#still it makes me euphoric ���

[lycandrophile]

if you’re young and transmasc and the people in your life haven’t been great about the whole thing and you’re starting to feel like it might be easier to just give up and pretend to be the person they want you to be, i need you to hold on. because the thing is, one second you’re 16 and a future where you get to make decisions about your own body and life feels so impossibly far away and you can’t imagine living like this for that long, but then you blink and it’s been six years and you’re in your car with the music blasting and your voice is lower than the guy in the song’s and your hair is long for the first time in a decade because you’re finally confident enough to grow it out again on your own terms and your chest hasn’t been weighed down in months and it’s the freest you’ve ever felt in your life and i promise it will be worth the wait. don’t give up on yourself.

[theatrekidenergy]

I JUST FOUND OUT I CAN BIKE WITHOUT* PAIN!!!!! I JUST FOUND OUT I CAN BIKE WITHOUT PAIN!!!!!!! I NOW HAVE TWO PHYSICAL ACTIVITIES I CAN DO WITHOUT PAIN!!!!!!! I CAN BIKE WHEN IM NOT FIGURE SKATING!!!!!!! IM GENUINELY SOBBING RIGHT NOW THIS IS SUCH A MASSIVE THING FOR ME YOU DONT UNDERSTAND

* = check tags for explanation

[uncanny-tranny]

I think sometimes, people can be intimidated by the idea that as they transition, they will stop feeling euphoria or happy in their gender, and I think that's assuming incorrectly many times. It isn't that you completely stop feeling those feelings, but they might change and grow and even grow in intensity as you start transitioning the way you want to.

I've been transitioning for years, and I find that when I am lifting, when I am helping people, when I am creating, I feel so much more euphoric because now, I feel more free to truly hone these skills and crafts.

I think for some, they've internalized the idea that if they are not completely and utterly happy all the time, ecstatic to the nth degree, that says something about the viability of their transition or even their transness. The impulse to cover up your feelings, to be fearful all the time of your own self will only alienate you further from yourself. It's okay to not be sure, but I worry sometimes if that is inhibiting people from what they want.

[mushtoons]

something is unique about being a woman headmate in a transmasc body, we were so feminine we were in my ideal body but it was altered to please the majority of the headmates and the host so we were suddenly manly, masculine, my opposite (not that im upset at them, i understand) but I'm host now its my turn to make the body fit my aesthetic and its such a rush of euphoria to look and the mirror and see a girl again 💕 (<- put makeup on and our hair in the world's smallest ponytail now we're giddy heheheheh 💕‼️)

[lemonycranberries]

you know... I was still being able to hold myself together. kind of. but not after this scene. oh no. that guy made this speech and the leaves started appearing as Isaac smiled and oh my god. and then crush culture started playing on the soundtrack. and then I started singing along. and when I realized I was crying. and laughing. and I had to go back a few minutes and rewatch this beautiful scene. the second time around I didn't even try. I actually just cried, laughed hysterically, put my hands on my face and cried some more as I screamed along to Crush Culture. I realized I was literally shaking. the feeling of being seen this much on a screen... it's something I had actually never experienced before. this means much more than just a scene on a TV show. this feels like the beginning of something. this feels like actual representation. the things I just felt right now are simply indiscribable.

[hella1975]

there may be an influx of ethel cain mutuals atm and im even willing to share the podium but i will ALWAYS be the strangers mutual. stay humble

[todayisafridaynight]

and when i think of daigo telling mine he loves him i scream and cry and need to kill to feel normal

[amiracleilluminated]

no but fr, in the mornings and evenings i sound like strahm after he stabbed himself with that pen

[lasshoe]

I’M A STALLION RUNNING

NO CANDLE IN THE WIND

YOU WONT EVER SEE ME COMING OR GOING BUT YOULL KNOW WHENEVER IM HERE

DANCING IN THE MOONLIGHT

CATCHING EVERY BREEZE

MY FEET ON THE DASHBOARD NOW GO REALLY FAST BOY

[feeling-kinda-sad-ngl]

i dont think i could wear these out regularly though, more of an inside alone thing just for me yk?

[tkbrokkoli]

how are my mutuals doing

[uncanny-tranny]

Another thing that should have tipped me off that I was trans was I was raised on country music, yeah? I'm not talking the good country between ~1940-1980, by the way, I'm talking the 2000s, but all those country songs that the man was talking about his girl? I always pictured this distant future where I was like this cowboy who got all kinds of ladies.

I don't think my closeted self would dream of myself being where I am now, but I still do hope being a cowboy is at the least in my future...

[eelslippers]

I've seen memes within the trans community about fall out new vegas being a trans media and I recently started playing it for the first time and I don't think it's a coincidence that now I'm thinking about my gender identity again

[narutosfrogwallet]

every time i have to shave my shitty pathetic facial hair a small piece of my soul dies

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

[houseofwolvess]

currently in cosplay at a convention and holy shit it's so fun