#sorry to be sad on main always

[maliciouslycreative]

I was always so jealous of friendships in shows growing up. I wanted that best friend that you lived at each other's houses and shared clothes and all of that stuff. I never got that. I was bullied all through elementary school and didn't have any close friends after the beginning of the 4th grade until like the 8th grade when a new girl moved to the school and we got close because we were kinda the 2 outcasts. I had friends in high school but it was still never close like I wanted I never met anyone that shared all my interests. I was so lucky to meet Christina online in 2003, she was my big sister but unfortunately lived so far away it always left me wanting that little bit more. Her untimely death in 2009 was so fucking devastating. It was like someone ripped the floor out from under me and I tumbled down down down...

When 2011 came around I barely survived it. But I made some changes and finally did make it. I had a new close friend group and I thought maybe I could make it. L could have been that ideal friend, that one I wanted so bad to live like their home was my second home. But I was in my mid 20s, that's not what we were supposed to do, right? We were close though and getting to see her almost every weekend for game night made me so happy.

It's funny because once her health got critically bad she told me how she wish she could have had that kind of friendship with me and my partner. She was going to try but her husband told her no that was weird and to not and gaslit her into thinking we wouldn't want it either. We've talked a lot the last several months ad her health deteriorates more and more and her husband became more and more abusive how we regretted so much. We've spent a lot of time crying together and I love her even more.

On Monday I lose her forever. She will always live on in my heart, her memory a grave eternally next to Christina's. And I will cherish them both to my last breath.

And I just. I just want to know why worthy of that friendship I wanted. Why does society hate people so much that want to value deep friendships? Why are people so fucking cruel and mock and belittle people that are different or just want to look at the world with kindness. I just want kindness and to love and be loved and instead I just keep getting devastated.

If you read through this thank you for reading all my pain. I truly will be ok I just needed to get out somw of the bitterness and sorrow. Please tell your friends you love them in whatever way you share your love. Love Greely without shame. You never know when you could lose someone forever so don't leave things unsaid.

I love every one of my friends I've met online. Truly you have saved me more than you could ever know and I wish only that I could pull you into my arms at least once and remind you that you are loved.

[zephyrine-gale]

kiana bronya mei u will always be my favorite main trio

[ghost-bard]

something has possessed me i think bc why am i in the year 2024 thinking about merlin/gwaine but also merlin/lancelot but also gwaine/merlin/lancelot. what have i done to deserve this

[tangledinink]

i dont think i really wanna do anything anymore is the thing.

[suffarustuffaru]

hello everyone i made a quick summary of main route ottosuba. hope this helps.

[thefabulousfab-3]

“I can’t believe Penelope got a happy ending”

Oh my god, you’re so right it’s not like this show is a romance where every main couple is guaranteed a happy ending. Oh wait…

[skeletalheartattack]

if you haven't heard it yet they made zarbon sound even fruitier than normal in sparking zero, he literally sounds like a catty queen on some drag show

truthfully, for the past month, i've been just looking through the youtube search results of "dbz sparking zero zarbon" to see and hear as much of him as i can, and as always i do enjoy hearing his voice.

i think that my personal favourite version of Zarbon's voice will always be the original ocean dub (or, similarly, his voice in Budokai 1), just something about how... serious, he sounds? i'm sadly not the person to be able to make analysis of a characters voice, but i always viewed Zarbon as a serious, calm, and collected character (up until after his first run in with Vegeta on Namek), and the way he's voiced I've always felt really nailed that aspect of him.

but even with my nostalgic bias, i do really like his fruitier inflections in Sparking Zero. i'm hoping to see a video that showcases his unique dialogue (or all his voicelines) at some point, but the game just came out, so i imagine it'll be a while.

[dollypopup]

so many people out here mad af that Colin isn't in love w/ Penelope from jump and completely ignoring that the single sexiest thing a man can do is be friends w/ a woman wholeheartedly and without having any romantic or sexual expectation from her

[deepfriedseagullfeet]

everyone use your energies to give me motivation to consistently stick with writing scripts for my music review youtube channel because i need to stick with something and not fail colossally or else ill kill myself and im being dead fucking serious abt that

[my-name-is-untitled]

I’ve been struggling with a reality that my friends and family are spread far and wide across the country for four and a half years now (like seven years really). Now one of my close friends who’s been a constant while I’ve been here is moving to yet another area of the country. I think it’s important to live your life to the fullest and experience as much as you can but at the heart of things the people closest to me feel like home. If I consider it too hard I feel a constant grief that home is never together all at once. I called my parents this evening but it was limited by the 40 minute Zoom limit. I haven’t gotten to see my youngest sisters grow up and now they’re almost teenagers. I would do anything for my childhood friends and they’ve been a 24 hour drive away (and drive three hours almost every weekend to see each other). I think it’s a crime that you can’t be with everyone important and experience every moment with them. I cried the first time so went home for Christmas during college because I knew I’d miss my college friends. I cried leaving my family to return back to my college town three years later. In the end, it would hurt so much less to not care quite as much.

Beginnings are so scary, endings are sad, and I have never, ever, appreciated the middle as much as it has deserved.

[slackware-official]

getting into fandoms as a late teen/early adult is crazy cuz everyone else is either 13 or 31 and has been in the trenches for the last few millenia, or the ones around your age are like,, considered godlike or some shit, and none of these groups respect you or will ever acknowledge your existence

[strangedisciple]

being objectum is cool and all until one of the things you're attracted to literally doesn't exist anymore

[starlooove]

Anyways nothing in the show made me cry till seeing ekko and Mel sitting there alone and it doesn’t even have to do with powder and Jayce it’s the fact that they have to get up the next day its exhausting like there’s so much work to do.

[outlying-hyppocrate]

what the fuck.

[lyannatropes]

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[skunkes]

What are your hobbies / stuff you do for fun besides art?

not much as i dont have that much space in my life right now, and im in the wrong environment, even though i dont do much. (though i cant fully blame my environment and city. im very lazy.).

Sometimes I play (single player life sim or adjacent) video games, but not often bc im picky and its easy for me to get very sucked into them. This takes time away from art and i dont like that... I like to journal (and decorate my journal with stickers). I don't actively join groups or anything for birdwatching but I like finding and identifying birds.

Dis is all i can think of unrelated to art (and even then my art related hobbies arent explored much or at all. if i had energy and the artist's brain id be all over printmaking, book making, zine making. unfortunately im not creative and there aren't enough hours in a day.)

the (not) joke answer: i dont have fun :(