#st4rving girl

[st4rvingt0d34th]

Food diary!!

4-8-24 Cookie: 198 cal Sandwich: 277 cal Cola zero: 1 cal Chicken skewers: 109 cal Granny smith apple: 89 cal Total: 674

-------------------------------------------------- I honestly don't even know why I accepted the cookie. Mom pressure ig. 674 is way too much, I don't know how I'll ever get skinny like this. I did skip breakfast, but apperantly I still ate a lot. Tomorrow I'll do better though, because this is way too much for an 4n0r3x1c girl.

[pingirl69]

Guys remeber to take ur vitamins and minerals.

we dont want to faint

[goalw99]

filling up online carts w clothes that will look good on u at your gw >>>>

[amistillskinny]

121-120lbs(54.88kg- 54.43kg) at 5’8 (172.72cm) kinda bull that there’s still fat on my body.

[thequeerjanedoe]

Indian Girl Thinspo

I barely ever see brown thinspo, and even then, it's usually fairer skinned people, or just straight up black thinspo. So, I'm posting for myself and any other brown girl Anas who just don't see people like themselves on this app. These are two women I aspire to look like some day : Simone Ashley (actress) & Vanizha (model).

[skinycherryangelgirl]

[anastayskinni]

ED SONGS THAT AREN'T (too badly) CRINGE

*note many of these are alternative, if that's not your thing this may not be for you*

4n0rexic Beauty Queen - Kevin MccLough

Surgery - Jack Off Jill

Teen Idle - Marina

Abbey - Mitski

Brand New City - Mitski

Paper Bag - Fiona Apple

4st 7lb - Manic Street Preachers

B1ng3 And Pvrg3 - Lunachicks

An0rex1a Poster Girls - Batteries

Sk1nny Little Bitch - Hole

St4rving For Attention - The Narrative

Anor3xiс Beauty - Pulp

Bella Disorder - Better Off

[pr3tty-pr1ncesss]

TW: SŬ1CID3 MENTIONED

You know guys...

It's kinda fü©ked up how just a few months ago I wanted to k1ll myself.

I thought my life has no meaning, that there's nothing good in me and it would be better without me. But it's not true. I wish I could go back in time and tell that young girl that she just needs a bit of help. Just a little sunshine. Nothing big. Just a bit of empathy from someone who wasn't as sick as me. Today I can proudly say, days with sü1cid3 thoughts are finally over. I don't cüt anymore. I don't hurt anymore. I don't st4rve anymore. I'm just a normal human being. And it's all because of this one incredible man... My man. I love him with all my heart. I don't know what would I do without him. I would probably end myself either by bl33ding out or st4rving to d3ath. But it's not the case now. Now I'm happy and healthy. I'm so fucking happy. I hope every one of you will meet someone who can help with battling your demons. Before it's too late and they eat you up... My DMS are open if you need help. I'm not posting that much anymore but I'm always here for you.

Love

~pr3tty-pr1ncess

[notjosieyouremy]

every edsheeran book ive ever read and what i thought

*reblog without tags please

update #1: i just finished reading Letting An@ Go by anonymous. the teenage drama and romance is gross and annoying. the protagonist has a lot of strong opinions about peoples weight, especially her mother’s, which is very triggering. plenty of m3an $pO if that’s your thing. rampant fatphobia. i give it 3 out of 5 ⭐️⭐️⭐️

5 star tier ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️

• hunger: a memoir of (my) body by roxane gay. one of the best edsheeran books ive read. it’s about sa, food addiction, boolimia, feminism, fatphobia, the struggles of just trying to exist black woman in a large body. would recommend

• i’m glad my mom died by jennette mccurdy. it’s so good. i think i finished it in a day. it’s about a lot more than edsheeran. highly recommend. go read it right now

• unbearable lightness: a story of loss and gain by portia de rossi. a gay actor’s struggles with edsheeran. one of the few i’ve read more than once. would recommend

• wasted: a memoir of an0rex!a and boolimia by marya hornbacher. really deserves to be in a class of its own. it’s the best written edsheeran book out there. it’s sad, hilarious, intelligent, perfectly captures the internal voice of mania. highly tr!ggering, so proceed with caution. after wasted was published she relapsed, which she speaks about in madness: a bipolar life. it’s also a very good book but edsheeran is not the focus

4 star tier ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️

• insatiable: a young mother’s struggle with an0rexia by erica rivera. if you wanna read about someone who takes fistfuls of bisacodyl and exercises intensely, you might like this book. it’s very good. would recommend

• dying to be th!n by nikki grahame. imagine being so severely malnourished as a child that you never go through puberty. thats how serious her illness was. she basically grew up in treatment facilities, managed to recover against all odds, went on big brother (the reality show), published a book, relapsed, and tragically passed away in 2021. the covid lockdowns were hard on her mental health. would recommend

• the girls at 17 swann street by yara zgheib. semi-autobiographical work of fiction. what sets this one apart is the protagonist isn’t a teenage girl. she’s, like, 28 i think? something like that. would definitely recommend if you get tired of reading about teens and preteens all the time

• elena vanishing by elena dunkle. at a certain point, all these books can be summarized in one sentence: she had to choose between recovery or death. it’s a very good memoir. would recommend

• born round: the secret history of a full-time eater by frank bruni. we love to see male representation in the edsheeran community. he was a chubby kid, turned to unhealthy means to achieve we!ght loss, eventually learns to heal his relationship with food and becomes restaurant critic for the new york times (ever heard of it?). would recommend

• sure, i’ll join your cult: a memoir of mental illness and the quest to belong anywhere by maria bamford. if you don’t know who maria bamford is, she’s one of the best stand up comics, period. that’s not even my opinion, it’s just an agreed upon fact within the stand up community. she’s brilliant. the book is about her mental illnesses and all the different self help groups she joins (so many!). she does go into her struggle with exercise boolimia, though that’s not the primary subject. it gets 5 stars as a book, but 4 stars as an edsheeran book because there just isn’t a lot of dis0rder talk

3 star and below ⭐️⭐️⭐️

• stick figure: a diary of my former self by lori gottlieb. good but i had trouble relating to the protagonist because was quite young and immature

• the art of st4rving by sam j. miller. some much needed male representation in edsheeran literature. and some lgbtq representation. it’s YA (young adult) fiction, not really my taste. would recommend for those who like YA. great cover art!

• wintergirls by laurie halse anderson. a lot of people love this book. i thought it was ok. it’s a work of fiction by an author who isn’t really part of the edsheeran or recovery community. it’s another YA book. i will always prefer memoirs and non-fiction

• fat chance by lesléa newman. this was the first edsheeran book i read. it was assigned reading for my high school health class. it’s a YA novel about a 13 year old girl who wants to lose we!ght. she re$tricts, she b;nges, she poorges, she becomes boolimic. i can trace my edsheeran back to this book. i started d;eting, b;ngeing, and abusing lax4tives as a direct result of reading this material. it did the exact opposite of its purpose, trying to steer young people away from toxic d!et culture. my take away was, i’m overweight, therefore i should be willing to do anything to get th!nner. it’s not very good tbh. maybe if you like YA you’d like it but otherwise, would not recommend

[mightgetsomewhere]

TW: Rant

bro it’s literally so embarrassing how I’ve been ed’d for almost 2 years now and the majority of the weight that I lost was lost in the 3 month-ish honeymoon phase right at the start. Like I was losing 8-10 pounds a month on high res counting calories in my calculator app because I didn’t have myfitnesspal and literally just guessing half the time.

From August to December 2022 I went from 157 to 130 and I’ve been floating between 135-125 ever since. That was when I was in high school too and had my family breathing down my neck about it. I fucking gained 10 pounds at college where nobody gave a shit if I ate or not and I wasted my own damn money binging. I’ve literally never been underweight and it’s fucking embarrassing. A few years ago, In just 1/4 of the time that I’ve been disordered, my sibling got diagnosed (meaning they had to have been underweight), gave me fucking diagnosed PTSD from watching them spiral, got treatment, recovered, and everybody moved on like nothing fucking happened. (Which, to go on a tangent, is another thing that fucks me up about it. It was all during COVID so literally no one outside of my immediate family knows. And nobody in my immediate family talks about it now, so I got on my delulu girl bs and convinced myself it didn’t happen until I started st4rving lol 🤪)

Nobody cares that I’m not getting any better, because I only got worse in ways that made me gain weight. Nobody cared that I was binging because they knew I wasn’t starving. Nobody cared that I would have panic attacks leaving the dining hall and would have to $h to make them stop, and if I express any dissatisfaction about my body or that I’m uncomfortably full and should have eaten a smaller portion, my fucking sibling tells me that it’s not worth worrying about.

[st4rvingt0d34th]

Help an 4n4 girl out

Okay, so I've been purposefully given myself an 0d of some cheap painkiller medicine to help me lose weight, I've done this multiple times. I was in school, and I'd just taken like 20 of those cheap pills. I was throwing up the entire day long (for 4 hours straight), and this continued for 6 more hours after I got home. No one suspected a thing, luckily. But I am wondering if this is right? On one hand, I'd do everything to lose weight, and this method works SO WELL. But on the other hand, I don't know how long this method could last me. Sorry for the little rant, but does anyone know for how long I could continue doing this before it gets too much? Love you guys <33

[pingirl69]

[goalw99]

went to the dr recently and ive lost 8 pounds since my hw! (and i was wearing clothes so it could be 10lb!)

[amistillskinny]

does anyone else think meanspo is kinda cringe? i can’t help but laugh sometimes

[baeberii]

✉️ Hi!! this is now a sh blog unfortunately 🖱

It was supposed to be for girl blogging stuff I found pretty but life went to shit hence the new state. I don't like g0r3y stuff, I really only do cute baby cvts and I somewhat want to recover so. Occasionally posting about st4rving.

[h0ll0w3d0ut]

i just saw a girl on my fyp saying “st4rving doesn’t make you lose we¡ght, it only gives the illusion of we¡ght loss, you’ll gain more in the long run.”

respectfully, i get what she’s trying to say but objectively, st4rving makes you sk¡nn¡er. hearing this shit literally triggers me more than any pr0 stuff, it just makes me want to prove them wrong.