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you know... I was still being able to hold myself together. kind of. but not after this scene. oh no. that guy made this speech and the leaves started appearing as Isaac smiled and oh my god. and then crush culture started playing on the soundtrack. and then I started singing along. and when I realized I was crying. and laughing. and I had to go back a few minutes and rewatch this beautiful scene. the second time around I didn't even try. I actually just cried, laughed hysterically, put my hands on my face and cried some more as I screamed along to Crush Culture. I realized I was literally shaking. the feeling of being seen this much on a screen... it's something I had actually never experienced before. this means much more than just a scene on a TV show. this feels like the beginning of something. this feels like actual representation. the things I just felt right now are simply indiscribable.
#who knew screaming “CRUSH CULTURE MAKES ME WANT TO SPILL MY GUTS OUT” while watching a TV show could heal me internally so much.#won't even be able to talk to my allo friends about it... they have literally no idea what this means to me#now my face is kinda burning because I cried too much#who cares#not me#I feel euphoric#ofc this isn't the first time we see an aroace on television EVER#and Koisenu Futari will never ever stop being one of my favorite shows#but still#while watching this I felt. things.#because the meaning of this is so much bigger than simply aroace teens being able to see themselves on a TV show#which is already VERY important#it means being acknowledged in many different ways#it means a path for aspec rep is being carved#it means those feelings which have isolated me so much during my life can now be shared#it means everything.#heartstopper tv show#heartstopper s2#isaac henderson#aro rep#ace rep#aroace rep#aspec rep#aromantic#aro#asexual#ace#heartstopper#v rambles#my posts
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Congratulations on your followers milestone! Can I ask for the prompt "first fight" with Dabi?
Scars and All
Dabi/Touya x Reader
Details/Warnings: lowkey toxic relationship, arguing, kinda angsty LMAO i'm sorry i cant help but make dabi angsty. hurt/comfort i think, angst to fluff? dabi is trying, okay? also dabi is called touya in this fic!
Word Count: 957
hello thank you sm for your ask and the congratulations :) i hope you like this, i really like dabi bc 1) hes hot lol and 2) hes such a well written character. also i'm going to start writing in all lowercase bc its what im used to and upper case drives me crazy!!
loneliness was something that consumed you constantly. it was a scary feeling sometimes, especially because of the things it could drive someone to do.
you wished you didn't feel like this, but you couldn't help it.
before getting into a relationship with touya, you knew of the lifestyle he lived and how much of his time it took up. at first you thought you could handle it, but over time you soon realized that wasn't true. hours of him being gone quickly turned into days, sometimes even weeks and it was driving you crazy. you really wanted to try and continue to sit compliantly and let him do what he wished to do, but you were at your wits end.
sometimes you wondered why you even continued to put up with him, especially when you knew deep down that he'd probably choose to continue committing villainous acts over your relationship.
but you knew the answer to that-it was because you loved him, and sometimes love can make you do crazy things.
so now here you were; sitting on the old couch in your living room. the edges of the fabric having frayed ends and burn marks here and there from the moments touya let his temper get the best of him.
you can't remember how long you've been sitting there anxiously, waiting for your boyfriend to get home, but you felt your heart beat faster when you heard the front door being unlocked.
you wiped your sweaty palms on your pants and took a deep breath, trying to prepare yourself to confront touya, who sighed as he walked through the door and his heavy boots thudding along with each step.
he walked over to you and threw himself down on the couch, placing an arm around your shoulders and pulling you into him. moments like this made it hard to stay mad.
he placed a kiss on your temple, "hey. you miss me?"
you fiddled with your fingers as you leaned further into his chest, "of course i did. i'm glad you're home."
he tilted his head down to look at you, "then how come you don't sound happy, huh?" he asked, squeezing your shoulder as he did so.
you frowned, knowing he'd caught onto your bad mood already. he was way too perceptive sometimes.
"i am happy touya, i promise." you insisted, "it's just..."
"it's just what?"
you sat up from your position and faced him, but it was hard to look him in the eyes. "i just wanted to talk to you about something that's been bothering me."
he looked at you for a moment, expressionless, making you even more nervous until he said, "alright, what is it?"
you took a deep breath.
"you're never home touya, and i miss you." you frowned, "i worry about you and when you're gone for so long i get lonely. i miss spending time with you."
he groaned, "babe, do you not understand why i'm gone? or do i need to tell you, is that it?" he asked.
you regretted this now.
"no, i know why but it's just-"
"if you know why, then why do you fucking ask me?!" he yelled, making you shrink into yourself. you two had bickered over things before and there were even times when you needed space from each other, but touya had never yelled at you like this.
you could feel your eyes prick with tears and the lump in your throat grow, "touya don't yell at me!" you cried.
"i'm yelling at you so you get this through your god damn head!" he snapped, "i can't be here, sitting on my ass like you every fucking day. i have shit i need to do to make my plans happen!"
you gasped at his words. did he really think that's all you did?
"you know damn well i don't just stay at home on my ass, touya! i work too!" you said, tapping his chest with your finger as you pointed it at him.
"i buy the groceries! i make the food! i wash your blood stained clothes! i do everything i can, but you don't know because you're never here!" you yelled, taking a deep breath after so you could continue speaking.
you sighed heavily and spoke softly, your energy gone from yelling. "you're never here touya..." you sniffed, letting the tears run down your cheeks. you brought your hands up to your eyes to wipe them away, "i love you, so i miss you. i just wish you were home more so i don't have to spend my nights all alone."
touya was breathing heavily, but sitting silently as he processed your words. he was perceptive, sure, but he wasn't really good with emotions and dealing with people when they were upset.
feeling guilty, he wrapped his arms around your crying figure and hugged you tightly to his chest. he brought a hand up to your head and stroked it gently, shushing your cries. you stayed like that until your crying had become sniffles with occasional hiccups.
"i'm sorry," he said softly, "i'm sorry i'm always gone. i fucking suck at this, i don't know how to be here for you... but i'm going to do better now, for you, okay? i love you too. i don't say that enough."
you brought your hands away from your face and wrapped your arms around his waist, leaning your head against his beating heart and closing your eyes.
"as long as you try, touya. i know you're not perfect, and that's okay with me. i love you the way you are."
"scars and all?" he asked jokingly, making you giggle.
"scars and all."
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love ya!
#@angels-fantasy#fanfiction#fanfic#anime#writers on tumblr#my hero academia#dabi#dabi x reader#dabi x you#mha dabi#touya todoroki#touya x reader#angst with a happy ending#angst#mha angst#hurt/comfort
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On my hands and knees for some general headcannons for Koba, a fragile friendship forged from a hunt gone wrong or just mildly getting along like pissy siblings 😭. Your writings are so memorizing, and it's like eating a 5-star meal. All the kudos and love for you as my favorite pota writer
[General Koba drabble/ headcanons!] [Platonic]
Summary: Koba deals with you because he absolutely has to, not because he actually cares for you.
Warnings: Platonic Koba and Reader, Koba being a dick but that's canon.
A/N: THANK YOU SO SUCH KIND WORDS I TWIRLED MY HAIR??? this literally means so much to me, thank you :( I tried my best to incorporate both ideas you had! I hope this is good, Koba is kinda hard to write for and I am nervous lmfao.
Ohhh my fucking god, will he never let you rest.
Koba doesn't love humans, it is so very very very apparent in everything he does that he DOESN'T like you, he would let you drop dead in front of him without caring.
Imagine his shock and gal when he starts to actually form some kind of attachment to you. How bitter it makes him to think he can even have a somewhat positive thought about you.
It makes him want to claw his fur out, maybe even go blind in his other eye to get some damn sense into him. How dare you, and if he cared to use human curse words, he'd call you every name in the book.
He begrudgingly will help you learn how to hunt, and I mean begrudgingly. Caesar has to damn near hold the bonobo at gun point to get him to stop being so fucking hostile and just give you a chance.
He watches you from a tree as you hunt pitifully, the spear much too large for you to wield like apes do. It's pathetic really, watching you stumble like a baby elk with no sense of balance. You can't spear a single fish.
"Human...stupid." The Bonobo sneers, rolling his eyes after you continuously miss, he can see your face burn with what he's been told is embarrassment. Serves you right.
Koba has no actual plans on helping you, until he starts to see you throw your spear onto the forest floor with a thump, curling into yourself, hiding your face in your knees.
Great, now you're crying and he's gonna have to be the one to deal with it. Just, Great. Just what he wanted to deal with.
Koba is already mentally trying to prepare himself to get down and attempt to soothe those pitiful cries coming from you when he hears footsteps rapidly approaching.
You, being so caught up in your own world, don't realise a mountain lion is stalking you, but Koba does.
It's scary how fast he can move at his age and with his disabilities, he's down the tree and at your side before you even realize.
The growl he lets out startles you enough to break out of whatever trance you find yourself in, watching Koba plunge his own spear at the mountain lion, the large cat yowling when it's hit You can't help but let out a yelp of your own.
Koba puts more force, piercing the jagged rock deeper into its neck, breathing harshly from the extension.
The cat falls silent finally, Koba turning to you, staring down at you with a glower.
"....stupid."
Koba chooses to ignore how you look back at him with appreciation, he didnt do it for you, he did it for Caesar. Doesn't matter if it gives him a pleasant feeling deep in his core.
This starts you both off with a rocky 'friendship' between you and the old Bonobo.
He doesn't like that you seem to keep following him around the colony and very vocally tries to scare you off. Hell, he tries to pawn you off to Stone and Grey, but it's no use.
For some reason, you've decided that you'd make his existence even harder and make it a point to bug him.
He hates it. He hates you even more. But it's akin to having a dog, and he lets you know so.
"Like dog. Follow Koba." "That's rude." "...good."
He's such an asshole it's ridiculous. What do you see in him?
Koba eventually gets used to his new normal, antagonizing you just as much as you do him.
He's learned how to get away with fucking with you so that he doesn't get in trouble with Caesar or the others.
Fucker has pushed you into the lake more times than you can count and it makes him huff out laughter. It's all under the guise of being playful.
Jokes on him because you constantly will try and touch him, saying he has fleas or what not, only for him to growl at you when you pull back and stick up a middle finger towards his face. Peak sibling behavior tbh
Caesar sees you as a good thing for Koba, exposure to a human that isn't out to harm.
No matter what Koba claims, you're harmless. Everyone knows this.
They fight about it, Koba adamantly saying he was no part in caring for you, but when Caesar raises an eyebrow ridge, signing quickly that this isn't a discussion, Koba fumes.
Would rather drop dead than admit he misses your presence. If you decide to spend more time with Maurice or Rocket, he gets so pissy.
Koba will drag you away if you push him hard enough, grabbing you by your waist and dragging you. He doesn't care if you don't want him man handling you, oh well.
I know it in my heart that he yanks your hair to piss you off. He does it to get your attention. It's never for anything of importance, he just likes that it pisses you off.
"You can literally just chatter, and I'll hear it!"
The asshole just shrugs with one shoulder.
He's insufferable, and I hate him.
#FIRST KOBA FIC HOW DID I DO IS THIS BAD BE HONEST#teddy asks ♧#teddy loves apes ☆#planet of the apes x reader#planet of the apes#pota#koba#koba x reader#platonic
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Lego Monkie Kid Rewatch: Special
Embrace You're Destiny Part 1/5
I like to imagine LBD didn't just put on eye shadow here. She's covered her entire face concealer, foundation, and make up. Employing every trick of the cometic trade to try and make herself look older.
Also, look at our Not-the-Mayor. He so blissfully happy. I kinda want to show it to my non-lmk-fan friends to see what vibe they pick up from these two.
I forgot how wonderfully condescending this villain was with Wukong. Usually Wukong is the one that gets under people's skins. Its kinda fun to see the tables reversed.
I need a stress toy that looks like that frog. Not so I can squeeze it.
No. Rather so I can pat it lovingly and set it calmly on a lily pad within a tranquil pod where it can gaze up into the endless sky as if questioning the meaning of life.
These faces.
I shall cherish these faces.
"You are the second most annoying person I know!"
Friendship status achieved!
"Its an inter dimensional weapon with a destructive power to burn through the very fabric of reality."
Inter dimensional? I didn't grasp the first time how outlandish and freaking scary that statement is. First, how does Red Son know this? Second, how did a little baby demon get born with a power from outside of their universe?
And does this mean it came from outside of Nuwa's order, that the Samadhi Fire is from or a part of chaos? Was it created by or snuck in like illegal contraband by the Nine-Headed Demon? What if the Samadhi Fire originally made/brought in by 9-guy to try and eat away the cycle so he could be free. But something about that plan back fired or failed and 9-Heads repurposed it in this later plan to help get the noodle gang and MK up to snuff defeating LBD for the future defeat of suped up Azure Lion. Was it them who put the fire in Red Son or was this an accident that got away from them which 9-snake-head found a way to work in their favour?
Love that Mei gives the same big glossy eyes of admiration for adorable puppies and over the top displays of power.
She has a unique sense of whats cute in her book.
I love that when Mei is opening up to Red Son and expressing her fear of losing control and hurting everyone, he has a flashback of himself losing control, not being enough, hurting others.
And then he tells her that that won't happen to her, because she and MK are protectors.
I love this so much, you don't understand. Red Son recognises that he failed. He lost control and hurt others. But Mei didn't. Not because she is more powerful than him or because he is just too weak himself. No, because when he had the fire, he laughed and reveled in the consuming destruction, even as it hurt him. But when Mei got the fire, she despaired. She screamed her anger over those who had hurt her friends, and then cried because she understood how the fire was hurting those she cared about. There was no joy, just anguish.
Mei is a protector, and that is what makes all the difference.
Red Son: 'Oh no! I was just emotionally vulnerable! Quick, act natural!'
Starts lecturing.
Wukong just brute forcing his way through her fancy protective spell work.
No finesse. Just powerhouse.
Wait…. is that?
I channeled my inner Macaque art skills for this one.
"I've known Sun Wukong a long time. He's not the loner he pretends to be."
What truth! How many centuries did he sit in his cave with that mural of his pilgrim brothers staring down at him?
"He seems important to you, so I can only assume you're equally as important to him. If there is anyone who he needs right now, its you."
How long has Nezha known this kid? And yet he is able to give the kid one of the most heartfelt and genuine pep talks I've heard all season. This is kinda what a good therapist is able to do. An outside perspective who knows just how to reach you in whatever mental state you are in from just a few interactions. They hear your fears, they see you're stress, and they equip you with the words and tools you need to keep fighting.
I know Most-Likely-Not-the-Mayor asked Wukong to dance, but it really feels like LDB and Not-Actually-Any-Kind-of-Mayor are the ones waltzing and Wukong is just the floor beneath their slippers. How expertly they move in time with one another! Probably-Jobless-and-Not-a-Mayor keeps Wukong busy then when his lady is ready, he just bats Wukong right into her waiting arms.
He ducked.
This floor is slippery.
Makeup gone! Wukong scared the eye shadow right off of her.
You can talk all you want lady. I know you're not as sure of yourself as you say.
"What about this guy! Is he in you're future!
"As a matter of fact. No."
Ouch. this is why I love her. She does not care. Also, her makeup is back. Guess she's back to being cool and collected.
I know, Ne Zha. I know. I too would have left him in the hole.
But MK is a different breed who wants to save everyone so don't you dare try and squash that kind heart of his. What a gem.
Although, knowing his original purpose was to sacrifice himself for the sake of all beings… then is this Mk being MK or is this him feeding into his ~Destiny~
I sense a lot more mental conflict in season 6 as MK wrestles with the question of what parts of his behaviour and actions is really him choosing his own path and what is him followoing the pre-writen coding Nuwa jammed in to make him the perfect sacrifice?
Another reminder that MK is not Wukong.
MK took the time out of his mission to protected Probably-Doesn't-have-an-ID-or-Birth-Certificate-So-No-Way-Could-He-have-Ever-been-the-Mayor while Wukong is willing to sacrifice the life of this innocent girl to stop Lady Bone Demon.
This scene of Wukong getting possessed shows up in so many AMVs and art that I forgot about the creepy manic laughter that was going on in the background. Suddenly, a shot I'd seen over and over with epic music and rising vocals, became different.
Thank you Victoria Grace for your chilling performance. You haunt the scene even when your not in focus.
New that bird was sus
Its weird that Macaque has such a strong connection to MK this season. Like… first season MK was just a means to an end. Macaque didn't care one way about the kid. But this season… He's constantly trying to protect MK in his own messed up way. From trying to teach him a lesson because he thinks MK is too much like Wukong to goading MK into fighting back so if he can have an excuse for why he never brought the kid to LBD.
And now hanging around to pull him back in the nick of time. What changed? Why is Macaque putting his neck out there for MK when he is so quick to throw everyone else under the bus to protect himself?
I go back to season 5, when Macaque challenges Wukong about why chose MK as his successor, and Wukong says he was just drawn to the kid, that there was something in the kid that just felt right. Does Macaque feel that too?
#lego monkie kid#lmk lady bone demon#lmk not-the-mayor#lmk wukong#lmk red son#lmk mei#lmk nezha#lmk mk#lmk macaque#lmk season 5 spoilers
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Ok but-
Gojo insisting you kiss his cheek / neck / anywhere really before your lipstick is dry bc he loves to let the world know he's taken by you
Cries and yells. He’s not even subtle about his… thing (he refuses to call it a fetish or a kink, and will insist it’s just a you thing he’s got). He pretends to not pay that much attention to you while you’re doing your makeup, but the second you get to your lips, he straightens up—if he were a dog you would see his ears stand up, you’re certain of it. Follows the curves of your lips while you apply it and gives you that crooked smile when you’re done, “You look so pretty, my love. Why don’t you come give me a kiss?”
“You waited until now?” you question, turning and standing with a pout, “My lipstick will get all over you.”
Satoru shrugs, that stupid, stupid, lovesick smile still sat on his face; and it only grows wider when he watches you pout with color-stained lips. You look pretty like that too, he thinks. He wants a kiss, but maybe he should keep you talking, or pouting—briefly he wonders how your stained lips would look quivering while crying, wonders if you’d let him make that happen tonight.
“I don’t mind,” he answers, stepping forward, a gentle hand tucked under your chin—because while he doesn’t mind you smearing your lipstick on him, he knows better than to cradle your face after you’ve done your makeup, lest he really get chewed out. Though, briefly again, he thinks about how you kinda look pretty when you’re mad at him, too.
“You will when you’re covered in it,” you laugh, innocently, “And I don’t see any reason to waste it.”
He tilts his head, flickers his gaze to your lips, then your nose, then your eyes, “Is it a waste even if I’m asking?”
(“Wouldn’t you do anything for me?” is what he’s asking, “I would for you,” is what’s left unsaid).
“I suppose not,” you smile, reaching up to hold Satoru’s face between your hands. He waits, eyes closed, for you lean in and kiss him and he hums when your lips finally meet him; but you’re pulling away too soon, and his turn to pout, “More.”
He doesn’t open his eyes, doesn’t dare let you see just how desperate he is for you to touch him and claim him, but there’s an overwhelming sense of pride and happiness and mine mine mine that washes over him when you indulge him with another kiss. And another, and another, and soon he’s turning his head to make sure you hit his cheek instead, opening his eyes to catch the shock on your face. A glance over your head allows him to see his reflection in your vanity, blood rushing to his cheeks when he catches sight of his lipstick stain on his face.
He’s a bit disappointed when you firmly tell him that, no, he cannot walk into your dinner reservation with a lipstick stain on his cheek and that you won’t leave with him until he washes it off. He lets you, only because he makes you promise him one more, watching with greedy eyes as you happily waste another layer of lipstick just to bring Satoru’s hand to your face and kiss the inside of his wrist. The mark protrudes only the slightest bit under the cuff of his shirt, hidden completely with his blazer, but it feels like it burns his skin and all his layers throughout dinner.
Satoru’s practically vibrating by the time he’s asking for the check, the glimpse of his lipstick stained wrist enough to make him half-hard and delusional enough to turn down dessert in favor of getting home quickly. “It’s okay,” he muses, when he’s back on top of you, mouth and neck and collars messy with you naked under him, “I know how you can make it up to me.”
#anonymous#um………….. anyways………. so i like him a normal amount as you can tell by the length of this reply 😁😁😁#in my head it was red lipstick but i’m just biased bc that’s my favorite teehee but hear me out: he’s partial to dark colors (purple)#satoru x reader#gojo x reader
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⋆ ₊☽˚𝓵𝓸𝓷𝓰 𝓱𝓪𝓷𝓭𝓮𝓭 𝓵𝓸𝓿𝓮 𝓵𝓮𝓽𝓽𝓮𝓻𝓼˚☾₊ ⋆
𝓼𝓾𝓶𝓶𝓪𝓻𝔂 : you and coryo had gone through hell and back, you've been together and far apart yet you could never find the courage to say how you truly feel for him. so, you wrote them into letter form, but you never sent them. and so what happens when one mr. snow finds each and every letter only to realize that it's too late?
𝓽𝓻𝓲𝓰𝓰𝓮𝓻 𝔀𝓪𝓻𝓷𝓲𝓷𝓰𝓼 : written in letter form from the readers perspective, talks of jealousy and sad feelings, r is definitely from the capitol, self blame, kinda sorta depression, angst, deceit, suicide, coryo finally responds
𝓪/𝓷 : so here’s part three!! I’m ngl I cried writing this and I KNOW people were asking for a happy ending but I’m just gonna tell y’all now that this is angst NO/VERY LITTLE COMFORT! I just had to do it so here ya go! enjoy 😊!
𝓹𝓻𝓮𝓿𝓲𝓸𝓾𝓼 𝓹𝓪𝓻𝓽 | 𝓷𝓮𝔁𝓽 𝓹𝓪𝓻𝓽
⋆ ₊ ☽ ·˚𓍲⋆ 𝓹𝓪𝓻𝓽 𝓽𝓱𝓻𝓮𝓮: 𝓽𝓱𝓮 𝓭𝓮𝓯𝓮𝓪𝓽𝓮𝓭 ⋆𓍲˚· ☾ ₊ ⋆ Dear Coriolanus,
Time ticks on and on as does life; but that doesn’t mean it doesn’t hurt and it certainly doesn't mean that pain fades away with each passing day.
I heard from Mrs.Plinth that Sejanus was killed out in the districts. It must be so saddening knowing that your young son who had his whole life ahead of him died out in the districts all by himself.
I wonder if you saw him die, what were his last words?
Mrs.Plinth didn’t share much only saying that it was out in the districts and that she was very grateful that you were there for him.
Yet it also hurts knowing that you upended the trajectory of your life all for Lucy Gray.
What could she give you that I couldn’t?
People experience pain in such different ways. I remember when you got a cut when we were climbing trees in my backyard and you were stone faced acting like you were okay when I knew you weren’t. You hate blood and you especially hate pain and I know that.
All of us do really, I too was only eight when the war ended. We all went through the pain of hunger every single day, some even committed heinous acts to survive that will haunt them forever.
Some cower in terror and pain yet some rise above the pain. Some use that pain and anguish as a motivator to push forward and persevere.
Like you.
You know me, the runt of the litter. The forgotten one. Yet not by you, I know you would never forget me.
Just like I’ll never forget you.
Which is why it hurts so much to know that you still chose Lucy Gray over me. It still kills me when I think about my best friend, my first and forever love, who I’ve been through so much with choose a girl he’s just met over someone who's been on your side since day one.
What did I do wrong? Was it something I said? What could she have that I don’t?
Life has quieted down I guess, school is the same old same old, just the same boring day one after another. The Capitol just seems so dreary and dull, there is constant gloom plaguing the sky.
I like to think it’s because you’re not here. My sun, my moon illuminating the dark dark sky, shining brightly amongst the stars that have long burned out.
I really do miss you Coryo,
Yours Truly
Coriolanus,
I heard from Tigiris you’re finally on your way home.
Is Lucy Gray with you?
I wonder if she’s holding your hand at the very second, comforting you about coming back to the home you call hell. Have you told her about your life in the Capitol, I wonder?
Is she truly your home now, Coriolanus?
It seems everyone around me is finding what their lives were missing. Money, power, glory. Yet there is this hole in my heart and my life in the shape of you.
I will never find home.
Many people say that home is where the heart is or that home is a person or idea rather than a physical place and they’re right.
Because my home will forever be you, Coriolanus.
And it rips my chest apart to know that I will never be able to go home because a pretty little bird has decided to peck her way into my home and build a fragile little nest. It hurts even more to know that you protected that nest.
Are there little birdies tweeting in that nest now?
I wonder if you have Sejanus’ stuff. You really were that boy's best friend, you know that Coriolanus?
Just like how you were my best friend. Before the war, before Celmensia, before Sejanus, before Lucy Gray.
But hey, you’re finally on the way back to the Capitol, right?
You’re finally coming back home to me.
I truly do hope I am the first one you call.
Love,
Your Darling awaiting your call
To Coriolanus Snow,
My grave has been long set for I dug it. I have made my bed now, I must lie in it.
By the time you read this I will have already been long dead. The ache in my chest drove me to it, the numbing hole that consumed my being was no longer tolerable.
My head was drowning in anger, sadness, love. All for you my dearest Coriolanus.
I find myself writing as if there is tomorrow yet I truly do know that there won’t be a future for me.
I’ve reread every single unsent letter I have written for you and the gaping hole in my chest grows larger with every word I read for I know deep in my soul that I will never be able to go back in time and tell myself that it’s all worth it because I’m ow that it isn’t.
It’s ruining my life, Coriolanus, please do not think less of me for it.
My body has been battered and bruised all my by my hand, my mind plaguing my sanity, my memories, with fields of death and despair. I find now that I find solace and comfort in the thought.
I have dropped out of school, not that anyone would have noticed. I stopped sketching too, you know. It’s just that whenever my pencil touches the page all my hand seems to be able to draw is your face. My sketchbook has been filled with sketches of your face, your eyes, you at that reaping ceremony, you when you went to visit Lucy Gray in the Capitol zoo. All you.
I cant take it anymore Coryo, my heart can’t take it anymore.
My mind is plagued with images of your beautiful face, your smug smiles, your laughs where you hide those gorgeous hydrangea blue eyes of yours, the look on your face when I hugged you for the last time.
I replay that moment in my head, constantly. I seemingly can’t stop thinking back on that moment and think about what I could have said or could have given you to make you stay.
I would have done anything to have you stay, to have you be mine.
To have you love me back.
It’s a fickle thing, love. Fragile, yet powerful. It can make one go mad yet it can also ground you. It can drive you to murder for someone yet it can also motivate you to step in front of a bullet for someone.
It can also motivate you to live or cause you to die.
Some find love a nessecity to live while some find it the reason for their demise.
My dearest Coriolanus, I’m so terribly sorry. Yet I cannot help but akin love to a hardship. A pain, a pain that no matter how many dates I go on or how many men I flirt with that this pain will not go away.
I really tried, Coryo, I really did. I tried so hard to move on, to love someone else even when I know a hole is where my heart is and you and only you hold that missing piece.
I love you Coriolanus Snow.
I love you Coryo.
I love you.
I’ve loved you every minute of every single day of every single month of every single year ever since we were young. It may have been youthful play love but it shifted as the moons do.
I love you in every memory, every letter, and every dream that we meet. I love you in every minute and my love will forever live on in the velvety petals of pure white roses and pillowy hydrangeas.
I’ll love you, no matter what, every day, every hour, every minute, every year, for the rest of my life.
I’ll forever love you, even when I’m no longer here.
I forgive you my love, forever and always.
My only hope that you’ll forgive me.
My last wish is that you finally receive all those letters I wrote to you as a naive and young girl and look back that even now, I’m still me.
I’ll love you forever,
Your Dearest Darling Dead
tagging! @lonely-dreamer
thanks so much for the support and love on this series, it really does mean a lot to me and I hope to see you on the epilogue!
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second chance | c.b
colby brock x fem!reader
summary: you’ve been bottling up your emotions for too long, when colby finally returns from an investigation you blow up. he begs for a second chance.
warnings: angst, mild language, argument.
a/n: back with another colby blurb bc i literally cant get him out of my mind lol. this was kinda inspired by a song so i will link it below and you can listen while you read if you want !! enjoy ! feedback is appreciated.
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you frantically began throwing random items of clothing into your bag, rummaging through drawers, your shared closet, and the bathroom. getting what you needed for a few days away.
you were so tired of being alone. katrina was visiting her family, and sam and colby were on their filming trip which left you alone at the house. of course, you could just go home but you didn’t have the money for a flight at the moment and you were too keen on the idea of driving across the state alone.
so you just decided to stay back at the house.
but you were finally at your breaking point. colby was coming home today, but you just had enough. you needed a breather and the only way you’d get that is getting out and away.
you heard commotion downstairs and you took that as he and sam were home. “babe! i’m home!” colby announced coming upstairs, but when he opened the bedroom door he didn’t expect the scene in front of him.
colby asked, “where are you going?” as he dropped his bags to the floor. “staying with a friend” you answered, zipping up your bags and throwing them over your shoulder. you made a b-line for the door but, colby stopped you. “why?” you looked ahead, not wanting to face him.
he knew you were mad, he couldn’t understand why you were though. colby didn’t know about your loneliest nights, the ones you’d scream and cry yourself to sleep because of his lack of attention and time differences. he didn’t know how much you were suffering while he was out having fun recording his videos. you never told him.
“i just need to get out, colby.” you never called him that, it was always ‘colbs’ or ‘hun’. he pulled you back, you finally looked at him. “what’s wrong? talk to me” “nothing's wrong! im fine!” you weren’t. you wanted to punch him and call him stupid for not seeing your pain. colby sighed, “then why are you leaving?” finally, you snapped.
“because i’m tired!” you dropped your bags, your chest burning with anger. “i’m so tired of being left here alone for weeks, sometimes months while you’re gone. i know you’ve offered to let me join but you know i hate that stuff, colby.” it all came pouring out. “i’m so tired of waiting for you” you began punching and pushing his chest, the damn opened and tears flowed down your face. “i’m. so. tired!” his arms held you tightly but you fought back, and you cried, “don’t!” colby’s eyes were starting to tear up. “i wake up every fucking day reaching for you but you’re not here.”
“y/n..i..” he was at a loss for words, running a hand through his hair. “please just don’t leave, let’s talk this out, please.” he reached for your hand, pulling you closer his other hand held your chin up. “what can i do?” you blinked away tears blurring your vision, “i..” you fell silent, unable to think straight. colby added, “use your words.”
“just please don’t be so distant. i miss us, i miss you. i miss everything, and i just can’t be alone anymore.” colby nodded, “okay. i won’t leave. i promise” he wrapped his arms around your neck holding you closer than ever.
it had been a few hours since the fight, and now the two of you sat by the fire outside sharing a blanket. “im sorry for what i said and how i handled it. i was just so frustrated”
he hummed, “don’t apologize, im glad you told me. i think i needed to hear it” colby kidded your temple. “just promise me one thing, don’t shut me out. please” the pad of his thumb caressed your cheek. “i’ll be better too, i’ll stay home more often, kay?” you nodded, smiling. “i love you, colbs” he pecked your lips once more, “i love you too, y/n/n. i promise i’ll never act like that again. i’m sorry i put you through so much pain.”
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Please write more of yandere golden boy (Julian Peyton) and his transformation into a golden boy.
Julian Peyton
Yandere golden boy aftermath
Male original character x gender-neutral reader
SFW, 0.7k+ words, kinda angsty, addiction, trauma, reader, and OC are 18+!
Read the first chapter for more context!
Trigger warnings: Suicide, suicidal thoughts, mentions of self-harm, depression, implied turning yandere/obsessed, cigarettes addiction.
The reader has suicidal thoughts mentioned here!
You are entirely responsible for what you consume.
Thank you so much for requesting this! I literally cried when I read it because I had been struggling with writer's block for months. This isn't all that much of a chapter, but it is important so Julian's character doesn't feel rushed or out of place when becoming our yandere golden boy.
Reading the first chapter again, it does feel like I was creating one of those unique-esc OC's, like "Oh, he's also a lost child from the royal family and oh, he's also a half-dragon, half-demon mermaid!" But I rolled with it either way this time even though a part of his and YN's lore felt a bit too inspired by my own life than it should have.
If my one, and in fact, first ever fan and anon that I don't know personally wants another chapter added, I'll make it special just for you :)
MINORS DO NOT INTERACT!
Walking into his house didn't feel dreadful for the first time. Sure, the familiar scent of nicotine didn't fail to hit his nose, but he didn't feel like running away instantly.
He took off his shoes, old and worn-out. His footsteps creaked on the floorboards and he missed the feel of not being barefoot. Vulnerable. Usually, his head would snap to the living room to see if Mason was still breathing, but now that was the least of his worries. The bedroom door shut behind him.
Trash, musty clothes, and cigarette packs brushed under his feet. It hadn't come to him that he could possibly cut himself on any glass from the empty bottles, without his will this time.
His safe haven didn't feel the best anymore. Something else felt much more inviting and more… pleasant than the feel of his dirty sheets and the darkness around him.
You. Little ol’ sweet you from class.
What was your name again? He knew the professors often praised your name but he couldn't remember it.
It was average, you were average. Always trying to act like a know-it-all kid, blending into the group of people he never cared to look in the eyes. Though, now you couldn't seem to leave his brain.
Why... Why did you stop him?
You didn't have to, who would've even forced you to help him out? You weren't lying to him, were you?
No. It was too sincere. Too real to be fabricated.
You described yourself as worthless. You had perfect grades, friends, and a family that cared. What would you be struggling with? You weren't poor, you weren't bullied all your life and you didn't have to worry about someday living on the streets. Yet, you were so similar.
You were suicidal, you were cutting yourself, seen on your wrist, and you were clearly going through a lot of pain. Was that why you felt inclined to help him?
He glanced at his bed stand where his phone was, sunlight was trying to creep through his window curtains uninvited. With a groan, he went to grab it, the thing feeling like a brick in his hands. His eyes burned under his glasses at the light.
A solid 46% percent was in the corner and after a couple of minutes, he found the Facebook of his school. It didn't take long to find your face posted on the account, his starting to burn.
You weren't average-looking like he previously thought. Dorky smile, pretty eyes, and a diploma stating second place in your hands. It had your name written.
Y/n L/n...
Blood rushed to his cheeks like never before. An unfamiliar part of him stiffened, a type of stiffness that was itching only for you. Yearning for the first time.
You were so beautiful... You had these sparkling eyes, silky hair, pearly teeth that he wished were like his, and soft lips he'd one day run his tongue over.
“Fuck..” He groaned from the bottom of his throat. He imagined his thumb was running over your cheek and not the many cracks on his phone screen.
What were you doing to him? He's never felt the need to feel someone's embrace, touch them, maybe even kiss them…
Whatever it was, he didn't want it to ever end.
Will he ever see you again? He did have school tomorrow, would you feel excited to know he hadn't killed himself when you left? Would you feel excited to see him?
He knows he shouldn't feel this way, you were just like the rest of them. Making him feel wanted, loved. But maybe now, he'd find a way to keep that love for himself. Keep you for himself.
Maybe tonight he'd finally clean his room, brush his teeth, and clean his messy hair. You'd like that for him, right? You'd want for him to not fetch his favorite razor and watch the skin roll between the blades, right?
His dry lip rolled between his teeth, your voice playing in his head like a broken record.
"Please, Julian, let me help you."
So shaky, like how the touch of your hand felt.
"Please, Julian."
Just his name alone on your tongue would have prevented his death.
"Julian..."
Just his name would do wonders for him.
Masterlist for Julian
I'm open to all constructive criticism, not bullying!
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@gufu-vire is completely 100% to blame for this casual cannibalism (a dude gets his dick eaten like gordon ramsey sampling food but he kinda deserves it tbh), gore, very dark/black "comedy", raphtav i guess, haarlep is there too, devils be devilling
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“Suppertime. My favourite time of day.”
Raphael sat looming at the head of the dining table, set with candles and cutlery to the lovely backdrop of a roaring fireplace, a fancy napkin tucked into his collar. In the seat next to him was Tav, equally prepared, nursing a goblet of wine. A huge covered platter manifested in front of them, the kind used to display full carcasses of great birds or whole roasted hogs. Muffled screaming could be heard from inside it. The devil rubbed his hands together and reached out to remove the lid, revealing a naked, bound, and gagged man presented on the plate with fruits and nicely cooked vegetables. The poor man’s bloodshot eyes spun wildly, only widening in horror when he realised where he was and who was in his company. Paralysed from the neck down by magic, all he could do was look around and shriek.
“Hmmm…a lot of supple flesh on this one,” purred the devil, hungrily appraising the meal.
“Looks a bit gamey to me,” commented Tav. Raphael ignored her, carefully selecting a large, sharp, serrated knife made specifically for cutting meat.
“I can’t quite decide what I want to sample first,” he said, lazily dragging the blade’s tip across the man’s body. Tender skin split shallowly wherever it went. “The flank, perhaps? Or the thigh? Ah, or maybe the belly…”
By this point the man had chewed his gag enough to spit it out. “What in the name of the Gods are you doing?! Stop!” He cried. “Please! Just let me go! Please!”
“Now why would I do that?” Raphael drawled, darkly amused. “If I released every pig that squealed before it was stuck, well, then I’d never eat a thing, would I?”
“I’m not a pig, you sick bastard!” Yelled the man. Raphael tilted his head, looking condescendingly down his nose.
“Aren’t you? My sweet little mouse informed me of your, quite frankly, atrocious lack of decorum at the Caress, and that has me suspecting otherwise…”
“I thought she was a whore!” Hollered the man.
“And yet, when she informed you she was not, your unwanted advances continued, violently so in fact. My, what a conundrum you’ve found yourself in…”
“Lady, please,” the man turned his watery eyes to Tav, who had been silently sipping wine and watching this unfold. “You have to tell him. It was just a misunderstanding! I was – I was drunk! Don’t let him hurt me, please!”
Tav plucked a grape from the bunch resting next to the man’s hip and popped it into her mouth.
“Oh, you won’t get any sympathy from my mouse,” laughed Raphael, “she is far less forgiving than I am. She’s the one who brought you here to me, after all.”
“And who the fuck are you then, huh? Her dad?” Snarled the man. Like many animals, when backed into a corner, fear turned to anger and they lashed out. “Or are you just some sanctimonious prick who thinks he’s better than other men because he asks first?”
“Sanctimonious? Oh, no. Far from it.” All humour had dimmed from Raphael’s expression. With eerie stoicism he rolled his shoulders, never breaking eye contact as his human form melted away in a burst of flame and his true, fiendish nature was free. He flexed his wings as wide as they would go. Thrashed his tail. Leered and bared all of his hellish teeth; relished in the base terror the man exuded as he realised just how much trouble he was truly in.
“Nonononono wait, puh-please!” The man blubbered. Fat tears streamed down his pallid cheeks. “We can – we can make a deal! You – you’re a devil, right?”
“Yes, I am a devil,” Raphael rumbled. He leaned forward, closing the distance between his face and the man’s, his irises burning as his dark eyes glittered with sadistic malice and glee. “And here is the deal I’m offering, you contemptuous wretch: I am going to kill you, and I am going to eat you. Not necessarily in that order. What do you think? Are we tempted?”
“Bloody bards…always so dramatic,” Tav muttered. Once again she was kindly ignored.
“Please, I’m begging you,” the man sobbed.
“Quite the sudden change of tune!” Raphael said. “But I’m afraid I’ve already made up my mind. What was it you called me just a moment ago? Ah, yes. A prick. I believe that’s the perfect place to start.”
“Finally,” said Tav, but she was drowned out by the man’s awful, guttural screams as Raphael cut the first slice.
Clinical, with a butcher’s precision, he handled the man’s flaccid cock as one would handle a hefty sausage, lifting it above hairy, shrivelled testicles so he could chop at its base. The jagged edges of the knife sawed through foreskin, muscle, sinew and tubes, vibrant blood gushing from ruined flesh. Most of it soaked into the man’s pubes and flooded over his thighs. Tav handed Raphael a plate – the good china – and he dropped the severed penis onto it, adding a few vegetables for good measure.
“What is all that screaming about?” Haarlep swaggered into the dining hall, pursing his lips at what he saw. “Oh, you’re having idiot for dinner and you didn’t invite me? I’m hurt.”
“Hi, Haarlep,” said Tav.
“Hello, Mousie,” the incubus cooed, blowing her a kiss. Raphael scowled.
“Pull up a seat, if you must, otherwise you can leave.”
Haarlep pulled out a chair and sank himself into it, grinning. “Oh no, I’m definitely staying. I never pass up an opportunity to watch you gobble down cock.”
Raphael sneered as his pets laughed. The man on the table wheezed and gurgled, marinating in his own blood as the stump where his cock used to be kept spurting. He would not die. Not until Raphael allowed it. Not until he’d watched himself be consumed.
“Poor thing,” Haarlep crooned at the bleating meat, his salacious hands wandering over his harnessed body. His very-much attached cock was always a breath away from being hard. “Tell me how it hurts. Tell me how you suffer. You’ll do that for me, won’t you? Say you will.”
“By the Nine Hells, Haarlep! Not at the dinner table!” Barked Raphael, outraged.
“Ugh. Spoilsport,” muttered the demon, but he obeyed.
With delicate manners befitting his stature and standing, Raphael cut a piece from the penis, speared it onto his fork, and slipped it into his mouth. He chewed thoughtfully, savoured the noisy swallow. The man watched, aghast, because he couldn’t do anything else.
“Mmm…pleasant texture. A little on the stringy side, but the flavour is quite enjoyable.” Raphael took another bite, this time with a dash of carrot and parsley. “Would you like a piece, mouse?”
Tav sighed. “This guy is here because I didn’t want his cock, Raphael.”
“Fair point.”
Haarlep snorted, snatching the bloodied blade and his own plate. Ready to pick the meal apart like a starving man at an all you can eat buffet. “I want those testicles.”
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sweet touches 🤍 // ross macdonald x reader
promptober '23 - day 11
a/n: a dad!ross fic within the same dad!ross au as all my other blurbs 🧡 cw: smut adjacent but very very soft smut. mentions of body insecurity and kinda body worship basically wc: 1k
the first ever autumn in april’s life she’s bundled up and ready to go spend the weekend at her grammy’s house. you stand at the threshold of your house, cuddling your three and half month old baby to your chest, kissing her pink cheeks and telling her how much you’re going to miss her even though all she does is babble in return.
ross and his mum wait patiently. he’s already done this all morning��held her and cuddled her close and sang her songs till she was smiling—and his mum knows how hard it is for a new mother to be away from her baby because well… she’s a mum and she just knows. but when ross gently touches your back, you know it’s time to let her go.
“call me if you need anything!” you tell his mum, anxiously wringing your hands. she just smiles kindly, nodding for the hundredth time after you’ve given her a million instructions.
“and she likes—”
“two bed time stories, i know darling,” she laughs gently, “enjoy your weekend off, i promise we’ll call you tonight.”
and with that they’re off, leaving you lingering at the threshold and biting your nails until the car is well and truly out of sight, until ross finally steers you inside.
the rest of the day you spend in a calm, quiet house, devoid of any baby cries and nappy changes and feeding times. just you and ross like it used to be before. you put on old records and dance in the kitchen while making food, almost burn the potatoes in the process too but you laugh, you’re happy. you feel like twenty year olds in love for the first time.
as promised, his mum facetimes at 7 pm on the dot and both of you huddle around his phone to watch your freshly-out-the-bath baby being put into a new onesie. you coo at her, cheering when she recognises your voices and makes grabby hands at the phone, tries to swallow the camera once or twice too. but once the call ends, you know what’s on his mind. ross makes it very clear, in fact, when he chucks the phone away and hugs you from behind.
“maybe we should also get in a bath…” he offers, voice absolutely dreamy and tender and he’s already taking you by the hand to lead you to the bathroom which you don’t much resist to despite the tiny storm of thoughts brewing in your head.
it’s so easy for him—to take off his t-shirt like he does every single time and to turn the tap on and gather the salts and bubble baths and everything else. it’s so easy for him to not second guess everything.
“ross…”
“hmm?”
you have a feeling he’s not exactly paying attention, much more focused on setting everything up. but you need to tell him this. it’s not… there’s no way you want to stay up in your head on the one day you get with him after almost four months.
“ross. i—” you voice cracks slightly. the absolute smallest bit but he freezes in place regardless, quickly stepping in front of you to look at your face.
“you alright? what’s wrong?”
the concern in his voice is sweet, much more than you expected but it’s the way his hands move over your body that gets to you more—they’re no longer on your waist, no longer stroking you in a seductive, sensual way. instead, his fingers run soothing circles on your back now while ross looks at you in confusion.
“i just… uh…” why is this so difficult to get out?! it’s just him. just ross! so you take a deep breath and muster up all your courage.
“my body isn’t… it’s not what it used to be before. things are a bit—” your breath catches in your throat, along with an inconvenient lump of emotions. and so you avert your gaze, looking at the light blue floor instead.
the only indication that he’s even heard you is his soft exhale. and then they way his fingers cradle your chin to tilt it up, forcing you to look at him despite how shy you feel.
“your body is perfect.” his voice drips with so much conviction that you find yourself speechlessly staring at him. “it was before and it is now and it always will be perfect, okay?”
a deep breath and you’re closing your eyes and letting his words, his caresses surround you. letting his knuckles move up your spine and spread electric tingles all over your body.
“you are so irresistible to me. do you have any idea?” another sentence spoken directly onto your skin—your jaw this time as his lips ghost over your face, placing phantom kisses all over.
“but you haven’t—”
it only takes him a second to cut you off with a kiss. just a soft one. “seen you naked? since the baby was born?”
once again, you have no idea how he managed to guess exactly what was on your mind but you don’t get to much time to dwell on that. the next thing you know, ross trails his kisses down until he’s kneeling in front of you and lifting your shirt up.
the mirror behind him reflects everything—the way your stomach still swells from the the excess baby weight and the love handles you haven’t had time to work on yet. but the caress of his fingers is enough to stave the thoughts away, to only focus on the way his lips trail across your stomach.
“your body gave me the best thing in my life,” he speaks so softly that you barely hear him at first. “and if i have to be on my knees every single day to make you love it again then so be it.”
the lump in your throat grows, choking you with emotions until you can’t stop the tears from the gathering on your lashline or the way your voice turns wobbly. “you mean that?”
“about you being irresistible? about being on my knees every day?” a few more kisses. a few more inches of skin exposed. “yes, yes i mean all of it.”
you smile at him, cradling his face in your hands. “okay… the bath–a bath with you sounds perfect.”
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Some harry and sirius alternative universe headcanons that i have in my head since like ages part 1
Don't imagine Remus going to the Weasley's house for whatever reason after a couple of years of the worst day in his life
Don't imagine percy and the others being at home and showing him his new pet rat for (again) whatever reason
Don't imagine him IMMEDIATELY realising that who that is
Don't imagine that rat trying to run away seeing him
Don't imagine ginny Weasley being fast as hell and catching him because she's awesome like that
Don't imagine the shock on everyone's faces when remus makes mr rat to come out in his true form
Absolutely do not imagine him trying to manipulate the story again
Don't imagine them just calling Dumbledore and somehow convincing him to convince peter to drink the truth potion ( i forgot the spelling 😭) because remus is kinda suspicious
Do not imagine the truth coming out
Do not imagine sirius sitting in his cell , thinking only of harry , trying to not go absolutely insane in that hell and suddenly finding out that he's having an actual trial
Do not imagine the verdict of the trial putting peter the rat in azkaban and freeing sirius black
Do not imagine him just asking "where is harry?" To remus the SECOND he actually gets out
Do not imagine him lashing out at Dumbledore after finding out about harry being with the dursleys because he knew how much they hated Lily ( i have further headcanons as to why he knew this part but I'll come to those later
Do not imagine harry being 6-7 years old kiddo who lives in the cupboard under the stairs and is making eggs and toast for everyone because aunt petunia said so , with a burnt hand and watching his aunt and uncle loving Dudley and question to himself as to why he isn't worthy enough of that "maybe i should just help aunty more, maybe then she'll let me eat an egg too"- he thinks.
Absolutely do not imagine sirius, remus and Dumbledore paying a visit to harry because there was NO WAY that sirius was going to stay away from him (and ofcourse he takes ALOT of gifts ) ("i gotta make up for the lost time moony")
Do not imagine them going to the house , obviously get shouted at by vernon but somehow forcing their way into the house to see harry
Do not imagine harry being absolutely scared of them because he doesn't know what is happening and why is aunt petunia has locked him in the cupboard again "i didn't even burn anything today"
Do not imagine sirius almost blowing up that cupboard door when he realises that Harry's in there
Don't imagine his heart breaking after seeing his godson, the son of his two bestest friends in that scared terrified state
Don't imagine him gently calling harry "hey bud , you're safe now , you can come out" , and harry just asking him "who are you??" In his tiny little voice ( heart breaking part 2) and sirius just taking out a photo of him, james and lily from their wedding and before he could tell him that he's his Godfather harry asks again "who-who's that" ( he has an idea but he doesn't want to hope too much in case they're not someone who he thinks they are) ( yes I'm sobbing writing this is and no I'm not sorry ) and sirius just trying SO HARD to not break in front of him and scream at everyone for doing this to harry .
Don't imagine Dumbledore and remus also coming in there to convince harry to come out and he just reluctantly believes them because poor baby haven't seen a single photo of his parents until now
Don't imagine his first few weeks with sirius being full of breakdowns and nervousness and too many things to unlearn ( like not needing to cook breakfast
Don't imagine remus suggesting that they introduce him to the Weasley's because their youngest kids are his age and that It would be good for him
And obviously harry being nervous af but still being polite because he's cutu like that
Sirius hearing him laughing for the first time over fred & George's antics
Yes he cries almost every night
So does remus
But they're also going to therapy ( all 3 of them )
Yes they rip out a new one out of Dumbledore everytime they find out about more shit the dursleys did to harry
Also sirius used to play guitar before the war
And one day harry finds that out while they were looking through the old photos ( they take at least one hour out of their day after dinner to just talk/ask everything about James and Lily) and for the first time he asks sirius to play something
And ofcourse he does , he wasn't going to say no to his godson now
Harry is mesmerized
So is remus ( I've got a very emotional backstory for wolfstar too , it ends on a bittersweet note tho so tell me if y'all wanna read that too) (anyways)
Sirius asks harry if he wants to learn
And he says yes
It becomes their thing
Moony reads a story to harry every night , especially Lily's favourite muggle ones
Ginny , Ron and Harry become bffs and later with Hermione ( they met her long before going to Hogwarts in my head but they didn't really become friends before that )
Harry finally starts to heal
So does Sirius
#all of this before harry goes go Hogwarts obviously#my baby still gets traumatised but atleast he has family now#harry potter#sirius black#harry and sirius#just them ok#my boys need to heal#i have like a whole elaborate plot for this whole au actually#but i won't be able to do any of it justice#harry potter au#i want to wrap them in a bubble wrap and never let go#but alas
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Dean Winchester x Reader: tolerate it.
Warnings: Swearing (probably), angsty?? and with fluff but it remains angsty until the end. also, dean doesn't (know how to) acknowledge reader's obvious feelings for him, lowercase intended, unrequited love coded.
Tags: angsty, hunter!reader, reader has known sam and dean since kids, no season states, can be read as black reader, can be read as plus size reader.
Reader pronouns: they/them (used once)
Word count: 785
Summary: When Reader bursts into tears because of seeing Dean hurt, he doesn't know how to react.
Author’s note: another dean thingie because angst is my specialty and i was feeling THAT kinda way... I rarely ever write for Dean! Not because I don’t like him (I LOVE HIM), but because since I haven’t finished the show (i've just finished season 8) the requests have to be either pre-show or within those seasons. Anyways, Dean and Sam Winchester requests are open, but with those conditions !! love my boys <3 also gif is not mine.
you cried when you saw dean really hurt after a hunt for the first time in long months.
it made you feel childish and stupid, as you had been into the hunter life for as long as he had, as you two and sammy had been through hell and back; but when you saw the exhaustion in his face, the hopeless look in his eyes as he tried not to move his arm too much because the pain was piercing and burning him, you couldn't help it. tears had ran down your cheeks in silence, blurring the sight of the gold rush of a man you called dean, but before you could turn your face away from him and sam, they saw you.
"hey..." dean started, and that was enough for you. you couldn't take it.
your steps were quick towards the door of that old, stinky motel dorm the three of you had found hours ago, making sure to grab dean's impala keys before you stepped outside. sam called out your name and even opened the door, fearful that you might just take the car and drive away from them and the reality, the pain, the misery. but you only needed the keys to open the door to the car and lock yourself in, spacing out of everything around you to try and rationalize the cascade of emotions you were feeling.
sam sighed softly, almost in relief, when he saw you weren't going anywhere, and he closed the door with care before turning to his brother. dean's eyes were filled with worry, an anxious expression that sam hadn't seen many times outside of the battlefield, but he understood.
"should i..." dean had to clear his throat to recover his voice from the surprise, the hoarse shock your reaction had thrown him onto. "should i go talk to them?"
"later?" sam asked like that was dean's original idea. he heard dean rushing to him in agreement, like he had never intended to go right now. "yeah, i think you should. later."
dean nodded stiffly. "later."
later was an eternity, but dean waited. he cleaned his wound, patched it up with sam's help, got a beer and then he got a second one, and a third one. he waited, sitting in his bed with his gaze lost in the floor boards beneath his boots, and sam didn't try to pull him back to reality.
later came when sam decided to get into bed, shutting the little lamp by his side. dean brushed his face with his hand, rather harshly to wake himself up from the trance he had put himself into, and then he moved the curtains to the side to make sure you hadn't drive away from them. you hadn't, and he already knew that because he would have heard you, but his heart slowed down at the sight of you still in the car.
dean closed the door to the room softly and made his way to the door slowly. you had your eyes closed, as you sat on the drivers seat, not asleep but completely disconnected from your surroundings. he had to knock on the glass window to get you to open your eyes, and your eyes softened when they locked with his, so soft, so caring.
surrounding the car, dean got into the passenger seat as soon as you allowed him too, closing the door to allow the intimate conversation to stay inside the vehicle.
"hey."
"hey." you muttered. you let your eyes close for longer than usual, then turned to look at him. "i'm sorry, i overreacted."
dean pursed his lips slightly. "we've gotten through so much worse. you know that."
"i know." your voice was barely a whisper. "i know. i just worry, you know? i... can't really help it."
"i know." he nodded along to his words, giving them value, making you feel like he was finally listening to what you had to say. still, your heart ached. "but i'm alright. i promise."
"we always are."
he only looked at you from the corner of his eyes. "it's what the job asks of us."
"i know." you had never sound so bitter in your entire life, you knew. but he avoided to look at you, and you did the same. "you're alright."
some beats of silence. then, a slow grin started forming in his face, "you should've seen the other guy."
"too soon."
"ah, c'mere." his arm extended and wrapped you around your shoulders, pushing you closer to him. you let him handle you, accommodating your head against his good shoulder, closing your eyes. your heart ached more and more and more--- "we've survived. that's enough."
but it wasn't.
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AND I DON’T KNOW IF I’LL EVER SEE YOU AGAIN !!
— saying goodbye to those certain people at school/college that you’ll probably never see again </3 (yes i wrote this because i finished college and this is how i felt about leaving some people and i’m sensitive)
content : gender neutral reader, i dont think this is angst so i have no idea what it is, its : :((, thats the genre y'all, me using a couple personal experiences to add in some accuracy
characters : mikey, kazutora, senju
notes : hey guys !! i finally finished my exams and college meaning i’m now on summer break and i finally have time to write ! thank you so much for sticking with me throughout this academic year esp since i was struggling a lot </3 i luv all of y’all so so so much and i hope y’all enjoy this EVEN THOUGH IM LOWKEY RUSTY ASF RN JUST TRUST THE PROCESS Y’ALL MY WRITING MAGIC WILL COME BACK SOON </3
˗ˏˋ MIKEY
- mikey is thee iconic class crush that everyone has (unless you’re not into mikey then that’s too bad you gotta change the character i’m sorry 😔)
- the type of person you’re friends with and is in all your classes, but you get a little rush of excitement when you see them
- the type of person you talk to like you’ve known them for years face to face, but wouldn’t dare ask to meet up with you and you can’t message them for shit because you think too much about your responses
- the type of person who somehow makes your ears burn but you can’t put your finger on why or how they do that
- you and mikey were always class friends - even teachers knew you guys as class friends and would hate when you sat with each other, knowing very well no work would get done
- he would always find a way to talk to you when you walked past him, to make a joke to you, possibly bully you a little (all with a kind heart and no malice of course) - and you always found a way to do it back which he loved <3
- you cherished him as a friend for some reason - out of all your class friends (not including closer friends that is) he felt special to you, and you could never and will never know why
- and so when the end of your time at school/college was getting closer you started to cherish your little interactions with him and got more and more excited to see him everyday :( - the way you guys interacted never changed, you just held it closer to you and appreciated it more
- on your last day you didn’t see him until the end of the day - he probably didn’t bother coming in early since it was the last day and he’s lazy 😒
- he approached you quickly with a little spring in his step, smiling widely at you like he always did (he was always happy to see you, you just never really realised) — you were very much prepared for a usual interaction; a little small talk, a clever joke of his, a laugh, and departure
- oh. a hug 🎉 — you literally could’ve cried. and don’t say no. yes you could’ve okay.
- “don’t get soppy on me now, y/n, hm? it’s not the end of the world, is it?” — TO YOU ☹️
- even though you wished he did, he didn’t spend any extra time with you, simply walking away with a goodbye and back to his friends — however he did message you when he got home <3
hey i just wanted to say i enjoyed being friends this year :)
in case i never see you again remember me by this <3
i’ll miss you, make sure you look after yourself !
- it was a video of a cat eating dorayaki and purring ?? makes sense 🫶 - although you were more surprised at the concept of a cat actually eating something like that
- though you appreciated and loved his messages, and responded with the same amount of appreciation, you kinda wish he hadn’t messaged you with his own little goodbye — although it wasn’t like losing a lifelong best friend it still left a little hole in the pit of your stomach, knowing you’d miss him, knowing you’d still talk about him with your friends sometimes
- probably wondering if he actually liked you as much as you liked him, wondering if you were simply just a person in his class or more of a friend ?
- you hope one day he’ll ask you to meet up and your friendship can be strengthened in the future but its unlikely to happen :/ - mainly because you’re probably not about to make the first move YEAH
˗ˏˋ KAZUTORA
- in your final year of school/college you ended up being together for a class - you could say he was kinda like your study buddy in the end 🤷♀️
-one day he saw you in the library and he asked if you could help him study for the upcoming test since he was struggling with the topic and he wanted to do well this time — lets be real, we all know kazutora would not take classes seriously 😭
- eventually it became a common thing for the both of you to do; meet in the library and go over the things he wanted to do (and it was convenient for you because it meant you could also simultaneously go over the difficult things too 🫶)
- you guys had a spot mikey called the ‘secret spot’ because it was hidden at the back behind a couple bookshelves — despite always being late to classes he was usually on time to your meet-ups
- he always greeted you by saying “hey, teach!” with only a pen and a scrap piece of paper
- as much as you liked seeing kazutora and becoming friends with him, studying with him was very hard sometimes — you could tell he was trying hard but he would kinda just stare and nod his head rather than listen because he would zone out
- once you guys finished studying, he’d simply ask you when you were able to meet next and would say his goodbye’s and thank you’s — sometimes you wanted to ask if he felt like meeting up outside of college or at least studying at your house since you guys got on so well, but you never did
- and he would make out of pocket jokes (they made you giggle but he doesn’t have to know that) — “is there anythin’ else i can do to get an A, professor? 🥺” boy 🤨
- you guys never ate lunch together or spoke to each other outside of lessons - it was almost like as soon as you guys left the classroom or library you didn’t know each other :(
- you had his socials and sometimes you’d receive messages at 12am about a theory he couldn’t understand 😭 — they always made you smile though and sometimes you guys even had little convos (mostly small talk though ugh)
- once you guys face timed 😟 — he thought you looked so pretty under the light of your desk lap and it made him kinda nervy so he was quieter than usual </3
- when exam season came around y’all were stressing over exams together like. the poor boy was SCARED — however, before each exam he would always come up to you when you were with your friends to ask how you were <3
- “i don’t know why you’re stressed, you’re the teacher here, sweets.”
- although you were excited for all the exams and college/school to end, you were also kinda dreading it — you knew the fact that you and kazutora wouldn’t have another study session again left a little ache in your chest
- when the final day arrived you thought he’d neglected to show up since you hadn’t seen him all day :((
- when the exam finished, however, he showed up out of nowhere asking how it went :0 - you guys had a long talk about the exam and how you guys hated whichever questions
- “well, i gotta get going now, my friend is giving me a ride home and i don’t wanna make him wait too much, i’m really sorry!” oh ☹️
- there it was. the feeling that came over you told you you’d probably never see him again, possibly never speak to him again except for some small talk at 11pm when he saw a funny post and decided to send it to you. the knowledge that you were losing a friend that you’d cherished your limited time with over the stressful year </3
- “yeah, it’s fine, don’t worry about it!” idiot.
- “i’ll see you tomorrow, yeah?”
- you just nodded, despite there no longer being a tomorrow :(
- BOOOOOOOO
˗ˏˋ SENJU
- she was your friend in all of your classes <3
- literally since the first day of school/college she decided that you guys were gonna be friends
- every time you come into a lesson she’s always sat in the seat next to yours, and if she’s late she always looks for you with a bright smile on her face — even if other people changed seats in the class, you guys always stayed in the exact same seats next to each other
- “do you wanna do it together?” — y’all always worked on projects or class work together, especially presentations since senju said it just turned out better if you guys did it together
- y’all would also always panic together over presenting posters or presentations to the class and then talk about how good you did afterwards
- you guys always laughed together in classes and giggled at dumb jokes </3
- she would always make you walk with her to exams too — it’s not like she was ever panicking or worried, she just wanted to walk with you into the exam and talk about it after
- and once she bought you candy for your birthday even though you don’t remember telling her your birthday 😭 - “i got you these, i don’t know if you like them but you can try them!” me personally i’d cry
- also !! you guys would also talk outside of classes yay !! — on messages that is
- often she would message you about work, whether that was asking when homework was due in etc etc — but you guys would also message each other if you found out any gossip about people in your classes 😭😭😭
senju : babe, y’know that girl we were talking about the other day?? i found her boyfriend on tinder 😟
you : there’s no way… they’ve literally been dating for almost a year, his account should be deleted by now ?!
senju : wait what ?! how did you find out it’s been that long ☠️
you : oh i looked on her instagram yesterday lmao
- but 😁
- you guys just… didn’t talk to each other outside of class in person ??
- as soon as the class was over y’all didn’t really talk to each other, you never ate lunch together, you never studied together etc — you guys also never made plans or spoke to each other over summer breaks ?
- like y’all basically didn’t speak to each other for three months but when you came back after it was like no time had passed
- when the day of your final exam came around you guys walked to the room as usual, talking about what you did or didn’t want to come up
- before she went into the room she hugged you. you guys never hug. — “you’ll be fine, babe, you got this.” sobbing.
- when you came out of the exam she was gone as usual — it was rare for you guys to wait for each other at the end of lessons or exams anyways
- but that time you felt a little wave of sadness wash over you, perhaps a little ache in your chest as you realised that was probably the last time you’d ever walk down a corridor with her, to stress over something together, hear her little pep talks before doing exams, to do anything with her
- you took her hug as a goodbye </3 (for a while it seemed to leave a little hollow feeling in your chest when you thought of her) though it didn’t feel complete without hearing her say it
- sobbing tbh
reblogs appreciated <3
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Found this in my drafts so here lol
Headcanon that my MC is straight up an animal magnet. Almost every time they go out, they come back with something. As a result HOL is always crawling with critters they're trying to find homes for -and a few permanent residents because someone got too attached.
Minor edits made May 31st. Mainly grammatical stuff.
At first a few of the brothers were pretty fed up. But anytime a threat of any kind was made towards the animals MC just appeared out of thin air with the most terrifying expression on their face.
*random goat that followed them home, currently eating Beel's snacks -package and all*
Beel, about to lose his shit: How would you feel if I ate you?!
MC leaning into the room, smiling: I'll replace your snacks, but touch the goat and I'll make a real nice roast outta you.
Beel and the goat actually became bffs after this.
Satan sitting in the common room, book in one hand, scruffed puppy in the other: This is the last time you interrupt my reading you little runt!
MC wrapping their arms around his neck from behind, whispering softly: Put the puppy down, Satan.
Satan, slowly setting the pup back on the couch: When- how- ?!
MC: I was summoned.
He still thinks cats are better, but he definitely cried when the puppy left.
Mammon gently yeeting a rabbit (did not hurt it dw) when he caught it eating his money: That's not lettuce ya dumb furball!
*turning around and seeing MC in the doorway*
Mammon: M-MC, um.. when did you get here?
MC, scooping up the rabbit: I mean this in the nicest way possible because I love you, throw her again, and I'll burn every Grimm of yours that I can find ❤
*Mammon.exe has stopped responding because they said they loved him while also threatening him*
He's not turned on or confused thank you
Won't admit he likes the bunny but MC catches him dressing her up in little yellow tinted sunglasses and gold chains like two days later.
*MC regularly comes to dinner with a snake wrapped around their neck or arms, sometimes a lizard tucked in their hoodie pocket, or some strange insect/arachnid perched on their shoulder*
Levi:
Simply stops functioning because not only are you nice to him, but you seem to appreciate the more widely considered 'strange' creatures as much as he does
Generally asks to hold said creature
And take pictures -of you holding the thing obviously
You just.. look so much cooler than him! Obviously.
Mammon:
Poor baby nearly shits himself when you sit next to him and he realizes there's some horrifying, eight legged, kitten-sized thing clinging to your shoulder
He tries to ignore it but he's leaning away from you the entire meal
"Ain't ya afraid of anything, human?!"
Lucifer:
Sincerely doesn't fucking care anymore.
He tried being mad for so long and you just ignored it
I mean, animals at the dinner table? C'mon MC.
Fuck it.
At least your little creatures are less rowdy than his brothers
Asmo
Do you care about him at all?!
Fear isn't good for him
Nor are gross things.
And that spiny, hissing thing clinging to your forearm was the definition of his bane
Satan
Thoroughly amused with his brother's reactions
Finds your creatures fascinating
Not fazed when one makes its way across the table and up his arm
This causes Asmo to nearly faint as the thing becomes much closer to him
Satan obviously shoves it in his face
Till MC basically rips his head off
They're delicate, he gets it now
Please stop lecturing him it's kinda scary
And hot?
#obey me crack#obey me shall we date#obey me#obey me mammon#obey me headcannons#obey me lucifer#obey me!#shall we date obey me
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can you write something for broken promises series where the reader loves bucky more no matter how cruel he is to her, dada is her favorite and steve notices or something like that
📍drabble for broken promises where reader favours one over the other
a/n: i hope you enjoy this, it's kinda short i'm sorry :(
𝐡𝐚𝐥𝐞𝐲’𝐬 𝟏𝐤 𝐜𝐞𝐥𝐞𝐛𝐫𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧 𝐦𝐚𝐬𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐥𝐢𝐬𝐭
𝐁𝐫𝐨𝐤𝐞𝐧 𝐏𝐫𝐨𝐦𝐢𝐬𝐞𝐬 𝐦𝐚𝐬𝐞𝐫𝐥𝐢𝐬𝐭
"Come on, doll, it's bedtime!" Bucky chuckled, trying to get her off of him so Steve could take her to get ready for bedtime. However, she refused to let go of him. Bucky thought it was cute but Steve once again felt like he was being left out. It was like no matter how hard he tried, she just preferred to be with Bucky.
Of course this was mostly because Bucky was the softer one most of the time. It didn't mean she liked either of them more than the other. But Steve didn't see it this way unfortunately.
"Sweetheart come on, I've gotta get you ready for bedtime now." Steve tried to take her from Bucky again, but she just hid her face in his neck.
"Why can't daddy take me?" She mumbled, not even looking at Steve.
That was enough for Steve. He didn't wanna hear it anymore. Without saying a word, he walked upstairs to his study and slammed the door shut behind him. She flinched a bit at the loud noise but Bucky quickly shushed her and decided it was best if he got her ready for bedtime. He really felt bad for Steve but he had no idea what to do.
The next day, Steve left for work early and didn't even say goodbye to his girl like he always does. When he got home, he didn't bother telling them and went straight to his study again. He was more sad than angry. He was sick of being left out. Did she not like him? She was his whole world but did she even feel the same way?
There was a light knock on the door that pulled him out of his thoughts. He grumbled as he got up to unlock the door, however, he was shocked to see her standing there when he opened the door.
The two of them stood there quietly before she finally handed him the flowers she had gotten for him today with Bucky. Steve smiled lightly and noticed there was a note in there. He opened up it up and all it said was I'm sorry.
He looked back down at his girl in confusion and noticed she had begun crying. Steve quickly picked her up and shushed her cries, as she wrapped her arms tightly around him and cried on his shoulder, "Please don't be upset with me anymore, daddy. I'm sorry for being mean before. I love you so much, don't want you to go 'way."
Steve's heart clenched at her confession and he hugged her even tighter, "Oh sweetheart, I'm not going anywhere, I just thought you would rather have Dada around than me."
Steve could feel his cheeks burning at his little confession but she just frowned and shook her head, "Love you both equally, I promise. I was scared you were gonna leave me, please don't leave, daddy, I love you. I'll be good I pinky promise!"
"I love you too, sweetheart. Always so good to me. My good girl."
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ANGEL
spencer reid x fem! reader
Request: yes / no
Synopsis: When everything is too much, Spencer is the only one who can help you.
Warning/content: panic attack kinda? (being overstimulated), fluff, my English and no proofreading
a.n.: 0.8k words - first spencer fic?? also two fics in two days??
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You closed your eyes. Everything was too much. The noise of the cars outside. The footsteps of your neighbour above you. The sound of your washing machine on the other side of your apartment. The smell of the candle you let burn for too long. The luminous light of the sun peeking through the window.
You covered every inch of your body with the bed sheet, trying to find as much comfort as you could in the too-loud, too-bright and too-triggering environment. Salted tears fell from your eyes to the white pillow.
Your brain felt like exploding and every single stimulus was powder. You were waiting for the one that would be the fuse.
Unfortunately, you didn’t have to wait long because the piercing sound of the entry door resonated in the bedroom, your eardrum ready to bleed. Maybe it was good if you didn’t hear at all, you wouldn’t have to worry about these types of crises anymore.
You broke into tears, real tears that weren’t just slowly streaming down your face, they came with loud sobs and a tight chest ready to break into a million pieces as you heard the soft voice of Spencer calling for you “Angel? Where are you?”
When you didn’t answer, he stayed silent, trying to figure out where you could be. Focusing hard, he heard the faint sound of your muffled sobs coming from the bedroom of your shared apartment.
He opened the door carefully and found you engulfed under the covers, he could see you shaking under the fabric. He lowered his voice “Y/n?” he slowly got closer to the bed, trying not to scare you “Can I lift the sheet?” he whispered.
You didn’t talk but his hand grabbed the soft fabric and he slowly pulled it off you. You were laying in a curled ball, face wet from tears, hands covering your ears, eyes closed, mouth whimpering. Spencer could feel his heart shattered at the vision, he hated seeing you like this, you didn’t deserve it. No one deserved it, but you especially.
“What happened?” his voice was calm, trying not to be too loud for your ears. He carefully rested both of his hands on your waist, attempting to make you sit up. With a bit of help, you were finally sat against the headboard.
Spencer sat down on the bed in front of you, cupping your cheeks with the palm of his hands as his fingers gently brushed your skin. “It’s okay. Everything is going to be okay, angel” Sniffling loudly, you wrapped your arms around his shoulders.
“What happened?” he asked again, his hand resting at the back of your head, burying your face in the crook of his neck. He kissed your temple to calm you, letting his lips against your skin until you answered.
“I don’t know. Everything was too much” you cried, tightening your embrace. If everything was too much a few minutes ago, right now you wanted to be as close to Spencer as possible.
He settled you both to lie down on the mattress. He kept you close, knowing you craved physical touch in these moments of weakness. He gently kissed your forehead “Breath with me angel”
Spencer always called you angel, he couldn’t help, you were an angel to him. You came into his life and never went out. You were the light he needed, he didn’t even need coffee with you, you were a shot of expresso just by being you.
And seeing you crying like this wrecked him.
He helped you find proper breathing, mumbling quiet ‘Breath in’ and ‘Breath out’. You didn’t know for how long he did this but you appreciated his patience with you. Calmed down, you rested your head on Spencer’s shirt, trying to focus only on his rising chest and his hand in your hair.
“How was your day?” you whispered, your finger tracing his arm. You enjoyed hearing about Spencer’s days, they weren’t the happiest since he wasn’t doing the happiest job but you loved how passionate he sounded.
He smiled “It was good. It was calm actually…” he continued telling you about what happened, and you realised how a calm day for him was not calm for you. “...And then, Garcia answered the phone,” he rambled, “she thought it was Morgan and said, “Hi hotshot”. Turns out it was Hotch and she never apologized quicker. Also…” and he went on and on.
And Spencer was relieved when he heard you laugh at whatever stupid pun he said. Slowly, by his side, you were able to be calm and serene. By Spencer’s side, you never had to worry.
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