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hmm so originally demon neil was gonna be a longfic, but then i decided it would be a series with a bunch of smaller fics making up the story
BUT i just realized if i do that i have to come up with 5 bazillion goddamn fic titles >:( evil world
#also! i still don't know what demonneil andrew's job is gonna be.#of the options i like i know the most about librarian-ing. so. leaning that way but i don't think it's the funnest way to go#i mean it's appealing bc a library is a quiet place and it would be great to have andrew suddenly snapping at his demon to shut up!#in the Quiet Place#but... i could always just have him go to the library for that if i wanted.#mm i have ideas for how neil could be annoying if andrew were a tattoo artist or a bakery assistant as well.#so we shall see...#chapter 3/ part 3 of the series should be andrew learning to go to work with a demon in his brain... i believe#that's how it's outlined anyway#fuck if i know how's it's actually gonna go down#also! i have arson neil plotted/outlined for the next bit >:3 and i'm sooooooo hyped#but the curse is upon me and the brain fog is Thick so i can't actually write the Real Thing >:(#ANNOyING#andddd i also have some vampdrew plotted but i'm missing the little piece that comes between what's posted and what i have Planned >:(#and angel neil is... well i have him outlined (have for a Long Time)#like since that night my computer crashed and i thought i lost the angel neil file 4ever (if yall remember that. it was a long while ago an#but so scary TWT)#uhhhh the mer au is really the only one that's just dangling...#like i know what's gonna happen but i've made no plan for it#so hmm...#i'm not well in the head today but anywayyyyyyyyy#diaerie
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I don’t think Twig grows up to be as big of a deerfox as his parents because it would honestly be pretty inconvenient. One thing about Twig is he CANNOT be too big to sleep in Hilda’s bed, I simply will not allow it.
#I have many thoughts about how deerfoxes age but I’ll save them for another post#bc I don’t know how to condense it down lmao#anyways this is my take on adult twig and Hilda :)#tbh hilda isn’t like…final? but I’m not really worried about having a final for her adult design#this is the general vibe!#I’ll make a post at some point outlining what I think her future looks like…#hilda#hilda the series#netflix hilda#hilda netflix#art#my art#digital art#fanart#doodle#drawing#Hilda (Hilda)#Hilda character#Hilda (character)#twig hilda#Hilda twig#deerfox#deerfoxes
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bayek, doing some exploring :)
#assassin's creed#assassin's creed origins#bayek of siwa#SHRHSERHGHGHHhhhGHHGHH#manifesting a 2025 where i can achieve some kind of financial stability that lets me periodically justify taking a weekend off#to just draw some stuff and not feel some kind of awful chest crushing anxiety doom spiral about time wasted#anyway ive been chipping away at this one bc it took a million years to figure out how to achieve the sense of scale#i was imagining. also i read a book about akhenaten and it made my brain feel like it was turned to mush BUT it was extremely#interesting and now im deeply invested in a handful of egyptian dynasties#and somewhere in all of that i outlined two ac origins fan comics. after Acquiring Information on things#@ 2025 please PLEASE. give me a weekend where i can spend it all doing bayek fan comics#also i wish to acquire a new spine. i think. i slept on a much softer pillow than im used to and my entire body has been fucked for a week#like. my neck feels like a jenga tower where everything is out of place. and somehow. my hip feels TERRIBLE#i want to give my body some kind of deus ex upgrade. ehghhh
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tw mickey in a dress🙈🙈


sorry they're kinda blurry but you get the point okay the dress was very sex and i looked very prettyy:33333
#dress so tight you can see the outline of my uh#cat#?#anyway#THIS DRESS IS SSOOOOOSO PRETTYY#AAAAAAAAAAAAAAA#pls i need toji n kuna to be my guard dogs bc i REFUSE to go out in this on my own😐#i am scared .#ANYWAYYY#i really like dressing up at home every so often hehehee i think it's so fun!!!#AND LOOK AT THE HAIR#DIDN'T IT LOOK LIKE HOW THEY WORE IT IN THE 70'S OR SMTH#BLOWOUTS OR WHATEVER THEY'RE CALLED I'M SORRY I DON'T KNOW HAIR AT ALL BUT YEAH#IDK I LIKED IT OKAY#MEOW#mickey's magazine#the pipe bothers me so much don't look at it pls..
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It's nice to have salvaged "Mirrorsight" cover art. By which I mean I re-scanned it after giving the original a much needed facelift.
It's definitely one of my favorites from the series.
#illustration#crosshatching#graphite#horse#equine#cover art#fantasy art#pegasus#black and white#traditional art#this one made me so sad when I first found it again#i know that makes it not the original anymore but I would rather be happy with an updated piece#it's mild differences in cleaning up the hatching and adjusting tone/outline#it just makes for a better final product#“you can't make a living drawing horses”#“okay”#funny how things work out#anyway I should have prints available of all cover illustrations by the end of the month#so if that's your thing watch this space
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experimentation is forever and ever and emmet is guinea pig
#still working with colors. I need to eat a ball of light#MAGMA SAVE ME. SAVE ME PERSONAL MAGMA CANVAS#I find magma a lot less stressful to try stuff on tbh. it's probbaly because of how their brushes feel#I TECHNICALLY can somewhat emulate it in my main drawing program. but magma just has such a nice feel#anyways. shrug. I like emmet a loADUGHSADO TAGS CANCELLED I HGAVE THE HICCUPS. GOD HATES ME#GOD WANTS ME DEAD. THIS IS TRHE WORST. WHAT THE FUCK. WHAT HTE FUCK MAN. STOP HICCUPING. STOPPPP#AOOAUAUUUAGUUAUHHUHUHAUUGUAHHUAUHHHGHHUHUGUUHAG#glances around. are you okay now. did you stop hiccuping.#OKAY I THINK WE"RE GOOD. thank god#spenxer lou art#submas#pokemon submas#submas emmet#subway boss emmet#subway master emmet#subway bosses#btw the main stuff I've been working now is color gradients and saturation in shading / the affect colored outlines have. shrug#basically I stared at bluebellowls art too long and got mad enough to give myself a stomach ache <- can't make this shit up#uhmm. rubs brain. ???? I don't know what else to say. I've been improving sooooooo much but my hunger is insatiable. me want more
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You're still standing off to the side. Somehow, center stage has shifted from under your feet without you realizing, and you're standing in the wings, performing to no one.
Starring Role (Patreon)
#My art#ISaT#ISaT Spoilers#Siffrin#Loop#Technically - you know how it goes#Me when I relate to Siffrin: Oh no haha that's probably not great whoops haha#Me when I relate to Loop: Oh. Oh No.#Lenti has such a deathgrip on my ISaT opinions wtf how is she so powerful I thought my fave was Sif?? But I mean well-#Lol#Does this count as vent idk lol#It was fun to write tho :) Very easy! Done all at once!#As was drawing this! Also done all at once! And black and white is still really fun to work with hehe#I got to use some pretty cool outline/lineart tricks for this one yay :D#The original draft of the fic had a different title but ''Starring Role'' is kinda?? too perfect???#To the point where I looked around and I was like#Kinda shocked that there doesn't Seem? to be another fic with the same title?#Which is.........oddly relevantly thematic to this fic actually hahaha#Not to get too exacting about it but the whole thing of Loop feeling replaceable well#It would imply that other someones could do what they do better than them#What an odd refutation. Huh. Weird#Anyway - behind the scenes fun fact!#I actually really love the song Starring Role but I didn't think of it until after writing this#And now that I sing it to myself it's actually kinda perfect what the heck#So that's something to think about as well#Anyway if you're going to listen to it pls listen to the Axiom remix it is The version in my heart <3#The glitches and stutters are perfect.....#And the clock ticking?? Why is this song so ISaT I'm gonna think about this for a while now heck#Animatic in my head shower thought -core lol
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@couch-house hi i really liked your fic and its corresponding art and spent the past several hours drawing them serving cunt. theyre everything to me.
#nyans notepad#shadow the hedgehog#rouge the bat#transfem shadow#shadow the ultimate lifeform#rouge the bat fanart#i really like them. i had to draw them. i needed to see them from my hand. i needed to render their fucking outfits#i was GONNA include rouges shawl but i decided agianst it bc. visual clutter#her white fur serves that purpose anyway < will die on the hill that rouges torso should be thick white fur#had. SO MUCH FUN sketching this. i did like 3 different sketching segments. and then i did my old favorite Thick Outline.#i liked figuring out how their negative space and extremities fit around each other i liked seeing how the—#—outfits changed with my style and designs i liked rendering all the little jewels#i LOVED giving them the matching cunty leg. i love them!! theyre the besties ever!!#I LOVED DRAWING THIS THANK YOU FOR THE INSPIRATION THANK YOU FOR THE FIC THANK YOU FOR THE ART IT WAS WONDERFUL#i hope u like shadows shoes i gave him wingtips and gave his suit trim to match them#it was. so gratifying. seeing this come together. my god.
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Just having a relaxing swing by the flower fields
#oh flower crown pearl#one of these days i will draw postman pearl#but today is not the day#also i dont know how tf i did the background with all the flowers#i zoned out and all of a sudden i drew flower fields#i saw a swing pose reference on pinterest and couldn’t help myself#tried going back to my outline style#i missed it :(#anyways#pearlooo#pearlescentmoon#pearlescentmoon fanart#solarpunk pearl#pearlecentmoon#pearlecentmoon fanart#hermitcraft season 10#hermitcraft#hermitblr#flowers#bre4yd art
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Someone in the house hates cats...
#i love mononoke so much but in a way that makes it really hard to draw for it without putting in a lot of thought#and as u can see the result isnt perfect. its just that i dont find thr medicine seller very interesting. hes just a vessel thru which to#watch interesting stories play out and i love mononoke especially bc it seems to be centered around the pain of women but not in a direct#way. in a way that outlines it and only makes it more painful. if u look at the 2007 series and the ayakashi samurai tales episodes. all the#stories are about horrible things happening to women and none of those women becomes mononoke except maybe the bakeneko redo#and in that story its a more modern day women who is very forward thinking and is probably more allowed to feel her pain. for the rest of#them the mononoke manifest from the environment where their pain existed. oh i forgot the other women that became a mononoke in the 2007#movies doesnt become a vengeful spirit to harm other people. her pain is turned inward and she imprisons herself. but anyway. that's just#how i see it. i dont kno how much the 2024 movie fits this idea but i mean it was made almost 20yrs later and we only have half the story rn#so well see. Anyway i fucking love mononoke so much#mononoke 2007#ayakashi samurai horror tales#bakeneko#tw blood#tw animal death
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As William drives out of state to seek help from the guilt that's been eating him up, meanwhile Michael struggles with going to school without a friend by his side.
Hidden Hands Chapter 5 is out! AO3 Fic Link Here Previous Chapter Beginning Chapter
Hey, I would appreciate it if you reblog this post! I try my hardest for this AU fic, so reblogging it and being able to share it goes a long way!
#im so sorry that this chapter took SO long alongside the wordcounts. i do not know how i did it#SHOUTOUT TO MY BETA READER FOR GOING THROUGH IT IM SO SORRY MAN#anyway this is a william and michael centric chapter :]#i will not trust these two with my story outlines ever again /j#hidden hands au#fnaf au#fnaf fic#william afton#fnaf william afton#fnaf purple guy#five nights at freddys fic#five nights at freddys#fnaf#five nights at freddys fanart#fnaf fanart#my art
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Jason was headed to the Big House when he caught sight of Nico leading a trio of terrified-looking twelve-year-olds to where Mrs O’Leary lay napping in the strawberry fields. It had been Nico’s idea to introduce some of the younger campers to monsters in what passed as a safe environment. He’d argued that Mrs O’Leary could be a great tool for teaching, and for making the kids less likely to panic when they first met monsters in the wild.
Nico looked more and more relaxed as the group got closer to Mrs O’Leary. She lifted her head to give a sniff, and Nico went straight to her and leaned on her sun-warmed flank. Jason always liked watching Nico interact with her. He looked so much more at ease around the hellhound than he did around most campers.
“Spending a lot of time with him recently, huh?
Jason did not jump. It took effort. Leo had materialized on his left, and he was looking at Jason as if he expected a response.
“Yeah,” Jason said once his heartbeat had returned to normal. “Nico’s really cool, once he gets comfortable around you.”
“Hm.” Leo squinted into the fall sunshine to where an Ares kids had tentatively held her hand up for Mrs O’Leary to smell. It was going well until Mrs O’Leary sneezed, and the kid flinched hard enough to fall on her butt.
Jason could almost hear Nico’s laughter from here, if he focused hard enough. He felt himself smiling in response.
“Should I be, like, nervous?”
Blinking, Jason turned back to Leo. “What?”
“Di Angelo isn’t trying to replace me or anything, right?”
Jason snorted. “Of course not.”
“You sure? He looks like a man who’s gunning for the Jason Grace Best Friend title belt,” Leo joked. Jason rolled his eyes at him. Nico looked like a boy who needed to lean on his SUV-sized dog to stay upright when he laughed.
“Aw, come on. You know it’s not the same.”
“How?!” Leo’s tone was light, so he was probably teasing, but Jason still had a hard time differentiating sometimes. Leo was good at hiding his real hurt behind jokes, but he also told a lot of jokes with no substance to them. Whatever raised a reaction. Jason wasn’t sure how serious he should treat this line of questioning.
“I don’t know, it just isn’t. We mess around a lot, right? I’m usually nicer to Nico—”
“So what I’m hearing is it’s different because you treat him better! I’m too late!” Leo cried out, finally pulling free a wire from the walkie talkie he’d been messing with. He flashed a grin at Jason, showing off the disemboweled gadget.
Teasing, then. Jason felt himself relax.
“You wouldn’t want me to be nicer and you know it. Besides, we both know you can take it.”
“And Nico can’t?” Leo was already turning his attention back to the walkie talkie.
“It’s not that, it’s more like…” In the field, Nico reached out his hand to the kid who’d stayed in the back of the group up until now. Even from this far away, the kid looked scared. Nico supported them as they walked up to Mrs O’Leary, though. He held their hand through something that had obviously scared them. It was such a Nico gesture, Jason couldn’t help but smiling.
“He could take it, sure, but he shouldn’t have to. He deserves to be treated gently.”
There was silence for a while, and Jason only really became aware of it when Leo slowly leaned forward into his field of vision. His eyebrows had made a migration toward his hairline, and they didn’t look like they were dropping anytime soon. Jason thought back over what he’d said and blushed. When had he started looking at Nico again, anyway? He turned away from the strawberry field to look at Leo full on.
“Dude,” Leo said.
“Shut up.”
“I was joking before, but like, now I’m not sure. Do I legit have to be worried you like him better?”
“I don’t like him better, I just like him different. It’s totally normal.”
It was true, too. Even more than he’d even realized when he said it. Friendship with Nico didn’t feel like any other friendship he’d ever had. It was… quiet. Intense. It felt charged, but relaxing at the same time. It was contradictory and almost addicting, Jason couldn’t really describe it. He caught himself before his eyes drifted back to the strawberry fields and made himself focus on Leo, who looked dubious to the point of being borderline offensive.
“Different, or—”
“Different,” Jason insisted. “Just like I like you and Piper different. Not better or worse, just… Different.”
Come to think about it, though…
“Sure fuckin' hope you like me and Piper different,” Leo grumbled. “You’re my bro, but I don’t want you pulling your Loverboy moves on me. I mean…” Leo kept going, but Jason was too busy spiraling to pay attention.
He’d said he liked Leo and Piper different, but did he? The way he felt about Leo was a lot closer to the way he felt about Piper than it was to what he felt for Nico, if he stopped to think about. Remarkably similar, really. His palms started to sweat.
Oh gods, he thought. Do I have a crush on Leo?
#jasico#jason grace#nico di angelo#heroes of olympus#hoo#my writing#mj talks#this was titled 'the Jason Grace Is Studpid drabble' in my work notebook#i wrote it while my computer loaded between assignments at work#thank god for slow technology#i also did a fun little half outline for a different jasico fic but like#we all know how consistent i am at writing them#this one has potential! we'll see how long this wave of jasico interest lasts#anyway. y'all remember jasico? i remember jasico. i have been remembering jasico.#my boy#i almost forgot my own jason tag......... im so sorry baby boy
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Another one of the paintings I did this week, was playing around with lighting and felt like painting Zuko, so I did. :D (oh yeah - and a close up if you're interested - you can see the sketch lines if you squint, but I reckon that's part of the charm~ *smiles innocently)

#this was actually the first one i did#watched a tutorial on how to not overwork watercolours recently#and wanted to test out the theory#this is take one#the other paintings i did got better as they went on#(like. i like this one its just a lil blotchy yknow?)#:D#zuko#atla#avatar the last airbender#zuko fanart#love drawing this angsty dude#mixing all the different reds is a lil hard tho#since i left most of my paint stuff at home#and like. i was away for most of this week#with my mini 12 colour paint set#(bit bigger than one of my hands)#cause it was easier to pack#anyway#reckon i figured some stuff out#really like this kind of 'sketch - paint over sketch - outline with fine liners' thing im doin atm#watercolours are cool#havent really tried other types of paint but yeah.#i like them a lot#:D:D:D
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oc time again! + her town & culture (heavily inspired by pre-roman italic populations)
she is suri sauthon. her story is linked to my swtor imperial agent, tar'x, but most of her life except for the one year away where she meets him, is spent in a town in the mountains of mirial.
despite mirial being cold and desert, and many cities developing underground, her town flourishes thanks to a force nexus, venerated in the form of an ancient, sacred, alive crystal. the ecosystem of that mountain depended on what "the horned crystal" was capable of giving them, but mirialans couldn't live off of that alone, so they developed trade and some rudimental technology, even if oftentimes it was bought thanks to the highly profitable trade of a plant used to make medicines that slowed down aging and had overall healing properties.
note: everything that's generated by this nexus has these healing properties BUT they have to be processed, except for those who bathed in the waters of the cavity under the crystal - the "real" nexus, but not the worshipped one. the waters were sacred but they were not thought to be miraculous, unlike the crystal, who instead was thought of as the keystone of the ecosystem: without it, everything would fall apart (and that is partially true: the cavity was the "real" nexus but thanks to the crystal, also strong in the force, the properties were spread all over the mountains). those who bathed in the cavity's waters - so, all of the town, who had a sort of baptism there - could eat the plant, make whatever food with it, and not only that plant, but everything generated by the nexus, that, again, had similar properties. this allowed people to live up to normal life-spans without advanced medicines or, much, really. to those who didn't live there, though, after the processing, had incredible effects, slowing down aging - for those who took it regularly - and making people able to live up to half a century more than the average]
originally, there were four tribes of nomads that lived thanks to horned farm animals that decided to settle down into one bigger town and other smaller settlements, to live off of transhumance. this division of the tribes stayed into the political and social organization: every person belonged to one tribe specifically, and had slightly different rituals and culture. for examples, each tribe had their own priests and healers, with different techniques and traditions. the town, tho, was guided by a group of people in the high priesthood, a position you could reach only by having earned the trust of all tribes. those high priests had many roles: they guided the people into sacred processions common to all the tribes, they managed the trading with outsiders, they did the maintenance of the temple of the summit (the one that functioned as casket to the crystal) and created a special liquid to offer the crystal that helps it grow.

this particular temple was important because 1. it was very visible, from every angle of the town, and it became an important identity symbol; 2. it stored the venerated horned crystal; 3. it had the altar where sacrifices were made for the crystals. that altar had a hole connected to the cavity, that allowed the liquids to reach the underground; 4. it had various symbols: statues representing each tribe + the high priesthood, and typical mirialan tattoos carved into the wood of the trees that served as columns for the temple, symbolizing 8 values that who dared to enter HAD to have; 5. it was on the way to an important lake (called "mother lake" because the lake the town was built around to depended on the waters of that other lake) where they traveled to in important processions; 6. it was said that a the wizard who unified the tribes made it with its magic, making the plant grow to hold the temple's roof. this wizard was, actually, a force user, obv.
BACK TO HER THOUGH: she's daughter of one of the high priests, who was in charge of managing the trades with outsiders, and lives in a house on the mountains with her mother and him. her parents are from different tribes (that's one of the things that earned him trust from the 4 tribes): when a child is born from two different tribes, they don't pick one to allign to, but they're usually linked automatically to the one with more relatives in it (in her case, the father's tribe: she had many uncles and aunts on his side while her mom only had one sister).
later, though, she got quite tied to her mother's tribe due to a mysterious illness that only her mother's tribe healer was able to cure. she spent 4 years (from 10 to 14 years old) living with the healer and learned her secrets. to better study, she wrote them down. when she returned home, she studied to become a priestess with her father. at 22 (the average age: you can't become priest before your 20s), she was supposed to take a test and become a priestess, but the healer of her mother's tribe died and the tribe asked her to take her place. she couldn't technically do that, but both tribes estimated both her and her parents and she was allowed to become both. she then decided to try to become a high priestess, and became one at 25 (a quite young age). being part of the council, she tried to convince the various tribe healers to unite their knowledges and write them down, and eventually made it. healers still remained tribe based but they now had an "upper, inter-tribe level" similar to high priesthood.
years later, the sacred horned crystal is stolen from the temple by some Hutt mercenaries looking for a profit. given the trust she has earned from all the tribes and the fact that her father is the high priest that deals with outsiders (and she's been hearing stories and advice about it since she was little), she is the one tasked with getting it back. without the growing crystal, the keystone to their ecosystem, the village would have lasted only a few years. in hrr quest, she meets imperial intelligence agent tar'x laran and, as they "solve the mystery" and fight to have it back, they get closer. they'll get married and have a daughter, Vegoia (who's the only one who actually will get to the plot of my story. this was all background)
#i overdeveloped this part of the background. IT'S QUITE LITERALLY USELESS. like. Vegoia will have so few memories of it (she'll become jedi)#i will make a post about her too when I'll finish designing her and outlining her story BUT that may be difficult cuz the frame for the mai#story is quite difficult to match with how developed the other stories are getting and i have to figure it Much Stuff yet#so I'm using these post to like. fix a certain part lf the lore because even my own notes are getting older and messy. better to start over#ANYWAY for those curious & who are still reading (if u exist. WTF THANK U!!); my main story is actually a research file in the jedi archive#BASICALLY i was trying to write my own story for years but then i watched a video (tcw doesn't hold up by sheev talks i think) and i finall#understood how to frame all of these stories together in a way that i feel can add to the star wars lore (because. the others were just#like. okay but who cares unless me? and i did want to have a cool frame that maybe some nerd would be interested in looking into)#so: when ahsoka anakin and obi return from mortis; they tell the council about it (yoda knows about it in s6). sheev talks complained that#it was incredibly full of stuff that was done so poorly it could ruin a big part of the original sw story itself and it was never brought u#again. and honestly i agree. SO my story is about a jedi that is tasked with research on the celestials & by having him figure out stuff i#can minimize/limit/reframe some of the controversial things in there (i love mortis arc so bad but i also agree with his critic. I'll Fix™)#so. many stories will be about people who have previously seen the celestials or have been to mortis one way or another (pre-tcw obv) & hav#had experience & knowledge that the researcher is looking for. so i get to have an anthology with many stories#and have a cool frame I'm intrested in developing + i can experiment with different storytelling styles depending on how he finds out stuff#+ there was another sw story with a similar frame i think? so if i decide to write the story as if it was the file itself and not the searc#i can have even a REFERENCE of what a file like that is supposed to be. LIKE. IT ALL FITS!!!#sw#star wars#swtor#the old republic#star wars oc#imperial agent#star wars fanart#mirialan oc#mirialan#star wars story#star wars the old republic#oc: suri sauthon
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another character from die as lovers may, my funney vampire story... had this design bouncing around in my brain for years honestly
[image description: a reference image for an original character named dr. pranali guin, a fat, older dark-skinned woman that has black hair with a white streak pulled into an updo. she is wearing a tight white dress with a cropped black jacket and an orange ribbon around her neck. next to her are blurbs stating that she is 55, that her pronouns are she/her, that she is an aroace woman, and the following: "acclaimed sexologist who is rather humorless. incredibly suspicious of rowan, but isn't quite sure why. not as stern as she looks. has really bad eyesight, but refuses to wear glasses out of spite. loves melodramatic soap operas and keeps a journal detailing every plot point in them. probably autistic." end id]
#she's not the most important character plot wise but she's been a part of the outline of it for years#if you have noticed the very obvious and very silly pattern among all of the scientists in dalm kudos to you#spoilers. it has no metaphorical or subtextual significance. i just thought it would be funny#i mean it has a bit of significance i guess? but its not very serious#anyways. where are my old lady enjoyers. i have a lady for you#also let me say that dalm takes place Vaguely in the 80s and rowan and pam are really the only characters involved in the queer culture-#-of the time so i dont think pranali would actually like. self-indentify as aroace. but like. She Is. so im putting it anyway#even though typically i write the identities as how they indentify themselves. such is why geo's always has a question mark#none of this is important i just like rambling bc i put a lot of thought into this stuff#doc talks#my art#my characters#maybe i should make tags of my different stories. why dont i do that already.#may as well start here i guess. if i remember to do this later#die as lovers may
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do u write fanfics? i need to GOON 💔
damn brother, you just gonna come at me like that? alright I see you
that's a great question tho! I have indeed thought about writing a fic... for years tbh...
but there's a myriad of problems
well first of all I'm not native in english. that is probably noticeable more often than not. I sometimes even use a translator, I always secretly got google/dict.cc open in a second tab. didn't formally learn english, I just snagged it by proxy listening to American Youtubers and reading manga online. that's why I prefer to ramble a bit in public or to my damn self in private areas than live-texting 1 on 1/in groups; bc I can take more time totally judgement-free. you're gonna see me "typing..." for 30 minutes and wonder wtf is taking this mf so long?!
apart from that there's dyslexia. I can't spell one word correctly without swipe-to-type autocorrect. I think all arguments I've gotten into stem from me mistyping, using completely wrong words, messing up the sentence structure etc
my brain is a single dense cloud of fog that'll occasionally split open to drizzle down a bunch of jumbled thoughts that I could turn into barely cohesive words if I'm brave enough and exude copious amounts of energy.
so my linguistic skills are not up to par. my intelligence lies more in... intrapersonal and existential departments.
unsurprisingly I've thus become a visual artist to express myself.
the catch is... that I understand paperhat, I do.
but I can't seem to draw toxic dynamics. my head is just empty about how to depict it. it's like it doesn't come naturally to me. not without going overboard and making a whole comic that I would likely abandon before even reaching the half mark. I've been given these angelic skills along with the curse that I shall only draw joyous, bright scenes.
however if I could write it... now we're talking.
as a matter of fact, I'm pretty sure that most of my ideas are way too dark and sober. people don't know me like that so I'm petrified about the presumably shocked response when and if I did drop smth like that.
I'm not ready for that... I have really severe OCD (that the internet is making way worse with their anxious tendencies to interpret smth sinister into any and all fiction that is not happiness and rainbows. which seems new to me, idk where this mindset to read so deep into shit is suddenly coming from. I was here 2017-19, left for like 3 years and all of a sudden everybody's fallen off their rockers)
writing domestic stuff is too boring for me... there's gotta be gut-wrenching horrors and drama and tragedy and conflict!
none of this would be PG (which is what I assume you're asking for anyway) I'd just write smut with sprinkles of character studies and a pinch of comedy mayhaps, but I used to do that about 10 years ago and it was so bad. the way I describe these scenes comes off very plump and cringe
I... might. dip my toes into it later this year.
I'll drop a few ideas in the tags... maybe 2 ideas. very roughly. without spoilers, just in case.
#I draw 1 drop of blood and feel watched#I'm a horrible person why would I have such thoughts#intrusive thoughts brought to you by 2020 fandom culture#I've got a plethora of ideas at my disposal#I would like to write a fic about Flug finding a way (maybe an accidental way) to overpower and paralyse Black Hat#using the chance to take what he wanted for years; knowing Black Hat is conscious#and will remember every second of this for the imminent consequences#that Flug may be morbidly curious to take. just maybe... even a little bit thrilled#that in itself already requires every content warning under the sun#I got another more tame idea about Black Hat wanting to confess to Flug but not knowing how humans do that and what Flug likes#so he shapeshifts into different people to interact with Flug. messing up and confusing the HELL out of Flug at every corner of the path#until he eventually finds a type of person that clicks with him#a little too well. staying in the comfort of that disguise for too long.#until Flug got attached and he's run into the problem that he'd like to reveal himself now but that would inevitably break Flug's heart#...it doesn't have a happy ending#it's apathetic and bittersweet#I've actually started to outline and write the first of 3 parts to this way back in 2022#anyway lemme know what you guys think!#villainous#villanos#vilanesco#paperhat#ask reply#anon ask#fanfic#?
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