#that may be the autistic thing tho

[breathing-in-waves]

I'm doing well in life.

[shabbyshoebox]

Texting in theory: communication with friends! So fun! Memes! Talk talk talk! ❤️✨

Texting in practice: Oh god I don't have the energy to reply right now, I'm currently in Task Mode not Talk Mode so there is currently no battery allocated for socializing atm. Oh it's been too long, do they think I hate them? If I reply will I have to stay engaged in conversation for a few seconds? Half an hour? How long will this conversation be? When is it okay to step away and do something else? Will they think I hate them if I go too long without responding again? I don't hate them, I love them, I need to figure out how to do this. What tone did they intend this in? How do I ask what tone they meant without coming across as rude? How can I respond in a way that cannot possibly be construed as passive aggressive/rude/dismissive? I want to stay engaged with the task I'm doing, I don't want to go back and forth and back and forth and back and forth. I really really enjoy it when I'm in the right "Mode" but each notification feels like an obligation. Why does this feel like a chore? I like talking to my friends, why doesn't it feel like talking to my friends? Why do I feel trapped? Why do I avoid people I love? Oftentimes I'm not even "doing" anything when I don't respond, I'm just in "non social" mode. Even if I know I'll enjoy talking once I get started every unopened message feels like a burden. I shouldn't see texts from people I love this way, I should be happy, they want to talk to me and they love me. Why can't I just be normal about this, why can't I stop avoiding every damn thing?

[anxiously-awaiting]

hi his outfit is a fucking MESS rn but <3 bedi alter for your thoughts

[finncakes]

A Dance of Deception🎭✨️

based of J.C. Leyendecker's advertisment for Arrow (under the cut)

[nuke-expo]

in my head . convex r the peak queerplatonic partners . no one brings out the unhinged behaviour in one of them quite like the other, yk ? it’s gay as fuck though they’re not just friends they’re not lovers they’re just. convex . gay evil people . they would hit eachother with rocks but they have matching earrings . scar would shoot cub as hotguy with no remorse but when cub asked to buy his basement he didn’t hesitate to agree . u get it . they get eachother .

[sexiestsex]

i know it depends what you're resting from and all that but I'd really like to hear about it! I feel like I'm running against a wall with all my strategies and everything I'm trying is counter productive and leaves me more stressed and in pain. So i just want to know what helps other people.

Please give me your How To Have Energy.

[worm-in-a-trenchcoat]

A dad and his kids were looking at reptiles and whatnot and asking me to take animals out for them so they could look at them and while one som was looking at the reptiles, the other was looking at the small animals and was playing with a mouse through the glass.

And the dad asked if he wanted the mouse just out of nowhere, and the kid said yes. So the dad asks if I can get the mouse for them to buy it, and I asked if they had an enclosure set up already (when I knew they didn’t, clearly) and the dad said they didn’t.

I told them we couldn’t sell it to him if he didn’t have an enclosure ready and he understood.

But he like… didn’t even seem like he was going to try to get it together while in the store? He was literally just going to buy the mouse and just like… take it home with just the box it came in. Because his kid said he wanted it (the kid didn’t even seem too into the mouse, the dad was trying to convince him to get it. Whole thing was kinda weird).

I just… like why would you ask for the animals before getting the stuff you need to take care of it?? We get people like that every single day. And sometimes we have to walk them through and help them find every single thing they’d need for the animals and tell them the basic care information that you should know before getting the animal.

And then you have the ones who no longer want to get the animal as you’re explaining to the care and stuff because it turns out to be “too expensive”, when the animal itself is like under 20 bucks. 20 bucks covers the animal, but you need a place to put it and stuff to feed it ya know.

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Maybe it’s just the tism, but I don’t get impulse buying animals like that. I always research before I get something, even if it’s a cheap animal. Like my 8 dollar anole for instance, I researched anole care for weeks and had the enclosure setup way in advance before I got her. Don’t get me wrong, I have bought some animals over the years impulsively in the moment before, but only if I knew what I was getting into and had the means and money to take care of it.

I wouldn’t look at an animal I had no basic knowledge on and just ask to get it without knowing a single thing about it or it’s care. Like… why would you do that??

This turned into a rant, sorry. I’m just so tired of people, man lol.

[tokyoteddywolf]

22 isn't very much at all, I think.

[hobbitunderthemountain]

nothing like remembering weird nuggets of information and my coworkers are like wtf how do you know this I'm just shouting IDK IDK IDK IM AUTISTIC?!?? LITTLE SHIT LIKE THIS STICKS IN MY HEAD I GUESS????

[littlepurplewakiya]

I really want make a Kira playlist but I always get too squicked by the possiblity that someone will find it horrible & OOC and bully me for it but??? then I remember that the circle of everyone who even as much as acknowledges his existence at all consists of maybe 4 people and 5 lemurs in a trench coat pretending to be a person (aka me) and I honestly dk which is worse...

[ei-mugi]

i enjoyed getting heated over something silly for fun but im just now seeing some past distress ppl had over the poll on the blog & i feel a little bad haha i dont actually have any problem with ii or its fans like ive said i was one myself in the past

[fceriestcrdst]

my autistic ass avoided watching the x-files because i knew it would consume me....

& now here i am fully consumed even though I've only watched the first few handful of episodes of s1 (i'm regaining spoons needed for media consumption), but let me tell you w h a t!!!!!!!!!!!!! i was so excited i started crying because it combines unbridled pining, a skeptic & her believer husband partner, true crime, weird mythology, aliens (which i already knew abt obvi), unlikely besties who are prepared to square up at all times (re; scully being cold towards the agents mocking mulder & mulder being ready to fight g o d whenever anything happens to scully).

i just love the show a lot & i expected this but goddamn!!!!!! it's wormed into my spin category & now my alien spin is returning along with my 'unexplained happenings spin!!!!! i'm being consumed i tell you!!!!

[pizzapizzadickz]

I've been popping pills like they're candy lately. (Also known as I've been in pain a lot and my allergies are horrible bc of all the mold in my room).

[maryqueenofmurder]

ok ill admit that like, the only mario games ive played was like super mario brothers and mario cart 8 i think.

But maybe the difference between mario games and luigi games sort of represents the differences in their worldview?? like mario is your classic protagonist full of confidence and persistence and maybe a little faith in the innate goodness of humanity. his games are cheerful and reflective of his determination to find joy in any circumstance. there are people who try and help him along the way bc of course there are!! don't the majority want good to triumph over evil? his games usually end cleanly/neatly as mario rolls with the punches in life, refusing to hold onto the bad.

Luigi is often characterized by his fear. The incessant anxiety he presents in almost every side role. Luigi's games reflect that way of thinking and are indicative of the way he sees himself in life. Luigi is boxed in and can only take certain paths (e.g. the hallways and doors, as opposed to the more open style in mario-centric games) which is reminiscent of the way anxiety will lock you into "acceptable" actions and hamper lateral thinking, because surely that isn't what you're supposed to do?

And speaking of "...heavy piece of machinery tied to your back, rendering you unable to climb or jump." doesn't this remind you of the intrusive thoughts that chip down on your self-esteem or make everything seem dangerous? In fact a heavy burden limiting mobility is a very good metaphor for the mental strain and effects of anxiety. Also with anxiety you kind of can't let yourself expect people to help/care about you? You may think that they probably will, and logically they should, but mentally you have to hold yourself back from expecting them to because wouldn't that be presumptuous? this goes with the irrational worry that people will react really poorly to innocuous things or requests for help. You never believe they actually would respond like that, but you keep thinking about it. This is shown in how most luigi game characters want you dead (the worst scenario your brain makes up for people), are ambivalent (thinking that people have no real reason to help you), or a dog that doesn't understand what you're going through (those neurotypical people who always give incredibly useless advice and just don't understand what it's like to work differently than other people).

uhhh in short mario/luigi games represent the personality & worldview of the respective characters. Also luigi has anxiety.

Mario games: The world is grand and open, colorful and friendly! There are plenty of dangers, but there are also kindly residents all around willing to give you a word of advice or encouragement. You are light and springy, filled to the brim with joy and enthusiasm! There is a job to do, but the path on the way is a veritable playground. The horizon is the limit and the world is your oyster.

Luigi games: You're forced into tiny rooms and narrow hallways where everything is dark and ominous. The claustrophobia of your surroundings is emphasized by the heavy piece of machinery tied to your back, rendering you unable to climb or jump. The best you can do is run, and run you will, because everything wants you dead except for a morally grey old scientist who cares more about research than survival, and a ghost dog who doesn't even comprehend how much danger you're in. Good luck, fucker.

[kerosene-saint]

pov I'm literally gonna ask for maybe two things for Christmas cause I still feel guilty about last Christmas since I was gifted expensive things by my parents and our house needs repairs

[bumpscosity]

shoutout to jenny nicholson for being the only person who agrees with me about the galactic starcruiser's aesthetics are star wars enough