#system love

[hellhoundzzz]

Doing an "i love you [xyz] systems" post ,, haven't done this before and I'm bad at words so please bear with me on wording and possible repeats !!

this post will be directed towards traumagenics and "endos" who don't remember their trauma or think it "wasn't enough".

⸻ I am not in support of genuinely endogenic "systems"

I love you systems with high alter counts

I love you systems with low alter counts

I love you systems with "normal" alters

I love you systems with "weird" / "abnormal" alters

I love you systems who split easily / a lot

I love you systems who barely split at all

I love you systems with high introject counts

I love you systems with high anp counts

I love you systems with high nonhuman counts

I love you systems with problematic sources

I love you systems with fictives

I love you systems with factives

I love you systems with complex innerworlds

I love you systems with simple innerworlds

I love you systems with "weird" innerworlds

I love you systems with no / low access to innerworld

I love you systems with high / easy access to innerworld

I love you systems with high dissociative barriers

I love you systems with low dissociative barriers

I love you systems with high amnesia

I love you systems with low amnesia

I love you systems with disabilities, mental and physical

I love you heavily disordered systems

I love you systems who are able bodied

I love you systems who want final fusion

I love you systems who just want to co exist w their alters

I love you systems who remember their trauma

I love you systems who don't remember their trauma

I love you systems who remember their trauma slowly during healing

I love you systems with alter-to-alter / insys relationships

I love you systems who hate their alters

I love you systems who love their alters

I love you systems with complex identities because they're a system

I love you systems with alters that are all really similar and hard to tell apart

I love you systems with alters who are completely different and easy to tell apart

I love you systems who can mask easily

I love you systems who cant mask easily

I love you systems who have alters w differing religions

I love you systems who have religious trauma and are still religious

I love you systems with a lot of alters / introjects based on their spins and hyperfixes

I love you systems who aren't in recovery yet

I love you systems who are in recovery

I love you systems who go through recovery "normally"

I love you systems who go through recovery "abnormally" or "weirdly"

I love you systems who are doing whats right for your systems needs and wants

I love you ramcoa systems

I love you programmed systems

I love you pf-did systems

I love you hc-did systems

I love you ic-did systems

I love you osdd systems

I love you p-did systems

I love you did systems

I love you c did systems

I love you systems who don't know their systype (osdd, did, etc)

I FUCKIJG LOGE YOU SYSTEMS !!!!!!!! ILY ILY OLY OLU OLY OLY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY ILY 🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷

[ancientpersacom]

Part 3 of alter self portraits and letters, Hypnos edition!

Thank you for having legible handwriting Hypnos, one of the few in the system who does lol. He asked me to do the line-art for him because he’s still working on his art skills, so our styles are very similar at the moment. But all the colouring and shading as well as the pose was done by the eeper himself!

Hypnos split during a horrific time in life, and I’m genuinely so thankful for him helping getting us through it and I’m so glad to see him happier and more at peace now. I’m so proud of you Hypnos, you deserve the world and you’re a wonderful parent :)

[brightside-of-the-moon]

New system positivity blog !!

ENDOS DNI

I've noticed most syspos blogs are either pro endo, anti persecutor, ect. So I've taken upon myself to create a new safe place for systems to talk about the bright side of systemhood !!

We believe that despite CDD's being a living hell to deal with having, we should still be able to focus on the good sides !! There's a good side to it still, it saved our lives and it's saved many others and there's still can be a fun side, despite the hard times we seek to break the demonization of systemhood.

Don't confuse us for thinking it's all fun, we understand that DID isn't all sunshine and rainbows, there's always hard times.

Asks may be in any format including but not exclusively to the following..

System positivity culture is..

Syspos culture is..

Being system positive is..

Or just straight up positivity without a format !!

We do not allow..

Demonizing persecutors

Demonizing systems

Harassment of any kind

Pro endos

Please read our main blogs DNI before following

[dr-049]

genuine question here. Why do some anti endos put “Traumagenic system” in their desc and/or tags?? Like why would you need to make that distinction if you don’t believe there are any other systems? That’s like a transphobic person calling themself cis. like I thought you didn’t like that???

[mossy-petrichor]

Love letter ~💌

"it's like a completely different type of love. like sharing a brain is fundamental to our bond"

An ode to in-sys love, not strictly romantic, but a unique kind of familial too. a beautiful thing we've been discovering as we integrate and heal

Both the drawings and the poem are by me. To Ilya, Boo and Florence, my loves. my family <3

[the-astral-clump]

i luv system cuddles, i luv forming a big warm cuddle pile while trying to get the body to sleep and relax. i love being able to feel phantom touches or have someone take control of the body to give a comforting gesture -⭐️

[the-siphonophore]

Looking through my phone camera roll, nostalgic for the life I never lived- one of my more telling plurality moments that I didn't give thought for a long time, due to having enough mental illness that I figured that was it. Nope, that picture was taken by Solly, and that picture is from Hazel, and that one was Oni's, and none of them are mine because I'm not a visual thinker and I don't take many photos. Every now and then I'll wish I did, so I can have a place in the camera roll too, but then I remember I have lots of other places in my(our) life, like having dominated our saved-music files for over five years now, and developing our nearly system-wide artstyle. Life comes in many strange ways, but being a system has been one of my favorites

- Virgil

[sscarred-starss]

Hi hello. Kei was talking about how much he loves when people are publicly romantic about their partners n. talk about em in posts n shit. so uh... this is that.

he reminds me of those cheesy, corny love songs that you can only really like if you're in love.

he's like discovering a new band and being absolutely obsessed, like, new favorite band type shi.

hes like a really soft hug, just a gentle, tight hug.

hes like getting home after a long day at work, and hearing your pet come running because they're so happy to finally see you again.

he's like... being tired. /pos

[kaleidoscopechaos827]

As we've learned more about what it means to be a system, and to share a life with multiple people in one brain and one body, one of the many things we've come to accept is that we don't always get to know who's fronting and who's saying or doing something. Sometimes someone (we have no idea who) will take over for less than ten seconds just to make a ridiculous sound and send everyone else into a giggle fit XD

[the-moonjay-forest-system]

It's nice to have people you can talk to openly about being a system and the experiences and feelings that come with it. I feel like most of us don't really have many people we can truely be ourselves around, for some of us maybe there's nobody at all (if you're one of those people I hope you can find somebody who's supportive and trustworthy who you feel safe to open up with soon) and it's such an isolating, lonely thing to live with.

Our mom technically knows we likely have DID (well I'm leaning a bit more towards OSDD but our old therapist told her we have DID) but it's something that's hardly ever spoken about I wouldn't be surprised if she's forgotten about it by now and we never shared any details about our system or anything with her. Our brother also knows and he's cool about it but still we really don't talk about it much, he has our simplyplural but hardly ever checks it which I'm fine with I still feel uncomfortable with him really knowing I guess even though I love and do trust him? We mainly just talk about DID through the lense of media like Moonknight and stuff with him.

We've had friends who've known us as a system before some were pretty good with it, but we don't have any of those friends anymore. We've also had two system friends at one point but sadly we grew apart from both of them too. And I don't think with any of them we properly opened up.

But then there's my qpp, we've known them for four years and they've known us as a well 'us' for almost all of it. It took a while before we really opened up and I'm sure we still have ways to go but I trust them so much, more than I have with anyone and it's so great. They're so understanding and non-judgemental, they treat the others amazingly and have never made us feel like we're crazy or a burden. And I love them so much.

For Christmas/Yule they got us the DID rabbit from plushiedreadfuls and I felt so seen, like sure it's just a stuffed animal but it just means so much to me and the rest of the system. We named them Astaroth and we bring them with us outside a lot to help cope with stuff ranging from dissociation, anxiety, flashbacks etc. Today was a rough day for me and Aspen and they honestly helped a lot and idk they just remind me of my qpp and it makes me happy.

Sorry this just became a rant about my lively qpp but like they're the bestttt!!

[brightside-of-the-moon]

System positivity is that one alter always making sure our profiles are up to date, we would be a mess without him, we love you river <3

[our-inspire-verse]

I love being plural. Oh, how i love being plural!

I love it, and all it's struggles. It is not to say to be plural does not hurt. That it cannot be torture or agony. Like it isnt sometimes the most woeful, painful part of my life sometimes.

When is anything permanent, at any point? The trauma slowed down. It will never fully stop, as life itself is designed to tear a soul apart, i do fully believe it cannot end. However, i will dance with glee at the opportunity to feel pain. To live, and to feel and to breathe. My gratitude has saved me.

I now thank my system for being my soul, for being as alive as it is and for continuing to fluctuate. I thank it for its confusing complexity and the secrets it keeps. Thank you for being as loving and daring and sometimes cruel as you are. For your differences and relations and your stories and lives. You make me Me and complete Micheal.

I love my system, my system was with me and helped me survive life. And now we are out to share one we're building together.

[dr-049]

i love our co-host/p

i love how different xe are to me, I love how alike xe are to me, I love how protective xe are, I love when xer tired, I love when xer awake, I love from xer in the headspace. But most importantly,

i love when xer fronting with me.

[mossy-petrichor]

I've been thinking about how far we've come in healing in a short span of time and it's... Extraordinary. We feel so... Happy. Joyful. We never thought we'd be able to feel this way

And I have to thank the alters that came before me so much for all of it. So I'll write for all of them

Mari, thank you for holding on. You handled so much, you lived in hell everyday, and you held on for years. You were so brave, and I have to thank you for the opportunity to exist. We wouldn't be alive if you weren't so resilient

Boo, thank you for helping everyone that needed your help. Thank you for holding on when you lost your friend, thank you for being strong through so much that happened, thank you for making it possible for others to heal. Nobody would have gotten far without you

Ilya, you did so much. You were the first one to get us started into our healing journey, and you did the dirtiest, most exhausting, and least rewarding job. You learned so many things, taught them to us. You built the foundation for where we are now. We would never be here if not for you

As and JD, thank you for helping us with our anger. You helped us learn about it, embrace it, and you left a permanent mark in who we are now. You helped us understand ourselves and why we acted the way we did, you helped us learn how to deal with it. You made us understand our anger didn't make us bad, and how to redirect it to better uses

Rayzor and Azi, your work with religious trauma was so important. It was vital for us to tackle it and I'm so glad you did

For everyone who's passed by this system, no matter how long you stayed: thank you so much. Everything you've done has had its impact. You're all so amazing

Love,

Belle

[the-astral-clump]

PLURALITY & PRIDE

On the first day of Pride Month we decided to write a little thing about how our plurality and our queerness affect each other.

But before that, lets get some things out of the way: This is a safe space for every system and any who identify with multiplicity. This is also a safe space for every good-faith identity. We also greatly encourage other systems/plurals to share their own experiences. <3 (mind you this post is a bit long and rambly so theres a closing message slash tldr at the end)

Alright! That being said, this is half describing our fuckyweird identities as a system and half a love letter to it all.

Labels are things that I (the host, Alex) have strugged with for very long time. Since the way we experience such things like fronting as blending, blurring, and/or passive influence I often find it difficult to differentiate my sexuality and gender from my headmates, due to this melding of sometimes contradictory identities (for example, Alex and Mae being transmasc and transfem respectively) we often experience some very.. well.. queer feelings. We all have different appearances in headspace, and due to the nature of our headspace, we can often change these at will. This however (unfortunately) cant be transated into our physical body, which is afab. You can perhaps imagine the feelings that might arise from having an alter who is and enjoys a feminine body co-front with an alter who is a lot more masc leaning, or maybe you can't. Either way you can at least imagine how confusing this can be, having two voices, two entirely separate people, share a body and wish for entirely different things for it. Having alters who experience different levels of romantic and sexual attraction as well as attraction to different genders. How it might feel to have a largely asexual alter co-front with an allosexual alter with a very high libido, how it might feel for a bisexual alter to blur with a homosexual alter unable to really percieve the presence of eachother. Often Alex and Sasha co-front, Alex is aroacespec and experiences minimal attraction though usually towards men, Sasha is m-spec and (very) allosexual. They also feel differently as to presentation, Sasha being much more feminine than Alex, this can lead to weird dysphoric feelings, feeling gay and bi feeling like a girl but also mlm, feeling so many different ranges of conflicting emotions and identities.

Although things like this have brought us great frustration and caused conflicts within the system, this pride month we want to instead celebrate these incongurences in identity. We want to celebrate having complicated identities, having feelings that perhaps conflict with eachother. Because this is real, what we experience is real and it deserves recognition and respect. This is something that can and should apply to everyone, regardless of wether they identify as plural, queer, or anything else. So here's for a lovely pride month, to my fellow queer systems, and to all the people and creatures whose identities dont fit into a solid mold.

closing message/ tldr; As a system we experience many conflicting and weird combinations of indentities and we are learning to live and love this aspect ouf our lives, and hope others can too. You deserve love, pride includes those with complex identities, be weird, be yourself, be queer unabashedly and love yourself for it. &lt;3

[ghosted-jazz]

Soldier, Poet, Kings

Bonus wallpaper version with just Joel: