#that other post thats like 'i love the world because it has you in it' too
Explore tagged Tumblr posts
Text
I have the general rule that I just, don't let myself give a shit about other people's dumbass opinions but I have one pet peeve that I just. Can Not let go of. and it's posts that go
How to write [Minority Group]!
Step 1: Make sure all your characters are exactly like me the op, or are exactly what I like to see in media.
Aside: Anything else is impossible, unrealistic, bigoted and you'll go to hell forever.
Step 2: They also have to use the exact language I do to describe themselves btw, no matter the time period or setting. See the above aside for further explanation.
Step 3: you should never ever even think about the actual mechanics of what makes a trope problematic in its impact in the real world. J ust memorize this list of things that should be banned in all fiction (for being problematic because I don't like them/someone else I agree with said they should be banned)
Step 4: Nuances in identity don't exist <3
#this is specifically about the number of how to write acearos posts that dont recognize people can have motives outside their orientation.#or that demiromantics/demisexuals exist#They are also always Really particular about how its unrealistic for aro characters to be anything other than disgusted by romance#Hi im an ace aro who fucks often and adores romance#as like a genre and form of social performance#I like sex because I like attention thats socially simple and doesn't require the upkeep of a relationship#I like romance because im a human person who doesn't think every story has to be about me to be interesting.#I like new experiences and seeing the world from other perspectives i like the pagentry of dates andnthe aesthetics of love.#Whether im loveless or not is an ongoing question because my ability to process my own emotions is zilch.#Maybe im incapable of love (the chemialcal reaction) but still chose to love (the social contract)#its not unrealistic for people tobe different from you#it just Frustrates me to no end when folk try to define anyone who shares their lable but arnt like them out of existence.
143 notes
·
View notes
Text
not to get political on the blog for my thoughts of which many are political but
By far the funniest reasoning I've heard against voting for Kamala Harris is that she was/is a cop. She's not. Kamala Harris was a prosecutor.
These are not the same thing. These are so obviously not the same thing that it boggles the mind anyone would think so. Yes, cops and prosecutors work together. Yes, the US criminal justice system is incredibly flawed.
But one trains for 6 months and has the authority to use lethal force while not being required to know the law they're enforcing. The other has to spend 7 years to pursue higher education, 3 of which spent exclusively on law, and has a direct counterbalance when performing their job.
If you want to hate Kamala Harris for being a prosecutor, go do that. But don't pretend she's a cop to make it easier for you.
#also if you actually like look into the stuff she did as a prosecutor#most of it is pretty neat#and most of the stuff that was shit she has either apologized for or changed course on#so for the love of the world go vote#vote blue#yes. i know.#i know she has a bunch of bullshit stances too#i know about israel and palestine#this post is not about israel#if both parties have the same stance on an issue. thats a non-issue.#also voting third party under the current system is the same as not voting btw#guess which party is in favor of changing this system?#thats right. the blue one. go vote for them so you can actually vote for other parties later#because if you dont vote blue you might not be able to vote later at all#kamala harris#this is gonna put all those bullshit political posts back on my dash that made me write this post in the first place. well played.#acab#obviously still acab#not apab tho
11 notes
·
View notes
Text
im reaching new and concerning levels of understanding watanuki on a personal level
#there we go thats the post#at this point its hard to tell which traits of his i DONT understand on a personal level#cutaway gag to me watching this show in like 2011 like waow cool gay ghost show having no idea whats about to hit me#watanuki is and will always be the best metaphor i turn to in times of struggle because i guess we r the fucking same except hes hot#and has eternal life and is more selfless#other than that we r the same#I say i kin him sometimes as a joke but like i probably do feel that connection more than plenty of people who actually kin LOL like#not LITERALLY but i am very aware of it all#no such thing as coincidence. you meet the pathetic twink when you are like 12 or something and your fate has been sealed#the funny part of this is when im in love i feel a lot like doumeki actually#i carry both of their fundamental legacies like in rakugo shinju but instead of cool shit i am like actively rotting#anyway the love is still there im just. im not allowed to. do it. i guess#i dont know#i dont fucking know#i want to fast forward to the time we can laugh abt it and i can go you are my best friend in the whole world we're perfectly ok#anyways#at least i can be like. Sick xxxholic reference#whenever anything horrible happens to me#but unfortunately it isnt making anything go away yet#love is terrifying#i guess if i was in either of their positions i wouldn't close the distance either#id need the other person to show me#and id still be terrified to cross the boundary#now more than ever#its funny isnt it#now if i joke about that stuff itll be at my expense too
4 notes
·
View notes
Text
one thing about ash and j.oongi is that they're avid movie watchers together. they've had so many movie nights (especially superhero movies) and are regulars at the theater (they're holding hands the whole time)
and it made me think about how since he's dating a desi girl, he's probably been subjected to so many bollywood movie nights
#and he freaking loves them lmao gets super invested#and he's welcome to share some of his favorite movies in his native language but thats not what this post is about#he likes all the songs and the dances#but also my favorite movies are.the srk don movies.. especially the second one... if you ever wonder why i like my men fucked up#or why i think guys with guns are attractive... that's why.#i was rewatchinf it now that I'm not a kid and.. the scene where he runs the gun down the girl's body... or the scene with the handcuffs...#everything made sense-#honestly I'm not as well versed in the indian movie industry as some other brown kids but my relationship with my culture is a little#strained anyway. but i wont get into that because thats not what this blog is for + this is a j.oongi gush post#+ being a brown person in this community is scaryyy#but yeah <3 we binge bollywood movies together and he looks forward to all the dance numbers! it's really cute#he always buys ash's favorite snacks for her! he knows her so well#but also if he has any korean movie recs he's welcome to put me on them 🙏🏽 I'm decently well versed in the kdrama world but still#but yeah#movie dates with him are the best!#he's a very supportive and fun bf#and his commentary can be very unintentionally funny since he's always 😐#and i can also see him rambling during crime movies about how thats not how criminals work#and how if they actually wanted to do something right then-#... sometimes ash forgets what he does for a living-#ash rambles 💚#like a flowing wind 🔳
3 notes
·
View notes
Text
kicking my feet up bc finding good analysis of things i like has me very 🥰🥰🥰🥰
#i found a twitter thread on mei's characterization during lament of hte fallen and about her mischaracterization in fandom#tbh im not active in the fandom to know how they see mei#i did hear though there were a lot of people who dont like mei which :( makes me sad#i love mei sm actually asdlkfajljh#but the thread was just sO good and it makes me happy#because i always felt weird that people said mei would sacrifice the world for kiana#that is not the case at all#i dont think mei would exactly. shed sacrifice herself though thats clear#shed sacrifice herself the way kiana would ALSO sacrifice herself to save the world#its sort of a 'the town which i dont exist' situation in which mei would rather disappear if it means kiana and the world is happier#that other post thats like 'i love the world because it has you in it' too#but like idk thats how i felt about mei and then i got confused or thought i misunderstood the situation asdljfah#but augh#i just love mei#IM SURPRISED I DO#BECAUSE I WAS VERY NEUTRAL ON HER WHEN WE FIRST STARTED#SO WHY EVERY OTHER DAY AM I CRYING ABOUT HER#sprawls on the floor i just want her to be happy and live with kiana please :(#it doesnt help that eitan and i got to the start of mei's downfall (we reached the starfall animation) and my god.#just thinking about all the thoughts mei mustve had#mei coming to save kiana but kiana protecting mei first against natasha and then the whole BOMB SITUATION BY WORLD SERPENT#SHAKES AND CRIES ON THE FLOOR#and then mei going after kiana and durandal taking kiana away#the scene in which mei is chasing after the trail of light that is impossible to reach#is such a perfect visual of what was going on for mei#and it makes me sO sad#avil plays hi3#anyways ily mei
3 notes
·
View notes
Text
OC :D !!
CW : mild body horror (mushrooms growing through skin, not gorey and not the focus of the image but kinda eugh)
WOW!! AN OC!!! WOH
(ugh the colours look so much brighter on my drawing tablet like theyre meant to be desaturated but she is practically black and white uuughghghhh :(((( sidenote the pupils were an afterthought because you couldnt tell she was looking down at the snail)
okokok now im gonna ramble about this oc
Willow
She/Her
Aroace
i actually made her right when i first got into art and she was very dear to me for a while, but i kinda forgot about her and i havent drawn her in over a year. i have some older drawings of her at the end of the post (not letting you skip my ramblings).
So Willow lives in the forest by herself, and has done for as long as she remembers (dont ask how she got there (i havent thought of that yet)) which also means she has never had any need for communication so is completely mute. And im not sure what exactly Willow is?? but she is immortal. BUT!! you see those mushrooms growing through her skin on her cheek, neck, eye and hand? they are the only thing that limits her lifetime. she has this disease thingy that causes mushrooms to grow in her body and occasionally through her skin. She lives until the disease kills her, which takes a few hundred years. i actually made a diagram of all the places where the mushrooms grow a bit ago (down below with the old art). the mushrooms on her neck nearly killed her, the mushroom in her left eye means shes blind, and the one on her finger can make it harder to grip and use her hand in general. she has an animal companion, though this companion has changed throughout the years. it started off being a frog, then it became a swarm of butterflies, now its a snail? its probably going to stay a snail tho. I honestly cant remember why she is in the forest alone, i feel like she did have some reason but i forgot it. Prolly something basic like keeping the animals happy by feeding them mushrooms or smth idk. also she moves kinda weird?? i cant describe exactly what im thinking but almost kinda jerky and doll like. like Cyn from murder drones kinda. the same weird loose doll feel.
old drawings VVV (from 2022-ish oh god theyre so bad)
the one on the left is the first ever drawing of her (it was just a sketch to practise and art style and then uh. smth happened)
the one on the left is the first proper design i had of her and the one on the right is the aforementioned frog companion (he was called wizzy)
that image ^^^ was drawn in 2023. i was trying to get back into art and i wanted to make willow again because i thought she was cool. theres some writing that you cant read but its not too important. mostly diagrams
#urg i wrote most of this post at 2am but im not gonna post it until like 11am because i know if i post it now very few people r gonna see it#i have 2 ocs#and both of them are completely alone in their seperate worlds; are mute; hate touch; and are aroace#huh#i project onto my ocs a lot#mainly the touch aversion and aroace bit but i also like making them long and gangly#and another thing is i give all my characters really;; modest?? is that the right word?? clothing ajshfkjh#i HATE showing skin and although i dont wear dresses often at all when i do they are knee level or lower#so all of my ocs have the same kind of thing where they dress in a way that they have almost all their skin covered up#DONT GET ME WRONG theres nothing wrong with showing skin and wearing crop tops ect just im weird about it for some reason#so i have to make my ocs weird about it too lol#ive never posted about the other oc#its name is termite and it is murderous thats all you need to know#the only exciting thing about it is that it has a cool design#i love body horror#im not a horror fan in general but body horror is like YES#but i hate psychological horror#oc#oc art#art#pixel art#cottagecore#CW : body horror#TW : body horror#body horror#mushrooms
4 notes
·
View notes
Note
(Out of nowhere, you are approached by a familiar lightbulb-headed Cog.)
Ah, it's you, cat. Thinking you're oh-so-slick. Muttering and whispering under those raggedy whiskers of yours... Thinking I am unable to hear it all...
Well, you've simply underestimated my fantastic hearing. You probably want to know the reason why I'm here, taking a 'break' from my incredibly important scientific breakthroughs? It's quite simple, really!
(She gets close, and squints her eyes.)
I know what you are.
Farewell, now!
(She then leaves the way she came from.)
(Spam giggles immensely, covering her face... it always seems like she's giggling, isn't she? This lasts... at least thirty seconds. Longer than usual.)
And I know what I am too, Sparky! You broke through something, that's for sure. Really, broke through...
(She looks down, continuing to laugh nervously.)
You know, I find it odd you Havent tried to bulb blast me into the stratosphere by now. I mean knowing how you acted with Frostbite. Is there something peculiar about me that you perhaps can't quite track? Something about me that you... don't know what I am?
I know, I know, I'm talking to nobody again. But you were there when I had a moment today with the one the only Frostbite The Bravecog. You may be remaining. Lurking in the shadows. Knowing about these thoughts that I'm thinking.
(The giggling resumes, lasting far shorter this time.)
Your brother's a piece of fucking barp, by the way
(She braces for impact for a few seconds, wincing while smiling, before comically looking around to realize nobody's there. She sighs.)
Wow, okay maybe toony superhero show logic doesn't apply in this situation. Cool.
WAIT I JUST FUCKING REALIZED WHAT SHE MEANT but like. Dude if she meant that then what's the point I mean the whole ahh sellbot department barping knows unless you're Really low on the ladder. Heheh... maybe she did mean what I thought she meant.
Oh i'm so fucking screwed. What kind of bitch gets filament fever
#bright spark#<- for finding this again later. haha i called her sparky#the way she talks fucking tickles my brain so much im so . ohguohguohoghog SHE#SORRY THAT THIS TOOK SO LONG you see i was in the mindset that i would do this one little thing and then i would do my work which uh.#that leads to so so SO much procrastination. including on fun things! oh so fun things.#today was an event.#i also spent quite a bit of time ruminating i “would she really say that” is worse when shes literally you#to clarify. she is spam's aunt by like. building standards. not really in her found family. so its fucked up but as i said in discord this#is like. a “your mom's kinda hot” level crush. you know. also sorry i really wanted to say filament fever its been eating at me okay#nothing SERIOUS the way my f/os (and spam's f/os (plural now?? i guess?? if today was a canon event)) are#honestly mark still feels like the only real one with her to me but damn it. if spam's reflecting My Changes then she's Reflecting My Chang#spam in toontown unlike my other sonas is the most “its just you again” out of all of them and thats partially because her main#cog connection... is frostbite. they bounce off each other like we literally bounce off each other and damn it shes been so stagnant on her#own because of it. mark happened and she mirrored that because i kept fucking talking about him while we were in character and ideally#i should TRY to fix her. but also man because i'm not doing Serious lore stuff with her i dont. even know if i want to.#i kinda brushed it over the rug by saying that she relies on her constant entertainment so readily because she herself still doesnt feel#like she has a place outside of cogs only. sure she's in high roller backstage sure she's in allan's family now but shes not Doing anything#with herself the way that her friends are. mole's a ranger. frostbite cohosts. wishes... has chip. and something she doesn't have--#living and fully growing as a toon. rather than being haphazardly slapped into a world. and in some respects she's envious of frostbite#finding themselves so quickly because she distracts herself because she's still kinda struggling with it. despite everything. yes she lives#happy and carefree a lot of the time but she keeps buying those dumb phones because when she's truly alone... her mind starts to wander.#that's what mark is for. so that spam can dream of a world where she has a purpose. even if its fake and fragile and just nothing compared#to the great friends that she already has. where she feels like its worth it doing something when she doesn't have anyone. and in that#respect. with the goons ma allan parallels in sonboy the spam cathal parallels shine. seeking tv (and to a lesser extent games) as a#method of escapism. even when one's life is already pretty good. because there's nothing else worth doing without friends or family.#the internet isn't just cool. it gives her something to be when it seems like everyone is something but her. and maybe thats a lazy#excuse for why it seems like she doesnt HAVE anything to call her own but that but damn it i'm trying my best to twist it around.#spam has such a HISTORY yknow? even if it feels like i havent established her much.#spam is the hearts to frostbite's spades not just because they're the duo of all time but because spam's fake stupid love keeps her going#sorry i just started rambling in the tags of this post about spam it. happens. she loves her friends so much i need to reiterate that okay
2 notes
·
View notes
Text
I don’t know anymore have a Caleb prepared to Fight for his bestie
“she asked for no pickles” lookin scene
#his character arc from goofy tall guy to Don’t Talk To Me Or My Friends Ever Again is WILD#hershel’s octonauts au#octonauts gups#in all seriousness this scene is based off of the concept of lars making his way onto the ship#caleb and beast both want him DEAD dead#also to explain emma:#she gained a genuine phobia from the trauma of her experience with lars and has nightmares about him like. 3 times a week#bundle that info with the fact that caleb and emma are quite close and badda bam you have the scene#technically speaking emma did ask for no pickles. she asked to not Be the pickles.#i’m normal about these two specifically i need to study their friendship under a microscope#to ramble about caleb for a second sorry-#he had enough soup before his death for the effects to. well. take effect. and he gained a rather mild form of amnesia but still Amnesia#he doesn’t fully remember darwin but knows in his heart that darwin is important to him so he stays near them when possible#(as a result from the trauma of being murdered) he sometimes has moments where he Shuts Down#but he’ll still try to be close to any of his friends ; though those moments bring him closer to emma because she’s usually the one to#guide him when he does that (she does it too)#he wants lars dead because he’s being angry ‘on behalf’ of darwin and emma his two favourite people in the world#obviously thats not really how it works but that’s what he feels is going on#’if not me then who’ type of situation with this guy yk.#also ALSO one time he absolutely destroyed felix because he found out that he’s been manipulating emma so there’s also that#caleb is VERY protective about emma actually. most of the time it’s unnecessary honestly#it only really becomes useful against the other spirits or against lars#like in the picture !! woah it comes full circle i know right#thats my cue to post the thing . sighs . caleb i love you don’t let lars hurt anyone else
3 notes
·
View notes
Text
yknow sometimes i feel like. if fandom was a kindergarten playground i've been spending the past several years just sitting in a corner of the sandbox by myself making my little sand sculptures just for myself to look at and maybe there are other kids who come by to take a peek every once in a while but mostly its just me and my shitty little sand sculptures
and now suddenly i've gotten a lot better at my sand sculptures and the playground is a lot smaller and so there are people who know that im good at making sand sculptures and specifically come by to my corner of the sandbox because they like my sand sculptures and sometimes those people are teachers who walk past and give a thumbs up and tell the other kids to come look and its so. new and cool and exciting but also its so different from anything i've experienced before and im not saying thats bad its just. a lot to get used to. im still not that good at playing with the other kids and i still hate having others be around to watch me make stuff because i've never had that before and i have no idea how to.. do.. a lot of this. but it's okay. i'll learn.
#asto speaks#some thoughts ive been spinning in my head for a while because i would not trade this new community for anything in the world#its just..... im not good at Human Interaction sometimes so i have to figure some stuff out is all#for what its worth a big part of it is also that i have very very few people irl to share art related stuff with#the only people i know irl who know i draw is like... a handful of very close friends who dont.. tend? to be in the same fandoms as me#i mean its also why i love the community a lot because ive gotten more validation for my art in the past few months than the past#what 20 years of my life. 6 years of drawing#but its also like. *creation* has always been something intensely personal for me because ive gotten so used to holding anything i create#incredibly close to my chest. so to speak#which is why i dont post wips. or share a lot of my ideas both because im not much of an ideas person anyway but also like#anything i make has to be neatly wrapped up and packaged before i show it to anyone. idk#im an amoeba and anything i create is just a part of my cytoplasm until im absolutely 100% ready to wrap it up in a vacuole and export it#until then i aint showing you shit. im not giving other people access to my cytoplasm thats my whole ass innards right there
6 notes
·
View notes
Text
I do honestly believe that all communication ever would be vastly improved if everyone on earth internalized and understood that the the whole thing is a series of back and forth interpretation of words with a collectively understood haze of potential meanings wildly dependent on context, speaker, and audience, even for even the most basic of sentences.
Like I can say "I like cats" but the degree of intensity to which i like them is just something you're inferring based on prior context (also interpreted) and how my tone is read. I could be sincere, or totally sarcastic, or maybe cat is slang for something else—miscommunication happens because everything is up for grabs, and communication is not an objective science.
It's a fast-paced guessing game played by all.
#hope.txt#i think a lot of people refuse to accept this notion at all#and i think different group that has accepted this in theory struggles with it in practice#because you'll see posts defended with statements like 'the meaning was totally obvious and readily apparent' kickstarting tedious argument#and if that were true then you wouldnt be having this conversation would you?#maybe its obvious to you#and many like you or closer to you#but thats not the same as objective meaning#this shit is always on my mind because you cant escape it#analysts love arguing objectively#leftist discourse is people with different backgrounds and experiences condemning the other party for not intuiting minutiae no one said#all discourse is that actually conservatives have terrible opinions that should not be treated as valid but the arguments themselves?#its just talking over one another as if the other person should just be on the same page already and is deliberately being obtuse#because 'its obvious isnt it?'#but if it was obvious you wouldnt be arguing with a rando online would you?#like yes obviously there are disingenuous grifters and liars in this world#people can be full of shit and act in bad faith#but it very much bothers me that the default is assuming bad faith when you disagree with something#i hate the assumption that everyone who says something different is a conman or an abuser#i cannot stand how insular and close minded how PRESUMPTIVE all dialogue has become#i am guilty of this myself at times truly but#but it feels like everyone thinks they are a mindreader of others given the divine power to know objective meaning of words#and you are not#you are not at all#no one is#give up on the fantasy of objective meaning it is not real
2 notes
·
View notes
Text
I've fucking cursed myself with an animatic idea that I never made and now any song that's about the way the internet fucks with ur psyche gets automatically associated with monika in my mind
#monika ddlc#doki doki literature club#the original idea was welcome to the internet by bo burnham and was mostly focused on her epiphany#and now ive got you liked this (okay computer!) by will wood and the internet has ruined me by wilbur soot on my list#the latter is funny bc im very opposed to animating her with a love song#i dont want to reduce a character arc about cosmic horror and derealization and the desperation for human connection down#to “girl sad boy dont love her so she kill girls boy love” thats so fucking lame#but i could make tihrm work#if i ever got MOTIVATION#but anyways. long rant i have many thoughts but dobt wanna derail my own post#thinking about like. monika discovering everything about our world through the internet and more importantly. social media#and so her worldview is gonna be warped by default#social media conditions people to view others not as people but as faceless entities#its not “10 000 people saw what you wrote and agreed with it/found it funny” its “your post got 10 000 likes”#its not that the person re arguinh with is a human influenced by their environment and upbringing its that theyre shitty by default#or alternatively its not that the person ur arguing with is someone with an influence on the real world its just a troll here to piss u off#things like doxxing. suicide baiting. threats of violence. child porn. theyre all things that we know are bad but happen regardless because#the internet is anonymous. its ok bc subconsciously the person isnt really human. theyre just another faceless user#this must affect how she views her friends#after all. theyre less than just users. theyre ai#it doesnt matter if theyre no different than her. it doesnt matter if the things shes doing are horrible#people on the internet have done similarly bad things to other humans. its fine. shes not a bad person. its fine.#deleting her becomes the equivalent of learning the stranger u sent gore to is your neighbor who uve had pleasant conversations with#the brutal realization that its not a faceless entity. its a human being you know and love. and youve done horrible things to them.#god i really need to make a video essay on this huh#if u read all of this character analysis mwah ily
3 notes
·
View notes
Text
idk looks pretty clearly posted to me, kinda seems like you just. didnt read the rules and then broke them lmao
Today's sponsored post is to inform everyone that Reddit's r/Art community is run by pigs with no lives. At best, I was mildly annoying initially. They just slung mud. If this is what a community touts as its “best,” it's trash.
#sub names on reddit work similarly to usernames on other platforms‚ where shorter‚ more easily SEO-able things are highly#sought after and kind of gauranteed large userbases#r/art has over 22 million subscribers#and in popular subs you need to be prepared for extremely tight moderation. thats just. how the site works#they are in essence a digital museum and in order for museum to like. run smoothly‚ guests need to respect the rules#'dont discuss the art here as products' is their version of 'dont touch the paintings'#you dont have to like it and im sure you didnt mean any harm but for all they know comments like that are from spambots about to link a#bootleg version of it#also most mods will be forgiving if you show like. any amount of willingness to work with them#i have gotten posts removed from subs before because i didnt read the rules fully and when i responded 'oh sorry i missed that in the rules#wont happen again' they were fine with it#however if you are rude (and yes‚ i do mean rude‚ not ''lightly annoying''. you were rude first before they responded insulting you)#they might just be rude back#and seems like you know this based on the defensive-ass 'lol i didnt even want to be here anyways😂' final response#like. that is 'whatever ur ugly anyways'-in-response-to-being-turned-down-for-a-date tier#and you paid money to show people it?#also no you may not have explicitly asked for a way to buy it as a sticker but like. you can see how 'id love to buy this as a sticker'#is close enough as to make no nevermind right?#like. that is a way people ask for links. you may not have meant it that way but that generally is what ppl mean when they say that#and in a world where phrases like that can trigger bots to rip the art to generate you a link#mods need to be careful#the advertising gunk of that kind of phrasing is to digital art curations as the oil on your fingers is to irl paintings#you may not mean to get it on there but best practice is to avoid touching it in the first place yknow?#and if you ignore the signs and try to touch it anyways‚ you'll probably be escorted out#origibberish
430 notes
·
View notes
Text
I have obtained a new oc and in the process I've already signed myself up for needing to make at least 3 new ocs for his story which he now has despite me initially Intending for him to be a side character for a different side character to hang out with. My townhouse has over 200 characters on it.
#rat rambles#oc posting#he doesn't have an official name yet but he is my silly billy and I love him#also take every him with an asterisk again he's like super new (I just got him today)#although several elements of his story so far have been things Ive been wanting to do for a while so thats a part of why I have so many#ideas for him already since its some stuff I've been wanting to play around with for a while#the real reason he has a chokehold on me rn is that I tripped and made him my 500 thousanth character with identity issues#I <3 characters with a fucked up relationship with their sense of self and what it even means to be themself#oh hes also a magic cat world character because thats what like 90% of my ocs are from at this point lol#and another goop related guy but this time not directly related to every other goop guy#he doesnt interact with any of them or even know most of them exist#long story short hes a robot who used to not be a robot but remembers nothing abt his life before he turned himself into a robot#all he has as reference is a mostly ruined journal his past self kept that is almost entirely unreadable due to it getting soaked in goop#he knows that this was self inflicted and his approximate age but that's abt it in terms of useful information#early story is mostly just him traveling alone trying to see if anyone nearby knows who he is but after going through like 5 or so towns he#starts to get more worried and upset about the whole situation and starts trying to look into some different missing person reports in#hopes that he can find one of himself#he runs out of the savings he had on him pretty quickly though so he had to figure out how to stay afloat while doing his research#'luckily' he meets a man while looking into one case he found who was willing to let him stick around at his place while looking into it#this guy had some investment in these dissapearances because he suspected that they related to his father and hoped to find any sort of#window in what he was up to since he hadnt seen him since he ran away at around 17#spoilers his dad is cake this is still connected to cake nonsense because everything in this world fucking does but the main boy himself#actually has no ties to cake or his activities so thats smth at least#but yeah long story short things get. real bad for my boy after the first few months of staying at this guy's place.#yknow how risa in the future was often used as a weapon of war using some unstable chemicals? yeah guess where that started.#mr daddy issue haver over here may understand that his dad is a bad person but evidently that doesnt stop him from being not much better#currently Im planning on having main boy escape eventually and get stuck in the non magic world where he meets april but that could change#it depends on if I want him to interact with the other stories going on at all or not#I probably wont but I would like to leave myself some wiggle room to let him meet more side characters#like (looks with big sad wet eyes) ginger maybe? please? please april? let me see your sister? that you havent seen in years? please?
0 notes
Text
...... If I went on a hiatus for who knows how long again would y'all hate me....... 👉👈
#i just spent like an hour writing and rewriting a post trying to explain myself amd its just so hard to put into words#im bored here but not in a ew not enough content for the dopamine hit shit#in like a every time i scroll through I dont smile I dont see anything that makes me happy at all i dont get a laugh or anything#its just mindless brain rotting scrolling nothing wasting my time hoping maybe ill see a new artist to follow or something#and every time its nothing#so much nothing taking up so much of my time and space in my life and i already dont have a lot of time to begin with#ive made some awesome friends here ive had lovers from here ive had people who are no longer on this earth from here who ill never forget#i dont think ive really enjoyed anything on here in 7 years#ive left before for a really long time i think like a year or more or something#and i wont be totally unreachable of people message me ill respond but im so sick of this stupid app taking up my life#and all i ever get out of it is getting mad or getting depressed over shit that really is t worth my mental state over#all i ever feel on here is that the world fuckin sucks and theres not even anything here to make hanging around worth it#im not new to this site making me suicidal for an abundance of reasons and im luckily in a spot where i wont actually hurt myself#its just ideation and intrusive thoughts but its a pattern i cant keep ignoring#also im old tumblr im old tumblr and i think i will always be old tumblr im just not catching on to new shit anymore#the fact im even saying anything about a hiatus should show how pld tumblr i am no one does this anymore lol#i just don't want to be here anymore i dont really want to be anywhere online anymore tbh#its always something and i cant mentally keep up with it anymore i have too much going on in my life#my wife is having cancer removed on Tuesday im a lead teacher who has to take care of i think 8 babies now#i have problems i have actual problems that need me and need me to be as there as i can be#i cant be spiraling over stuff online on top of real world problems im in no position to do anything about on top of personal life problems#that are drastically affecting my life at home and hurting my family and loved ones#i have a mass in my thyroid which is so big i choke to the point i stop breathing if I dont have my meds i throw up all day#i have to see a neurologist because at best i have a pinched nerve at worst im having seizures and i might have to move states again#i dont have it in me to come on here and see stuff that makes me upset for the chance i might see something i like#and i can unfollow people and whatever but I dont have the energy or time to sift through people i follow on here#if you want to talk in dms or asks or you want to send me posts pls by all means continue to do so thats fine#but i think i need to take the app out of my line of sight again for a bit and just be in the moment again same with twitter#anyways i love yall i promise i am safe and not in harms way im just stressed af and i have got to start cutting things out that#arent doing anything other then making me miserable
1 note
·
View note
Text
omg
#the newest episode of what we do in the shadows is SO good bro omfg#this is up there with the mass hypnosis episode when they try to get colin robinson into a private school#i stopped making personal posts a while ago because i always felt like my content has to reflect my healing journey#but it can just be fun! it should be fun#that said lol personal posts are baaaack#what we do in the shadows is SO GOOD#also i've been watching next level chef lately and its so intense lol i can only do 1 episode a day or night#otherwise the adrenaline is too much lmfao#oh! and i got into PEN15 recently and i like it a lot. its giving grungey 90s middle school broad city#and i love broad city too#i just felt like talking about some fun stuff i've been doing :•)#i also finished jurassic park (book) and it was so great. so ready to read lost world#i also wanna re-read the perks of being a wallflower again i haven't read it in years and i feel like i'll connect with it deeply with this#new understanding. but yeah i think thats all the fun hobby stuff i've been doing lately#i want to draw in my sketchbook more but digital art is just so convenient & you can do so much more#other than that same old stuff like marathoning shows i love. bob's burgers and king of the hill and family guy and robot chicken#the office superfan show is really cool too#i like talking about my interests!
0 notes
Text
WHY DID YOU FEEL THE NEED TO TELL ME ABOUT YOUR AROACE SENKU HEADCANON ON MY GAY SENKU AND TRANS REI POST
Just finished Dr Stone Reboot
#sorry for yelling at you but i do think you should make your own post#if you want an aroace character ryusui is right there and hes literally aroace flag coloured hes my favourite character hes so awesome#i dont see senku as aroace but i do see him as incredibly pragmatic and amazing at compartmentalising. romance is so far off his list of#priorities that he had never even thought about sex or dating. Hes the kind of guy who is fully able to abstain from earthly pleasures just#because he has more important shit to be doing (science) but meeting tsukasa made him feel some shit for the first time in his life#a guy whos strong and smart and hot and can keep up with him. someone whos a challenge to go up against someone so fun and electric#and this great and awesome guy says the most pathetic things in the world sometimes. its very clear that tsukasa made a deep impression on#senku. outside of romantic affection. senku was gentle to tsuaksa is a way that you dont see with other characters. at hakodate he tells#taiju and yuzuriha they might have to kill tsukasa but after that ? absolutely 0 talk of killing. hearing tsukasa say he has no friends#literally did something to senkus brain i genuinely believe he wanted very badly to be tsukasas friend like outside the context of shipping#just as something that happened in canon its clear that senku was thinking a LOT about tsukasa trying to unpack his motivations and charact#yes tsukasa is a killer but senku insists hes still a good guy. he doesnt write him off as a villain and he does not want to be his enemy#seconds before snapping his neck tsukasa is like maybe you would have been my friend and senku instead of being like hell no/ur delusional#he was like maybe :3 senku also tends to be sarcastically flirty but his pre stone wars dialogue with tsukasa was pushing it (also worth#noting that he was responding in kind to something that tsukasa initiated. whether or not its romantic theres definitely chemistry) when#tsukasa falls senku literally ran to catch him so they could fall together (which could mean nothing) hes tender to tsukasa in a way that h#isnt with the others he literally insists on making small talk with tsukasa on his deathbed because they never got a chance to know each#other and it clearly ate at him. Senku doesnt pursue people unnecessarily. He already had tsukasa in his pocket and he still made the effor#to keep him company so he wouldnt have to die in a silent cave. the guy who wouldnt even let his oldest friends thank him decided that he#wanted to make small talk (MASSIVELY ooc unless you consider... maybe tsukasa matters a lot more to senku than hes openly said...)#i think tsukasa was someone that senku found extremely difficult to ignore. Hes a guy who wants to save everyone and that what makes him so#awesome. romance will Never Ever be his first priority but his vow of celibacy kind of wobbled a little when it came to tsukasa#I see him as arospec homosexual myself because i think he has a very nonstandard view of romance as a whole but i also think that tsukasa#was the first guy ever that he could see himself with and even then if tsuaksa didnt want a relationship then senku would have been happy#watching from a distance after all he put so much effort into keeping tsukasa safe (read vol 12 boichis authors note)#like i fucking get projecting on a character i also fell deeply in love with tksn because me and my best friend dearly wanted to have known#each other earlier and that was such a beautiful and romantic sentiment that i saw reflected in tsukasen thats why i became obsessed#but senku 'strange behaviour' wrt tsuaksa has always stuck out to me ... he never acts like this with anyone else its gotta mean something#i dont think they were ever mortal enemies even at worst. tsukasa still had to bite his tongue not to call senku his friend when they were#in the throes of war. they meant something to each other. romantic or not they meant something very precious to each other
129 notes
·
View notes