#and i just wanna sleep forever
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i dont think i really wanna do anything anymore is the thing.
#nothing is as good as i want it to be#and everything is hard.#and i just wanna sleep forever#everything just feels kind of pointless because im always disappointed#i wanna be BETTER#vent#personal#i wasnt gonna post this but then i remembered that my therapist said that i should be sad on main#and its practice emotional vulnerability#so im posting it anyway#sorry
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i'm sending this endless melody to a nameless you
#SKELETON ORCHESTRA AND LILIA I NEED YOU#project sekai#emunene#emu otori#nene kusanagi#pjsk#prsk#proseka#wxs cover wishlist copium.. 2!!#i have lots more of them i wanna draw but ill do st least one duet for each pair i think. maybe nnks next ive had one for them forever#Gyaaaa#Crying i have szks lunar new years art that idk how to render im missing the holiday. lord in heaven#Ik every leaker or whatever says this is going to mmj snd it probably will and i'll love the cover but still. emunene save me#wxs gets songs with nonsense lyrics its possible right Right right#i also wanted setsuna trip to go to emu in any duet but i looove the mnai cover so i won anways#Kind of too sleepy to do my usual. Sorry viewers who like reading theough my insane tags. Dont get covid it makes you sleep 13 hours a day#For the next month.#my friends saw me going nuts over this drawing actually and i gave up hard on nenes dress i just wanted to be done.. love how emus looks..#wait i actually can be insane in the tags THE WXS WORLDLINK SONG SJHDDYDJKYMY TGYAYDHUA!!! HAGSGYAAH!!!!! GY6;$;$;$;$;$ WHEHEHEHEHEH#WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAUGH. Its so good please help. Wxs tetrad that illuminates the world save me.#why does the 2dmv have all of them under a WEDDING AROOOR WHY IS THERE A WEDDING BELL. CONGRATS ON POLYSHO MARRIAGE. HWATEVVRR!!!!!#wonderlands x showtime killing me taking damage augh Auughg akk akcghj
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Rui x Reader who is really affectionate, but can't touch him because of The Curse.
A/N: I'm alive!! Rui my beautiful beautiful tragic boy. I've actually been having a lot of brainrot for this game, particularly an isekai AU that made me contemplate making RP blog (I love you guys btw. This is probably my first fandom where they're so active, I've been really well connected with this fandom somehow and it's so fun!!), so I figured I might as well be writing it down now. This is an idea I've had spinning in my head for a while, so it's VERY self-indulgent/insert, but enjoy!! AO3 link here
Rui's POV. Second-person pronoun "You" is used. Angst! But also fluff!! (825 words)
You’ve always been an affectionate little thing. It’s something Rui finds adorable about you, staying optimistic despite all that looms over you, not letting any of the ghouls he KNOWS can be more than a little much sometimes destroy your positive attitude. It’s as if you decided to be the light in a place that literally has dark in its name, and he lov admires you for that.
He can’t help but feel the bitter green of envy though, when he watches you ruffle Lyca’s hair after he whines at you for treating him like a dog.
He pointedly turns away from the look Ed gives him over your head when you relax into his chest after he leans over your shoulder.
He just laughs along at your drunken antics when you nuzzle into Haru’s hand, somehow even more touchy when your cheeks are flushed with alcohol.
He tries not to remember the flash of hurt, confusion, the first time he’d backed away from your hand when all you wanted to do was give him a pat for a job well done. He doesn’t know if it hurt more when your face morphed into regretful understanding, or when you apologised and told him you’d try not to do it again.
Rui tells himself it’s for the better when he notices you’ve been avoiding him for the past week. He’d have done the same to you anyway, if he realised his feelings were starting to fester. He tries to not let it get to him when he hears you enter the Obscuary mansion, only to quickly patter up the stairs without stopping by the bar first, as you would have done previously.
Maybe before, he would have made it a little competition to see who could mess up the other’s hair more. He’d watched you run your fingers through Lyca’s after you’d tousled it out of place, anyway. Maybe in another life, you’d gently hold his face as you showered him with kisses. He’d do the same to you anyway, if he wasn’t forced to keep his hands to himself.
If he didn’t notice you hold your hand back every time you saw his mask slip. If he didn’t see your hand stop short before pulling it back to tell him he had a bit of hair out of place.
It’s all just part of the cursed life, he tells himself. He should be getting used to it by now, he sighs as he walks down the hall over to his room.
Behind him, he hears the jingle of the bell you like to wear on your keychain. He turns at the sound of your quick steps approaching.
“Rui! Ruiruiruiii!!” You call.
“Ah, there you are! Haha, I’m not going anywhere you know~ though I guess I don’t mind being chased?” He teases as you approach.
You smile up at him brightly, “I have something to show you!” You tell him, he notices now that you have a hand behind your back.
“Hm? Aw, did you get me a gift? And here I was thinking you were hiding from me!” He regrets the words the moment they leave his mouth. Your smile falters a bit as you blink at his confession.
But before he can backtrack with a “Just kidding!” your smile lightens again, eyes filling with some sort of resolve as you pull out… a glove on a stick? in your other hand.
He doesn’t pull away when he feels the simulation of a hand on his head. He can’t, when you look into his eyes with such unmistakable fondness. The awkward, stilted movements as you try to run the imitation hand through his hair communicates how long you’ve wanted to do this, and the tears that well up in his eyes betray how much he’s needed it.
He feels the cloth soak up the tears when you move the glove down to hold his face. It feels soft under his skin, and he can’t help but laugh at the absurdity of it all.
“How long did it take you to make this?” He asks as you let him lace his fingers with your hand extension. He squeezes the plush hand, feeling the soft give before it reaches the stick inside, inspecting where the glove and stick are attached.
“Um! A week? It took a bit of experimenting to get it to stay on… And they don’t really sell gloves on campus either.”
Your eyes crinkle when you look at him, the corners of your lips pull up triumphantly when he lets go of the hand to let you pat his head again.
“You deserve at least this much,” you tell him. “I know it’s not really the same or anything, but I don’t wanna leave you out, y’know?”
“It was worth it though, if it made you happy.” You look into his eyes as you say this, and he can’t help but believe you.
Reblogs and Comments are appreciated! I love you (◍•ᴗ•◍)✧*。
#Augh. The brainrot got to me guys. Also holy shit first full fanfic on this blog?? Hooray?? I've written and reblogged others from main but#A bit of an achievement! Really only wrote this cause I can't sleep lol#Actually this can?? be viewed as platonic??? I just like fics with pining and MC (Me lmao) is doing this as a friend who cares soooooooo.#If it matters at all#my writing#Nymphaea writes#Tokyo Debunker#Tkdb#Tokyo Debunker x Reader#Tkdb x reader#Rui Mizuki#Tkdb Rui#Tokyo Debunker Rui#Rui Mizuki x Reader#Tkdb Rui Mizuki x Reader#Shoulddd I tag the others? They're only mentioned though and I don't wanna be annoying#God Rui is such an interesting guy I hope I got him right#Whatever. There is enough love in fandom for me to be allowed to make mistakes#And anon told me I can do whatever I want forever!!#Angst#Okies if you got to this part I love you!!
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i’m so tired….i want someone to lay next to me so i can cling onto them like a koala
#wlw#wlw mood#sapphic#sapphism#lesbian#cant stop thinking about this lately#like let me hold onto you so tightly with all my limbs#sorry you are Not allowed to escape#like i wanna cuddle but like in a ‘i want you stuck with me forever’ kinda way#in a you try to get up for one second and i hold you tighter and make sad eyes at you#sorry im tired and feeling clingy for once😴#just come closer everything is fine *with the intention of trapping you with my full strength for as long as possible*#romance to me tbh#im gay and i like sleeping
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oops all rock (springtime edition)
i’ll be able to draw digitally again soon! ;w; in the meantime i’ve been scribbling a lot on paper…
could not wait for Soon, so i resorted to coloring it using the markup tool in default iphone photos app (don’t do that ever again)
#my art#sos awl#debating whether to just dump my sketches from my soujourn to hell or save them to be transferred and finished as digital stuff#or like both idk. i don’t know how ppl feel about WIPs#i’m happy to post art again ;w; thank you everyone who welcomed me back i’m slowly getting through everything i missed while i was y’know#and thank you for the sweet messages while i was gone i am bbghkjh i need to calm myself and respond !!!! love#rock tumbling (sos)#story of seasons a wonderful life#bokumono#story of seasons#harvest moon#hm awl#harvest moon a wonderful life#bunny sighting 😳 i still have THOSE wips too#there’s certain things i wanna prioritize once i can use my tablet again and those are one of them#but i will also probably post new stuff alongside finishing old unfinished stuff….. i hope that is OK……#idk i’ll have to talk more later! right now i am nervous!!! i love you all!!!!#fanart#awl rock#bokujou monogatari#hm anwl#unfortunately this scum neet still has my entire heart so. most of the notebook is just him pulling goofy faces… sorry……..#also a lot of lumina and nami…. and molly…. they r really cool…#ceci is also cool and i’ve drawn a collage of her that i just. never posted#mostly drawing HMDS related stuff about the descendant characters#OK I’LL STOP TAGBLOGGING#i am once again back in DS for girl hell. i want to make a series of posts about differences in the English vs the Japanese version#and also fun secret things related to DS#this is all in the future i gotta finish all my unfinished stuff…. uuuu….#i love you all mmmmmwah (i cast sleepy time blanket and sleep forever)
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Cats art has stalled just a tad bc of artfight (a problem I plan to remedy soon), so I just wanted to share an old Lonzo from when I was in Germany :)
#I’m pretty sure I drew these guys on a 12 hour bus ride to Switzerland actually#which i think is pretty cool#I finished lonzo in a hotel room and it was the bestest ever#sigh I love art and cats#bc of the newest Gotham-native challenge I’ve resolved to rewatched all of the productions of cats I’ve seen#just because I miss my besties#I do have a couple rare munku and tugger drawings in this sketchbook#perhaps I’ll post them one day#but who knows#I still haven’t revealed my tugger design (doesn’t have one)#but someday soon#been listening to shut up and drive by rhianna nonstop for hours#every couple of months I’ll be overwhelmed with the urge to just watch SO many drag race clips on YouTube#never seen the show ever#but the Alyssa Edwards vs Tatianna lip sync to that song? life changing#before I drift off to sleep I just wanna sayyyy uhhhh I love you all forever and ever 🫶🫶🫶🫶🫶🫶#cats the musical#cats musical#sorah’s silly scribbles#alonzo cats#cats alonzo
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i haint watched the dang chibisode and idk if ill actually watch it with sound on sdfjk but i have a hurt feeling about them casually imbuing perry with speech for a one off gag because the idea that he needs to talk to communicate is fake. we had 4 seasons of wacky magic hijinks cartoon where perry never needed verbal speech to communicate. they couldve done this gag at any point in the show but they didn't, and the fact that they didn't felt significant. perry's muteness is such a core part of his character, to me, to the way i conceive of him/write him. i don't wanna overreact to a goofy little side cartoon (even tho i'm doing it anyway) but it's still the characters, and it still upsets me! ok that's it i've said my piece
#ill watch it at some point but despite my silence i have been like obsessively anxious about this cartoon#and pestered my friend to watch it for me sDFJKL#in a month this will have either ruined pnf for me forever or i'll have changed my mind and i like it actually its fine#for now anyway i have tons of comic sketches about perry's muteness that i no longer wanna finish and share...maybe someday but not now#i had a rly great day actually but now im falling asleep in bed tipsy and a little teary over this. cuz i love perry a lot he's#really special to me. i also got that star wars perry shirt in the mail today btw. and. it's such a good pj shirt#but back on topic#it sucks when an aspect of a character that is CORE to your appreciation of them becomes casually disregarded by the writers at some point#like im certainly not ever accepting an interpretation of perry like 'secretly hed really like to be able to talk' because its#never ever been communicated. like the idea that heinz wd prefer if perry was human. its just not in the show. the opposite is true in fact#so im left feeling stupid for caring about something that some writers(inc. dan) felt was unimportant. makes me not wanna continue my art#which sux cuz i like my comic ideas! id love to finish them. i hope i get over this.#i overreact to live-updating media when im fixated on it wh is why i prefer getting into dead fandoms haha#but they keep on bringing them back to life dont they...im never safe#it was funny me trying to explain to my friend why i efel so strongly about this meanwhile hes tried to explain why he feels so strongly ab#ut AYA and my stance on that episode has always just been “cute! its fine” lmao#@ dwampy you guys made the show that follows a specific rhythm and set of rules designed to appeal to obsessive autistic brained people ok#you invited my overreaction. unsheathes katana etc#ok im goint to sleep#meta
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//staring at the ceiling at 4AM// like what other magneto skins could they make they already peaked with The Master of Magnetism but i also would like to see their attempts to succeed The Master of Magnetism
#marvel rivals#snap chats#sorry this games my personality now unfollow me this all ima talk about#BUT IM SERIOUS LIKE WHAT ELSE COULD THEY DO. TO GET ME TO WANNA GET ANOTHER ONE#a simple recolor aint gonna do it…. also if yall keep up that beard i aint gettin nothin else forever ….#i do lowkey hope they do a headmaster skin one day … just curious to see how theyd interpret it#i think ive already expressed that i dont really like the headmaster outfit but a brother still open to it…. im a lover not a hater ….#idk…. ok ima sleep fr now im tired and i wanna dream of cherik aso BYE
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forever sleep. rest well
will awoken if call…
but for now..
dream, my lil cookie…
like you were never existed.
#cookie run#pure vanilla cookie#shadow milk cookie#cookie run au#trapped forever soul au#not canon to au#i might sleep eternally..but im ALWAYS here#sadowin jester cookie#just lil something i kinda put into with my mind and stuff and urge tho#it does not mean i left#just wanna do stuff#i had love for other things like roblox fandom or other games and i have one server that i start becoming more active there and man they al#such cool people hehe…i remember my first time chatting in unverified chat and become a certified funky person month later in there#but that all i can say jn this hashtag it becoming too long/big so good day to you all and i gonna go unactive in tumblr for awhile now so#baii :3
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Fuck he makes my brain so so mushy, heart pounding so loudly and gets me blushing way too easily!!! I love giving them my entire heart, knowing I'll be treated so so softly and caringly !!!!!
#xochimilli writes#🫀puppy#hehe reading every message she's ever sent to me and blushing so so fucking much even if he's just saying yummy or saying hi#I AM SO FUCKING RAHHHH I LOVE THEM I LOVE THEM I LOVE THEM#i would literally give him my soul and heart for her to keep forever and ever if i could#shit i am just soooooo so aaa romantic love is nice feely#he's my first ever romantic love and i..... jdjddjksksjs fuCK#they're sleeping eeping rn and FUCK I WANNA SLEEP EEP ON HIS FLOOR NEXT TO THEIR BED RAHHHH#I LOVE HER SO SO MUCH IN EVERY WAY AAAAA aaa a a aaaa#if i drew a diagram of my heart.... it would only have their name all over it...#all of it is theirs.... i think i said that already JDJFKFKF#xochi goes crazy in his tags yipppeee#my puppy#🫀💛#my sweetheart#my boyfriend#my love#ftm t4t#t4t mlm#t4t nblm#t4t yearning#t4t#lgbt yearning#nblm yearning#trans yearning#queer#soft mlm#soft love#puppyboy#kitty boy
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hmmm thinking about how both Knuckles and Licho have been stuck in a single place for as long as they remember, Knuckles completely isolated and Licho unseen by anyone for a very very long time hmm
#licho learned to possess people but it chose to be violent about all of that#lmao#still figuring it out I'm thinking what skills my little thing could have I have some ideas and others I'll polish some time later#I was thinking about how this entire au. Beyond meeting licho is about knuckles looking for the pieces of the master emerald#so he can be guardian again. basically#and while the me is Knux's purpose and collecting all its pieces will allow him to return Home hes also basically trying to return#to the way things were originally where he was stuck on angel island. basically forever#and licho wants that emerald so it can finally free itself it's like the opposite thing for both of them#god I wanna write something about this but I wanna start for them beginning and that's like a year in the past brother#many things have happened#fon knux to end up in spiralside and spiralside ain't the end either sncnskckd#pls forgive if this isn't written very well I'm not feeling up to writing my thoughts rn I'm just thinkingggg#thinking sooo hard rn#licho the spirit#I need to go to sleep it's 5am again but I had a nap and I can't sleep anymore urghhh
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#girlblogging#girlblogger#tired girl#rotting in my room#i love sleep#i wanna sleep forever#girlrotting#teenage years#hell is a teenage girl#me core#mentally tired#this is a girlblog#just girly thoughts#female manipulator#female hysteria#lana del rey#divine feminine#female rage
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oh what an awful morning to wake up in
#i wake up#and#the 1st thing i see is trump is at 267#i wanna just go back to sleep forever#election 2024#us elections#presidential election#donald trump#kamala harris
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little still from the animatic im working on but, like, look at them~ so soft, so sleepy. Let them rest-
#wip#this is taking me forever to do#wanna sleep as cosy as they are ong#sleepy hours#rottmnt#This will be my longest one yet#if i finish it ugh#work is consuming all my life rn I just wanna draw these silly little turtle dudes#you'd think working in an art store is fun but noooooo~#they mean so much to me#mwah#tribbleart
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questioning what life is rlly about but then u catch up with the girlies over dinner n life is worth living again <3
#i don’t go clerb hopping but restaurant hopping <3#w my fav ppl <3#i love my friends <3#n im so sad we can't see each other as often#love my uni friends too but the bond u have w the friends u made when u were little are irreplaceable#i've been besties w a friend since we were little tiny babies just barely able to move around#also! they surprised me w a bday gift bc this year i didnt celebrate bc i wasnt home n life was hectic#n one of the gifts is a bookmark w my name engraved on it and!!!!! featuring pressed flowers#its the little things that make me cry </3#like how adorable is that#anywayyy that gift was just tew cute had to mention it#i wanna have nights like this forever😔😔😔#like no do not ever ruin ur sleeping schedule for a man but yes ruin it for ur friends who take u from one restaurant to the other <3#so so sleepy but i'll sleep w a full n happy heart today <3
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