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âI come to steal a famous dime, the locks will be picked and it will be mine
Iâll dance away and you will seeâŠIâll laugh at you while I drink my TEA!â
The rhymes were terrible but that was the trademark for The Fool. He wore the jesters costume, bells and all with a mask that was always smiling, it could be seen as unsettlingâŠif he didnât have the reputation he did. If there was a rank for villains below F that would be where he sat. Glitter bombs, whoopie cushions, rubber chickensâŠand very telegraphed heist plans. No one took him seriouslyâŠand that was certainly part of his charm. No one ever got hurt fighting The Fool, no one ever lost hope. Villains, heroes, it didnât matter. When The Fool was involved oddly everyone felt better about themselves. Even if he was considered a villain he had respect from both sides and that was good enough for him. He didnât need to be taken seriously; he was here for his own mission, and it was being done just fine.
âI am evilâŠno one is on my lee-vilâŠ
Iâll add this loot to my pileâŠno one can beat my style!â
He was just marching down the street, popping here and there in the blink of an eye. Everyone sees this as minor illusion at best since he hasnât so much as scratched a single hero of villain. That was good to have them think of him as harmless, that was the best way to get done what he wanted to get done. The museum was in sightâŠit was time to get the heist started. He knew whoâd be trying to stop himâŠa husband and wife team called Wind and FireâŠthey boost each otherâs abilities a considerable amount and have stopped world ending events with just the pair. These heroes were greatly respected. They just lost their son to a long debilitating illness and havenât had their heads on straight since. This just what they needed, some banter, low steaks riskâŠa little fun and theyâll be right as rain.
âThe Fool is here, please be a dear,
And steer clear but donât shed a tear
My victory is all but clear!â
He said as he rounded the corner to the museum. Today was going to be a goodâŠ
âŠthe front to the museum had been all but destroyed and the sounds of battle could be heard within. On the steps The Fool could see the body of fireâŠtormented, twisted and very much dead eyes frozen open in horror and pain. His heart stopped for a momentâŠthis wasnât supposed to happen. WhatâŠwhat was going on here?
He ran, forgetting who he was and why he was here for a moment just so he could get eyes on the fight that was happening. Wind would need support, oh gods he hoped he wasnât too late. Right when he made it at the top of the steps her body hit the ground right at his feet, her limbs were crushed and twisted in impossible angles. Still she had a bit of lifeâŠher eyes landed on the familiar mask, sorrow in her eyesâŠso much pain.
âFly you Fool. FlyâŠrâŠuâŠâ
With that the light from her eyes faded. Sadness, griefâŠthis wasnât supposed to happen. This was supposed to be a nice easy day, hearts were supposed to be repaired not stopped. Heavy footsteps brought him back to the current scene, surrounded by debris right in front of him stood a giant of a creature, dressed in all black with a mask that hid any features of his faceâŠwas the villain known as Terror, he was supposed to be small time though. Sure there were whispers that he was on the rise, fifteen hours away. Why would he come here?!
âThe FoolâŠTHE FOOL! HA! My lucky day. If you bow down to me and lick my boot I might let you get me a beer from the fridge!â
Terror stood over seven feet tall with arms as thick as tree trunks. The Fool just looked there, standing his ground for the moment. His head canting this way and that.
âTodayâŠwasnât the day
Yet into the fray I dare stray
Still, I donât think I feel
Submissive enough to lick your heel.â
Terror laughed and threw a lazy punch at the Foolâs head fully intending to connect. Yet it seemed he just punched the air right next to the trickster villain. There was a touch of confusion but then just a light chuckle. Terrorâs eyes went to Windâs twisted body.
âOh, she is kind of cute, twist her limbs back and I could have some fun. Bet she is still warmâŠâ
IT was then The Foolâs mask changed. There was no smile, nothing pleasant, but instead it was in a grimace of rage. Teeth bared, eyes glowing redâŠvery much reflecting his current mood. Terror only noticed this as he was sailing backward through the air from a hit that was so powerful it took a few moments to register the pain from the impact.
âSHUT UP! You donât get to talk about her anymore, not him either. WHAT ARE YOU DOING HERE!?â
Then Terror seemed to hit an invisible wall stopping him just short of the actual museum wallâŠand he hit it hard enough to knock the breath from his lungs. He bounced off the barrier and then hit the floor, rolling onto his back with a groan.
âYouâŠyou were an easy mark. KillâŠto show dominance, then you submit, and I have a place in a big city.â
In a blink The Fool was in the face of Terror, moving several dozen yards in the span of a heartbeat. Another strike to the head, a back hand that shattered Terrorâs mask, embedding pieces in the skin of a rather unremarkable face. Again he was lifted off of his feet and again he slammed into an invisible barrer before he could do more damage to the interior of the museum.
âThink if it was that easy it would have been done already? Did you ask around? Ask why not a single hero of villain has come to âclaim my territory? First, I am well likedâŠI perform a service to keep everyone sane so they donât go insane or kill themselves. Everyone has a place in this world, hero or villain and Iâm here to make them want to stay in it instead of destroying it or destroying themselves.â
Again in a blink The Fool covered a distance impossibly fast. Terror could hardly move as he was grabbed by the front of his shirt and thrown into the center of the room as though he was nothing more than a rag doll to the man who stood no taller that five feet five inches.
âOneâŠa single villain has tried this. I caught wind of it firstâŠthey simply disappeared. No one knew what happened to them and not a single person gave a fuck. The truthâŠif I wanted to I could rule the world. Not a group of heroes, not the league of villains, not anyone could do anything to stop me. Iâve done it twice actuallyâŠburned entire nations just so I could âprotectâ everyone. I fucked it up each and every timeâŠso Iâd reverse time and try it again. Never came out like I wantedâŠso I stopped.â
During this conversation Terror tried to stand and summoning what rage he could tried to charge forward to punch The FoolâŠyet he seemed to be almost held in place. All of his power being put to just move less than a millimeter.
âI found my role was to help in different ways. A simple heist, a way to give confidence. Let the heroes vent their loss, talk about their insecurities. Who isnât your best friend if it isnât your arch-nemesis? I KNOW Iâve helped so many. YET HERE YOU ARE! YOU RUINED EVERYTHING! You killed GOOD people. Now you will beg me for death. You will plead and cry and scream for me to end your suffering. See Iâm actually very evil, just in a different way than most. Youâll seeâŠIâll give you a hint on my power. I can bend space-time.â
The Fool was just strolling around Terror at a normal pace while the Super Villain did everything he could just to move a little tiny bit.
âI could go into the complicated nature of everything, but Iâll say this. You wonât move unless I want you do. Iâm ancient, and I know exactly what Iâm doing. Still though, my power is more than gravity manipulation. I can make worm-holes at will. You might ask why that is importantâŠwell I can take pieces off of you without a blade in the most precise way possible. Youâll seeâŠIâll start with thisâŠâ
The Fool just looked to Terror and released the hold he had on him. The villain moved to stand upâŠthere was an odd vacuum noiseâŠand right as he was about to attack he fell down into a pile on the floor.
âYou donât regenerate you just can recover well. I just removed the part of your brain for motor function. You canât talk, or move or even really change where your eyes look. I spent a great many years learning neuroscience just for moments like this. I didnât want to mess up and kill someone on accident. Though Honestly I use the ability to remove tumors that are considered inoperable often. Though nowâŠI get to play a little bit. Donât worryâŠâ
There were a few more of those vacuum sounds and with each one Terror was unable to do even more, until he was just sitting there, breathingâŠbut fully unable to move at all. The fool then maneuvered him onto his back with the easy of a child playing with an action figure.
âYouâll never be able to respond, or blink, or cry or even raise your heart rate to more than just enough to keep you alive. I have successfully imprisoned you in your body. Since you donât regenerate, well you cannot heal the damage. I canât go back in time to bring back Fire and WindâŠthat does too many things to too many realms. Death is still a little upset at me for the last time I did it. At least they are with their son now, hopefully happy.â
Terror couldnât respond, motionless his gaze stuck on the ceilingâŠhe could do nothing but listenâŠfully aware of his surroundings.
âAlso donât worry, I put a little barrier around your mind too. Donât think anyone will be able to talk to you with telepathy or some of them fancy dream reading machines. This will be your and my little secret. Youâll lament in some hospital as your body degenerates. HelplessâŠuntil you die and THEN I get to have fun with you. I just want you completely broken first.â
The Foolâs face went to a sad one from rage as he gathered the bodies of the heroes and set them next to each other. He even sobbed a little bit over them straightening their limbs so they could be found presentable. Then a call was made and he fabricated everythingâŠno one would know. As Terror was taken away on a gurneyâŠonly The Fool knew how much he was screaming in his mind to be let go.
âThey Deserve respect for what they have done,
Wind and Fire two great heroes are now gone,
With hope I wish their souls will fly
With a heavy heart I will say goodbye.â
The Fool said as their bodies were taken awayâŠhe didnât even want the stupid dime anymore. He learned something though, and heâll never be caught unaware again.
You pretend to be a small-time villain. At most, you annoy the local supers, but your crimes never hurt anyone. To you it's all good fun. Things change when a truly sadistic supervillain invades your turf and murders a few of the supers. No one has seen the extent of your true powers until now.
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can you do rafe is your brotherâs best friend?
a phone works two ways, you know
brothers best friend!rafe cameron x thornton!fem!reader
cw â fluff, angst, kinda sad if you squint but also kinda happy ending, alcohol
summary â rafe does his best to hide his feelings for his best friends younger sister until he cracks one day.
authors note â thank you so much for the request!! iâll probably be posting a little celebration for 1.5k today where iâll be writing as much as i can for as many requests as possible so please stay tuned for that :)
âtopper, did you take my speaker again?â you asked your older brother, voice soft but teetering on the verge of annoyance. he always did this. he snuck into your room when you were out and stole it, drained the battery, then forgets to give it back as if he canât just buy his own. âiâm going out to the pool and i need it.â
the three boys turned their heads over their shoulders, kelce murmuring something under his breath, rafe just staring at you, and topper fake gagging from his spot between them. you were wearing a baby pink triangle bikini with a towel in one hand and a bottle of water in the other. âjeez, can you at least put some clothes on? my friends are here.â
you rolled your eyes at him and huffed. âits a million degrees outside and iâm literally going in the pool,â you said as if it were obvious. âcan you just get my speaker please?â
âits dead,â he said dismissively before turning back to the tv to watch the football game with kelce. rafes gaze lingered for a couple extra seconds until he followed their actions.
a groan left your lips as you turned on your heel and headed for the back door. âyouâre the worst,â you mumbled before shutting it behind you. thankfully your tanning chair was already set out from the day before, so you carefully laid your towel down and your water bottle underneath it then sat on the ledge with your feet splashing in the water.
you casually scrolled through your socials, checking up on what was going on as of late considering you hadnât done much but sit in your room with sarah. after a few minutes of sitting alone, the door opened. the sound didnât catch your attention and neither did the footsteps. you didnât even notice anyone was outside with you until water splashed all over you.
a gasp left your lips and you watched the culprit return to surface in the water. you glared at rafe who was now smiling and rubbing his eyes. âdude. are you serious? i had my phone in my hand.â
he could only laugh. âyouâre by the pool. why do you even need it?â he asked teasingly. it only made you more annoyed.
âi was doing stuff, asshole,â you muttered, pushing the wet strands of your hair behind your ears.
he quickly swam over to you and grabbed your phone from your hand then tossed it over to your chair. he parted your legs slightly and stood between them with his big hands resting on your upper thighs. âi think,â he began, his thumbs rubbing soft circles into your damp skin. âyou should just pay attention to me instead.â
you chuckled under your breath and pushed at his shoulder gently. âyouâre such a cornball,â you replied jokingly. âwhy are you even out here? shouldnât you be watching the game with them?â
âkelce started bitchinâ about how it was too hot so topper got all pissy and suggested coming in here with you,â he explained, his blue piercing eyes staring up into yours. âi mean, câmon. you know iâd never deny the opportunity to see you.â
you shook your head and looked away. âdonât do that, rafe,â you said firmly. you chewed your lip anxiously and pushed his hands off of you. small beads of sweat formed on your forehead from the heat and beaming sun, making you quickly get off the ledge and into the cool water.
he tilted his head slightly and turned to watch your movements as you created a small distance between the two of you. âdo what?â
âthat,â you stated. âdonât say things like that. the moment topper comes out here, youâll act completely different and pretend none of this ever happened. you canât just do that. its not fair and it makes me feel like crap.â
he moved forward so he was close enough to grab you with a frown on his lips, his hands gently holding your waist and bringing you to him so your front was pressed flush against his own. âyou know i wouldnât if i had the choice, sweetheart. we both know top would kill me if he ever found out.â
you pushed away from his again as he hands fell from your body and limp by his sides. âmaybe you shouldâve thought about that before you kissed me then.â
your first kiss. it was a week ago when heâd taken you out to get ice cream while your brother was out at a party that he had no interest in attending, especially if it meant heâd have you all to himself for a few hours. heâd driven you to some cute little ice cream parlor by the beach and kissed you under the stars like it was some movie and you two were the main characters. you thought things would be different after that. apparently you were really far off.
âcâmon baby, its not like that. youâre making it seem like that was a mistake,â he tried to reason. he didnât like the fact that you were stepping further and further away from him. it made his heart clench uncomfortably. âi donât regret that and i donât want you to either. trust me, if it werenât for topper, things would be different. we jusâ have to let him warm up to the idea.â
you scoffed under your breath and looked down at the sparkling water. âyeah? and how long is that gonna take? weeks? months? years even?â your voice was surprisingly calm and it was beginning to genuinely worry him. âyou knew how special that was to me. and in all honesty, it does feel like a mistake, rafe. if you werenât planning on having anything serious with me then you shouldnât have even bothered. iâm not gonna let my brothers opinion dictate my entire life and you shouldnât either.â
you could visibly see his posture drop slightly and his expression turn into and unreadable one. before he could try to convince you otherwise, the two boys emerged from the house all smiley and cheering loudly. âwe found the good booze,â topper said excitedly.
they each took a bottle of beer, kelce handing one to rafe before giving you a glass cup full of a thick pink slush. âtop made it for you since youâre too boujee for beer,â he joked while walking down the pool steps.
your brother joined the three of you in the water and took a quick sip of his drink. âi tried making that strawberry shit you liked in mexico,â he explained, waving his free hand around carelessly. âused vodka instead of rum though since you apparently donât like that either.â
you laughed softly and thanked him as you listened in on the conversation kelce started up with rafe. except it was more of him just talking to anyone who cared to listen considering the others attention was elsewhere. the moment you glanced around the pool, your eyes met rafes. they hadnât left you even for a second since you moved away from him.
â a few hours later
the house was now full of people. the scent of expensive cologne, alcohol, and a dull mix of sweat permeated the air and made your head spin slightly as you squeezed through the crowd and outside to the patio where more people were. lucky for you, the cooler full of what you needed was right beside the door.
you quickly reached down to grab a beer for sarah and a bottle of smirnoff pink lemonade. the moment you stood, a boy you recognized was standing at your side. âhey. youâre toppers sister, right?â
your brows furrowed as your eyes met his green ones. he was cute, you couldnât lie but you were definitely caught off guard. âyeah,â you said wearily. âand you are?â
he chuckled softly and readjusted his stance to be a little more comfortable. âmike,â he stated. âwe met once a little while ago at a party. i jusâ wanted to say you look really good tonight.â
a blush creeped across your cheeks and you smiled to yourself. âthank you,â you replied sheepishly. âyouâre one of my brothers friends from school?â
he nodded and flashed a smile. âyeah, we met through our frat. we both happened to be rushing alone.â
you jokingly made a disgusted face and turned your head to look the other way. âwhew. top always told me to stay away from frat boys. he says theyâre dangerous.â
mike let out a hearty laugh. ânot all of âem,â he said suggestively. âmaybe come with me and find out?â
âi think shes gonna have to pass on that, dude. sorry,â you heard rafe chime in as he appeared next to you and wrapped an arm around your waist, pulling you into his side. âactually, i just ran into your other girl inside. think she was lookinâ for you..â
you rolled your eyes and pushed yourself away from him. he didnât get to dismiss you at one point then want you at another. âyouâre ridiculous, rafe,â you said before squeezing past mike and pushing through the crowd to get up the stairs and to your room.
when you got inside, sarah was laying on her back in your bed scrolling through her phone. âfinally. thought you got lost and i was gonna have to come down there and rescue you,â she joked playfully.
you handed her the beer and placed your own on the counter. âyou shouldâve. at least i wouldnât have had to endure whatever that was down there,â you mumbled. âiâll be right back. i need to use the bathroom really quick then we can get back to watching.â
as you left your room and shut the door behind you, you caught a glimpse of rafe coming up the stairs. you laughed angrily and headed towards the open door down the hall. âwait,â you heard him call out. you attempted to close the door, only for him to catch it before it clasped shut. âcan you just talk to me?â
âcan you stop being such a douche?â you shot back, crossing your arms over your chest. âwhat the hell was that out there? i was talking to someone. you donât just get to pick and choose when you want to be with me. and you definitely have no right to just come in and get all protective over me.â
he sighed softly and stepped inside the bathroom with you, closing the door behind him. âwith mike? really? he sleeps with everyone and jusâ moves on to another girl an hour later. trust me, you donât want that.â
you could feel the rage bubbling deep in your stomach. he had some nerve. âwhat if i do? what makes you think you can tell me what i want and donât want?â
âbecause i know you and i know you arenât one to just sleep with someone random. what happened to that whole conversation about needing a connection with someone?â he questioned.
âwere you also thinking about this when you kissed me?â you snapped back. âyou do all these things to make me think you actually like me and then you just make me feel like an idiot the moment weâre in a crowd. you barely even talk to me when toppers around, rafe. iâm not gonna keep getting my feelings hurt over nothing.â
he shook his head and uncrossed you arms, taking your hands in his bigger ones. âi donât wanna hurt your feelings, sweetheart. you know i wanna be with you. i justâ i canât do that to topper. heâs my best friend andââ
âthen we can save the hassle and stop talking about this,â you interrupted. âyou donât get to get my hopes up anymore. iâm not doing it. its either you want to be with me or you donât. if you really want to be with me, then youâd be willing to make sacrifices. do you really think i expect my brother to be completely okay with it? of course not. but iâm willing to work through that. if youâre not then theres no point in continuing this and you can leave.â
a frown spread across his lips and he looked down at his hands that were still holding yours, his thumb rubbing circles into the backside of your hand. âi wanna be with you, i really do. and i donât wanna lose you over this,â he said softy. âcan we just take things slow? i donât care what topper thinks, i jusâ donât want him to try to stop us from seeing each other.
you stared at him with a slight hesitation in your gaze. âhow do i know youâre being serious? how do i know youâre not just gonna flake out on me again?â
he squeezed your hands a little tighter and took a step closer so there was only a couple inches between the two of you. âcause its always been you, sweetheart. youâre the only person iâve ever felt this way about and i really, really donât wanna lose you,â he explained. âi like you a lot. it scares the shit outta me but iâd rather do this with you than anyone else.â
you felt heat creep up your neck and onto your cheeks. âplease donât make me regret this, rafe.â
he smiled before moving one hand to cradle your jaw and the other to your waist. he pulled you close and placed a soft kiss to your lips, tilting his head slightly to deepen it as it went on. your arms wrapped around his neck and you arched your body just enough to press against him.
a muffled whimper left your lips when he squeezed gently at your hip and slipped his tongue into your mouth. you could feel your heart pound in your chest. youâd never gone this far. fortunately he was taking it slow though and allowing you time to mimic his movements.
too caught up in the moment, you didnât even hear the door open. âwhat the fuck?â
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magnets - choi seungcheol imagine 1/2
buckle up bcs this is going to be a long one, i tried i really did i tried my best writing as much angst as i can. i'm not the best in that genre but i think i like how it turned out... i tried my best to put into words the scenes I had in my head. i needed to make this in 2 parts since it won't let me post all at onceđ
so yes THERE WILL BE A SECOND HALF
tbh out of all the stories i wrote here, this one has the most 'me' in it. sad if you realize why i say that but yeađ
in my mind, cheol is the type of man whose love isn't consuming, it just makes everything better, easier, a little less terrifying bcs no matter what you can count on him to be there with you. i guess that's what make me love this story even more. hope you do too!
for my other svt fics, check them here
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Youâve heard it all before. You're too picky. Your standards are unrealistic. Men arenât that bad.
Lies. All of it.
Men are that bad. They lack common sense, canât read between the lines, and somehow think saying "youâre not like other girls" is a compliment. Youâve dodged so many disastrous setups that your friends have given up entirely, dubbing you "The Man Hater."Â
Until a certain someone crossed paths with you.Â
It happens on a regular Friday night. Your group is at some bar Mingyu insisted on checking out, and you're barely listening to Jeonghan talk about his latest situationship when you see him.
Seungcheol walks in like he owns the place. Broad shoulders, sharp jawline, and a presence that makes women glance up instinctively. He doesnât seem to notice. Heâs in a plain black tee, jeans that fit just right, and a watch that looks like it costs more than your rent. The kicker? He doesnât even try to look hot. He just is.
"Who is that?" you ask, cutting off Jeonghan mid-sentence.
Your friends freeze "Did you justâŠ" Jeonghan starts.
"Who," you repeat, your voice dangerously close to sounding interested, "is that?"
Mingyu, still coughing, thumps his chest. "Choi Seungcheol," he wheezes. "Why?"
"Heâs hot," you declare, because thereâs no point in denying the undeniable.
"You hate men," Irene reminds you, like youâve somehow forgotten
"I hate most men," you correct. "That one? I want him."
Jeonghan bursts into laughter. "This is the best night of my life."
You ignore them because Seungcheol is making his way to the bar, completely unaware of the chaos heâs caused. You watch, entranced, as he leans against the counter. When the bartender hands him a drink, he nods in thanks. Polite, effortless. Not once does he scan the crowd for attention like most men do. He knows he has it.
Mingyu, having finally recovered, shakes his head. "No way. Seungcheol turns down everyone."
"Not for long," you murmur, already formulating a plan.
Jihyo narrows her eyes. "Oh my God. Youâre serious. Youâre actually serious."
"I am."
Irene stares at you, then at Seungcheol. "I give you five minutes before he shuts you down."
"Three," Mingyu corrects.
"Ten," Jeonghan bets
"Have some faith," you scoff, already standing up. "Watch and learn, peasants."
You stride towards the bar, heart hammering, but determination stronger. Itâs been years since youâve been genuinely interested in someone. Youâll be damned if you let this moment pass.
Seungcheol notices you as you approach, and when your eyes meet, he tilts his head slightly curious but unreadable. Up close, heâs even better. You swallow.
Then, with all the confidence in the world, you slide onto the stool next to him before speaking
"So, do we skip the small talk, or do I have to pretend I donât already want you?"
Seungcheol blinks. Then, he laughs. low, rich, interested and just like that, the game begins. He turns fully to face you, one elbow resting on the bar, drink held loosely in his hand. His gaze flickers over youâassessing, but not in that sleazy way men do when they think they have the upper hand. No, this is different.Â
Heâs curious.
"Thatâs a bold opener," he muses, taking a sip of his drink.
You smirk. "I donât do weak ones."
He hums, seemingly unfazed, but the twitch at the corner of his mouth betrays him. "And what exactly do you already want from me?"
Your fingers drum against the bar as you lean in slightly, "Wouldnât you like to know?"
For a second, he doesnât say anything. He just watches you, then he sets his drink down with a quiet clink and exhales a small chuckle. "Youâre not like the others."
"God, please tell me thatâs not your usual line," you tease.
His grin widens. "No. Usually, I donât even entertain conversations."
"Tragic," you say dryly. "Youâve been missing out."
His tongue runs along the inside of his cheek, and you swear you see a flicker of actual interest settle in his expression. Then, suddenly, he shifts gears.
"You came over here with a plan," he states, amusement laced in his voice. "Go ahead. Impress me."
Oh, heâs fun. You tilt your head, feigning thoughtfulness. "Alright. First, we exchange names not because I donât already know yours, but because manners are important."
Seungcheol chuckles, but he plays along. "Choi Seungcheol."
You extend a hand. "Nice to meet you, Seungcheol" you say his name, telling him yours also
"I know who you are." That throws you off for exactly half a second, and you hate how much you like hearing him say your name.Â
"Oh? And how exactly did you hear about me?"
"I have ears," he shrugs. "And friends who talk too much." he looks behind you. You glance back at your table, where your friends are openly staring.
"They bet against you, didnât they?"
"Obviously." you scowl then turn to look at him again
"And yet, here we are."
"Here we are," you echo, matching his smirk.
He looks at you for a moment longer, as if weighing his next move. Then, he leans in slightly, voice dropping just enough to send a shiver down your spine.
"Alright. Youâve got my attention. Now what?"
You donât get flustered easily. Youâve shut down men with nothing but a raised brow and a well-placed bless your heart more times than you can count. But thereâs something about the way Seungcheol leans in, watching you with that amused little smirk, that makes your pulse trip over itself.
"That depends. Are you going to buy me a drink, or am I going to have to suffer through this conversation sober?"
His smirk turns into a full grin, slow and devastating. "So demanding."
"I donât waste time," you quip
He chuckles, a deep, satisfied sound, before signaling to the bartender. "Get her whatever she wants," he tells them, then glances back at you. "And if you say something ridiculous, Iâm judging you."
"Wow," you scoff, placing a hand over your heart. "You donât even know my order, and youâre already prepared to be disappointed? You really are different."
Seungcheol snorts. "Just donât tell me itâs some overly complicated drink with eight different ingredients."
You hum, making a show of considering his words before turning to the bartender. "A whiskey sour."
Seungcheol raises an eyebrow, clearly impressed. "Not bad."
"Did you think I was going to order an appletini?"
"Honestly? I wouldnât put it past you."
You laugh, shaking your head as the bartender hands you your drink. You take a sip, enjoying the slight tang, then tilt the glass in his direction. "See? No judgment necessary."
"Iâll admit, Iâm a little relieved," he teases, taking a sip of his own drink.
You narrow your eyes playfully. "So, is this your thing?"
"My thing?"
"Buying girls drinks, making them feel special, then walking away like a mysterious, unattainable dream?"
Seungcheol huffs out a quiet laugh. "Not really. Like I said, I usually donât entertain conversations."
"But youâre entertaining this one."
He tilts his glass toward you in a silent toast. "I am."
You clink your glass against his, a slow smirk creeping onto your lips. "I must be special, then."
Seungcheol watches you over the rim of his glass, his gaze just a little darker now. "You must be."
You linger at the bar with Seungcheol for a few more moments, exchanging teasing remarks and sidelong glances, but eventually, you decide to leave while you're ahead.
"Well, this has been fun," you say, setting your now-empty glass on the counter.
Seungcheol tilts his head. "Leaving already?"
"What, you want me to stay?"
He huffs a quiet laugh. "I wouldnât mind."
You pretend to consider it, tapping your chin thoughtfully. "Tempting⊠but I like to keep things interesting."
Before he can respond, you slide your arm across the bar toward him, palm up. His brows raise slightly, but he doesnât hesitate. He picks up a pen left behind by the bartender and, with deliberate strokes, scrawls his number across your forearm.
When he finishes, he caps the pen, meeting your gaze with a knowing smirk. "Your move."
You glance at the numbers, then back at him. "Weâll see." Then, without another word, you turn on your heel and walk back to your table.
As expected, your friends are staring. The moment you reach the table, Jihyo blurts, "What happened?!"
You take your seat, completely unbothered, and casually extend your arm, showing off the ink on your skin. Silence.
Then
"WHAT THEâ?!" Mingyu practically screeches, nearly knocking over his drink in the process. âWait, wait. So, youâthe man haterâjust casually waltzed over there, flirted with Choi Seungcheol, and now you have his number?"
"Looks like it." You examine your arm with a smug smile.
Jihyo grips your wrist, eyes darting over the digits. "So? Are you texting him? Calling? Whenâs the wedding?"
You shrug, retracting your arm. "Iâm not texting him."
Jihyo looks betrayed. "Why the hell not?!"
"Whereâs the fun in that?" You take a slow sip of your drink. "Letâs see if he texts first."
Jeonghan looks at you before the evil smile shows on his face, âYou didnât give him your number, didnât you?â
âNopeâ
Jeonghan leans forward. "Oh, youâre evil."
You donât text him that night. Or the next. His number, which you took time to save on your phone, remains stagnant on your contact list.Â
Youâre lounging on your couch, half-listening to a true crime documentary, when your phone buzzes with a call from an unknown number. You stare at it for a second, debating whether to answer, before sighing and picking up.
"Hello?"
Silence. Thenâ
"Was this your plan all along?"
You freeze. That voice is unmistakable. Leaning back against the cushions, you fight the smirk threatening to form. "Choi Seungcheol."
"You remember my name. Good to know," he deadpans.
You hum, inspecting your nails. "You sound a little⊠frustrated."
"I had to track down your friends just to get your number," he says, and you can hear the irritation laced with amusement. "Do you know how annoying that was?"
You bite back a laugh. "Who caved?"
"Mingyu. He held out for, like, ten seconds."
You laugh, imagining the exact moment Seungcheol probably cornered Mingyu, all intimidating and brooding, while your friend fumbled immediately.
"So," Seungcheol continues, "tell me, was this some elaborate game? Give me your number, wait for me to text, then just ghost me?"
"I didnât ghost you. I just never texted in the first place."
"Exactly."
You grin, stretching out lazily. "Maybe I just wanted to see if youâd chase."
A pause. Then, in a tone far too smug for your liking "So you like being chased?"
Your stomach does a stupid little flip, but you refuse to let him know that. "I like seeing who puts in effort," you reply smoothly.
"And? Impressed yet?"
"Youâre getting there," you tease.
Seungcheol chuckles, a low, satisfied sound. "Good. Then meet me for dinner."
You blink. "What?"
"Dinner," he repeats, like itâs the most obvious thing in the world. "You know, a meal? Where two people sit down, talk, and eat?"
"I know what dinner is," you snort. "I just wasnât expecting you to be so forward."
"You made me hunt you down," he says. "You donât get to act surprised." Okay. Fair.
"Alright, then," you say, biting your lip to contain your grin. "Pick me up at eight."
And just like that, Choi Seungcheol is taking you to dinner. And at exactly 7:59, your phone buzzes.
Seungcheol: Iâm outside.
You glance at the time and snort. Of course, heâs punctual.
Grabbing your purse, you take one last look in the mirror before heading out. As soon as you step outside, you spot Seungcheol leaning casually against his car. A sleek, black beauty that looks just as effortlessly expensive as he does.
His eyes sweep over you as you approach, and he smirks. "You clean up nice."
You arch a brow. "I always look nice."
"Cocky."
Once heâs in the driverâs seat, he glances at you. "Comfortable?"
You hum, running a hand over the buttery leather seats. "Not bad. I guess your car is alright."
Seungcheol scoffs. "You guess? This car is a masterpiece."
You grin. "Iâm sure itâs great at making up for other shortcomings."
He barks out a laugh, shaking his head as he pulls onto the road. "You just canât help yourself, can you?"
"Itâs a gift," you say sweetly.
He glances at you, amusement dancing in his eyes. "You really made me work for this date."
"You chased," you remind him.
"And you liked it."
You pretend to consider. "A little."
He huffs a quiet laugh. "Good. Because I donât plan on stopping."
You meet his gaze, and for once, you donât have a witty comeback. Seungcheol pulls up to a sleek high-rise, handing his keys off to the valet like itâs second nature. You step out, glancing up at the towering building, the city lights reflecting off the glass.
You give him a sideways look. âFancy.â
He smirks. The elevator ride is smooth and silent, except for the way Seungcheol occasionally glances at you. When the doors open, you step into a dimly lit, impossibly exclusive restaurant. Floor-to-ceiling windows frame the glittering skyline, the city sprawling below like something out of a movie.
A host greets you by name before leading you to a table near the window. You raise an eyebrow. âHow did you even get a reservation here?â
Seungcheol just shrugs, sliding into his seat. âI have my ways.â
âThatâs not an answer.â
He leans back, studying you with that same amused smirk. âYou like it?â
Itâs stunning, but you refuse to give him the satisfaction just yet. âItâs alright.â
He laughs, shaking his head. âUnbelievable.â
The waiter arrives, and Seungcheol orders without even glancing at the menu. You squint at him. âYou come here often?â
âNot really. Just know whatâs good.â
âSo, what, you bring all your dates here?â
Seungcheol sets down his glass, eyes locked onto yours. âNo.â
You tilt your head. âNo?â
He shakes his head. âYouâre the first.â
Your stomach does something stupid and traitorous, but you keep your expression cool. âGuess I should feel special.â
His lips quirk up. âYou should.â
And damn it, for once, you do. As the waiter leaves, Seungcheol leans forward, swirling the dark liquid in his glass before giving you an all-too-amused look.
âSo, I heard something interesting from Mingyu.â
You raise an eyebrow. âThatâs never a good sign.âÂ
âApparently, you have a reputation.â
You take a slow sip of your drink. âDo I?â
Seungcheol smirks. âSomething about being a âman hater,â quote-unquote.â
You nearly choke. âOh, for the love ofââ You set your glass down with a little more force than necessary. âI am not a man hater.â
He rests his chin on his hand, clearly entertained. âMingyu made it sound pretty serious.â
You roll your eyes. âMingyu is dramatic. I justââ You gesture vaguely. ââdonât waste my time with idiots.â
âSo, most men are idiots?â
You sigh, giving him a pointed look. âLook, I just have high standards. That doesnât make me a man hater.â You pick up your drink, muttering, âMingyu talks too much.â
Seungcheol just laughs, looking way too pleased with himself. You lean back in your chair, twirling the stem of your wine glass between your fingers, watching him with a knowing smirk.
"You know," you start casually, "I heard something about you too."
Seungcheol raises an eyebrow. "Oh?"
You nod. "Apparently, youâre the guy who turns down women without a second thought."
He hums, taking a sip of his drink before setting it down. "Mingyu, again?"
"Maybe."
He smirks. "He really needs a hobby."
"Donât change the subject," you tease, tilting your head. "So, is it true?"
He doesnât answer immediately. Instead, he watches you for a moment, like heâs deciding how much to say. "Depends," he finally says.
"On what?"
"On what you think âtrueâ means."
You narrow your eyes. "That sounds like something a guy whoâs absolutely guilty would say."
Seungcheol chuckles, shaking his head. "Look, Iâm not some heartless bastard. I just donât waste time on something I know wonât go anywhere."
You cross your arms. "And what exactly makes you so sure it wonât go anywhere?"
He shrugs, voice even. "You can tell when someone only wants you for the wrong reasons."
Something about the way he says it makes you pause. Itâs not cocky. Itâs just⊠matter-of-fact.
You watch him carefully. "So, what, they just like the idea of you?"
He meets your gaze, unreadable. "Something like that."
You hold his stare, and for a moment, the teasing dies down, replaced by something heavier. Something real. Then, because you refuse to let things get too serious too quickly, you click your tongue.
"Damn," you say, shaking your head. "And here I was thinking you were just playing hard to get."
Seungcheol laughs, the tension breaking. "And yet, you still showed up."
You grin. "Guess I like a challenge, too."
He lifts his glass toward you in a silent toast.
"Good," he murmurs, eyes dark with amusement. "Iâd be disappointed if you didnât."
The food was amazing, company even better. Heâs funny without trying, you donât think you laughed that much in a while. And a guy being the reason? A miracle truly.Â
Heâs driving you back home leaning back in the passenger seat, comfortably full from dinner, when his voice cuts through the quiet.
"So." His fingers drum lazily against the wheel. "Why didnât you text me?"
You glance at him, feigning innocence. "Text you?"
He gives you a look. "You know. After that first night."
You smirk, tilting your head. "Ohhh, you mean when you wrote your number on my arm like some overconfident frat boy?"
Seungcheol scoffs, but his lips twitch. "I was being resourceful."
"Sure." You shrug. "Guess I just wasnât in a rush."
He raises an eyebrow. "Werenât interested?"
"I didnât say that."
"Didnât not say it either."
You chuckle. "Alright, fine. Maybe I just wanted to see how serious you were."
Seungcheol hums. "So, making me track down your friends and practically interrogate Mingyu was a test?"
You flash him a grin. "And you passed."
He glances at you, amusement glinting in his eyes. "I knew you were trouble."
"You knew," you agree, smirking. "And yet, here you are."
Seungcheol shakes his head, but thereâs no hiding the way his lips curl up. "Yeah," he murmurs, like itâs more to himself than to you. "Here I am."
You donât tell anyone about the dinner. Not because youâre trying to be secretive, but because thereâs nothing to tell. At least, thatâs what you tell yourself but the others notice something.
"Youâre in a good mood," Jihyo says one afternoon, squinting at you suspiciously over her coffee.
You blink. "Am I not allowed to be?"
"You are," she says slowly. "Itâs just unusual."
Mingyu chimes in from across the table. "Yeah, you havenât made fun of me once today. Itâs kinda weirding me out."
You roll your eyes. "You want me to insult you?"
"Lowkey, yeah."
Jeonghan, whoâs been scrolling through his phone this whole time, suddenly looks up. "Wait. You are acting different."
Irene nods, narrowing her eyes. "Yeah. Youâre⊠less murdery. "You know." She gestures vaguely. "Less Iâll kill a man if he looks at me the wrong way."
You groan. "You guys are so dramatic."
"Okay, so what happened?" Jihyo presses.
"Nothing."
Jeonghan smirks. "That means something." Four pairs of eyes immediately narrow at you.
"Who is it?" Jeonghan adds, grinning like a wolf. "Oh, waitâ" His eyes gleam with mischief. "Whoâs the poor bastard?"
You roll your eyes. "There is no bastard. Poor or otherwise."
"Sheâs deflecting," Jihyo announces.
Mingyu leans forward. "Itâs Seungcheol, isnât it?"
You donât react. Not visibly but the millisecond of silence is enough. Jeonghanâs grin explodes.
"Ohhhh, no way." Mingyu screeches.
You groan, dropping your head into your hands. You shouldâve known. You deny, deny, deny until they finally give up, though not without a lot of suspicious side-eyes and unnecessary winks from Jeonghan.
By the time they stop prying, you think youâre in the clear.
That is, until Friday night.
Itâs just supposed to be a normal night outâdrinks, chaos, and Mingyu probably embarrassing himself at some point. The usual.
But then you see him.
Seungcheol.
And heâs not alone. You clock him the moment you step into the bar, leaning against the counter with a drink in hand, looking ridiculously good in a black button-up with the sleeves rolled up to his elbows. Heâs mid-laugh, talking to someone. Looks like a close friend.Â
You donât react, keeping your expression neutral, but Jeonghan notices immediately.
"Why do you look like you just saw a ghost?" he asks, following your gaze.
And because the universe is cruel, thatâs the exact moment Seungcheol glances over and meets your eyes. A slow, knowing smirk spreads across his lips.
Jeonghan watches it all happen. His eyes widen before he turns to you, grinning like the menace he is. "Oh. My. God."
Mingyu, of course, is oblivious. "Drinks first!" he announces, leading the group toward an open spot by the bar.
Irene and Jihyo follow easily, already deep in conversation, but you feel Jeonghan at your side. His eyes are glinting. You just know heâs about to be a problem.
"You know," he says casually, "for someone who âdefinitely did not go on a date with Seungcheol,â you two sure looked like you have history."
You donât even blink. "I donât know what youâre talking about."
Jeonghan snickers. "Right. And Iâm a law-abiding citizen." You ignore him, signaling the bartender for a drink.
Everything is fine or at least it was until Seungcheol and his friend start making their way over. You donât react. But you know Jeonghan notices the way you straighten up, the way your fingers tap once against the bar before going still.
His friend gets there first, smiling easily at the group. "Hey," he greets. "Didnât know you guys were coming out tonight."
Mingyu perks up. "Joshua Hong! Whatâs up?" He claps Joshua's shoulder, immediately pulling him into conversation.
And thatâs when he speaks.
"Small world, huh?"
You refuse to turn your head too fast, refuse to let your body react. Instead, you sip your drink first, then glance to the side. Seungcheol is looking at you like he knows something..
You raise an eyebrow. "Not really. Bars exist."
Mingyu, bless him, is still too caught up in talking to Joshua to notice the undercurrent of whatever is happening here. Irene and Jihyo are watching, though. Theyâre pretending to be casual, but you can feel their curiosity.
Seungcheol doesnât drop it. He leans slightly closer, just enough for his voice to drop between the two of you. "You avoiding me?"
"Why would I do that?"
He tilts his head, pretending to think. "Maybe because someone went on a date with me and then acted like it never happened."
Jeonghan is eating this up. Heâs watching like itâs his favorite drama, sipping his drink with barely concealed glee.
You sip your drink again, unfazed. "Must not have been that memorable then."
Seungcheol laughs like, full-on laughs and somehow thatâs worse than if he had been annoyed.
"Oh, this is fun," he murmurs, shaking his head.
"You need better hobbies," you reply dryly.
"Youâre right. I should pick up dating mysterious, difficult women who donât text back."
You glance at him. "So youâre saying Iâm a challenge?"
He smirks. "Iâm saying I like challenges."
Your lips curve, but you donât let the smile take over. You turn back to your drink instead and just like that, the moment passes. Instead, he just slides into conversation with the rest of the group like nothing happened. Like heâs not already thinking about the next time heâll get you alone.
The night goes on as if nothing happened. As if Seungcheol didnât just throw you off balance with his ridiculous smirk and infuriatingly charming presence. But then, when Seungcheol and Joshua drift off to another part of the bar, Jihyo pounces.
"Okay, explain."
You feign ignorance, sipping your drink. "Explain what?"
Irene scoffs. "Donât play dumb. You were literally just flirting with him."
You roll your eyes. "I was not."
"That was the most obvious non-flirting flirting Iâve ever seen," Jihyo insists. "And Iâve known Jeonghan for years."
Jeonghan smirks. "Sheâs right, you know."
Mingyu, now finally catching up, furrows his brows. "Wait. Are we talking about Seungcheol?"
"No, weâre talking about your ability to be dense," Irene says, exasperated
Jihyo leans in. "I thought you wanted him."
You groan, rubbing your temples. "I do."
She blinks. "Then whatâs the problem?"
You sigh. "Thatâs the problem."
Mingyu looks confused. "Wait, Iâm lost."
Irene pats his arm. "Sweetie, this is grown-up business." This makes Mingyu glare at him, jokingly pushing her sideways
Mingyu scowls. "I am grown!"
"Youâre a puppy," Jeonghan corrects.
Meanwhile, Jihyo is still staring at you like youâve lost your mind. "So you want him, but thatâs the problem."
"Yes."
She stares harder. "Youâre gonna have to give me more than that."
You huff, crossing your arms. "Look, itâs one thing to think a guy is hot. Itâs another to actually want to do something about it. And itâs another thing entirely when that guy is Seungcheol."
Jeonghan hums. "Because heâsâŠ?"
"Because heâs Seungcheol." You gesture vaguely. "Effortlessly hot. Stupidly charming. A literal menace who just gets whatever he wants without even trying."
Jihyo raises an eyebrow. "And thatâs⊠bad?"
You exhale. "Itâs bad because I donât lose. And I will lose against him."
Thereâs a beat of silence. Then Jeonghan bursts out laughing.
"Oh, my God," he wheezes, clutching his stomach. "This is amazing."
Mingyu blinks. "I still donât get it."
Irene sighs, shaking her head. "Sheâs afraid heâs gonna wreck her life."
Mingyu tilts his head. "Thatâs dramatic."
Jihyo just smirks. "So whatâs your plan?"
You sigh. "I donât have one." And that? Thatâs the real problem.
It happens when you least expect it. One second, youâre at the bar with Jihyo, fending off yet another round of questioning. The next Seungcheol is there.
"Can I borrow her for a second?" he asks smoothly, voice just low enough that only you can hear the real intent behind it.
Jihyo raises a brow, eyes flickering between the two of you. You can practically hear her thoughts. But before she can say anything, Seungcheolâs hand finds yours then heâs pulling you away.
You follow, weaving through the crowd until he tugs you into a small corner of the bar. A photobooth. You barely register it before he pulls the curtain shut behind you. The space is tiny. Cramped. You can feel the heat of him, too close, too intoxicating.
"You couldâve just asked to talk," you say, leaning against the side of the booth like youâre not at all affected.
Seungcheol smirks, eyes flickering down to your lips for just a second. "Whereâs the fun in that?"
Your pulse jumps. "You like making things difficult, donât you?"
"I could say the same about you."
You roll your eyes, but the way heâs looking at youâsteady, knowing, amused as hellâmakes it hard to breathe.
"So," he says, voice softer now, more serious, "why didnât you text me?"
You exhale, meeting his gaze. "Because I knew youâd find a way to track me down anyway."
"You think you have me figured out?"
You tilt your head, letting the silence stretch before you answer. "I think you donât like losing."
Seungcheol watches you for a beat. Then he laughs. Itâs soft at first, then full and deep, shaking his shoulders as he shakes his head. "God," he mutters, "I shouldâve found you sooner."
Your chest tightens. The photobooth timer starts blinking.
3âŠ
His gaze dipsâ
2âŠ
You donât move away
1.
The camera clicks.So does something else between you.
The next day at work, youâre in a mood. You glare at your computer. You glare at your coffee. You glare at the innocent potted plant on your desk. And your friends notice.
Jeonghan doesnât ask immediately. He waits until youâre both in line at the cafĂ©, youâre scrolling through your phone, pretending you donât notice him watching you.
"So," he says casually, "when are you seeing him again?"
You freeze. Your finger hovers over your screen. You donât look at him, but you can feel his smirk. "I donât know what youâre talking about."
Jeonghan hums. "Sure you donât."
You take a deep breath. "Nothing happened."
"See, I know thatâs a lie," he says, stepping forward as the line moves. "Because if nothing happened, you wouldnât be acting like a walking existential crisis."
You scowl. "I am notâ"
"âa walking existential crisis?" Jeonghan interrupts, raising a brow. "Oh, please. Youâve been glitching all morning."
You roll your eyes, finally looking at him. "Youâre being dramatic."
"Am I?" He crosses his arms. "Because if I recall correctly, youâre the one who wanted him at first sight."
You click your tongue, shifting your weight. "And thatâs the problem."
Jeonghan leans in slightly, intrigued. "Because?"
You sigh, running a hand through your hair. "Because Iâm hot and cold about this, okay? One second, I want to see where this goes. The next, Iâm ready to vanish into the void."
He blinks. "So you like him."
You hesitate. "Iâ"
Jeonghanâs smirk returns. "Oh, you so like him."
You glare. "I barely know him."
"But you want to," he points out.
You exhale, dragging a hand down your face. "Thatâs exactly the problem. I donât get like this."
Jeonghan nods slowly, as if considering. "So what Iâm hearing is⊠Seungcheol has you shook."
You groan, stepping forward as the line moves again. "I hate you."
"You love me."
"Debatable."
He chuckles, shaking his head. "Look, you can keep overthinking this, or you can just let yourself have some fun." He tilts his head. "Unless youâre scared?"
You bristle. "Iâm not scared."
His smile widens. "Maybe. Or maybe youâve just met your match." You stare at him, but before you can argue, the barista calls your order.
Jeonghan winks. "Think about it."
"This," you say flatly, "is why I hate most men."
Jeonghan snickers. "Oh, so you admit you donât hate all men?"
You glare at him over the rim of your cup. "Unfortunately, some of you have managed to slip through the cracks."
He hums thoughtfully. "And would you say Seungcheol is one of those âslip through the cracksâ cases?"
You almost choke on your drink. "Jeonghan," you say warningly.
"Just saying," he muses, blowing on his coffee
You scoff. "Oh, please."
But then you hesitate because, damn it, he has a point. You liked Seungcheol immediately. One look, and you wanted him. And that never happens. Itâs annoying. Itâs unnerving. And the worst part? Seungcheol knows it.
Itâs been a long day. You step out of the building, already thinking about what to make for dinner when you see him.
Seungcheol leaning against his car like heâs posing for a magazine, arms crossed, watching you with an amused tilt of his head. You stop in your tracks.
He smirks.
"Busy?" he asks, pushing off the car as you approach.
You narrow your eyes. "How did you know I was here?"
âMingyuâ you mutter under your breath how youâre going to kill the 6 foot tall man tomorrow.Â
Seungcheol chuckles. "Be nice. I was gonna find you eventually."
You glare. "Thatâs not the point."
He tilts his head. "Then what is?"
You open your mouth then close it. Because, honestly? Youâre not sure. Why does he keep coming back? And why the hell do you feel kind of excited that heâs here?
Seungcheol watches you wrestle with your thoughts, then grins. "You gonna invite me up?"
"To my apartment?"
"Where else?"
You fold your arms. "Thatâs bold."
He steps closer, just enough that you catch the faintest whiff of his cologne. "I donât like wasting time."
Your heart skips. You should tell him to leave. You should ignore how good he looks in that damn suit. Instead you sigh. "Fine. But if you track me down again because of Mingyu, Iâm sending both of you to hell."
Seungcheol grins. "Deal."
The entire drive back to your place is infuriating.
Seungcheol is smiling, smirking, even, like he just won some kind of game. Meanwhile, youâre glaring out the window, arms crossed, regretting every decision that led to this moment. When he finally pulls up to your building, you let out a deep breath, like youâve just survived something mentally exhausting.
"You always this grumpy?" Seungcheol teases as he steps out of the car.
You shoot him a look. "You always this persistent?"
He just grins. You roll your eyes, leading him up to your apartment. The moment you step inside, you toe off your shoes, toss your bag onto the couch, and grab your phone.
"Iâm ordering food," you announce, already scrolling through your go-to delivery app. Seungcheol follows you in, looking around like heâs taking mental notes.
"Nice place," he comments, settling onto your couch like heâs been here before.
You glance at him. "You say that like you werenât planning to judge it."
And before you can stop yourself, you ask, "Why are you doing this?"
Seungcheol looks at you, head tilting slightly. "Doing what?"
You sigh, turning to fully face him. "This." You motion between the two of you. "Showing up. Finding my number. Tracking me down." For a second, he just watches you. Like heâs figuring something out. Then, he leans back, resting an arm over the couch.
"So this is why they call you the man hater."
You blink. "Excuse me?"
âYouâre suspicious of a guy just because he likes you?"
You stare at him, trying to come up with a solid counterargument, something to wipe that smug look off his face.
"Werenât you the one who approached me first?" Seungcheol asks, raising a brow.
You freeze because technically, yes. You were. That night at the bar, it was you who walked up to him. You who spoke first. You who, despite your reputation of never being impressed by men, took one look at him and wanted him.
And Seungcheol, the same man who apparently turns down women without a second thought, didnât turn you away. And now? Heâs here. Sitting on your couch. Acting like this is just the natural order of things.
"Youâre twisting my words," you argue, folding your arms.
"Am I?"
You narrow your eyes. "I approached you because I was curious."
He tilts his head. "And now?"
Every interaction with him has been throwing you off your game. Youâre used to being in control but with Seungcheol, itâs like every move he makes is intentional, and heâs too good at getting under your skin.
"Youâre annoying," you finally say.
He smirks. "And yet, here I am."
You let out a slow exhale, rolling your eyes. "I shouldâve ignored your number that night."
Seungcheol watches your expression shift, and something about it amuses him. "You always like this?"
"Like what?"
He leans forward slightly, resting his elbows on his knees. "Fighting yourself."
You stare at him. "I donâtâ"
"You do," he interrupts, like itâs the most obvious thing in the world. "Youâre hot and cold with me, and I think itâs because you donât like how much you want this."
You hate that heâs right.
"You are soâ"
"Annoying?" He grins. "Youâve said."
"Why are you even interested?"
âI like you."
Your heart skips but you refuse to let him see that. So instead, you exhale, shaking your head as you tap at your phone. "Youâre ridiculous."
"And you like that," he counters. You pretend you donât hear him as you place the order.
The food arrives, and you both settle in to eat. Seungcheol sits across from you, comfortably digging into his meal like he belongs here. Like he hasnât been pushing your buttons all night.
You, on the other hand? Youâre still glaring.
He looks up mid-bite, noticing your expression, and smirks. "You always eat like youâre plotting a murder?"
You stab at your food with a little more force than necessary. "Just considering my options."
He chuckles, shaking his head. "You should really work on your intimidation tactics."
You huff. "They work on everyone else."
"Ah," he nods, chewing thoughtfully. "So Iâm special."
You pause. Damn it. "Thatâs not what Iâ"
He holds up a hand, cutting you off. "Donât worry, I get it. Iâm persistent, irritatingly charming, and you donât know what to do with that."
You scowl. "I know exactly what to do with that."
He raises a brow. "Yeah?"
"Yeah." You gesture to the door. "Kick you out." Seungcheol laughs. Full-bodied, genuine, like youâre the most entertaining thing heâs come across in a long time. You hate how nice it sounds.
"Okay," he says, still grinning. "Iâll leaveâafter we finish eating."
You squint. "You act like youâre doing me a favor."
He smirks. "Arenât I?"
You refuse to dignify that with a response. Instead, you focus on your food, pointedly ignoring how Seungcheol watches you with that infuriatingly amused expression, like he already knows heâll see you again.
After dinner you walk him to the door, arms crossed, your glare still very much in place. Seungcheol, in contrast, looks ridiculously satisfied, like heâs had the best night of his life just bothering you.
You stop at the door, unlocking it before turning to him with a deadpan expression.
"I changed my mind," you announce.
His brows lift slightly. "About what?"
"I donât like you anymore."
Seungcheol grins. Like full-on, dimple-showing, teeth-flashing grin.
"That so?" he hums, stepping just a little closer, enough that you have to tilt your head to keep eye contact.
Your jaw tightens. "Yes."
He tilts his head slightly, watching you with the same entertained look heâs had all night.
"Thatâs a shame," he murmurs.
You cross your arms tighter. "Why?"
"Because," he leans in, voice dropping just enough to make your breath catch, "I still like you." He pulls back, opens the door himself, and steps out.Â
"Goodnight," he says, like this is just routine now. Leaving you standing there, your heart beating entirely too fast, absolutely furious that he got the last word.
The next morning, you stomp out of your building and slide into Jeonghanâs car with more force than necessary.
Jeonghan barely glances at you before pulling out onto the street. "Good morning to you too."
You cross your arms, scowling at the window. "I hate him."
"Who?"
You donât answer right away, mostly because admitting it feels like a loss. But then, under your breath "Seungcheol."
Jeonghan laughs. "You know, for someone who supposedly hates men, youâre really bad at resisting this one."
"Iâm notâ" You pause. "Heâs justâannoying."
"And yet," Jeonghan drawls, "here you are, grumbling his name first thing in the morning."
You shoot him a glare. "Drive the damn car, Jeonghan."
He grins wider, turning up the radio. "Whatever you say, lovergirl."
You get to your desk, ready to start your day with the same level of annoyance youâve carried since last night and then you see them. A bouquet. Right there. Sitting in the middle of your desk. Jeonghan, whoâs still walking behind you, lets out a low whistle. "Oh, would you look at that?"
You drop your bag, snatch up the little card attached, and read it twice just to be sure your eyes arenât deceiving you.
Try again. I think you still like me. âS.C.
Your eye twitches. Jeonghan, blatantly reading over your shoulder, bursts out laughing.
"Oh, this is amazing," he says, delighted. "Iâve never seen someone get under your skin this fast."
You slam the card down, glaring at the flowers like theyâre the true enemy. "I hate him."
"Youâve mentioned." Jeonghan plucks one of the flowers from the bouquet, twirling it between his fingers. "So what are you gonna do?"
You grab the bouquet with way too much force, march over to Mingyuâs desk, and shove it onto his table. Mingyu, who was minding his own damn business, blinks in confusion. "Uhâ?"
"Theyâre yours now," you say, turning away.
"Butâ"
"Youâre welcome!" you call over your shoulder, marching back to your desk. Jeonghan watches the entire thing with an evil smirk.
"You really think thatâs gonna stop him?" he muses.
You drop into your chair, arms crossed. "I donât care."
Meanwhile, across town Seungcheol leans back in his chair, arms crossed, watching Joshua with a smirk.
"She gave them to Mingyu?"
Joshua, who had just finished relaying the entire story from Mingyuâs frantic texts, sighs, pinching the bridge of his nose. "She didnât even hesitate."
Seungcheol chuckles, clearly not deterred. "Figures."
Joshua gives him a look. "You sound way too happy about that."
"Because I am," Seungcheol says simply.
Joshua stares. "You just got rejected via floral delivery, and youâre smiling."
Seungcheol shrugs, completely unbothered. "She reacted."
Joshua raises a brow. "Thatâs your takeaway?"
"Of course," Seungcheol leans forward, tapping his fingers against his desk. "If she really didnât care, she wouldâve ignored them. But instead, she marched across the office, gave them to Mingyu, and made sure Iâd hear about it."
Joshua squints. "ThatâsâŠa reach."
Seungcheol just grins. "Is it?"
Joshua sighs, already exhausted. "Okay, so whatâs the plan now, lover boy?"
Seungcheol picks up his phone, scrolling through his contacts until he lands on the one he had personally gotten from Mingyu last week. Your phone buzzes on your desk, and you glance at it once. Then you freeze because there, bright as day, Seungcheol.
Your fingers twitch. You shouldnât pick up. In fact, you should do the responsible thing and ignore him completely but then the call keeps ringing, like he knows youâre staring at it, like heâs waiting for you to break.
You almost ignore it..Almost. With an annoyed huff, you snatch up the phone and answer.
"What."
A low chuckle greets you from the other end. "Thatâs no way to greet your boyfriend."
Your entire body jerks. "Excuse me?"
"Ah," Seungcheol hums, clearly amused. "Too soon?"
"Way too soon," you deadpan. "And completely delusional."
"And yet, here you are, answering my call."
Your eye twitches. "Do you want something, or are you just here to waste my time?"
"Both," he admits easily.
You resist the urge to throw your phone. "Seungcheol."
"Fine, fine," he laughs. "Just wanted to check if my flowers got delivered."
You glare at nothing. "Oh, they did."
"And?"
"And they now belong to Mingyu." Thereâs a beat of silence then heâs laughing. And you hate it, you hate how good it sounded.Â
âYouâre so cute when youâre difficult."
You hang up immediately and then proceed to glare at your phone like itâs personally betrayed you. Across the room, Jeonghan watches your entire reaction unfold, smirk growing wider by the second.
"So," he drawls, "howâs your boyfriend?"
You launch a stress ball at his head.
Later that night, Jeonghan is sprawled out on your couch, one arm slung over his face as he lazily kicks at the air.
"You got any more of those fancy chips?" he asks.
You barely glance up from your phone. "Pantry."
"Ugh. Too far."
"You have legs."
He groans dramatically, but he doesnât move. You roll your eyes and keep scrolling, ignoring himâuntil his voice turns serious.
"Alright," he says, sitting up. "All jokes asideâwhatâs going on?"
You pause, side-eyeing him. "What?"
Jeonghan leans forward, elbows on his knees, studying you in a way that makes you shift uncomfortably.
"You said it yourself that you wanted him," he says, voice softer now. "So why are you acting like this?"
Because youâve been here before. Because the last time you really liked someone, you got your hopes up, and it all went to shit. Because youâve learned the hard way that people say one thing and do another, that words mean nothing without action.
Jeonghan knows this. Heâs been there through it allâthrough the flings, the almost-relationships, the guys who were great until they werenât. He was there when you decided you were done trying, when you shrugged off love like it was an optional extra, not something you needed.
Now, heâs watching you like heâs seeing through you.
"Youâre scared," he says simply.
You scoff. "I am notâ"
"You are," he cuts in. "And I get it. But you canât keep pushing people away just because they might disappoint you."
You bite your lip, looking away.
"Seungcheol isnât them," Jeonghan continues. "And I donât think heâs gonna give up just because youâre being difficult."
"...Maybe he should."
Jeonghan chuckles, but itâs not mocking. "Too bad for you, I donât think he will."
You scoff, crossing your arms. "He will."
Jeonghan raises a brow, amused. "You sure about that?"
"Yes," you say firmly. "Heâs rich, good-looking, and clearly used to getting what he wants. Guys like him donât chase for long. The second I make it too much work, heâll move on."
Jeonghan just smirks, shaking his head. "Thatâs cute. You think youâre hard to want."
You glare. "Donât analyze me. I am not dealing with another guy whoâs all interest at first and then disappears the moment things get real."
Jeonghan hums, watching you for a moment. Then, with a knowing glint in his eyes, he asks, "So if he doesnât disappear?"
You blink.
"If he doesnât give up," Jeonghan says, leaning closer. "If he keeps showing up, keeps proving you wrongâthen what?"
You press your lips together, refusing to answer. Because you donât know.
Jeonghanâs words replay in your head for the next couple of days. You try to brush them off, but they stick. if he doesnât give up, then what?
But then, Seungcheol stops contacting you.No texts. No calls. No annoying flower deliveries. And in your mind, youâre like, See? I was right.
You told Jeonghan exactly how this would go. Guys like Seungcheol donât chase for long. They get bored, they move on, theyâ
Knock, knock.
Your head snaps toward the door, heart inexplicably jumping. Itâs late. Youâre already in pajamas, wrapped in a blanket on your couch, halfway through a show you werenât even paying attention to. The knocking comes again.
Slowly, you get up and pull open the door and there he is.
Seungcheol stands in front of you, looking annoyingly good despite the slight exhaustion in his eyes. Heâs wearing a dark coat over a fitted sweater, and thereâs an expensive-looking suitcase at his feet.
And in his hand a snow globe.
You blink. "What�"
"Hey," he says, Just got back from a business trip."
You stare at him. "A business trip."
"Yeah." He lifts the snow globe slightly. "Paris.".
"You brought me a souvenir?"
Seungcheol smirks. "What, you think Iâd go all the way to Paris and not bring you something?"
"Iâ" You pause, suddenly feeling very warm despite the cold draft from the open door. "I justâ"
"You thought I gave up," he says simply.
Your stomach flips. You cross your arms, standing a little straighter. "Maybe."
For a second, neither of you say anything. Then, before your brain can catch up, you reach out slow, hesitant and take the snow globe from his hand.
"...Thanks," you mumble.
Seungcheol grins. "Youâre welcome."
You step aside, wordlessly letting him in. Seungcheol doesnât hesitate, walking past you like he belongs there.Â
"Why do you always look like you want to fight me?" he asks, amused.
"I donât," you say flatly.
"You do," he counters, dropping onto your couch like itâs his. "Youâve been glaring at me since the day we met."
You cross your arms. "Maybe itâs just my face."
"Itâs cute."
You narrow your eyes. "Donât start."
Seungcheol laughs, stretching out comfortably. "You gonna offer me a drink or just keep staring at me?"
You inhale sharply, fighting the urge to throw him out. Instead, you turn and march into the kitchen, grabbing two glasses of water. When you return, heâs still lounging on your couch, completely at home.
You set his glass down with a little too much force. "Here."
Seungcheol picks it up, giving you a slow, knowing look. "Youâre really bad at this," he says.
"At what?"
"Letting yourself like me." You almost choke on your own water. And Seungcheol? He just smiles.
He takes a slow sip of his water, watching you over the rim of the glass like heâs studying you. Then, like he can read your mind, he says, "Before you start spiralingâI didnât text because I was busy. Meetings from morning to night, different time zones, clients to entertain. I barely slept, let alone had time to talk."
You blink. "I didnât ask," you say, defensive.
He smirks. "Then donât overthink."
You open your mouth to argue because you were not overthinking, thank you very muchâbut he just keeps going.
"I was in Paris for four days. Mostly business, but I had a few hours to walk around. Thought about you when I saw that snow globe."
Your stomach flips against your will. You grip your glass tighter. "Youâwhat?"
"I thought youâd like it," he says simply. "Or maybe you'd just glare at it. Either way, it reminded me of you."
You stare at him, lips parting slightly because what the hell is he even saying? Because he says it like itâs not a big deal. Like itâs normal to have you on his mind while heâs halfway across the world. So, naturally, you do what you do bestâdeflect.
"You just showed up at my place," you say, voice carefully flat. "What if I wasnât home?"
Seungcheol grins. "Then Iâd have waited."
"Like a stalker?"
"Like a guy who wants to see you."
Your brain short-circuits.You scramble for something anything to say, but he beats you to it.
"You really donât get it, do you?"
You frown. "Get what?"
He leans forward, setting his glass down on the coffee table, and your whole body tenses when he holds your gaze. "I donât do things halfway," he says. "I wanted you from the start. That hasnât changed."
And suddenly, youâre overthinking again. You fold your arms across your chest, keeping your expression carefully neutral. "You're just saying that because you like the chase."
Seungcheol raises an eyebrow, leaning back slightly. "And you're saying that because you want me to think you're still a man hater."
"Excuse me?" you say, narrowing your eyes.
He shrugs, completely unfazed. "You keep acting like you donât care, like youâre waiting for me to mess up so you can say âSee? I told you so.â But youâre just trying to protect yourself."
Heâs too damn perceptive. Too calm, too confident in the way he calls you out.
"You donât know what youâre talking about," you mutter, looking away.
Seungcheol scoffs. "I do, actually."
He leans forward again, resting his elbows on his knees. "You liked me the second you saw me," he says, voice lower now, smoother. "And that scared the hell out of you."
Your breath catches because heâs right. You hate that heâs right. And the worst part? He sees it. You donât answer. That's when Seungcheol does something you donât expect. He stands up. And just like that, the whole atmosphere shifts. The teasing glint in his eyes is gone, replaced with something steadier. Something serious.
"If you donât want me here, say the word and Iâll leave."
You swallow hard. Your fingers tighten around the edge of your sweater. Because this is it. The out youâve been waiting for. The chance to end this before you get in too deep.
Your voice is quieter than you intend when you say, "If I do, will you leave?"
Seungcheol watches you, his gaze unwavering. "Yes." You know heâs telling the truth. Heâs not the kind of guy to stick around where he isnât wanted.
"You wonât fight for it?" you ask, hating how vulnerable the words sound.
A small, knowing smile tugs at the corner of his lips. "I already am."
Your breath catches because damn him. Damn him for saying things like that. Damn him for not pushing, not forcing, just waiting.Â
So instead, you exhale, looking away. "Sit down, youâre making me nervous."
Seungcheol smiles and just like that, the tension cracks.
"Yes, maâam," he teases, sinking back onto the couch like he owns the place.
You roll your eyes, but the corner of your lips betrays youâa slight, reluctant twitch. He sees it, of course. And you donât miss the satisfied look on his face when he does.
A few days later, Mingyu ruins everything.
âWe should go out for drinks,â he says, like itâs just a casual suggestion and not a trap. And like idiots, you all agree. You donât think anything of it until "By the way," Mingyu adds, far too casually, "I invited Seungcheol."
You freeze.
Mingyu grins, oblivious to the murderous intent in your eyes. "You donât mind, right?"
Jeonghan snickers. Irene and Jihyo exchange looks.
"Why would she mind?" Irene asks, ever the instigator.
"Youâre all insufferable," you mutter, grabbing your drink and pretending youâre unaffected.
Youâre going to ignore him. Youâre going to sit with your friends, drink, and not think about him. Itâs a solid plan.
Then he walks in.
And suddenly, your plan evaporates.
Seungcheol is unfair. Black button-up, sleeves rolled up to his forearms, looking effortlessly good in the worst possible way. He steps into the bar with Joshua beside him, scanning the room and then his eyes land on you.
You should play it cool. Pretend to be mad at him. Hold onto your last shred of self-respect but the moment you see him, you walk straight up to him, ignoring the way your friends watch with poorly concealed amusement.
Seungcheolâs lips twitch, like he was expecting this. "Hi."
You scowl. "I hate you."
He grins. "You said that last time. Didnât sound very convincing then either."
You open your mouth to argueâbut you donât. Because damn it, you donât hate him at all. So you stare at him, arms crossed, and say, âWhat, youâre too busy now?â
His smirk deepens. âDidnât know youâd miss me so much.â
You scoff. âI didnât say that.â
âBut you implied it.â
Your eyes narrow. âYouâre deflecting.â
He shrugs, completely unbothered. âIâve been busy.â
âOh, so you admit it?â
Seungcheol tilts his head, amused. âDidnât I text you?â
Your lips press together. Okay, fair point. He did text. A few times.
A "How was your day?"A "Donât overthink too much."Â
Still, you lift your chin. âTexts arenât the same.â
His brow arches. âSo youâre saying you wanted to see me?â
 âThat is absolutely not what I said.â
Seungcheol just laughs. âBut itâs what you meant.â
âOh my god, I hate you.â
His grin is downright infuriating. âYou keep saying that, but I donât think you mean it.â
You spin on your heel. âIâm leaving.â
Seungcheol just laughs, completely unbothered, like he already knows you donât mean it. He slides into the seat beside you like itâs the most natural thing in the world.Â
âI was busy because of work,â he murmurs, voice smooth, almost apologeticâbut not quite. âWanted to come see you, but I figured youâd be tired after work, too.â
Your eyes narrow. âThatâs your excuse?â
He tilts his head, smirking. âItâs the truth.â
You glare harder, hoping itâll somehow make him squirm. It doesnât. He just watches you, the corner of his mouth twitching like heâs fighting back a laugh.
âSo considerate of you,â you say dryly.
He hums. âI try.â Seungcheol, of course, takes that as his cue to get comfortable. He leans back, stretching his arm along the back of the boothânot quite touching you, but close enough.
âYouâre still mad,â he observes, sounding entirely too entertained.
âNo,â you deadpan. âIâm thrilled.â
Seungcheol laughs under his breath. âYouâre cute when you sulk.â
Your head snaps toward him, eyes burning with fresh irritation. âI am not sulking.â
He just grins. âWhatever you say.â
You step out onto the balcony, the night air cool against your skin as you take a deep breath. You just need a moment, one single moment to yourself. Of course, thatâs impossible when Seungcheol is involved.
The door clicks shut behind you, and you donât even have to turn around to know itâs him. You sigh, rubbing your temples. âDonât mind me. Iâll sulk on my own.â
Seungcheol hums as he leans against the railing beside you. âNah, canât let that happen.â
You throw him a glare. âAnd why not?â
He shrugs, watching the city lights with an infuriatingly calm expression. âIâd feel bad.â
You scoff. âOh, now you feel bad?â
âIâve always felt bad.â
âYou donât look like you do.â
He tilts his head toward you, smiling slightly. âAlright, what do you want, then?â
You exhale, glancing away. The truth sits heavy on your tongue, but you donât say it. Youâre still you, after all. Instead, you mutter, âFor you to stop being annoying.â
A breeze drifts between you, carrying the sounds of laughter from inside. For a second, neither of you speak. Then Seungcheol nudges your arm lightly. âYouâre really not gonna admit you missed me, huh?â
You donât say anything.
His smirk softens into something else. Something dangerous. âI can wait.â He exhales, watching you carefully. The smirk fades, replaced by something quieter. something real.
Then he says it.
âI missed you.â
The words slip out so casually, so effortlessly, like itâs the most obvious thing in the world. Your fingers tighten around the railing. Your brain stalls. Your heart does this stupid little flip in your chest. You finally turn to face him, none of the usual teasing or frustration in your expression is just seriousness.
âIf itâs going to be like this,â you say, voice steady, âyou disappear for days, then coming back like nothing happened then itâs not going to work.â
Seungcheolâs smirk fades completely. He studies you, really looks at you, and you can tell he understands that youâre not just saying this to pick a fight.
He exhales, rubbing the back of his neck. âItâs not like that.â
âIsnât it?â You cross your arms. âYou come and then go, then you just show up out of nowhere. Do you expect me to justââ You shake your head. âI donât play games, Seungcheol.â
âI know,â he says immediately. âI know you donât.â
You sigh. âThen what are we doing?â
Heâs quiet for a moment. Then, carefully, âI didnât think youâd want me to check in like that.â
You blink. âWhy wouldnât I?â
He hesitates. âBecause you act like you donât care half the time.â That stings. Not because heâs wrong, but because heâs right.
You inhale sharply. âThatâs just how I am.â
âI know,â he says again, softer this time. âBut if Iâm going to try with you, I donât want to be another person you expect to leave.â
Seungcheol holds your gaze, unwavering. âSo tell me what you want. What you really want.â
For the first time since this started, you donât have a comeback. You suddenly feel the urge to leave.
Seungcheolâs words sit heavy in your chestâyou act like you donât care half the time. It stung more than you wanted to admit, and now the whole night feels ruined.
âIâm heading out,â you say abruptly, turning on your heel.
You return inside, Seungcheol following behind you. Jeonghan, ever the observant one, catches on immediately. âLetâs go home yea?â he says, grabbing his coat. He doesnât ask questions, doesnât press. Just sticks by your side, because he knows you.
Mingyu frowns. âAlready? But we justââ
âLet her go,â Seungcheol says. His voice is unreadable. You donât look back. Jeonghan walks you out, calls a ride, and when youâre finally inside the car, he leans back with a sigh.
âYou gonna tell me what happened?â
You stare out the window. âNo.â
He hums, not pushing further. Instead, when you get home, he stays. Puts on a random movie, hands you a blanket, and lets you sit in silence.
Because Jeonghan knows youâll talk when youâre ready. He doesnât look at you right away. He stays focused on the movie, lthen he hears it.
A sniffle.
Itâs quiet, barely there, but Jeonghan notices everything.
He doesnât immediately react, doesnât turn his head or ask if youâre okay, because he knows you. Knows that if he does, youâll shut down completely.
âI think Iâm screwing it up.â
Jeonghan doesnât even blink. âWith Seungcheol?â
You nod.
âYeah,â he says, blowing on his own tea. âI figured.â
You furrow your brows. âHow?â
He snorts. âBecause youâre you.â You glare at him again, but he just drives. Eyes still on the road
âIâm serious,â
âSo am I,â he says easily. âYouâre panicking because this is probably the first time in a long time that you actually like someone. And instead of dealing with it like a normal person, youâre, wellââ
âRuining it?â
Jeonghan shrugs. âSelf-sabotaging. But close enough.â
âGreat.â
Jeonghan watches you for a moment. Then, softer this time âWhat did he say to make you leave?â
You hesitate. Then, voice barely above a whisper âThat I act like I donât care.â
âWell, heâs not wrong.â
You snap your head toward him, eyes wide. âExcuse me?â
âYou heard me.â
You scowl, ready to argue, but then the truth of it hits you.
And maybe thatâs why it hurt so much. Because Seungcheol wasnât wrong. Because you do act like you donât care, even when you do. Because this whole time, youâve been pushing and pulling, running hot and cold, and yet
Yet, heâs still here. Still choosing you. The realization makes your chest feel uncomfortably tight.
So you do what you always do when it gets too much. You donât reach out.
Not the next day. Not the day after that. You tell yourself itâs for the best. That itâs easier this way. That Seungcheol will eventually get the hint and move on.
But then why do you feel like absolute shit?
You go through the motionsâwork, home, repeatâbut thereâs this persistent weight in your chest that refuses to go away.
Itâs easy to avoid Seungcheol, at least. He works across town, and itâs not like you run in the same circles outside of Mingyu dragging him along. Still. You hate how aware you are of his absence. Itâs ridiculous, really. Youâve only known him for a few months, but somehow, heâs already made himself at home in your thoughts.
You wonder if heâs given up on you yet. If heâs decided youâre not worth the effort. The thought makes you feel worse.
You almost walk right past him.
Almost.
âHey.â
Your steps falter. You take a slow breath before turning to him. Heâs standing by the entrance of your building, hands in his pockets, looking at you like heâs been waiting.
You scoff. âOh. Now you know me?â
Seungcheol exhales sharply, shaking his head. âDonât do that.â
You donât even know what exactly youâre doing, but youâre already annoyed. âDo what?â
He gives you a flat look. âPush me away.â
You cross your arms. âMaybe you should take the hint, then.â
Seungcheol steps forward. âYou donât want that.â
You step back. âI donât?â
âYou donât.â You hate that heâs right. That he can see it. That itâs written all over your face no matter how hard you try to deny it and it frustrates you. More than it should.
âLook, Seungcheol,â you sigh, voice heavy with exhaustion. âYou canât just disappear for days and then show up likeââ
âLike what?â he interrupts. âLike I actually give a damn about you?â You flinch. Itâs not even what he said. Itâs how he said it. The sincerity in his voice. The quiet frustration.
You look away. âI didnât ask you to.â
He laughs under his breath. âYeah. Thatâs the problem, isnât it?â
You hate the way heâs looking at you. Like he knows. Like heâs waiting for you to stop fighting him. You shake your head. âYou should go.â
But Seungcheol doesnât move. Instead, he tilts his head, studying you. âDo you want me to?â
The answer is no but you donât say it. You canât stand the way he looks at you, like heâs already figured you out. Like he knows every excuse, every defense mechanism, every wall you put up before you even have the chance to throw them at him.
So you do what you do best. You push.
"Letâs just go back to thinking I donât care." The words taste bitter, but you swallow them down, turning on your heel before he can say anything else.
You walk away.
One step.
Two.
Three.
You expect him to stop you. To grab your wrist. To call your name again. To say something but he doesnât.
The air is heavy with everything unsaid, with everything youâre choosing to leave behind. And yet the farther you get, the harder it is to breathe. Your own words echo in your head, louder and louder, until you almost want to take them back.
Almost.
But you donât.
Because that would mean admitting that heâs right. That you donât actually want him to leave. That youâve just been pushing him away because itâs easier than facing whatâs really scaring you.
Because if you admit that you careâreally, really careâthen that means he has the power to hurt you.
And youâre not sure if you can survive that again.
And Seungcheol?
He lets you go.
The next day Jeonghan doesnât even need to say anything. The moment he sees you step out of your apartment building, he knows. Your eyes are puffy, your hair is a mess, and you look like you barely got any sleep. Like hell, basically.
"So, rough night?" he asks, starting the car. You grunt in response, which tells him enough.
"You wanna talk about it, or should I just let you wallow in silence until you eventually explode?"
"Silence."
"Got it."
The drive is quiet, but Jeonghan sneaks glances at you every now and then. Heâs been with you long enough to recognize when youâre doing it again. The overthinking. The self-sabotaging. The pushing away before you can get hurt.
He knows you want Seungcheol. He knows you care. And he knows that youâre terrified of letting yourself have something good.
So when he finally pulls into the parking lot and parks the car, he doesnât unlock the doors right away. Instead, he turns to you, voice softer this time.
"You look miserable."
"Wow, thanks."
"I mean it. You look like you barely slept. Youâre doing that thing where you overthink yourself into a corner and decide for yourself that youâre better off alone before anyone can prove you wrong."
You hate how accurate that is. "I donât wanna talk about it, Hannie."
"Fine." He unlocks the doors. "But at some point, youâre gonna have to."
You sigh and grab your bag, stepping out of the car. But as you walk toward the building, Jeonghan calls after you.
"Just answer me one thingâif he calls, are you gonna pick up?"
You pause. The fact that you even hesitate tells him everything. Jeonghan watches you, waiting. Maybe hoping. But when you finally speak, your voice is so quiet.
âNo.â
Itâs not stubborn. Itâs not defensive. Itâs not even angry. Itâs just⊠defeated. Like every last bit of fight has already drained out of you.
And that is what makes Jeonghan shut up.Â
So, even though it kills him to see you like this, he sighs and just says, âAlright. Dropped.â
But Jeonghan doesnât move right away. He just sits there in the driverâs seat, watching you disappear through the doors. And for the first time in a long time, he wonders if this timeâwith Seungcheolâmaybe youâre making a mistake.
Jeonghan, Jihyo, Mingyu, and Irene are already a few drinks in when Mingyu suddenly stiffens, his eyes narrowing toward the entrance of the bar.
âOh, shit.â
Jihyo follows his gaze and lets out a low whistle. âWell, well, well. Look who it is.â
Jeonghan doesnât even need to look. He already knows. Joshua Hong walks in first, smiling as he exchanges greetings with someone at the bar.
And right behind him? Choi Seungcheol.
Itâs been 2 weeks and Seungcheol looks⊠the same. Maybe a little tired, but still him. The group watches as he follows Joshua toward a table, not even glancing their way.
âAre we going to talk to them?â Irene asks, swirling her drink.
âShould we?â Mingyu hesitates.
Jeonghan sighs, rubbing his temples. Heâs been waiting for something like this to happen. Because of course it would. The universe wouldnât let things be that easy.
Jeonghan exhales, slow and measured, before tossing back the rest of his drink.
âIâll go.â
Jihyo raises an eyebrow. âYou sure?â
Jeonghan shrugs as he pushes back his chair. âSomeone has to.â
Mingyu shifts in his seat. âWant me toââ
âNo,â Jeonghan cuts him off, shaking his head. âIf itâs just me, he wonât feel cornered.â
They donât argue. They know Jeonghan well enough to trust him with this. So, with one last glance at the others, Jeonghan straightens his shirt and makes his way across the bar.
âJoshua.â
Joshua turns first, eyebrows lifting in surprise before his lips pull into a smile. âJeonghan! What a coincidence.â
Seungcheol looks up then, mid-sip of his drink, and his expression flickersâjust for a secondâbefore smoothing out. Jeonghan pulls out a chair and sits without asking.
Joshua leans forward, propping his chin on his hand. âDidnât think Iâd be seeing you tonight. The others here too?â
Jeonghan ignores the question and turns to Seungcheol instead. âYou doing alright?â
Seungcheol stares at him, unreadable. âYeah. Why wouldnât I be?â
Jeonghan hums, tapping his fingers against the table. âDunno. Just seems like you havenât been around much lately.â
Joshua looks between them, lips twitching, but he wisely keeps quiet.
Seungcheol finally exhales, setting his drink down. âIs this aboutââ
âOf course itâs about her.â Jeonghan doesnât even let him finish. âYou think we wouldnât notice?â
Seungcheol presses his lips into a thin line.
Jeonghan tilts his head. âSheâs been avoiding everything that even remotely reminds her of you. And sheâs stubborn as hell, but I know her. Sheâs not okay.â
Seungcheolâs grip tightens on his glass.
Joshua sighs, leaning back in his chair. âThis is why I told you to just talk to her already.â
Seungcheol runs a hand down his face, clearly frustrated. âAnd say what?â
Jeonghan narrows his eyes. âSay youâre sorry. Say you care. Say literally anything, because sheâs convinced herself you donât.â
Seungcheol exhales sharply. âThatâs notââ He stops himself, shaking his head. âShe told me to leave.â
âShe tells everyone to leave,â Jeonghan deadpans. âAnd sheâs always surprised when they actually do.â
Seungcheol goes quiet. Jeonghan leans forward, voice steady but firm. âIf you donât care, then stay away. But if you do? Do something. Because right now, all youâre doing is proving her right.â
Seungcheol stares down at his drink. Jeonghan watches him, waiting.
And then, after a long moment Seungcheol stands.
Joshua blinks. âOh? Weâre going now?â Seungcheol ignores him, pulling his wallet out and throwing some cash on the table. Then, finally, he turns to Jeonghan.
âWhere is she?â
Jeonghan tried calling again. Straight to voicemail.
He frowned. âSheâs not answering.â
Seungcheolâs jaw clenched. âIs she home?â
âI donât know,â Jeonghan muttered, already pulling up your shared locationâbut of course, it was off.
Joshua exhaled through his nose. âMaybe sheâs asleep?â
Jeonghan shook his head. âShe always leaves her phone on, even if sheâs mad. If sheâs not answering, it means she either doesnât want to be found orââ He stops himself, lips pressing into a thin line. Seungcheol didnât need him to finish the sentence. His hands curled into fists.
âWhere would she go?â he asked, voice tight.
Jeonghan exchanged a look with Mingyu, who had come over after noticing their conversation.
Mingyu sighed. âThereâs a place. She used to go there when she needed to clear her head.â
Seungcheol didnât waste time asking more. âWhere?â
Mingyu hesitated, just for a second. Then, seeing the way Seungcheol was barely holding himself together, he pulled out his phone and sent the location.
âDonât mess this up,â Mingyu muttered.
Seungcheol was already heading for the door. He wasnât sure what he expected when he got there, but an old bookstore tucked into a quiet street wasnât it. The lights inside were dim and warm, casting a soft glow through the large windows. He pushed the door open, the bell above jingling softly.Â
An old woman, sitting behind the counter, looked up. She peered at him through her glasses, eyes sharp despite her gentle smile.
âYou must be the one,â she said simply.
Seungcheol blinked. âExcuse me?â
The old woman hummed, nodding toward the back. âSheâs here. Been here all day.â
He followed her gaze and, sure enough, there you wereâcurled up in one of the armchairs near the back, a book resting on your lap, though you werenât reading it. Instead, you were staring out the window, lost in thought.
You felt his presence before you saw him. Maybe it was the way the air shifted, or maybe you had been waiting for him all along, but when he stopped in front of you, you werenât surprised.
âYouâre a hard person to find,â he said quietly.
You closed the book in your lap, fingers tracing the edges of the cover. âDidnât realize I was supposed to be found.â
He sighed, running a hand through his hair. âWhy didnât you tell anyone where you were?â
You shrugged. âDidnât feel like talking.â
Seungcheol crouched down so he was eye level with you. âAre you okay?â
You looked at him then, really looked at him. His eyes were searching, his face unreadable. And for some reason, that made something in your chest tighten.
âI donât know,â you admitted.
He exhaled softly. âCan I sit?â
You didnât answer, but you moved your legs so there was space on the other armchair beside you. He took the silent invitation, settling in.
For a while, neither of you spoke. The quiet hum of the bookstore surrounded you.
Finally, Seungcheol broke the silence. âWhy did you run?â
You frowned. âI didnât run.â
He gave you a look. âYou disappeared. No one could reach you. Thatâs running.â
You sighed, leaning your head back against the chair. âI just needed time.â
âTo do what?â
âTo think,â you muttered.
Seungcheol tilted his head, watching you closely. âAnd?â
You hesitated, fingers tightening around the book. âAnd I donât know what to do with you.â
He let out a small chuckle. âI get that a lot.â
âIâm serious.â
His expression softened. âSo am I.â
You sighed, feeling the weight of everything pressing down on you. âI donât know how to do this, Seungcheol. I donât know how to trust that this wonât end up like before.â
He was quiet for a moment. Then, he said, âIâm not whoever hurt you.â
You swallowed. âI know that.â
âDo you?â His voice was gentle, but firm. âBecause it seems like youâre punishing me for something I didnât do.â
Your chest ached. âItâs not that simple.â
âI know,â he said. âBut I need you to at least give me a chance.â You stared at him, searching for any hint of dishonesty. But all you found was sincerity.
The lump in your throat grew. âAnd if I canât?â
âThen Iâll wait.â
You closed your eyes, exhaling shakily. âYou make it sound so easy.â
He smiled, though there was something sad in it. âItâs not. But I think youâre worth it.â
Your heart stumbled over itself. For the first time in a long time, you didnât know what to say.
The old lady approached with slow, deliberate steps, her sharp gaze flicking between you and Seungcheol. She had seen you come in and out of this bookstore too many times, always with a heavy heart.
âSo,â she said, arms crossing over her chest. âIs this the boy thatâs been making you cry?â
You inhaled deeply, forcing a small smile as you shook your head. âAll of them do.â
She clicked her tongue, giving Seungcheol a pointed look before patting your shoulder. âMen,â she muttered before walking off, leaving the two of you in tense silence. Seungcheol didnât speak for a long moment. You knew he was looking at you, but you refused to meet his eyes.
Then, finally, in a quiet voice, he asked, âDid I really make you cry?â
You swallowed, keeping your gaze on the book in your lap. âWhy do you care?â
His jaw tensed. âBecause I didnât want to.â
A bitter chuckle slipped out. âThatâs funny,â you said, glancing at him now. âBecause I remember you saying that I donât care.â
Seungcheol exhaled sharply, running a hand through his hair. âI was angry.â
You nodded slowly, lips pressing together. âSo what do you want from me?â
His brows furrowed. âWhat?â
You turned fully toward him now, frustration bubbling up again. âWhat do you want, Seungcheol? You say youâll wait, but for what? You keep coming back even when I push you away. What are you waiting for?â
He stared at you, something flickering behind his eyes. âYou.â
You let out a hollow laugh. âYou donât even know me.â
âYes, I do,â he shot back. âI know you act like you donât care because youâre afraid. I know you run before anyone gets the chance to hurt you. And I know you like me.â
Your breath hitched.
He leaned in slightly, voice dropping lower. âThatâs why youâre trying so hard to convince yourself that Iâll leave.â
You clenched your jaw. âYou will.â
Seungcheol exhaled, shaking his head. âI wonât.â
You opened your mouth to argue again, but before you could, another voice interrupted.
âThere you are.â You both turned to see Jeonghan standing by the entrance of the bookstore, arms crossed, an unreadable expression on his face. âI was looking for you.â
Jeonghanâs gaze softened as he looked at you. âCome on,â he said gently. âLetâs go.â
You hesitated, glancing at Seungcheol, whose jaw was now clenched.
Jeonghan sighed, looking between the two of you. âYou need space,â he said simply. Then, to Seungcheol, he added, âGive it to her.â Seungcheol didnât respond immediately. His gaze stayed locked on you, searching, waiting but you didnât say anything.
Finally, he exhaled and stood. âIâll wait.â
You hated that those words made your chest tighten. Without another glance, you followed Jeonghan out of the bookstore, leaving Seungcheol behind.
The moment you stepped out of the bookstore, Jeonghan let out a heavy sigh.
âDonât,â you muttered, already knowing what was coming.
âI didnât say anything yet,â he shot back, but the look he gave you was enough.
You sighed, rubbing your temples. âThanks for coming to get me.â
âOh, donât thank me,â he said, crossing his arms. âBecause now I am going to lecture you.â
You groaned. âJeonghanââ
âNo, listen to me.â His tone was sharper than usual, firm in a way that made you stop walking. âYou keep doing this thing where you push people away the second they get too close. And I get it, I do. You donât want to get hurt. But you are the one hurting yourself.â
Your breath caught, but you said nothing.
Jeonghan huffed. âYou like him,â he stated, like it was a fact. âAnd I know you like him because youâre acting like this.â
You scoffed. âThat makes no sense.â
He gave you a pointed look. âIt does when itâs you.â
You exhaled slowly, looking away. âHeâll leave.â
âAnd what if he doesnât?â Jeonghan challenged. âAre you really going to throw this away just because you think he might leave?â
You pressed your lips together. âYou donât understand.â
Jeonghan let out a humorless laugh. âOh, I do. Because Iâve watched you do this over and over again. And I didnât say anything before because, honestly? Most of those guys werenât worth it.â
You frowned. âAnd you think he is?â
Jeonghan tilted his head. âDonât you? Look, if you really donât want him, then fine. Walk away. But if you do want himâeven just a littleâthen stop making it so hard for yourself.â
You swallowed, your throat suddenly tight.
Jeonghan softened, placing a hand on your shoulder. âJust think about it, alright?â
You didnât respond. You werenât sure if you could so you just nodded, and Jeonghan let it go. For now.
Come morning the next day. Seungcheol sat across from Jeonghan, arms crossed as he studied him. He had been skeptical from the startâwhy Jeonghan always knew exactly what to say to you, why you let him in when you pushed everyone else away.
âYou know a lot about her,â Seungcheol said, voice laced with suspicion. âMore than just a friend would.â
Jeonghan smirked, stirring his coffee lazily. âThatâs because weâre not just friends.â
Seungcheolâs grip on his cup tightened slightly. He wasnât sure why that statement irritated him so much, but it did. âThen what are you?â
Jeonghan glanced up at him, watching his reaction carefully before finally saying it.
âSheâs my stepsister.â
âWhat?â
Jeonghan leaned back in his chair, sighing like this conversation was long overdue. âHer dad left when she was a kid. It was uglyâmessed her up. My dad married her mom when we were in our teens, and suddenly, we were family.â
It made sense now. Why you and Jeonghan were inseparable, why he always seemed to understand you in a way no one else did.
âShe doesnât talk about it,â Jeonghan continued, voice quieter now. âNot to anyone. She pretends it doesnât affect her, but it does. Itâs why she is the way she is. Why she pushes people away before they get too close.â
Seungcheol exhaled, leaning back in his seat. âAnd youâre telling me this becauseâŠ?â
Jeonghan met his gaze, all traces of amusement gone. âBecause if youâre serious about her, you need to know what youâre up against.â
Now, he understood just how much he had to fight for you. Seungcheol stayed quiet, his mind replaying every interaction heâd had with you. The push and pull, the way you shut him out just when he thought he was getting close. Now, it all made sense.
Jeonghan sighed, watching him carefully before speaking again.
âItâs hard to love her less once you get to know her more.â
Seungcheolâs gaze snapped up, meeting Jeonghanâs knowing eyes.
âThatâs why she keeps people at armâs length,â Jeonghan continued. âBecause she knows it too. Sheâs terrified of people staying just long enough to leave.â
Seungcheol exhaled sharply. âAnd you think Iâm just like everyone else?â
Jeonghan smirked, but there was something softer behind it. âI think youâre different. Thatâs why sheâs this scared.â
Seungcheol didnât sleep much that night.
Jeonghanâs words stayed with him, looping in his mind until he couldnât ignore them anymore. You werenât just pushing him away because you wanted toâyou were pushing him away because you were scared. Because you expected him to leave.
And if there was one thing Seungcheol hated, it was being predictable.
The next day, he found himself outside your office again, leaning against his car with his arms crossed. He knew your schedule well enough by now, and when he saw you stepping out, he straightened.
You stopped in your tracks the moment you saw him.Â
âWhat are you doing here?â Your voice was flat, but Seungcheol could hear the exhaustion underneath it.
He pushed himself off the car, hands slipping into his pockets. âI needed to see you.â
You exhaled through your nose, already tired of this conversation. âCheolââ
âNo,â he interrupted gently. âThis time, just listen.â
Your eyes narrowed, but you didnât walk away. That was enough for him.
He stepped closer, closing the distance between you. âYou asked me what I wanted from you. I didnât answer then, so Iâll answer now.â His voice was steady, unwavering. âI want you. I want every version of youâthe one who glares at me, the one who shuts me out, the one who lets her guard down when she thinks no oneâs looking.â
âAnd then what?â
Seungcheol tilted his head slightly. âThen I keep wanting you. Even when you push me away. Even when you tell yourself you donât care.â
Your jaw tightened, your emotions warring against your better judgment. âI donât need saving, Seungcheol.â
âI know,â he said easily. âYou never did. But you do need someone who stays.â
Silence stretched between you, thick with unspoken words. Seungcheol could see the way your fingers twitched,Â
So he softened, just enough. âJeonghan told me.â
Your breath hitched, and for the first time, Seungcheol saw something other than defiance in your eyes. It was vulnerability, raw and unguarded.
âI donât pity you,â he said before you could say anything. âI donât think youâre broken. I just wish youâd let me in.â
You let out a breath, but it wasnât exasperation this time. It sounded tired. Resigned. âI donât know how,â you admitted.
Seungcheol gave you a small smile, tilting his head toward his car. âThen letâs figure it out.â
You stared at him for a long moment, trying to convince yourself this was a bad idea. That you should walk away like you always did.
But for the first time in a long time, you didnât.
Instead, you exhaled sharply, shaking your head. âYouâre so fucking annoying.â
Seungcheol grinned. âAnd yet, here you are.â
He opened the car door for you, waiting. And after another beat, you got in.
As Seungcheol got into the driverâs seat, you folded your arms and eyed him suspiciously.
âSo?â you prompted.
He glanced at you. âSo, what?â
You narrowed your eyes. âWhat exactly did Jeonghan tell you?â
Seungcheol tapped his fingers against the steering wheel, as if debating how much to say. âEnough.â
You scoffed. âRight. Thatâs not vague at all.â He smirked but didnât answer immediately, which only irritated you more.
You shifted in your seat, arms tightening around yourself. âHe probably just told you my sob story to make you feel bad.â
He exhaled. âYeah, he told me about your parents, about how things werenât easy. But he didnât say it so Iâd pity you.â His voice softened. âHe said it so Iâd understand you.â
You stared at him, lips parting slightly before you shut them again.
âJeonghanâs known you for years,â Seungcheol continued. âAnd he made it pretty damn clear that if I wanted to keep you in my life, I had to stop being an idiot and actually see you.â
You swallowed, throat suddenly dry. âAnd what do you see?â
Seungcheolâs gaze held yours, steady and unyielding. âSomeone who pretends not to care because itâs safer. Someone who pushes people away before they get the chance to leave.â
âBut also,â he went on, âsomeone who cares way more than she lets on. Someone who makes it impossible for people to love her less once theyâve gotten to know her.â
Your head snapped back to him. That was Jeonghanâs exact wording.
Seungcheolâs lips twitched. âYeah, he said that too.â
You huffed, leaning your head against the window. âHe talks too much.â
Seungcheol chuckled, but then his voice dropped, quieter now. âLook, Iâm not here because of what Jeonghan told me. Iâm here because I donât want to be just another person you expect to leave.â
You didnât answer right away. Because you didnât know how. Instead, you just muttered, âYouâre annoying,â under your breath.
Seungcheol smirked. âYouâve mentioned.â
The ride was quiet, but not uncomfortable. He didnât push you to say anything more, and you werenât ready to give him any more than you already had.
When he pulled up in front of your building, he put the car in park and turned to you. âSo what now?â
You shrugged, gripping the door handle. âI donât know.â
Seungcheol leaned back against his seat, watching you carefully. âAre you gonna keep avoiding me?â
You hesitated, fingers tightening around the handle. ââŠNo.â
That seemed to amuse him. âThat didnât sound very convincing.â
You sighed, turning to face him properly. âI donât know how to do this, Seungcheol.â
His expression softened. âThen letâs figure it out together.â
You stared at him, searching for somethingâany sign that this was some kind of game. But all you found was patience, quiet and unwavering.
You exhaled and looked away. âI should go.â
He nodded, but before you could push the door open, he spoke again. âYou never answered my question.â
You frowned. âWhat question?â
Seungcheol tilted his head, as if debating whether to repeat himself. Then, in a voice much softer than before, he said, âWhat do you want?â
Your breath hitched because wasnât that the question youâd been running from this whole time?
You forced yourself to meet his gaze, your heart hammering in your chest. âI donât know,â you admitted, voice barely above a whisper.
Seungcheol studied you for a long moment, then simply nodded. âOkay.â
You blinked. âOkay?â
He smiled slightly. âOkay. You donât have to know yet.â
You swallowed past the lump in your throat. âThat easy, huh?â
His smile grew. âNot everything has to be a fight, you know.â
âTell that to my brain.â
Seungcheol chuckled. âIâll work on it.â
You bit your lip, stealing one last glance at him before finally opening the door. âGood night, Seungcheol.â
âGood night,â he said.
PART TWO COMING SOON
#fic#au#fanfic#svt#seventeen#svt scoups#svt seunghceol#seventeen imagine#seventeen scenario#seventeen angst#seventeen x y/n#svt imagine#svt scenario#svt au#seungcheol imagine#seungcheol scenario#seungcheol x y/n#scoup imagine#scoups
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#this exhausts me#never knew that 'me' could be pronounced 'the three of us' (via drivenalphabitchpaulmccartney)
#forever fascinating clusterfuck (via goldslick)
#george martin their producer equivocating deftly (via stephantom)
#what homophobia does to a man (via 4headedmonster)
#George Martin throwing his hat into the ring (via underthecitysky)
#george m getting involved in this nonsense#god (via muzaktomyears)
#some of the more insane things paul has said make me feel so sad#like That quote about John no longer being in love with the three other Beatles#hes like no i wasnât in love with John haha everyone was and he was in love with us three#like bro your mind is WARPED#Youâre being a little silly like mentally (via paulic)
#this is so trippy (via meanmistermacca)
#they really did that#the bailey photoshoot#and i think the wives photos are released before these bailey photos bc brian held them back in the 60s#so they are pointedly meant for each other alone#iâve replaced you#what do you call a love triangle with four sides square doesnât cover it lol#triangulated#for some reason in my head thatâs what it looks like#i just found the year for the j&y one itâs dec 68#not sure when the p&l one is#80s?#paul has some eye crinkles and thereâs no bad 70s mullets (via get-back-homeward)
#Linda and Yoko are stronger than I could ever be (via majinmelmo)
#George Martin demonstrating his considerable verbal skills (via crepesuzette2023)
#mclennon is real the only people who deny it are mclennon. lmao (via lazarus-lazuli)
#a comment i saw that was like âthey got married at each otherâ still haunts me#because what was the reason for this#there is no mentally stable explanation (via noreplymp3)
#even as a mclennon girl with terminal brainrot i am too much of a feminist to not be annoyed they dragged these women into their mess#get a job stay away from them (via sohardlovingyou)
#I always said Linda and Yoko should have been Yuri just to like complete every quardrent of codependency (via scary-ivy)

âI only ever asked two people to work with me as a partner. One was Paul McCartney and the other Yoko Onoâ -John Lennon âThe Beatles are over. It has been exploded, partly by what we have done, and partly by other people. We are individuals - all different. John married Yoko, I married Linda.â -Paul McCartney âI think that itâs like [John] was married to Paul, and now he was married to meâ -Yoko Ono âJohnâs in love with Yoko, and heâs no longer in love with the other three of us.â -Paul McCartney âI donât think Linda is a substitute for John Lennon, any more than Yoko is a substitute for Paul McCartney.â -George Martin
#scourge words#mcharmley words#george martin words#linda eastman photo#yoko ono photo#ain't they cute photo#bailey photoshoot#they really do just say stuff don't they
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Ooh I got a couple of holy ghosts prompts, give me your thots on these: who is big spoon/little spoon, pizza topping preferences (and do they argue over it if they're very different), which one eats pickles and which one hates them, and last something angsty, your choice
!!!! They switch it up but Oscarâs mainly the little spoon bc Noel doesnât like smothered very much, but he lets Oscar big spoon sometimes when he lets his guard down (for sad/too exhausted/needs some nice comforting real bad reasons)
Oscarâs a simple guy he likes just cheese or a single topping, heâs adventurous tho so heâll change it up. Noel tho heâs getting 6 different toppings and he hardly gets the same combination twice. Heâd also probably be one to tap about the subtle differences in flavor combinations while Oscar just sits there patiently enjoying his slice.
Also, both pickle guys. they teasingly fight over the last pickle sometimes.
Something angsty??? you wound me,,, ummm I think sometimes when Noel has to be away from Oscar for a while his mental state gets Real bad. and same for Oscar- theyâve got a bit of codependency going on,,,, they both have the mindset that if they stay away too long, the other will realize what they shouldâve done long ago and leave. two guys who love the other more than anything but think they themselves do not deserve love or kindness. itâs leads to a lot of tears shed thatâs for sure
#ask#GRIPS THEM#ggrgrgrgrggrgrgrgrggrgrgegrg#wait maybe not codependency but definitely abandonment issues
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"Once again, the Evil that cannot be Undone: Tonight you will fall for me"
âȘïž William and Nica

This is a fan translation so please don't expect it to be 100% accurate. Creative liberties have been taken. All content belongs to Cybird. Reblogs are appreciated. Hope you enjoy!
Even though it says William and Nica, the first chapter solely comprises of William and the second chapter that of Nica. So it's almost like any other story event but technically with two less chapters for a suitor. Cybird got us good. :/
Chapter 1
I turned off the lights and got into bed, but I just couldnât sleep.
(âŠ.I wonder whether my anxiety is keeping me wide awake.)
Even though I knew it would be better for me to rest, I quietly slipped out of bed.
The inside of the quiet and deserted castle feels strangely comfortable.
As I walk lightly, a faint melody reaches my ears.
Drawn by the sound of piano, I arrived at the great hall.
William: Youâre up late, robin.
William noticing my presence stopped playing the piano.
Kate: Yes. I couldnât sleep for some reason.
William: I see. âŠ..You look a bit relaxed tonight.
I realized it when he pointed out.
The reason why Crown Castle was so comfortable at night with no one aroundâŠ
Kate: That might be because, wellâŠ
Kate: At night, I can be alone in the castle, so maybe thatâs why I feel more at ease.
William: âŠâŠ..
William neither confirmed nor denied it, just stared at me quietly, waiting for me to continue.
(âŠ.I feel like I can tell William about my feelings.)
Kate: âŠ..Ever since I lost my memories, everyone has been so nice to me.
Kate: Itâs justâŠI feel like youâre all seeing my lost memories through me.
Kate: So thatâs whyâŠâŠ
In the end, the feelings I couldnât put into words were taken up by William.
William: Is it painful for you to receive kindness directed towards your âpast selfâ?
Itâs arrogant to think that itâs difficult to accept othersâ kindness.
Moreover, it is quite outrageous to make such an opulent complaint to someone.
But even so, I could hide nothing in front of William and the words slipped out of my mouth.
Kate: âŠThe reason why everyone is being nice to me is because they were friends with me in the past.
Kate: Now that I donât know if I can ever regain my memories, itâs difficult for me to accept their kindness.
Kate: Even though everyoneâs been so good to me, whatâll happen if I canât get back the âmeâ from the past?
(So...at night, when I was finally alone at Crown Castle, I could relax.)
(At this moment, I wonder if anyone will feel sad and pity me for losing my memories.)
After hearing my confession, William lowered his eyes and seemed to contemplate on something.
But that was only for a momentâand then he sat down at the piano again and placed his hands on the keys.
William: Kate, Iâm going to play three songs now.
William: Once youâve finished listening, Iâll ask you to rank them in order of your preference. So listen carefully.
---The sound of William playing the piano echoes through Crown castle at night.
Some songs are as whimsical as a cat running around in an alleyway.
And then there are songs that are graceful and slow, like a fish swimming leisurely.
Kate: Every song was amazing!
Kate: But if I had to order themâŠ.I would say the third, then the first and then second.
William: That order is the same as the one you said before.
Kate: My past self�
William: Yes. Even if you lose your memories, the fundamental part of you doesnât change.
William: Kate is still Kate.
William: There is no need to feel sorry or intimidated by the kindness of those around you.
William: They are all directed at one person, you.
Kate: âŠâŠThank you, William.
It's possible that I won't be able to recollect my memories and enjoy them with you all.
But I finally feel like Iâm happy to be hereâŠ..
Kate: If itâs not too much trouble, could you please play one more song?
Kate: I just wanted to hear you play the piano a little longer.
I wonder why I feel a bit strange today.
The old me would never have asked someone to play for me in the middle of the night like this.
William didnât seem to feel offended by my selfishness.
Instead, he smiled happily and placed his hands on the keyboard.
William: What would you like to listen to?
âŠ..
Kate: That was a wonderful performance! Thank you very much.
William: As a token of appreciation for playing, would you answer one question of mine?
Kate: âŠ.? Of course, please go ahead.
William: Why are you here in the hall?
The reason I came here was simple-- because I heard the sound of piano.
Butâjust as I was about to answer that, I fell silent.
Because that answer is directly denied by the anxiety that has been consuming my thoughts up until this point.
 (IâŠliked the castle at night, when I could be alone.)
(So why did I come here knowing that William was playing the piano?)
(If I had wished to be alone, I should have gotten away from the sound of piano.)
After thinking about it, I came up with an answer.
Kate: You didnât show a sad expression when you looked at meâŠâŠ
Kate: I came here because I thought I could easily approach you.
William: âŠ.I see. So thatâs your reason.
William: I am honoured to be a comfortable perch for the robin.
Kate: William, were you not on good terms with me before I lost my memory?
William: No, not at all. I think we were good friends.
Kate: If thatâs the case, then whyâŠâŠ.
How is it that even though Iâve lost my memory, he can still act as usual?
It seems he understood the question I had in mind.
William: The reason I donât feel sad or sorry for you even though you have lost your memories is simple.
William: Because Iâm certain.
William: If you were to make the same choice againâŠ.
Captivated by Williamâs powerful gaze and words, I momentarily forgot to breathe.
Although he said nothing, I felt as if I could hear a voice coming from the other side of the darkness.
âChoose meâ, William's voice said.
[Masterlist] [William's End]
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Flowers For
Fandom: MCU Captain America/Avengers
Summary: You give Bucky flowers, because friends can give each other gifts and it doesnât have to mean anything. This time, though, it ends up meaning everything.
Quick facts: Romance â Bucky Barnes/Reader â Nondescript Reader
Warnings: Fluff!, background Steve/Sam/Natasha, everybodyâs a little shit
MCU Timeline: Set some nebulous time after CA:TWS (though while I do make allusions to the MCU âCivil Warâ weïżœïżœre familiar withâŠit didnât happen like that. I mostly just wanted Ned and MJ and Peter around for a cute mention.)
Words: 2787
A/N: I badly needed fluff and this just sort of happened. Enjoy <3
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Bucky seemsâŠsad, lately.
You donât know how to explain it. He doesnât look any different than he normally does. He doesnât speak any different than he normally does. But there is an air around him that feels almost melancholic, and though most of your other friends treat him the same as always, you do catch Sam and Steve looking at him a few more times than normal, which confirms your suspicions. You just donât know what to do about it. Sam and Steve are both closer to him than you are. Surely they can fix whatever is wrong, and you should just butt out. âŠRight?
The first flower is a fluke.
You find it by the curb of the sidewalk. Dropped in a rush, a few of the roseâs petals have been pulled off by whatever event cast it aside in the first place, but it is still overall lush and gorgeous. You pick it upâ carefully, because curiously there are a couple of thornsâ and dust it off. You carry on to the park where youâre going to meet up with Bucky.
And there he is, looking almost lost as he casts his gaze out to some unknown point. Itâs pointless to followâ you get the feeling that, whatever heâs looking for, isnât even here. And to further cement your worry, he doesnât even notice you until youâre almost within armâs reach. He leans back to cover the small flinch, and he smiles at you, in a way that if you were only able to see his eyes you wouldnât even be able to tell. âYou made it,â he says gently.
His focus moves down to your hand and his expression takes on a tinge of curious wonder. Itâs not out of place or characterâ Bucky has a lot of little plants he tends to. Some herbs, a little vegetable seed heâs experimenting with, someââŠflowersâŠ
âWhatcha got there?â he asks and tilts his head to one side.
If it didnât have the thorns, youâd be tempted to put it behind his ear. It would look beautifulâ more beautiful. Because itâs him, and heâs the most beautiful person youâve ever known, inside and out. But you canât say that. You canât risk not having him around.
You lift the flower towards him and say, âItâs for you.â
His eyes light up, but he looks between you and the flower a few times. âHow come?â
âJust because,â you say firmly, and hold it higher. It feels right, and it feels even more right when he takes it and his face relaxes, showing some of the tired lines of the age that doesnât yet show, but thereâs a small genuine smile that bends the edges of his eyes, and makes your heart bloom into a flower all its own.
~
The next time you meet up, youâre more prepared. Buying a whole bouquet seemedâŠsilly? Too much? But you got what you could find and so most of the flowers are stashed at your apartment, looking pretty in a cup, and you have a select few in hand, tied with a little ribbon you had lying around. The price tag hurt so bad it almost feels insulting these flowers donât actually have any thorns, but, stupid expensive idea or not, you want to see how this goes.
Bucky is sitting on a ledge outside the museum, shaking his leg absently, but when he senses you nearby, he stops, sits taller, and turns. His eyes go immediately to the flowers and he smiles, but quashes it down almost immediately again.
âSeriously,â he says as you approach and hand them over. His eyes squint at you with some suspicion. âWhatâs the occasion?â
âFlowers are pretty,â you say without thinking. âAnd soft. And nice.â
âSo why give them to me?â he huffs, derision shading his words as he casts his gaze down again.
You put the flowers in front of him, insistent enough that he finally takes them. âBecause theyâre pretty, and soft, and nice, and you like them,â you say. And I like you, you think but do not say. And when he lifts them to his face, getting lost in a thought, the soft petals graze his skin, and briefly touch the corner of his lips, and itâs so beautiful you think this is all very, very worth whatever price tag comes with it.
~
But you do find a florist that sells flowers by the stem. You actually find more than one, because, after a few times of coming in, the comments they made wereâŠnot mean, no, certainly not, but pointed. And you just canât deal with that right now. Because Bucky is such a good friend, and he has enough to deal with without also worrying how youâd take his rejectionâ or, worse, that youâre just another person to want something from him. Heâs had so much stress, and pain, and it just doesnât do to imagine you contributing to more of that. Besidesâ flowers are, in fact, nice, and pretty, and soft, and fully capable of being utterly platonic.
Even if the way Bucky smiles every time he receives one (or two, or five,) makes your stomach do a flip.
âYou know, bringing a fella flowers when youâre out to dinner with him is gonna give people some ideas,â he says, a smirk playing at his mouth as he flips the menu over.
âNot when they see the person giving you the flowers,â you say, trying to match his teasing tone. But as you go for your menu, he catches your hand. You stop and look at him. He stares at you for a few moments that almost make you squirm, but then he lets go, his hand sliding slowly, (so wonderfully slowly), away from yours.
âThen theyâre idiots,â he says decisively, as if daring anyone to actually say that to his face. He even scowls a bit and looks around. Before you can apologize for your bad joke, he adds, âNo one talks to my bestie like that,â and goes back to his menu.
It surprises a laugh out of you, and heâs smiling again. âWe might need to cut down on your hangout time with Peter,â you say, and pick up your menu for real this time. You can still feel the ghost of his hand on yours, and you savor the memory of it. He doesnâtâŠtouch, like that. It was nice.
âMJ,â Bucky says. He glances at you a few times and pulls some of his hair behind his ear. âShe helped me cut my hair.â
âShe did a great job,â you say earnestly. Itâs not super short, still falling down enough he could ostensibly put it in a tiny ponytail, but it had been getting quite long, before. While it had looked nice, supplying one with many fantasies of running fingers through the full length, or braiding, orâ âŠwell, ultimately, you know the maintenance of it had annoyed him, and thatâs what really matters.
âI want it shorter, but this was as much as I could manage,â he admits. He brightens. âThose are good kids.â
He tells you about his day, and how the three-man âSpidey-crewâ somehow made an absolute wreck of one of Tonyâs training rooms despite only one of them actually being enhanced, and as much as youâre riveted by the story, you canât help but notice how Buckyâs right hand keeps drifting over to pet the flower petals throughout the night.
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âHey.â
You look upâ and squint at Steve. You donât know exactly what that look on his face is, but you know trouble when you see it. Not bad trouble, like someoneâs dying, but that Captain âThe Biggest Little Shit In The Worldâ America is going to make trouble. âHey,â you say cautiously. You look around. Youâre supposed to be meeting someone else today. âIs Bucky okay?â
âHeâs doing great,â Steve says, and there it isâ that grin that means you are going to regret whatever comes out of his mouth nextâ about zero point three seconds before he adds, âHe seems to be collecting enough flowers to be able to open his own shop though. Donât suppose you know anything about that?â
âMm, no,â you say, because Steve Rogers is not the only little shit in the area. God, at this point Bucky practically collects them.
âInteresting,â Steve says, with a little too muchâŠwell, interest.
You bristle. âWhat?â
âNothing,â Steve says, feigning innocence. âI just said itâs interesting.â
âAnd what would your boyfriend think about that?â you ask. You then try not to actually think about what Sam would have to say about it.
Of course, you donât get away that easy. âHeâs also wondering when youâre going to make an honest man out of Bucky,â Steve says, dropping the pretense.
You scowl. âHe already is an honest man.â
âYou think I donât know that?â Steve says, gently, butâŠitâs true. Heâs the one who took on the world for him. And won. âHey,â he says and sits next to you. âItâs fine, justâŠyou know Buckâs going to wonder about all this.â
You swallow. âHe wonât bring it up,â you say. You hope. âEven if he knâ⊠He wouldnât want to hurt my feelings.â Heâs so good. Heâs too good.
âHe might also not bring it up because heâs as afraid of rejection as you are.â Steve squeezes your shoulder, then stands. âBut from here on, itâs not up to meâ itâs up to the two of you.â You donât even get a chance to fully absorb all that before he adds, âThat said, you should be more concerned about what my girlfriend thinks about all this.â
You immediately feel your blood go cold.
~
The knife of Natasha hangs silently over your head. Silently, because she made sure to stop by just to stare at you a little too intensely and a little too long. At this point, youâre not sure whoâs actually more protective of Buckyâ Steve or Natasha. Youâre pretty sure the latter is the scarier of the two, though. Only pretty sure though, because Steve probably only backed off because he knew she was going to step in.
You sigh, and watch the rain fall outside your window. Maybe you never should haveâ but, no, you canât bring yourself to regret it. It made Bucky happy. It makes Bucky happy. Overprotective friends or not, itâs worth it.
âŠAnd if you do get dead and buried, youâve probably bought enough flowers for Bucky that he wonât even have to buy any arrangements.
Thereâs a knock at your door and you scramble up, but at the quiet, familiar, âItâs me,â you relax again. And then you scramble to go hit the light. Bucky canât see you yet so he doesnât know youâve been brooding in the dark, but it suddenly feels a lot sillier, all told. Then you answer the door, and heâs smiling, and oh boy, you really are in trouble, arenât you.
âI got something for you,â he says, and unzips his jacket, bringing outâŠ
âŠA small bundle of flowers.
You freeze. You should have expected thisâ Bucky is the kind of guy to get and then give in equal (or more) measure, but thereâs something about Bucky, with his nice new haircut, showing up at your door, giving you flowers, that makes your heart ache. But the longer you stand there, the more his smile starts to wilt, until he finally says your name in such an uncertain tone that you snap out of it.
âThank you. Theyâre beautiful,â you say, and take them to go get a tall cup or something to put them in.
He breathes a sigh of relief and starts pulling off his jacket and shoes. âThank God; I wasnât sure what kind of flowers you like, but I put those together and they just felt right, you know?â
You nod agreeably, even though you think if Bucky showed up with them half-rotted and smushed with most of their petals gone, youâd still have been equally choked up. âYou didnât have to do that,â you say gently and turn to face him, and oh, he is suddenly very, very close.
âI wanted to,â he says, and doesnât back down. His eyes flick from place to place, though, and he swallows. âJustâŠbecause. Thatâs good enough, right?â
âIt is,â you agree, because it is, and you stand by that. But the way Bucky is looking at you is searching, and you feel your chest clench. What is he looking for. Did Steve snitch. Natasha wouldnât (she loves leverage a little too much for anyoneâs full good) but if you have to kill Captain America for being a bitch you willâ
âWhat if it wasnât just because,â he blurts out. And thereâs no other way to describe it; the words fall right out of his mouth like they didnât even mean to. But you both freeze, and Bucky stands tall, and he doesnât take them back. He looks right at you and says, âWhat ifâŠwhat if they meant something?â
Itâs so quiet. Rain pats against glass in waves, but even it is softer now, and you swallow. âWhat wouldâŠthey mean?â
And, because there is no hiding the hope in your voice, Bucky relaxes, and once again becomes the kind of person who would look at an angry chihuahua of a man and think befriending him was a good idea. âWell,â he drawls, leaning into you more, but your lower back is against the counter and he rests his hands on it, on either side of you. âItâs not your birthdayâŠitâs not a holidayâŠâ
âAnd what kind of holiday would you get me flowers for?â you ask, deadpan, because heâ he wouldnât actually make fun of you for this. Heâs not that cruel. So this has to be going one place, and you think you know what it is.
Right?
âValentineâs Day?â he suggests. But his eyes are intense, and for a few moments neither of you say anything, but his mouth is right there, and yours opens just a bit in a Pavlovian response you absolutely should not have but that you desperately want a reason to develop.
âSeems like that might be kind of a statement,â you say softly. You swallow again. âIf you. Did that.â
âYeah?â he asks and leans in, somehow, impossibly closer. âMaybe I just wanted you to have something nice. And soft.â
His lips are almost touching yours, so close, so close. âMaybe Iâd like something else,â you say, more breath than words, and then there he is, there he is closing the distance at last and his lips are on yours and your lips are on his and his chest presses hard against yours and the counter is digging into your back. But his arms wrap around you, and no flower petal can hold a candle to his lips, you think deliriously, wrapping your arms so tight around him that if you had enhanced strength, you think youâd crush him. His lips are mostly soft, but you can feel the little ridges, a hint of a split that must have happened in training this morning, and his tongue and yours. When you finally separate, itâs slow, and while you both take a moment to breathe, you try to wrap your head aroundâŠall of this.
âMan,â you murmur. âIf I knew all it would take is some flowersâŠâ
Bucky lets out a hoarse laugh, and passes the tips of his fingers gently across your cheek. âWhat can I say?â He smiles, and it makes his eyes crinkle. âIâm a cheap date.â
You smile too, and say, âWeâll see about that.â
~
When you go to meet with Bucky for your first official date, you bring flowersâ and so does he. He hands you your little bindle, but you go about sticking your selection right in his coat breast pocketâ and find something familiar about the new broach he has. Itâs a little pin containing three rolled dried rose petals in resin, it looks like.
âIs thatâŠâ you ask, and he nods.
âI wanted to keep it,â he says, and adjusts the fresh flowers in his pocket. You didnât plan it like this, but they look so perfectly at home, and when he smiles at you it nearly makes your knees weak. âYou look amazing,â he says, gently, and holds out his hand. âShall we?â
In one hand you hold firm stems and soft petals. Your other hand, you slide into hisâ against skin calloused and creased and warm and, despite all of its supposed imperfections, better than any flower could ever hope to be. You grip tight, and say, âWe shall.â
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UNREQUITED CLUB ; choi seungcheol
summary itâs not good to resort to breaking hearts if youâre afraid to admit youâre still in love with someone else.
starring seungcheol x f! reader
genre angstïŒfluff (i might be lying)ïŒunrequited loveïŒmutual pining at some point (?)ïŒuni auïŒreader does fashion designing
contains reader is kinda toxicïŒsame thing with coups (theyâre just both not good ppl)ïŒbreakups and leading ppl onïŒbased on a true storyăăă sorry 97z
word count 6k ( thankyu sophi for proofreading ) | playlist bad religion by frank ocean, japanese denim by daniel caesar, secret door by arctic monkeys, all because i liked a boy by sabrina carpenter, fluorescent adolescent by arctic monkeys, green by 12bh, toxic till the end by rosé, first love by sondia
from rhinïŒthis was originally gonna be a smau oneshot but i need to clear my penaltiesđ (only 2k words leftđŁïž) anyways this fic is dedicated to my friend who doesnt have blr but her bias is scoups and she hates the dude cheol is based onđčđđ«°
You always thought you could do well with love. As a kid, you dreamed of marrying a prince after watching way too many princess movies. As you got olderâgoing into middle schoolâyour standards changed once you discovered a few dramas. A lot of them happened to have male lead CEOs, so you wanted a hot, rich man instead.
Eventually, those fantasies died down once you ended middle school. The boys youâve encountered made you lower your standards and began to think that all boys were full of shit. But you figured youâd find better when youâre an adult. Sure, youâve found at least some guys cute, but you knew way too much about them to never find yourself together with them.
It was only then that the first year of high school changed something in you. You knew a few older kids since you were family friends with them, and some of them had friends that would tag along. One of those friends happened to be Seungcheol. He was in tenth grade when you met himâjust a year older than you. Always smiling and always said kind words.
From there, youâve been crushing on him. You always thought he was different from all the other boys youâve liked before. But you figured it was more of a you problem. You remember how you couldnât even say a word to any guy you liked back then. However, talking to Seungcheol was a piece of cake. You two were close, and others always told you that they think he makes it obvious he likes you.
Back then, you wouldnât dare to tell him how you felt. He was way out of your league, and you recall that he mentioned not being interested in dating. Plus, you liked it when you thought of him as a friend more than a crush. But like they say, the more you suppress the feelings, the stronger it gets.Â
Your feelings towards him lasted until his final year of high school. He was graduating soon, so you figured it was time to confess to him. You were hoping for a rejection, but he ended up reciprocating the feelings. Or, so you thought. Just a week before his graduation, he admitted to you that when he said he liked you, he meant it as friends.
He didnât mean to hurt you, but all you could ever think of was how much he disappointed you. For a few days, you ghosted him, until the day before he graduated, he wanted to talk to you. Although he never liked you in that way, he still liked you as a friend. Neither of you wanted your friendship to be ruined all because of that.Â
You ended up attending his graduation, since you thought it would be mean not to show up to a friendâs important day. It was a bit sad though; you realized your final year of high school would feel a little bit empty. But you reassured yourself that youâd use that time to get over him, because he promised you that itâs okay if you still like him since getting over takes time.
So about doing well with love right now, youâre certain youâre ready for it. You hope youâre at least ready for it.
âI gave your number to Mingyu,â your friend brings up. You two were talking about the men in your biochemistry class, saying how they were either too old or too mid. There were only a few guys who werenât too bad, and your friend gave your number to one of them.
âMingyu? As in biochem Mingyu?â You quickly got up from lying down on her bed, looking dead into her eyes in case she was joking with you.
âYes, that Mingyu. Heâs been eyeing you for quite some time, so I told him I can get him with you.â
You wish you could tell her youâre not too sure about this. You have some mixed feelings; a part of you says to YOLO it, but another part is hesitating about it, and youâre not sure what is exactly stopping you. Mingyu is a nice guy, very nerdy, and tall. Lots of girls want him, but it turns out he wants you. Whatâs the worst that can happen?
A notification from an unknown number pops up on your phone. The message was from Mingyu, and he was asking you out to lunch some time. It took you a while to respond since you and your friend were getting giddy over it. But you ended up agreeing to have lunch with him.
The lunch date with him wasnât too bad. He was super sweet when you two were conversing. He always kept complimenting you, and it made your heart skip a beat. He did it often, and your pounding heart began to feel sort of different. You werenât feeling quite ecstatic, but you figured you were just nervous.
From there, youâve gone on several dates with him, and at this point, youâre just waiting for him to ask you to be his girlfriend. Thereâs no rush; heâs probably not ready, so you might as well wait for him. The more dates you go on with him, the more youâre hoping he doesnât ask you. But on one date, he ends up asking you to be his girlfriend, and without thinking before speaking, you immediately say yes.
You never told anyone except your friend about the two of you being together, and you never found yourself with him during biochemistry. You werenât too sure why you did that, but the relationship ended when you told him you couldnât give him the same amount of love he gave you. That was only because you found yourself staring at Seungcheol for only two seconds. Your relationship with Mingyu lasted for only two months.Â
When you told your friend about the breakup, she was surprised that you didnât cry about it. She kept pestering you to tell her why you broke up with him, only to get a vague response from you that you just felt bad. You werenât sure if it was the pang of guilt for staring at Seungcheol or the fact that you didnât actually like Mingyu, but you were sure it had to do something with Seungcheol.
âHah, Cheol just sent me another stupid brain-rotted reel,â you say out loud to your friend, scrolling through Instagram on your phone while she does the same.
âSeungcheol? I thought you said you guys donât text anymore." Your friendâs curiosity piqued right when you mentioned that name.
âNo, no. We donât text like that anymore, but we send reels here and there. He probably just does it to annoy me or infiltrate our DMs. The only time he ever texts me is when heâs waiting for me by the studio,â you tell her, not realising she never knew that you always meet up with him at the end of the day.
âHeâs the one giving you rides on Tuesdays? I thought that was Mingyu.â
âNope. Seungcheol takes the same route going to the dorms, so he offered to give me rides once a week.â
âIs that why you broke up with Mingyu?â Your friendâs question makes your eyes go wide. You close your phone and get up from resting on her headboard to look at her properly.
âIââ You donât want to continue your words; itâs most likely something you wouldnât want to hear, especially if itâs about Seungcheol. âIâm⊠starving. Letâs eat first and talk about that later,â you mutter, hoping she forgets about it later on.
You never ended up talking to her about that, and you hope she never brings it up.
Seungcheol places a cup of coffee on the table in front of you. You were resting your head on the table, but immediately lifted up when Seungcheol sat next to you. âYou look like you were dying today, so I got you some energy.â You thank him for the drink and start downing it like you were parched for days.
He picks up your notebook and starts analyzing the draft you drew. âWhatâs this for?â He asks, pointing at the lazy sketch of a jacket.
âItâs for my fashion properties assignment. We have to make an outfit out of fabric given to us. Mine is leather, so Iâve been brainstorming how to make this jacket look cute but comfy. I already drew the skirt for it.â
âI think you can easily come up with something. Your designs are cool and leather looks hard to work with, but youâre always dedicated,â Seungcheol assures you, hoping you donât crash out in front of him over this.
You scoff. âHah, what do you know about fashion?â Pointing out his every-day lazy black hoodie and grey sweat pants combination.Â
âOkay, not everyone wants to wake up early and choose what to pair their tops with their bottoms! Some just pull out whatever they have,â he rolls his eyes.
âYou would not survive fashion school,â you joke, making Seungcheol huff but grin. As much as he can be annoying and get annoyed by you, heâll never take a joke seriously.
If only he knew how much he makes your day by his annoyance.
Life was calm. You were so close to finishing the leather jacket, only having to attach the pockets, but you decided to take a break and finish it another day. You still had to work on the skirt, but you had plenty of timeâgrateful that this project is due in six months.
While waiting in the mall for your friends to come back from the washroom, you were sitting down and sketching out a new design in your journal.
You were thinking of making a top for your friend since her birthday was coming up soon. She would definitely like a sweatshirt. Your name gets called out, turning your head in that direction, and you see your friends walk out the washroom.
The three of you walk around, thinking of what stores to check out. Jiwon brings up going to the shoe store nearby, so the two of you follow her. You roam around the store, looking at the different kinds of shoes. Platforms, Mary Janes, sneakers, boots, all kinds that were in your size and style.
ââŠYo what the heck? I didnât know you work here.â You overhear Jiwon. She was talking to one of the workers, most likely a friend of hers. Heâs tall and kind of cute. His glasses sit on the top of his head, and you caught him glancing at you while talking to your friend.
You avert your eyes to the black loafers, picking it up as you examine them. Your other friend goes up to you and asks your opinion if she should get brown boots or black boots. After she tried both on, you told her to get the black pair since she already owns a brown one.
As you accompany your friend to the check-out, Jiwon goes up to you and says she needs to go buy some makeup after this. You looked at her friend, who was standing by the counter, catching him staring at you again. He quickly turns his head and walks away.
It only took a week later to meet Jiwonâs friend again at a cafĂ©. You were sitting alone by the window and still sketching out the top for your friend, so focused that you didnât notice someone was standing in front of you.
âCan I sit here?â He asks, making you look up. You nod and go back to sticking your head into your journal. He sits in the chair facing and starts a conversation. âYouâre one of Jiwonâs friends, right?â
You put your pencil down and look at him. âYeah, and you are?â
âDokyeom,â he introduces himself with a smile, sticking his hand out for a handshake.
You shake his hand. â(Name).â
You got to know a lot about him and talked about how the both of you met Jiwon. He was her classmate since high school, and you met her in your fashion design courses. You ended up exchanging numbers, and the moment you left to go back home, you spammed your friend with multiple messages.
As usual, you laid on her bed while you yapped to her about him. Itâs always been this way with every guy you both encounter since your high school days. You talked for a while, not even realising it was already midnightâat least itâs a weekend night.
You spoke to Dokyeom very often. Always texting during your lectures and even calling at night. Sometimes you would even call him while you were sewing. There was something familiar about him every time you talked, and it felt nice.
One time you were on call, he asked you about your ideal type. You never really had an ideal type, so you said common traits all your crushes had from the top of your head. âSomeone tall, kind, and a cute smile too. Iâd want them to be smart and productive as well.â
"So...me basically,â he jokes. You agreed without a thought and that conversation started your relationship with Dokyeom.
You really like him. He was kind and entertaining. He was always fun to your friends and was nice to everyone. He always took you out on dates and took you home. Unlike Mingyu, Dokyeom made sure that the world knew you were his.
He really loved you and wanted to show everyone that he did. And by every one, he meant every one. The news got to Seungcheol one day and it all just stopped. The daily brain-rotted reels he sends you ended up being three times a week.Â
He barely got a response from you to the reels, and you only reacted to the messages. He slowed them down and sent them to you once a week. The only time you responded to a reel he sent, he left your message on âseenâ, and then stopped sending you reels.
Itâs not that he hated you or anything. He just knew you had a boyfriend now, so he didnât want to go against your relationshipâs boundaries. He would still pick you up every Tuesday, but the car ride conversations were always about school now or sometimes silent. He never asked about Dokyeom, and you never brought him up.
Being distant with Seungcheol kind of hurt, but you knew you were just getting over him and Dokyeom was there to help you. Or so you thought. Somehow, there would be conversations you have with Dokyeom, and you would absentmindedly bring up Seungcheol.
The first time you did, he asked who he was, and he didnât sound jealous, just curious. You explained that he was just an old crush from high school and that he was basically a distant friend to you now.Â
He got more curious about him so you showed him his profile once. He looked through his account and started saying how you downgraded so much, pointing out Seungcheolâs physique.
You didnât want Dokyeom to be hurt, so you began assuring him that he was much better than Seungcheol. You admit that Seungcheol played you back in high school and that heâs not even all that. Ever since that, you would bring down Seungcheol.
You were convinced you disliked Seungcheol, but Dokyeom always thought otherwise. Even though you would talk badly about him, your boyfriend still listened to you talk about him.
âI think you still like him,â Dokyeom brings up while you were ranting about what Seungcheol did to you in your junior year of high school. You were taken aback and denied so quickly. âYou talk about him more than me,â he mutters. You apologized and assured him that you care about him more than Seungcheol.
âYou know itâs okay if you still like him,â he considered.Â
âNo!â You retorted. âThatâs just morally wrong! Why would I like another man while Iâm in a relationship?! I donât like him anymore, and I never will. I have you now, and you already make me happy.â
Dokyeom still wasnât convinced, but he didnât want to see you angry again, so he just nodded and patted your head.
Another time you brought up Seungcheol was when Dokyeom asked you who your first love was. When you admitted it was Seungcheol, he already knew since you always talked about him. When you asked him who his first love was, all he did was point at you, and that already made you regret saying your answer.
I never will. You said that in hopes you wonât ruin your relationship because of an old crush. Why do you always find yourself talking about Seungcheol anyway? He did you so wrong, and youâre sure he doesnât care about you. Why was he even your first love?!Â
A week later, you realized you were lying. After you told Seungcheol he doesnât need to drop you off at your dorm anymore since Dokyeom could take you there, you ended up deleting his contact on your phone and unfollowing his Instagram. But after one car ride with your boyfriend, you thought about Seungcheol and what he really means to you. Dokyeom was right.
You went to Jiwon for advice about it, and she figured he would want you to admit it to him since all he wants is for you to be happy. That night, you confessed to Dokyeom that you still had feelings for Seungcheol, but it was only 1%âsince 99% is for your boyfriend.
However, the more you saw Seungcheol, the feelings kept growing more. You never told Dokyeom, but you didnât want to keep hurting him. On one random Monday afternoon, you met up with him at the same cafĂ© you first met him and broke up with him on the spot. You never wanted to admit it was about Seungcheol, so all you told him was that you were just the problem in the relationshipâwhich was true.
Your relationship with Dokyeom only lasted for six months, but for some reason, you felt relieved and free. It only took you a few days to realize that Dokyeom reminded you of Seungcheol, and you used him to fill that empty void since senior year. But no matter how loving Dokyeom was to you, you secretly hoped it was Seungcheol instead.
Guilt held onto you and convinced you that you were a bad person at this point. You knew you were going to die alone, but honestly, youâd rather have that than break someoneâs heart again. Not only were you singleâwhich you could care less aboutâyou were still distant with Seungcheol.Â
You tried not to care, but every time you saw him on campus, it always hurt to think about how distant you two are. It got to a point where you walked past him and neither of you said hi. You figured he hated you until you once had a dream about him when you got a fever.
You were at a party, and all of a sudden Seungcheolâs friends made fun of you. You blamed it on him and left the party. The scene changed, and you were walking with your friend to your next lecture. As you walked down the halls, you noticed your motherâs friend was with someone, so you greeted her, not bothered by the fact that your âauntâ was at your university. That someone she was with ended up being Seungcheol. When he smiled and waved at you, you frowned and ignored him as you walked away.Â
You instantly jolted awake, sweating real bad as the headache you had earlier stopped. You looked at the time, 4:27. Itâs Tuesday, and around this time, you would wait for Seungcheol to pick you up. You thought a lot about the dream and how you were so mean to him in that dream.
âI donât want to hate him anymore,â you think to yourself. You open your phone to Instagram, look up his username, and immediately hit follow. Then you go to your contacts and type his number to remake his contact in your phoneâstill remembering his number and putting it in your phone like the first time you two exchanged numbers.Â
Right when he followed you back three minutes later, you sent him a message about how you donât like the two of you becoming distant and wanting to start over as friends. He agrees, and you ask to see him over lunch.
The next day you met up with him for lunch, and he was still the same annoying Seungcheol: always watching brain-rotted reels while you two talk and always teasing you. It feels nice to have this back, and youâre glad the two of you are not going to be distant anymore. Well, you thought you two were on bad terms, but everyone, including him, never thought that. It shouldâve hit you that he could never hate anyone, so what would make him hate you?
After that, you went to the design studio thinking about Seungcheol. You really do like being friends with him, and youâre sure you donât like him romantically. You soon realized that you didnât need to bring him down in order to get over him. Today made you realise why heâs your first love.Â
You finally finished the leather jacket and the skirt. You never realized how you never got to finish the outfit while you were with Dokyeom, but only being able to finish it when you were alone. The good part of being a single fashion designer is that you have a lot of time for yourself to design anything.
The bad part, though, is that people like you always make apparel for others but yourself. It took you a while to notice that the leather jacket was too oversized for the skirt. Itâs a menâs jacket, and the measurements were for Seungcheol.
After handing in your design, you finally took some time to design something for yourself. Maybe some jeans or a cute sweater. Since Valentine's Day was coming up and you and your friends were invited to a party that day, you had an excuse to make a whole outfit for yourself.
You took several days brainstorming and sketching out what to wear, but you finally settled on something simple. Maybe you were too focused on creating your outfit that you didnât realise Valentineâs Day was about love, and all of sudden all your friends had a date to the party.
âI canât believe weâre the only ones without a date!â Your friend complains. âEven Jiwon is going with that red head guy!â
âHey, we have each other. You should wear that top I made for you for your birthday.â
âI definitely will.â
The both of you lie down on her bed, except this time youâre not talking about guys. Itâs not bad to not have a date, but youâll be disgusted if you see your friends all over their dates.
âHey, itâs kind of ironic how all our friendsâ dates are all friends too. And they have three guys who still donât have a date.â
âYeah, no. Saerom tried setting me up with Junhui because she thought weâd be perfect for each other, but he keeps sending me cat photos. And didnât he like everyone?â
âYikes. I forgot his friend group is odd.â Right when you brought that up, you get a text from Minghao, Junâs cousin. He asks you if you already have a date to the party, and you reply with a no. The only person from that friend group you can tolerate is Minghao. Heâs pretty much normal, but heâs just a friend.
Minghao then asks you if you want to go with him to the party. âOh, wow, Minghao is asking me out,â you say to your friend. âWhat should I say?â
âYes! Are you crazy (Name)?â
âWhat about you, though?â
âIâll be fine. I have Hayoung since she doesnât want to go with anyone.â
âIâm pretty sure sheâs not going to show up.â
âStill. Just go with him!â
You sigh and send him a thumbs up. A part of you only wants to do this for the fun of it, but another part of you doesnât want to since you like being alone.
The day of the party rolls by, and you just finished up the dress you were making for it. All your friends agreed you were all going there together. You quickly made a few adjustments to your dress in the car, putting the pack of pins in your handbag. If thereâs one thing you canât go out in public without, itâs a sewing kit.
You arrive at the house where it was being held, and you see several people entering. When you all entered the house, your friends easily found their dates and you met up with Minghao.
You honestly just wanted to stay with your friend, so you stuck with her as Minghao followed behind with his friend. No matter how many times you wanted to be with your friend, your other friends and his friends always pushed you into Minghaoâs arms and took pictures.
You felt that same pang of guilt when you were with Mingyu and Dokyeom. You know that feeling a bit too well, and all you want to do is leave the party with your friend. You eventually gave up and just stuck with Minghao for a while.
As you left him to go get a drink, you bumped into Seungcheol, who you thought doesnât go to parties like these. "Hey, I thought your mom banned you from going to parties." He mentioned as you two walked to the kitchen.
âI thought you donât go to parties? And my mom doesn't care anymore.â
âMy friends convinced me to go here.â He picks up his phone, and his screen reveals âMingyuâ as the person calling him, making your heart drop. He answers the call, hanging up seconds later. âWhich, speaking of, are looking for me. Iâll see you around (Name)!â He walks the other way, and you leave the kitchen without a drink in your hand, only leaving with a pounding heart.Â
You went back to Minghao and told him you were going to go home with your friend, and you left him without giving him a chance to say goodbye. Honestly, you hope Seungcheol didnât see you with him and hope that none of your friends upload those photos.Â
You looked for your friend and left the house together. Instead of going back to the dorms, you two just walked to the nearest convenience store to just hang out and calm down.
âSo you donât like Minghao?â Your friend asks as you look through the candies in the candy aisle of the store.
âI like him as a friend, just not in that way.â You confirmed, picking up a pack of gummy bears and following your friend to the drink aisle.
âI heard Saeromâs man was the one encouraging Minghao to ask you,â she points out.
âJunhui got pissed at me because I took his last person he was going to be with, like I kept telling him he can have his cousin!â
âWhat made you want to leave, by the way?â
You stayed silent as you watched her think of what beverage to buy. She looks back, waiting for an answer. âI think itâs because of me.â
She picks out an orange soda, and you two make your way to the cashier. âWhat do you mean?â She asks, in the middle of paying.
âI think I just like being single.â You two leave the store and sit down at a table right outside, placing your stuff on the table.
âAnd thatâs okay. Itâs not bad being single,â she assures, putting down the drink and holding your hand with one hand.
âI know itâs not. I just donât do well with love; I keep hurting guys.â
âI can tell. I was there when Mingyu asked for your number, when Dokyeom said he was your ideal type, and when Minghao asked you out.â
You sigh and chuckle after. âWow. I canât believe Iâm such a manipulator. I just led on three guys.â
â(Name) as much as I love you, thatâs not something to be proud of.â You nod in response, repeatedly muttering a bunch of âI knowâ to her. âYou always keep saying itâs about you and your emotions. But have you ever considered itâs about Seungcheol?â
This is what your friend has wanted to discuss since your days with Mingyu. You knew your breakups were because of Seungcheol, but you never realized it wasnât him, it was about him. That feeling in your heart you had earlier when you saw your exâs name on his phone brings you back to freshman year.
You like Seungcheol.
âI think I still like Seungcheol,â you admit to your friend.
âAll because you saw him earlier? Cause I saw you two talking in the kitchen,â she brings up about that little interaction that made you aware of your feelings.
âNo. I think I always liked him, but I was in denial about it. Just think about it. I caught myself staring at Seungcheol while I was with Mingyu. Dokyeom told me I talk about him a lot. And well, Minghao never reminded me of him.â
âI figured. Whenever I asked you if you were going to be with your man, you were a bit soulless. No offence, but you were never excited when you talked about them. Now that I think about you, when you were with them, you never talked about them at all to us.â
You lowered your head, mentally slapping yourself for doing that. âIt was so different from Seungcheol though. Every time you looked at Seungcheol and talked to him, it wasnât the same with the others. I saw stars in your eyes. You didnât like him; you were in love with him.â
Your friend is still holding onto your hand, ignoring the fact that youâre in the middle of having a heart to heart in front of a convenience store.Â
â(Name), I think all you needed was to be honest with yourself. Itâs okay to love Seungcheol. No matter how many hearts you break, youâre not a bad person. It just shows how caring you are. You can still be friends with him even if all our friends hate him. Even though I think what he did to you back in junior year was so messed up, you were so strong to go through that heartbreak. You are amazing and loving, and I want you to tell that to yourself every day.â
With your free hand, you cover your eyes with it. Your friend gave you tissue paper from her bag, as she was quick to notice that you were tearing up. She moves herself closer and brings you into her arms.
âChoi Seungcheol is one lucky man to have you love him.â
You got your leather jacket and skirt back, getting a 98% on it. As long as you got over the nineties for it, youâre happy. You only lost a few points for making it a menâs jacket instead of a womenâs jacket.Â
Since you got the jacket back, it would make sense to give it to Seungcheol since itâs clearly his size only. Your friendship with Seungcheol has been calm ever since that heart-to-heart with your friend. He still picks you up from the studio, but instead of taking you to your dorms, you two go on little side quests for fun.Â
The weather has been getting warmer, so you two would go wherever to hang around outside. He picked up a hobby of taking photos due to a friend of his gifting him a camera. So every time he would drop you off at the dormitory, he would take a picture of you in front of the building.
âOpen your sweater so you can show off the new shirt you made,â he requests, looking at you through the lens as he watches you zip down your sweater. You made an unserious shirt, printing a picture of a sock monkey on it.Â
After hearing camera clicks, he puts the camera down. âCute outfit,â he points out.
âAnd we need to work on your closet!â You tease.
He rolls his eyes and tells you good night, driving off when you tell him to rest well tonight. Right when you turn around, you face Jeonghan, who happens to be one of Seungcheolâs friends and lives on the floor above you.
âWow, and Jisun said there was going on between you two,â he remarks. If there was anyone nosy about you two, it would be Jeonghan. According to Jisun, several guysâincluding Jeonghanâwould ask about you and Seungcheol, some of whom she didnât even know by name.Â
"Yeah, cause weâre friends,â you confirm, heading to the elevator as Jeonghan follows you in.
âI asked Seungcheol if he still likes you, and he said he likes you as a friend only.â
Even though youâre quite annoyed by him, you still manage to respond to that. âWell, he never had feelings for me, so heâs valid for that. Plus, I like it that way.â
âSo you canât be delusional anymore,â he jeers as the elevator comes to a stop on your floor. You step out of the elevator, hoping Jeonghan just minds his own business and stays in there.
âI like being his friend anyway, Yoon Jeonghan,â you mimic his tone as you watch the doors close in front of him.
Youâre not wrong with your words, though. You love being friends with Seungcheol.
Seungcheol and you are on your usual side quests after he picks you up from the studio. This time there were bands performing at a nearby park, so you went there to chill. You brought the jacket, but held onto it considering heâs going to assume itâs yours.
As you picked a spot to sit down, there was already music and the sky was getting dark soonâbefore that, you two went to feast yourselves with cheap ramen and an unhealthy amount of soda.Â
You hand him the jacket without saying anything; he takes it with a puzzled expression displayed. âItâs the leather jacket I was designing a few months ago. I accidentally made it your size,â you speak up, smiling as you watch his perplexed expression turn into an ecstatic smile.
âAccidentally? Or did you intentionally make it for me?â He jokes as he puts it on, making you push his shoulder.
âThis is going to be the last time Iâll ever make you something.â You snootily look away. He laughs and apologizesâalways apologizing after he makes fun of you.
You two stayed silent as you swayed to the music. Itâs calm and sweet. You could stay in this moment forever, nothing and no one to bother you. Right now could be a good time for Seungcheol to make another stupid joke, but he seems to be enjoying the music too.
This is what you need. Nothing romantic with him, but close to him. The sky was dark, and you pointed out the fairy lights hanging around the trees. Seungcheol lies down his head on the grass, now staring at the sky, as you follow along.
âSky is too cloudy to see stars,â he mentions. You avert your eyes from the sky to him, turning your head to comfortably gaze at him. He was still looking up. You donât expect him to look back; he never does. But you enjoy this, just intaking his unforgettable face.
âThank you, (Name),â he mutters, âfor coming here with me.â
You donât respond right away, still listening to the music. âOf course, but Iâm sorry,â you let out, now turning your head to gaze up at the sky again.
âSorry for what?â He asks, your no-context apology makes him look at you now, watching you stare at the non-existing starsâjust like his love for you.
âStill being in love with you.â
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Headcanon: Dick Grayson, Mother Hen Extraordinaire (But in Denial)
Look, Dick wants to act like heâs the cool, independent, ex-circus-kid-turned-badass-vigilante. The âbig bro who lets you get away with things and gives questionable adviceâ type. But the second anyone in the Manor so much as sneezes, trips, or looks a little sad, heâs on them like Alfred on a wrinkled shirt.
Tim forgets to eat? Dick is physically dragging him to the kitchen while pretending itâs just âbro bonding.â
Jason looks the slightest bit tired? Boom, a coffee (exactly how he likes it) magically appears in front of him.
Damian gets hurt? Suddenly, Dick is calling him âDamiâ and inspecting every single inch of him for injuries like a worried mother.
Bruce broods too hard? âDadâ I mean, Bruce, get some sleep. You're literally Batman but you need rest like the rest of us mortals.â
Even Alfred isn't immune. "Alfie, have you eaten? No, don't lie to me, I will get Babs involved."
He thinks heâs subtle about it, but everyone sees right through him. Even Damian, who will never admit he appreciates it. Jason gives him endless grief about it, but still shows up to his apartment when he's sick, knowing Dick will fuss over him. Tim actively abuses the system by mentioning he "might" be catching a cold just to get free soup.
Dick, sighing as he tucks a blanket around a passed-out Tim: âIâm not a mom, okay? I just care about you idiots.â Jason, sipping his perfectly made coffee: âYeah, sure, Mom.â Damian, wrapped in a blanket he totally did not ask for: âHn.â Bruce, pretending to ignore the mug of tea Dick left on his desk: ââŠThank you.â
Mother Hen? Absolutely. Will he admit it? Never.
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Thanks for the tag x3 Sorry it took me so long to get to it haha. I'll highlight characters in red if I had a lot to say about multiples in one answer.
Favorite girl: I think I'd say Jinx because I love her character. All her scenes in S1 are compelling and tense, and I found her to be thoroughly tragic by the end. She's the thread that holds everything else together and it's beautiful. Also Ambessa and Sevika are both super hot and I always look forward to seeing them.
Favorite boy: I like boys. O_O My favorites are Silco, Singed, and Viktor. Silco is one of my favorite villain characters, very layered and complex, and I was genuinely intrigued and excited as I learned more of his story in S1. I'm also totally guilty of mega-simping for him in S2 despite how my opinions of the story would later sour. Singed honestly just has a fantastic voice and animation that hits me the same way Rango's animation does, where "ugly" characters are treated with such care that they're a treat to watch anyway. He's so stimulating aaaa. Finally, Viktor's arc in S1 is one of my favorites, handled patiently and expertly, and his arc in S2 has quite a few problems, but I still... really enjoy seeing him, and seeing him with Jayce, so I don't tend to be bothered by how S2 handled Viktor.
Least favorite character: You know what? I was so close to posting this with "S2 Caitlyn" because she's a nasty person who never gets to have a proper arc in any direction, but I think a more fitting answer would be S2 Vi. Caitlyn being an awful person in some scenes was still interesting and believable, if a bit rushed, and I would have been fine with her character going that path had it been executed a bit better. Vi, though, is just... turned into a sad lapdog who doesn't act on her own at any point and is just depressing to watch, even in her "happy" moments. God damn, they destroyed her this season. ><
Favorite ships: Zaundads, Sinco, JayVik, and Jilco. If I elaborated on each, I'd feel like I spent way too much time on this, but they each have dynamics I enjoy for different reasons.
Least favorite ship: S2 Caitvi. They were cute in S1, but S2 made Caitlyn an abusive war criminal and then pretended that didn't need to be properly addressed before Vi just gave herself to her. Blegh.
Favorite side character: Lately, it's Salo because I like em pathetic ahaha~ I've always loved Mylo too, adorable little Junkrat kid. x3c
Favorite songs: Oooooh this is a hard one. x3 Goodbye and What Could Have Been will always hit me so hard and remind me how watching Arcane for the first time felt, and for that, they're extra special. I think Playground still gives me those vibes too. I also adore Guns For Hire, and Dirty Little Animals goes so hard. S2 introduced quite a few songs I love too. Ashes and Blood, Renegade, and Spin the Wheel are favorites. Favorite score songs are: The Bridge, The City of Progress, You're Stronger Than You Think, You Can't Escape the Past, A Story of Opposites, Stubborn to the End, I Can Help Them, The Era of Hextech, Revenge, You're a Jinx, A Bicentennial, The Assailant, Romance, Traitor, She's Back, The Toy Boat, I'm Right Here, Showdown, First Steps, You're Perfect, and I'm far less familiar with S2's score, but I can't stop listening to I Promised You. <3
Favorite episode: S1 episode 3. There are tons of scenes I love throughout the story, but this episode marked one of the greatest experiences I've ever had watching a show.
Least favorite episode: So like... I'm not entirely sure which entire episode is my least favorite, so it might be easier to list "chunks", like all the Mel/Black Rose stuff is a boring waste of time to me, and all the final battle stuff is like... uuuuugh. But I didn't just wanna say s2 episode 9 because I do still like the Jayce and Viktor stuff even if, critically, I don't think most of it makes sense x'D. Those two are legit just a guilty pleasure this season and I'm okay with that.
Favorite duo: Oooooh, mmmm..... I think Jayce and Viktor fit the term "duo" best out of my favorites. My other fave is Jinx and Silco, even though they basically never work together, but their interactions are priceless. <3
Favorite design: Aaaaa so many good ones, ummm... honestly? Powder is one of my favorite characters to watch and her design is adorable and complex (a lot of characters are complex in design, but ye). I really love the mismatched look of a lot of Zaun outfits. Also past Silco is um, I'm locking him in my basement. >u>
Least favorite design: Hm... so... I don't think I've looked at any design and hated it, just felt like a few of them were kinda... not as appealing to me as previous versions. So, I prefer Ambessa's pre-S2A3 designs, and I think it's because she looks too slender in her final look compared to previous ones making her look so big and imposing. I think Jinx's newest design is... overrated and kind of messy to look at. I know she's a messy character, so that would fit, but I dunno, there's something missing or... something. It's also hard not to let my feelings on the story taint my feelings for some of the designs, like Vi and Caitlyn's, which look pretty damn cool actually, but I just always picture that final cuddly scene with them and it makes me feel icky.
Favorite scene: The Guns For Hire sequence âš
Least favorite scene: The Silco, Vander, and Felicia flashback because it ruins the motivations of Silco and Vander, not just to adopt their kids, but to free Zaun from Piltover's oppressive hold. Felicia is pretty and even has some fun sassiness to her personality, but I want her far away from my boys.
I don't like this ending on a negative, so Imma add one more question myself:
Favorite visual moment: Of course, I can hardly pick less than a dozen, but I'll just list a couple off the top of my head, not counting previously mentioned stuff of course. I love the scene of the mage saving young Jayce and his mother. It's so gorgeous and fluid and the music adds so much too. Gahhhh- I also super love that shot of Silco leaning back while smoking right after he talks to Marcus.
I'm always bad at tagging, so just like, do it if you feel like! 8D
On tiktok there was this arcane trend that was just about stating some basic arcane opinions of yours and I thought it would be fun to do something similar here! You can tag others and make it a tagging game or you can just answer the questions do what you want :)
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#arcane#arcane season 2#reblog tag#some criticism but I'm not here to be purely negative so I think I balanced likes and dislikes well enough#especially since that's the point of the form with the faves and least faves
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MY FAVORITE MODEL
Hyun-ju x gn!reader
Notes : I was playing around with that "relationships headcanons" website and had a prompt about one person loving to take pictures and the other one hating to be on camera, decided to write a little story for my lovely Hyun-ju (also I feel like we're getting less stories about her nowadays, I needed to react!) My requests are open for Hyun-ju and several other characters, just check my pin to see :)) Keep in mind English is not my first language so my apologies for any mistake <3
CW : low self confidence, fluff, comfort (let me know if I missed anything)
Summary : You love taking pictures of your lovely girlfriend Hyun-ju, she doesn't seem to appreciate it as much.
Words count : 505



It's a sunny afternoon. The kind of afternoon that makes you want to spend the whole day outside, surrounded by nature. And that's what you decide to do today. Hyun-ju loves these moments between the two of you, she can forget about the heaviness of life for a moment and just enjoy the warmth of the sun with her lovely partner.
In these moments, you love having your camera with you to take some photos. You love capturing the beauty of things all around you. You take photos of flowers, the sky, everything around you.
Your favorite subject is your girlfriend, Hyun-ju. Since the day you met her, you've been blown away by her beauty. Everything about her is so perfect. The way her hair perfectly falls on her shoulders, her little smile whenever you compliment her, her soft looking hands with her black painted nails, the way she dresses, the way her pupils dilate whenever she lays her eyes on you... Everything.
Unfortunately, Hyun-ju doesn't see herself that way. She has a tendency of dismissing her own beauty. No matter the amount of time you're telling her she's the most divine woman you've ever met, she won't believe it. Not that she thinks you'd lie to her, but she just won't allow herself to feel like that.
You absolutely love taking photos of her, but she doesn't like it as much. She will let you take 1 or 2 photos here and there because she knows how happy it makes you, but soon enough she'll hide her face with her hands, will gently ask you to stop or just turn away.
This makes you so sad, such an unconfident beauty. Sometimes you wish she could see herself the way you see her.
As you take another photo of your lovely girlfriend, she reacts.
â How about you put that camera down for a few seconds? She says that with a light chuckle because she doesn't want to offend you, but you know her too well and can sense she's starting to feel bad again.
â But why?
â Come on... We've talked about it already... She sounds so sad, you can't let her in this state of mind.
â Hey, Hyun-ju, look at me. You grab her hands in yours, caressing them softly. You look gorgeous, this dress compliments your body so well. I know you don't see yourself the way I see you, that truly saddens me. But you also have to know that no matter what happens, you'll always be the most divine goddess I ever laid my eyes on. If you don't want me to take more pictures today, I won't. But I'll keep on staring at the most gorgeous woman this world has known, because that's who you are and I love you.
You can see her blushing a little, she always does when you give her compliments, especially when she's not feeling herself.
â I love you. The way her whole face seems to relax while saying this... You truly are her safe place.

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Random thought that I havenât shared because itâs technically a spoiler for the fic Iâve been working on but itâs also been driving me crazy me for weeks so Iâm airing it out. I donât think enough people utilize akechi and harus parallels. But I also think that comes as a consequence of not thinking too hard about akechiâs relationship with shido. Like. One of the saddest things about akechi to me personally is that there *is* still a part of him, a very small one, that cares for shido in some way. So small I donât even think he notices that itâs there until his own cognition throws it in his face
So with that in mind, picture this: You are Goro Akechi. You, obviously, hate your father with everything in you. Now picture that through the grapevine, you hear about Kunikazu Okumuraâs shady dealings, the way he treats his workers, and the fact that he arranged a business marriage for his daughter in this day and age. Remind you of someone? Then, youâre ordered to kill him. Guilt has never stopped you from doing your job, nor do you think youâd even feel guilty about this one. You do, however, feel bad about orphaning the girl. You probably see her in person a few times while youâre gathering information on him. She looks so sad. Remind you of someone? Now, you think, âwell if this is how her life is, she probably wonât grieve him all that muchâ because you donât think youâd mourn your father if he suddenly dropped dead on live TV. In fact, you know you wouldnât. In fact, youâd probably thank whoever did it if it didnât interfere with your super secret revenge plot. Then, you kill him. And, genuine shocker, sheâs heartbroken. Well? Now what?
I think her grief would disgust him a little bit on top of flat out confusing him at first. I donât think it even crossed his mind that she would feel that way about it. He mightâve even seen it as doing her a favor. And then after the engine room when he realizes that the aforementioned small part of him exists, and that if shido was the one who died heâd probably mourn a little too (not nearly as much as she did, but I probably donât need to clarify that), heâd probably be even more disgusted. You could even argue that talking to her would unnerve him more than it would unnerve her if you really wanted to. Because theyâre similar in the worst way they could possibly be in his eyes. Because thereâs a part of both of them that cares for their fathers despite everything. Donât you hate that
#persona 5#persona 5 royal#goro akechi#haru okumura#p5 meta#scratching ghe walls of my enclosure#WHY DID THEY NOT CONVERSE. Atlus hates me specifically#text
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Fodlan's favorite Girl Scout Cookies!
Main characters:
Byleth: Thin Mints. They've always had an inclination towards minty flavors, and Thin Mints hit the spot just right. Rumor has it the Goddess also favored mint. I wonder if that has anything to do with anything...
Shez: S'mores. Nothing like a cookie version of their favorite snack to get them thinking about the good old days with Captain Berling's Mercenaries. They'll be discontinued soon, but maybe one day they'll come back again in another form. I mean, hey, it happened once. You can't really keep S'mores down.
Black Eagles:
Edelgard: Adventurefuls. Chocolatey, nice caramel flavor, not too sweet, and the sea salt isn't overpowering. Just how she likes it.
Hubert: Thin Mints. Edelgard insisted he try Girl Scout Cookies one time and he was a tad surprised to find he liked them. Granted, he won't go out of his way to procure some (unless Edelgard asks him to), but he won't turn them down if offered.
Dorothea: Samoas. She really has a taste for coconut, and paired with the caramel glaze and chocolate drizzle, she just melts the second she bites into one.
Ferdinand: Toffee-tastic. I dunno, this sounds like a very noble variety he'd eat, but I think he'd also enjoy the flavor. Really, you can't go wrong with toffee for him.
Bernadetta: Tagalongs. They're her favorite comfort snack. Also chocolate + peanut butter = yum. Need I say more?
Caspar: Trefoils. He doesn't care much for Girl Scout Cookies, but he can and will devour an entire box of Trefoils in one sitting if you let him.
Petra: Doesn't eat them. She already had trouble understanding what Girl Scout Cookies were, but as soon as she bit into one of Caspar's Trefoils, her immediate reaction was, "Let us not be doing this again."
Linhardt: Savannah Smiles. He is forever miffed that they got discontinued. Lemon-Ups are no substitute.
Monica: Adventurefuls. No, it's not because they're also Edelgard's favorite, she has no idea what you're talking about!
Blue Lions:
Dimitri: Thin Mints. He may not be able to taste them, but he can feel the mint as he eats the cookies and finds it a pleasant sensation.
Dedue: Caramel Chocolate Chip. He's not keen on Girl Scout Cookies, but he figured he'd give one flavor a try. That was the one he picked and he liked it.
Felix: Thin Mints. It's the only variety he can tolerate.
Mercedes: Trefoils. This is actually pretty basic even by her own standards, but as the cookies are simple shortbread cookies, she likes to crush them up and add them to her baking recipes for texture and a little crunch. She's also looking into recreating discontinued varieties to give to her schoolmates.
Ashe: Do-si-dos. You know how some people will take Oreos, twist them apart to get the filling all on one side of the cookie, then put the two filling adorned pieces together to get double the filling? Ashe does the same thing with these. It's adorable to watch.
Annette: Toast-Yays. She likes all the varieties, but this is the one she'd have to pick as her favorite. She's sad that they're going to be discontinued soon, but she's volunteered to be Mercedes' taste tester.
Sylvain: Thanks-A-Lot. Felix tossed a box of them at him once and told him to do something with them, so he ate them and liked them. It was after they were discontinued that he realized Felix probably bought them for him as a means of showing his appreciation, but Sylvain has no evidence for this. Even if it's true, good luck getting Felix to admit that.
Ingrid: Toffee-tastic. Having a gluten allergy is hell on her, but Ferdinand shared a box with her after finding this out and she was so over the moon she almost forgot to ask what they were called so she could buy some for herself.
Rodrigue: No. Just don't.
Golden Deer:
Claude: Lemonades. Honestly, he'd go for anything lemon-flavored, these are just the ones that are being sold. He likes lemon.
Lorenz: Toffee-tastic. Ferdinand introduced them to him at the beginning of the school year. Now whenever the pair meet for tea, there's always a box of these present.
Hilda: Lemon Chalet Cremes. Another lover of lemon, she ate these all the time as a kid. Her talking about them is what gave Mercedes the idea of recreating the discontinued cookies.
Raphael: Rah-Rah Raisins. Even though they weren't available long, he couldn't deny that these were just the bomb. He misses these and wishes they would be sold again.
Lysithea: ALL OF THEM! Seriously, don't make her pick one, she will blue-screen on you.
Ignatz: Caramel DeLites-- er, Samoas. They're the same cookies, he's just used to getting boxes from a different bakery that calls them different names. "Why can't they just standardize the names?" is a constant thought in his head.
Marianne: Do-si-dos. Sure, it's just oatmeal cookies with peanut butter filling, but with how often Hilda would bust out a box of these whenever she got down, Marianne ended up associating the cookies with happy memories and longs talks about nothing with her best friend.
Leonie: Thin Mints. She'll say that she thinks Girl Scout Cookies are mid and doesn't get the hype, but break out a box of Thin Mints and Leonie will channel her inner Lysithea.
Holst: Lemon-Ups. He's also not much of a Girl Scout Cookie guy, but he'll occasionally pick up a box when he's in the mood. He's also known to steal a cookie or two from Hilda's boxes.
Judith: Van'chos. To say it's been years since she's had her favorite cookies would be an understatement. She misses them so much.
Ashen Wolves:
Yuri: Savannah Smiles. His mom would buy him a box every year and he fell in love with them at first bite. He misses the way the powdered sugar would shake off the cookie.
Balthus: Not a sweets guy, but he's the perfect guard for the other Wolves' cookies.
Hapi: Apple Cinnamons. Like Annette, she likes them all, but those would have to be her favorite if she had to pick only one. These days, she only eats knockoff versions since they've been discontinued since she was little.
Constance: Caramel Chocolate Chip. If you had asked her a few years ago, she would've said Tagalongs, but once these got introduced, it was so over. There's a new favorite in town.
Church/Knights of Seiros:
Rhea: Iced Berry Pinatas. These were a beloved treat for her over the years (and she's got plenty of those!). The icing and the berry filling together were perfection. She's encouraging Mercedes' recreation efforts.
Seteth: Another non-eater. He used to eat them a lot when he was younger, but he got burnt out on them. He'll still happily buy boxes for Flayn.
Flayn: Adventurefuls. She can taste the sea salt more acutely than others, but it makes her love the cookies that much more.
Cyril: Trefoils. Honestly, he just wants something plain and simple to snack on. What could be more plain and simple than basic shortbread cookies?
Jeralt: No thanks.
Catherine: Samoas. Taste doesn't matter to her, it's more of a texture thing. It helps that they have something of a crunch to them.
Alois: S'mores. The old school, big graham cracker ones, not the current ones. He used to do all sorts of snack variations with them for his kid and it was just the sweetest thing ever to see.
Gilbert: He would tell anyone who asked that he likes the cookies, enjoys them even, but in reality, he doesn't eat them. He instead sends them off to Annette. He knows she'll appreciate them.
Shamir: Scot-Teas. You were expecting Thin Mints, weren't you? It turns out she's not a fan of the chocolate/mint mixture, it grosses her out. Trefoils would've been her favorite, but the addition of sprinkled sugar on top made Scot-Teas perfect for her.
Go support your local Girl Scout troop!
what.
#is this an American thing im too European to understand?#fe#fire emblem#fire emblem three houses#fe16#fe3h
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@zepskies
Wow this was such a surprise! I had no idea you were reading this today LMAO đźđ
God YES. This is the same idea I've explored in my sequel fics to ESC. It's the idea of wanting more time with a man who by necessity of his job, has to pop in and out of your life. As endearing as Russell is, that would be such a difficult obstacle to overcome in a new relationship.
Exactly! I think that it would be frustrating and a little bit sad to be in a long distance relationship especially with Russell, because he has a dangerous job and there are parts of it that he'd probably want to keep from you. I don't want to think that you couldn't rely on Russell, but I think there would be a little bit of disappointment when he couldn't make it back to you because there were complications or him having to leave suddenly for an emergency. It's funny because it kinda reminds me of how it would be to date Dean if you weren't a hunter and he was. I still need to read Every Second Counts! I'm going to add that to my tbr, which is getting longer every day đ
Ugh I'm so glad she's got a man in her life that actually loves her and considers her the way she deserves. And if you ever write more of these two I would love to see this exploration of how Russell helps her feel beautiful and appreciated again. đ
I know! This reader really deserves it, especially from what we all saw with her ex-husband đ But I really do want to make a series with these two because it would be really wonderful to show how Russell treats her so differently than any other man she's had in her life and does make her feel "beautiful and appreciated again." I feel like it would also kinda be like what you did with the reader in Midnight Espresso đ
*snorts* yeah, like a mule, I'd imagine. đ But there's something so endearing about Russ wanting and insisting on fixing things around the house for her. Though of course I sympathize with her side of things. She just wants a nice healthy piece of her man. The showerhead can wait! đ
I am obsessed with fix-it Russell! Imagining him getting his large hands dirty for me, working around the house WHEWđ„”! And I can imagine him thinking of all the things this reader does at work and for her kids and him just wanting to make her life easier for when he's not there đ„č But oh yeah, no, she likes when he fixes things but she really missed him (I would too tbh).
Oh how I cackled! đ She's playing dirty and I love it lmao! Girl get him!
She knows just how to work her man đ She will go to any level to get what she wants đ I don't judge her for that because it's what we all want lol.
đđ Get himmmmm!
Man does not know what hit him đ
LMFAO. Okay, Russ took me out with that one. The audacity. đ€Łđ€Ł Side note: but I love the word "salacious," especially because it fits so well with most Jackles characters. lol
It's a little bit of payback for her making him all hot and bothered đ€Ł And oh yeah, I was really proud of that descriptor because we all know Ben or Dean would be throwing around some "salacious" winks đ
Omg yay he's moving in!! That's a big step and I love that for them.
Yes! It's another step in the right direction to give Russell a more permanent place in her life and her in his! đ€ Plus I like to think that she's the kind of person that would hate that Russell is more nomadic, doesn't have a place to call home, and that he doesn't eat a home cooked meal.
Girl Yessss - I love the body positivity in this storyverse so damn much. Thank you for continuing this giving me more Russell goodness, I really enjoy how you write him! đ
Aww thank you so much my lovely friend đ€ I'm so happy you enjoyed it! I really love this reader and Russell and I'm hoping that I'll get to write out more of their story and build their relationship more between this fic and Long As I Can See the Light soon! â€ïž

It's Not A Wet T-Shirt Contest
Pairing: Russell Shaw x f!reader, Reader POV
Prompt: âIs that supposed to be leaking?â
Requested by: @luci-in-trenchcoats
Summary:Â When your boyfriend comes into town to surprise you one weekend, you thought that youâd spend it together, turns out he has other plans. Reader is a single mom and is the niece of Teddi and Velma. Reader is described as curvy. (Technically takes place in my Long As I Can See The Light Universe, but can be read as a stand-alone.)
Tropes: Established Relationship
Word Count: 2.1K
Warnings: I'm going to label this 18+ because I made it more spicy than I meant it to, References to Sex, Sexual innuendo, Little bit of self-deprecating thought (reader), Cursing, Kissing, Idiots who love each other lots. I think that's everything?
Note: This is told from Reader's perspective. Any references to the reader is made using you or your. There is minimal use of y/n if any. I tried my best to proofread, but nobody's perfect. If you donât like, donât read, but if you do like, youâre my favorite!
Internal monologue is in italics and is in first person.
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A/N: Alright, y'all this is my first fic written for my prompt celebration requested by the wonderful @luci-in-trenchcoats đ ENJOY!

You took another long sip of coffee from your favorite hand-painted "World's Best Mom Mug" and tried to block out the symphony of the colorful curse words and banging coming from your upstairs master bathroom.
When your boyfriend showed up this morning out of the blue to surprise you, this was not what you expected to be doing. Well, his appearance was a surprise to you, but you had a sneaking suspicion that your Aunt Teddi and her wife Velma had gotten a heads up that Russell was coming. They'd shown up about an hour before Russell had to take your son and daughter for a movie and a sleepover at their house.
But the bigger surprise was your current dilemma.
You'd expected to be tangled up with Russell in bed for hours trying to convince him to never leave you again, not be waiting downstairs while he tried to install a new shower head in your master bathroom.
You only blamed yourself.
You'd let it slip that the water pressure wasn't quite right and something that you'd thought would take a plumber twenty minutes had turned into an all day affair for Russell.Â
Instead of taking you to bed, Russell had dragged you out to his car and to the nearest hardware store where he let you pick out a new shower head and where he got supplies, all the while you told him that he didn't need to, and Russell only kissed away the frown on your lips leaving you wanting more.
You always wanted more.
Russell and you had been together for five and a half months, and each time he left you found yourself wanting more.Â
More of him and more time.
It was frustrating to be with a man who had a job that would pull him out of your arms as quickly as heâd appeared and leave your bed cold once more.Â
It had been cold before and you didnât want to go back to that. Didnât want to be reminded of the cold bed over the final years of your marriage when your husbandâs favorite phrases echoed through your bedroom after you put your children to bed:
âIâm tiredâ and âNot tonight baby, I have to work.â
Those last few years of your marriage were frustrating and did little to boost your self-esteem. Especially when your husband made you think you were annoying him and made you feel stupid for wanting more.Â
With Russell there was no such thing.
When the two of you started dating and Russell realized exactly what your husband had done to you, he'd spent every waking moment making you feel more beautiful than you ever had. He listened to you, understood you, and did more for you than your husband had done in all the years that you'd been married.
But each time he left, Russell always took a little bit of yourself with him. You didn't sleep well when he was gone doing God knows what, God knows where, only that when he finally called or showed up to tell you he was okay, you didn't let go of him for hours.
There's another loud bang followed by a string of curses that make you sigh into your mug.
For fucks sake, that stupid showerhead is getting more action than I am.
You loved your boyfriend to bits, but you hated how stubborn he was sometimes.
You straighten up from where you lounged against the countertop in your kitchen, taking one more sip of coffee, before you make the trek through your living room and up the stairs towards your bedroom.Â
This wasn't the first time that Russell fixed something in your home. He liked it when you made him a list of things to do when he visited, things like cleaning the gutters, nailing down the front step that always caught underfoot, mowing the lawn, etc. Things that Russell wanted to do for you because he knew how busy you got at work and with your children.
It made you love him more, because youâd never met someone so selfless before.Â
When you enter the bathroom, Russell is standing in your shower, just inside the large glass double doors, soaking wet, and holding a wrench.
His usual easy smile has slipped into a frustrated frown while he stares at the bright silver shower head hanging on the wall.Â
âI see things are going well.â You snort out a laugh, admiring the scene before you.Â
Russellâs dark hair drips forward in lazy strands against his cheeks, his t-shirt clings to his chest like a second skin, catching in the dips and curves of your boyfriendâs muscular torso, and his usual blue jeans are stained a dark navy. The edge of his t-shirt pulls up from the top of his jeans with the stretch of his arms, giving you a view of the delicious stripe of skin just below his belly button.
For the love of french toast, the guy could win a wet t-shirt contest without batting one of those ridiculously perfect eyelashes of his.
At this point you were still trying to figure out how the hell you landed this man and why the hell he kept coming back for more of you.
âSmooth as silk.â Russell gives you a lazy smile that makes you feel like butter on a pile of buttermilk biscuits. âI just finished.â
 âReally?âÂ
âMhmm.â
âHuh.â You take a step closer to admire his handiwork, so close that you can feel the warmth of his breath ghost along the side of your face, making goosebumps trail over your skin. All it does is remind you of what the two of you could be doing instead of standing inside of your walk-in shower fully clothed and the things the two of you had done in this very shower the last time he was in town. Â
"Is that supposed to be leaking?" You ask, pointing to the place where the plate of the shower head fastens to the wall and where there is a trickle of water dancing down the white subway tile backsplash.
"Oh shit." Russell sighs, his shoulders drooping when he notices the stream. âI can fix that."
You note his sheepish smile. âRus, please let me call a plumber. Youâve been up here for two hours!âÂ
âNo way! They overcharge you and itâs what Iâm here for!â He argues.
Maybe I should try a different approach.
âRus.â You say sweetly, putting both of your hands on his stomach. Russellâs familiar green eyes flick to your hands as you begin to move them up the wet t-shirt. âWhen you showed up today I thought weâd be doing something a little different with our time.âÂ
Russell swallows. âBaby-â
âAnd the longer you stay in here-â You breathe taking a step forward as you continue to move your hands up, tracing the hardened muscles beneath your palms. âThe less time we have together.â You gently press a kiss to the space where his shirt meets the base of his neck and you can feel the bob of his throat as he swallows again.Â
âI-â He tries again, but you feel his hands come down to the curve of your hips to ground himself there.Â
âDonât you want to spend time with me?â You murmur into his skin, pressing your chest against his as your hands work up to the back of his neck. The water from his clothes soaks into yours, but youâre not cold.Â
âYouâre fighting dirty.â He half groans, but you donât feel bad. Judging by the way his hands have begun to squeeze your hips and pull you tighter against him, Russell was enjoying this as much as you were.Â
âBut it always works.â You purr against his throat with a smirk.Â
âFuck, baby I-âÂ
âYeah?âÂ
Your smirk grows the more you tease him. By now you could feel your own heartbeat thudding in your chest calling out to his and despite how cold Russellâs wet clothes are, heat was dancing along your skin.Â
âI really want-â Thereâs a grit along Russellâs voice, as if heâs trying to hold on to some shred of self-control.
You loved that you were able to do this to him, it made you feel powerful and sexy. Two things that you hadnât felt in a long time.Â
âHmm?â You moan softly, playing with the hair at the nape of his neck while your lips continue their path along his skin.
He groans. âI really want to do this for you, but youâre making it kinda hard-âÂ
âReally?â You mutter nipping along his jaw. âThatâs what Iâm making hard?â
Russell pulls back from you, holding your wrists in his large hands. But he looks far from angry. His green eyes flash a darkened pine, and dance with mischief. âBaby, trust me. There is nothing more that I want to do than show you how much I missed you.âÂ
âThen why-" You begin to say.
âBecause I know that the second I do that, weâre not going to do anything else the rest of the time Iâm here. And I want to do this for you.â Russellâs eyes shift a little lighter. He releases your wrists and cups your cheek with his large hand. You can see the love you have for Russell reflected back at you in his gaze
You sigh again a little disappointed. Today really wasnât going the way you wanted it to. âBut I missed you.âÂ
âI could tell.â He smirks. âMaybe your shower head would last a little longer if you didn't wear it out." Russell sends you a salacious wink that makes you blush bright red.
âShut up!â You slap him on the shoulder, cheeks flaming.Â
Russell only smirks wider at you. âYou know⊠Iâve got a solution for that.â
âOh do you?â You ask innocently.Â
Finally, weâre getting somewhere.
Russell hesitates, his hand still stroking your cheek softly. "I could move in."
It was the last thing that you were expecting him to say.
âSee I've been thinking about this for a bit." Russell clears his throat. âI know you canât move because of the kids but... I want to be here in your life. I hate leaving you and each time I get done with a job I always find myself driving back to you. I don't want to be anywhere else.â
Your mouth is still open in shock, eyes wide. You couldnât find the ability to speak.
In the months that followed your divorce youâd been on a couple of dates before you met Russell, where the mere mention of your kids sent your dates scuttling into the shadows or back to whatever swamp they crawled out of, but here, standing in front of you was a man who didnât just want you, he wanted you, and he wanted your children.Â
It was a combination that you thought youâd never find, and then youâd met Russell. A man who not only loved you, he made you feel beautiful, alive, happy, and seen in a way that you hadnât been in years.Â
Not to mention that both of your children absolutely loved Russell, and he did a good job of scaring off your skeevy ex who refused to come around whenever Russell was in town because the last time Russell had broken his nose and threatened other bodily harm.
Russellâs soft smile drops a little the longer you remain silent. âBut if you think thatâs a bad idea or if you think itâs too fast-â
You pull him down to you for the searing kiss that youâd wanted all day long, feeling the drag of his beard against your soft skin, and the warm pillow of his lips moving in tandem with yours.Â
His hands run along the curves of your body, trailing fire in their wake, the same curves that youâd hidden under long cardigans and oversized clothes, the ones that you cursed each time you caught a glimpse of yourself in the mirror. But not since youâd met Russell.Â
Not when heâd taught you that each blemish or curve you once cursed was something that could make him lose his last shred of self control and in turn, make Russell lose himself in everything you were.Â
âItâs not too fast! I hate when you leave. I hate waking up in my bed each morning and not having you there holding me. â You breathe before you kiss him again, soaking in everything that is Russell as you do. The roughness of his hands pushing up the shirt hung low on your hips, the smell of mint and gunmetal, the taste of the coffee he had this morning, and gentle drag of his wet hair against your cheeks that dip between the two of your faces when you kiss. âI want you here with me all the time.â
âThen Iâll stay.â Russell smiles so wide you can feel the click of his teeth against yours when he pulls you back in for a kiss.Â
âWait.â You smirk, leaning your forehead against his, your hands gently cupping his bearded cheeks. "If I say yes, I have one condition."
"Anything."
"Please let me call a plumber."
Russell rolls his eyes at you, but squeezes you tighter against him, green eyes flashing with mischief. âNot a chance baby.â

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Video Killed the Radio Star - Tape #5

A/N: Hey, hey... that's not an earthquake!! It's me... Em. I was feeling a little sad because this series gets so much love despite being on hiatus. I love everyone for being so sweet and letting me take my sweet little time! This chapter... is rather short because I feel like a longer chapter would be rambling, and I want the next one to be GUT-WRENCHING. Let me know what you think!- Love, Em
Link to the: Video Killed the Radio Star Remake Masterlist Link to the Ao3: Video Killed the Radio Star Link to the: Yee olde masterlist
Previous Chapter: Tape #4 > Next Chapter: Coming Soon...
WARNING: Hospital, PTSD from sexual assault, Reader tries to punch a nurse, gauze mittens to the rescue, fear of drug addiction, mention of fatherly abandonment and bullying, guilt, a hospital bed, Spencer reid being... pookie i fear.
Pairing: Season7!Spencer Reid x VKTRSFem!Reader
Tape Contents: Waking up to a bunch of hands on you in the hospital doesn't go over well with you. Spencer delivers on a promise he made to a little girl, and then some.
Word Count: 2,649
March 7, 20XX
You can hear the beeping of the EKG machine before your motherâs voiceâa soft, droning sound that maintains a steady tempo. You can count it, remembering something Adeline told you once about the best tempo for CPRâ 120 beats per minute, stayinâ alive. But this sound does not match that of the Bee Gees. The thought makes you smile; your lips twitch before your eyes open.Â
Your mother has her hand gripping your limp one, calling your name as she watches you stir awake. When your eyes open, they donât go straight to her or the EKG machine; they stare blankly at the ceiling. You stay like that for a moment, your fingers twitching against your motherâs palm.Â
Your body feels like itâs moving through frames of air, your head rolling down to look at your mother with a rolling dizziness. Giving her a lazy smile, she throws her arms around your upper torso. âIâm sorry, Iâm sorry, Iâm sorry.â Her sobs make you feel guilty at first, your hazy brain not catching up all the way. Everything seems to be broken up in tragic mosaic tiles.Â
Heather, pink, pain, blood, brown eyes.Â
Your motherâs touch leaves you feeling heavy. When she pulls back from her emotional embrace, she places her hands firmly on your shoulders. You gasp sharply at the sensation, shaking your head quickly, your mouth filling with cotton. You watch her eyebrows knit together in fearful confusion, and one of her hands comes up to stroke the side of your cheek, hoping to soothe your fear.Â
The feeling leaves a trail of rageful fire against your cheek, and you canât stop yourself as you smack her hand away, eyes wild and crazed, as you let out a strangled sound. âNo!â Your yell alerts the nurses to rush in as fast as possible.Â
Your motherâs hands fly away from you at your yell, stammering softly, âI hugged her, I didn't-ââ But the rest of her sentence drowns out as one of the nurseâs hands touches your left forearm, it's a graze of a touch. Her fingers are soft and steady, and it makes you feel sick as you pull your forearm away from her at the speed of light.Â
âDonât touch me!â You cry out, your cheeks flushing, and the sound of your heart pounding in your ears. You can feel the blood rushing in themâ hear it as clear as dayâthe EKG pounds away: Beep, Beep, Beep, Beeps in unsteady notes.Â
One of the nurses moves the IV stand out of her way, her fingers wrapping around the edge of the hospital bed, her tender green eyes looking down at you with pity. âHey, itâs okay.â Her hand is reaching over the bed to fix one of your blankets, taking care to avoid any contact with your body. âYouâre safe.âÂ
But her hand is too close, and you can feel the warmth of an invisible palm on your inner thighâ unwanted and vile. Your fists ball up, panting hard, as you swing at the nurse. Your fist misses her by an inch, and your lips part to scream at her, but you can feel someoneâs hands actually on you now. One nurse is grabbing your shoulders, trying to pull you away from her colleague and push you back down on the hospital bed.Â
The action makes you downright vicious, your mother screaming for you to calm down as you thrash against the hands on your shoulders. Overlapping voices swarm, but all you can hear is the pounding in your ears and your heaving pants. Another nurse rushes into the room, needle in hand, and stands at the ready as the other three nurses manage to hold your thrashing body down.Â
The nurse with the needle is quick to administer what you can only assume is an opioid. It works fast like one, a warm comfort and then a welcoming darkness.Â
When you wake up, you can see that your outburst from earlier has gotten you some special treatment. Your hands are padded and wrapped in a gauze-made mitten. You sigh as you flex your fingers weekly against the gauze, feeling the soft, scratchy material against your knuckles as you look around the room. Your mother is outside, head down as she talks with someone on the phone. You can barely hear her hushed voice, but you catch the sound of âSheâs never been violentâ before you decide itâs best if you donât hear the rest of her conversation.Â
Guilt creeps into your stomach because itâs true. You werenât violent. You made cookies when people were sad and talked with your friends about how you thought every fight could be avoided with a good sit-down. The idea of peaceful talk seems naive now; no good talk could stop the seething rage from boiling in your blood. Â
Were you still kind? Were you ever kind or just painfully sheltered? When did your sweetness leave you? Would it be a temporary leave or one in perpetuity?Â
Did all of your goodness bleed out of your lip or the âxâ on your chest? Or was it seeping out of the broken bones of your ankle? You feel like crying at the onslaught of questionsâquestions of goodness, sweetness, blood, death, and rage. Two stood out above the rest: when will this be over? Is this just the beginning?
The thought of the rest of what made you⊠you, being stripped away until you were bare, made you start to cry. A soft sob left you as you numbly stare at flowers in vases and cards of well-wishes on the hospitalâs windowsill. Your mother must have heard your sobs because she was standing by the side of your bed with heartbreak in her eyes.
You turned your head toward her, your mitted hands reaching toward herâtoward comfort. But when you lift your hands, she flinches. You can see the shock on her face as her shoulders slowly relax. Her fingers nervously reach out for you, and she tentatively wraps her arms around you. She held you like you were precious china, like she was scared of scratching the surface of your skin.Â
Your tears slow to a stop as you feel her arms around your upper torso, a numb feeling consuming your yearning heart. Some comfort this is. The voice in your head leaves you with a bitter taste on your tongue, and saliva comes to the surface of your tongue as you try to swallow away the feeling. She smiles as she pulls away, her hands smoothing your hair carefully. âIâll go get you something to eat?â she offers with a grin.Â
You nod, a stray tear falling down your cheek. Before she leaves, she cleans your face of tears with a Kleenex, and then she helps you find something on the menu, and sheâs gone.Â
The beeping from the EKG no longer brings you comfort, but the room's silence would be deafening without it, so for that, youâre grateful. You eye your ankles under the blankets, one clearly in a cast. You sigh, imagining how long that will take to heal.Â
Wanting to see something happier, your eyes flit over to the window sill again. You see assortments of flowers scattered on the windowsill, and you hate that the sight doesnât bring the joy that flowers usually do. Your eyes stray, staring down a red rose. You sniffle softly, forcing yourself to look away.Â
Looking down at your hands, you wonder how to get out of these gauze mittens. You lick your lips carefully, your tongue tracing the edges of a tiny bandage on your lip. You bring one of your hands up to your lips, your teeth ready to try and tear the gauze off your hands. Just before you can attempt your âultimately foolishâ plan, a gentle knock on the doorframe spooks you.Â
Turning your head, you see⊠Spencer Reid? You blink at him, then again, making sure you arenât hallucinating. Why is he here?Â
âJJ, um, is on the fifth floor.â You give him a look, eyebrows knitting together before you realize you mustâve said that question out loud.Â
You donât know what to say to answer, simply staring at him with a shocked expression. You werenât complaining, of course. He had saved you from⊠that place. But that didnât warrant a check-in⊠did it? You werenât sure how things like this worked. Honestly, you would have been thrilled never finding out how things like this work, but that option is lost on you now.Â
Spencer rocks back and forth on the soles of his feet, eyes shifting through the room slowly before he perks up and reaches for the messenger bag on his hip. Sitting up straighter, you try to peek at its contents before he pulls out a tattered orange stuffed catâ Bee. Seeing the stuffed cat, your hands instinctively reach for it, and your cheeks feel hot with embarrassment as Spencerâs eyes take in your wrapped-up hands.Â
Spencer offers you a warm smile, walking toward you to place the plush cat beside you on the bed. Looking down at your hands, he whispers, âDid you hurt your hands?âÂ
You feel the urge to stuff them under the blankets and tell him itâs nothing, but lying feels pointless. âAh, no. I,â you lick your lips, a pit forming in your stomach, âI tried to punch a nurse.â Your voice drops into a whisper, avoiding his gaze and looking solely at Bee.Â
Spencerâs eyebrows raise, tilting his head to the side to get a better look at your hands. He tries to stop his lips from forming a smile, but he can't help it. He had walked in on you trying to chew through gauze. âI would not recommend chewing through that.âÂ
âWell,â You scoff, your gaze lifting to meet his with an exasperated scoff. âI donât have a lot of options.âÂ
Spencer sucks some air through his teeth, shaking his head. âNo, you donât. We can always ask for help.âÂ
You blink, eyes leaving his face to look down at your hands. âYou think?â You canât imagine one of the nurses from earlier giving you the okay. But maybe if they reassess your condition, theyâll agree to it. Youâre sure all the fight left in your body left the second they administered that sedative, right?Â
The thought makes your throat tight, and you can feel your fingers twitching nervously under the gauze. Why did the fight leave you after they administered the sedative? Shouldnât youâve come back stronger? Your eyes shift back and forth across the room, your nerves getting the best of you as you ponder the question. Though a soft voice, sweet and sinister, and not yours, answers for you, âThey gave you what you wanted.â
Spencer can see the tension building in your shoulders, your eyes nervously searching the room, and his chest tightening with emotion. He knows that anxious feeling. He can see it in your eyes. That desperate, silent plea for an answer to a question you havenât spoken. For once, he finds himself without words, not knowing what to say.Â
And while he sometimes struggles to read the room correctly⊠he can read the lingering question on your mind. It's a question heâs had since the Dilaudid. The same one that came into his mind after his father abandoned him, after being strung up on a flag pole by his classmates, haunting him all his lifeâ Whatâs wrong with me?
He can hear your heavy breathing as he decides to speak, but thereâs that rushing sound again. You listen to the muffled sound of his voice near you as you try to snap yourself out of your self-made spiral. Eventually, some words got through: âShould I get the nurse?âÂ
Your head spins at how fast your lips say, âNo!â The sound of your shaky voice makes him freeze in his tracks. Your sight wavers momentarily, squeezing your eyes shut and opening them slowly to look at his concerned face. You sigh as they focus on him, and all you can see is his warm, honey-colored gaze. His eyes betrayed concern amongst their softness, compassion mixing with a soft look of apprehension. âNo,â You repeat, softer, hating the idea of scaring him further. âCan you just...â Thereâs a pause, your eyes narrowing slightly. âWait?â
Spencer slowly nods, stuffing his hands awkwardly into his pockets as quiet beeping fills the room. He wants to ask how youâre feeling, but he has a feeling he already knows. Heâs experienced that look in your eyes, the dim light begging to grow brighter, how your bottom lip quivered before you told him not to get the nurse. He knows offering a comforting touch is the wrong move, and heâs not keen on that idea anyway.
âIâm sorry.â Your voice hits him like a train. Its ragged tone oozes self-hate. Upon hearing it, he pushes out a breath, his awkwardness fading into sympathy. Â
âI wasnât upset about anything.â He replies in a calm tone, âIâm the one who showed up here with no warning.â His eyes flick over to Bee by your side. âI was just following the orders of a little girl.âÂ
You glance over at Bee again before nodding. âVery dutiful of you.âÂ
âItâs what Iâm known for.âÂ
âNot the gun and badge?âÂ
Spencer sucks in a sharp breath through his teeth, âMy skills with guns are lacking, and as for the badge, it only gets me so far.â He watches as a slow grin breaks out on your face, and your eyes drift over to his for a moment. He feels positively elated. Spencer decides that now is a good time for you to be free of those mittens on your hands.Â
The nurses quickly reassess your condition as you throw soft and squeaking apologies their way. They quickly brush it under the table, repeating reassuring comments as they snip away at the gauze wrapped around your hands.Â
Youâre stretching out your fingers when Spencerâs fingers tentatively wrap around the strap of his bag. âWell, I suppose I should be going.âÂ
Your eyes widen at that, and you try to hide the quiet feeling of disappointment with a soft smile. âOh.âÂ
Spencer can see how your eyes cast down at your hands and how your posture slumps. His fingers slip into his bag before he has time to think about it, rummaging around for a business card. He fidgets with the card for a moment, his long fingers tracing the edge of the cardstock. He hasnât given anyone his card in a while, fearing it would backfire on him.Â
But as he looks at your downcast expression, his heart aches, and heâs striding forward with his hand outstretched toward you. âIf you ever need to talk.â Your eyebrows rise, and your fingers slowly take the card with a nervous expression.
âThank you,â You mutter, studying the card in your fingers a moment longer.Â
Spencer nods, stammering a little before he huffs out a quiet, âOf course.â Then he points toward the hallway, backing away from the bed. âIâll see you.â he doesnât know why he feels so tense, but he does. Your softening gaze made his heart beat a little faster than usual. You raise a hand, waving goodbye. âSee you.â Once heâs gone, you find yourself gazing down at the card in your hands. Your thumb traces his name on the card, smiling at the sight. You know youâll probably never call, but the offer is sweet. It reminds you that not everyone is afraid of you, and the thought makes you feel a little lighter as you place the card on the hospital bed tray. Likely to be lost among get-well-soons and flowers as you close your eyes with a lighter heart, waiting for your mother again.

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Apparently Sprunki is getting a remaster and Nyanio has said that that they'll be replacing Wenda bc she's the worst of the content farms
Thoughts? Both in general and related to the AU
oh god, Okay opinion time. Itâs a long one folks⊠Itâs gonna get maybe a bit emotional and please donât take my word as gospel or something, Have opinions please! I also use âyouâ alot when Iâm not referring to any specific person/ when I refer to a general person so apologies if I sound accusatory or anything- Itâs a habit of speech.
Okay actual stuff under the cut.
Dude can do what he wants, I already know of this news and choice (Honestly I really try not to think about it because it bums me out), The choice to abandon her is understandable considering like⊠The horrible content that has been made of her and not wanting to use the character anymore. I do despise content farms and what they do to media in general (I used to watch people discuss how bad theyâve gotten in recent yearsâ MAN I also like TADC so IâVE BEEN THROUGH THE WRINGER TWICE MAN. It kind of hurts to see Sprunki so often in them that I stopped watching videos regarding dissing content farms.)
I kind of understand (Though heavily disagree with)people watching some of it in Sprunkiâs case because of the lack of story driven media if you only focus on content on YouTube. Iâve tried watching like⊠I think GameToonâs Sprunki and just was like âMan⊠These characters deserve so much better than this, IâVE SEEN BETTER DONE WITH THESE CHARACTERS!!! ON TUMBLR!!!â and not to mention them literally stealing OCs and me not having the mental fortitude to handle like⊠How content farmed contentâs tone usually is.
(I WILL REITERATE, I do not think you are a bad person if you watch GameToonâs content and like it-
I just do not like what content farms do in general for a mediaâs reputation and search results. ESPECIALLY REGARDING SPRUNKI as the creator was literally DOXXED over it as far as I know. Nobody deserves that for just creating things. Itâs frustrating and heartbreaking when it happens.
Though watching farms does unfortunately support them and thus they make more and more usually low tier, low brow and if Iâm being a pretentious artist⊠Heartless content. Made for a profit off of something they donât actually like as much as who theyâre targeting. If they did care they wouldnât have taken other peopleâs ocs. They would have been consistent with characterization and themesâSHIT Theyâd probably try to have the SAME VAS for some characters!!!! I only watched some of it solely because someone on the sprunki tag said they gave Jevin a âhot voiceâ and I ALSO HATE HOW THEY MAKE HIM A VILLAIN A MAJORITY OF THE TIME AS FAR AS IâVE SEEN.)
Actually the whole horrible thing that happened to the creator and a video discussing it is how I got into Sprunki- I felt terrible and went âWhy donât I give into the impulse to draw something from this? Iâm sure making something nice of it will be better than⊠Whatever horrors get spat out for ad revenue.â and I did! I think I do have a kind of underdog bias with a comment under one of the most popular mixes with the original mod going âWhy they never use the blue one? :(â or something so Jevin became my favorite and first to be drawn- With the rest following because Iâd genuinely gotten so attached to all these funky little guys!
And regarding Wenda in my AU? Sheâs not going anywhere.
I would understand if the creator went âPlease stop using her in anything.â I would respect that wish (albeit tearfully) but he didnât he just told people to behave- Not act a fool and such which I donât think making an AU is thatâŠ. Itâs just making your take on a media you like as a fan. Iâve already like⊠Pack bonded with the OG characters and WENDA INCLUDED. I have so much planned for her sheâs too important to it and also I think one of my friends would probably get really sad if I ever did just scrap her. I truly just want justice to be done for her (aka GOOD MEDIA THAT CARES ABOUT ITâS CHARACTERS) because I think sheâs probably one of the potentially most interesting of the OG bunch if you take away any outside media (Like questions of âwhy did she do what she did in Horror mode?â, âHow was she like previously? Was it a sudden snap or something a long time coming?â) and I think any answer to it is interesting!
I also kind of hate the reductive take of âToo many people do this interpretation of [character], I hate it now!! Iâm doing a different one!â I see sometimes so I donât want to hear about that, Sometimes thatâs just the natural assumptions one would make about THE SAME CHARACTERS IN A MEDIA⊠And thatâs an entirely different gripe unrelated to this! Like shush⊠There are fans of that interpretation and Iâd rather you make yours WITHOUT disrespecting otherâs interps.
Anyways summary is:
DO WHAT YOU WANT FOREVER!!!!! (as LONG AS YOU ARENâT HURTING/DISRESPECTING PEOPLE!!!!) Love your medias!! Make your arts!! And Sunshine Suburbia! Wenda is staying because⊠I love her too much. c,: And again DO WHAT YOU WANT FOREVER!!!!

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