#sterne rambles

[sternevogn]

sorry guys. i've been Thinking™️ about the monument mythos deandemonology au tonight. like, BIG thinks. while i've been struggling on how to write out the first act, once i get past that obstacle i'm hoping it's smooth sailing.

reason i'm having so much trouble with it is because i like. am so much more used to a paranormal investigation rather than an exorcism. so i'm gonna have to do (horrific and uncomfortable) research on how exorcisms are performed and how they go. this does not please me. as much as i think demonology is cool as HECK, i find fault with the fact that so many exorcism cases were done to mentally ill people. and i don't really wanna watch stuff like that. because bro... why does/did the church gotta assume that if someone's acting a little silly or cray-cray that there's a demon. nah bro, if a demon is bothering me im just gonna be like "im so worthless man" realistically. im not gonna be like "AAUURURRGRHHHHHH IM GONNA SELL THIS CHILD'S SOUL TO THE DEVIL ARRRGHFUFHFHFV"

i'll probably take an alternate route and study into the actual stuff used to perform exorcisms. like do priests wear special robes for it? what do they use to perform it? am i gonna have to read out more than "in nomine patri et filii et spiritus sancti" (yes) and just how long is that whole thing gonna be (long. i can sense it)

its going to be so fun to write in and mess around with because erm. interpretation and fiction and silly! but also... thinking abt it is also a pain. guh.

needless to say, i am both So Ready and So Not Ready to write this thing. holy smokes the things i have planned. Nobody Knows. augh

ANYWAYS! enough rambling i got stuffs to work on. byeeeeeeeeee

[foldingfittedsheets]

When I was learning German my teacher pulled me aside to ask which of my parents spoke German. I was confused and said neither. Then belatedly I remembered that my dad did speak very rudimentary German after being stationed in Heidelberg for a few years.

This teacher was well loved but very strict, being questioned by her was always a little intimidating. I didn’t know why she was asking.

She pressed to ask if he spoke it with me and I laughed nervously and said no I asked him not to speak it because he couldn’t even conjugate verbs.

Apparently my accent was so good that she assumed I’d had more than one year of practice. The problem was my vocabulary. Ironically I needed her to translate the word for accent as I was unfamiliar with it. I was a decent student but some words tripped me up.

One day she conducted an oral exam and asked us to talk about the hospital. We could say whatever we wanted. In the middle of my nervous little monologue about how we go to the hospital when we are sick and the doctors and nurses help us she suddenly burst out laughing.

I had never seen her laugh before, at least not more than a sensible chuckle. But here she was, bent over her stomach cracking up leaving me baffled as to how talking about the nurses could possibly have inspired this extreme hilarity.

The word I was trying to use for nurse was “Pfleger” but I’d said “Fluger”. (Possibly fliegen? It’s been a long time) What I said was close to fly, and the teacher was imagining flying nurses drifting along the hospital wing.

She apologized and tried to compose herself but she admitted that hearing my extremely competent accent saying absolute nonsense was the highlight of her week.

[a-mythologynerd]

The thing about Darlington is at first glance he seems so much more tame and straight laced in comparison to Alex, and, like he is to an extent, but its all about the packaging. (And isn't that the thing between these two anyways from the very start?) I just always get reminded how many of his character traits aren't some dignified or morally superior dichotomy to Alex and her ruthlessness. The thing is, Darlington is just as ruthless and ambitious, he just didn't have to confront it until Hell. The desperate, starving, consumption motif is so clear from Alex's very first chapter but it's not til later that you realize Darlington is the exact same way, just about things other than the extreme level of survival Alex had to endure. Instead, Darlington was able to scrap by and keep the legacy going, serving something and keep the roof over his head. It makes it less obvious then that he is also a survivor and has that same drive.

You can especially see it in the way he tries to prep himself (the exercises, the learning, the training) for the long awaited "grand adventure," the way he treats his study of the arcane (I mean seriously, you cannot paint that boy as the lawful good archetype if he decided to devote himself into brewing a mythic possibly fake archaic drink that might MIGHT let him see the great beyond just because he had to believe there was more to this life, he had nothing left to lose, and he just had to find out and couldn't be satisfied with only some instead of all), and even more clearly, the dream vision he is granted in Hell. Dawes gets a dream of academic success, Turner professional success, Darlington has a dream where his house is never empty and there is always more people, knowledge, and he finally knows the secrets of every mystery in the world. He just hides all this better. He has the polish, the East Coast rich vs LA rich, and the austere Puritanical upbringing that makes him seem as Alex puts it, "expensive." But the reason these two work (and the reason I am insane about it) is because of this shared character trait of never being satisfied and always wanting more (what's really interesting is Alex seems to want more comfort and security and Darlington wants more risk and adventure and that's what drives the conflict). I'm drawn to the parallel someone on here once said about how Darlington is a sword and Alex is a cannonball. Same effect just different methods. Different packaging. Add in the questions of who is the rabid dog, who is the soldier, the servant, the monarch, Dante, Virigil, Beatrice, Orpheus, and Eurydice? I just love how these two characters seem SO diametrically opposed at first glance but are actually so alike in childhood, character, and ambition.

[paper-possum-party-pal]

Meet The Curator!

Here’s my take on The Curator’s human form!

The Curator was the first to befriend a ‘human’ (Stanley being some odd Demi-human) and to create a human form. Her associate with Mariella began completely on accident. Despite her wariness of interacting with people, her curiosity and thirst for information led her to creating her human form and walking amongst people. She chose to make her form taller, older, and stern looking to be less approachable to people so she could walk around in peace. She spent most of her time on earth in museums, learning about how humanity cataloged and viewed their history. Due to being around to witness some events from a distance, she could provide details around the way certain events occurred, which she would talk about with fellow museum guests. This with her appearance led to people thinking she was an actual museum employee wherever she showed up.

Mariella is a manager at one of the museums The Curator frequents, and when it became clear that she was not an employee and was somehow getting into the museum without paying or seemingly even walking into the museum, she became invested in trying to figure out who ‘The Lady in Blue’ was and how she keeps getting in. Mariella eventually encounters The Curator, and calls out to her, and The Curator panics and runs off. Mariella follows, but loses her. This happens a few more times until Mariella finally sees The Curator move through a door in a section of the museum she didn’t recognize and chases her through it. Mariella catches up and asks The Curator who she is and how she keeps getting in. Curator freezes because she’s never been fully grabbed by a person before, and Mariella tries to reassure her that she’s not in too much trouble. Curator pops out of her human form which causes Mariella to panic and try to leave, which causes Curator to panic and close off the exit between earth and the small pocket sandbox she’s made into a museum, causing Mariella to panic more. Curator pops back into her human form and helps Mariella calm down. They have a long conversation over what The Curator is and what this place was, she lets Mariella go with the promise she won’t tell anyone anything about The Curator and to leave her be. Mariella does so, but curiosity towards The Curator leads her to track her down again with the goal of befriending her. This begins a friendship where they share information about their kinds, and then about themselves.

With the information Mariella provides, The Curator makes an immersive museum experience that she offers to allow Mariella to run through. This begins their version of the parable they call ‘Mariella’s Fable’. The Curators stories are more education oriented rather than a meta comedy, and are much more relaxing, though she eventually takes a page out of her brother’s book and uses dry wit to spice things up. Mariella helped her choose the name Carol, while she would take Torrent as her last name later on. Her view of buckets as objects that deserve immense respect is sort of a joke, but her initial curiosity with humanity came with her initial observation of humans usage of tools, and specifically buckets.

Curator without the other two.

[scarapanna]

Pre-corruption SM doodle!!!!

Au specific because if I completely missed the spot w him I have an excuse to still use the design/silly

Closeted clown nerd/aff

[skwistokwarrior]

ok ive always had this hc where like gene and surge had the opposite relationship of simmons and sarge, like simmons is desperately holding onto sarge as a potential father figure whilst surge see's gene as a son and genes like those angsty teens whos like "omg surge stop embarrassing me"

[multi-fandomdisaster]

Good lord, the Hatchetfield High School football student section is probably terrible-

[mochiwrites]

<- girl who does not handle getting in trouble at work well

[crimsonscloud]

EDWARD NORTON and LIV TYLER

as Bruce Banner and Betty Ross in THE INCREDIBLE HULK (2008)

[iraprince]

Hiii, i love your stuff and kinda from a distance really look up at you for, in my perception, being able to express yourself without giving a fuck. Thats sick dude, Im so so afraid, of absolutely everything, its nice to think like i might grow into someone less apologetic of my existence. Nice to see people just being yknow

hey, thank you, this is really really nice. the secret that is probably not a secret is that i am also deeply afraid a lot of the time lmao -- but less than i used to be, and in ways that feel less stifling and self-suffocating, if that makes sense.

like, it used to be "i'm scared that if i express myself the way i want to, everyone will find me obnoxious, so let's just sand those edges down to be safe" -- now my fears are more like "now that i'm expressing myself in a way that feels natural and real, i'm afraid that it's all stupid/vapid/not worthwhile or meaningful" (<- specifically abt my art) or "i'm happy that i talk and act the way i want to now, but what if it makes me impossible to befriend," etc etc etc. which still feels bad and puts me in a funk a lot of the time but at least it's a fear that comes After/in reaction to doing stuff, rather than a fear that STOPS me from doing stuff, you know? like, it's evolved into a kind of fear that's less in my way.

anyway. i believe you'll experience something like this, because wanting to grow is the first step of growing. the fact that u hope or wish for something different means you're already on your way. to fewer fucks!! or at least distributing the fucks u give in a way that serves u better

[bambiraptorx]

currently entertaining the idea of a scenario where Draxum has some sort of appraiser come over to his house to see how much it's gonna cost to repair his house or whatever and then the guy just walks around like "OSHA violation, OSHA violation, OSHA violation, hey why the fuck do you have four teenage turtles hanging out in your frankly seriously unsafe house"

and Draxum just sighs and has to explain that he literally cannot get them to leave. yes he is training them, yes he is training all four of them even though having that many apprentices at once is frankly batshit insane, no he does not have any control over them whatsoever can he just have the estimate for repairs now

[sternevogn]

sternevogn writing any story ever speedrun any%

(im about to finish writing deandemonology)

[yumiayumu]

the downside of liking a new ship that’s only recently getting attention is the lack of fanfics (╥﹏╥)

[dittolicous]

ok hear me out

kirk/spock/bones = luffy/zoro/sanji

[redgearsmovin]

[shoegazingmonad]

Often whenever I see people talking about ult Dirk getting a redemption they always mention wanting some kind of angsty breakdown from him where he's all distraught and 'I've done such shitty things and have lost track of the person I was and I really regret my actions and need someone to help me because for once in my life I don't know what to do' but that just seems so. Unrealistic and pretty fucking lame for a character as extreme as Ult Dirk? If there's any way I'd want a redemption arc for him to happen would be through him having the most disgustingly violent and self-destructive meltdown ever. Like at the end of the story when he's nearing his defeat and too scared to face the consequences (both physically and emotionally) he just starts flipping the fuck out to try and prevent any form of happy resolution for himself because he doesn't know if he could take something like that when he doesn't deserve or 'want' it. I need him to say and do absolutely unforgivable things just to prevent anyone from ever giving him the chance to make things right, and have someone still reach out to him despite that. I need him bawling his eyes out screaming shouting punching walls and lashing out in all directions out of fear, anger and misery because after everything he's fucked up, against his will or not, there's still hope for him as long as someone wants there to be