMY BECAUSE HIS BLOOD WAS THE CURE.
PLEASE STOP SPREADING MISINFORMATION ABOUT THE FLARE AND HOW IT WAS CREATED/SPREAD/DEVELOPS. JUST READ THE DAMN BOOKS PROPERLY BECAUSE THEY EXPLAIN EVERYTHING AND STOP ASSUMING YOU KNOW EVERYTHING WHEN YOUVE ONLY WATCHED THE FILMS BECAUSE ITS ALL WRONG.
#it actually hurts me when people spread false facts and rumours about my own damn life#and i know some people wont take this seriously because im a fictive#but its all in the books#even if you dont believe my own account of what happened#read the damn bloody books#thats all the facts about it you can ever get and ever need#i have memories of it all#so i know its true#but surely youd believe the author better than a fictive in a system#so just read the books please.... and stop hurting me#its not funny to keep seeing this constantly#and i cant keep explaining it because it really fucking upsets me
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gnc and butch women (cis AND trans) and transmascs are punished for performing masculinity past certain thresholds of arbitrary attractiveness because people that cishet society categorizes or clocks as 'women' are not supposed to perform masculinity. hope this helps 👍
#spitblaze says things#this is the last thing im ever gonna fuckin say on the topic. im purging this stupidity from my brain once and for all with this post#there is an intersection of transphobia and misogyny here and idc what you wanna call it but to deny its existence is weird to me#transfems' hypervisibility means they have a lot of recognition but its absolutely not a privilege#transmascs' invisibility means they can stealth and fly under the radar easier which is better but not by a lot#and the assertion that nb people have to 'pick a side' so we can decide how to treat them is fucking ludicrous#there are absolutely differences in our treatment and our needs but a lot of it boils down to the same shit.#we are women when they want to deny us agency. we are men when they want to deny us support. this is true for everyone under the umbrella#and it's MEASURABLY worse when you're not white#anyway. im kinda over leftist groups who spend all their effort arguing about theory instead of doing anything in practice#so the next person who claims butch lesbians have 'masc privilege' or that transmascs dont actually face any sort of unique oppression#is getting smacked with a heavily vandalized copy of abigail schrier's Irreparable Damage#like again idgaf what you call it. you can just call it 'transphobia and misogyny' if you want im not a cop#ive just seen too many people who claim that it doesnt exist at all and im done with letting this take up brainspace#so im hanging up this sign and leaving. goodbye#i saw us go through the exact same shit with bisexuals and asexuals and gay men and frankly im not thrilled that its at my doorstep again#we go through a lot of the same shit but different populations do in fact need different kinds of support. thats it
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sorry. im still pissed off about my english class today. can everyone shut the fuck up about the holocaust forever. please. holy shit.
#boycritter et al#STOP BRINGING IT UP WHEN YOU NEED AN EXAMPLE OF A BAD THING.#ITS NOT EVEN RELEVANT#fucking. talking about heroes/villains and how the pov of the narrator influences how you view the story.#bc everyone sees a situation differently. basic ass shit this is a college level english class but whatever.#'yeah like nazi germany thought they were in the right' YEAH WE ALL FUCKING KNOW. WE KNOW THEY THOUGHT THAT.#can we all stop rehashing basic fucking facts about the nazis and talk about something that is a) relevant to this class#b) not super upsetting to hear about constantly as a jewish person#idk im just. im TIRED of hearing about it and im tired of it being tossed around in casual conversation#and im tired of it being treated as some easy thing to point to when you need an example of something horrific#because a lot of people in my high school in indiana have not been impacted by it!!!#but i have!! it happened less than a century ago to my great grandparents and its fucked up that you seem to forget#thats even a possibility#idk. ive just also been really pissed off about everything ever#bc my period is soon and im stressed about finals and seeing family#and this feels like the one thing ive gotten pissed about that actually feels justified to get upset by
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the current state of the arg
sorry guys the art isnt arting D:
(btw if youre confused on why i drew turnip like that i was referencing the picrew he did ages ago bc idk it looked fun to draw anddd i dont like taking reference off real life images)
#i felt like just a lillll bit of a creep relistening to voice messages over and over to find a good quote but. yk what. it was worth it#i totally didnt take reference from the really cool face i used in that animation because im still really proud of it#idk if emi or TD have a sona but if they do im not aware of it and i didnt feel like asking so i just drew both of them as blank characters#im too stressed to scheme lol#maybe#just maybe#i need to stop drinking tea because the caffiene makes me anxious#...#naaaaahhhh#i dont really know what to do with myself atm because i dont want to work on the animation unless turnon is ok out of pure spite#this morning i was absolutely radiating stress#i have a friend who shows up so we can walk together to school and she could tell smth was off lol#i literally could not hide it at all even if i wanted too#i kept pulling my hat over my face thats the main way you can tell that im stressed#not that it really matters that you know that bc none of you are ever gonna witness that but. fun fact abt me ig#ugh#if turnon dies i am gonna cry so hard <333#and i wont finish the animation <333333333#(at this point just trying anything to get turnon back)#im gonna make a word doc#i make word docs when im stressed /hj#quick question turnip : is there a way to get turnon out of the situation he is in or is he just gonna die and theres nothing we can do#about it /gen#because i have a sneaky suspicion that we cant actually do anything about this#i swear to god#LETS LOOK ON THE BRIGHT SIDE!!#A DEFRAG MIGHT COME OUT TMR!!#its been 21 days and a defrag takes on average 20-25 days#ough#turnip and addon im gonna find where you live and i will burn your respective houses down
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sometimes its like my life is just one big call for help
#please worry about me. please worry about me please worry about me someone worry about me#fuck. fuck#why do i need to apolgize for being a person with thoughts and feelings and shortcomings#why does it feel like i owe the world an apology for being who i am#why does it feel like i need to make up for the fact that im me by giving everything i could ever give#like im sorry its me im giving you im sorry this is all i can give. im sorry that its too much or too little#im sorry its never exactly what is needed im sorry i cant be who even i want to be#i try i try so hard. but its not ever right i just cant. get it quite right#i dont know how to fix it anymore#i dont know how to fix me. i can see everything thats wrong but i dont know how to make it better. please help me make it better.#fuck#im exhausted#i dont know. i dont know i dont know i dont know#pretend you dont see this or maybe do . i dont know this is embarrassing. but this is my blog anyway so if you dont want to see-#-the most depressing shit ever like my Thoughts then maybe you should leave bc ill always be this pathetic its kind of my thing#ha#fudjdbdjdjdkehd#ok. bye
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reading my own oc lore and being gagged as if i didnt write it
#robin and aria you will rule the world forever and ever#me when theres a slow connection forming between ppl who cant stand each other and they have to come to terms w the fact that#they need each other desperately#not enemies to lovers bc theyre not lovers. they kiss sloppy style bc they want to break each others bones#its the adrenaline of fighting w someone#the inherent homoeroticism of pinning someone against a wall bc you hate them so much it makes you want to get closer to their#beating heart. so you can feel the fear and excitement manifest physically#also its an office romcom#and its also an expression of the despair the typical heterosexual lifestyle instills in me#marriage and children and a suburban home where no one cares about what happens to you#where youre just supposed to cook and clean and love him and do his laundry and watch tv and not have friends and babysit#thats total and utter misery to me#this one goes out to all the girlfriends and wives who are stated as such before theyre given personhood#women who are mothers and sisters and daughters and caretakers before theyre friends and workers and hobbyists#theyre loving and kind and sweet and quiet and friendly before theyre funny and weird and angry and righteous and cool#im sorry that the world puts us in these roles and i hope so desperately you get the relief of living a full life one day#that they dont open your funeral with how good of a mother and wife you were. how well you served the men in your life#anyways#sorry for dumping all that the state of the world just makes me feel things ig
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okay my take on this whole titanic sub thing is. was paying 250k to get into the death tube a stupid decision motivated entirely by wealth? probably! does that make it okay for us to be celebrating the likely horrific deaths of these people who did not do anything wrong? no! what the fuck is wrong with you!
#oceangate#you can't say you believe everyone deserves to live and then turn around and be glad people are dying just because they're rich.#i am all for eat the rich but gleefully celebrating the deaths of people who didnt even do anything is wrong. just flat out.#sorry but it's true. you CANNOT celebrate the deaths of innocent people and claim to be a good person. EVER.#even if the whole thing was incredibly questionable from the get go you STILL dont get to laugh thats HORRIBLE.#actually. you cant say everyone deserves to live and then turn around and be glad people are dying PERIOD.#i know this is a controversial opinion but it is NEVER okay to be happy someone is dying.#you can be happy that someone's direct influence has come to an end as a result of their death.#but it is never EVER okay to full stop be happy that someone has died.#''they deserved it!'' okay maybe so. still not okay.#and i feel like if you this is IS okay you really need to reexamine your morals.#and i AM blocking people who think this is funny or cool or ''karma'' or whatever.#''you guys say eat the rich until it happens'' THIS IS NOT RETRIBUTION FOR THEIR MORAL FAILINGS#THIS IS FUCKING AWFUL AND NOT AT ALL IN THE SPIRIT OF EAT THE RICH OKAY#also also the fact that this is being turned into discourse really says something about y'all's moral fiber i think.
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the corpse of king minos is very fucking big and Scary but you can parry his punches pretty easily and thats the easiest way i can explain how good ultrakill feels
#but even when the game is actually hard and kills me several times i dont feel like quitting?#i turn it off after 2 - 3 missions because thats the amount of time it takes for my body so get so Over Excited it stops aiming right#but i havent actually felt like ragequitti g#because the game just feels so good#i can ramble about how good ultrakill feels for HOURS bro#ramblings#switching between guns. the variants. coin tossing never gets old. accidentally exploding yourself with your own shotgun#fucking. SOUND EFFECTS#that too like when you parry. that sound?? makes my autism happy#THE SLIDING SOUND AOUGH#the fact that it does sound like ur made of metal but not in a bad screechy way that makes me want to cry#in a world where realistic movement physics are the norm having this much control. god#the witcher 3 is one of my favorite games ever. just as an example. but i DREAD playing that again knowing how walking around feels#yes sometimes in ultrakill you overshoot something because youre Fast but thats also just me needing to stand perfectly right for terminals#'look we have realistic physics' ok COOL BUT ARE THEY ACTUALLY FUN TO PLAY WITH#hyperrealism is impressive in videogaming YES but its also led to this monolith. in triple a#i do want to give credit where its due once i got used to the destiny warlock jumps (blink especially) that game felt really good too#but ultrakill doesnt force me to socialize and has a much more pleasant community so im fine where i am rn. actually#ive done all totk dungeons (I THINK) except for the final chasm and let me tell you. i dont want to fight any of those bosses ever again#why js that relevant? ive already beaten 1-4 twice and will probably go for my second 3-2 run tomorrow. THIS GAME. BOSSES. AAAAAAA#i love totk but those bosses were a fucking nightmare#thats gonna be a separate post
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Dawg I work in automating email-job-type-tasks and my coworkers - fellow elder millennials - were STUNNED at my solution to create a dynamic folder name. Not the method of making it dynamic, the part that stunned them was the "run cmd.exe: '/c mkdir [filepath]'" and at the point where I was going "yeah no its not wizardry its just like... a vestigial recreation of MSDOS..." I had to confront that frankly computer literacy has never been more in the toilet.
Telling young zoomers to "just switch to linux" is nuts some of these ipad kids have never even heard of a cmd.exe or BIOS you're throwing them to the wolves
#most of these guys know at least SQL and a little VBA we are so cooked as a society#call me the bane of corporate IT the way I once emailed a whole department a javascript file with no extension to get around the very#reasonable filter but like P&P required digital fraud to use a particular note format and doing it by hand was a nightmare while that#webserver was down and a bunch of people listened to IT and cleared their cache as the first step lmfao#terrible news about whats in your fucking cache man fucking hell lmfao#the fact that nobody but me even realized what we actually needed was IN that cache makes me sad tbh#because thats not a very complex thing to know really! helpdesk should have tbh#seconding the typing thing tho - I have severe auditory processing issues and I hate writing up a perfect question on teams only to get a#response of “uhhh can you join my zoom” and then I have to explain it all over again and take notes because it helps me repeat back what I#think I heard to them and its like dude all of this would be so much easier if you'd grown up on forums and learned to type/read faster tha#talking too ngl#I also get a lot of comments from folks once they see my desktop about like oh what games do you play my man I have a potato for a graphics#card! I have a gpu at all because of photoshop and blender this thing does not play much beyond AOE2?#but the idea of even having a desktop pc for regular non-gaming computer use is getting weird to even elder millennials#even when I explain I was a professional freelance artist for a while I get a lot of “but ipad?”#my brother in christ have you ever tried to use the ipad photoshop there's a reason even my tablet is a windows surface#you will pry my dubious copies of non-cc photoshop out of my cold dead hands before I touch procreate Im so sorry but I have a keyboard#shortcut for everything memorized since 2002 and that is the way that shit is going to stay for the sake of my sanity#but you explain that and it blows peoples minds because they maxed out their muscle memory for shortcuts at ctrl+(z/x/c/v/a/s)#if that! like that's among people who have been call center/backoffice folks tbh who mostly CAN type 65WPM and are already freaks for it
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...... If I went on a hiatus for who knows how long again would y'all hate me....... 👉👈
#i just spent like an hour writing and rewriting a post trying to explain myself amd its just so hard to put into words#im bored here but not in a ew not enough content for the dopamine hit shit#in like a every time i scroll through I dont smile I dont see anything that makes me happy at all i dont get a laugh or anything#its just mindless brain rotting scrolling nothing wasting my time hoping maybe ill see a new artist to follow or something#and every time its nothing#so much nothing taking up so much of my time and space in my life and i already dont have a lot of time to begin with#ive made some awesome friends here ive had lovers from here ive had people who are no longer on this earth from here who ill never forget#i dont think ive really enjoyed anything on here in 7 years#ive left before for a really long time i think like a year or more or something#and i wont be totally unreachable of people message me ill respond but im so sick of this stupid app taking up my life#and all i ever get out of it is getting mad or getting depressed over shit that really is t worth my mental state over#all i ever feel on here is that the world fuckin sucks and theres not even anything here to make hanging around worth it#im not new to this site making me suicidal for an abundance of reasons and im luckily in a spot where i wont actually hurt myself#its just ideation and intrusive thoughts but its a pattern i cant keep ignoring#also im old tumblr im old tumblr and i think i will always be old tumblr im just not catching on to new shit anymore#the fact im even saying anything about a hiatus should show how pld tumblr i am no one does this anymore lol#i just don't want to be here anymore i dont really want to be anywhere online anymore tbh#its always something and i cant mentally keep up with it anymore i have too much going on in my life#my wife is having cancer removed on Tuesday im a lead teacher who has to take care of i think 8 babies now#i have problems i have actual problems that need me and need me to be as there as i can be#i cant be spiraling over stuff online on top of real world problems im in no position to do anything about on top of personal life problems#that are drastically affecting my life at home and hurting my family and loved ones#i have a mass in my thyroid which is so big i choke to the point i stop breathing if I dont have my meds i throw up all day#i have to see a neurologist because at best i have a pinched nerve at worst im having seizures and i might have to move states again#i dont have it in me to come on here and see stuff that makes me upset for the chance i might see something i like#and i can unfollow people and whatever but I dont have the energy or time to sift through people i follow on here#if you want to talk in dms or asks or you want to send me posts pls by all means continue to do so thats fine#but i think i need to take the app out of my line of sight again for a bit and just be in the moment again same with twitter#anyways i love yall i promise i am safe and not in harms way im just stressed af and i have got to start cutting things out that#arent doing anything other then making me miserable
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this got away from me
#i wish i was a rich pretty guy or something but instead im a regular looking regular guy with parents that earn regular money#i was born to be one of those annoying bratty rich kids who dont work ever. that should be me#or something. i complain about work constantly but guys i do not want to go to school. i dont. i dont. i dont i dont. i dont i dont and i#dont know what to do about it. its spring. ive got like a month to figure out how im getting out of this#im not doing this i cannot do this. i cant i cant i cant. im so stressed i can tell im so stressed bc im getting acne and my eczema is awfu#its only a matter of time before i break out in hives or some shit i cant do it i cant do it. i cant. i cant#god everything is really getting to me. i cant i dont have a place here i dont i have no purpose in life and everyone just wants me to act#like. thats not true bc um. well! haha what are you gonna do! haha its fine. keep moving forward. ignore your anxiety and the fact that#everything makes you miserable constantly. and even the things that make you happy make you miserable. ignore that#go to college. normal ppl go to college :) no you want to sleep all day because youre not doing anything. which is a personal failure.#you should instead do something that makes you miserable. thatll fix it. dont kill yourself thats stupid. you have so much to live for! lik#um. well youre supposed to live. so. ignore yknow everything in the world and push forward. bc it will get better! once um.#um. yknow. you graduate in 8 years? be a dentist…. um bc. you like teeth. and it makes money. and well you need the money! youre going to#college!!!! you need that money to pay for it after all. dont think about it dont think about it dont think about it dont think about it#its okay we’ll do everything we can to make it cheaper. to do the thing you dont want to do at all even a little bit. no dont kill yourself#you have so much to live for! a career in something youve never been interested in! or yknow a different career youre not interested in#i dont want to kill myself!!! i dont want to kill myself i want something to fucking live for!!!!!! a want a life that doesnt make me feel#like i have to kill myself!!!!!!!!!!#simons spouting#vent :(#suicide //
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huh
#ive been like. stressing out that im terrible about fact checking cause i feel like i never do it. but. i do. like all the time i get#curious about stuff and learn more about it‚ i physically cant not‚ thats how i experience things#but i guess because it was yknow . natural curiosity and not 'i am checking this information for factualness' i never#considered it to be in the same box#and like i do the other one a lot too i literally mentioned just the other day how much i enjoy helping my roommate factcheck stuff i just#didnt use that specific word like hello??????#who needs therapy when your neuroses can just fucking. decide to untangle themselves out of nowhere i guess??#and like yeah i miss stuff or fall for stuff or misunderstand stuff sometimes but so does. everyone? and afaik i always fix it?#and my brain just. decided i never do ever so all that exists are those times.#fuckin. brains are weird#now that i think about it though those thoughts did feel a bit different? idk how to explain it right‚ like i could feel it was conflicting#with other stuff i could think at the same time but i just didnt notice it? like when u notice a splinter first something just#sort of Feels Off before you figure out where it is#or like its a reeeeeally really fine one and it brushes up against something and ur like. i didnt feel that but my cells did and#im an empath so i felt the disturbance in the air#like that#ignore me lol im low on blood today
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My reaction to this comic. I literally waited ALL day to come home from work to take this picture because this was just too real and raw for me not to be real myself to show how much it shook me
so face reveal sorta?
I can’t tell you how much closure I’ve received watching this 😪🙏🏼🫶🏼🧡
✨Note to self: Isolation is not the answer✨
This ended up way longer than I originally anticipated but I have no regrets, I also got carried away in one too many shots and regret none of it
Enjoy!
part1 | part2 | part3 | part 4 context: 1 / 2/ 3 / 4
After calming down the two of them just sit down and talk about it, Oneion explains everything more calmly, all the messures his brothers have taken to prevent him going into Survival Mode along with the ways they've find out to snap him out or fully stop him
(From then on Sprout has a high voltage taser intalled on his prostethic, just in case)
This is pretty much it on my part for the whole OneOne-Toast fight aftermath situation! Ell did a thing with One and Poptart too!
I also have some more Sprout and Oneion doodles, they are not connected to this event but I might post them over the weekend
#*cracks knuckles*#time to get feral in the tags again because I have something’s to SAY#first things first#*clears throat* words will never be adequate enough to accept my true feelings in this matter so please accept my humble keyboard smash#heycbelxheudkchwuegfkcisvwmwifufiepbsgxnsvdhsjfhrvwidmchdushevwosichnrbsufndg#But on a more serious note#this was such a good and hard video to watch#for school I’m studying human development and relationships and one big thing we talk about is the power of attachment styles#You know you can actually tell which people have which attachment styles through the type of humor they use fun fact.#But that’s besides the point. The point is Oneion is showing strong symptoms of Avoidant Attachment Style#he says he’s trying to protect Sprout and Poptart which I 100% believe he is but he’s also trying to protect himself from hurt + heartbreak#Motto of the Avoidant Attatchment Style: I’ll hurt you first before you hurt me#Poptart over here leading out the charge and calling out Oneion for his unhealthy isolation is literally everything to me EVERYTHING#BECAUSE THATS HOW YOU SECURE RELATIONSHIPS: THROUGH CONNECTION#Doesn’t matter who you are#nobody is ever meant to do it all by ourselves. We are PEOPLE AKA multiple for a reason. We need each other#As someone who is been in recovery from unhealthy attachment styles for something + years this comic was very cathartic for me#because Poptart and Oneion conversation is LITERALLY two of my brain cells at war with each every. single. day. It’s…exhausting#So it meant the world to me to see closure like this because it kind of gave me hope for myself that hey maybe I can figure it out too#hope it’s ok that like I got emotionally attached to y’all’s characters.#But like…I can’t tell y’all how much I have healed being apart of the turtle family because y’all have taught me so much + I 🧡 U 4 it#just being jayus#serendipity247#slau crossover#2al#the besties#separated leo au#pretty random turtle thunks#doing this ugly and scared
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