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your movie charles art gives me cuteness aggression
obsessed with getting these asks back to back and yet they both hold some truth i think ...... thank you very much everyone ....
#semi-nsft ?? ig ??#xmen#xmen movies#xmen dofp#xmen first class#charles xavier#professor x#snap sketches#fr thank you - both of you :] !!!!! i do my best to make any and all iterations of charles xavier look lovable#not hard. for me anyway. i have this condition called Perpetual Heart Eyes and it worsens when i see/think of a chara i like#tho im mildly appalled by how much love my movie charles doodles get considering i only really draw him. when you guys mention him vjLAEAEJ#'appalled' is a weird word. Pleasantly Surprised is better i think#BUT AGAIN I DONT MEAN TO thats just how it happens. ig thats also why im happy to hear it. or read it LOL#LIKE I /HAVE/ DRAWN HIM ON MY OWN OF /COURSE/ just. def doesnt feel like that much ... hm ...#tho tbh maybe i do draw mostly in response to asks .... im not getting the hard data on that we're moving on it aint that serious#ANYWAYS. more movie charles to come. hopefully. idk if SOON but hopefully i still have some stuff i wanna draw with him#on that note @ second anon topping him wouldnt fix him or make things better really but itd be fun to watch probably
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hehe ghost-turbo haunting felix au
turbo is connected to the last piece of his code in the whole arcade - a trophy he gifted to felix in mid 80s as a symbol of him genuinely caring about their relationships on par with being the best racer. felix also gave him one of his medals and both kept their gifts next to other rewards, but when roadblasters and turbotime were unplugged, the medal was gone with everything else
now, after burning in cola-lava turbo is basically dead, but scraps of his code still were intertwined with the trophy (after all, it was his first winner's cup, but felix never knew about it), giving turbo an opportunity to exist as a shadow incapable of interacting with anything and anyone besides felix, who kept the trophy even after the roadblasters incident
also I went crazy in tags, feel free to check them out
#turbo#turbotastic#fix it felix jr#80s boyfriends#hammertastic#headcanon about them exchanging their trophies isn't mine but i loved it A LOT#and “darling” is turbo making fun of how felix was calling him in 80s#this hc about “doll” and “darling” pet names also is not mine but i adore it#turbo here is a complete freak who just stays around felix most of the time even when felix has moments with calhoun#and felix is an ass who keeps secrets from everyone bc he doesn't want his dirt to come out#he's ashamed of his previous relationship with turbo and doesn't want anyone to know any details#and calhoun to just know about it#this just gets worse and worse#they also didn't actually break up and were still technically dating when turbo went gamejumping#and he's mad af at felix because he's the reason ppl in the acrade made a boogeyman out of turbo and he couldn't come back#like imagine your bf says to you what you are better than others think of you#and then behind your (presumably dead) back tells everyone that you're just an egocentric maniac#i believe turbo has other reasons why he gamejumped (besides jealousy which took place but wasn't the most important reason)#and felix is an unreliable narrator#so yeah turbo HATES his ass#(but still would-) no im not making it suggestive#anyway i hc that turbo had put A LOT of emotions in this relationship even tho he's bad at this#he tried his best with felix but they were just making each other worse#and turbo while feeling betrayed never really moved on (yes even after 25 years he's PATHETIC)#and felix is just full of regret about everything but he won't admit his mistakes in his relationship with turbo#bc “well he turned out to be a bad person so that automatically makes me in the right about everything”#but felix had made a lot of bad decisions while dating turbo and was just classically ignorant about a ton of things#sorry about this random ass essay in tags i'm done for now#wreck it ralph#wir
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will solace being absolutely covered in freckles is so special to me because of how ppl sometimes refer to freckled skin as 'sun-kissed' and smth smth about how apollo really does love his kids and you can physically SEE it on wills skin and sjdkfnskflnjsk
#DOES THIS MAKE SENSE?????#i can feel my brain wanting to be more poetic and artistic about this but alas. maybe something about how even tho the gods cant really#talk or interact with their kids much. at least apollo can still send them his warmth.#yall are better at this than me tho so if anyone wants to elaborate more elegantly. please.#OH and if any of u fuckers say smth about how im romanticizing skin damage im going to fukcing get you#pjo#will solace#trials of apollo#toa#apollo#lester papadopoulos#apollo pjo
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eldest daughter behavior
#he just like me fr#can you tell that I used to be an osomatsu kinnie#osomatsu san is like an old wound I got from the war that’s healed but still acts up during dubious employment periods#yes I am currently job hunting why do you ask#digital art#my art#osomatsu matsuno#osomatsu san#mr osomatsu#actually no I don’t think he deserves the Mr title there’s too much respect behind that#why do I feel like his English name would be some shit like craig#I’ve only ever cosplayed once in my life and it was this fucker#I still have the bowlcut wig buried deep in my desk and it whispers to me like the green goblin mask#also I bought a surprisingly really high quality hoodie cosplay it’s very good for cold winter days#but it has a giant pine logo smack dab in the middle so it’s like wearing a sign that says bullied in highschool in public#who says watching osmtsan doesn’t do any good?#I watched two episodes the other day and immediately went on indeed and applied for another job thanks king 👍#hello to like the ten other matsuno fans still on here#I’m literally neeting it up at home right now#my friend says I’m doing better than them cuz I got my degree tho so I’m holding on so hard onto that 👊👊👊
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Okay so I still have this....
I fucking feel like a walking virus
#don't worry#ive been to the doctor#several times now actually#also got an ear infection on top of this#which they gave me antibiotics for today#i already have it almost a week#but they wanted to see if went away on its own#of course it didnt#i am taking my rest now#have been home for almost the whole week#still not really feeling any better tho#i hope this thing goes away before christmas#or i might be even too tired to celebrate#im so fucking done#and so tired#also a reason why i havent been online here as mucj#much*#i just cant find the energy#anyway#lets hope the antibiotics help#and i start to feel better soon#also#my ribs hurt an awful lot because im also still coughing#they sadly cant do anything for that tho#me#personal#sick#a cold#me rambling
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one of the things that fascinate me about thawne: yes, he CAN be normal with kids! surprisingly normal!
((not at all times, though. his mental illness still spills through and as usual he, in trying to manipulate or hurt others, spits out at them the exact stuff that would hurt him (or have in his childhood/barry's rejection interpretation) the most in the first place lmao))
but at the same time. his like second instinct when doing his bullshit is FUCK THEM (as) KIDS
(and, well. whatever this classifies as)
#whats wrong with him. seriously. he loves picking fights with literal children So Much#AND NONE OF THEM WITH WALLY ON THE MATTER OF BEING THE BIGGEST FLASH FAN. HOW DID THAT NEVER HAPPEN#about the middle page. honestly i DIDNT remember he is a Jerk in that way too until i checked his interactions with bart for this post#this man officially should not be allowed near children as a mentor.#just straight up drops ALL his insecurities on a poor kid in trying to make him feel ashamed. NO breaking the abuse cycle for this bad boy#the only thing he doesnt say is the direct 'you are a disappointment' altho the message is still the same 💀💀💀💀💀💀#AND I BET HES HELLA PROUD OF THAT. I MEAN CONSIDERING THIS FACT IG HE DOES TRY TO BE BETTER THAN HIS PARENTS. SOMEWHAT.#and omg he formulates his point like in problem based learning (leading the child to making the correct conclusion themselves)#im dying. professor to the fucking core.#and the way he feels the need to bring up flash facts in his appeal?? EO YOURE SO HOPELESS. THIS IS 100% HOW BART SAW HIM THROUGH#and god knows what he told thad promising to get him out of the speed force if he fought barry there and whether he was going to fulfill it#and do you even IMAGINE how FUCKED barry's mental condition would be growing up if thawne fulfilled his button threat#and i really REALLY wonder about the tornado twins and their relationship with 'uncle eobard' but that will be a separate post#he doesnt know any other way tho. and he might be actually mad at bart for not supporting his every action as The Flash#like. he tries to play family but the second they question he just goes WHATEVER. I DONT NEED IT. FLASH OF MY VISION RUNS ALONE#his problem is that he just wants attention. he doesnt see family/heroing for what 'its really about' or downsides that may come with them#everything is so idealized in his head. and the moment he faces reality with its complications the concept immediately gets antagonized.#and then he reconsiders and changes the conditions but fails each time never realizing the problem is his mindset and not everything else#black white at its finest yall#and man. RELATABLE.#also WHY is he standing LIKE A STATUE when appearing in front of bart????😭😭😭😭#poor museum rat has no idea what heroes in real life stand like#eobard thawne#professor zoom#reverse flash#the reverse flash#bart allen#the flash#dc
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maybe the real voltron was the friends we made along the way
#so i finished. feels like they did not put a lot of thought into shiro or hunk's epilogue lmfao#overall i dont think it was Bad. it could have been better yknow. but again. it feels like they just needed a little extra time to breathe#in development. it's just bones.#i do think perhaps some of the criticisms i have seen of it are just from people pissing on the poor#i could fix her!!! ough i really do want to rewrite this sdnfksjfd but that would unfortunately require. having to watch this again#and i cant do that in 24 hours#im so sad this is disappearing. this is the only show for which i ever stayed up for the midnight PST release#back when only season 1 and maybe 2? were out i used to watch them constantly. sometimes in spanish to practice#like i wouldnt have ever finished without the threat of it leaving but this is the worst timing to reawaken my affection for it lmao#grateful for it. wish i hadnt waited so long#i did need time to forget the insanity tho bc if i had made myself keep going and finish at the time#it would have poisoned the ending i think. nice to finally watch those last 4-5 episodes with a fresh perspective#but at the same time this is How Many Years ive missed out on being able to talk about it lmao#maybe there is a renaissance. idk i havent looked into it too much but i guess i should now huh#we'll see if things are any different or if it's just the same shit i got tired of the first time around#but anyway. the show is still fun and i enjoyed it for the most part. very sad to see it go#mine#voltron
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my best friend heating pad
#i did take the prescription painkillers but they took a while to kick in and made me really dizzy which is a common side effect so#i do feel a lot better i didnt have any pain 7th hour#did as soon as i got on the bus tho so. we're sitting with the heating pad for a bit#i feel silly for complaining as much as i have bc these arent even close to the worst cramps ive had im just very annoyed with them#i knew it was gonna happen But Still
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still so heartbroken about my high school situationship not because i was in love but because for almost five years i was playing second fiddle to the most boring girl imaginable who, in retrospect, i was way prettier and cooler than but who made me feel so bad about myself at that time, trying to be more like her and never getting it right bc she was just so boring i couldnt stand it, and like internalizing all of that for years, really putting the last nail into my general insecurities and inability to form romantic relationships
#and this is why im a boring woman hater im not sorry#like most straight men dont want a person as their partner but a empty shell of a woman who laughs at everything they say and is stupid#and i could never be like that#just saw myself comkng out of the shower with wet hair which is so random but hanging out at the public pool in hs w friends including her#the situationship i was soscared of getting my hair wet bc i thought itd make me look ugly in comparison to her#mind you we were like 16 17 here... but i just saw myself and i looked really good even tho im sick rn and like#im just grieving rn bc i was so insecure for no reason and how much that mindset is still affecting me today#i do know now that im seeking out relationships like that subconsciously for whatever reason but that doesnt make it feel any better <3#i dont want to be the vampire armand anymore....
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#the squids only make it better. they dont ruin the vibe they enhance it#hiiiii i was gonna play more today after work and have fun posting about it but#i felt really bad and didnt actually play. this is from yesterday#i feel really fucking weak for some reason. thought it would go away when i relaxed a bit but it didnt#hope i dont wake up sick :/ it might just be exhaustion i've barely been sleeping#still not tired tho lol#video#mine#shadertag#i like these calm lil snippets i just like sharing them. this is like nature photography to me kjhfg#i touch grass and then i open up a video game and touch grass again. what a wonderful life i live ���#god i need it to be summer NOW where are my bugs where are they#ordering a Real Camera to test it out a bit.. ordering it closer to summer tho. dont need to run my credit card up just yet#idk if you guys will see any quality difference or not but hopefully you will :D we'll see
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i just rememberd adhd meds exist and now im upset because i could have that if it wasn't for that freakin neurologyst we went to see that told us it was impossible that i could have adhd because i have good grades in school. literally the ONLY question he asked me and immediately said it was impossible. we spent like 5 minutes there. he could've at least... explained something???? anything?????? and now i'd feel bad about asking my parents to see another neurologist because that costs a lot of money :((
#now im just unable to concentrate on anything and feeling very worthless#ok gonna start rambling here a bit#vent? ->#i'm just not good at anything except drawing. everything is hard and i don't think i'm capable of getting a job and contributing to society#in any way except drawing. my self worth is being held almost entirely by my ability to draw.#but i'm also incredibly slow and unproductive and it's so hard sitting down and starting a drawing and finishing that drawing#drawing is the thing that makes me feel alive and feel good about myself so when i can't draw i just feel really awful#i just wish i could concentrate and work and be productive man. why do i have so much stuff going on in my brain. why is everything so hard#sadge 😔😔#ok gonna try to draw i hope something cool comes out or i'm throwing my computer out the window and playing videogames#oh also another neurologist once told me depression can't be caused by school#i'm pretty sure it can but idk im not a doctor#what is up with these neurologists man#i know it's gonna get better tho. life might suck but i *am* a teenager and it's only gonna go up from here.#im still learning about myself and stuff. also no school next year that's gonna be awesome#don't wanna end on a sad note bc life is good actually#and i'm fucking amazing at drawing
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i fear i am actually not that smart and i need to remember this more often
#camera talks#i just make myself feel really bad for not taking any ap classes this year even tho i know if i did#i probably would have fucking. thing im not supposed to say but yk.#like it was already so stressful#im glad i didnt take any#but also im not top of my class quality and i need to get over that#im middle of the pack etc whatever i just need to get through this#and my sat score honestly sucks#i could have done so much fucking better but i'll probably die before i retake that#and I’m struggling so bad to write this speech it’s not good#I hate school so much#still going to college tho#oopsie this is a vent again#I’m having a day guys
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decided to leave my job and i'm gonna fr gonna cryyyyy
#literally can't work with my new boss bc i can't trust her#she went to the head of the department with complaints abt me without ever speaking to me or giving me any indication she was unhappy#and various other reasons im not happy w management and the school in general#HOWEVER#i love the kids sm and im gonna miss them and worry abt them 😭😭😭😭#im literally scared for some of them bc it feels like the other teachers have no empathy for some of my favorite kids#one of them who is so so sweet and when he cries i'm the girst to comfort him bc everyone else thinks he needs to toughen up 😭#also my new boss sucks so so bad and is gonna be such a bad influence on him and all the other kids#and my main co teacher said she's gonna quit if i do so i cant even beg her to look out for my babies and take care of them 😭💔#and it would be unprofessional to mention any concerns to the parents but genuinely some of the kids would be better off elsewhere#like im actually worried about it#i dont want some of the really sweet sensitive kids to lose their sweetness bc they're being treated unkindly#and the worst bullies and spoiled kids are the ones the teachers dote on#so it encourages some of the sweet ones to act out for attention#anyway 💔#i really do need to go tho#and i'm sure i'll love the kids at my new job#but im so sadddd#also its unlikely i can find a well paying job w this age group even tho i love this age group#its basically impossible not to get attached to them at this age and i get to pick them up and hold and cuddle them and stuff#and you cant really do that with the older kids sadly#literally on the verge of tears even seriously thinking abt leaving#things have been p bad for a while due to management but i never seriously considered leaving bc i love the kids so much#but i literally can't see a future here#and my new boss clearly hates me and im worried she's going to try to get me fired#she already made up a bunch of lies about me and its only been three weeks#anyway i only make 15 an hour so hopefully i'll at least get more somewhere else and i know i'll still love the kids#its just really hard#which is why i've stayed this long#i was p unhappy before my new boss even started bc of the way they treated my old boss
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cryptic spoiler for what im writing rn
#ive kind been sleeping on venus in overdrive tbh it's really got some bangers#i wish he'd gone a little less pop with it. if he did live versions/rerecorded versions w more of an... edgy? feel#like he did w 80's songs on the greatest hits... alive live album i think it would rise to one of my all time favorites#i consider every alive version of songs better than the studio versionshis guitar and vocals are better. especially dont talk to strangers#like what's victoria's secret? and i'll miss that someday are rlly good but just feel like something's missing and more of an alive feel#would fix them#title track is fine as is tbh it's got enough going on doesnt feel empty at all#time stand still is the huge exception tho it would be actively worse w the alive treatment. it's kinda too light and empty but in a way#that's appropriate and works perfectly#but sadly i don't think he'll overhaul any of these he doesn't seem very fond of venus in overdrive?#none of it makes it into his set lists and it's underrepresented in his recent big hits compilation album#he def loves rocket science so many of those on big hits. im hoping he'll do some kinda rerecording and that's why it's been taken off#spotify... shock/denial/anger/acceptance wasn't on spotify for a hot minute until he released a 20th anniversary deluxe version this year#i also think a stripped down/acoustic version of rocket science would work really well#sorry i smoked weed and got really autistic abt rick springfield apparently
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It’s hard to put on a bright face, in spite of everything (Patreon)
#Doodles#Flowey#UT#Underfell#Just regular Underfell this time! His interactions with Fellplates!Gaster are fun but it was also a great springboard of thinking of Just He#I've never really considered Underfell!Flowey - I love that he's duplicitous and tragic and terrible <3 So a happy Flowey was just kinda#Fine I guess? Kinda missing his depth tho isn't he?#That's what I thought initially anyway hehe ♪ I think he could definitely hold some lies in his belly still ♫#I think no matter what version you end up with - no matter what stimuli you introduce to him - you're going to end up with Flowey™#He's still just a lost little soul with too much Determination and the ability to use it to his own ends - and he's bored. And he's Tired#Especially of getting killed all the time - that whole Kill or Be Killed thing got old Fast - faster than it did in Undertale anyhow#He's still just a fearful little dust-coward in there <3 And when he loses his ability to come back? Oh I think that'd scare him silly#I don't believe for a second that he'd be any more merciful to the player if he didn't think he'd get something from it#Protection - new things to see or feel - maybe he'd even have something of a capacity to be appreciative that'd be nice#And I do think he'd be genuinely helpful! But I think it'd have a Lot of the same undercurrents as what happens to him in the Genocide run#Depends a lot on the player as well - maybe the kinder you are to other monsters the better he'd behave#But would it be out of fear or cockiness of still surviving haha ♪ I just love when he's the worst! He's my favourite when he's the worst!#I think the big question would be Omega Flowey - I mean. Even someone kind-hearted like Asriel became what he did#And Asgore was willing to give himself up to become a True Monster as well - I just :| I don't think he'd fare well lol#Maybe the rules are different in Underfell I dunno but if the rules are the same-#But then again ♪ I also like it when he has the opportunity to be terrible and then doesn't. For whatever reason - selfish - selfless#He's just my favourite :) And it's fun to imagine him acting differently from the same source/different reasons hehe
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i started watching tbb but. it's so surface level. does it get better?? I'm super disappointed by the s1 finale
#don't get me wrong tho. it's not bad (which is a lot for disney's star wars). it's just. a little boring#idk. 90% of it is just Clone Action™ but they haven't. developed any character in the first season#like. I'm supposed to like omega but they just. straight up assumed everyone would like a kid. but who is she. what are her motivations.#or better. dont tell em who she is and what her motivations are. SHOW ME!! but nah they're not doing that#also. so many cameos?? some are cool but damn were the hera episodes necessary? i don't think so#i mean. they could've been better if it was less action and more the parts that develop the early empire days and transition#those scenes were HELLA COOL in theory but the execution was kinda flat and uninteresting#everyone here loves the show so i think I'll finish it hoping it gets better#but. please someone tell me that crosshair having removed his chip was like. a lie he told. it can't be real?? how? why?#it's strips away all the tragedy and what makes him interesting. please tell me he lied and it's not just subversion for subversion's sake#BUT ON A POSITIVE NOTE: I LOVE CID?? SHE'S SO COOL???? I LOVE HER AND I LOVE HOW SHE SAYS BANDANA (ik it's very random)#Anyway. damn i was hoping for a lot of Tragedy and Horror (esp. about the chip) and a lot more worldbuilding stuff.#like. i imaged it would be a sort of follow up on tcw - like. seeing the empire trying to settle especially in separatists' worlds.#that raxus episode was sooo wasted. idk man. AND WHERE IS THE HORROR#like i understand that there is a kid so it wouldn't be an andor kind of show; and it's fine to have the kid that relieves the tension#but there is literally none. like. idk the show would benefit from having a little more Tragic Momentum™#that actually means something i mean. not that bombardment of kamino right after omega kinda admitted she didn't like living in that lab#and asked the same to crosshair implying she too didn't really like kamino that much#ARRGHHH SO MANY FEELINGS. SO MUCH WASTED POTENTIAL#but it's still enjoyable so THAT'S SOMETHING#star wars#sw#the bad batch#g posting
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