#sorry for not posting anything for a while i havent really been drawing much

[the-smiling-doodler]

fuck it. go my cuddlejump

[microwavetoaster-selfships]

I think I need that "Wow, I haven't stubbed my toe in five months! I was then shot fifty-seven times." Audio again

[harvestmoth]

aha i lied. april fools.

[princeoftheeternalbog]

THE KING HAS RETURNED

guys im so sorry I can't believe i havent posted in so long its very unsexy of me so this is sweet comfort fluff about embarrassment as i am very embarrassed right now of my own actions (taking over two months to post again)

i was considering posting this without the old men and then decided that if im doing the strawhats im doing everyone ESPECIALLY sans and moby dick

Luffy

Laughs. But if you look sad he starts feeling bad and tries to make you laugh instead. But also he'll forget that it made you sad and bring it up again later. He tries his best to accommodate for your feelings but he's a naturally casual guy so he doesn't see what's embarrassing. There's a few miscommunications about this at the start of your relationship until he explains that no matter what you do he adores you🥲

Zoro

He didn't even notice it to be honest, or he thinks it's really cute. And if you bring it up to ask him about it he's just like what are you talking about, nobody was even looking. That's a lie, he was looking because he he's lowkey obsessed with you, but he doesn't want to make you feel worse so he just lies. He even pretends that him always saving you from falling is coincidental, you at least know that ones a lie but sweet nonetheless.

Sanji

Tries to reassure you but draws attention to it by accident, and then he does something more embarrassing to cover it up. To be honest though it really works, people just talk about him instead. But he also makes you feel less embarrassed just by how much he dotes on you, if you fall then he's swooping you up bridal style to go to chopper, if you spill something on your clothing he'll cover you up with his jacket, he'll clean anything you break with not a single complaint, he just adores every fibre of your being, even the wayward clumsy ones.

Usopp

Always thinks it's cute. And he really relates to the anxious feelings so he's just treats it like a normal situation, if anyone else saw it then he makes sure to tell them to not speak of it. He will also replace your clothes if you accidentally damage them :) like you wake up and your favourite shirt that you accidentally spilled ink all over and had to bin is now on your bed, looking brand new(it is). He also makes little inventions to help you out, both silly and serious, like a portable air bag that inflates with a button, a little robot that is essentially a roomba, little things like that.

Nami

Threatens everyone who saw it to never speak of it and then distracts you as much as possible until you stop thinking about it. Will cuddle you if you get really upset about it but she doesn't really understand why you would be embarrassed because she thinks everything you do is perfect. She does eventually learn when there's going to be a possible chance for an accident, she's predicting your clumsiness like the weather🫡 she stops what she can and tries to teach you how to avoid these situations :)

Robin

Prevents said embarrassing moment. Listen she's just so efficient and she spots problems before they happen so she's just secretly fixing stuff because she never wants you to feel bad. It's not until like months into your relationship and you're apart for some reason that theres like a series of unfortunate events that reminds you how clumsy you can be and realise what she's been doing. Lots of appreciation kisses after that for sure.

Franky

Honestly you never really feel embarrassed around him, he's just so easy going and he manages to make everything seem normal. If you trip or walk into something he just checks to see if you're okay, if you spill something on yourself or rip something he uses his shirt to cover you while you go and get changed. He really could not gaf as long as you still fancy him tbh. But if someone makes you feel bad then it's like that scene from the cat in the hat(he will make it look like an accident) :

Brook

Concerned if you're hurt or if you get upset, but otherwise completely doesn't care. He just nonchalantly fixes the vase you broke, or helps you up from the floor and just pretends that he didn't watch you accidentally eat a fly. He really is just so in love with you and he still carries the manners of his youth so he refuses to contribute to your embarrassment in any way. But he loves an excuse to keep his hands on you, guiding you by the shoulders, holding your arm, carrying you around, he can't get enough of it.

Jinbei

Lovely beautiful man, he is always embarrassing himself but he's old enough to not care anymore and neither should you, if you fall over guaranteed it's because you're laughing at him just having slipped on deck. With Jinbei you become the type of couple where you bring each other down literally and up metaphorically, there can hardly be any embarrassment to you're sharing happiness all the time.

[rwtimejuncture]

small update (so yall know im not dead)

hi hello!

i know it’s been a while since i’ve posted anything here. it’s only been music every now and then and not much in the way of actual updates. so here’s what i got on the itinerary:

- i still need to do the final ask from the AMA. whoever that was, im sorry i havent answered it, i just have some extreme executive dysfunction when it comes to doing that and i could definitely bang that out some afternoon soon lol

- gourmand’s theme is in the works! soon after that it’s survivor and monk. planning this to be an animated series is really fun because i get to flex my musical muscles and make a soundtrack for something i love and i know many others are gonna love too. seeing the nice comments on the songs i’ve made for this AU has been pretty motivating, the only challenge is inspiration. music’s a lot of moving parts and i gotta make sure to balance them all. but i have a pretty good idea for how i want it all to sound, so… get ready for gourmand jazz in the near future.

- i’m in the process of writing what will be the first canon animated material of the series. the story centers around spearmaster and what they were doing before they got warped to the future. it’s part of a prelude project i have in mind for all the non-survivor and monk slugcats, and i’ve been doing quite a bit of mental planning for it all.

- i might do one final redesign/redraw of the ref sheet for all the slugcats. not so much as a design change thing, but more to find a method of being able to draw these characters consistently, because (and you can easily see this from the AMA) i haven’t been able to do that very well! and it helps if i have a ref that more matches my current drawing style, which is why i’ve redone my refs multiple times.

anyways, that’s all! thought you all deserved some sort of update after all this radio silence. TL;DR im working on it!

[kiritila]

Hiiii!!!

It's been a while since you were alive lol. I just wanted to know if we're going to have any no1sm content anytime soon? (drawings, chapters...) I don't want to pressure you or anything, really (I know how stressful college can be), but I'm really exciteddd

I missed you a lot!!!

hii! yes im so sorry about that lol ive been in a depressive slump and havent been drawing at all. at the start of the year i made the executive decision to go on antidepressants, and i am only starting to come out of the other side of the initial adjustment period.

i have a long post here that you can read for answers concerning no1sms future, but i will do a summarised version here too.

YES i will still be updating no1sm.

NO it will no longer have an upload schedule, and it may be months between chapters. the story has finally come together in my head and i feel like i have moved past my long burnout period.

YES i have been drawing tbem again. im super slowly been getting back into drawing.

I AM INSANELY BUSY i have huge deadlines coming up soon all the way up until july, which is when i am planning on finally focusing some of my free time on writing again. ive just had such a creative boost, ive also been working on merch that i really would like to sell when i move out next year.

i stress all these things a lot but i promise i do not mind being asked when im updating things, my schedule is just so packed that i’ll just update accordingly.

NO1SM’S 3 YEAR ANNIVERSARY IS ALSO APPROACHING IN JULY!!!!! How very exciting. everything i do to celebrate it will be so underwhelming its unreal😭😭😭

thats all from me anywayyyyy keep talking to me!! i miss talking about this fic so much

[theresivy]

PLEASE HELP: SIGNAL B*OST, D*NATE, OR C*MMISSION ME!!

Listed below are the TL;DR, How to Help, and Full story/Context. I’m sorry I had to resort to this but i have no other choice.

TL;DR version

Please help a mentally disabled fan artist’s family to pay for medical debts for c*ncer, insulin, maintenance meds (for depression, anxiety, etc), and cat food

How to Help

D*nations!!! - I only have P*yPal (also thru K*-fi) and GC*sh! Please dm me for the link or QR code

C*mmission me!!! - I really hate asking for help with nothing to give in return, so preferably please c*mmission me. I havent updated my new set of c*mmission sheet samples BUT heres a short, quick version attached on my post as a pic.

B*y my let-go collection of merchandise!!! (PH-based only please and sorry) - In order to try and make up for the em*tional ab*se me and my mom have to go thru on a daily basis just by living with dad, I ended up in a downward spiral and tried to buy things impulsively since 2020. So, now, we’re paying the price and I have been deeply regretting it ever since. So, plsase please please help buy my palugi (selling for a loss) let-go merchandise, theyre mostly official and am selling for a loss, we badly need the space and especially the funds. Weve only sold less than a half of my stock and it doesnt help that my dad keeps mocking me about it.

Share and S*gnal boost!!! - Tumblr is the only site where i have somewhat of an audience. Please please please help reblog, share, and signal boost.

Full Story/Context

Hi, I’m Theresivy (Teh-reese-ivy), I have been depressed and mentally impaired (among other things) who draws art as a multifandom self-taught fan artist, As of 2020 my mom’s tumor has turned into cancer that has only been given medical attention to in 2022 onwards. And as of then, i have indefinitely become a N,E.E.T for my mom and our finance’s sake while being there by her side. As of now she has gone through FOUR surgeries because more and more unexpected complications keep popping up. She doesnt deserve this, why couldnt it have been me,

We live with my emotionally abusive and manipulative dad (her husband) and our two fur daughters Pancake and Waffles (of which my cats and mom mean more than the world to me) while being forced to live in one of the countless apartment complexes my equally abuse maternal uncle (and his wife, my maternal A-I-L) as we have no other choice. And as such, my dad has been kissing their asses since we were forced to move here more than five years ago.

Both my uncle and my A-I-L took it upon themselves to become the defacto head of my maternal family ever since my maternal grandmother passed just because he became rich thru the means of evil entrepreneur practices. We cant do anything lest we want to get kicked and live on the streets. He is a real-life mastermind as he is always a few steps ahead of us, even making it so that his eldest daughter became his perfect pawn of being his personal lawyer. He always has connections and to them we are merely insects.

My parents and the rest of our family dont really see “artist” as anything that could get money rolling in (and day by day my failed attemptes have been proving them right), and on top of that, they see me being depressed and such as being the “freeloading couch potato”. So they keep bringing up how much of a failure I am. Weve been living in such toxic conditions that my mom has developed this sort of stockholm syndrome type relationship with my dad, and her younger brother (my uncle), and his wife (my A-I-L, her S-I-L). At first i thought i could try and save mom but shes too far gone that she strictly forbids me from fending for myself whenever either of the three try to berate me and drive me to tears and breaking down for the fifth time every week.

All i wish now is to be able to pay back at least some of the debt, for my mom and my fur daughters’ sake, and hopefully my own. I have been in a downwards spiral ever since i have been tolerating being the “odd one out” kid from school. in general, and even in the family, its been literal years and my entire life, im tired of being used and tossed to the side, im tired of being the punching bag of a cosmic joke, and im tired of my disabilities. im tired of being useless to the people i care for the most. so please. help us.

My wish now is to be able to help mom and our fur daughters move away from our domestic ab*sers. everything is an endless spiral of dead ends and im sick of it. ive been self sabotaging for years but a small part of me still has hope, please. i dont want to believe that this is where it ends for us. in this world of darkness and cruelty that spits on our faces, only my mom and our fur daughters have shown me the smallest glimpse of happiness. and even then ive failed them by becoming a barely functioning patient of depression. so, please, dont take my sunshines away.

[loloelia]

Hasnt it been a while since i posted art ?

Ive not been dead but ive been quiet ,with not art :p

I realy wanna try and post more art or wips or whatever i can !!!!

Dont count on me posting a lot ,but ill try my best!!!!

Lots of rambles down below !!!!

Alright im just gonna make some organisation stuff here

Fifth sibling

Im gonna take a while to make the first chapter because i always struggled with that , if wont be on Ao3 ,i wanted to try but i really just cant ,in my head ive been planning the story ,some plot point and while its not great its a start

Comic wise ,ill try and do some but dont hold your breath for them ,because i procrastinate a lot ,but im always trying m'y best to make stuff !!!! (The one i have planned will be first sent to my mutuals because i wanna stay safe on the internet ,and you never know!)

When its comes to normal art ,ive been thinking about some pieces ,for exemple one that id like to do that is inspired by a beautiful piece of my dear mutuals(sorry for the tag) @scared-lantern ,its Slight's sanctuary , while Eko doesn't have a temple ,nor cult ,ive been wanting to do a piece of a place they love to go to , i might also make some Narinder and Eko art because i havent talked much about these two despite them being quite interesting , one that i really have been wanting to do is about Shamura and Eko ,these two need to be talked about more !:D I might do some quick sketches of places that are important or that i like (eko's "room" in shamura's room ,and well shamura's room lmao ,might do leshy's temple too,maybe ,possibly)

The promises of death

(aka my basic au)

No writing planned for this one thank gods ,but i should talk about it more i think :p

I have a LOT of comics i want to do ,well like.... Around 3, but that's a lot to me! :^ one to show how its starts ,one for Narinder's developpement in the cult , lamb's relationship with everyone(forneus,chemach and everyone else !),and some other i forgot about but ill find them !

For art pieces ,i dont have anything ,those ideas come and go and i dont have a good memory ,but pieces might be posted sometimes or not idk :/ ill make some sketches of the cult grounds ,lamb's tent,the temple ,and the work room of the lamb !

Sweet ocs

By that i do mean Spooder, Snuggly,Hannah and Hazel ,no writing for them planned either , but i could talk about how they came to be if im bored enough

More comics !!!!!!! Spooder has quite a bunch of stuff weirdly enough ,one where this spider acts stupid and goes to learn about WTF ichor is (aka my excuse of why i dont draw his fourth pair of limbs), another one to explain how this kid managed to live for almost a thousand years , annnnnd one that's more about the state of the world after Narinder's tantrum,but Spooder is my only oc who was alive back then , also *ahem* @alllgator-blood you know what's coming for you 🫵(its been a wips for like .....6 month lmao) Snuggly too has some comics ,mostly him being a lil brat with everyone around him ,but maybe ill do one of his back story ,will do one for Hannah though , and id like to do one about the two interacting, now Hazel has only two comics as of now ,one about her meeting with kudaii and another of her being a angsty 17 year old lmao

Wow that's long

Maybe ill do some art piece mostly silly ones for fun so yeah :/ but ! I will do new ref sheets because the old one sucks ass>:(

Lives-long nightmare (aka my goat au)

HAHAHAH never talked about this one yet !!!!!!>:)

Ill try and write some info about the state of the world and stuff but nothing else i think:)

Two comics for now !!!!! One of goat and Narinder's equivalent in this world(i dont wanna spoil even if its obvious) and the other is about the goat travelling to the lamb's world !:)

Ill do a bunch of art for sure !!!! The designs first ,then Silly ones ,and a lot of stuff thatll come to me later

Also would you look at that one of my ocs made it and became important enough to make it to the story guess who ?.....yeah its Hazel she'll be important to the plot she wont be mentioned by name but shell be there.....well not alive but still here she might get some art and a few panels long comic about her and kuddai because thats what's important to the story.

Alright i think that's it !!!

I should be more active now !!!!

If i tagged you while you didn't want to tell me ill take it away :(

But that's it ive been nervous about this but now its posted so eh

[sweetmeaty]

hey! is there a list of most/all of yr guys? i want to make fanart of some of them, but i can't remember all of them. there was one with green(?) grub scars as well as x's for pupils, if that helps.

ahh thank you..! ill make a list real quick (i dont know if i have art of all of them on this blog, but.) youve activated mt fucked up trap where i dump a bunch of unposted art and info. therefore. Cut ⬇️

the wedatheric/lovely world ones ⬇️

pallor mortis 🐑

rowsey mayple 🎤

some rowseys and pallors ^ (ft terezi in second one LOL) neither of these posted i believe. i dont have any pictures of pallor pre transition .. but she looks pretty much the same with short hair and stubby horns. usually rowsey wears suits but these drawings are special occasions.

ray harley 🩸

dirkuu strider 💊

^ some recent rays and dirkuus <3 (last two not posted?)

marisu 🌈(<- shes the one you mentioned in the ask. @obscenicon has a really cute fanart of her here, even though i havent drawn her in a while) ⬇️

bunnie rabbit 🐇 (<- i dont have any recent art of her besides genderbend doodles HAHA tell me if you want old references [or the genderbend?? whatever..hahahha. ])

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there are also my "my girls" characters, theyre another universe, (dont have a name for it besides "my girls".. that might change) but i dont draw them as much or talk about them.. ill put them here anyway.

apartment building 🏠

haunted house 🏰

(the first drawing with haunted house is a little outdated.. i changed his hair style to what you see in the rest. but otherwise) the girl in the first panel of the first drawing is dollhouse, who doesnt have a lot of art of her right now. but shes apartment buildings coworker.

darling angel 🐰

abysmal dogshit 🐰

^ heres their ref. darling angel.. i have too much art of her to reliably post.!!! take this for now. (Her tail changes color from green to pink depending on what she's wearing, hahahaha, and abysmal dogshit lost her tail in an accident..)

then a few other background characters... but ive only drawn most of them once, and wanna hold off on posting them till theyre more solid. hahaha.. none of those drawings are posted except for the first comic, i think?

um.. anyway, yeah. if you have any other questions or anything let me know! (and sorry for so much , haha, dont feel scared)

note: this post is now a bit out of date, some design and universe changes have been made as of april/may 2025.

[tinkonka]

hellooo!! im kind of new?? to ur blog (i came from ao3 ehxhbrfj) and i was wondering abt what ur top three ships are?? and uhhh what u personally like most about their dynamic orrr what u’d like to see in future events regarding them? thank you!!

UAHH HELLO!! THANK YOU FOR READING MY STUFF ON AO3 <:)) I so happy

okay. get ready for it baebyyy. gonna go 3rd most fave to 1st fave. Guess the #1 fave (Impossible)

3. Akian

im going to be Honest and Admit that i only started shipping it out of spite but as i got more into the game and more into vbs i like. Really fucking appreciate it. Very much. i WILL SAY THOUGH I honestly don't mind consuming it on a platonic context either i JUST REALLY LIKE THE TWO OF THEM

I really appreciate the subtle shows of their care for eachother, akito noticing that something is off with her, an going Specifically TO akito and miku in. in wtwg i believe (i could be remembering this wrong) and in turn an, although she does like to tease him a lot, believes in his ability to contribute to the team and. IDK. THEY CARE ABOUT EACHOTHER!!! THERE IS SO MUCH. LOVE. in their hearts. An made him a cheesecake for his birthday. akito notices she looks tired lately and tells her not to push it. i want to complain about people boiling their relationship down to .. wlw mlm hostility and completely removing any notion that they like eachother . BUT THIS IS A POST ABOUT APPRECAITION SO IWONT TALK ABOUT IT.

even just. like. Vocal wise. their voices go so so well together. Traffic jam is one of my favorite vbs covers. i love the akian rap in it. I love their dynamic . I don't really have. MUCH ? i want down the line. (I do keep up w vbs but theyre not my favorite) so i kinda just enjoy them hwenever theyre on screen

2. Mizumafu

Its such a travesty that i have not written them yet but they are the dynamic i go batshit insane over. The Parallels. the. The Difference in. In how they mask. Their hearts. Their kindness. Its so similar. to eachother. mafuyus little "i havent seen you in a while... im glad" with her little smile. Mizuki saying that it'd just be the four of them at scramble fan festa so mafuyu wouldnt have to mask the entire time i fucking LOVE them

even like on a surface level theyre so freaking cute. girl whos like :D and guy whos like o_o (I love it when they transmasc mafuyu its wonderful) I just love them so terribly. I need them to hug i need them. to kiss eachother maybe.

In terms of what i wantfor them down the line... i'd love to see a sort of thing after ena5 maybe where. Mizukis not been to school in a WHILE and has a lot of stuff to catch up on so mafuyu sits with her and helps her. and mizukis like. kind of low energy but mafuyu doenst question it, just lets her sit there, just helps her with the equations a bit. mafuyu chan. I love them

Ruinene

Go on guys act surprised

GOD WHERE DO I EVEN BEGIN. WITH THEM? I think i actually started liking them a while ago by proxy because i had a Friend who liked it.. i dont remember much but it was jun22 (july?) that i got into pjsk and right off the bat i really liked them. and then i got more into it and i liked them even more.

Their dynamic... i've always been a sucker for. "i'd die for you" x "Please live for me" . i love it terribly. I LOVE HOW INTRICATE IT IS i could go on forever about it. actually i am going to. sorry buckle the fuck up

I feel like ... i feel like a lot of Nene's attitude. toward everyone near the beginning of the wxs story. And toward herself really. It's just a big. Culmination of self hatred. She hates herself because she can't even talk to anyone without shaking, can't go on stage, lets people down... and she's bitter toward Rui because she hated that she couldn't do anything about their relationship. Letting people down.

i wanna draw attention to the way she talks about him near the beginning vs after her talk with tsukasa:

Do you see the difference? "he just has to try it out. people avoid him. heres the things hes done" vs "he gets absorbed in his work, and he's alone but i dont think he wants that". One is pointed, the other is sympathetic.

DO I THINK NENE HATES RUI. NO. But that's the thing with her. Her self hatred. she projects it onto others. Like in smile of a dreamer when she snapped at Tsukasa. And rui knows this behavior because he's immediately like "oh you must be worried about emu". because she didnt know what to do.

But then they grow together, and nenes attitude toward herself becomes kinder, and gradually her problems can be shared with them and it all just. becomes better. They Grow. And that's what i love about them. Rui "i've never seen nene shine like that before" kamishiro. Nene "i like your shows" kusanagi. I just i love them so much.

Ruinene i also consume both platonically and romantically but with like. a veer toward romantic. the way i write them is like if theyre dating but i rarely ever establish that fact (like i'll never have them outright say it) unless i'm writing with Explicit Polysho. I jjust. I love them so bad. I write the most for them i. draw the most for them. I love them.

in terms of what i want for future events WELL NENE5 IS LITERALLY RIIIIGHT AROUND THE CORNER and i i OUGH i do want rui to give a little help to her. i want rui to be there for her again. maybe a bit more forward this time because nene might go "oh i should handle this by mself" when shes in need ofhelp. Lalala. God save us all

AND I THINK THATS IT. HTNAK YOU FOR THE ASK>!!! I ENJOYED TALKING

[lesbianardoo]

hihi here to ask stuff about your iteration as a joke for you to answer as a joke!

what's up with the boys and draxum? were they made by draxum? were they raised just by splinter or by both of them?

do they know april and/or casey? how'd they meet?

who's the best cook and who's the worst? does any of them like baking? what about crochet? drawing or graffiti?

(future me here... i did NOT expect to write this much. sorry lol)

im gonna be honest i struggled with coming up with draxum's thing for a LONGGG time. but here's the gist (there's a longer explanation of yokai history in the first oneshot i posted for this au on ao3)- there was a huge yokai population in japan for centuries before a natural disaster and many immigrated overseas, leading to multiple communities mostly on coasts or big cities. most yokai settlements are closer to big human settlements- so there's a lot by la and nyc, but you're not exactly about to find any in lost springs, wyoming, with a population of like 6 people. or any yokai in wyoming at all.

focusing on nyc here, the average new yorker has heard about yokai, but they're more of an urban legend than anything. very similar to "the alligators in the sewers." as for their living situations, think the rise of the tmnt hidden city, but less "magical entrance to a metropolis below new york city" and more like the sewers in mutant mayhem's game "mutants unleashed" but a little more established.

okay, finally to draxum. he's known as a yokai scientist, but not like "renowned amazing life changing discovery scientist", but like. mad scientist vibes. he wanted to find out if there was a way to create yokai without reproducing naturally, because there's been some fear rising about the future of the yokai species, especially with safety and spacial concerns (what if they outgrow the underground? what if they're discovered by humans? what if there's not enough resources? yokai cant exactly just get a job on the surface). which eventually led to the "birth" of the turtles. kind of similar to the rise turtles creation, but they weren't made for war or anything.

draxum is overjoyed at first, but quickly realizes he can NOT raise children. draxum has known splinter for years, and knows he's been feeling lonely since his wife died so he kind of just... gives them to him. splinter doesnt really object. draxum realizes like 13 years later that handing over these kids to a depressed family friend with generational trauma wasnt exactly a good idea because now these kids are a little bit fucked up for life.

anyway, about 10 years later when leo is about 12, raph is almost 12, mikey's 10 and donnie's 9, he decides that he should actually be a part of their life. he was their creator after all, so he finally decides to take responsibility and check up on them. he and splinter co parent until, well. splinter dies when leo is 18. but we'll get to that lol

so, yeah. raised by splinter for like 9 years (which affected them all differently, because splinter's treatment was 100% not equal) and then raised by both until splinter kicks the bucket

ok. april and casey. yeah. they know those guys!

like i said earlier, the average new yorker knows has heard about the "animal people in the sewers." there's obviously a few dumb teens who go looking.

april and casey have been friends for YEARS, and they're both a little crazy, so they take it a little more seriously. anyway, they definitely find them!

splinters PISSED at the turtles for a while for becoming friends with them, but draxum tells him to cut that that shit out and let the turtles have actual friends (splinter and the turtles dont actually live that close to yokai 'society'. it's a while walk through the sewers. splinter doesnt really tell them there's more out there either, so... they grew up kind of isolated).

i havent totally flrshed out april or casey just yet so more on that to come. but yeah. they know those guys. and timothy. and in the future, karai.

i dont really see any of the turtles as a "bad cook", they all range from good to mediocre. but i guess at the end of the spectrum would be raph. mikey's the best because they like sweet treats and bakes them a lot. leo also likes to bake bread every once in a while just because he likes the smell, but he doesn't have a lot of free time for that so it's not often. donnie and mikey both like to crochet, but mikey is more fun, like plushes and granny square blankets and donnie is more functional, like bags and sweaters. raph LOVES graffiti and does it all the time after draxum gets spray paint. mikey is more of a doodler, but leo likes to draw when he has the time.

ok i didnt think i'd write this much but haha yeah i hope that answers your questions lol.. yeahhhhhhh

[thechiffofalltime]

Hello Chiff! It’s me, a milgram sideblog, the milgram sideblog, 396, that one, the Mahiru fan, anonymously cause I kinda prefer to hide my main even if I do a terrible job at that. You drew me a Mahiru! Or just a Mahiru nonetheless. And my, a Mahiru she is! I really love your art, also your handwriting ig? I hope that doesn’t sound weird, I just like the choice to put cursive wording and phrases on the straps it adds detail, like info, a reference, and there it fit the composition of that picture really well. I often put short words in binary on them.

I don’t know if I was the one it was intended for, I was sure I followed you before that post. It was kinda to be like “I’m the sideblog of that person”, I didn’t know if you knew that sideblogs can’t like posts and stuff. Even so, I didn’t want you to feel like I was just being weird hehe. Sorry for assuming ig!

As a compensation, palette cleanser, housewarming gift or whatever you want really, I give you this silly dumb dumb ask. See, I’ve just got a sneaking suspicion you might like the hit deco*27 song android girl, and as a certified voca-knowledge-collector, personal milgram-cover-discoverer, and a “AH SHOOT ITS HARUKA’S BIRTHDAY I SHOULD REALLY KNOW THIS SONG BY NOW” sayer, uh, I should really know this song by now. And I thought you’d be interested in my reaction :3 also including the haruka cover :3

You can decide how you want to react to this, if at all, this is just something I thought you’d be interested in. You don’t have to rush to read it or anything. It’s just like. Here.

Going into it I expect this song to have lore if it at least has a character. It’s been on my radar for a while and of course it’s the name of the album so it seems important, and I’d like to know who the girl in the album cover is too. I’ve heard the haruka cover once before, but havent read the lyrics and don’t know the story or its dynamics. The girl looks to be wearing a similar thing from otome kaibou?

I should stop guessing aimlessly. I’m gonna listen to it now…

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OH MY GOD OKAY THAT WAS A LOT I’m gonna have to make bullet points

- I obviously have no clue what I’m talking about so feel free to correct me haha, sorry if this is all so wrong it’s annoying

- much more interesting after understanding the story I will say, unfortunately I’ve grown up on the project diva MV and live concert motion of two breaths walking so it didn’t hit as hard as it could have the first time-

- I LOVE the design of android girl, like her red sock shoe things are really nice, I wanna draw her but I don’t have the time atm

- I also like the choice of yellow in yuuki’s design

- that scene where he has the blanket over his head really reminds me of Vanish by guchiry if that means anything to you. Kinda looks like a veil

- I love how the art is just like a Milgram MV haha, I found Yuuki reminded me physically of Kazui in a lot of scenes

- I like the theme of reloading, and that it’s eternal, but can be perceived as having an ending

- I like how we don’t see android girl’s eyes at the end, maybe something is finally different there, even if the lyrics contradict that.

- I understand that Niina and the android girl are the same character right, I’m just referring to their different designs. The android girl is entirely a metaphor I’m pretty sure, and that in their reality she’d look the same as niina

- though I do like the idea that niina built/hired a robot to go attack her kinda abusive bf/ex bf.

- I love how she literally shuts down out of seemingly guilt each time, I’m guessing it’s because yuuki plays the victim but I’m wouldn’t be surprised if after all that manipulation she’s the one causing it herself.

- and she isn’t reloading to change herself and be exactly what he wants, at least not anymore, she’s now realised that doesn’t work, reflected by her immediately attacking him in every incarnation in this MV

- it’s definitely a slow building guilt on yuuki’s part, an accumulation, I like kinda sympathise but I think it’s because it’s really cool to see a girlboss get the exact revenge she deserves

- it hits close to home, but in my case I think its because it’s so good that I want it to-

- like I’d be yuuki in that situation I think, but if I were given a taste of my own medicine I think I’d enjoy it, that might be because I’m deluded

- I think if he knew it was coming like that, yuuki would have thought the same thing, bad people don’t realise they’re bad people, and that’s why it hits him so hard at the end when he sees himself

- I like how the MV makes you see it from his pov instead of automatically demonising him, again, bad people are ordinary people too, they’ll look appealing

- and it shows how niina can still see the goodness in him, and understand his perspective where he meets himself at the very end

- the difference between the young him, who was having fun unintentionally abusing, and the reformed/constantly reforming android girl, hating it, or maybe so focused on executing that she feels nothing it all, maybe numbed by the relationship, but surely, all intentionally

- I love that ending scene, so many call-backs to two breaths walking

- and how niina herself, when she looks like herself, isnt the one angry. It’s like all she should do now is rest. Ig.

- I don’t quite understand the book, some comments referred to it as a manual for how to be in love/love the other person, I saw it just as whoever had the control in the relationship, or maybe just over niina, since niina herself should, and yuuki took it from her. Suppose it’s knowledge? About love, herself, anything? Guessing it’s up for interpretation

- I really like that about this too. There are other deco songs that have storylines, MVs like this, are up for interpretation but because there’s more then one song to go off here it really feels like two acts of a play, so any idea about one song could be applied to or give a new meaning to the other.

- like I had wondered if two breaths walking was from yuuki’s perspective, I don’t think it is but it’s nice that I can wonder that, and ponder if it’s because they’re so toxic that one perspective served as being from the two of them. Stuff like that.

- again I really like that final chorus, it ties the whole saga in a beautifully messy bow. I really like the build up to it too, I pictured android girl getting ready for this massive attack.

- I also don’t quite get why she was breaking right before? I mean, I wouldn’t blame her after being hurt so many times. Maybe to shock yuuki, make him think he’s won and suddenly launch? Or maybe to give him time to realise who she is and her intentions, his wrongdoings, everything? Or he was still actively hurting her? I suppose he always would be, even in her weakest moment she got back up though. And there’s another heart-clenching idea that she was trying to hurt herself, which really pangs when you see her true form nearly defeated with knife in her hand. Incredible artistry.

- oh yeah and how could I forget the scissors from mozaik role! I’m guessing that’s something like her bringing up his own actions and finally making him reflect on them, or at least trying to, since that’s the theme of that song, self reflection and reapproach, I’m pretty sure.

- and it was so cool seeing the other album cover’s referenced!

- I also just generally love the vibe of the stuff thrown around, the pictures, the headphones, it’s why I love two breaths walking so much.

- my only criticism is that I wish it’s title or thumbnail was more obviously a reference to two breaths walking, mostly because then I wouldn’t have ignored this song for so long with literal years of not understanding two breaths walking. I suppose that would take away from the shock that it’s related to the song from ten years ago. It all hits so much harder now haha, I like how two breaths walking clearly isn’t okay okay or stable but it’s still such and anthem to me and makes me so happy, its a period in a toxic relationship where the toxicity hasn’t been realised or attacked yet, and there’s such love and yearning in it. But it all erupts in android girl of course. The difference between the colours chosen in their respective MVs too, like how much darker and messier two breaths walking either walking is because it’s during such an abusive part of the relationship…

- musically it’s nothing special, it’s everything it needs to be and that’s great, I hope that doesn’t also sound like a criticism. But listening to this will mostly be for the love of the story and the characters, which kinda means I’ll be listening to it a lot, and in that case I’ll probably notice things and come to love it.

- the lyrics are perfect too, they really knew what they were doing, what references to make, what to bring up and at which part of the song. But the MV was my favourite part.

- it didn’t feel like the original two breaths walking either, but it does feel like the reloaded, which is what it needs I suppose. It’ll probably make me like the reloaded way more. It also feels like just one way of continuing two breaths walking, not that it needed it imo, but out of retribution for niina. I prefer the original two breaths walking the most any day, but I’m glad this is cannon ending ig, hoping it’s happy. I suppose I wish there were more android aspects in two breaths walking, to make it feel properly consistent, but I like to see the power of change too, and if the metaphor fits their story then it may as well be it itself. But I doubt this was the intended direction of two breaths walking from the get go. But I think that’s what the reloaded two breaths walking is for, and I appreciate it for that.

- developing a very stupid misinformed theory that every song on android girl is a continuation of two breaths walking, each with a different ending, android girl beong the true ending and title of the whole album… (this is a joke)

- I’d also kinda like it to have more androidy aspects itself hehe, really hone in on that vibe. I understand why it didn’t (for that consistency ig) so it’s okay.

- it’s annoying cause I’m sure I’ve forgotten something…

- rereading the lyrics during Haruka’s cover I see how there’s definitely more consideration for yuuki in the lyrics thdn the MV made me think, at least in the first verse. It ties into the whole identity aspect, since there’s a few “we” lines the perspective is only just becoming unfused ig. And I get the vibe the android girl is thinking she’s doing something wrong :(

- you’re in love with her right? I’m pretty sure you just see them as the same human person but I wondered if not. Like do you picture her shutting off with you like she does in the MV? Well I’m guessing android girl wouldn’t be there with you assuming you’d treat the too of them much nicer. If you’re comfortable answering, that is.

As for the haruka cover…

- i like this more then the original, actually

- I would say musically but there isn’t really much too it, this cover doesn’t really take much anything away from the original to me, I think the way it was repurposed was great

- I LOVE his vocals and I wasn’t any more fussed about the instrumental until the second verse and then the instrumental section/bridge. I love the way it breaks! And I love the filter on his voice and the way he sings them in the second verse, and all the other lines he puts emphasis on of course! His yurusanai and his last line oughghg. I will try listen to the original more, at least for now, so I can still be fond of it over this cover haha.

- the best part for me though, and I felt this in my second watch of it (I watched it thrice), the idea that haruka gets retribution? Realising that his mother never loved him and treating her with the same abuse? Or maybe it’s towards es or muu? I don’t know literally whatever makes my boy happy, because I know him more than niina or yuuki I really liked it for that. I want him to feel empowered, and protected, like niina and android girl.

- I don’t know if this contributed to his guilty vote, I suppose it’s because violence is never the answer and his victim was completely unrelated…

- maybe it’s for his heaven. For if he were to meet any abusive relatives. Or maybe it’s from the perspective of him as a ghost haunting them. Idk. That’s the issue it’s that I don’t see where it’d fit in his story. I do wonder if it is about muu, maybe killing himself and it being kind of her fault (for attaching to him in the first place, or being so certain she’d get away in t2, which would be hypocritical but I still love him). Haruka only realising his death was subconsciously to hurt muu after he dies or something… I mean, his cover if two breaths walking hopefully isn’t about muu imo. So assuming it is his parents, ig it’s when he gives himself the freedom to dislike them. I think about what medicine exactly he would be giving them a taste of, because whatever it was it surely didn’t work as he started to kill other things, unless of course, this was afterward. Mayve they’d kill things precious to him. Maybe they were just concepts that disappeared. Maybe life would, by accident or just because that’s the way of life. And because he’s dependent, at least he wants to be, he’d blame them for the lack of whatever. And honestly that makes sense, most if things that haruka lacks is kinda their fault. Like unconditional love given to him. So Haruka began taking away things precious to them too. And that’s the revenge? He probably wouldn’t be aware of that himself though. Aaaugh I’m rambling sorry I’m a bit tired sorry-

- the vibes fit so well too, I mean back to android girl, the child scene with all the crayons and drawings ough it’s perfect like eveb the headphones I picture as like ear defenders? I mean that’s my personal harukun headcannon

- suppose everyone knew android girl would be his second cover song then, so I’m wondering if the lack of a third song in this storyline was to hint at his demise. I mean the haruka yume yume cover stays strong in my heart but eh

- yeah no, perfect pick for him. Even if idk what to picture. Again, I like the versatility. And I know covers canonically aren’t anything but still. I’m glad they completed his version of this storyline even if we don’t get to see exactly how I panned out for him. I’m just happy he stays strong and fights for his retribution. I’m happy that he knows and believes he deserves it. But he also murdered a child so what really do I know.

Thank you for reading! Again, I’ll remind you of that bit in bold. I literally don’t expect anything in return, but if you wanna go ahead. Like I’m sure I’ve gotten lots of things VERY wrong. But yeah uh, congrats, in turned out way longer then expected so you need a pat on the back for reading haha. Sorry that it’s quite daunting too. I’ve mostly certainly been repetitive in my wording, rambled (MY GOD HAVE I RAMBLED), made spelling mistakes and typos and gotten and least some part of the lore very wrong. I mean I should probably properly apologise for sympathising with yuuki that’s the worst bit-

Yours sincerely, whatever that means, in the kindest way possible, @a-milgram-sideblog-396

I’m sorry if this was a bother! I also did not proofread this. Very sorry.

AAAA TYSM!!

ive been rlly sick so i couldnt answer.. smhw listening to android girl nade me feel better...

theres actually a two breaths walking novel!! its split into 3 diff stories (neither of which are canon to the song) and my lovely sister who DOESNT strangle me, went hunting to read it (only found the first part).

As for the haruka cover, i LOVE both the og and thr cover bcs they both express different emotions, like how miku has that robotic voice while Shun Horie throws emotion into it.

also ty for liking my art!!

(I couldve yapped more im js lazy)

[mika-chaos-bean]

warning! this post contains:

vent

whatever getting scared to talk is

me retelling what happened while i was talking to my mom

it was unnerving

please proceed with caution! or dont. who am i to care.

...

so i was talking to my mom.

she just got home from work (she got home early today) and she told me she wanted to talk to me since we dont talk much. my mom and i have a pretty bad relationship with my mom, and we always get in arguments when we talk, so i knew i was in for a bad time.

everything started out normal, she asks me what ive been up to, and i reply with "oh, ive been just making drawings and animations, and books". my mom didnt speak for a few moments and then she asks me if i had lost my irl friends since i havent been going out a lot. i didnt say much on this matter besides just a yeah. my mom didnt seem to say anything mean on the subject, so i had hope that maybe we'd get into an understanding.

at one part of the conversation she looked me dead in the eye, and i had to look away. i really dont like eye contact, i mean, i'll initiate it sometimes, but i cant keep it for long. but anyway, my mom looked me dead in the eye and asked why i never talk to them anymore. the only time i ever saw them was passing by, or when we had meals or had to go somewhere. something spiked up somewhere in my head, because all i could answer with was "i have a hard time talking to you guys", which was the WORST thing to say, and i could see my mom getting visibly annoyed.

i tried staying as calm as possible, and my mom asked me if i was scared of her. this is where everything went downhill. i couldnt lie, or at least fully lie, but i didnt wanna risk an argument. so i replied with "its hard to explain. i am, but im not."

from that point on i had a huge lecture about "honor thy mother and father" and my dad got involved mentioning how "corrupt" this generation is and that theyve been trying to keep me away from it. at this point i couldnt even talk, or keep eye contact. overdramatic? okay, maybe. but i wasnt trying to be dramatic. all that seemed genuine.

i eventually passed out in the middle of the lecture, which couldve been from either narcolepsy or the fact that i passed out from stress, i will never know.

i brought that upon myself, but hearing them talk about things that werent even my fault and yelling at me for it? i dont even want to be around them. i WANT to move out of this house, but i DONT at the same time. there is no way i'd be able to survive ONE DAY out there. i could go live with my grandma, but theres no way my parents will let me.

sorry for the rant. i just needed to get this out.

[quinnzorian]

ok! quincy here, free of work until tomorrow! so. turbotime chapter 9 is underway. its gonna be a short one tho cuz its basically updates on how cocoa, calhoun and the twins are doing on their missions and journeys. surely nothing goes wrong ever. on another note, i AM really considering having a turbotime “rbti” sequel story, but im really trying to work out the details in my head. because rbti is so ass and itd just bad in a funny way if i ended up following every single step that made rbti awful. so my plan is rewatch critque videos over and over, rewatching randomalistics kc/turbo analysis over and over, draft a first chapter, etc. but it wont be posted until turbotime is done. bcuz CONSISTENCY! (im already lackluster with it cuz i stop making progress for ages then i go back and act like i remember everything but its fine). i might post the first draft here actually… so YOU guys can tell me how it looks. or smth.

but yeah im really trying to get back into the swing of things w/ turbotime and stuff bc i still REALLY wanna work on it. and itd be a massive accomplishment for me if i finished it! but life. has been beating my ASS!!!!!!!!! so its been HARD!!!!!!! but im really trying trust me. trust me. im not perfect and turbotime definitely isnt perfect either, im happy no ones harped on me about anything honestly LMAO (by harped i mean like. ‘heeeey why havent you updated FUCKWAD!!!’ asking when a chapters coming out is fine but force would be so mean and i wouldnt like it. and by harped i also dont mean ‘no criticism’ bc i think criticism is good actually especially for works that you plan to show off to the rest of the world. do criticize me. but respectfully).

actually while im here i seriously gotta say that i didnt expect my story to blow up as much as it did on ao3. and im so so so happy that people like it and wanna keep up with it. ive never really gotten that kind of major attention before and it means the world to me yknow? so thank you all of my readers and subscribers and bookmarkers and commenters. thank for you for (checks notes) currentlyyy 133 kudos! quincy record! you guys make me feel so cool ♥️ 🔥.

sorry MAJOR ramble. here ill bulletpoint stuff:

turbotime chapter 9 steadily in progress

turbotime… 2! full possibility (working my brain 200% harder to make it NOT ASS)

life has been a struggle, apologies for slowness, im getting there though

thank you all for your support :) it means a lot.

uhhh yeah im probably gonna start posting here more again. either just reblogs, or art stuff. writing this made me wanna draw turbo stuff so i might just do that LOL. so. yeah! haha

[johannwolfgangvongoethe]

modding/chara building diary

just realized i can just post truly anything. this is sort of ffxiv posting but not really. this is also sort of enstars posting but not really.

this exists so i can look back on it <:) a lot of this probably makes no sense to most people, sorry.

uhh i was kinda into modding ffxiv two years ago. then i stopped because the community around this is full of the most unsympathetic people you will ever meet, and that was honestly just very demotivating. but i play ffxiv regularily and its rather fun and easy to mod. and thats illegal!!! btw!!!! (no one care)

so since enstars has hurt me one too many times and there is no hope for things to get better, i am coping (or not) and grieving terribly by making a seeker catboy who isnt really koga but has all the parts of him that are important to me and that i enjoy.

yeah idk if this is productive either. but its not doing any harm probably. ffxiv as a game has its ups an downs but i find the universe to be very very easy and fun to build around.

idk. im just having fun with it for now.

ive been meaning to make an NA alt and replay some of the early game at least (i started in... 2017? its been so long. man.) and this seems like a perfectly nice vehicle to do so :) and while that happens, i can maybe organically learn about the pretty-much-OC i am trying to build. but out of perfectionist ambitions, i had to mod everything into place first.

i have decided on a name but i ueuuueeehhhhughhhh >publically naming your characters when youre a modder. so i will say "W" for now. basic lore thoughts i knew going into this:

he needs to be a tia because i like catboys and theyre all vaguely gay loner nerds and incredibly hyperfixated on one specific topic

the Warg seeker tribe seems like the obvious and fun pick

i want a monochrome grey colour scheme + Much Teeth

-> game limitations classify those as keeper traits, not seeker traits. but i dont care!!! however that means im using a keeper model for all of this

the character has to be an artist. because the "i need to make art and i wont accept any other way of life" sort of mentality is precious to me due to how unsustainable and stubborn it is

-> i have for now settled on painter because its the type of art i have most connections to. also bc uh love and beast ref ig (I HATE YOU "HIDDEN BEAST"!!!! I HATE YOUUUU!!!!!! but its cute he was a painter for it, isnt it)

his place of origin is most likely the north shroud, esp the bit that got utterly messed up by the calamity, around alder springs. mostly because its an interesting place and warg must exist in the area due to the ixal

this also implies the warg seekers might work in mining these days Or have largely moved their residence. or they split up. i need to re-do coils

to support himself while his art isnt selling yet, i think itd be nice to put him with a tree nursery around gridania that i already thought of for my main ffxiv chara. i just think its funny if theyre ex-coworkers. that is all

-> hes creating incomprehensible symbolism-y shit to me. without people in it. but constantly attempting to redefine and depict humanity without humans. he hates drawing landscapes and portraits but will do so grumpily, if it gets him acknowledged and paid

because i am forever deeply fan of the rkg dynamic, the character must have a muse, which is dead, but which he clings to dearly for inspiration and emotional support. esp bc i dont think the guys that social otherwise.

the drama of him seeing a ghost that is no longer there but real to him is nice.... and honestly even practical. it might just be aetheric residue with a sprinkle of mental illness.

what of the muse? i dont know. a fellow painter, who couldnt follow that passion. obviously they must have met before. i have vague thoughts but nothing im confident enough in yet (i think a duskwight family of heretics could be interesting and dramatic but ehhh) ALSO I DONT THINK THEYRE ACTUALLY DEAD-DEAD LOL but i havent figured the situation out yet

-> you know in star trek tng when Q just randomly shows up to bother picard. thats maybe sort of how id describe whats going on

the muse W sees is a version of a person that is long gone, and cannot return. the actual person behind that might still be out there but they are not the one that left an impact on W. what W sees and passionately interacts with is a phantom that only exists bc his mind allows it to, it is a self-serving vision, at least to a degree. maybe comparable to what fray is.

-> W never actually paints them. he only paints emotions about them. (they were a portrait artist and it makes them rather sad)

which leaves me with a nice to do list i can work on every once in a while, like making the chara, doing sidequests in the north shroud, looking at leve and fish descriptions of that area, doing coils again. to begin with.

anyhow, to the actual modding part. its such a work in progress. but i have made so many small adjustments already.

got an asymmetric face UV base to work on

edited the face mesh, mostly to make the chin more broad and to pull up lower canines

translated the standard miqo'te facial markings into smth more dog-like in appearance, while attempting to keep their canon design somewhat intact

added some basic make up, as well as bit of a gradient

+AN ASHY NOSE. THE MOST BEAUTIFUL THING A MIQO'TE CAN HAVE

got rid of the ear skin

replaced ears and tails with a torgal body parts port WHICH THANKFULLY EXISTED ALREADY? THANK YOU RANDO ON XMA

darkened the eyeball to resemble canine eyes more

slightly adjusted the dimensions of some face and body parts, like the nose

got rid of the catboy tear lines. bc on dogs they look unhealthy. now hes not a dog. and they dont look bad on game models. but the association is there. this makes no sense really, it just bothered me personally

-> to do: definitely need stronger thicker brows. look up how that works now after the graphics update. add a bit of skin texture? a bit of freckles/moles? need to find out how to hide hair when a full helmet is equipped. also since the ears are attached to the tail, i need a version of the model that just has the tail, so i can kick the ears if i need to (impossible to explain. but what if he wore a hat)

i made a hair mashup for this because. why not. then i painfully retaught myself how weighting armatures works. bc i hate myself. also made shapekeys, so he can wear hats. but i learned a lot so its ok (crying) (thumbs up)

TBSE download bc what else are you supposed to do

added a gradient to his lower legs and arms too, to match his face, also added some skin details but nothing crazy

started making the hands uglier. this guy touches dirt and paint thinner all day. he must have the ugliest hands in the world. and i love that.

but its not enough. we have to go deeper. i have to make them WORSE STILL!!!!!!!! i wonder if i can just shorten the fingers or if that will mess up animations. hmmm ill have to try

also made a quick chest piece mashup just so hes dressed in smth for now.

-> to do: worse hands. maybe paint on rougher skin? i think it would be cute to add paint he didnt manage to wash off to his hands? hrmmm. also ill need to make custom earrings. there still smth about the hair that i need to fix (augh)

but yeah thats what i got so far. might update later on. i just thought itd be fun to capture my initial thinking process in case this goes somehwhere. i like being creative but im not that huge on drawing tbh. so i do stuff like this and nui clothing to stay sane while also engaging in arts and crafts LOL....

[agronian]

UPDATE!

sorry for not posting as much as usual... i havent had time to make art as i usually do due to my current circumstances.... tbh. it has really been incredibly hard. idk what to say. im absolutely worn out. it rained all day and i had to walk 8 miles. my body is like... "killme nooOOOOooowww im broken " lolol. im ok tho. i know there are a lot of people who have it way worse than me. im thankful to even be alive and able to walk in the rain who cares...

i am moving into a new place in a week but until then i am uhhhhh

STRANDED AF! (and running out of my seroquel and risperdone prescriptions uhh lol help plz) ;-;

if anyone wants to become a canonical angel/archangel in the lore of my existence, please consider donating to my paypal, it is $agronian, just like my name here on tumblr.

i can also draw anyone anything they want at all, ocs, fursonas, portraits, scenes, pixel art for urr site, anything. just let me know. im happy to provide next week once im indoors and dry.

sorry again for the disruption in the normal flow of things, its just been extremely taxing. as i said, i am about to run out of my mental health meds, ive been breaking the pills i have left into 4ths in an attempt to prolong my odds w them. please help me if you can. i promise i can make it worth your while.

if you dont mind reblogging for visibility i would really really appreciate it. all love to you guys, be well<3