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[lostsnuff]

I am sick and tired of being sick and tired.

Yunno what I mean?

[spittingwords-poetry]

If...

... we never gave up,

Do you think we would be together?

Would you love me with all your strength?

Would you’ve had another women?

Would you had just used me?

Would I had fall for other men?

Would I had driven you insane?

Would you had stayed?

Would I had left?

Would you had driven me to death?

-Eleen G. Rangel, (30/04/2018, 01:11a.m.), “If”

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[rainfirex]

I am a fool. Foggy windows blinding sight, We confine our thoughts and self without a fight, Whatever view we witness is not wide, it's not true, its not right, We convince ourselves that there's beauty through those panels, But too afraid to step out, Cuz we know there waits the devil, Beauty comes with a price, The price of which I may not fully know, But for that prize I shall step out bold.-rf #spittingwords #repellingemotions #fool #bold #poetry #spokenword #qotd #makingchanges #beginningoftheend #imstillafool

[spittingwords-poetry]

24/09

Do you know I miss you when it’s dark?

It’s all sub real,

I don’t know what this is.

Time goes by.

Could be months,

Could be years.

My mind can forget;

Again, for moths,

Or even for years.

Then, when the wind shuts,

The oceans dry,

And other lovers come:

There’s you.

Hidden in the safest of the places.

Where it all begun,

Where I could never something erase.

I have to confess:

Sometimes I miss you when it’s dark.

When the seasons have changed,

For the fourth time,

Maybe the third.

When the songs the waves sing,

Are no longer the ones we knew.

When your lovers are others,

When the Gods forbid “us” to exist.

When the time goes by,

And refuses to stop for us,

Killing each of the thoughts we once together loved.

-Eleen G. Rangel, 22/04, 23:22.

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Is it ridiculous to want back what we had? To crave the feeling of my fingers against your back, And the way we made love without a touch or a talk. Is it so wrong for me to be desperately searching for love? To want to feel safe by your loving arms, And to not want to give anyone else a chance. Is it really so wrong to don’t want to let go? I don’t need anything but your touch And your neck dancing with my tongue. Is it so wrong To feel I am completely lost? Honey, I have been before. But baby, Can you please come?

Eleen G Rangel, “Sad night” (11/06/2017, 22:51)

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[spittingwords-poetry]

You see, I wasn’t the type of person that half loved, I always got lost in somebody. Comfort and hope invited me in and it was tough not to get lost. So I don’t see how I couldn’t get lost in another person, I just have to find the person that could get lost in me as well. Someone who will love the dusty corners of my mind, and the vibrant words that leave my mouth. I’m not meant to be half loved and I’m not meant to half love either.

Someone’s words I once found.

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So what do I do? In the nights I'm alone, And full of sad songs?

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[spittingwords-poetry]

Menos.

Cada día es más difícil rescatar aquello que se siente como “lo peor”.

Me causa rabia ver que no es tu culpa ni la mía,

soy testigo de la lucha por detener este deterioro que nos causa gran terror

No obstante, cada día que pasa es más difícil recordar cómo se sentía aquello que contigo tenía.

Cada día que pasa la taza se vuelve más tibia,

la rabia se pierde poco a poco en un pozo sin salida

y el vacío es el final suplente de aquella antigüa agonía.

- Eleen G. Rangel

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[spittingwords-poetry]

New

I want to fuck with your brain.

Make love to your thoughts,

Without not even one touch.

Allow us to survive,

By taking over each other’s minds...

Keeping our bodies apart.

-Eleen G Rangel, (26/12/17, 03:31)

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[spittingwords-poetry]

Love yourself more than you could ever love anyone. Never let a soul damage your essence and always stay true to yourself.

Eleen G. Rangel (05/03/2018, 23:45)

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I was so sure you were the one,
It turned out I was not completely right.
I came to find it was not you.
What I desired,
Was what in you I found.

I want non sleeping nights,
And someone who I can be around.
I want to fight sometimes,
But I want our fights to not last.

I want to be told things will go fine,
And be the one whose some tears wipe out.
I want nothing to make sense.
Feel I have lost my way,
Knowing where to look for faith.

I want someone I can call a home,
At the same time they drive me mad.
To laugh so hard,
We discover how much we are alike.

I want to feel close is not enough.
Make love,
Over and over again.
I want neither of us deciding to stop,
Not until we can hear our melted souls.

I want sex that has no sense, 
No matter what is pretext.
Either we feel like killing ourselves,
Or because we had the greatest of the days.

I want us to not give a dam,
Love each other no matter what.
Feel like for each other we would kill,
Like we could die,
But we would also everything give.

I desire someone to dance on my storms,
Someone who is not afraid they could get them sick.
I want to think I cannot do it no more,
But find back my strength in their being.

I want to be vulnerable and fragile again.
I want someone that breaks all my walls,
But still, someone who makes me feel loved.
I want to give someone the power to destroy,
To give all I have and all that I am.

”

-Eleen G Rangel

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[spittingwords-poetry]

Black and white

I love the way you fulfill my soul.

Maybe for those colors of yours,

Or the collision with mines.

Someones have gone blind,

For the impurity they saw.

That was not right,

But the palette was been taken wrong.

Pastels confused with whites,

Blacks thought as they’re a symbol for love.

Indeed, there’s some sort of black,

But no, nothing as they thought.

Go ahead and try to deny,

But no being can resist the tones.

The ones you get at combine,

The essence of you and I.

-Eleen G Rangel (28/12/17, 02:38)

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[spittingwords-poetry]

Me dices que no me retenga,

pero le tengo miedo a lo que brote.

Le tengo miedo por los fantasmas de lo sucedido cuando pierdo control de mí misma,

Y temo por las cosas que digo sin haber pasado primero por el filtro de la razón.

Los pensamientos son indescriptibles y pavorosas las interpretaciones de la gente,

Que no entiende como yo lo hago y los pervierte con su propia mugre.

Ahora, hay que decir que hay de mugres a mugres,

Y cada quien es dueño de la mierda que se encarga de ensuciar,

Aún sin querer apestar,

Pero que al fin y al cabo, la mierda permanece mierda.

Es por eso que a veces callo,

Aunque siendo honesta hay mil y un más razones,

Siendo ésta la principal.

Creo que todo esto lo podría resumir con una idea,

Que fue la original.

La idea es esa de decirte aquello que ya te he dicho,

Pero que creo que nunca había yo misma oído.

Me gustaría decirte que te quiero.

Te quiero como un amigo y te quiero como mi confidente,

Te quiero para llamarte,

Y te quiero para que te quedes.

Te quiero y te quiero decir que nunca lo había dicho de una manera tan pura.

Es por eso que aunque sé que lo sentía nunca lo dije pensándolo.

Es inaceptable pensar en la corrupción del sentimiento al cobrar vida en tus ideas,

O las de otros.

Porque sé que cuando brote va a ser manipulado a favor de quien convenga,

De ti, o del aire,

O de mis auto-sabotajes.

Por que su mal-interpretación quebranta su significado y su pureza,

Me quebranta a mí, y a mí esencia.

Eleen G. Rangel, “Letter to my best friend”, (23/12/17, 04:15)

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Dependency

Will you walk with me when I can’t breathe?

I don’t want a lover,

Just to know I have also been chosen.

I desire to be a priority.

To be someone’s first plan

And find a person I can rely.

I’m not a fan of self-compassion

But

Can’t you see?

I’m so tired of attachment,

Yet I’m begging for someone to break my walls.

The worst is I don’t even know why.

-Eleen G Rangel, “Dependency” (03/01/2018, 23:40)

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[spittingwords-poetry]

Chaos

I miss having you so near

I could smell your skin.

The taste of my lips

Pressed to your cheeks.

I miss not thinking,

Just breathing.

Breathing you,

Breathing chaos.

-Eleen G Rangel (02/01//18, 01:30)

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